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#also literally is fine with killing everyone in the world because he can't accept change
itsrainingbubbles Β· 4 months
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I like reading about Luffy starving because there is something wrong with me and I like to see him suffer because he's my favorite <3
But also because of the sanji angst and sanlu
Like them running out of food while they're still days away from an island so they have to ration food and Luffy needs more food because he has a really high metabolism but he refuses to eat because his crew comes first and how distraught sanji would be as the cook
He'd be begging Luffy to eat because Luffy is literally starving but Luffy would ask if there would be enough for everyone to eat and Sanji would stay quiet and then Luffy would refuse the food (forget about fish for a moment idk what happened to them but they're gone)
Or Luffy getting captured by some pirates and he doesn't get fed for days before his crew find him and sanji having to resist the need to feed him a mountain of meat because chopper says it would be bad for him
And this is very ooc because Luffy doesn't care what anyone says about him but what if suddenly everyone yelling at him for his eating habits gets to him and he decides to just stop
He still does eat but it's usually one or two servings and it's not enough for him because of his really high metabolism and he's starving
And at first everyone was really confused about the sudden change and a little worried but Luffy seemed to be doing fine after a few days and they all accepted it as the new normal and were even encouraging it
Sanji talks about all the free time he has now that he doesn't have to constantly fight off a hungry luffy and Nami is delighted about all the money they can save on food and Usopp is really glad he no longer has to protect his plate during meals like it's the world's most precious treasure
And Luffy sees how much happier his crew is and he can't bring himself to take it away so he bites his tongue and keeps ignoring his body for them
He quickly starts losing strength and starts sleeping the days away barely waking up to eat, chopper gives him a check up but can't figure out what's wrong (idk how doctor stuff works, since he's eating enough for a normal human chopper doesn't think he could be starving)
It gets really bad and chopper is working day and night trying to figure out what's wrong and he's blaming himself for not being a good enough doctor and Luffy knows what's wrong but he doesn't want to upset his crew but they're really upset right now and he doesn't know what to do
Eventually he does come out and say it when chopper decides to ask him if he has any idea of what may be wrong and he starts off with "promise you won't be mad" because I can't imagine Luffy starting that off any other way
So Luffy tells chopper and he is horrified and immediately orders something from sanji and the word spreads quickly and soon everyone knows Luffy was starving himself because of them and they all feel really bad about it
White Luffy is being fed a soup because he became too weak to do it himself everyone is there with him crying and asking why he didn't just eat more of it was killing him and Luffy would say that they were all so happy when he stopped eating as much and he didn't want to take kr all away and it makes everyone feels worse
When he gets better they never complain about his eating habits again and they have a really low tolerance for other people commenting about it either and it becomes well known not to do that unless you have a death wish
It would probably be a slow recovery though
Luffy would still be hesitant to eat more than two plates even if Sanji had been cooking all of his favorites amd je would eventually make a full recovery but I just really want the angst of the strawhats begging their captain to eat, something they hadn't thought they'd ever need to do, and knowing he was hesitating because of them
And imagine how guilty they would all feel about the comments they made and trying to take it back and them seeing how much it really affected him
I got really carried away with that last one and I could definitely keep talking about it but at this point I might as well make it into an actual story
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I read a lot of Captain America fanfiction last year. People have written some pretty amazing stuff! But also. I disagreed with Steve's characterization like 90% of the time. πŸ™ˆπŸ˜…πŸ˜‚ With those kind of statistics, am I the one who's wrong??
I don't know but I'm tired of holding it in. I need to complain about this or I'll lose my mind. This is just my own personal opinion of course etc etc.
Anyway here is a list of things that annoy me in Captain America fanfiction
- When Steve is Soo depressed that all he does is mope around crying about Bucky and never does a single useful thing. Look I understand that he's kind of in a rough place, with everybody he ever knew being dead and all and I get that even the best of us can get depressed and there's nothing wrong with exploring this. But I dunno. I kinda just want to read a fic where he's well-adjusted for once.
- There is this trope where after CATWS Steve and/or Bucky go around killing endless mooks in HYDRA bases. I understand it's necessary for them to have something to do but. I just have serious questions about the legality of the situation. If you go to a foreign country and you kill a citizen of that country, that's still murder and, I think, illegal, even if that citizen is a terrorist or a neo-nazi or something. You can't just do that, right? Bucky can get away with it maybe, being in a gray zone of legal existence himself, but not Steve. And either way.... YES they are HYDRA and they are EVIL but nonetheless, they are still human, in the end? How is HYDRA recruiting all these people anyways? That's probably a thing they should be worried about, rather than just blowing up bases, idk.
- That particular genre of Bucky Recovery fic where they spend the whole time doing absolutely nothing but Help Bucky Recover. Like they just sit there in Steve's apartment or wherever. But look we all lived through the pandemic, staying in the same room doing nothing all day is not going to do wonders for anybody's mental health. How can they stand it? Go touch some grass.
- Similarly, when Steve has no life outside Bucky. I guess I'm not really a big fan of codependent relationships in general. But like, okay sure Bucky is your world your home your everything your silly rabbit that's great but personally I think it's sort of a shallow world if all you care about is one person. Take a look around you! The world is full of so many other things worth fighting for. Help Bucky, sure, but that shouldn't be the only thing going on in Steve's life. Get some hobbies man. Talk to your neighbours. Use your clout to make positive political change. Idk. He's Captain America why does he act like he has literally nothing better to do than sit around watching Bucky like he's a freshly painted wall.
- When Steve refuses to accept that Bucky doesn't remember him and hangs around Bucky like a rejected puppy. First of all, I think Steve is intelligent enough to accept that Bucky's not going to be the same after everything. And secondly, I think that he respects people autonomy enough to not force himself into Bucky's life. Give him a little credit, come on.
- When they take in Bucky after CATWS and put him in a blank white room he can't leave, all to help him "recover" and everyone is totally okay with that. Like guys do you not realize how you are treating him? Surely there must be a better way to rehabilitate him. Steve, at the very least, should be advocating for something better. Yeah I get that the Winter Soldier's soooo dangerous but so is the Hulk and they let Bruce walk around just fine. πŸ™„ They should at least realize what they are doing is kind of messed up
- It's not that I don't think Tony is allowed to be angry that Bucky killed his parents. It's just that, personally, I think his relationship with his parents is a little complicated, and so his reaction too, will be complicated and also likely different depending on the circumstances. People probably feel that because canonically he flew into a rage that's what will always happen, but that doesn't have to be the case!
- when they are in Wakanda and it's treated like some kind of extended vacation home. This isn't a hotel, it's a completely other county with its own issues and cultures and that should be addressed. Similarly, it's cute when Bucky and Shuri become friends but honestly I think she has waaaay too many other things to do that he barely tops her priorities. Like he's not That important. He's just some white dude.
- When Bucky EXPLICITLY asks not to be called Bucky but Steve keeps doing it.
- When Steve is portrayed as this incompetent idiot who always rushes into things without thinking and Bucky's the only brain cell of the operation. I just think that Captain America should be at least a little bit cool, you know. He should be the kind of person you can't help but admire. He should do something good and true every now and then. He's a superhero! I want to see him do something heroic! In some stories he's just so lame it drives me up the wall.
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fantadym Β· 1 year
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Personal question: what something you hope to see in s2 of arcane? :3c
Man I hope to see a lot
(Mention I do not play Leauge. My scope is limited to show a d i like it that way tbh. Lol)
I want to know what happened between Vander and Silco. I don't know if what happened will be something the characters will be made aware of, only because unsure how that would happen. But end of the day what came of it isn't good but I want closure on what it even was. I want to understand what happened that has lead to history repeating now for Vi and Jinx.
I also want Silco to stay dead. Or at least the version of him we know (long story). For me the impact of his story, who he was, and how it affected jinx was wonderfully brought to an end with his death. I really don't want him brought back in any way. I doubt he would be but his death was the perfect ending for him and I personally think no matter what (jinx or not) he was always going to die. That's just how his story was always going to end. Also I just don't like character death and then "surprise they live" kinda stuff to often. Sometimes it's fine though! But in this instance his death was important and impactful and argue what you like about him but his death is ultimately what set Jinx on deciding herself who she was. I can feel him being back at any capacity would be literal dead haunting her and I can't imagine that would be any good for her. The closure he gave her being taken away.
I also want the show to continue forward with its question and a clear answer we will never get. At the end of the day you can't excuse what some of the characters do, but they are human (in that like to err is human way) and that comes with their own traumas, ideals, mistakes, etc. I want to be annoyed with more characters and horribly upset at others. But I want be annoyed not because they suck or poor writing (but tbh who WANTS that unless it's love to hate. Lol) but because I understand what their going through and I see the mistakes being made. I also want to see the stuff I DONT understand. I want to learn. I only know so much, everyone's experiences are different.
I want Vi and Caitlyn to have more moments together. Figuring out who they are together and apart and addressing how Vi has been stuck in place since being in Stillwater. Her life was put on hold and her mind was stuck in the past. I want more of that. We saw Jinx finally make her call to become Jinx and let go. Whether or not her realization was necessary for her, or even healthy, Jinx has made her call. We saw her struggle with it as missing her sister but feeling conflicted on if her sister still cared about her (though a lot of it was from being fed that narrative about betrayal from silco her last interaction with her sister was unpleasant and Vi never got her chance to fix it). So now I want to see Vi deal with that. That everything IS different and this thing she held onto about saving her sister lead to her sister asking her to kill caitlyn and then attack the council. I like to think Vi understood Jinx really saw silco as a father after what happened, which isn't something I think she'd easily come to terms with. Vi has been stuck in time since she was taken away. Disconnected from the world outside. Now I want to see her accepting that and how she chooses to move forward. Because everything from the past seems gone now. Accepting change, especially change as big as what Vi has had to go through, is hard.
I want to also see what happens with Jayce and Viktor. With Zaun in the eyes of the council and Piltover. How the lives lost will be handled. How the pieces will be put back together. Or, if things will just get worse and worse with everyone else caught in the middle of it all.
And small thing mostly for me but I want Vi to talk about Mylo and Claggor a little bit. They were her brothers too and they never got to live their lives. So far we've only seen them as the monsters in Jinx's head that won't leave her be. But I want to know them as Vi remembers them. Now that they are gone and time has altered the memories. I just want a little more. Because I genuinly liked them. Mylo was a HUGE jerk and ultimately the memory jinx has of him was cuz of his bullying. But still.
This was a LOT I realize I'm so sorry. Lol. I just have a lot I want to see and learn. And that one thing I don't want. Lol. And this was probably super rambly but here it is!
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xiu21chen99 Β· 4 years
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hxh headcanon/imagine.
again... still about hisoillu but about their engagement instead of illu's influenced fashion choice.
also this is more of... idk it gave reason why they chose to marry instead of uh other ways i guess??
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i've seen so many fanarts where illu would break the news to the zoldycks or how killu would react to having hisoka as his brother in law- like srsly it's meme worthy at this point- and lotsa ones that showed how hisoka proposed as a joke or smtg but... I've been overthinking abt it these past few days sO i present to you how i think "the big question aka the proposal" happened... (manga spoilers??)
it's after hisoka resurrected himself obviously, and def after he killed kortopi and shalnark (so he knew there was gonna be empty slots in the spiders' lineup)
i imagine illu went back to the zoldyck estate after the whole fiasco and only heard of hisoka's "death" from rumors while he was on a mission
and then when he was idk maybe contemplating on whether or not he should visit the body(?) to pay respects or something, he gets a text message from the devil himself
their text went like this probably:
hisoka: hey~ where are you right now?♠️ (and no u can't tell me hisoka doesn't text w card suits u just can't-)
illumi: who are you and how did you get the phone you are currently using?
hisoka: ooh~ illu~ i feel betrayed, did you delete my number?♣️
illumi: hisoka is dead
hisoka: *image attached*
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illumi: oh
illumi: hello hisoka, how are you still alive?
hisoka: you sound disappointed~♦️
illumi: i kind of am...
hisoka: rude, just tell me where you areβ™₯️
...and that's how they met up?? ngl i think illu has a know-it-all syndrome where he just has to,,, k n o w everything
he's curious so he agrees to the meetup ofc
he's also surprised when he sees hisoka is in good shape when they meet (idk at a bar in an unknown city?)
they drink whiskey on the rocks because... you know...
hisoka explains how he survived and his next plan of action (which is terminate the spiders)
illumi makes a mental note of nen after death bc he's heard and seen it all before but... not to this extent,
this is gonna be,,, bland but i think this is the logic behind why hisoka chose to get married/engaged instead of just paying up front (reference to the ten dons' commission to get chrollo killed and chrollo's commission to get the ten dons killed)--
anyways here's how their conversation goes:
i: "why did you want to talk in person?"
h: "oh y'know, for old times sake."
i: "...right"
hisoka laughs, "okay so maybe i want to ask you for a favor..?"
confused, illumi asks, "why could you not have just texted if you wanted me to kill someone for you?"
h: "no, no- wait, actually, you're not too far off."
i: ~mOrE cOnfUsiOn~ "huh?"
h: "how do contracts for assassination work in your... family business?"
i: "half the promised pay before, the remaining half afterwards. should the target be eliminated by a third party, the assigned zoldyck still gets the pay and should the employer die, then the contract is terminated and the zoldyck will report back immediately."
h: "and has anyone made a contract to have themselves terminated?"
i: "i beg your pardon?"
h: "what complications will arise should your employer's target be... themselves?"
i: "i believe... i have never encountered such circumstance before. the people who hire us are those who have enough money and resource to have their enemies killed quickly. no one's tried to test the zoldyck assassination prowess."
h: "so... how will that work?"
i: "are you implying this is the reason why you have contacted me today?"
h: "yes~ β™₯️" (how he said a heart emoji out loud is up to you, reader)
i: "it will be a pointless paradox. logically, the zoldyck will only get the employment bill. and i, myself, do not find pleasure in going for the kill like you lest i get my reward, so you will not get a contract out of me, hisoka."
h: "is there no leeway?"
i: "a zoldyck stands up to their word. so no."
h: "even for a friend?~ ♦️"
i: "we are not friends, hisoka-"
hisoka raises his glass of whiskey along with his eyebrow.
i: "oh..."
h: "didn't you tell dear killua that a zoldyck didn't need friends?"
i: "you... are an associate, someone reliable in the killing world. it's different."
h: "hypocrite"
i: "i ask you for favors and you make me return them. it is not like we spend our time together leisurely like killu with that island boy..."
hisoka clinks their matching glasses of whiskey even though his is already empty, a shit-eating grin on his lips.
i: "you suggested we meet here."
h: "this isn't the first time we went out to drink, right illu?"
i: "regardless!! i will not kill you just for half the money. i do not like wasting efforts on fruitless missions."
h: "as i said, is there no exception, to make sure you get my money if you were to succeed in killing me?"
i: "are you doubting my skill, hisoka?"
h: "that's not the point right now~ ♠️"
i: "wait, why do you want me to get all of your money?"
h: "haven't we just gotten over this subject? because you're my friend, of course."
i: "i... we are not friends, hisoka."
hisoka claps, "that's it! illumi!! ♣️"
i: "eh?"
h: "marry me! that way in our prenup I'll make sure you get all of my money, and even without a prenup you'll still get it since you'll be my only relative! that solves it!"
i: "hisoka, are you sure death did not took a toll on your brain? you did say you used Bungee Gum only on your heart and lungs..."
h: "i'm being serious, illumi!! and doesn't this solve your earlier conflict? we don't have to be friends, we'll be husbands!"
i: "do not use that tactic with me, you manipulative bastard. stop joking."
h: "this is purely beneficial for you, honestly i don't get why you just won't accept it."
i: "then humor me this first, why now?"
h: "dear illu, i've been to literal hell and back. i think it's time to leave my mark in case i fail to escape death again."
i: "was it that bad?"
h: "you'll love it there, illu~ β™₯️"
h: "on a more serious note, though, i do plan to marry you. out of everyone i've encountered, you're the most eligible candidate. you're powerful, fully capable and extremely pretty to boot! you're the ideal husband!"
(blushing obviously, illumi downs the remaining whiskey in his glass) i: "death has changed you, hisoka."
h: "so?"
i: "fine."
h: "excellent!"
and in one fell swoop, illumi has a pin against the curve of hisoka's jugular, wrist held tightly by hisoka- a card matching against his own neck.
"not yet, dear husband." hisoka whispered into his ear, "we have to manage the papers first. and i've a request before you do."
they let each other go at the same time, not even breathing an unnecessary breath in the other's personal space (well, they're nearly pressed thigh to thigh anyways, what's the point of personal space anymore-)
"a condition rather than a request, really."
"what?" hisoka orders them refills, and downs his when it arrives.
"join the ryodan first."
glass already pressed on thin lips, illumi's confused hum resonates softly into the concave utensil. "why?"
"so things can get more interesting. i assume you know of the dark continent expedition that's soon to take place?"
"father has advised i take part on it, since kalluto told me the ryodan plans to rob some cliches who'll join the expedition- to look after him. you want me to join them?"
"yes, and i plan to board as well, don't fret."
illumi's eyes turn to slits, "how should i know you would be there? i can't take your word when you might just disappear when we've all boarded."
hisoka grins, wide then wider, "you should know by now illu, i plan to avenge my wounded pride. that damned chrollo didn't even fight me properly."
tilting his head, illumi stared at the man beside him, "is that not contradictory? i thought you did not mind your opponent using whatever means necessary to win?"
"magicians use tricks and misdirection to awe the audience," hisoka says almost thoughtlessly, "chrollo's a narcissistic hypnotist who used the audience as a damned shield because he knew he couldn't handle me face-to-face."
he groans, tinged in regret. "i shouldn't have picked heaven's arena, if i'd chosen a more discreet location then maybe the damage won't be this bad."
"damage?" illumi rests his chin on his palm, facing his husband.
hisoka swipes a hand over his face, and the glamour comes off. the picture he sent illumi now present in front of him. he was missing a nose, his left hand didn't have any finger left and dried blood chipped on his white skin. "oh."
with another swipe, everything's made correct again. hisoka was grinning again. he downs the remaining alcohol and leaves jenny bills under the emptied glass.
"come, lovely husband. we're to elope and legalize our union!"
illumi follows suit after downing his own glass, "i think there might be another loop hole, if you were to join the family. zoldycks do not kill family."
"so if i were to wed you, here and now, you'd think me more of a family than alluka?"
"alluka is not family."
"are those your words, illumi? or silva's?"
"i..."
"wow, you're really just as fucked up as i am."
"where do you plan to take me? i've just said i cannot kill family."
hisoka chuckles, "then you're the one to take my name, of course."
"preposterous!"
"who the hell still uses that word?"
"i am and will always be a zoldyck-"
"exactly. it's just legal papers, if you kill me then you'll just be a widow and even get your name back! see how everything'll work out in the end?"
"hisoka-"
"are you doubting your skill of assassination, my dearest husband?"
"... i better get the most expensive ring in this damned city."
"that's the spirit! now let's go get married!"
"wait, hisoka. what is your last name?"
later that night, when they leave a chapel, something gold glimmers on hisoka's bungee gum/texture surprise ring finger. a matching one around illumi's finger.
unlike hisoka, though, illumi had an extra red glimmer right under that gold, in the dead center of a silver band of intricately designed pattern. hisoka had foregone the traditional diamond in favor of a 16 carat ruby engagement ring, such a curious choice but illumi accepted it all the same...
(much later on, hisoka took both rings as collateral and reminded illumi that he would get them back even if he died bc it was in their damn prenup- and bc it was technically bought under illumis name and that's how hisoka assured illu that he'd be on that black whale,,, bc he had the rings and planned to give them back to him there)
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"I thought a red gemstone was better suited for the rather bloody and murderous ending that our relationship will inevitably come to, wouldn't you agree?"
-Hisoka Morow whenever someone mentions his preference of proposal ring...
"I disagree with most of his ideals, our relationship has always had a fragile foundation, and I knew from the start that we'd eventually end up killing each other."
-Illumi Morow, nee Zoldyck when asked about his thoughts on his husband...
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aks3raao1 Β· 2 years
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You know, there's a thing with characters that foil each other and serve as the "good" and "bad" respectively (Toga/Himiko, Tenko/Izuku, Nagito/Hajime, Ryoko/Hajime, Atsushi/Akutagawa) but that trope felt rather annoying to write, especially in the world I am trying to write about (ALTERNATIVE's world is basically MHA X BSD but like. 1000 times more fucked up and the Specialised are always prejudiced against. A terrible lot).
The title itself, ALTERNATIVE is to symbolise Romila's POV of "infinite choices and paths present for every being" and how she starts off the story with a decisive line of,
"Many people ask me if this could have been avoided. They beg for me to tell them that things could have been better. There are others too, who try to justify that this was the only way for things to have been. If you ask me, both are living in states of denial. One can't accept the stupidity of humanity for disregarding common sense for violence and prejudices. Another can't accept humanity's choice for having better circumstances if the one with the power chose to."
The thing is, the running theme is that the story is a bittersweet one, despite there not being many deaths of the main characters, but there was always a junction where you can see it could have been avoided, that there was an "alternative" for things to have gotten better, especially in the first book.
Another reason for the title is that it's basically an "ALTERNATIVE" to this world of ours, where super powers and stuff like those exist.
The subtitles of both the books (Myriad of Colours, Colour of Death) signifies Romila's power, "Aura Tracker" which lets her view people's aura as colours (Myriad of Colours is to signify the different kinds of people she meets, Colour of Death is about what affects her the most (death) and how she's constantly seeing that colour everywhere, especially now that it's war).
The thing about ALTERNATIVES is that Romila could have chosen to be a doormat (like Koldin tends to be at the beginning (his rp self is like THAT due to circumstances different to ALTERNATIVE's actual storyline. Also because Hack's a nicer person to be around than Romila is) in order to nOt hAvE cOnFliCtβ„’) to not get into conflict and put up a super nice persona for people but she didn't. She decided to focus on hanging onto her reasons for doing what she does and using it to create a caustic personality to shield herself because she knows that she will regret being a doormat (Her Despair takes the form of Koldin Hopkins).
Now Koldin could have certainly put his hatred for society at the forefront and taken a caustic personality but instead chooses to be nice. Because he doesn't want to become as hurtful as the rest, that's how he wants to disentangle himself from society. However he, like Romila (who just took standing up for herself to extremes), takes this to the extremes causing him to gain the personality of a nice boyβ„’.
However this also goes into why they made the choices they did (which is what Romila realises during the Mansion of Death arc), because for Romila, she didn't really have the psychology for actually becoming a doormat (because a) Her mom wouldn't have it b) She hated to be called weak c) She didn't have anyone to fall back to after the inevitable consequences of being a doormat d) She felt that if she were to live with monsters, then it's easier to blend in by being one (this comes useful to her when she infiltrates into the Government) e) She saw doormats getting suicidal which frightened her) or not becoming fully caustic (since her standing up for herself wasn't. Liked. By. Anyone. And seen as aggressive and she basically went, "Well if they see me as bad, I will show them BAD" which led to her breakdown causing the incidents at the Mansion Of Death (especially a twisted hatred against Koldin for extremely understandable reasons).
For Koldin, being meek and peaceful had let him get by in the streets and his skills to difuse fights had come in handy. Later when Dr. Hopkins took him in, he was well. A member of the Radicals who were known to be extremely merciless towards the Specialised (he had defected but Koldin had a REALLY good reason to be wary) so he figured if he stayed nice, he wouldn't be kicked out of the house and Dr. Hopkins being Dr. Hopkins just assumed that it was his normal and that behaviour carried into school. He figured that it was a horrifying thing to be aggressive and then saw how Romila got treated and decided that yep, he was right, that confirmed his world view alright and it was more reason to be super nice. While Romila saw Koldin as a person who everyone took advantage of (a thing she hated. To be exploited just like that) and went, yep that confirmed hers and it was more reason to be super angry.
However the thing is that, Romila was chided for being anything, which caused her to just give up to be peaceful (because what would she do? Anything she tried to do got her scolded) while Koldin (thankfully) found a support system. It really goes to show the difference a good friend can do.....
As it is, when I first began writing this, the most obvious choice presented itself to me. Koldin is the "hope" and Romila is the "despair" (on the protagonist, deutergonist side) but that seemed stupid and boring as it wouldn't make sense. Since I am trying to make a point of showing with how Romila's world view gradually changes from "there are wrong and right choices" to the fact that it doesn't have to be rigid and that *now* she wouldn't be hurt if she used what her vulnerable side wanted (a world free of prejudices and unnecessary cruelty) with the talents she had. That kindness mixed with her usual personality won't literally kill her.
And for Koldin, being a doormat means that he got taken advantage of a lot by different people and since he refused to actually stand up for himself ("Ah...aha......it seems that I can't..." "Can't what?" "Feel angry for myself......it's always anger that comes from the ones I love being hurt" "Then love yourself too, you will feel angry again" ~ Koldin's conversation with his inverted self in the Labyrinth) he got. Taken advantage of. By virtually everyone. However he decided that if being nice would keep him keep his self and his name self then it would be fine. He did not want to be the source of grief (his actual parents tossed him out because of his Specialisation). The Mansion Of Death actually causes him to snap for that reason, because Romila literally puts him in a torture dream "for the greater good" and then proceeds to kill his dear friend. One thing Koldin HATED. Killing friends. (Due to them being run over by a car, which led to his paralysed left arm)
Now on the other side, their respective friends:
Romila:
Luja: Cynical and annoyed by people's stupidity but not to caustic extents and she wants to be a scientist and isn't haunted by the possibility of dying.
Kratanos: Full of anger and hatred against the world but not entirely blinded by it and is focused to using that anger for reformation of the world (she becomes a therapist later, to help people)
They both have her caustic parts but they also let themselves embrace another side which makes them her "balance".
Koldin:
Anand: Believes that there's no requirement for violence unless it's absolutely necessary.
Karishma: Figures it's a better idea to just listen to rules but doesn't hesitate to break them if she sees that they are bs
They both have his peacefulness, but don't hesitate to do what they think they should do, which makes them his "balance".
The point is that, the case of choosing alternatives isn't possible with a tunnel vision. Even so, there are choices that literally can't be made due to the individual and circumstances. Sometimes the choice is to choose more than one choice. Well, that's one dramatic storyline......
It reminds me of DDLC side stories since everyone has a bit of the other person's solutions and more of a opposite personality (don't take this the wrong way, there are many stories like that and it's honestly a favourite to think abt but it's just that DDLC does it well especially since it's only a school environment). Tbh, I like dramatic storylines that rlly dig deep into a character's perspective (reasons why I'm in love with Hack and Axel in particular). My whole thing is that I'd rather read a story with interesting and in depth characters than one where only the plot is good so I say you made the great call of the century with Koldin and Romila's characters.
What you thought before getting into it is rlly how every great character arc starts. You focus on one, somewhat forget the other one until you review every single character for inspiration and then BAM! PARALLELS! It's really admirable how, even in this messed up world of specializations, you didn't purely focus on the plot bc it honestly sounds interesting enough to just stick around for Romila's life and journey. You could have ended it all with just that, but no, you smacked Koldin in there and said "be my interesting on par character that can kick Romila's gut" and IT WORKED SPECTACULARLY!!!
I really love ur writing and hoping to one day read (and maybe print out) every story you've ever written bc GODDAMNIT I NEED THE FEELING OF THOSE WORDS ON WORN PAPER WITH AN ARTISTIC COVER AND AN AMAZINGLY HEAVY WEIGHT
Aka, paperback. Bc that's how I like to roll and that's how good I think it is. 1000% worthy of a bestseller
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(some) Riordanverse characters (bc I never read TKC) and which Hogwarts House I think they would be in
Warning: this is a long one
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Nico: the dude is definitely Gryffindor without a doubt. Like Sorting isn't about some traits and some characteristics, it's about core personality. He may have gone through some of the roughest stuff when he was 10-12, and he was resentful and bitter, but he was brave and bold af throughout everything he did. From learning about his powers, to using them relentlessly despite knowing how exhausted he is afterwards, to his willingness to do whatever is necessary to do what has to be done, because it has to be done. You can't change my mind that he's Gryffindor lol.
Grover: Do I even need to explain why he's Gryffindor? He's a satyr, and even if we're shown strong satyrs, they're not really supposed to be brave fighters. Yet he is one of the strongest, bravest nature spirits we've ever encountered in the Riordanverse, and one of the bravest in general. Like he's so passionate about doing what is good, he's a hero, and the only thing he doesn't match with common Gryffindors is that he's humble and as far from arrogant as could be possible, but it doesn't take his courage away.
Hazel: She's Gryffindor, and core personality-wise, she and Nico are very much alike. They don't ever think about themselves, like Hazel really always does what has to be done, no matter the cost, I mean she literally died preventing Gaea to rise the first time, and she freed Thanatos while believing he would take her back to the Underworld. She's brave af, and she has one of the most strong willpower we've seen in the Riordanverse. She's a passionate hero, and she's the closest thing to a real knight in shining armor.
Lester: I'm gonna place him in Gryffindor because I don't think he fits in in the other houses lmao. That said, as Apollo he's very shitty, but as Lester, he's one of the most courageous people. He's grown so much, he's so willing to actually do stuff now, and sacrifice everything to do what's right, including his life, even if he doesn't know he's gonna survive. Hell, he really went most of TTT with an incredibly painful wound that nearly turned him undead, and he cared more for the future of Camp Jupiter than his own life. Additionally, he's a bit arrogant and cocky, but he truly means well, I love Lester so much.
Clarisse: Look look, all I have to say is that no one could have pulled off less than half the stuff Clarisse has done, she's so Gryffindor it hurts. She's reckless and impulsive, but she's driven by her passion to do good, even if she's the daughter of war, and was bullied by her own father. She's daring, she's bold and she is the hero. She's also arrogant and thinks she can solve everything by herself, something characteristic more of the canon Gryffindors in the books, rather than what the fans have shaped. In fact, she's very much like Gryffindors in the books, who are actually very rude to other houses and think they're the best. Still, at heart, she's in this house.
Alex: I'm in a huge dilemma about where to put them, but I reckon they'd fit pretty fine in Gryffindor. Not only are they daring and courageous, they're proud of who they are, but not in a too full of themselves kind of way, rather in a 'I am who I am, and if you can't accept me, fuck off' kind of way. They can get carried away rather easily though, and very arrogant, thinking they don't need anyone else, when they do in fact need some company. They are one of the kindest and at the same time most ambitious characters we've met, but they are brave beyond understanding in a very personal way, thus, Gryffindor.
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Percy: I think it's fair to say he'd be Hufflepuff, because loyalty is literally his fucking fatal flaw, and he is the kindest sweetheart to all those who deserve it, he goes out of his way to help those who need help, whether that be mortals, halfbloods, gods, magical creatures or even his own enemies. He's too good for this world, and even if he's grown a bit bitter, he always looks to fight justly for what is right, and never loses faith in others. That, and the fact that he turned down immortality so that the olympians were more inclusive of minor gods, and their children were treated better. He's just a lovely soul, he's like 80% Hufflepuff so that's enough for me. All that and he's stubborn as hell.
Jason: Hufflepuff. Just, undoubtedly Hufflepuff. Like he seems to be this cold and self centered hero with a superiority complex (bc of all the son of Jupiter stuff) but he's the softest guy there is. Not only is he hardworking, open minded and kind, he appreciates justice but he doesn't seek for revenge or anything, he makes sure people are treated fairly and wants everyone to be accepted. Proof of that is how he continued Percy's job of including more gods, and made sure Nico felt comfortable with who he was. He truly has a heart of gold. (He deserved better btw)
Meg: God I can't decide between Hufflepuff and Gryffindor, but I think I'll go with the former. She's so strong, my baby, she's faced so much wrong, but she's still so kind and understanding of others, especially those who deserve kindness. She puts up such a hard facade, but she's so patient and warm and inclusive. She's brave and strong (as strong as the big three kids, if not stronger), but she's also so loyal to her beliefs despite how she was forced someone else's beliefs for years, so I'll keep her in Hufflepuff. Also, she's stubborn af, and she can be lazy, so that settles it.
Will: I KNOW some people will say Will could be in other houses that are not Hufflepuff, BUT I won't have it any other way. Will is literally the warmest person ever. He is kind and sympathetic and enthusiastic and patient and inclusive. Like Helga Hufflepuff would take one look at him and lose her shit screaming "mine". He's the guy who saw the son of Hades so many people were scared of and immediately grabbed his hand and transfered him some warmth and didn't let him go ahead and get himself killed. He's also the one who everyone loves and likes, so much that Clarisse gets along with him and he can calm her down. He's the ideal Hufflepuff, you can't change my mind.
Magnus: I mean, what else can you expect from the son of the god of summer? He's literally a guy who heals others with warmth. He's also the guy who spent years on the street with the most difficult situations, and accepts every single person the way they are. He's inclusive af, and tolerant of everything. He's the guy who's closest include a deaf elf, a Muslim valkyrie, and a black dwarf, and he's dating a genderfluid person. Yes he's brave, and he's kinda smart, and he's ambitious, BUT none of those qualities overpower his Hufflepuff nature.
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Piper: Kinda debated whether Gryffindor or Ravenclaw fits more, but in the end I went with Ravenclaw. Even though she isn't a fighter, she's very very brave, yet her bravery isn't compared to her wits. Like others in the PJOverse, she wins her fights by outsmarting her opponents, but unlike others that's one of her strongest traits. She's witty and creative and a little on the negative side, she really struggled to work in a group rather than by herself. On another note, she's able to keep calm in crazy situations and come up with the craziest most unthinkable solutions (I'm talking borderline ridiculous) that always somehow work. She's not booksmart, but she knows so much about everything, and she's lifesmart you know?
Reyna: Why are some of these so hard? Deeply debating whether she'd be Ravenclaw or Slytherin. In the end I'd go more for Ravenclaw though. Reyna's smart as hell, she's strong and sharp, and she always sees the best way out of a situation. She's witty and observant, being able to keep her cool in battle and lead others in the best direction. She's always looking to grow, and she prefers to do things on her own, but she's a great leader. She has some Slytherin qualities, and she's not learning as learning oriented as others, but she's definitely Ravenclaw.
Sam: Let's face it, Sam has the only active neurons in all of MCGA, she's definitely Ravenclaw. I'm gonna be honest though, I've only read MCGA once, so I can't remember much of their personalities, but Sam is witty and clever, pretty much the only one who can come up with competent plans, while the others rely mostly on luck and whatever plan they can cook up in 5 seconds. She's loyal and true to who she is, and she's extremely courageous and proud of who she is, but her sharpness is what she stands out for me, which is why I put her in Ravenclaw.
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Annabeth: I know the obvious option is Ravenclaw, but I genuinely think she's also Slytherin. Yes she is booksmart and wise like Ravenclaw, but her personality matches Slytherins' ambitious, cunning and resourceful nature. She's smart as fuck, but she's calculative, she always finds a way to end up winning, and while she does so by outsmarting her opponents, she wouldn't need to outsmart them if she weren't so competitive. I feel like there's this 40/60 odds on Slytherin rather than Ravenclaw, but it's that small difference that counts. Plus her leadership skills are so powerful that people don't ask, they just know she's the boss.
(Also just picture the sweet and loyal Hufflepuff boy with the strong and cunning Slytherin girl, like it should be as opposite as it is with Poseidon and Athena, but they're so cute)
Leo: Idk what you can expect that's not Slytherin. This boy is the embodiment of ambition and determination. Reminder that not all Slytherins are bad btw (I'm slytherin myself), but like he's life smart and cunning, and he can analyze situations faster than anyone else. He's charismatic and talented, and there's no one to stop him from triumphing. I don't have much to say, I just know he'd be in Slytherin.
Rachel: She's kinda a difficult one, and I struggle between Gryffindor and Slytherin, and tbh I'm still not sure. But I think I'd place her in Slytherin, because even if she's brave af (especially since she was a mortal fighting in a war out of her power), her main trait is her determination. When she's set on something, she gets it done. You can't tell her she can't do something, because she will find a way to do it. She's kind, and she's only a mortal, but she still has incredible power unlike any other. I don't think I can really name it, but I think she'd be put on Slytherin with much difficulty from the Sorting Hat.
Luke: Where else could Luke possibly go? On the meaner side Slytherins have created themselves, Luke would be part of those misled by who preceded them, by those who want to take advantage of their mistreatment (bc let's face it, Slytherins are mistreated by both students and Hogwarts staff), and turn them cold and bitter. Luke is ambitious and manipulative, being manipulated himself, and it comes easily because of his natural charisma and talent. He's very freaking determined and cunning too. He'd fit right into Slytherin, but he'd be viewed as one of the rotten lot.
Thalia: I don't have much to say about this, but Thalia is the girl whose fatal flaw is their desire for power (or smth along those lines), just like most Slytherins. She's ambitious, she's smart, she's truly talented, she stands out between the rest, and she knows it, and she actually kinda likes it.
(Also I put Annabeth, Thalia and Luke in the same house because they're all kinda similar, even if their beliefs and postures are different.
Frank: Ngl I'm having more difficulty with Frank than anyone else. I'm kinda torn between Gryffindor, Hufflepuff and Ravenclaw. I literally can't choose. He'd fit perfectly in any of them lmao, I just can't decide where he'd go. You decide this one yourself.
Please keep in mind, this is my personal opinion and my take on the characters, and not all of you will agree, and that's fine! You can let me know what you think (kindly please, don't come at me), and if you want to, send me an ask on a character you want me to do the same as these (as long as it's not TKC, I'M SORRY I haven't read those) go ahead, don't be shy!
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6. 8. 2021 | i have been so excited to share this spread on here. i absolutely love doing something like series of spreads. in the past, i've done bts as greek gods or bts in hogwarts hauses, and like a year ago i started working on bts as magical creatures. recently i made this spread for jungkook so that means i only have jin left and then i will be done with the series. once i finish it i might make like a big post, but you can find spreads for others on my instagram for now. πŸ’—
to be honset, jungkook was a tough one, i had quite a lot of ideas but didn't know for which one to go. as you can see, i went for a dragon. and not only did a make this, but i also came with an idea for a fanfiction. to make it clear, i read fanfictions like, all the time, but i don't write them. sometimes i just get these ideas, but my writing skills are just not... there. i tried to write something in the past, but i have no idea what i am doing and literally never finish anything.
i still wanted to share this idea here because it has been on my mind for some time and who knows, maybe someone else will like the idea and write it one day. so here I go.
yoonkook | dragon jeon jungkook | witch min yoongi
imagine
dragons have two forms - dragon form, their true form, and human form. but even in a human form, anyone is able to tell that they are dragons. they still have wings, and scales on some parts of their body, their eyes stay the same and depending on their kind they can also have horns, claws, or other things.
dragons are not born evil, how some might think. they can be nice, but other creatures are still terrified of them.
jungkook is a beautiful black dragon, who grew up with his family in mountains, far from anyone else. and since day one, he is a black sheep of their family. jungkook is way more gentle and soft-hearted than any of his siblings. he has never been very fond of hunting, but oh, he has always been such a curious baby dragon. oftentimes he would change to his human form only to be scolded by his mother. she would always say, that he should be proud of being a dragon. show off his beautiful scales.
but no matter what his parents would say, he would always sneak to the forest - to find friends, to see the world. every time he would try to catch animals so he can play with them, not realizing that it doesn't matter in which form he is, they still can smell that he is a dragon. in the end, he would always return home sad, because all the animals ran away from him.
a few times he would come across a different creature while exploring the forest. and just like the animals, they would always run, not even giving him a chance.
sometimes he would go to the river and collect pretty rocks. when he went there for the first time, he came back to their cave all excited, showing his finds to his siblings. but they laughed at him and told him he is not supposed to collect rocks. he is a dragon, he should collect gold or silver, something with value. he cried that day because they said that there is something wrong with him. however, he would still keep his rocks, because they are so pretty. and he would go to the river for more, in secret.
and then there is this special place about which jungkook never told anyone. the flower fields. when he found this place, he thought it must be a heaven on earth. the flowers smell so nice and he would spend hours just laying in them. and one day he would collect few flowers and bring them (in secret) to the cave. the next day was probably the saddest day in his whole life. the flowers died overnight. he killed something so beautiful.
and as time went by, jungkook would slowly accept the fact that he is a beast that everyone fears. he would still wonder if there is any place where he would fit. he has always been the weird one among dragons, and it seems like the forest is not for him as well.
and one day, it would be just too much. once he reaches adulthood, he takes his precious rock and flies away. behind the mountains, in a direction, he never went before.
he spends a long time wandering around. until one day, he hurts his wing while hunting. he is well aware that hunting in the forest is not the best idea, but hunger is hunger.
and then something wild happens.
a man finds him lying there and doesn't run, he comes closer. and oh boy, he is beautiful. jungkook's brain stops functioning for a few long moments, until he realizes that man is not human, he is a witch.
he lets the witch come really close to his injured wing. maybe he should be more careful, but this is literally his first good experience with another creature (so far at least). the witch gently tells him the wound is not too deep, but that he has some herbs back at home that could help the healing process.
and that's how jungkook finds himself following the witch home. he learns that the witch's name is min yoongi.
the next few days jungkook spends in his dragon form, letting yoongi take care of him. even though he can't really talk to yoongi like this, it still feels like they became friends really quickly.
once his wing is healed enough, jungkook changes his form. he is very nervous about it, but yoongi helps him relax right away. jungkook is kind of clumsy in his human form and yoongi is so sweet and patient about it. they kind of start living together, some nights jungkook stays outside in his dragon form, and some nights he shares a bed with the witch.
yoongi shows jungkook a whole different way of living. he cooks meals without meat and jungkook can't even believe that he doesn't have to hunt. he also shows jungkook his books, helps him to learn how to read, explains everything the dragon is curious about.
yoongi also has cats, that are not scared of jungkook at all. it's actually a complete opposite - they love him. jungkook cried the first time when they cuddled together. they are so soft and adorable.
yoongi also takes jungkook to fields, where he collects flowers and herbs for his spells and potions. at first, jungkook is like no, I can't collect them, they will die, but yoongi quickly reassures him that it's fine and he shouldn't worry about it. so they collect what they need and once back at home yoongi shows jungkook how to press flowers so they stay all nice and pretty. literally, every day jungkook would ask if they can look at them already, but yoongi always tells him to be patient. in the end it all pays off - jungkook is so happy with how the pressed flowers look. once he gets better at reading, he starts learning about all kinds of flowers, plants, herbs, and animals too.
and that's how they continue living in their small cottage. with time they get closer, they start holding hands and cuddling, they exchange kisses, and jungkook swears he has never been happier, there is no day he is not thankful for leaving the cave and meeting the witch.
one day jungkook gives yoongi his favorite rock as a counting gift and explains to him that he would like yoongi to be his mate for life. yoongi accepts the rock and lets jungkook court him in a proper way.
and one night, in their little cottage, with candles all around them, they mate for the first time.
jungkook realizes that he is not a beast. he is just jungkook. a black dragon who is very curious, who loves pretty things like flowers or rocks, whole loves animals and reading. he finds a place where he belongs, right beside yoongi.
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Summary: Events ispired to Avengers: Infinity War
Pairing: Steve Rogers x Stark!Reader
Warnings:Β I think it's appropriate to tell you that there will be some spoilers
Feedback is always appreciated.
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"Miss Stark?"
I look up from the paperwork on my desk; they know very well that when I'm working, I don't like being disturbed.
So, if Alex entered with a certain hurry – whit his face pale and sweaty – in my office, it means that something very serious happened.
"Alex, what's up?"
Alex continues to rub his hands, and this makes me feel more and more uncomfortable. By now, I have known him for many years, and I can decipher every gesture of his. I urge Alex to speak again.
"Something happened...to his brother, Mr. Stark."
I immediately stand up; I knew something was wrong, I felt it. Still, I spoke with Tony just this morning, and it sounded like it was all right.
I immediately go out of my office, and entering the car, I head for my brother's house. Sitting on the sofa in the living room, Pepper, who barely sees me, runs towards me, hugging me tightly.
"Pepper, what happened? Where's Tony? "
"We don't know. A man came out of... an opening, saying he wanted to talk to him. You know how Tony is, he immediately accepted, and followed him. From that moment... I haven't seen him again."
A man... who can ever be? After the fight between Tony and Cap, things seemed to be back to normal, but actually, it was chaos. Cap has escaped, and with him all the others, previously imprisoned in the Rift.
Nobody knows where they are, at least Tony believes so.
If my brother had discovered that I was – and I am still – in contact with Steve, Tony would complain as usual that I don't follow the rules, that I should be more careful, because the government could find me etc etc...
When he signed the Sokovia agreements, I was very surprised; Tony is the kind of person you can't give orders to, especially if is the government that gives orders. But after Ultron... he's completely changed.
Should I call Steve? Perhaps he sents the unknown man who took Tony. Or it's not that bad, and calling Steve would be an exaggeration.
I don't know exactly what to do; I can't think clearly right now.
Suddenly, I feel strange tremors around me, and a kind of a huge circle opens before me and Pepper; from the inside comes a person who I don't know.
I remain completely speechless, when I notice behind the stranger, another person.
Someone I haven't seen in a long time.
β€œBruce?”
Pepper is surprised just like me, to see Dr. Banner; even though S.H.I.E.L.D. had lost hope, Tony was still looking for him. Nobody knew, except me, and Steve.
"Bruce! Where have you been? We've been looking for you... for years!" I say, hugging him.
He has completely changed; the haircut, and his face... looks a lot sadder. He must not have had a good time, in any place he has been.
"Y/n, it's nice to see you again. But we don't have much time, I need your help."
Bruce asks me to go with him – even if he doesn't seem to be asking me. He also seems to have changed character, behaving in a more authoritarian, and serious manner. It's no longer the old Bruce, who was afraid of losing control of his alter ego.
I turn to Pepper, and I tell her to find a safe place to hide. Tony has become much more paranoid lately, so much to create 'safe houses' all over the country, for situations like this.
Pepper tries to protest, she would like to come with me; she wants to know what happened to Tony, and I understand that. I want to find my brother as much as she does.
But Tony would kill me – literally – if I put Pepper in dangerous situations; he's already too worried about me. Fortunately, I'm as stubborn as my brother, and I managed to convince him to be part of the Avengers.
I don't wear 'Iron Man' style armor, but I learned a lot from the Black Widow, and now I can use bow and arrow, thanks to Hawkeye.
After convincing Pepper not to follow me and Bruce, I'm ready to enter into the strange vortex where Bruce came out, with the man – who has not said a word.
I wonder what's going on; my brother disappeared into thin air, and then Bruce reappears, after years no one had seen him.
"So, can you explain to me what's going on? Do you know where my brother is?"
The place where we find ourselves... is the Avengers headquarters; well, at least it was a long time ago. Now, it's just a structure that the government uses to give orders to its new 'soldiers', people with superpowers who have decided to sign the agreements.
While Bruce's unnamed friend disappears, my newfound friend walks quickly back and forth, rubbing his hands nervously.
"Thanos. Here's what happened. Thanos is looking for the Infinity Stones."
I have already heard about the Stones, relics almost as ancient as the universe, scattered in space. They are very powerful, and very dangerous.
"I thought Thor found them. He was looking for them, and..."
"Thor! I was with him when Thanos attacked us. I don't even know if... he's fine."
Bruce looks down, visibly frightened; Thanos is approaching the Earth, maybe Thor is...
And Tony has disappeared.
"One of the Infinity Stones was in London, it belonged to a sorcerer. He disappeared with Tony. Probably the followers of Thanos took them."
I close my eyes, I try to assimilate the Bruce's words, one by one; however, I can only think my brother, probably imprisoned in some spacecraft.
"He will come back; there are other Infinity Stones to be found, and one is on Earth."
All these events... it's happening too fast; we were not ready. Tony knew that. It was like a strange feeling for him, as if something horrible was approaching.
Oh, how he was right.
Bruce approaches me, placing a hand on my shoulder. He tries to console me, but it's not easy; about an hour ago, I was sitting at my desk, thinking about my work, and at Tony and Pepper's wedding. And now I'm here, with the end of the world around the corner, and without my brother.
"Y/n, we will find Tony. But now, we need reinforcements."
Bruce looks for something in the pockets of his jacket, then he takes a phone, which I recognize immediately.
"Tony gave me this. There is only one number, and I tried to call, but..."
"... it doesn't work."
Steve gave me the phone, the last time he and I saw each other; along with it there was a letter, and Steve had asked me to give it to Tony.
I did it; but Tony never called. Not that there was a need. However, I was hoping for a peace between the two, but nothing.
Actually, the phone... it was just a test.
For Tony. If he tried to use the phone, then he was ready for a surrender.
And I would be the one who would deliver the peace message to Steve.
But the years have passed; sometimes, I caught Tony looking at the phone, as if he were going to use it. But in the end he put it in a drawer and closed it.
"We must warn theΒ others. Rogers, Vision, Fury, Hill... Natasha."
Bruce hesitates before saying the last name; she and Nat didn't leave on good terms.
Suddenly, a strange warning signal begins to sound; Bruce looks around, trying to figure out what's going on. I, on the other hand, know it perfectly: it's a call. In fact, in the center of the room, suddenly appears a hologram: it's the U.S. Secretary of State, Thaddeus Ross.
"Miss Stark. Dr. Banner, we've been looking for you for a while!" says Ross, visibly surprised by Bruce's presence.
Probably he called because he received the news of Tony's disappearance; what I wonder, is what his intentions are.
"Miss Stark, I'm very sorry for the disappearance of your brother. We will do everything to find him."
...liar. I know exactly how the government works; Bruce? They never really looked for him. They simply pretended to be nothing. Hulk has been just a problem for them, and the fact that he disappeared was just good. One less problem for the government.
"Sir. The problem is much more serious. Something... someone threatens our planet, and we need... reinforcements."
"Reinforcements? And for what, exactly? Tony Stark has disappeared. That's all."
I look at Bruce, completely shocked by the words of the Secretary; I wonder what he had done a few years ago, when he had to choose whether to sign the agreements or not.
On the other hand, I'm not at all amazed by Ross's words; it's not the first time that he has already looked the other way, before a threat.
He uses his 'soldiers' only for personal purposes.
"Are you joking, are not you? Thanos is always closer, and we have to protect people."
"The earth has been at peace for many years, Dr. Banner. There is no danger, since your group of heroes in disarray no longer exists. My orders are clear. There will be no reinforcements, for something that doesn't exist."
It's just as I expected; Ross, who refuses our requests. Fortunately, I have already done something.
"It doesn't matter, sir. I don't need his help, because I have already called mine."
I signed the Sokovia agreements, but only because Tony asked me – and Steve, too – for my safety.
However, even if I wrote my name on a piece of paper, it doesn't mean that I have to follow all the rules written on it.
Before Ross can speak, someone enters the room, and we all turn.
Steve stops in the middle of the room, right in front of Ross's hologram, obviously furious from Rogers's entry. The latter is accompanied by Nat and Sam, and behind them is Wanda, who holds Vision, clearly injured. I walk towards the two guys, helping Vision to sit down; I check his superficial wounds, and they look pretty serious.
Meanwhile, Steve talks to Ross, and when he understands that he no longer has control of the situation, more furious than ever, his hologram disappears, ending the call.
I breathe a sigh of relief; fortunately Steve and the others arrived just in time, or I think I would have sent a government agent to hell.
Steve approaches Bruce, and he greets him warmly; it's a long time since the two are not seen. The reappearance of Dr. Banner has more or less upset everyone, especially Natasha; in fact, the girl greets Bruce, but in a rather cold way.
Bruce tells the others what he has told me, and I feel the shivers running down my back; if only I think of Tony, alone in space, surrounded by enemies.
Steve tells us that they were attacked too, but that they managed to get away with it.
Despite me and Bruce trying to help Vision, he seems to get worse, probably due to some internal problem. So, Steve decides to warn T'Challa and go to Wakanda.
If they have healed Bucky from mind control, they will certainly know how to cure Vision.
Before leaving, we all decide to make some reforings. I head to my old room, maybe there are still some of my uniforms in the closet.
While I'm changing, I hear someone knocking on the door, and after giving permission to enter, I see Steve on the edge of the door.
Since he arrived at the base, we haven't even had time to look into each other's eyes.
I missed him a lot; the last time we met was about six months ago. Tony was busy with an Iron Man convention, and I could sneak out of New York, and spend a few days with Steve.
"Can I come in?" he asks me; the usual Steve, kind and polite.
"If you can? I wondered when you'd come."
He smiles, and approaches, then he wraps his arms around me.
Damn, just having Steve by my side makes me feel calmer. As if the world and its problems didn't exist.
"How are you?"
How am I? As if my brother had disappeared into thin air, and a crazy murderer is about to eliminate the whole universe.
"I just wish... Tony was here." I say, trying not to cry.
So far I have tried to maintain control, not to... bring me down, before all grieve for what has happened to my brother.
Being a good leader.
But now, here in the room, alone with Steve. The walls in which I am buried fall to pieces.
It seems to be going better when Steve puts his lips on mine; to my nervousness are mixed butterflies that are formed in my stomach. It's always like this, every time Steve touches me; I feel like a little girl in her first crush. I try to be a normal person, but with Steve – who, by the way, knows how I feel when he behaves this way – it's impossible.
"You know, as much as I find you damn sexy with the beard... it pinches."
Steve laughs, and kisses me again, exploring my face, then down the neck, and on the collarbones, teasing me, until I laugh.
"Steve, stop it. You tickle me!”
I hit him in the stomach, and he pretends to be offended, massaging his muscles.
That's how things should go; Steve and Tony making peace, my brother at home, my boyfriend by my side.
But we are about to leave, because a new war is about to begin, and my sixth sense tells me there will be losses.
Losses that will make everyone suffer.
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"Will it hold the barrier?"
Come to Wakanda? Let's say it was not a brilliant idea. Shuri, T'Challa's sister, is taking care of Vision, but in the meantime, dozens of alien spaceships have appeared in the sky.
T'Challa activated the barrier around the Wakanda boundaries, but hundreds, thousands of monsters, and anthropomorphic creatures emerged from the spacecraft.
"What the hell are they doing?"
Arrived in Wakanda, at least we found Bucky; Steve had warned me that he was much better, and seeing him again made me happy. I wanted to meet him in different circumstances.
When I found out that Bucky killed my parents... I was angry, but deep down, I had known it for a long time.
The Winter Soldier killed the people who hindered HYDRA's plans, and my parents were those people.
Even Tony knows that it's not really Bucky's fault... but it's Tony Stark that we're talking about.
"What the hell... what are they doing!?"
I follow Bucky's gaze; Steve, Nat and T'Challa tried to talk to the followers of Thanos, but it was useless.
"I think... they rush against the barrier to weaken it, so they can knock it down."
"Smart."
"Bruce. Dude, don't compliment the bad guys." I say to Dr. Banner, locked up in the Hulkbaster's armor. He uses that because... well, he and his alter ego are not much in tune after the fight with Thanos, and now Hulk prefers to hide; I didn't think he was so coward.
"If they continue like this, Wakanda will remain unprotected." Steve says, turning to T'Challa. He's right; the enemies seem to increase, and the barrier begins to flicker.
Then, T'Challa tells us to get ready, and he orders someone to lift a part of the barrier – the one in front of us.
The monsters enter, running like madmen towards us.
The war begins.
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Thor.
When we all saw him appear in the middle of the battle, we all breathed a sigh of relief. Bruce even shouted for happiness.
But if Thor's arrival made us rejoice, the arrival of someone else made us shudder: Thanos.
In all his size, he walks towards us, looking gloomy. He doesn't stop to watch the battle around him, he doesn't look for his henchmen.
He doesn't mind.
He only cares about the Mind Stone, in the Vision's forehead.
Each of us tries in every way to stop him, but with his glove, and the Stones that he already owns, for Thanos we are only tiny ants.
When he is in front of me, I know I have no hope; I'm probably going to die.
But before Thanos makes his move, he stops to look at me, as if I were his old acquaintance.
"Another Stark. You never give up, fight a war, even if you know you've already lost it, even before you started it."
Another Stark.
Thanos knows where my brother is; Thanos met Tony. However, he is not here now, my brother hasn't returned.
"Where is my brother? Tell me!"
"It doesn't matter. You will die anyway."
Before I can ask my brother again, Thanos takes a step forward and pounces on me.
I try to avoid the blow, but he manages to hit me on the right side. I sketch literally far from the ground, and I crash into something I can't understand what it is.
Instinctively, I press a hand on the wound, which is bleeding more and more. I look around, I see nothing; I must have also taken a blow on the head.
If until now I heard the sounds of the battle, all of a sudden, there is total silence.
I don't think I'm dead, or yes?
After a couple of painful efforts, I finally manage to get up from the ground; I take a few steps near the trees, towards... I don't know exactly where.
Right now, I would like Tony to be by my side; instead, he is missing somewhere, alone, without me.
"Y/n."
I turn around quickly – too fast, because I almost fall back on the ground – and I see a figure approaching me. When it's just a few steps away from me, I can recognize Steve; I literally throw myself into his arms, bursting into hysterical tears.
"Everything is alright."
"Steve. It hurts so much."
At the beginning Steve can't understand what I'm talking about, but when he looks down and notices my wound, I feel him shiver under the palms of my hands.
Wrapping the arms around my body, Steve lifts me off the ground, holding me like a bride.
"What happened? Where is Thanos?"
Steve continues to transport me, probably to the medical laboratories. I repeat the same question several times, but Steve doesn't want to answer me.
Something happened, and if Steve doesn't want to tell me, it's something horrible.
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Everyone is dead; almost all.
Bucky, Vision, Wanda, T'Challa...
Thanos arrived, and death sucked them like a chasm.
Next to my bed, there's Nat, sitting on a chair with the eyes closed; she probably stayed so long by my side that she fell asleep.
She told me what happened, just before I closed my eyes to rest.
I woke up about ten minutes, but the idea to get up can't take over; I can't get Thanos and his words out of my mind.
He didn't want to tell me where my brother is, but he didn't even say he died. So there is still hope that he's still alive.
I want to see Steve; I don't know where it has been since he left me in the operating room. I want to know how he is, after what happened; his friend Bucky died, once again.
It must not be easy for him to see an important person die, more than once.
But as soon as I try to get out of bed, Natasha's eyes widen, watching me.
"Don't even think about it, Y/n. You have to rest."
"I want to see Steve. Now."
"Now I'm going to call him, but you stay in bed."
Natasha leaves the room, and when I know she is far enough away, I get up. With a bit of effort, in the end, I can stand up – holding myself against the chair.
I barely approach the window leading to the terrace, I still feel very tired, as if Thanos was still throwing me against the tree.
"You should stay in bed."
I jump – almost falling to the ground – and when I turn around, Steve is already by my side, helping me get back to the bed and sit down.
"I don't want to stay in bed. I can do it."
"Really? I don't think so."
I roll my eyes; I know he's right, but I hate the fact that he's right.
But if before I was worried about my brother, now I can't think about anything else. Tony has not only disappeared, but after the devastation that led Thanos... many died, and Tony could be among them.
"Don't worry about your brother. He's probably building some armor to get home."
"Are you sure? Only a few days have passed, but it's as if months have passed. I can't go on without my brother. I need him by my side."
"Y/n, I know Tony is alive. I feel it, and you know it's like that too. He will be back very soon."
Although Steve tries to convince me, he can only calm me down a bit. Maybe he's right, and Tony's fine, or maybe he's wrong, and my brother – or at least his body – lies somewhere in the universe.
I hug Steve, while he helps me relax; I spent so much time thinking about Tony, that I completely forgot that he lost friends too. Bucky, Sam, Wanda, Vision, T'Challa. Thanos has razed half the universe, and left us with a void in the heart.
"I'm sorry. For our friends. We will find a way to bring them back."
"We will find a way to save everyone. Bucky, Sam... and Tony too. We will all save, as we always do."
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dapper-ships-herself Β· 4 years
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The answer changes a bit depending on the s/i, so I'm gonna start with more general and like personal and then go into my s/is.
Dazai and I both, let's say wrestle with certain feelings about life and the world around us. When it feels like you're adrift and very little matters, it helps a great deal to have someone to ground you, and that's Dazai and I for each other. When the world is cruel, we can reach out our hands and feel the warmth, and through that feel safe and real. Neither of us are used to letting ourselves be fully vulnerable to the people around us, we're always masking something, maybe not for entirely the same reasons, but we are. Our relationship is when we both let those walls fall bit by bit, letting go of fear and trepidation. He never even thought he could feel real love before, both of us had thought we weren't worthy of it.
And Dazai is a genius, he's amazing and confident in his abilities, he can see straight through pretty much anyone, so I think why would he even want me, I'm so boring and predictable, I'm not a fan of taking risks and putting myself out there. But Dazai sees all my good qualities, he appreciates my strong empathy and my compassion, he sees how even though I struggle with my own worth I put so much worth into the lives around me, and I have a fun way of thinking about a lot of things, I'm creative bright even when I think I'm not. I become like a fresh, sunny spring day for his soul. And Dazai, his hands are so stained and his mind so jaded, even as he works to redeem himself and be on the side that saves people, he thinks there's too much darkness to ever truly be washed away. But I know that even though he's done a lot of bad, what matters most is what he's doing now; he's trying so hard to be good, to move away from the darkness that only acted as a negative feedback loop for him, that was never good for a boy with a mind like his. He is actively trying to be a good man, and I remind him of that. Neither of us are ever going to be perfect, but that's fine when we're together through our flaws. And through it all, we help each other see the beautiful things to live for.
Okay, now let's go into some specifics for the s/is.
ADA! Gillian has been through some pretty deep trauma with the loss of her little sister when they were kids, and at the time she thought she'd never ever recover from that and stay in the emotionless darkness forever, but with the help of Fukuzawa and Ranpo and the other agency members, she was able to heal. Despite the guilt and trauma that still sticks to her, how easy it would be to write the world off as simply cruel and uncaring, that's not her style. She loves the world, she loves the people in it, she knows that there's darkness but that only means that the rest of them should try their hardest to spread as much love and compassion as they can to balance that out. To Dazai, her unwavering light is strange but so calming. She's so strong in her determination to protect her family and everyone and everything that needs saving, it really touches something in him. She teaches him that it's okay, that they deserve to laugh and love and live, and she helps show him how to actively view the world for it's good parts. Even if someday it's hard, some days she's sad and can't forget the past, some days she tries very hard to push away the anger that festers in her at the unfairness that abounds, she still tries and now they can stand by each other's sides and try together. And he also knows what it's like to suffer and lose the one person who's most important, and he helps her confront the guilt that still clings to her, in fact that's something mutual. And she also, even though she accepts and appreciates her ability for how it lets her help people, it's also an ability that takes away a person's free will and can cause a lot of destruction, and she is afraid of the inherent evilness of it, and though Dazai respects how she's made the concious choice to only use it to help people, he sees her fear and helps her accept it.
Mafia! Gillian and Dazai probably have the most complicated relationship of all. Neither really wanted friends or saw the use of them, but they became each other's first real friend after he joins the mafia. They connect and resonate in a much stronger and more natural way than either were really prepared for; and then they were part of the quartet with Ango and Oda too, and she loved them all. She could be quoted as saying the three of them were probably the only things keeping her sane in the Port Mafia. And then she went away on a mission for a few weeks, no contact with her friends, and suddenly that little slice of joy she had was shattered, Oda was killed, Ango had been a double agent the whole time, and Dazai had abandoned her without so much as a good bye, much less and explanation. It sent her to a dark place for a while. She wanted to hate Dazai, and she certainly felt bitter, but she couldn't bring herself to hate him; how could she, really. She disliked being in the Port Mafia, but not only does she feel she'd have no where else to go, that if she left she'd be leaving her father, Ougai, aka the only person who's ever seen to genuinely want her around and stay that way, but her ability is literally to control darkness and too much light literally causes her pain and discomfort, it's clear to her that she was born to forever stay in the world of darkness and never be able to stand in the light. When she and Dazai eventually meet again four years after he left the mafia, there's a lot of complicated feelings too work through. She's bitter and angry and can't understand why he'd leave her like that if their friendship really meant anything; Dazai thought it was the right move at the time, he justified it to himself by reasoning that he knew she felt chained to the mafia and he had to leave quickly and cleanly in order to successfully rid himself of his dark past, he couldn't risk waiting for her to come back from her mission and having to convince her. But, really, he was afraid. After all, he's convinced that everything he desires will slip through his fingers the moment he obtains it. If he tried to hold on to the happiness she brought him and selfishly took her with him, he'd only bring her ruin some other way, and he wasn't deserving of her. He genuinely does regret it though, and it's not easy for him to admit that he was wrong but he knows that this is one instance where he was so terribly wrong. They have to work through these feelings in order to get anywhere, and she also has to realize that she does have the capability to step into the light, which she does partially with Dazai's help. There's a lot of fighting through the bullshit to finally be together.
Jekyll! Gillian takes the stuff mentioned earlier about always masking some part of ourselves to the extreme. Her ability, Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, literally manifests her jaded view of the world into a physical creature of chaos, aka Hyde. And she rejects Hyde hardcore, that's why she's so unstable, destructive, and difficult to control, as well as hates her in return. She puts on the sugariest of sweet faces to try and mask this darkness, but Dazai is able to see it. He recognizes her mask easily, because he's basically doing the exact same thing. Eventually, after a lot of plot haha, they're able to help each other let go of their facades a bit and better accept themselves for who they are. They find this kinship in each other that honestly makes it easier for them to let go of their guards at least a little bit. They both hold a lot of jaded darkness with themselves, and they've both done some pretty terrible things and dirtied their hands, him in the mafia and her in the Order of the Clocktower, and they were both able to break away from that to try and become better people, and that's really nice for them to be able to relate to each other.
Circus! Gillian is, true to the name of her troupe the Circus of the Disillusioned, disillusioned about much of the world. It's dirty and cruel and not on your side. But, the circus always promoted family, the whole reason Voltaire formed the troupe was to attempt to not lay there and accept their wretched fate, that they as humans should try and create at least small pockets of a world more right and colorful. And this ideal stays with her. So yeah, they're both not huge fans of the world, but she has a more innate desire to change that, and she believes it's the duty of humans to fight through and not back away from the world through means like suicide (does that make sense? Trying to word it properly). So she actually is pretty, hm, disgusted is too strong of a word to use, she clashes a lot with Dazai's suicidal jokes. And she's too tsundere and jaded herself to outright be all flowery ~I will help you~, but that sort of discussion is a theme between them early on. Their abilities are foils for each other as well, Dazai is an ability nullifier, she's an ability amplifier, and that sort of reflects their views too.
Guild! Gillian at first seems to have the most innocent view of the world, after all she's rich and spoiled by her father, Francis. And she acts rather carefree too, like someone who's always been secure and never known difficulty. But she has known pain, and there's more than a naive rich girl beneath the surface. She's cunning and knows how to read people, she's been trained in the art of business since she was a child and had it drilled into her that you must never roll over for the world. She's also been taught that she's the daughter of the great Fitzgerald, which means she's meant for greatness too, and she hides it from her father but that's left her with a desperation to prove herself and live up to a great big shadow. But she's genuinely kind too, she loves the world for it's flaws and wants to support the people in it. So yeah, they're ways of thinking clash a bit, but at the same time they work perfectly in other aspects. At first, it's more like he's interested in her for the sort of contradictions she poses, but he starts to genuinely respect her and admire how she chooses to see kindness and work for it, how she takes things in to her own hands to make the world she sees in her mind real. And she respects him for his intellect and eventually for his resolve once she learns of his past. And respect is pretty much the bud that will bloom into love.
There's a lot of fighting to find the light in the dark and acceptance of ourselves.
I hope this was all coherent and not to rambly ha.
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paulamehy Β· 4 years
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Back when I was younger, I did label things that I like and things I hate. Identified things that I thought I don't need and those I needed from what the society approves. And as I age, I realized that categorizing things only will lead you to disappointment because you can't always get everything that you like. Whether you want it to be part of your life or not, you have no choice but to accept that one's existence doesn't only consists of beautiful things.
And as I realized that, I became aware of my entity as well. I only binded my sight on something that gives light, I was so positive that everything that surrounded me was capable of dropping things that I hate without me knowing that it will become part of my life in the future. I despise myself for having that way of thinking.
As much as possible I want to be in a role where I'm the most loved by everyone. I remember in my childhood days, amongst my friends I always choose cartoon character that I knew had the greatest and biggest role in the show, character that was pretty, kind, lovable, friendly, cheerful and in the main lead. And in real life, I have tons of friends because I don't want to look loner, I show off my talents to make people embrace me as a special one, I'm cheerful up-front because it's what made me being remembered, and in a circle I wanted to be the main lead. I gained people and I want to be accepted by them to the means of flaunting every qualified aspects that I have and even some that I didn't have. And the fact that I did those only because I thought they're all I needed, and it's what the society said.
I was loved because I chose to be loved; because I chose to be happy.
But I slowly became conscious about myself. Realization hits me that I'm not pretty enough, I don't have perfect body, I do and I love weird things that people might find offensive and awful, I'm smart but I'm lazy, neglectful and klutz, I have lots of sexual fetishes and addiction that can't be accepted by norm if you're a female, I'm a sadist, I always had lewd thoughts, I'm sympathetic but sometimes it's done half-hearted, I'm aggressive, warfreak and manipulative. I'm overconfident that I can manipulate people and feelings towards me forever because I was able to.
Those rascal traits of mine were flaunted after years ago, and to suprised that there was someone who still accepted me for who I am. I was the happiest person that time and I believe that nothing in this world can ever replace those memories.
But this is not a romance journal.
Until the darkness that I never thought I'll encounter came out.
People are saying that it is one's choice if they want to be happy. I started to lose my sanity the time that I became self-conscious, I became so insecure and anxious and I always compare myself to others because I felt that I'm not enough and unworthy to extent of me being disappointed with myself.
Those "just be happy" kind of statements will never work out.
And because I'm studying Psychology that time so I have hints on what's going on with me. I had some short time dealing with mania and depressive episodes, or I'm being sad and anxious for awhile but always end up being fine because there's someone who's taking care of me and making sure that everything's alright. It really worked out for several years and I think that was already my happy ending that doesn't need to be extended with any other person anymore.
Sequels are unnecessary in real life.
However, I can't blame that someone for looking for another party to love because I sucked at being lovable, I knew that it's because he was fed up and been tired of understanding this thing that even me can't understand. I just hate myself and that everyone else is better than me.
Apart from that, my parents eventually got separated due to third party. And for me, it is understandable that the one just fell out of love. Is it? I can't think of anything else to feel aside from accepting the reality and move on and besides, they are still my parents. But it really hurts a lot, so much that I can't find any definition from dictionary on how to describe how I felt.
Anguish.
But I can't come to hate every single person around me. I never called it "betrayal" because in the end I still blame it to myself. I lost most of the important persons in my life together with my trust in everything. In those people who believe that it's not my fault, I somehow dug for the reasons why I should blame myself.
I believe that I was hit by karma because I've done so much filthy things for the past few years that I can never put into words.
I really can't help myself but to cry to sleep every night, overdid everything to escape the reality that I'm now alone and in this miserable state. I became detached with the things that I used to love before such as singing, writing, reading and drawing as all I did for living is to work.
I tried different coping mechanisms. I used different people, been used by different people. Been in a bar every other day until I lose my consciousness. Beaten myself to job and repeat. I often found myself in hospital or clinic due to fatigue and other sickness and I just cry as I pity myself.
That's when I realized that I've been clinging to other people for happiness to the point that being alone agonized me so much. I can't calm myself anymore because in the first place it's not me who is pacifying myself everytime I'm having horrible thoughts, considering that I hated my existence to death.
My depressive episodes gotten worst, I started cutting my wrist, face and legs to reduce the pain which I never did before, I also tried overdosing myseIf using my medicines but I only ended up being asleep for two days and been drowsy, I was so insane that I even went to different place and decided to drown myself, but I was caught up by the guard.
As expected, I was diagnosed with Manic-Depression/Bipolar Disorder 10 months ago, and in 6 months I was in the process of medication, been taking psychotic, antidepressant drugs and such which made me numb and apathetic up to present. Those who knew about my horrible situation were only my previous colleagues. I somewhat managed to hide this from my family.
Several months ago, I started to weigh down some things to refresh my mind. I tried to survive on my own. I quit school, I moved to different workplace, been independent, cut ties with other people and I started to change some of my coping mechanisms.
I thought that those are the best things to do, but I knew to myself that its only because I want to run away from everything. I've tried too many coping mechanisms and escape was only the last option. Inever regret those things that I did in the past, but I felt that I need to put myself together for a bit. I don't have any plans on making myself better neither heal myself from the pain. I'll just exist and to my job right for the rest of my life.
It's been 6 months since I decided to slowly compose myself, I can't tell whether I'm completely recovered or what and I don't want to be complacent. I'm still on the same track, my thought are still bleak, I'm not happy neither sad, I don't feel anything towards everything literally and emotionally probably because of the medicines I'm currently taking. I'm coming to work for survival, I only have 1 friend that I can talk to with regard to office stuff, I am not standing out with anyone, a lowkey. I'm not accepting any courting or flirting. As much as possible I don't want to involve myself in infatuation. I changed every single aspects, habits, beliefs and behaviors that I can, and unexpectedly I was able to attain 6 months of not drinking any liquor. It doesn't make any sense but I feel like testing myself again.
I also created my bucket list that I want to fulfill before killing myself. But I just hope that I'll die without doing any self-infliction as I don't want to make any sin anymore.
The only trait that I knew was good and that I can't change is me being empathetic. I understand people for doing things whatever the reasons are even if it affects me, hurts me and such. I had this trait that I wish I didn't have.
In the end I never blamed anyone or anything because it's my choice to be in this situation. I got swallowed by the dark path that I just encountered and I don't think I can do anything else.
I just never loved myself to begin with.
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non-bunnary Β· 3 years
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Thinkin about Solas I can't wait to clock that egghead in DA4 I'm ready to FUCK HIM UP
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simplybennnnett Β· 4 years
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hi I am here to rant about how much I HATE that mack kept fitz's death from deke
so let's depict this line by line... starting from his conversation with daisy
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Daisy: What have you been told?
Deke: Well, Mack was pretty cagey on the details-
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deke has been gone for a while (being amazing)
so here's what we know:
he just found out everyone went to space
he probably thinks they went just cuz
mack told him about it
mack did not say anything about fitz in that moment
mack is the biggest jerk on the planet
no the universe
mack literally had a chance to tell deke. who cares if he left then, he's back now, he's here, just let him know where is only 2 family members are. it's literally not hard to say:
"hey, jemma and daisy went to space to go get fitz, because fitz didn't make it through the battle but there is another fitz in space and he is perfectly fine"
that's literally one of the easiest ways to say it
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Mack and May are talking about something, Deke walks in:
Deke: Why didn't you tell me!?
Mack: *sighs* Might want to give us a minute.
May: *rolls her eyes* Gladly.
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THIS!
mack was waiting for this conversation to happen
he knew eventually deke would find out and he just... didn't say anything?
please someone point out the logic
and don't say "it was just too hard for mack to talk about"
cause no.
it wasnt.
he has no problem talking about it now
and then there's may
deke walks into the room and sound so unlike deke
he's clearly mad
distressed
upset
you can hear it in his voice
this isn't deke coming to bother someone, this is deke legitimately looking for an answer. even if you don't know his question you can hear how serious he is. but may rolls her eyes and uuuggghhh her reaction just makes me so angry!
it's not hard to tell when someone is upset, I really don't understand why people cant get out of their pretty little heads to see that maybe they are not the only ones who have some problems
can you tell I'm sensitive on this subject???
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Deke: Fitz died. He died, and no one was gonna bother to, I don't know, send me a text?
Mack: It was complicated-
Deke: Yeah, no kidding.
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okay but it wasnt.
you know what is complicated:
fighting aliens
finding out you are an alien
losing a limb
losing TWO limbs
robots who are too human
time travel
time travel to the end of the world
THE END OF THE WORLD
things that aren't complicated:
texting a friend to tell him one of HIS ONLY FAMILY MEMBERS has died BUT it's okay because they have a way to get him back
it's not complicated. mack just didn't tell him. period.
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Deke: Besides the fact that this completely proves my entire multi-verse theory 'cause I'm still here,
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he was scared
deke was legitimately scared of what would happen if the time line changed
he probably spent all the time he was gone wondering if one day he would *poof* out of existance
he was scared
and he wouldn't have had to been if SOMEONE would have told him
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Deke: -there's a second Fitz! And-and you sent a team out to find him, and you didn't tell me that either?! That's not complicated. That just sucks!
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and he's right!
it does suck.
it would have taken mack 20 seconds tops to text him and that is the literal least he could have done
he should have said something
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Mack: It was the call made at the time.
Deke: Well, maybe you shouldn't be making the calls because that was bad one.
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okay I have like 3 things that I need to point out now:
1. mack made the call
mack made the call not to tell deke. maybe he consulted jemma, but honestly, I doubt it. jemma is such a family person she probably wasn't even thinking about anyone else but fitz at that point AND she probably assumed someone would tell deke maybe like *cough* the director who shouldn't be director *cough*
which leads me to the next point
2. he really shouldn't be making the calls
this is more toward the writers than it is toward mack
daisy should have been director. she has been loyal to shield and coulson longer than mack. she was there through the hydra problem, the alien problem, the outer space problem, the robot problem, and the time travel problem and she was closest to coulson right behind may. if not daisy then it should have been may. it should not have been mack. it just should not have been.
3. mack cannot come up with a justifiable reason as to why he didn't tell deke
OKAY AND NOW THE MOST IMPORTANT ONE
he can't.
he doesn't tell him why he made the call he just says he does. deke had a right to know and mack didn't tell him and he had no reason to keep that from him. there was no reason.
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Mack: It looked like you had other priorities besides being apart of this team.
Deke: Oh, this team? You mean the team that I helped bring back from the dystopian future?
Mack: Yeah, you did that. Then you left.
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This makes me so mad.
I have to admit I had to read a Wikipedia article to remember the deke's story but even before I did that, I know that he did not grow up with a good childhood. he lived in a place where people killed each other for food. he lived in a terrible place with no trees no sky no nothing. he lived in the freaking middle of space. he lives in a place with blue aliens that constantly tried to kill them.
and then he comes to earth
and there's trees, and there's a sky, and there's everything.
people aren't always trying to kill him there's food everywhere, he finally has it all.
there's just one thing looming over his head
if the timeline changes, will he stay on Earth?
I don't know about you but if that question was on my mind constantly, you bet everything you own that I am out doing the most that I can before I spontaneously disappear.
deke had every right to leave.
he had every right to go live his life, to go build a company, to go see the world, to go experience things. he had every right.
and even then. Even if he didn't have the right to leave, mack still had no right to NOT tell deke.
deke was still a family member to fitz, he was related to him. that gives him a right to know!
anyway mack is a jerk lets move on...
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Deke: I would have gone on the mission to help you find him.
Mack: I believe you.
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you can tell he doesnt
he doesnt believe him. at this point he is doing anything he can to deflect the conversation away from him.
mack probably just forgot to tell deke, but instead of just owning up to that mistake, he is creating excuses and deflecting the conversation away from his own mistake by guilting deke and telling him lies.
he will do or say anything to get deke away and to have him stop pointing out his own mistakes
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Mack: And if we get things settled here on the home front, you'll get your chance. 'Cause I'm gonna pour every resource we have into getting back out there and bringing them home.
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if deke hadn't found out, I doubt mack would have given him this chance. he probably would have continued on life without him. mack does not believe the deke is capable of anything good. He's just saying this to make deke happy and to make him content.
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Deke: *nods*
Mack: But... until then, I need someone smart enough to fill their shoes.
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if you watch the scene closely, right before mack says this he kind of looks around, like he's trying to find something to give deke.
he wants deke off his back.
a part of me thinks that mack thinks the deke is a joke. I don't think deke could do anything to earn mack respect at this point.
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Mack: Maybe you can put that google-sized brain of your to work and help crack this tech.
Deke: What, you tryin' to flatter me?
Mack: Absolutely
Deke: Well... totally worked.
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and if he wasn't trying to flatter de ak, and deek didn't take it so lightly, I would think that Max was making fun of him. sorry. maybe this is a stretch. but this is what I got from this scene.
also maybe put this into perspective.
deke lived in a dystopian world where he had to steal things to be able to eat. The chances of survival were low and nobody liked him. everyone thought of him as a traitor but he was really just doing what he could to survive. I think that he would give anything for someone to tell him that he is doing something good.
I don't even live on an alien planet and I strive for people to tell me that I'm doing something good.
deke is not self-centered.
immature? yes.
naive? Yes.
but self-centered? no.
He's just looking for validation and acceptance. and nobody on this stupid team is giving it to him.
except for jemma
but she's in space so.
no wonder he builds such a big company with a good atmosphere. it's what he wants. it's the environment he wants.
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so basically what im trying to say is mack is a jerk and i hate him... thanks bye ;)
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punkscowardschampions Β· 5 years
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Nancy & Rio
Nancy: I can't believe you're going along with this craziness Nancy: Oh my god, Rio Rio: I know it's fast Rio: but really, what difference does it make Nancy: It's not just fast, it's rushed Nancy: Not to sound like my mother but he should literally be at school Rio: I did tell him to go back Rio: He just wants to help with all the mess here Nancy: By leaving to jet off and get married? Yeah okay Rio: Well, obviously that's different Rio: but that's for me Nancy: My parents are gonna kill him, you do know that, right? Rio: I know Rio: but like I said, everyone knew Rio: it wasn't just empty words, we were always going to go through with it Nancy: Jesus Nancy: When he'd graduated, sure Nancy: Not now Nancy: He's not even started uni yet Rio: Give him chance to see the world and change his mind Rio: I know that's what your family wants, it's alright Nancy: If you're thinking there's a chance of it too, don't marry him Nancy: You're already engaged, everyone knows he's with you Nancy: You don't need to prove he's locked down before freshers week, like Rio: That's not why we're doing this Rio: Or how I am Nancy: Explain it to me then, 'cause lord knows he hasn't Rio: It is getting a little old, like Rio: Because we want to be married Rio: How else is there to say it Nancy: But why can't you just wait? Rio: Why should we though? Nancy: There's only a million reasons Nancy: Namely you aren't kids anymore and know how to be mature about things Nancy: Everyone would wanna be there, not tacked on as an afterthought, like Nancy: He should want to not spend all my parents money on this and wait until he's earning his own Nancy: You don't even live together Nancy: Do I actually have to go on? Rio: No you don't Rio: none of you want to be there Rio: and your parents don't specify what he's gotta do with the ridiculous amount of money they throw at him so Rio: if they wanna now it's a bit late, isn't it Nancy: That's not true Nancy: You're being unfair Nancy: Give me some credit if not them, I've been nothing but supportive Rio: I'm not saying you've not accepted that it's happening Rio: most have but no one's happy about it and that's fine Rio: can't force it but why wouldn't we want to do it alone without the pressure and background thought of all your lots bullshit, you know Nancy: No, you're just saying I wouldn't wanna be there Nancy: I love you both Rio: We'll have another one Rio: Later, with everyone Nancy: That's not the same Nancy: That's just a party Rio: What, you're really invested in the religious ceremony now or the legality of it all? Rio: It'll be the same Nancy: You're gonna be a bitch to me right now, really? Nancy: Okay fine Rio: I'm not trying to be a bitch but really Rio: it isn't an argument, stick to your former points if you like Rio: but that ain't valid Nancy: Oh my god, Buster spends all this time acting like I don't care, basically telling me I don't and now when I'm trying to show that I do neither of you want it Rio: Because it only comes up whenever y'all want us to not do something Nancy: Don't lump me in with my parents Nancy: That's so rude Rio: Sorry Rio: We told you because you are different Rio: and we weren't going to just do it and give you no warning Nancy: But not different enough that you actually want me there Nancy: Or that you don't think I need to be warned like this is the worse news ever or something Rio: It's hardly personal, come on Rio: We don't want anyone there Nancy: It's personal to me Nancy: I've only got one brother Rio: He isn't dying Rio: This doesn't need to be the thing it's becoming Rio: plenty of couples do the official wedding before the reception and all that, it's not that different Nancy: Other couples don't matter to me Nancy: And I don't know how you don't get what a big deal this is, not only that you're getting married, which is one thing Nancy: But also that you're basically doing it in secret again Rio: It's not a secret Rio: it's just for us Rio: I want to do one thing for myself Rio: all due respect this isn't about any of you Nancy: I'm not trying to make you feel bad Nancy: Or take anything away from you Nancy: Honestly Nancy: I'm just trying to get my head around this Rio: Yeah Rio: It's okay Rio: I know it's sudden, like I said Nancy: I know he really wants this Nancy: I could tell Nancy: I just Nancy: Is anything ever gonna calm down with this family, or? Rio: Probably not Rio: Looking unlikely Nancy: If you're happy that's all I want Nancy: Oversimplified maybe but Rio: I know it's not going to make you happy Rio: I'm just trying to say Rio: do you have to be unhappy about it, like Rio: it's not the worst thing, yeah Nancy: I'm not unhappy, I was just shocked Nancy: This is my brother you're marrying, you know Nancy: It's not exactly typical of him Rio: I know Rio: I know it's weird, like I am aware Rio: but it just is, you know Nancy: I understand Nancy: You want what you want Nancy: You can't unwant it 'cause someone else tells you to or isn't happy about it Nancy: You shouldn't have to Nancy: You literally don't have to, like Rio: Yeah Rio: Pretty much Rio: I'm sorry Nancy: Don't apologize Nancy: I couldn't just not be gay when I was getting bullied for it Nancy: I'm glad I don't like boys, believe me Nancy: Buster's the happiest he's ever been, you did that. So don't be sorry Rio: I didn't mean for any of this to happen Rio: to like him, I just did Rio: but I can't live an apology when I don't feel it anymore Nancy: I know Nancy: You love each other, you don't get to control that Nancy: And its a good thing, even when it doesn't feel like it Nancy: Who wants to be alone? To fight against what they want? Nancy: You're happy so be it Rio: Thanks, Nance Rio: You know we love you too Nancy: I know you do Nancy: Jury's still out on him Rio: Nah Rio: He does Nancy: Today maybe Nancy: 'Cause I'm not gonna tell mum and ruin his life Rio: Least wait 'til we're outta the country Rio: wouldn't put it past her to get us on the no-fly list Nancy: I'm gonna let her see all his bragging on the socials instead Nancy: More fun that way Nancy: "Your classroom looks suspiciously tropical, Buster" Nancy: While Dad just hits him with "Cool pic" Rio: πŸ˜‚ Rio: Gonna laugh whilst I can Nancy: Me too Nancy: On the plus side, I think you've taken the heat off me at least until I graduate, so thanks Rio: Easy Rio: if I live to cause more turmoil you're very welcome Rio: what are the hated daughter-in-laws for after-all Nancy: πŸ˜‚ Nancy: Oh honey, once you're married in you're gonna wish she hated you Nancy: She's gonna get so invested in your life Nancy: Can't have you ruining his, after all Rio: I'll take it Rio: Didn't stick around for career's advice and I could do worse, like Nancy: True Nancy: I'm just basking in the joy of knowing it literally doesn't matter who I bring home Nancy: Oh the freedom Rio: 😏 Rio: Charming Nancy: You know what I mean Nancy: I could be fucking my therapist and it'd be sidelined by this Rio: Well Rio: are you Nancy: Gross Nancy: No Rio: That's alright then Nancy: But she constantly says I need to be single for a while, so she clearly wants me for herself Rio: Deffo Nancy: Like, excuse you, Diane, I've been single for 18 years near enough Nancy: 1 girlfriend, honey, we've talked about it, get with the program Rio: Basically a nun Rio: out here calling you a dirty jezzie Nancy: Yeah, I know Nancy: Thank god you're giving me time to find a date for the other wedding Nancy: Clearly I'll need it, or a new therapist Rio: If you're moving Diane in, then yeah Rio: Unprofessional Nancy: Lord Nancy: She is so not the one Nancy: I think I hate her? Is that meant to be a thing? Rio: Probably Rio: You're stubborn and she's essentially telling you what to do Nancy: It's even worse Nancy: She makes me tell myself πŸ™„ Rio: Yeah Rio: Smug, init Nancy: It really is Nancy: Ugh enough about me Nancy: When are you going? What are you wearing? Rio: Brazil Rio: and Christ knows, oddly I don't have a wedding dress just hanging about Rio: I'll find one there, I guess Nancy: The question was when, he told me where but he hadn't got that far Nancy: I think he thinks you're gonna call it off unless you've made it to the actual plane Nancy: Just don't get married in a white bikini, yeah? Rio: Oh, my bad Rio: Head is truly all over the place Rio: Well, I am that tacky Nancy: 😲 take that back right now Nancy: You are not Nancy: This isn't the mindset Rio: Do you wanna like, moodboard my shotgun wedding for me? πŸ˜‚ Rio: That's what I'm hearing here Nancy: UM YES Nancy: Get some Chanel and YSL involved, like Rio: Noted Rio: Whether that's the old or new depends how skint we're feeling once we're there, clearly Nancy: It's got to be classic or I'm disowning you Nancy: I'll allow you to save the real designer labels for the big day, bit of Vera or whoever but I can only budge so far, sorry Nancy: The silhouette is still everything even if he's the only one seeing it Rio: πŸ˜‚ Rio: That's what I'm saying, stick with the bikini Rio: He'll be blown away Nancy: πŸ™„πŸ™„ Nancy: That's so disgustingly true as well Nancy: Men Rio: Oh please Rio: Like you wouldn't wanna see your wifey like that Nancy: I'm not getting married ever but if I did, that woman better dress up for me Nancy: Whole 9 yards Nancy: Did you see my mother's wedding dress? Iconic Rio: Hmm Rio: Maybe you're right Rio: Great, now I gotta stress about that Rio: Thanks bitch 😜 Nancy: I would say sorry but I'm not Nancy: You can wear a bikini any time, you'll be going for like a week + Nancy: Besides, he's the kind of boy who actually appreciates clothes Nancy: Labels anyway Rio: I blame you entirely Nancy: Not sorry, again Rio: You can explain my sudden cold feet to him then Nancy: Gladly Nancy: Me and him haven't argued in so long Rio: πŸ˜‘ Nancy: It would get something back to normal, that's all I'm saying Rio: Who wants normal? Nancy: Um Nancy: Me Rio: Nah Rio: Only 'cos you ain't had it Rio: No fun, trust Nancy: Alright, Diane 2.0 😏 Rio: Don't get ideas Rio: I know you love me but Nancy: πŸ˜‚ Nancy: Are we gonna have time to do a hen before you go or are you literally flying out when you close this convo? Rio: Who? Me, you and Indie Rio: That would be interesting Nancy: Well, just me and you then Rio: I don't actually know, I'll have to check Rio: I know we were planning for asap but might've given himself a day to pack Rio: you know how it is Nancy: Tell him he can come to the spa too, he'll make time for that Rio: Yeah? Rio: Alright, prep us for the long ass flight Nancy: He loves a facial as much as I do, more probably Nancy: Not to mention a massage Rio: 😏 Rio: Know I'm meant to be mature and everything but Rio: lmao Nancy: DO NOT Nancy: So gross Rio: You said it! Rio: I can't help that Nancy: And you know exactly how I meant it πŸ˜’ Nancy: Just 'cause neither of us should be in white dresses no need to disgust me, thanks Rio: πŸ˜‚ Rio: I'm not sorry Nancy: Well, please change your mind on that Nancy: 'Cause I'm too gay and too related for this, like Rio: That doesn't work getting you out of family functions, it's not gonna work now, babe Nancy: So mean Nancy: Okay fine I'm too single for this Rio: Aww Rio: I don't think we should go to that kinda spa Rio: too weird even for me Nancy: Oh god Nancy: πŸ™ˆπŸ™‰ Rio: What are hen parties for? Rio: I see why you're so keen now Nancy: I've never been to one Nancy: Thankfully Ro didn't get that far Rio: Shame Rio: I'd have loved to get her a stripper Nancy: πŸ˜‚ Nancy: Librarian or something Rio: Sexy Rio: Drew probably would've done it Rio: the actual horror Nancy: I just choked on my coffee Nancy: and I'm this close to throwing up Nancy: But it's helped me think of the best stripper for her Nancy: Jesus himself Nancy: Sexily removes crown of thorns Rio: STOP Rio: Nothing hotter than blasphemy Nancy: I WISH I COULD Nancy: Help me actual Jesus Rio: He ain't gon' save you now Rio: fully looking the other way Nancy: Turning that chiseled jaw line πŸ’” Rio: Gutted Rio: Yeah, you gay, but you're a fellow ginge Rio: no loyalty Nancy: No way he was ginger Nancy: Or that he looked as much like a woman as he does in the art Rio: You should be living for femme Jesus Nancy: I didn't say I wasn't Nancy: Just that it's unlikely Rio: If you wanna chat theology, hit up your auntie fr Nancy: No thanks Nancy: I've done enough babysitting of them both recently Rio: Fun Rio: I just can't wait for the 2 month update when she tells us about all the things Astrid can do Rio: like, blink, cry, shit Nancy: Don't Nancy: There'll be a newsletter Nancy: Why do you think I wanna come to brazil? I'm planning to stay away until the christening is a distant memory Nancy: She's been planning it since before the baby came out, I swear Rio: Gotta get into heaven, mama Rio: the christening dress, good lord Rio: at least she's a girl, the poor baby boys Nancy: Right? Nancy: She wants to approve my outfit too Nancy: Excuse me, who am I? When have I ever made a faux pas Rio: πŸ˜‚ Unlucky Rio: No showing your knees in church, bitch Nancy: πŸ˜’ Nancy: Poor Diane, it's all she's heard about 'cause I'm furious Nancy: Like, I'm not even joking I've had to send her links of what I'm going buy and she's said no to several looks Rio: The cheek Rio: you can't dress code a christening Nancy: Do you see Buster sending her pics of suits, no you do not Nancy: Golden boy could turn up topless in speedos and she wouldn't care Rio: Fresh from Ipanema Rio: She's gonna be πŸ’” about this wedding forreal Nancy: At least her and mum can bond over it Nancy: Break their silence Nancy: πŸ™„ Rio: Yeah? Rio: I knew my mum said it'd been pretty quiet Nancy: Better than them screaming at each other Nancy: Astrid doesn't need that Rio: I guess Rio: Was never going to be a joyous time was it Nancy: Not really Nancy: I don't blame you for wanting to leave Rio: Not like I'm allowed 'round that drama anyway Rio: got enough, still Nancy: Yeah Rio: Ah well Nancy: Feel free to join me in therapy Nancy: Buster won't Rio: You're good Rio: Wouldn't know where to begin, like Nancy: It's not as if I did either Nancy: I still don't Rio: Does it help? Nancy: I don't know Nancy: It doesn't, not help, if that makes sense Nancy: Like, I don't feel any worse Nancy: So maybe? Rio: It ain't hurting at least Nancy: Yeah Nancy: And I'll take that Nancy: It's weirdly nice to have someone to talk to, who's not too busy to really listen Rio: Yeah Rio: It makes sense Rio: and someone who odds on has a chance of knowing what they're chatting Nancy: It does make you feel less crazy when they don't look at you like 😲😲😲 Rio: Can't teach that poker face in Psych 101 Nancy: I thought I had a good one but she's taken it well and truly up a notch Rio: I think about the bad things too much as is though, never mind setting aside time for that shit Nancy: Me too Nancy: I could not feel more self indulgent, believe me Rio: Nah Rio: I think it's a good thing Rio: I just don't want to Nancy: I get it Nancy: Most days I don't want to, still Nancy: If she'd just let me text her I'd never go, like Rio: You just want her personal number, babe Nancy: πŸ˜‚ Nancy: I told you, she's not the one Rio: Whatever you say, honey Nancy: Shush, bitch Rio: πŸ˜‚ Nancy: I've text my brother about the spa, if I don't hear back I'll assume he's already got you in the air Nancy: Or, you know, he's being a prick Rio: πŸ‘ Rio: I'll confirm either with a plane selfie Rio: or lack of, obvs Rio: Can you like Rio: just keep an eye on Indie when we are gone Rio: you don't have to do anything but she was a bit gutted so Rio: Everyone else will be too but yeah Nancy: Sure Nancy: Do you want me to text you updates spy style or do you want blissful ignorance? Rio: Put it this way Rio: Unless it's an emergency I can sort from Brazil Rio: I don't really want disturbing Rio: but you know the drill actual, keep an eye, tell the olders if she needs nagging into coming home for tea Nancy: Gross but fair Nancy: Okay Rio: Come on Rio: It's my honeymoon, what do you think gonna happen Nancy: I know what will I just don't need to think about my brother being the one doing it to you or with you Nancy: Thanks Rio: Don't be blowing up my phone then babe 😘 Nancy: You wish Rio: You know Rio: Forever holding out hope Nancy: It's fine, we don't need to make it competitive, I'm better Rio: πŸ˜‚ Rio: That's the spirit Nancy: It's less of a brag more of a fact, really Nancy: Not saying you should dump him and marry me but Rio: Well if that's not what you're saying, why are you saying it at all? Nancy: I'm just saying if you did you know you wouldn't regret it, babe 😏 Rio: I would when you leave me high n dry and πŸ’” Nancy: Rude Nancy: I would never Rio: Sure 😏 Rio: Say that now Nancy: You're breaking my heart now! The love is real Rio: What can I say? Rio: Can't even hypothetically do him like that Nancy: So cute Rio: Yeah yeah Nancy: I better text him again to find out what he's planning to wear Nancy: Be awkward now if he didn't put the effort in, like Rio: You can bond over it Rio: you πŸ€“s Nancy: Like you're too cool to care, yeah? Nancy: You love to look good, too Rio: This? Rio: So effortless, naturally Nancy: You can fool him with that, but not me Rio: Rude Nancy: Now you know how the slander feels Nancy: I'm off to cry over the one that got away, obviously 😏 Nancy: Doubting my devotion Rio: Now I know why I don't go out with women Rio: fuck you knowing all my secrets, no thanks Rio: but okay then, see you getting a facial or not 😜 Nancy: Nobody knows all mine Nancy: Work on your excuses for why we can't be together before I see you next, yeah? Rio: Diane's working on it Nancy: She wishes Nancy: I'm not planning on seeing her every week for the rest of my life Rio: πŸ’” Nancy: That's my reputation, amongst other things so Rio: Gotta keep up appearances, babe Rio: Lord knows we're letting the side down Nancy: Anything for you, my love Rio: πŸ’˜ Nancy: You can invite Indie to the spa too, I promise not to seduce her in the sauna or anything Rio: I should hope the fuck not Rio: Not just jealousy talking Nancy: I should hope not Nancy: But I just mean, don't not invite her on my account, you know Rio: Of course Rio: I dunno what she'd make of it but I'll defs invite her Nancy: We might make a convert of her Nancy: The gay agenda Rio: Truly Rio: I just hope your brother is bringing back food she can eat Nancy: He's lived with you guys long enough Nancy: Must have a clue by now Nancy: I know he's a man but he's one with a brain Rio: And tastes that range beyond Maccas but Rio: he does his best, bless him Nancy: πŸ˜‚ Nancy: I won't tell him if you don't Nancy: Big enough head, like Rio: That I can manage to keep from him, like Rio: Probably Nancy: You went from definitely to maybe so fast I didn't even get to challenge it Nancy: Disgustingly cute Rio: Progress from just plain disgusting Rio: I'll take it Nancy: I mean, you'll always be in hetero hell but Rio: 😏 Rio: I promise, it's not that bad Nancy: um okay sure Nancy: Unlikely story Rio: πŸ˜‚ Rio: Not gonna make you try it, it's alright Nancy: You couldn't Nancy: We're over the age of sitting around getting dared to kiss Rio: Sure, you're saying that tonight Nancy: I'm saying that every night if you're offering me a man Rio: Suit yaself, butch Nancy: I will Nancy: Your taste is questionable, babe Nancy: Buster McKenna, of all people Rio: I've done considerably worse but that makes the bit less funny so Rio: go off Nancy: Thanks for letting me have my moment there Rio: Gotta get that best man material out somehow Nancy: Oh god Nancy: Am I gonna have to make a speech? Rio: Say what you like Rio: your brother would never hate you that much Nancy: I'll take that Rio: Though if you get pissed Rio: no stopping you Nancy: 🀐 Rio: I hope so, bitch Nancy: I'll have a date to impress/behave for, won't I? So Rio: Good luck 'cos doubt the rest will be on same orders Rio: dread to think πŸ™„ Nancy: Lord, don't put off the fictional lady before I've even properly thought her up Rio: My bad, my bad Rio: we're all totally sane and respectable Nancy: The numbers alone is intimidating without having to consider any of the personalities attached Nancy: Actually gonna die alone Rio: Not saying keeping it in the family is the way forward but at least I don't have to introduce him Nancy: I just loled Nancy: Won't be explaining that one to my barista Nancy: No offense Rio: Sure the town's already said it's piece on this one Nancy: Undoubtedly Nancy: School is even more fun now, like Rio: Soz Nancy: You really sound it, babe Nancy: I don't care, its not as if I have friends here anyway Nancy: Other than in the family Rio: Well, they'll find a reason to chat shit on us regardless Rio: Always have Nancy: Yeah Nancy: It's no different from my old school other than the accents they use when they slag you off Rio: Basically Rio: It's all the same shit Rio: why you think I left Nancy: I hope that wasn't the only reason Rio: Well no Rio: 'Course not Rio: There was just no reason to be there Nancy: Like Chlo Nancy: Did Buster tell you she left? Rio: Yeah Rio: I'm not secretly pregnant with a baby that's taking it's time though Rio: just FYI Nancy: Me either Nancy: I only kissed her, I swear Nancy: He must be so relieved she's gone though Rio: Yeah, seriously Nancy: I can't believe her and James haven't broken up yet Nancy: I bet he's glad he doesn't have to see as much of her too Rio: Must be a record, right? Rio: Way they all bedhop Rio: Be gladder when the baby's here and he ain't tied to it 24/7 Nancy: 100% they are both cheating Nancy: Well, if anyone will have them Rio: Probably a little hard to pull when you're clearly heavily preggo Nancy: I have no idea how far along she even is Nancy: But the morals in that friendship circle, it wouldn't surprise me if his friends were still hooking up with her Rio: I'm not totally sure myself Rio: bit over half way, I feel? Rio: It's actually gross Rio: like we've all had crossovers but never on purpose like Rio: it's like a weird badge of honour or something idk Rio: posh people love swinging, facts Nancy: But you two are the ones being incestuous, okay Nancy: Everything they do is way grosser Nancy: Buster is well out of it, so thanks Rio: If nothing else Rio: Stopped the likes of Millie Tillie being your sis in law Nancy: Yeah Nancy: He could've been the one having a baby with Chloe Nancy: Imagine Nancy: But don't, 'cause NO Rio: Easily Rio: I try not to, yeah Nancy: Making myself shudder in public Nancy: Thank god he isn't that stupid Rio: She didn't really give him a choice either way Rio: you know he was out of it Nancy: Obviously, but he would have used a condom though that's like muscle memory to him at this point the amount of girls he's been with Rio: If it were that simple no one'd be getting pregnant, babe Nancy: None of his conquests have Nancy: I'll give him that Rio: Shh Rio: Harshing my vibe, babe Nancy: Sorry Rio: S'all good Nancy: You seem happy Nancy: All things considered Rio: I am Rio: with him, like Nancy: And he is too Nancy: I know Rio: Good Rio: What more can I ask for, like Nancy: I'm sorry if I was being a judgey bitch before Nancy: I'm not trying to channel my auntie, honestly Rio: You weren't Rio: like, you were but in a valid way considering Nancy: I'm just trying to look out for you both Nancy: It's weird in the middle Nancy: I know if it was me instead of you, you would too Nancy: But I can't stand in the way, I know that Nancy: And I don't really want to if it's what you both want Nancy: Which obviously Rio: I know that, I swear Rio: You haven't done anything I wouldn't Rio: There's no way to prove this is the right thing but time so Nancy: You'd go way harder than me Nancy: But yeah Rio: Taking it as a compliment Rio: regardless of how it was intended Nancy: It was meant as one Nancy: You're a bad bitch, you know I love that about you Rio: πŸ’˜ Rio: You know how to win me 'round Nancy: I'd hope so Nancy: I've been around you long enough Rio: Yeah, no one's accusing me of being mysterious Nancy: Me either, don't worry Rio: Oh to be afforded the luxury Nancy: Let's call it overrated Rio: Seems like a suitably bad bitch thing to do Rio: I'm alright w it Nancy: Good to know Nancy: 'Cause it's a thing now Nancy: We're running with it Rio: Oh, Buster's back Nancy: Tell the prick to text me back Rio: Will do, I'll direct quote you Rio: Better go though, don't wanna let my food go cold Nancy: Thanks Nancy: Yeah sure that's the reason Nancy: I'm gay not blind Rio: You said it, sister 😍 Nancy: I'm not saying he's hot, I'm saying you think so Nancy: Before you go there Nancy: Anyway go Rio: πŸ’‹
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stupidventshitsblog Β· 7 years
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Too lazy to edit this one sorry
[6:50:50 PM] Nunya Beesnees: "Hahaha, I'm one bad day away from removing myself from all of my loved one's lives!" Is tragic. "Hahaha, lol memes" is annoying.
[6:51:12 PM] Fevers and Mirrors: I'm going to kill myself now lol bye
[6:51:23 PM] Nunya Beesnees: Angela, that is not funny.
[6:51:53 PM] Fevers and Mirrors: But honestly I'm just staying alive for other people, and I need some self care. Let's do what we want most!
[6:52:19 PM] Nunya Beesnees: What?
[6:52:39 PM] Fevers and Mirrors: I crave death constantly
[6:52:56 PM] Nunya Beesnees: Have you told your therapist?
[6:53:12 PM] Fevers and Mirrors: Yeah
[6:53:12 PM] Nunya Beesnees: Just, really explain it to them?
[6:53:15 PM] Fevers and Mirrors: Yeah
[6:53:30 PM] Nunya Beesnees: What do you think's going to happen after you die? Heaven?
[6:53:42 PM] Fevers and Mirrors: End of mental illness at least
[6:53:47 PM] Fevers and Mirrors: Just release
[6:53:52 PM] Fevers and Mirrors: Sweet fuckin release
[6:54:15 PM] Nunya Beesnees: Then what? You're not getting into heaven. Not according to your book and not according to, well me.
[6:54:33 PM] Nunya Beesnees: It's eternal torment thanks to your sky-papa or it's nothing. Literally nothing.
[6:55:26 PM] Fevers and Mirrors: If that's it, horraY! No more suffering! No more forcing myself to live every single goddamn day as I live my boring life in a world of cookie-cutter people
[6:56:59 PM] Nunya Beesnees: Cookie-cutter people?
[6:57:42 PM] Nunya Beesnees: I go out of my way trying to make you happy, trying to be a good friend to everybody and accepting whatever hits me, and I'm a damn cookie?
[6:57:53 PM] Fevers and Mirrors: No
[6:57:55 PM] Fevers and Mirrors: not you
[6:57:56 PM] Fevers and Mirrors: no
[6:58:39 PM] Nunya Beesnees: Then what? The other guy struggling with depression and the fact that he's religious and bi, but still trys to look-out for you?
[6:58:52 PM] Fevers and Mirrors: Malachai doen't have depression
[6:58:56 PM] Fevers and Mirrors: It's a memey facade
[6:59:53 PM] Nunya Beesnees: Fine, if you say so. What about the guy with a man-bun trying to hide his bruises from his friends and the busty chick who's perfectly fine with her stud-muffin, who have both told me off at the slightest sign that I may be upsetting you?
[7:00:35 PM] Fevers and Mirrors: Why can't this be about what I want?
[7:00:38 PM] Nunya Beesnees: I could beat both of them up and I'm like your right hand, and they still stood-up for you! Chris is one of my closest friends!
[7:00:44 PM] Fevers and Mirrors: I'm tired of living for everyone else
[7:01:34 PM] Nunya Beesnees: Yeah. And I got tired of being selfish. Before my dad died and my whole damn world got rocked, my ideal life was sitting in a cave playing Xbox.
[7:01:50 PM] Nunya Beesnees: It was that damn moment when I noticed other people have problems too.
[7:02:06 PM] Nunya Beesnees: What would've happened to my family if I just offed myself right after dad?
[7:02:27 PM] Nunya Beesnees: I was thinking about jumping off the plane on my way to my grandpa's birthday.
[7:03:03 PM] Nunya Beesnees: I considered cutting-off my relationship the moment you seemed stable so I could end myself and not bring you down with me.
[7:03:07 PM] Nunya Beesnees: But I don't.
[7:03:29 PM] Nunya Beesnees: I already know we're wired different.
[7:04:19 PM] Nunya Beesnees: Maybe you just haven't had something truly terrible happen to you. I don't just mean traumatic, but the entire rest of your life is forever changed because of it.
[7:04:37 PM] Nunya Beesnees: But we have other people to live for, and some of them live for us.
[7:04:37 PM] Fevers and Mirrors: Because 15 years of abuse isn't trauma
[7:05:01 PM] Nunya Beesnees: You still love your parents.
[7:05:22 PM] Nunya Beesnees: My dad died and it all hit me.
[7:05:53 PM] Nunya Beesnees: He's never going to see me grow-up past a glob of shit sulking in a dark room playing video games.
[7:06:00 PM] Nunya Beesnees: I'll never make him proud.
[7:06:05 PM] Nunya Beesnees: He'll never be a grandpa.
[7:06:11 PM] Nunya Beesnees: He didn't go to heaven.
[7:06:17 PM] Nunya Beesnees: I'm not going to heaven.
[7:06:31 PM] Nunya Beesnees: We have no reason to live but to continue the species.
[7:06:39 PM] Nunya Beesnees: . . . and yet, I hold-on.
[7:06:52 PM] Nunya Beesnees: I love you with all my heart, sweetie.
[7:07:08 PM] Nunya Beesnees: If you died. . . I'd find the next person who needs help.
[7:07:45 PM] Nunya Beesnees: If Ruthie and her boyfriend break-up, I'm not going to try to catch her on the rebound. I'll make sure she's alright.
[7:08:12 PM] Nunya Beesnees: Chris punched me and calls me a fag. He also hides and jokes about bruises.
[7:08:59 PM] Nunya Beesnees: I gotta keep on going for all the people who need me. Maybe there's several people they need, I'm not going to put them 1/5 of the way closer to the edge.
[7:09:47 PM] Nunya Beesnees: I understand that you may see things different, that you have no want to live. . . but you're part of a chain. People need you. people need you and their parents and their role models and their friends.
[7:09:53 PM] Nunya Beesnees: I need you.
[7:12:57 PM] Nunya Beesnees: Angie?
[7:15:26 PM] Fevers and Mirrors: Hey
[7:15:32 PM] Nunya Beesnees: Hey.
[7:15:38 PM] Nunya Beesnees: I love you.
[7:15:47 PM] Nunya Beesnees: You're beautiful
[7:15:51 PM] Nunya Beesnees: -and funny
[7:15:57 PM] Nunya Beesnees: Lovely and loving.
[7:16:14 PM] Nunya Beesnees: I like being around you. You make me feel. . . happy.
[7:16:23 PM] Fevers and Mirrors: Thank you
[7:16:52 PM] Nunya Beesnees: Just, glad in a way and so consitant no videogame could rival it.
[7:17:23 PM] Nunya Beesnees: Even at your darkest moment, when you feel like the entire world hates and despises you, assuming it even knows you exist. . . I love you.
[7:17:29 PM] Nunya Beesnees: I think you're important.
[7:17:41 PM] Fevers and Mirrors: Thank you
[7:17:56 PM] Nunya Beesnees: It's nuthin'. Just me thinking outloud.
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