#also i think i have dyslexia

[oifaaa]

Just sitting here thinking about my 8th birthday when my dad got me a fairy book as a gift and I got so upset that I threw it against the wall and wouldn't stop crying until he got me the gift I actually wanted which was a coin counting machine - note I had no coins to put in the coin counting machine I just thought it looked so cool

#i was very reject feminity as a child #that on top of my undiagnosed adhd and dyslexia #meant a pink sparkly book about fairys was the worst thing you could have possibly got me #but yeah thinking about this now #bc im actually sitting here reading the illiad for fun #oh how times change #also children are weird #anybody else ask for weird things as kids or was it just me

[opens-up-4-nobody]

If accommodations no longer help you, I'm curious at what point they stopped being helpful.

#bc for me: once u get to the graduate level its like sink or swim bitch #u have to fucking read and nothing is gonna make it easier so fucking read or find a different job #i dont kno how u accomodate a grad student. like u have things that have to happen. u cant just let someone not do their job they got hired #to do. so like u just select for ppl who arent extremely disabled bc i just dont think u could do it otherwise #u would b too bad at ur job. every prof i say im dyslexic to is like: oh! r u registered with the disability office? #and im like no. wtf would they even do for me. im sure i could get lots of accommodation stuff but functionally i just have to suck it up #and work harder. but im also fucked up about having a learning disability so like maybe im just being difficult #idk. most ppl dont wanna do jobs that they weren't designed for and cause them so much pain. but like i said. im sorta fucked up #learning disability #dyslexia #dyscalculia #adhd #dyspraxia #dysgraphia #poll #polls #unrelated

[bonefall]

Who are the POVs going to be for BB Dawn of the Clans? Is it still going to be Gray Wing, Thunder Storm and Clear Sky or are there changes? Also about Gray Wing, after clarifying that he is a gib/the Clans' third gender you were initially referring to Gray Wing with "they" but lately you've gone back to using "he", is this intentional or just getting mixed up by his gender in the books like how you've called Heartstar "he" by accident before?

The POVs for BB!DOTC are probably going to remain the same! I haven't fully decided though. If I end up actually making a basic structure for Parkmew and Townmew, I may want to include some Bumble chapters so you can be in her head as she's live-translating. I think that would be SUPER fun to see and write.

Especially if I cheated a bit and just made one language very similar to English, and the other very similar to Spanish. Enough to just cat-ify some sayings and talk about how she tries to translate the nuance in certain lines. Give her like, 3 or 4 chapters in the arc for political meetings.

(I don't speak Spanish but Trout does and I can bother him VICIOUSLY for cool phrases. Also it would be amazing to watch her desperately trying to translate the furious insults at the First Battle, turning from simple translator into mediator, only for it to spiral out of control and escalate into violence)

Anyway, on the pronouns

I often mess up on the characters whose gender was swapped from canon over to the rewrite, whoops. I correct it as soon as I notice it, but I try not to spend a lot of time double checking and proofreading answered asks and such because I will get sucked down into self-corrections

(You will also notice I tend to mess up numbers/simple arithmetic, cardinal directions, and lefts and rights. Those are part of the fact I have Dyscalculia. The pronouns are because I'm Stupid)

For Heartstar I did initially conceive of her as a he/him lesbian, but then decided to just commit to full she/her because she is transfem and I figured that would make it clearer. In the Tawny post I goofed and called her the wrong pronouns because for a brief moment I was thinking of canon Tigerheartstar, but corrected it when it was pointed out.

In-universe she is a transmolly, "yaow" gender.

Gray Wing is a weirder case though. He is 100% a Gib, the Clan Culture 3rd gender, close to nonbinary for us. They/them or xe/xim would be closest for us.

But I see them so much as a "DAD" in my head, I imagine an uncle Iroh type when I rotate them. Fathergender. So I'm going with He/xe/they.

Make no mistake though, his gender is Gib.

#Bone babble #I misgendered Phoenix Wright the other day because I was voice acting for my partner and for some reason I couldn't stop saying 'Ms Wright' #It happened like three times #The entire court is committing a microaggression im sorry phoenix... #I don't think misspeaking or spelling is part of dyscalculia but there are some weird things that are related to it #a lot of people think it's JUST math dyslexia but it's not. It's a recall and spacial reasoning problem #I also have a really bad time with faces and names irl

[aroaceleovaldez]

actually another thing I don’t ever see mentioned with PJO (both in fandom and in series) - ADHD is a disability! Dyslexia is a disability! There’s some acknowledgement to this in the early books but later on especially into HoO and TOA there’s next to no note of it! Nearly every character in it is disabled! And yet that aspect still manages to be forgotten about! Or if acknowledged, later into the series it only becomes a running gag rather than taking it seriously or even treating it casually.

I really do hope in the next book, especially if there’s focus on Nico’s disabilities at all, that his ADHD/dyslexia (and also in Nico’s case, autistic-coding) aren’t downplayed to be “less” of a disability or not disabilities at all because they don’t physically manifest in the same ways as other disabilities. I really miss that aspect of acknowledgement from the first series so it’d be nice to see it brought back.

#pjo #percy jackson #nico di angelo #riordanverse #i think that's part of why i prefer the first series so much to the later series - besides the awkward change of tones w/ narrator POVs #because Rick kind of dropped the ball with remembering the characters are supposed to be adhd/dyslexic unless for a joke #cause in the first series we see a LOT of how being adhd/dyslexic affects Percy's life! #and also some notes of how it affects Annabeth! but in HoO we dont really see ANY of that for any of the other argo 2 crew members #and then in TOA it's basically forgotten entirely #i have a lot of opinions about the quality drop between the first and later series #but the weird disappearance of acknowledging that nearly the ENTIRE CAST is disabled and neurodivergent is a big one #though also dont get me started on the weird technicality given in the first series of #''well TECHNICALLY its not adhd/dyslexia! it's DEMIGOD POWERS that happen to manifest EXACTLY LIKE ADHD/DYSLEXIA'' #and then every single book contradicts that by just referring it to adhd/dyslexia (if it gets mentioned at all) #adhd #autistic nico #disabled nico

[milkweedman]

Resisting the urge to carve myself a distaff from one of the evergreen boughs ive dragged home and learn medieval in-hand distaff spinning. Do i need to do any of this ? No. Am i happy with supported spinning ? Yes ! Am i probably gonna do it anyway ? ... also yes

#we talk a lot about the rabbit hole of fiber arts #but i dont think we talk enough about the rabbit hole of different spinning tools and techniques... #so far id say ive gotten proficient in drop spindling wheel spinning and supported spinning with russian style spindles #really want to get into either tahklis or charkah wheels #bc im gonna be visiting my wonderful fiancé in india and hes still gonna have work for most if not all of the time im there #so my plan is to spin a LOT. hoping to get really proficient in cotton spinning bc ive always really sucked at that #and then i really wanna learn medieval style spinning as well #if i was an academic i could easily see myself devoting my life to writing a book about spinning tools through the ages #i am so endlessly fascinated by it #but also really bad at research and have a pretty crippling case of dyslexia #i wanna try. all the tools #it always feels like the way to get closer to the past is to spin like them #since that has been THE constant human activity since quite possibly pre-homo sapiens times #i dont know how much cloth the neanderthals wove or if they were more inclined to use animal skins #but we do know they made yarn and they were good at it #sadly my hands cant do cordage. fucks em up in about a minute flat #but iirc we've found stone spindle whorls which may have been used for spinning #stone whorls can also be used for hand drills and fire starters and things like that so idk #anyway. i just want to know SO badly #spinning

[fluffydice]

It turns out the KuboSai fake marriage au is now also a story about how the genius of many neurodivergent people occurs because of their ND-ness, rather than in spite of like people love saying

(Also I gave Aren dyslexia so I could make a parallel between Aren being the one with colored lenses and Kusuo now having clear ones. Everyone say thank you @oatmealcrisp-freak for the headcanon)

#I am actually very aware of the fact that colored lenses are highly disputed in terms of their aid #but not only do I tend to trust word of mouth from people who actually have dyslexia over studies #I also think Aren would like having the colored lenses because he’s still a punk at heart who likes to stand out

[tardisteam1]

Mood for today is sad because plans I made before I became a hockey fan have made it so I can’t watch either games tonight :((

#pwhl #like c’mom past me couldn’t you have had a vision and stopped this?? we’re socially awkward what were you doing making plans anyway?? #to be fair it’s with friends I haven’t seen in ages so it’s noy that I don’t want to go out I do really want to see them but I also really #want to watch hockey and I’m annoyed I can’t do both #makes it worse I was going to get to double screen because the games are actually at a good time for my time zone and I haven’t had that #double screen excitement in ages :(( #if I find myself in the bathroom catching half a period I’ll let y’all know because I think it will be funny #like we’re going clubbing so there’s 99% chance someone could either be necking off or crying because of a break up and I’ll be sat their #on the edge of the closed toilet seat because Boston have a lane to score #ignore the tag typos pls my dyslexia is popping of today

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Thoughts on baby sasunaru, like academy days where Sasuke realizes ‘shoot, I like this idiot’ after Naruto is carried into the class room laughing by disheveled ANBU who had to chase him around the town for 3 hours.

Anon I've been thinking abt this all day

#listen. i love sasuke a lot. and i see a lot of hate for him and i cant stand it #im obsessed with how sasuke sees naruto. he looks at naruto and naruto makes the world feel less terrible #that is literally canon. but at the same time their dynamic in the academy is so weird bc like they do not talk but they gaze #longingly at eachother. its so weird. so i think to make sense of this i would say that sasuke thinks naruto is fun #he likes his sort of carefree off the walls nature which is something he feels he cant show. i also dont understand sasuke's intelligence #like were told hes smart but he also struggles with the same stuff as naruto. thus i must assign him auditory processing issues/maybe #dyslexia. bc i like to inflict dyslexia upon my faves. and i like the idea of iruka seating them together so that he can give special #attention to naruto and to sasuke with sasuke having to speak up abt it. but thats just me making stuff up. i also like the idea that #sasuke just like blank faced glares so much to cover the fact that he has no idea wtf is happening. like he's super smart but his brain is #on a delay lmao. anyway i just love the idea of sasuke wanting to be a dumb kid doing dumb kid stuff with naruto to the extent that he #forgets his anger. and being 100% on board for narutos stupid ideas #uzumaki naruto #uchiha sasuke #hatake kakashi #umino iruka #haruno sakura #is this the 1st time ive drawn sakura? maybe. i have complcated feeling abt her for obv reasons. bad writing i mean #naruto #also i say sasuke thinks naru is fun. im looking past the fact that they feel eachothers pain. more why do they vibe together personality #wise. does that make sense? maybe idk. i just love them a lot #oh god i wish i could edit my tags at the start to clarify what i mean. but god i dont wanna rewrite this

[saspitite]

actual childish behavior

"see! i got it right this time! you can stop saying im a transmisogynistic piece of shit because i did it right once!" like how does that not come off as snarky and bitter

#sas says #also 'pergstrogen' huh. #normally i dont come for peoples spelling because that can very easily turn into mocking dyslexia. i have dislexia. it sucks #but i dont think he does #i see that as more of a case of laziness #or disrespect

[allaboutbethsblog]

my mum was shocked because I said in the interview "grades doesn't define your intelligence"

she said, "Intelligence is a big word for you"

Is that right what I said? Or is it "grades doesn't define who you are?"

#the college knows about me having dyslexia i forgot to say that in my kther post lol #so i struggle to say words like intelligence and other ones if that makes sense #i think they said ill be having coloured paper or something #i also talked to them #ill be doing a foundation thing for health and social #i think ill also be doing multi trade

[swallowstosea]

I so desperate wish I had read Percy Jackson when I was younger </3

#like it was huge idk how i didn't know about it?? #but i think like the whole dyslexia adhd thing meant i didn't acc get into reading until quite late #ive read them now and i love them but i wish i could give them to my younger self </3 #tbf i also wasn't diagnosed until i was 12 so i wouldn't have realised

[salemoleander]

This is a super weird question, but is it possible to have medication-induced dyslexia, or to develop dyslexia as an adult? Because I've never had this issue before, but in the past few weeks, letters and certain symbols/illustrations sort of.. shift? Warp? Sometimes, when I attempt to read them.

Most frequently it's noticeable when I glance over a word or phrase/ am reading quickly. I'll register it as misspelled, but then when I re-read it, the word is not misspelled/ the phrase is in the correct order.

I had originally assumed it was due to a visual aura from an oncoming/active silent migraine, but even on days where I'm relatively sure I'm not having a migraine I've noticed this happening

#salem chatter #also props forever to rick riordan bc i legitimately only knew what this might be or how to describe it bc of percy jackson #like even if it isnt dyslexia i dont think id have noticed it as a discrete Thing or been able to describe what was happening #anyways. if im going to get all this shit can i at least gain the ability to read ancient greek or shoot bows please

[jaymesdoodles]

So being someone who had a speech impediment and, in general stumbles over my words and stutters. I will often either switch words or mix them up, especially if they sound the same. And it doesn't mater what I'm saying, I always mix up pronouns. And it's the worst. Like doesn't matter I mess them up or straight up say words for pronouns that just don't exist???

And I'm not sure why i do this but I do it too but I they/them everyone???? Like cis people do. Even animals. Like. It doesn't matter. It's not intental at all? Like it's fully subconscious. I don't know why my brain defaults to "they/them" I'm trying to work on it but its so weird 😭😭 idk if it's a dyslexia thing too but it's odd

#the first thing is just bc dyslexia and adhd #i think too fast or i talk too fast #and bc im dyslexic I'm also having to think abojt shit harder and i miss up shit that sound the same #and i still cant pronouce a lot of stuff lols #jaymes talks

[milkweedman]

Attempting some tablet weaving for the first time. I have essentially no idea what im doing--i did watch a few videos which mostly went in one ear and out the other, as well as look for some written guides which were completely indecipherable if for no other reason than Reading Hard.

The warping was fiddly but straightforward, and the first several inches are totally botched bc i wasnt really creating a clean warp shed bc i had no idea what belonged to what half, but after i figured that out it got way neater ! I'm not really concerned about how it looks though. This first attempt will serve its purpose either way, which is to be a bag handle so that i don't have to crochet or knit one. Yes i did finally try tablet weaving just to avoid knitting or crocheting more straps.

Also wow, these cards really arent going to last very long. I pulled them out of the 5 deck hand and foot set (hence why they're all 3s, since thats the worst card to get and i figured removing a few wouldnt be missed), but if id realized they deteriorate so fast i definitely would have just used something else. Oh well though.

Also, i had a feeling this would hurt my back, and indeed it does. I lasted about 10 minutes before it was too much. Might need to use a chair next time.

#was talking to my fiance about dyslexia earlier and have been thinking abt it a lot recently #was diagnosed as a teenager at the same time as the adhd #mostly dont think abt it and generally considered it not to affect me that badly #but i have a theory abt why i csnt read anymore and why written patterns are SO hard to follow #which is that i think reading for me takes a LOT of mental energy and focus #and if im low on that for whatever reason anything more than a few sentences is just utterly insurmountable and i can't read it #its even worse in any language other than english which baffled me for years #but ! my fiance was telling me how he has an easier time reading english than anything else bc he practiced SO MUCH trying to read normally #in english but didn't do the same in hindi or anything else #which like. oh. yeah. i also tried way harder with english bc that's what school was in and i was desperate to not be seen as stupid #which also explains why reading aloud in any language other than english is so so hard #reading hamlet aloud for english lit: god this sucks but i do love hamlet #reading dante's inferno (french translation) aloud in french lit: oh my god i hate every second of this and i think i will die from nerves #reading childrens poetry aloud in russian for my intro to russian class: if i dropped dead right now that would be preferable #and like my russian pronunciation was not the problem here #i could have a conversation with my teacher in russian okay #and i know cyrillic ! no problems there #but having to read it aloud ?? exhausting and miserable #anyway. all of this to say that i am not using patterns bc trying to mix reading with learning a new thing is just. not happening #backstrap weaving #tablet weaving

[terresdebrume]

Tonight I am frustrated by the fact that I still have a lot of bias to unlearn when it comes to dealing with students with special needs

(As in, it would be nice if I could be effortlessly good at it, but alas)

#Matt has a life #Shit from work #Part of the problem (on top of like... the usual isms) is also that a) I actually *like* the traditional quiet classroom environment #just because quiet and focus is how I learn things best #also: I have limited time to prepare things like dyslexia friendly resources #I mean fortunately there's some stuff that was premade which I'll be able to modify to get started this year #unfortunately my student who probably needs it the most is not in a class where anything is ready so #more work more time needed and my availability is not moving -_- #(will still try i just don't think it'll be the greatest possible thing) #also wrt kids who probably have adhd but no other support: I have a really hard time figuring out what helps them concentrate #apart from what's actually a distraction #case in point: one time one of my students spent the full hour fiddling with paper #with no improvement that I could see in how much attention they paid to the class #and they said 'this was great I was quiet aren't you happy?' #and I was like 'well I won't lie it's convenient for me but also the goam is to help you focus #not to make things convenient' #anyway I think my main tldr is that whime there are things that exist to help these students #and I'm willing to try them #So far my attempts have felt more like randomly chucking stuff at them #(even if I ask them to tell me if they have techniques that help them already) #than anything really helpful #and I haven't figured out yet how to move past that in order to properly make things more accessible for them #(plus like. the one student who is apparently VERY dyslexic #when I asled if there might be underlying cause to their struggles in my class #strongly denied it. which adds to the difficulties) #anyway I feel like this went a little 'woe is me for dealing with this' so like #sorry about that