#also im at work and Really Hungry

[xenomorphicdna]

Flames,, blanket boy, my beloved

I gotta draw more art like this of him, he's such an odd creature I love him so much

There's so much to his character that I never talk about aaa I'll make a lore post eventually

#i have thoughts about this guy #he's so hungry for affection and that social and physical contact he see's all the people in his city get #he's takes up so much after them in so many ways #maintenance on this guy... mechanics working on checking all the wires and circuits and touching all the sensitive nerves and neuron flies #its nice that his entire structure is well taken care of but he also wouldnt be able to focus on anything else #he's so used to working in perfect undisturbed conitions..must be so distracting when something changes #he'd have his overseers watching as they plug things in and test stuff and poke around in his guts #and maybe he'll enjoy it a too much and he'll beep when a cable is pushed in.. its not like the sounds are unusual #the structure is alway whirling and buzzing.. whats a few extra clicks and hums when a particularly sensitive component is touched #its not like they would know unless they were really paying attention to the sounds and looking for a reaction #trying to please their beloved supercomputer #he longs for the same love they're capable of but it does quite work out. They can't hug him in a way that feels the same #does affection mean anything to him when its so little. They cant love him in a way that properly means something #i guess flames eventually getting into a relationship fills that affection hole #someone who speaks the same language. someone who he can relate to and understand #someone capable of touching all his systems in just the right way #ajfjsj went off i the tags here uh im so tired im kinda losing consciousness as i was typing oops #rain world #iterator #rain world oc #iterator oc #oc four blue flames #drawins #suggestive

[opens-up-4-nobody]

The Terror fandom: what screencap moment should I draw?

#there r just so many good ones. we r at the end of vanity. i am hungry and i want to live. watercoloring. climbing exercises. #come with us. pls. like daved young we too r at the gates. #except i genuinely cant stand hickey so im not inclined to draw him or his gang. oh god. i really should do the david young eulogy #its so fucking insane. those fucking lines. we too r at the gates. jacobs ladder. yeah mate u r at the gates of hell not greatness #god. i love this show. rent free in my head since like 2021 or whatever i watched it 1st #goodsir is my fav forever. but i also lov jamy ftzjammies #unrelated #the terror #amc the terror #listen. im sad that i have to work tomorrow so im being needy #wait shit. jacobs ladder is the 2nd eulogy #oh god. how could i forget: like a dream sir

[butchcharliee]

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#being a cashier is absolutely horrible #my first day actually on the register was during today on black friday #it triggered everything that's neurodivergent about me #it was extremely overwhelming to the point i cried #sobbed even #i was completely lost #and apparently on my 4 hour shift #im not supposed to have lunch #but the lady that was training me told me to go on my lunch #and i was also really hungry so i thoight it was okay #but apparently it wasnt and nobody told me #also nobody told me i was supposed to clock in and out before and after my lunch #so i was on my lunch during my work hours #so i fucking cried and that same lady told me to sit out bc my face was covered in tears #:( #i dont wanna do it again tomorrow #i wanna be in my partner's arms instead

[reinedeslys-central]

so like sometimes it's only been a couple hours after you've eaten and you're wondering if you're wondering if you're hungry - but maybe you're just, like, hungry in your head, right? Not actually hungry? So you don't need to eat because that would be overeating, like at a buffet where you stop eating when your stomach feels like it's going to burst? wrong your stomach has an early warning system

no yeah fast forward to two hours later when you're kinda lowkey starving and you go, oh. huh. bodies don't lie.

listen to your organs y'all 😅

#also i think it's cool that sometimes when you're hungry or half-hungry you can kinda wade in the fog of it and find out what you're craving #like oh im really craving....rice #just rice #so I go #oh!! carbs!! you're low on energy and probably really tired and stressed atm!! here you go body!! have some good fast-energy glucose!! #and other times you just really want something cold and crunchy and kinda sweet and sharp and tasty and I go #you haven't been having your fruits son go pack an apple and some celery and some peanut butter with those nice fats to help with digestion #I have such a weird relationship with food and eating lol #we are Improving #listen to your body!! It's telling you what it needs! It's never overeating if you're giving your body what it Actually wants and needs #I wanted smth crunchy and salty did I want chips or grilled chicken #and yes 'junk' foods are useful too. I just have to remember to consider when it's an indulgence craving necessity or a crutch #I'm not a dietician but it still holds that no foods are bad!! just work with your body #it's hard sometimes but it's always there for you and getting you through the day so you gotta be there for it too! #take care of those daily functions!! #message to everyone and more to myself lol #food #eating #eating habits #self care #healthy eating

[katewalker]

Coloured squares, flashing light

Spinning ball, pizza night

#im hungry and tired #i want to go home bc it's sunny outside #and i dont work on fridays anymore until may #also i really do crave a good pizza #pau.txt

[danielnelsen]

always fun to remind myself of the side effects of my thyroid meds

#the first time i treated my thyroid my endo was like ‘i havent had a patient who had this happen for a while so im due for one’ THANKS MAN #personal #im just waiting for it to hurry up and work. my health has PLUMMETED in the last week or so #im so sick and i can’t DO ANYTHING. including SLEEP. even if i was getting enough good sleep i was be exhausted but i’m not so. #the energy’s doing Great #and i’m so hungry all the time but also nauseous so all food is unappealing #genuinely have no idea how i made it through years 7-10 undiagnosed. no wonder i ended up with such a severe phobia of going to bed???????? #i don’t have to worry about routine right now so it’s not as stressful (just horrible because i’m so tired) but i COULDNT SLEEP back then #im just relieved that this time it was found through a routine check rather than me getting a test because of symptoms #usually i test when my anxiety gets really bad in a specific way #but my anxiety isn’t bad this time. no panic attacks and also no migraines. those are all usually the worst to deal with #so comparatively this isn’t even a particularly bad episode?/relapse?/flare? #still more sick than i’ve been in……..years? #im not sure if covid was better or worse. but it was only really bad for a week #this’ll be worse overall because it’ll last a lot longer #hopefully only a month or two but that’s still a few months of my life that just vanish. cool!!!!!!!!!!! #and there wasn’t even a notable event to trigger it this time. first time was whooping cough and subsequent times have been things like— #starting uni and then the last 2 years of uni where i took 10 units in one year then overworked myself doing my thesis #im SLIGHTLY worried that maybe i’ve developed rheumatoid arthritis and that set it off because it’s also autoimmune #i should see my gp soon to get a general antibody test. my joint have been so bad it’s been hard to walk for quite a few months #idk man it all sucks. but for now at least i have my white blood cells (even if they’re literally the problem lmao)

[desolationlovers]

topamax for migraines is like doing drugs except you dont get a single enjoyable part of being high it just makes you stupid and tired and you cant think and also lightheaded. cant i atleast have a little euphoria. as a treat. im literally just taking stupid pills and i still have headaches

#also muscle weakness. i really shouldnt be driving. or going to work. alas i do not have a fucking choice #bro i can barely spell rn #also im not hungry anymore #wails

[kil9]

i luv doing what i call "passive breakfast" which is rather than having something that i have to eat in one sitting, finding smth that i can just snack on and pick at for the first 3-4 hours of me being awake

#99.txt #becoming an adult means getting excited about shit like this #i really dont get hungry in the morning tho so its nice to not make myself feel sick by trying to eat a whole meal. #but also i dont have to run on empty this way #i realised after moving in with maddi that i really dont eat a lot at all...... #just since im fat ive been convinced my whole life that i must be eating way too much.... #the way my metabolism works is it wants a lot of snacks throughout the day and one main meal #i am somehow losing weight tho. not that i care much its just interesting #i think because im in england now stuff is just overall more healthy.... #its hard to find real sugar soda & even when it is.. the ammt of sugar is less than america it seems like #america will add sugar to the damnedest things #maddi says i have to put it back on so i dont disappear 💀💀 #also yeah with metabolism. everyone thinks fast metabolism is like. the only way to be. and if u dont have that its bad.... #and i really disagree #i think its just apples and oranges. whichever way you work just figure out how to accommodate for it and then its fine

[plasticsandwich]

you people need to stop posting such beautiful art it takes me 10 hours to appreciate every line while i break down in tears and repeat

#plus nothings working good rn so stuff is just buffering half the time #making my work even harder but. i love doing it #im also really hungry so i think ill. go and eat #diary

[carcarrot]

it's all a little much right now!!!

#hating my job 👍 yet cant work anywhere else for better pay/benefits 👍 #also. Very overwhelmed making future plans #and i wouldnt be nearly as stressed out if i didnt have to eventually tell my dad abt all of this #and convince him i need to spend all this money either that or i gaslight him and tell him two days beforehand that i told him months ago #also just nervous about getting good seats for the hbowl concert. but i gotta #im also even second guessing goin to the nyc show bc its gonna be a pain getting back home #but i dont wanna pass up seeing the first and last shows of the us tour ik thats gonna be fun. #also im even more distressed bc im really hungry rn so im gonna eat something

[bones-n-bookles]

Venty vent oooooo

CW for disordered eating

#why is eating. so. fucking. hard. #i was doing FINE on my trip #and then suddenly im back home and just. can barely put a damn thing in my stomach. #theres no Thoughts accompanying it #just Every Single Food Item looks Absolutely Horrible and trying to nibble on things even is gross #yesterday i had. 3 sips of coffee and a few gulps of mango juice. #today i am at work and managed most of a sleeve of thin mints; some more mango juice; and like. not even two bites of a pancake #MY BODY IS SO HUNGRY AND IM SO NAUSEOUS #im doing less physically demanding work than usual today which is like. good and bad ig #im not suffering too bad but also if i were then mAYBE I COULD MF EAT #idk im just. frustrated with myself. i dont even know whats causing this so idk how to deal with it. #my dysphoria is fucking raging but thats not the driving issue rn and my general body issue thoughts arent really driving it either #they are both happier but theyre not like. whats causing this #i just wanna be able to eat so i can have less fucking brainfog #oh i had a monster today too #idk why everything is suddenly so nasty tho #even foods i usually like dont sound good

[husberttee]

my lifestyle these days is truly Not It like i need to fix this somehow

#sleeping before 3am isnt really happening these days #and i just got in bed all done and ready just to realise that I haven't actually eaten today????? #like i kinda forgot and wasn't very hungry and i was also very busy keeping my gf out of the trenches #but i had like. 1 doughnut. 3 vegan meat balls. 10 grapes + similar amount of small blocks of cheese (on toothpicks). 3 glasses of wine #maybe a handful of chips (pombären) #this could count as one full meal i guess but idk. not my best work #the struggle of husbert #now im trying to figure out if im maybe slightly hungry but also its 2:12am and i already brushed my teeth so. meh #and i have a headache so that's cool

[if-th3n-else]

Had my first therapy today (actually it's not a classical type of therapy) and I have to fill various questionnaires to evaluate my anxiety, phobias, depression etc. And you know it's the "never" "rarely" "always" etc. types of situations and I can feel a disaster incoming.

I know you can't fail a mental health evaluation, I'm just saying that I'm going to fail at my own mental health evaluation lmao

#i hope it does not end up as badly as the onlines one 💀 #but the online ones don't count #plus it's gonna be so like... contradictory?????? #because take being in a crowd #i don't like it for shopping or in the bus or whatever #however for a concert from a band i love? i manage to get over it #also take the fact that i can't go to the restaurant alone except when im really hungry #HOWEVER I've been able to go to Germany on my own with nobody else??? #and generally speaking when I'm on vacation on my own i have no problem going to the restaurant???? #it makes fucking sense at all #im doomed #there is so much work to do for 50€ a session... #i don't even know how much my insurance is gonna refund #but... i can't close my eyes anymore

[humanmorph]

you know that shower oranges thing. theres like a subreddit for it. and i was always like haha thats funny but now that ive been eating oranges this past week for lunch at work and theyre like, really good? im like wow. what if. what of i ate an cold orange just biting into it while taking a hot shower. what if that could actually rock

#for some reason in my mind it was also the criteria of doing it in the dark but thats not on the subreddit rules at the very least so #not sure where i got it from..... #and i wouldnt do it anyways taking a shower in the dark sounds dangerous #at dawn maybe. #i need to take a shower rn but i dont want to eat an orange because im not hungry... #and we dont have many left and i wanna take one w me to work tomorrow again #rosa rambles #but really its. you know i havent had a whole orange before like ever. i always stuck to mandarines but man? these are great? #idk why i never bothered before i love orange juice. i think i thought they were harder to eat but its like #its fine. it works. its not THAT messy