#also like. No . declan isnt ur father ronan.

[declqn]

y’all  just  simply  don’t  understand  how  much  declan  loves  his  brothers

#when ronan in uh trk is all like #'[declan] hated me first' i wanna scream bc #that could so not be further from the truth #ronan u naive sunbeam u absolute dolt u idiot #declan loves u SO MUCH . #sososososososo much . and ok like. maybe it didn't come Out Right sometimes #and his frustration got the better of him #but its bc he was Trying and Trying and u were Pushing and Pushing #hes loved u from the moment u were born even tho u represented everything u could never be or have #and hes loved matthew from the moment the boy appeared even if he has complicated views on matthew's 'realness' #he gave up possible Futures for the both of u #and has put his career in jeopardy to make sure the two of u are ok #he hides secrets to protect u :( bc he love u n wants u to be Happy #anyway . fuck declan loves his brothers so much it hurts my heart #i think the quote is actually '[declan] started hating me first' but anw #also like. No . declan isnt ur father ronan. #he doesn't Want to be. #but he knew u needed some semblance of stability in ur years at aglionby #and he was just looking out for u and had ur best interests at heart #hence wanting u to finish school #and making sure gansey could contact him if necessary #showing up to monmouth bc ur failing school #when he has his own schooling AND matthews to focus on #also . being matthew's roommate #like . boy. #he didn't wanna be a dad but he stepped into that role wholeheartedly and just Tried His Best #and ahhhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH