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factual-fantasy · 7 months
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I haaaasss 27 asks :}
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Yes. Yes it does.
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Thank you! :DD And yeah canon Gregory is just not my vibe man XD
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(Traffic cone in question)
Thank you so much! :DD And yeah I try my best to get up and do something productive/different when I'm feeling down like that. My thought process is "well sitting here and sulking isn't making me feel any better so I should go and do something else" Which just so happened to be breaking out the old sewing kit and making a traffic cone?? XD Well to be fair I've made like 10 of those before but still an odd choice on my part-
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Thank you so much! I'm so glad you liked my cars artwork! :DD
And yeah I would draw cars stuff more often but they're just so hard to draw :(
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Idk why they decided to jump into a DLC before fixing the base game, but man I really wish they wouldn't have. 😔
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I'll do my best! :D
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@tallchest13-blog
Yes :} or at least I've been trying to-
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Thank you so much! And I did use a pattern to make him. Credit for the patten goes to Tammy Hallam, heres her video on how to make your own too! :}
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@montygatorshusband
AAAA THANK YOU SO MUCH!! :DDD
As for Glamrock Bonnie,, ehh, its a bit odd to me. Not a huge fan of the color pallet but its not the worst I've seen. I'd give it a 5.5 outa 10
ALSO! I believe Octonauts is streaming on Netflix, but I've also had some luck finding full episodes on YouTube :0
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Thank you! And oh yeah, I feel you on the fandom part. XD That's why I'm still kind'a on the fence and haven't dove head first into my usual angsty stuff. I'm kind'a testing the waters with every post I make to see if I'll collide with the uh, other side of the fandom :x
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Thank you! :DDD
Also Google is a search engine. :0 If you search for Octonauts fanart, its gonna do its job and search for fanart and likely find some of the stuff I made. Notice though that all of my artwork shown on Google links directly back to my blog. Its because Google isn't stealing it, its parting the branches of a bush and pointing "Look! Over there is some Octonauts fanart like you requested!" XD
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@pinkbomb08
There isn't really anything Gregory can do for Bonnie..
Its hard to explain,, but I'll try. Bonnie is missing his leg from the middle of his shin down. So he cant stand up right like Foxy because- well duh, he's missing a whole foot.
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So order to fix Bonnies leg so he can stand/walk like Foxy does, he would need an entire replacement foot with a working joint. This would also mean that the wires in Bonnies legs would have to be replaced and hooked up so that he can control said new foot.
Currently there are no spare parts around that fit Bonnies model.. and even if they did, Gregory wouldn't know how to properly re-wire an animatronic foot. He's smart but not THAT smart <XDD
The only thing Gregory could do is make Bonnie a weird peg leg that makes his current leg longer. Currently Bonnies half leg is shorter than his good leg. But in all honesty Bonnie doesn't really want that.
Having Gregory ducttape this weird goofy peg leg to him would be more embarrassing then what he already has. He'd probably want to salvage what ever dignity he has left and say "ah give it a rest. There's no point. My legs good enough for what its for." <:/
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@taizarack
If I remember correctly... Sometime ago my tablet pen broke. And it took like 2-3 weeks for a new one to arrive. In the mean time I tried to make an art doll of sorts. That doll was Bibi!
I ended up making a lot of goofy posts with Bibi and I as I waited for my pen to arrive. Once it finally did and I went back to drawing comics, I ended making Bibi a reoccurring character. And he's been around ever since!
Now Jangles is a Halloween prop that I bought because I thought it was funny. I was practicing making quilts one time and I made a small blue one that just so happened to be the right size for him. So I put it on and then I thiiink I got the idea to add Jangles to my blog as a joke.? I gave Bibi a "new friend" to celebrate hitting 10,000 followers. The new friend was a cropped png of jangles XD
Eventually down the line I wanted to give Bibi an proper friend. So for Bibi's birthday I drew a comic where Jangles came to life and here we are XD
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@pinkbomb08
Currently I am getting none of those things :x I have a cold so sleep and food is hard :( Thank you though! :D
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@notsoliyah
:D AW!! Thank you! I'm so glad to hear how I've inspired you! :}}
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@ur0neand0nly
XD Thank you so much! And don't worry, I'm pretty confident I'll draw him again someday
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XD Thank you. To be honest I'm kind'a going back and fourth on this fandom. I don't really wanna be apart of the fandom, but the characters are the only thing I'm interested in drawing atm soo-
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@ardent-38
Ooo these are interesting! Although absorbing power ups isn't about digesting them. Its something about being human specifically that allows them to absorb the powerups.. 👀👀👀
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@maddiethehatter2192
My advice would be to use references religiously. That's what I did!
Also thank you! :DD
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Barnaby for sure.
Well, my interpretation of him really-
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@taizarack (Post in question)
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@funky-frankie
No there's no SpongeBob comic, I just felt like drawing Mr. Krabs XD
Also THANK YOU!! :DD That means so much!! :}}}
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@elegysonnet
<XD thank you. So far I have some pretty basic ones I imagine. Wally's house is alive and evil, Julie is actually a scary monster but has drastically altered her appearance to look less scary.. Sally is very celestial in nature because she's a real star, Eddie used to be a real human and bleeds and has a heart beat and what not.. uuuuuuh what elseeee,,, I liked to imagine that Sally and Julie came to the neighborhood when they were really young and Poppy kind'a adopted them?? Although I don't know how wide spread that idea is XD
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Thank you! And yeah I'm not very fond of that portrayal either <XD As for your questions..
1: I'm sure there would be somethings that would push his anxiety to the surface. I'm not sure what they'd be but still- I imagine if Luigi was around to see it he would try to get Mario out of what ever situation he's in. If he's in a crowd he'd try to help him slip away unnoticed.
2: I'm not familiar with the giga bell, but if I did add it I'd imagine those would be the side effects yeah <XD Really sore and tired and cant really move for like 3 days :x
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Remodeled or not, I wont be adding any of those animatronics to the Pizzaplex. I already wrote the entire past of this timeline, and those bots all already have a story in my AU. And with their given stories it wouldn't make sense for them to be added to the Pizzaplex.
Of course I cant spoil what those stories are, just know that I have my reasons-
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Oh yeah I forgot to add the colored eye lids to Wally and Barnaby in that trampoline drawing <XD
And yeah! I wanted Wally to be much more expressive so I gave him eyebrows-
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@cudlycorncornsworthcoberson
Aw, thank you so much!! Its so cool to hear that you've shared my name with your friends!! :DD
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x-authorship-x · 4 months
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"I'll die on the hill that Anakin should have been punted into the creche for a few years"
Yes! I'm so glad you agree, I wish more fics had him interacting with his agemates and being in the creche would have been good for him I think. Perhaps I'm giving him too much credit, and I've only watched those movies once and base the rest of what I know on what I get from fanfics so I could be wrong, but my read of that meeting was that Qui-Gon had intended that? He said he'll train Anakin, but 1. he had a padawan still, and 2. Anakin was 9?? That seems super, super young to be a padawan. I always found it really weird in fics that he had wanted to take Anakin on so young, and then I watched the movie and ended up finding it really weird that the council and Obi-Wan just assumed Qui-Gon meant he'd start training Anakin right then and there and toss out Obi-Wan. Why would he, that makes no sense and he never said he'd take Anakin as a padawan right then like I thought he had from fics. It seemed more to me like it was a promise or vow type thing, like he'd train Anakin when the time came so they didn't have to worry about trying to find someone who would train an unorthodox padawan. And then everyone immediately thought the worst of him so he stupidly doubled down and did not make any attempt to correct their miscommunication. From what little I know about Qui-Gon and his relationship with Obi-Wan there seemed to be a good amount of miscommunication, so this made the most sense to me that he'd be stubborn and double down when arguing with the council rather than explaining what he meant. So when he died Obi-Wan had no idea what he meant and went with what he though Qui-Gon meant and insisted Anakin be placed with him right then and there. Nevermind that he was grieving and Anakin was super baby for a padawan, honestly I'm going to blame the council here for not stepping in and saying Anakin would go to the creche for a few years, then Obi-Wan could have him. Idk I'm not even a huge fan of Qui-Gon and honestly don't know much about him, but in this case this is what seemed most likely to me when I watched it.
Oh anon I totally agree
Tbh my mind went forwards and I was thinking more.... Anakin in the creche could've fixed a lot. Like... Anakin made his own (shit) decisions, I'm definitely not an Anakin-apologist, but I do think that no one is born a certain thing and that childhood has a big knock-on effect. Putting Anakin in the creche would make transitioning from life as a slave easier, for one??? Like let's not immediately call someone else 'master' and let's socialise the kid and let's get an actual childcare specialist - not a traumatized grieving ex-padawan-turned-Knight oh my God everyone needs therapy good intentions don't automatically guarantee good outcomes - involved.
I'm not saying Kelleran Beq looks like the kinda man to rehab hurt children on the daily basis but that's exactly what I'm saying. God I love that man and his Grogu chase scene. Is Grogu in the creche yet or am I too early??? Who cares, I think Grogu would be so good for Anakin because can you imagine being the so called Chosen One but shown up by a baby. You can't fight a baby, not even Anakin (not yet rip) so you gotta just take the ego trimming and cope.
Get Anakin to learn to read and write and acclimatize, let Obi-Wan have time to establish himself as an individual, let everyone take a chill pill, and maybe the whole cast will feel better in three or four years 🙃 also this helps solve Anakin's INTENSE only child energy because Chosen One shit doesn't mean crap in the creche, being a freed slave probably isn't uncommon when you look at how a lot of force sensitive kids end up at the temple (every Jedi comes with a built in troubling backstory as standard), Anakin has friends and peers to cut his teeth on and learn patience with and how to check boundaries with and you just KNOW that those creche kids have so many lessons on Stranger Danger-!
qui-gon the future we couldve had if you choked out a few more words lmao
Also I like to imagine that anakin's first language is Huttese and he only knows enough Basic to understand customers and Watto etc so in my mind the council meeting SHOULDVE derailed when Anakin can't understand a word they're saying and the whole timeline careens towards 'lets get this freed child slave his vaccines and a primary school teacher before deciding the words of destiny, yes?'
Qui-Gon: *finally asks something not related to customer service, basic conversational vocab, or mechanics*
Anakin: ....uhhhhhhh
Qui-Gon, off camera: I was so lost in the euphoria of finding the Chosen One that I temporarily forgot I existed in a world with slavery and other languages haha-
Obi-Wan: *face down in a dune in the BG*
The end :)
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mermaidsirennikita · 5 months
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I just want to read a romance where both of the MCs are batshit as fuck, totally bonkers, maybe even straight up insane. Especially if their craziness goes in opposite directions. Any recs?
Welll, it's easier to find crazy heroes than crazy heroines because misogyny (and I actually don't think I've read any queer books with two crazy leads, which I IMAGINE has something to do with the idea that queer books, especially sapphic books, need to be more "palatable").
But I've got some recs! I would as always, generally recommend Immortals After Dark because it's amazing (my favorite series ever, probably) and additionally.... The heroes are OFTEN insane, and the heroines often dance a little close to the edge too.
Special shoutouts:
Kiss of a Demon King by Kresley Cole. This is... Rydstrom and Sabine are iNSANE. And the thing with him is that he's very repressed, and he wants to be Good. He gets kidnapped and sexually tormented by a completely insane, evil woman who eventually ends up falling for him, and vice versa. I will say--there's dubcon on both sides. She basically edges him while he's in chains in an attempt to get him to give in; ngl, it's really hot. And then there's dubcon when he gets out and is like "oooooh I am getting EVEN". There's a lot of "FINISH idnE" with this one.
Lothaire by Kresley Cole. So Ellie, our heroine, is really not crazy... for most of the book. She does do one Extremely Significant Thing, however, that is SO INSANE that I have to give her some credit there. And he's fully batshit. Like, I'll never forget beginning his POV in that book and he's covered in the remnants of his own carnage and is like "oh, I am NOOOOOOT playing with a full deck right now". Like, he's so self-aware about it? He's like "I may have lost my sanity, but I am NOT! losing my intelligence!!!! Or my hot bod!!!!"
Dark Needs at Night's Edge by Kresley Cole. Again, the heroine is less crazy than the hero, but Neomi still has a screw loose lol. Because she's the ghost of a murdered woman who's been trapped in a mansion for like, over a century! And she has to periodically dance against her will! So who can blame her for doing a striptease for a FULLY INSANE virgin vampire to provoke him into reacting so that she can prove he can see her? (One of my favorite scenes of all time--he's all gritted teeth like "I am NOT God's strongest soldier"). Conrad is so crazy that his vampire brothers, none of whom are super sane, are like "yeah we gotta lock him in this house to try to fix him". Conrad is so crazy, his POV changes tenses halfway through the book (a BRILLIANT narrative device to illustrate his state of mind). Conrad is so crazy he tries to cut his brother off when his brother is like "we kNOW you're a VIRGIN Conrad!!!" because he knows the pretty ghost lady is watching. He fails.
Also, a non IAD Kresley:
The Professional by Kresley Cole. This is an erotic Russian mafia romance; the heroine is kidnapped by the hero, who is her long lost father's enforcer. They immediately hook up on the plane ride to Russia, and we are off to the races because she is here to TORMENT him. I'm about to read the next two books in the trilogy, and I hear the heroes are even crazier. In this case, the heroine is just like. Brat to the EXTREEEME.
Alright, moving on from Kresley.
Mafia Madman by Mila Finelli. Erotic mafia romance. The hero is fully crazy, and with good reason--in the two preceding books in the series (a duet, which I would recommend; the hero is crazy, the heroine really isn't, and neither of them are anywhere near as crazy as Enzo lol) he was the villain, and the previous hero tortured the helll out of him. And he's been living in hiding on a yacht for like. Four years. Separated from his kids (he's a widower). Plotting his revenge. Which he kicks off when he sees the heroine (the previous hero's sister-in-law) on the catwalk. He asks her out for an Aperol spritz. She goes. He bLOWS UP THE BAR AND PLANTS A DEAD BODY IN ORDER FOR KIDNAP HER AND TAKE HER TO HIS YACHT AND KEEP HER IN A CAGE. I love this book. SO MUCH. It's an all time favorite. And Gia's response? Well, if he wants wild, she'll give him wild. So she starts doing naked yoga in the cage, knowing he and his minions can see her. And it just. Continues. From there. At one point he comes back COVERED in blood and he's like "get in the shower, you're going to service me~ while I tell you about my murders" and she like. SWOONS.
Run Posy Run by Cate C. Wells. Another mafia romance. The hero, Dario, is basically a psychopath, and he's the money guy for the local mob. He and the heroine, Posy, are live-in lovers, she expects a ring soon, she's grown up around the life and though the relationship is kind of meh (not abusive, but the sex isn't great, they don't really connect) she's kind of convinced herself that she loves him because he provides security. Someone sends him this video that's been doctored to seem like Posy was cheating, he loses his mind, Posy goes on the run, and then once he realizes the video was bullshit they begin like this... back and forth... of messing with each other's heads? Her teasing him, etc. Again, he's more obviously insane, but Posy WILDS OUT in this book.
Scandal's Bride by Stephanie Laurens. Historical, one of the best books I've read this year. They are both BATSHIT. Like, they meet in a graveyard and make out before saying hi. She believes her goddess has designated him as the father of her children. He's like "oh she is MINE". Heads up: she does drug him for their first encounter (because she's crazy) though he is an active participant--he just thinks he's dreaming. The rest of the book is this truly wiiiild ride wherein he baits her, she responds, she baits him, he responds, he's CONSTANTLY jumping her, she's constantly subjecting him to her weird witchy ways. It's AMAZING.
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hongjoongsmuse · 1 year
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Omg I missed the part about adding a specific emoji for my request! Please forgive me for my mistake lol
Anyways, I was hoping you could do a current energy reading on Park Jimin as well as a reading checking on what we can expect from him soon (coming weeks/months) regarding his career/work?
Thank you again. Sorry for the mistake.
- 💧
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january 16 2023. hi 💧 ! sorry it took me an eternity to get around to this. as you probably know, jimin featured in taeyang's song vibe - with the mv racking up 40 million views in 3 days. this is amazing for both artists ; and i know i don't need my deck to know whatever he works on will most likely be a huge success. regardless, let's see what my cards have to say about this ! disclaimer ! despite what some people may think, tarot is NOT a fixed fate, nor can it predict the future. tarot is merely just an act of guidance and outcomes are subject to change based on one’s actions. it can be taken into consideration when making choices, but it shouldn’t be taken as fact/evidence. results may vary from reader to reader depending on their own energies, intuitions, personal interpretations of the cards and the date/time the reading was conducted. if what i say is different from someone else’s, it doesn’t mean i’m right, but it doesn’t mean i’m wrong either. there’s no right or wrong until anything is confirmed.
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current energy ;
strength
temperance
justice
knight of wands
2 of pentacles
jimin definitely seems quite excited with his solo activities that are currently planned, as well as his feature in taeyang's vibe and its success. it could already be inspiring some new projects, and he may be looking forward to the success and feedback to come, where it's just him.
however, he doesn't seem overly enthusiastic. he actually seems quite conflicted. no, that's not the right word...but he might be trying to figure out what's actually best for him right now. the success of his feature may have temporarily stalled him in some way - he may have faced some insecurity after the initial excitement wore off.
he may worry that his solo may not meet as much success as the collaboration has; that no one would listen to him and all the success came because of someone else, not because of him or because of a joint effort.
he seems like he's worked very hard on his projects, to the point where even thinking about it potentially being a colossal failure crushes him.
but alas ! if that's the case, it looks like he's managed to pull himself together very quickly. giving his thoughts the benefit of a doubt, being fair on himself and giving himself the credit he deserves. he could be figuring out ways that prioritize his health and wellbeing, and he actually seems to have a lot of mental control over it all.
he seems to know what sort of success he wants to achieve, whether it's through charts, or spreading his message, or both. he just needs to be patient and keep his expectations realistic, which he seems to be aware of too. i wish him nothing but the best. :))
future projects?
i find that this isn't really something a tarot deck can answer, but i'll do my best with the cards i get ;
the moon
king of wands
3 of cups
10 of cups
7 of pentacles
something energetic/strong party vibes? something with a good message/learning lesson? something healing? something personal?
i'm getting vibes of an energetic pop song you could play at a party, and a deep emotional ballad. it may be deeply personal - could be something he wrote or influenced heavily. could be all of these, especially if it's an album, but it could also be something entirely different.
whatever it is, i look forward to it ! :))
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the-hummelverse · 8 months
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In terms of the hummelverse.com website, it's online again by the way! Been online for a couple months again already actually after the catastrophic failure and year-long downtime caused by moving it over from my previous hoster. But I didn't have any time to do much needed post-move maintenance so far, which I am slowly catching up with now.
Notes:
The website is now SSL-enabled (using https instead of http), but this doesn't really change anything except that some browsers/extensions should now be less likely to act like it's a malicious page trying to steal your credit card data... (This was genuinely the main reason why I had to change hosters, since the previous one would have charged me 10€ per month extra for it when most others out there have it as a free default for your contract???)
I thought the newsletter signup form was broken, but it only doesn't show up when I use Firefox on my desktop PC so maybe my adblocker is overly zealous. I haven't been writing any newsletters lately partly because of that, but now that I know the signup form isn't actually broken, I'll try to get back into the habit. That means if you cannot see it either on the homepage, please try a different browser or check if one of your browser extensions might be blocking it!
The art gallery works again, but uploading the images is very tedious and time-consuming. I forgot to move over the folder that contained all the images on the server, so I had to wipe the database and have to re-upload them all. It shouldn't interfere with the functionality of the website otherwise, though.
The tumblr post feed on the website is broken and I don't really know how to fix it since the API seems to have changed and I am not fully able to wrap my head around the new code. There's a chance that I'll figure it out eventually but it's very low priority for me right now, especially since I set up a webhook for the HV discord server that does the same job but in a more convenient manner.
The pages for the LEGENDS card game are there on the server, but I have to rework and update them with more current content/info. I'll do that as soon as I'm able and will add a link to the homepage once that's done. But it leads me to the next and last point:
As I've mentioned before I want to look into alternative solutions for selling/distributing both my books and my trading card game and the merchandise (bet most people didn't even know there IS merchandise....look, I'm very bad at this whole marketing think, ok?). There's also other Hummelverse things floating around like the free short horror video game I made ages ago and the pen&paper ruleset, for example. I am thinking of adding a sort of "hub" to the homepage that either provides a proper and complete list of links to all these miscellaneous things, or maybe even find a way to consolidate them onto my own website as completely as possible. This is still in the early musings phase, so don't expect to see much of this until a couple months down the line...
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contreparry · 9 months
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“When you laugh like that, it just — you’re so beautiful, you know that?” for the pairing of your choice?
Absolutely! Here's some DagnaxSera for @dadrunkwriting!
Sera was a great deal cleverer than people gave her credit for.
She was chaos incarnate and reveled in mischief, but she was thoughtful as well. Observant. She planned things, just with her own process and in her own time.
Sera was also insatiably curious, much to Dagna's delight. It was all well and good to have someone willingly be a captive audience to her academic ramblings, but Sera asked questions. Good questions. And her questions built up on her previous knowledge, grew more and more insightful the more she knew about Dagna's work. If she had the inclination and patience, Sera would probably be at Dagna's level of expertise with rune translation within the year.
Perhaps that was a little bit of an overstatement, but most people underestimated Sera. Someone ought to make up the difference.
"What's that?"
"Oh, that's an ancient rune- might have something to do with imprisoning? Not quite sure-" Dagna wiped the sweat off her brow with the back of her wrist. The runes were practically swimming in her eyes. Too much work and no breaks made her slow and tired and bad at her job, but Dagna wanted to finish translating this last rune before she retired for the night.
"Hmm. It's got those wiggly dashes like that other rune you had, Widdle," Sera grabbed the magnifying glass off the worktable and held it before the rune. "Yeah, three wiggle dashes, like tadpoles. Wasn't that a... eh... freezing symbol?"
"Suspension!" Dagna exclaimed, and at a second glance (a better glance) Dagna could confirm that Sera was right. A suspension rune, combined with what had to be time... Dagna turned the stone over in her fingers, examining the etchings with a critical eye. The translation was there on the tip of her tongue, but it was...
"Freezing time?" Dagna frowned. "That sounds ridiculous. But all things considered, it's hardly a surprise."
"Dorian does time stuff. Did? Got scared proper because of that, ummmm, thing," Sera said, and she hoisted herself up onto the workbench. "Doesn't look like any of the runes you work with, though. All... cloudy-like. Not clear at all." She wrinkled her nose, glaring at the stone as if she could unlock all its secrets with her gaze alone. Dagna beamed with delight. Sera really had been paying attention these past three months!
"An excellent observation, Sera! The stone is cloudy because the rune is... hmm... how to say this properly..."
"It's shite?"
"... it's shite. It pains me to say that about a fellow arcanist's work, especially one who was so ambitious, but... this stone is poorly crafted. Grand concept, bad foundation," Dagna sighed. "I've got a whole chest full of ancient runestones like this. Such a waste of material, and I can't fix them. All I can do is take their mistakes and learn from them." And she had learned a lot, learned what didn't work, learned what was a waste of time, learned what ancient arcanists thought was important (a steam stone was certainly... something).
"Or you can hand them to me. And I'll find a use for them colorful pebbles," Sera suggested coyly, and she curled her hand around the dead runestone. Dagna clicked her tongue and reached for the stone, but Sera stretched and kept it out of her grasp.
"Sera. Scattering useless runestones in front of the doors of visiting nobles isn't useful," Dagna scolded.
"Useful for me! Reminds them exactly what they're dealing with. Keeps 'em humble," Sera grumbled, but she returned the stone into Dagna's expectant hands. "Keeps me entertained, too."
"You know... I have some other runes that need translating. Ones that might be a little more... immediately useful." she suggested, and Sera's grin was infectious.
"What're we waitin' for, Widdle? Bring 'em out!" Sera insisted with a bright and bold laugh. magnifying glass in hand and a wild light in her eyes. Dagna smiled and pulled a small jewelry chest out from underneath the workbench.
When you laugh like that, it just— you’re so beautiful, you know that?” Dagna said when she emerged and set the box on the bench. Sera rummaged through the runes like a magpie, nimble fingers plucking every stone that caught her fancy and her eyes darting this way and that. Dagna loved watching her twist and turn new ideas, loved trying to guess what Sera would work out on her own when she picked at a new problem to unravel. As she sorted through the items Sera giggled.
“Oooo, flattery! You always know how to butter me up,” Sera coyly said. “What do you think would happen if we combined one of ‘em time runes that worked proper like with some ice? Make a insta-frozen puddle in the dining hall during one o’ them big affairs, hmm?”
People really underestimated Sera, but that was to their detriment, Dagna thought as she watched Sera pick through the finished runes and analyze them with the air of a true professional. But Dagna knew the truth, and that warmed her to her very toes.
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Graphic Rape/Non-Con (if the characters have a history of sexual assault that's okay, as long as it is addressed in a way I deem appropriate)
Beastiality
Watersports
Major Self Harm
Cheating (No problem with suspected/implied, as long as it isn't true)
No Happy Ending (again, there may be exceptions)
Wolfstarbucks and other polyamorous wolfstar relationships
Anything in second person (e.g. Reader x Wolfstar, Reader as wolfstar's child)
Abusive wolfstar relationship
I think that's about it! So, take care of yourselves, drink lots of water, and happy reading!
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jojo0039 · 10 months
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*Treasure and Secrets* Prayers Part 2
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They make it off the ferry and start driving in the direction that the GPS tells them to drive.
"I've read this thing like a thousand times. It makes no sense." Kie tells them.
"Yea I did some research on this family, the Limbreys own like half of Charleston. Even if they have kept tabs on me and my mom my whole life, what do the kook kings of Charleston know about a murder clear on Kildare Island?" Jo questions.
"Right. Like I get sending you a letter and wanting to reach out, but why also Pope specifically? That's the other creepy thing." JJ comments.
"Yea them saying for you two to come alone. That's hella sus." Kie states.
"I was thinking the same thing." Pope tells them.
The engine makes a funny noise and smoke starts rolling out from the hood.
"Oh come on!" Pope exclaims.
"Pull over!"
"That is a lot of smoke even for your dad's truck." Jo comments.
Smoke starts rolling into the truck making everyone cough.
"Pope! I got sensitive lungs man!" JJ coughs
. Pope quickly pulls the truck over.
"It's gonna blow up!" Kie exclaims as she quickly gets out of the back seat.
"It's not gonna blow up Kie." JJ tells her as he pops the hood.
"It might be the radiator." JJ tells them.
"Dude you knocked the entire hubcap off!" Jo points to the hubcap that's laying in the middle of the road.
"You guys might wanna reschedule your meeting tonight." JJ tells them.
"Plan B, we can use public transportation, or hitchhike. We could rent bikes." Kie tries to come up with other options.
"We're gonna have to find a shop, if JJ can't fix this. We're just gonna have to make it to tomorrow." Jo states.
"How are we even gonna pay for it?" JJ asks from his spot under the hood.
"I have my dad's credit card, plus I still have all that cash that I took. I have it covered." Jo tells them.
"My dad is gonna kill me." Pope complains.
"Yea, yea he just might." JJ tells him.
"I can't fix this. We need the nearest auto shop." JJ tells them.
Jo looks up from her phone.
"Already on it. I got AAA on their way with someone to tow the truck." she informs them.
"See look at that already got us covered." JJ jokes.
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Buzz pulls up to the dock to see the police surrounding a boat and Ward and Rafe sitting off to the side.
"I can't believe it. It's all there." Ward states.
"Good. I just got done speaking with the captain. He said that we can go in a few minutes. They just have to finish with the paperwork." Buzz informs them.
He notices that Rafe is just staring into space and not really paying attention.
"I'll fly it out in the morning. But in the meantime, it'll be in good hands with the police department." Ward states.
Both men notice that Rafe is not acting right.
"What's wrong with him?" Buzz asks nodding in Rafe's direction.
"He's upset that he shot Sarah." Ward tells Buzz.
"Well, we can't afford for him to lose it right now." Buzz hisses at Ward.
"They said they checked the hospitals and the morgue. So that's a good sign. That means she's okay." Ward speaks encouragingly.
Buzz keeps a glance at Rafe and knows something isn't right.
Rafe finally stands up and faces his dad.
"What if I'm not okay?" Rafe finally speaks.
Both Ward and Buzz look at him.
"What?" Ward asks.
"I'm not okay." Rafe tells him.
"What do you mean? Of course you are buddy." Ward tries to assure him.
Rafe shakes his head.
"No Dad, I'm not okay." Rafe continues to tell them.
"Listen, we'll go back and get a good night's sleep. We'll get a steak or something. You'll feel completely different in the morning. I know you will." Ward brushes him off.
Rafe puts his hands over his face in distress.
"I thought I was okay, but I'm not." Rafe starts to get loud.
"Get control of yourself Rafe." Ward warns him.
"We're drawing attention to ourselves. Get your son under control." Buzz tells Ward.
Rafe pulls away from Ward.
"I- I just keep I keep having these, um thoughts in my head and I don't I don't know if I can control them.  And I'm just afraid of what's gonna happen. I dont know how much more of this shit I can take." Rafe confesses to his dad.
Buzz watches the exchange and doesn't like how his oldest friend handles it.
"We'll talk about it okay." Ward tries.
"I'm just afraid-"
"We'll go back to the house and we'll talk about it."
Rafe shakes his head.
"You're not getting it! I need help right now, not her me. You're not listening to me. I'm having a real hard time right now!" Rafe starts to raise his voice.
Ward grabs Rafe by the back of the neck and pulls him closer.
"I need you to man up right now."
Buzz shakes his head as Ward walks off to talk to the police.
Rafe just stares with a blank expression.
"Go home Rafe. Your dad and I are gonna finish up here. Go get some sleep." Buzz tells him.
Rafe nods his head.
Buzz watches him pull his phone out of his pocket and dial a number.
Rafe walks off in the distance and Buzz can barely hear him speak on the phone.
"Hi, I really needed to hear your voice right now."
Buzz turns and glances back at Ward who is walking back towards him.
"So they're gonna let us grab the gold in the morning. Where did Rafe go?" Ward asks looking around.
"I sent him back to the house. He didn't need to be around this right now." Buzz tells him.
"That's good. Yea he's just a little shaken up right now." Ward tries to excuse.
Buzz scoffs.
"He's more than a little shaken up Ward! Your kid is clearly not alright and you just brushed it aside!" Buzz lectures.
"No offense, but how I choose to handle my son is none of your business." Ward argues.
"It is my business, when your son's attention is on my daughter. He is clearly unstable and he just pretty much begged for help just now. Either you get it figured out, or he is to stay away from my daughter. I mean it Ward. This shit ends now."
Buzz threatens before he turns to walk away from Ward.
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Jo stands beside Pope as the mechanic explains everything that needs to be done to the truck to get it running.
"Three seventy!?" Pope exclaims as the guy shows them the invoice.
"It's fine I have it covered." Jo says as she reaches into her bag and pulls out a stack of bills.
She throws down four one hundred dollar bills.
"We're gonna need that expressed like pronto. I can throw in another hundred if you can get it done by morning." Jo tells the man.
"I can make that happen." he promises.
He throws down a set of keys.
"I have a spare truck. You kids can crash in the bed of it for the night." he tells them.
Jo grabs the keys.
"Pleasure doing business with you." Jo says as she walks out the door.
She walks over to JJ and Kie.
"Alright, so he should have the truck done by morning." Jo tells them.
"So what are we supposed to do for the night?" Kie asks.
Jo holds up the keys.
"We crash in the bed for the night." She tells them.
They make their way over to the truck.
"There should be room for all of us to sleep in the back." JJ says as he climbs into the bed.
He holds out his hand and pulls Jo up.
He lays down pillows and blankets and Jo lays down beside JJ.
She feels his arm around her waist.
She tries to fall asleep, but her phone keeps vibrating in her pocket.
She looks at the caller ID and pulls away from JJ slowly.
She slowly jumps over the side and walks across the parking lot.
"Hello?" she answers the phone.
"Hi." Rafe speaks into the phone.
She hears in the tone of his voice that he is not okay.
" "Why are you calling me?" she asks.
"I really needed to hear your voice right now." he confesses to her.
"What happened?" she asks him softly.
She hears him trying to control his breathing.
"I am so scared. I uh I hear these voices in my head that wont stop- An-And my dad just brushes it aside like it's no big deal." Rafe fight back tears.
"I wish I could help you Rafe. But I don't know how." she confesses to him.
"Just the sound of your voice helps. You were always the only one that understood me and helped me. Because I know I'm not okay. And I want you to help me." he finally confesses.
"Okay. I told you I would help you and I meant it. When I get back, I'll help you look for the most qualified therapist there is. Nobody else has to know, I promise." she whispers to him.
"Okay. I trust you." he replies.
"It's not a problem. I just want you to get the help you need."
She looks back over to the truck and sees JJ sitting up looking for her.
"I have to go. We'll talk when I get home." she tells him.
"Okay. I love you." he responds.
Her breath hitches at the choice of words.
"Good night Rafe." She quickly hangs up the phone.
"Who was that?" JJ asks as she climbs back into the truck.
"My dad. He found out I left." She tells him not looking in his eyes.
"Is everything okay?" JJ asks.
"Yea everything is fine." she answers him.
"It's just that things have been weird between us. Did I do something?" he asks.
Jo quickly cups his face in her hands.
"No, you have been great and understanding. I wouldn't have been able to get through these last few weeks without you. I've just been in my head."
She leans forward and slides her lips against his.
"Let's get some sleep okay?" He nods his head and they lay down.
It takes Jo about a half hour to fall asleep.
But she snuggles further in JJ's arms because he always makes her feel special.
She knows that she should tell JJ about her conversations with Rafe, but she knows how he will react and she doesn't wanna deal with that.
Hopefully, they can find some answers tomorrow.
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marcholasmoth · 1 year
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OSRR: 3091
tomorrow is the day when i can resume my normal function.
tomorrow.
i am excited.
meanwhile i took today and slept in so i got some sleep, and i ended up taking my brother in law to boston to the airport - this was the thing i kept forgetting about but that i knew was happening and was important.
my brain is itchy and frustrated because i'm understimulated but i also have writers block and im at a standstill in s writing my résumé, which is my first priority. and for some reason, moving around an obstacle is harder to think about than it should be, so i end up stuck on the one thing for a thousand years instead of working around it. i've always been like this.
and it sucks.
but i learned about something today that i should take advantage of when it comes to jobs that i'm looking for. i learned that if i can find a job and apply under schedule a, it may allow me to find a job more easily than applying regularly. schedule a is for people which disabilities, of which i have several, so when i get the opportunity im hoping to look into it further.
in the meantime, dice i ordered for joel came in and they sent me an extra set which are pretty cool. i'm going tomorrow to the verizon store to see if i can fix my problems with them and get the past due amount off of my credit report. i need to figure out projects to do with one hand for when i'm out of surgery because if my brain is itchy now, with full use of my limbs, i can only imagine what it'll be like when i can't use my right arm.
i have so many things to do and to think of. i need to plan out how things will go and what will need to happen when so i can get my tasks in order and all of my ducks in a row for when i'm out of commission for a hot minute. i'm hoping joel will be more help than not, but honestly with my limitations for sleeping, i doubt i'll see him much. there isn't exactly a good place to sleep at joel's if my shoulder has to be immobilized. can't really sleep sitting up if there's no place to sit up and sleep comfortably.
which is a huge bummer. because i love spending time with joel. obviously. but also because valentines day is right after my surgery, and that's my favorite holiday. i just hope i can be lucid enough and maybe well enough to go in to work to see my friends and coworkers to bring them goodies or something. because i love valentine's day. even if nobody else does, i do. and it makes me really sad that i probably won't get to do anything for it, at least not with my coworkers, friends, or even joel. :c
now i'm sad.
i need to sleep. i have a long day of bullshit troubleshooting ahead of me.
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jestlingnest · 2 years
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Okay let’s go. Feel free to answer for as many or as few as you’d like
Romeo
Xara
Petra
Aiden
Cassie
Jack
Ivor
Stella
Lulu
Oh boy this is a lot of guys. Putting them under a readmore haha.
XARA
Favorite thing about her
How she's allowed to be angry. A lot of depictions of grief in media don't include anger. It isn't pretty, it doesn't fit the whole "poor, sad, grieving person" vibe. So her being allowed to show her grief through anger is really important to me. She shouldn't have to bottle it up because "ohhh getting angry isn't the right way! talk about your feelings!". No. She gets to be angry. She gets to grieve.
Least favorite thing about them
Not enough screentime? Idk
Favorite line
Replacing with scene because lines are difficult. Her introduction. I thought it was great, especially because I knew nothing about her.
brOTP
Her, Fred, and Romeo. They were friends they cared about each other so much. But that's just a memory now.
OTP
shrug
nOTP
shrug. i dont really go looking for any ships with most characters.
Random headcanon
I don't know 😭 I haven't thought of any Xara headcanons before
Unpopular opinion
Again, I don't really interact with the fandom enough to know what the unpopular opinion is. I guess that I don't think Romeo should go find her. At least not for a very long time. She just escaped from prison. She needs time. A lot of time. And I think seeing Romeo again would end... badly.
Favorite picture of them
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PETRA
Favorite thing about her
How excited she got about meeting Jack
Least favorite thing about her
She needs to learn to talk about what's bothering her instead of avoiding it until it becomes worse. This doesn't really annoy me too much because. It's just a character flaw, it's part of who she is. But it's also something she needs to fix. Communicate!!
Favorite line
I'm so bad at remembering lines. It isn't a line from her but I like how it says that her favorite food is swords.
brOTP
Honestly her and the entire New Order. Their friendship is really important to me. Especially her, Jesse, and Lukas.
OTP
Jesse and Petra. Literally the first time I played I asked "is she asking us on a date" when she invited us to go to the Nether, and half expected them to kiss when they were falling towards each other in the episode 1 credits.
nOTP
shrug. i dont really get involved in shipping enough to have a ship I dislike aside from shipping her with any of the older cast.
Random headcanon
I spent awhile thinking of something and got nothing- I may come back to this later.
Unpopular opinion
See what I said about Xara and not knowing enough opinions to know what's unpopular
Favorite picture of her
I'll come back to this later. Images are hard to find.
AIDEN
Favorite thing about him
When he falls over in episode 1 he just lays there. I thought it was funny. He doesn't get back up. Even though the lava is slowly moving towards him.
Least favorite thing about him
annoying little bitch, that's what he is.
Favorite line
I'm changing this to scene again. The Sky City fight. What else.
brOTP, OTP
Him and Cassie (platonic or romantic). I don't have any strong feelings about it but Clover likes it and I think it's neat.
nOTP
This is complicated because I don't ship him and Lukas, but I do think Aiden had feelings for him and that was one of the many reasons why he was so angry and jealous about Jesse and their friends.
I don't want them to ever be in a relationship though.
Random headcanon
He sewed all the blazerod patches (and the ocelot patch on his own jacket before that) onto each jacket because he's stubborn and didn't want to paint it and kept stabbing his fingers with the needles. And refused to cry about it because he wanted to be tough.
Unpopular opinion
I think an unpopular opinion is liking him at all. I like him.
Favorite picture of him
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CASSIE
Favorite thing about her
I like her design
Least favorite thing about her
WERE YOU JUST GONNA LEAVE YOUR DOZENS OF OTHER CATS FOR DEAD??? CASSIE!!! Also why was she so mean to Lukas before she even attempted to frame him? Rude!
Favorite line
"Winslow, you know I love you but you make me very tired sometimes."
brOTP
I really, really like the headcanon that her and Romeo are siblings. Yes, it's not canon at all, but I still like it! Clover and I have so many ideas for it.
OTP
Same as what I put for Aiden. However since Aiden wants to be a better person and Cassie does not... she will make him worse.
nOTP
shrug
Random headcanon
This only applies to the "her and Romeo are siblings" headcanon, but she learned about redstone from Xara. She was her brother's cool friend, she looked up to her.
Unpopular opinion
shrug
Favorite picture of her
pictures are hard to find
JACK
Favorite thing about them
I like a lot of things about him. I'm having a hard time narrowing it down though.
Least favorite thing about them
I genuinely have no idea. I'll have to replay season 2 to really pick apart his character.
Favorite line
I'm changing this to favorite scene again- and that scene is when he saw Sammy's inventory. It felt like an actual punch to the gut. I didn't start crying until after I had finished the episode and left voice call, but ouch. He had never stopped grieving and going back there was like opening the wound again. That scene hurts, man.
brOTP
Him, Sammy, and Vos OTP
Jack/Nurm, what else?
nOTP
shrug
Random headcanon
As much as Jack loves to tell stories of his adventures, you can't get him to talk about exactly what happened in the Underwater Temple or what happened when he was Romeo's champion.
Unpopular opinion
I think picking him to be the champion works a lot, even if it feels like it was meant to be Petra (like with Nurm getting brought to Sunshine Institute and the parallels between Romeo and Petra). It really adds to the trauma conga line he went through in the short span of a day or two as well :(
Favorite picture of them
I don't have a lot of pictures of him but this one is funny. Romeo is going to crash. This ain't about him.
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IVOR
Favorite thing about them
He's funny. I like watching in real time him getting dragged into the found family. He has no choice.
Least favorite thing about them
It took me awhile to warm up to him thanks to the whole Witherstorm incident.
Favorite line
Anything he says. His voice actor is great.
brOTP
Him and Jesse. OTP
Harper and Ivor, 100%
nOTP
Soren and Ivor are EXES they should NOT get back together I think that would go badly.
Random headcanon
The reason why he looked so neutral and unfazed about everything after he reunited with Jesse during the Sky City fight is because he was fighting to hide his reaction of being happy and relieved that Jesse was alive.
Unpopular opinion
I don't know. I curate my content very strictly I hardly ever see opinions I dislike. Or ones that I remember.
Favorite picture of them
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STELLA
Favorite thing about them
Oh you hate me? Enemies to lovers then?
Least favorite thing about them
I wanted to punch her when I first met her. She was awful.
Favorite line
I don't remember season 2 well enough to pick one :(
brOTP, OTP, nOTP
I haven't gotten invested enough in her character yet, I gotta do that before I find ships
Random headcanon
The earpiece mic thing she has is fake and plastic. She doesn't even know what it is she just thought it looked cool. There is no electricity in minecraft.
Unpopular opinion
I don't know!! Favorite picture of them
The one doodle Clover did, the "enemies to lovers?" one
I'm answering for Lukas in Azzie's ask because this is long enough!
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scarletsaphire · 4 months
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✨🎀🎈💞💥🎙️💌💌💌
No those three at the end aren't a mistake, I know you have lots of WIPs and I wanna hear about them (insert activethreat emote)
✨-What's a fic you've posted you wish you could breathe life into again and have people talking about it? (or simply a fic you wish got more credit):
Hmm. I'd say Ten Lives (The One Worth Living) but I think I might be biased and just want to talk about my Johnny, Kitty, and Shadow ideas more. I like them a Very Normal Amount I prommy.
🎀-give yourself a compliment about your own writing
There's a post that I've seen plenty times before that I think about all the time that goes something along the lines of "I'm having creative ideas above my skill level!" or something like that, for when you have a great idea but just don't know how to execute it the way you want. I legitimately feel where I am at a point where that isn't an issue for me with my writing? I think most ideas I can execute within the general sphere of what I want them to be; I might not always like them, and they might not always be what I consider "good," but they are comparable to the original idea.
🎈-describe your style as a writer; is it fixed? does it change?
It tends to change based on the type of thing I'm writing. And how much sleep I get. I like a lot of shorter sentences, followed by one long rambling one for most kinds of prose, since most of my prose is an ooo ouch my bones type of prose. It does change all the time though, so that might be different in a few months. It certainly wasn't what I preferred until like, August.
💞-what's the most important part of a story for you? the plot, the characters, the worldbuilding, the technical stuff (grammar etc), the figurative language
hm. augh. mm. thats a toughy! I'm going to say worldbuilding, because I often find myself more interested in the worldbuilding that the Actual Story I'm Trying To Write (its why a 30k first draft of a novel is fitting, completely unfinished, in my google drive. The current guys suck. I want the old ones. But the old ones only work as history for the new guys. Its sad.)
💥-find your least kudos'd fic - say something wonderful about it.
I'm ngl I completely thought it was gun safe but First Concert! It's a pretty short one, but it does what I sought out to accomplish; combine Dora and Ember's interests in a way that illustrates their differences but also shows that they're much more similar than you'd think.
🎙️-which one of your fics would you like someone to make a pod-fic of?
I have literally never put thought into that ever. If I had to choose, probably All In The Name Of Love or Strength of the Past And Weights of The Present, mostly because they're my favorites.
Welcome to WIP hell! See, you'd think that it would be a problem, having two of my WIPS be EI so I can't talk about them, and one being one you know so much about already. You might think that would hinder me somehow, in being able to tell you about them. YOU'D THINK!!
💌- share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!
Chapter 2 Of Cover Blown: I love pitch pearl man, I really do, and with what I'm planning for this one I think it is going to be about as good as my pitch pearl can get (Dreamwalker excluded dw). I love putting guys in situations, especially when those situations involve bad injuries and babbled confessions.
Speaking of Dreamwalker, I'll add this here too, because while you might know a lot, I always have more. I love how I'm writing the ghosts, just across the board. They are all pieces of shit in the Funniest Way, especially since Danny is a whole ass child right now. You're scheming about a nine year old babes, calm down. He hasn't even lost all his baby teeth yet.
As for the last one, I'm going to put it under a read more. TW for bugs and Danny rotting, but its ok he's fine with it.
Bug Boi (title to be changed later) has been shelved indefinitely for. Many reasons! I have. So much to write. Bug Boi is, for those who do not know. Where I put as many bugs into the boy as possible. He loses organ privileges and instead becomes the landlord for a hoard of different bugs. He loves them, and they love him, and when they die (as bugs often do) they give him their little bug souls as a thank you so he because More Bug.
Anyway, I recently learned about the scorpion fly, who looks like this:
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It is so cool, and has recently (idk how recently) been seen in forensic entomology, meaning that I can put these fuckers into Danny's eye sockets or esophagus or wherever else and be. Not technically wrong!! I have no idea if Bug Boi will ever be taken off of my list of to be written, but if nothing else it gives for me a place to put bugs.
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jones7thavenue · 1 year
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2023 Diary Entry No. 8
I just took my lunchtime medicine before the alarms sounded off. I'm so scared that the credit department is going to say no, but, once Friday comes up, and the total opposite happens, then I'll be happy again. For now, I need to focus on my dopamine dry spell, which Mr. McDumbass Motherfucker caused, and I'm just.....fuck. He cheated on me, used me for money and bullshitting and partying. Now I have worse abandonment issues than my own fucking mother! I have to work twice as hard to keep myself from coming apart, due to the shit I'm in. Whining isn't helping at all. To get out of the shitty situation I'm in, I need to be busier than before. [sigh]
Right now, I'm watching listening to the playlist, Weightless, on shuffle with my parents, as I'm writing this entry. A NC number called, I hung up and blocked said number. It pissed me off, so I don't know if the MF were even a credit collections guy there, but I also don'g give a gd fuck; I've been in a mood to elongate my universal shit list; the longer it gets, the happier I feel, masked or not. Now that my grandmother and them are on my shit list, the best thing I can do is just avoid anything that associates the names, David, Tyler, and Richard [ex bf names] and also Francis, Thomas, Shirley [family names], unless they can prove their worthiness to me. Should I change my name Alistaire F. D. Jones, there's going to be a McHuge McDick of a McMotherfucking McProblem, when my deadname comes out of the mouths of the McDumbass Coven, so fuck the Coven of Toads, aka the McDumbass Coven!
Anyway, I'm going to play Kombat League online in a bit, after getting myself together, now that I have a new body wash to clean myself with. I also need a break after the move, but, right now, I have no more resources to have anything involving convenience, for convenience is what brought me in this shitty situation in the first fucking place. At first, misery help me gain a shit load of weight, having stayed at this shitty, moldy ass place with my parents, eating anything to get better. Because of my issues, and those of my parents, which both McDumbass and Pops caused, we have a grace period of two weeks to find a new place to start over elsewhere before [that landlord] even gives us an eviction notice for a month. {the workers} didn't care to fix a damn thing in this bitch, so, once we get approved, we are so done with here, like I've fucking been for the past 1.5 years. The misery I've gained [from the abusive shit in the relationshit] is still hanging over me, and I'm so done with having been emotionally, and physically drained, from so many fucking errands and this fucking relationship of convenience shit. So, yeah. I wanted a family, but only at this age, not my late 20s, but, fuck it.
Anyway, we're watching Cops. My plans for tonight are to sleep for the night, or game, should I stay up late again.
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starshipkirby · 1 year
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whenever i made my last post i felt so low and overwhelmed. today I am just whelmed. underwhelmed even. good things happened...
i got a good mark on my first assignment but lost a ton of marks just because my powerpoint didn't play with audio. i have office 2006 (yay good fun software. 2006 office is my trusted old friend. I've had it for almost 16 years now) but I learned that apparently ppt 2006 does not bundle audio when you save it, as a known bug. i didn't know this! but I managed to fix it and now I know. the teacher let me resubmit it today :D
i JUST got off of a call while writing this post about adobe cancelling my plan and refunding me my money in the next week. may have jumped the gun on buying the new discounted plan (blech I can't find um. good fun versions of all the adobe software I need, all I have are 2021 versions of photoshop and premiere pro) because it's not working right now. (I got the confirmation for cancelling my plan AFTER buying the new plan SMH) so I'll probably have to call them and check my credit card, but at least I can do my assignments on premiere pro and also at school bc on campus I have access)
whatever i was panicking about on the weekend assignment-wise ended up not being any work at all?? i finished it during class with some advice from a friend and the teacher, submitted it on time. the other one, everything else was due next week. but i hate this teacher I'm like emailing him AFTER messaging my 6-person group (no one answered) plus another person outside of my group about a certain part of an assignment and no one answered.... i email him and he's like "just talk to your group members you will have a great assignment" THAT WASNT MY QUESTION! the notes made it seem like it was due tomorrow, but it's next week. so I'm chilling
and today, for the same class i got good marks on for the powerpoint presentation (had a 2-part midterm. one was a written test I did well on, but I knew this a month ago. the 2nd part was a practical (photography, take 3 specific portrait shots))... apparently while I was having the worst shit of my life in the school bathrooms and came late, my assignment was put up on the hall of fame ^_^ I didn't know until 2 hours later. although my classmate who modelled said he didn't like one of my photos because I made him look 'gay' 🙄 and they were joking about that 🙄 and abt the teacher only liking it bc it was gay which I obv didn't like
also realized this same person didn't hear me announce my pronouns a month ago sjdjkdfs which is kind of funny bc him and another person both didn't realize bc they were staring into space and at the time I wasn't sure what was going on... were they mad at me??? only 1/3 of the new people (2/2 of the people i told the week before were also there) acknowledged it at the time... but 2 weeks ago i brought up my Instagram i don't use bc i added her and just clarified to just use my name not my pronouns there bc i have family, and she was so confused. that's when i realized she really was spacing out back then and realized here perhaps i should restate my pronouns bc I'm being misgendered by him AND he hadn't said anything back then. so yup was just spacing out so cool.
these people don't know im gay yet either so I didn't say anything... and while i won't say I'm gay i need to think abt how to approach this whole 'you made me look gay' sometime (it had to do with the fact his hands were framing his face but i genuinely didn't know what to do the instructions said every pose had to be different! also who caresssss. instead of saying that, u could have said oh i didn't like the pose i wanted to look more powerful or less soft. or something. personal preference (which of course isn't above critique but i hope u know what i mean)
but i digress this is still overall a good post
i have 2 more good things but i want to make a joke so I'm posting it separately from this
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witheringvoice · 2 years
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Not A Vent Poem, A Vent
I wish I could be the type of person who gets pissed. I rarely do, I'm upset, I'm slightly peeved, how do you spell that? Grammarly will probably tell me if I got it right, I don't have premium tho. Oh well.
TW: Mentions of abuse, suicidal thoughts, whatever else, PTSD, stuff like that
I have struggled with sleep for as long as I could remember. When I was young, I had too much energy or random nightmares, or I just didn't have the lack of energy to be able to fall asleep and I was too restless not to. And don't forget the fact I'm the jumpiest motherfucker I know, I can't block out noises and any little noise will make me have to restart the passing out process, especially if it scares me shitless. And sometimes what I listen to sleep (some form of sleep aid, music related, an old stream, old youtube videos, music in general) doesn't work and I have to spend god knows how long finding something else that will be "calm" yet also mind-numbing enough to keep me distracted from my restlessness and constant moving brain to keep me able to sleep. And also, not to mention the fact that I did something dumb during quarantine, and now sleeping is so hard because I have to literally create a fucking dream before passing out, and to my dismay that is never the actual dreams I have, plus my constant waking up nearly every hour. For fucks sake.
When someone talks shit about my problems, it can really get to me. Like, yeah, I know I should be asleep. You don't think I want to be? It's four thirty-five am and I'm desperate to sleep, but I'm also too scared to because I know the moment I attempt to close my eyes I'll be met with a nightmare, a dream of some kind that might have something emotionally affecting even if it's not a nightmare, a dream that is happy or chaotic and I'll end up being saddened by, or the fact that I won't be able to sleep at all, which is always the thing that happens, ALWAYS. There have been times when I almost passed out at school, passed out on my feet, nearly fell over, and collapsed. Blood rushes to my head every time I get up, I lose my vision, I don't know what happens to me, I don't know why I can't sleep, anxiety? depression? PTSD? other issues I have?
I'm hurt, I'm scared, I'm lost. And my own fucking mother has the audacity to say in a disappointed, and irritated raised voice, "you really need to fix your sleep schedule" or something like that. Mom, my deal mum, dearest mom (I can't call her mother, my friend's nickname is mother, mother is cool, my mom isn't always very cool), I CAN'T. I can't fucking sleep, I know I desperately need to, the school year's coming up, and I really need to sleep. I'll be starting high school, I'll be starting pre-calculus, I'll be starting extra fucking anxiety because I went to a project-based middle school which was a lot fucking smaller than the other middle school in the district and I could barely handle that many students. There has been a multitude of times over the last school year, and much before that too, when I've functioned on an hour or less sleep (to be fair I also have such bad anxiety that I have to wake up so fucking early or I'll believe I'm late, even if there is no possible way I'll be late. Oh god and my moms gonna be driving me to school now, oh god we used to get late a lot, what the fuck am I gonna do, the stares, the disappointment of my teachers...), AND YEAH IT FUCKING SUCKED. But I survived, I managed, and somehow, I am not dead. She should be fucking proud, fucking proud that I haven't given up, done some horrible fucked up shit to me that I've thought about, that I keep trying, that I attempt to get sleep eventually, that I manage to get a sliver of sleep even if it's restless fucking sleep that sometimes does less damage than good. She should be fucking proud that my grades were fine, that I'm an overachiever and I'm going to high school having already taken some high school classes and am going in with some random ass credits that a normal freshman should have, I HAVE/HAD THE OPPORTUNITY TO POTENTIAL GO AND BE A SOPHOMORE, to be fair I still don't know if that opportunity will happen, BUT IT WAS A POSSIBILITY. And I'm tired, so tired, physically, emotionally, mentally, in every way possible. I've been tired for so long, and she has the fucking audacity. God, I love her, I've loved her even probably when I shouldn't, through all of the fucking terrible shit she's done, I didn't even bat an eye and say anything about it, I tried to be her happy-go-lucky smart little beam of a child. I tried to be the youngest little cheerful prodigy. So much of myself has been fake since I can remember, and I don't even know who I am anymore. All I know is work, work work work. School is all I'm good at, and I'm not even good at it anymore. I loved to learn, but now I'm tired. I'm so tired, I'm so so tired. Please, she tries her best, right? Yeah she gambles, yeah she smokes even though I'm allergic and gave me asthma because of it, yeah she's physically harmed me a few times, but not as much as she did to my siblings before I was born! She used to be really bad, she's told me a lot. She tells me I should be happy she's better, is that a bad thing for her to say? I don't know, I don't know. She's said a lot of really bad shit, she doesn't drink much anymore though she never really got drunk around us. She's just stressed, right? I mean yeah she shouldn't have taken it out on us, and yeah it's only me now but I'm the least argumentative! I'm so quiet, haha my name's Silence...What am I gonna do? She isn't the worst mother in the world, I should be grateful, right? She's barely physically harmed me, and those times were so far in between each other, she'd never do it again, right? When she got into bad arguments with my brother it was scary, they got physical a few times, and it was really really scary. I don't like arguing, I don't think my therapist realizes my PTSD doesn't just stem from the Victor incident, that was just the final straw, the final trigger. Or at least I think so, arguments always sort of triggered me, and then that incident happened and then everyone was like- "Oh fuck this child has PTSD now." No, I probably had it, but nobody noticed because I cover for my family.
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losing my mind again about my car being garbage and this business driving my up the goddamn wall
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