#also me: -sleeps in til 3-

[critterpdf]

happy 1 year to this comic i forgot to post feat. my inq basil <3

#dragon age #dragon age: inquisition #da:i #oc: basil #inquisitor cadash #sera dragon age #comic #this is goofy and also dumb but i remember i couldnt sleep til i drew it #basil my beloved. she does her best to try and sound Smart but she's really. something #she's more chaotic than she lets on. she wields an axe like 3 times her size. queen #anyways. posts this late at night. no one sees me being a dragon age enjoyer #solas dragon age #<- i guess i should tag him too #sera x cadash

[what-is-it-to-be-pk-esque]

I am so... empty and happy and idk... experiencing withdrawal after that baldur's gate 3 epilogue yall

I can't get over everything around the endgame scenes with Karlach and Astarion (and I mean the "good" endings!), I am literally still processing it days later 😭

Plus Gale being a professor, free of the orb?? Shadowheart being at peace, finding herself and able to adopt the Owlbear?? Her visiting Gale and Tara for tea??? Making her own cider and wanting to do a reunion party every year??? Being invited to lecture Gale's students and bring Astarion too and also stay and chat in his tower??? Halsin gets to be a dad like he's always wanted with all the orphans??? Karlach has hope for a new engine and may return home and might be more than friends with Wyll??? Lae'zel raging her dream, riding red dragons and learning to be more diplomatic? Jaheira being Jaheria and Minsc visiting Astarion much to his dismay (and somehow when he's not with my Tav in the Underdark or looking for a cure lol)?? Just... everyone living their best lives??? All of the hugs!???? My heart is so full the more I think about it but I also want to see it in the game and not my head 😭

Only issue is who gets Scratch??? Where has he been the past 6 months and where is he staying afterwards?? Did I miss this detail??

Basically that epilogue is so so wholesome and hopeful. Got me feeling like this once again

#Karlach's speech after Gortash and the brain battle.... pain #Astarion basically experiencing true happiness in only 6 months... pain #but good pain lol #and im going out of town for a week wtf am i gonna do without this lovely game and these lovely characters to distract me from real life #cant start a new game til mid April 😩 #this game has consumed me fully for 2 months and then crushed me at the end #how am i going to talk to anyone about anything else lmfao #probably not helping that I'm tired af trying to change my sleep schedule for a new time zone #also I would love to see Astarion try to teach anything magic-related lmfao #in my game the man only knows firebolt and dance macabre #wtf is he going to be doing there in that classroom while my sorcerer tav is teaching lol #he'll just be there causing mischief in the apparently already not very studious class lol #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 spoilers #bg3 spoilers #Astarion #halsin #shadowheart #wyll #gale #jaheria #minsc #Karlach

[morningmask27]

One thing I fucking hate about my sleep is that I'm exhausted the entire day, but as soon as the lights are off and I'm in bed I become restless, literally.

I am thinking too hard about things, rotating like crazy to find a semi comfortable position to sleep in, thinking too hard about my past again (tell me it's shit, please, I need people to heckle at it with. I am being a hater alone and that's not fun), having to physically not move for twenty minutes in the hopes of falling asleep, my entire body goes numb because IT does, but not my brain. Then it's not good, so I have to move and thus undo the last twenty minutes of trying to fall asleep to find another position and try again.

All that and I go to bed at midnight and only fall asleep at two in the morning, my sleep is absolute shit and truly I want a refund

#morningtalks #And this is without the other facts that I wake up a few times a night for seemingly no reason. Multiple times a night. Truly. #If I fall asleep around midnight I can guarantee you I'll wake at 3 am. 5-6 am 9 am 10 am 11 am and then at 12. #Every fucking night is the same #And I'm fucking exhausted when I wake up since my sleep is not good in de either #I don't remember last time I actually woke up well rested. And since I'm chronically sleep deprived I let myself sleep a bit more til 12. #But I'm not well rested and energized for the day when I wake up #Part of it is probably also because I'm NOT a morning person (despite what my name suggests) but still. It takes me a good while to functio #Fucking shit sleep I'm complaining about at three am when I should be sleeping actually but I'm mad about it Right Now #Anyways wish me luck on my next attempt at falling asleep without pain or exhaustion or anger

[mirimage]

Shouldn’t be allowed to regulate my own sleep schedule I should just be forcibly sedated every evening

#miri shut up challenge #every night #it gets to like 2-3 am ish and I go #hmm it’s getting. a little bit late #should I go to sleep now and actually get some sleep or just stay up?? #and then it gets to like 4-5 and I go ah I’m not tired I’ll just stay up #and every single time. once it hits like 7-8 ish I’m all of a sudden tired #and then I’m fucked for the day bc I’ll either just be tired all day #or I’ll accidentally fall asleep and then fuck up when I sleep for the next couple days #am I writing this bc it’s 7.30 and I want to go to sleep but I can’t bc I have something on at 10.30 #yes #😔 #also apparently I’m just way too used to my alarms now bc I know if I try nap for a couple hours I Will Not wake up til like 4pm #woe is me in this Situaton completely of my own making

[strawbebyjam]

luv mascara so much but hate the trail she leaves

#i looked sooooo cute the other day and the mascara i used like. i love her we love her. but my eyes still look dark under girl it’s been #3 days 😭😭😭 #tbf i’ve beeb sleeping kinda funky but still!!!!! she should be kinder about it i think #friend sent me a message saying she wantedto ask abt something and then didnt say what she needed to ask for like two hours and still hasnt #so im jittery and gonna end up oversharing on here but its better than being jittery and holding overthoughts and nowhere to put them prob #also ive been violently flipflopping between feeling sooo pretty sooo beautiful sooo everyone is so beautiful and like. abyssal dread. #brain wheres the christmas cheer … #cooked dinner for everyone today and i couldnt do every part bc i felt sick n it wasnt perfect n im gonna be dwelling on it til i pass out #in any case jitters. jittery. not going away #i feel like maybe a warm bath could help but also my hairs so long now that itd end up staying wet for long n then it might turn into #shivery jitters and then thats just insurmountable yk. so. but #in any case. i wish i could clean my room properly feel like id be less jittery n also i miss my cousins n nieces n family LMFADHDJDJD #mano.mindtalk #neg

[desperatepleasures]

shinou help me I'm starting the next level of my medication taper tonight

#get ready for doth to be even MORE unstable for the next 3+ weeks!!! #well it's pretty much 3wks til the test that requires me to be off my meds #but then i have to taper back up. sigh #so it'll still be tough for a while but at least things will be going in a positive direction!! #doth oversharing hour #at least im in less pain than i was yesterday #i really think it was the combination of no neurotransmitters + having to do stressful things that also changed my schedule #even if i was in mental agony at work from stress + not sleeping. my physical pain level is more bearable today #well it's still enough to make my dread my pt exercises lol but there's better than yesterday when i could only do the reclined ones #I'm gonna try and do all of them tonight...i will try my best

[7-oh-ta1]

Okay so like I'm not in a situation where I can cook meals at night so I get frozen meals w veggies right but I'll be damned if sometimes these chicken with a side of broccoli is just broccoli w chicken which yk I'm a fan of broccoli but girl I bought chicken..... where's it....

#lindsay speaks #it's also funny when on the box it's like fresh grilled chicken and then in reality it's like a meat cube KFHGH like girl that is chicken #for salad..... which reminds me to get my fav salad again... #i haven't recently cause i can't get it delivered <- is cheaper than taking an uber to the store #but I'm going to force myself to leave the house next weekend instead of just chillin at the house #it's just hard because I'm on my feet 7-8 hours a day 5 days a week n I'm at work for 9-10 hours counting commute if i take the bus and ghg #taking the bus on weekends means being out of the house for 3-4 hours... so if i sleep in (til 11am) leave at 1pm... the bus does the final #round past my house at 3:10pm so i gotta be at the store bus stop again by 2:20pm and ghfhgjj.... so no sleep in??I'll DIE FR W NO SLEEP IN #all that to say man I'm just trying to eat yummy food 🙏🙏🙏🙏

[sysig]

Curled up and around ♥ (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #ZEX #The Captain #Scribbly Silly SCII Shenans #Lol #Made a couple temps and then got distracted with The Cutes haha #I actually made that first ZEX at the beginning of the year! I just didn't have a place to put him til now #Glad he finally made the cut haha - gesturing so carefree and nonplussed #'"Who me?'' Always he <3 #Some snuggle spacefillers for the spacefarers hehe <3 #ZEX getting a little touchy with his trunk - the Captain is trying to sleep! Pls do not disturb! #I also got a bit distracted thinking about the shape of YIK's chibi-feet from her latests - almost paw-like? It's cute! #Took a couple passes at it but hmmm might need a couple more before I'm satisfied lol #Leg shapes fun ♪ #A smorch <3 When will the Captain stop being surprised? Where would be the fun in that? Lol #And then just a silly-flirty pose for ZEX lol #Was still in the mood for leg poses but why not slap a torso/arm pose on top? With these kinds of results?? Lol #Fanning out his tail as a counterbalance haha #It's all very silly

[scarletiswailing347]

you can really tell i mellowed out about zam cause i draw him about as much as i do my other blorbos now aka never lol jk

#mine.txt #personal cw #not really a vent just me musing about my brain #i should really train myself to draw according to when *i* want rather than according to when my mental illness wants #cause like as much fun as it is it also has detrimental effects #like for example my more detailed drawings can sometimes take all night and id refuse to sleep until i finish it #cause i feel the overwhelming need to get it done #even tho i dont Want to get it done cause i want to go to sleep #also should be on tumblr less cause ngl it takes up way too much of my time #i like reading (non narrative) words and tumblr has a lot of them #honestly im never gonna solve these two specific problems until i manage to get to the root of them #aka my hatred of sleep and my want to see other ppls experiences respectively #both of which stem from my emotional negligence resulting in a weird existential kind of fomo #but til then i need to set up some temporary solutions cause this is Not sustainable #like i literally wrote this at 1 am even though ive been so sleepy for like 3 hours now #i think the best solution rn is to take up exercise that way id have no choice But to have a proper sleep schedule cause exhaustion #but i Refuse to do that when im around other ppl and unfortunately i have roommates #so gotta find something else

[paralien]

hey google how do you suicide bait your boss send txt

#fanya.txt #ive told her 3 times now that im gone on vacation from the 22nd until the 12th and shes put me up to work. #AGAIN. on the 22nd til the 12th #also. on several days in July and August she wants me to work a 7-15 shift one day. a 15-23 shift the next day and then #a 23-7am shift the day after #thats going to actually kill me #you know that right boss lady? im not kidding im not getting any consist sleep and im gonna get a heart attack and then die #what the fuck is wrong with her

[celticwoman]

thinking of (once again) trying to do the switch to bluetooth earphones.........😓

#not ideal at all im a wired earphones til death but...my current ones' cable got super fucked up for some reason and only one of them works #and i fear it will stop working soon so im looking into earphones prices to get new ones #and ive been thinking...as much as i love them and prefer them... theyre very inconvenient when im out of the house because i dont #wear clothes with good pockets most of the time so i dont have anywhere to put my phone if i wanna listen to my tunes out in the street #unless im in the bus where i can carry my backpack close enough to me that i can put my phone in one of the pockets and be comfortable #its also inconvenient when i go to sleep bc i like sleeping with music on but as much as i love the geting choked by the cable thing #its probably one of the reasons why the cable got so fucked up in the first place #but of course bluetooth earphones also have a lot of cons #like having to charge them ???? and then the battery only lasts not even 3 hours i think #which is insane #then its also easier to lose them or imagine if im out on the street and one falls of???? im super terrified of that #wired earphones are more secure #again. both have many pros and cons so idk #would love to know if anyone has an opinion on this #the difference in the price is not that big so it's the same on that front idrc #cami.txt

[arcaneyouth]

oh god ive returned to "i dont have time to take breaks i need to be working constantly" even tho i have specifically designed my schedule to allow myself to take breaks

#vent post #negative #my everything is on fire #i feel like a little pussy bitch for having to take breaks #cause i know everything i need to do isnt that hard #but it IS that hard and i dont know why its getting to be this hard #it didnt used to be...? #why am i so slow again. hello #why is everything hard again #my schedule is not overwhelming but it is but its not but it really is #i have to rearrange my entire schedule to figure out all the new responsibilities im about to have and thats awful and is going to hurt me #but also none of this should be fucking hard #im on medication. do i need a better dose? did something change? #things to talk with my therapist about but my appointments not for a week and i dont have time to add one this week #i am not going to survive the adult world if i am acting like this man. what the fuck am i supposed to do tho #everything really does feel like it fell apart all at once and i should know how to fix it but its weird and wrong #......ive been sleeping more and being more tired lately too??? #maybe my ass needs to stay up til 3-4 am. for my mental health #i dont know. i feel lost and i have a map but im still ?????

[keeps-ache]

i accidentally stayed up til 5 a.m. last night looking for a fic that wasn't slash [wheeze laughs and then collapses]

#just me hi #i got four hours of sleep though so dw i'm fine :D #i might personally need to sleep like maybe five hours #i say five cuz 100% i'm taking a nap when i get bored later #//anyway i'm listening to music and ivakhvfb #happy hands happy hands !!! #i got ze Zoomies #//looking at so many pretty flowers rn #thanks in advance for the ask viney i am having Ideas :DD <3 #did you know that the zinnia (specifically the red peruviana from what i've seen) was dubbed 'the world's first space flower' ? #it was grown in space!! :DD #and she's so so pretty like a poppy and a cornflower at once #the red one's i'm looking at anyway #//anyway yeah stayed up til five a.m. #it's almost funny how i'll be reading a desc. and be like 'hey wait this actually sounds p good-' #and then i double-triple check the tags and it's like. abo #i'm dying can you tell #'use the filtering opt-' [boop] No. :) #not only does a bit of inconvenience bring spice to my life #but also sometimes i need to just lay back and laugh bc everybody is dating everybody and i just shrivel up inside when anything happens #but also i do not like having to add every tag so there's that too lol #so neat how it's like 'oh this sounds....... interesting' [click] #and then finish reading and it's like 'OH MY GOSH. OH MY WHY. HWY. [cries all over the place]' #idec abt inception but that one fic got me like o0o #anyway what else was i saying #uhhhh #//ouhghguh zoomies happy hands happy hands auhhguhug #//might write today too! who knows i'm feeling good :D #nothing grey today ma'am no sirreeeeeee #ok xoxo i'm gonna get back to sketching ~+~+~

[welcometogrouchland]

i thought it was 3000 words it’s 3000 CHARACTERS i’m already 1000 over the limit 

#ramblings of a lunatic #im doing my personal statement for uni btw #i mean. i know editing down is a bit easier than waffling on for ages #BUT STILL #i might just wait til i meet w/ my teacher mentor and then be like. okay now fix this with me #better than showing up w/o it done #ive also felt weirdly off and slightly sick (??????) all day but we don't have to get into that </3 #its probably the poor sleep no breakfast half of lunch and emotional distress at (i kid u not) owl house leaks #god. im a pathetic and shivering little thing

[3am-cheerios]

got 2 tests tomorrow that i dont feel prepared for At All :)

#prof was gone yesterday so we didnt do review together #questions on quizzes and study guides arent worded well #or ive just retained zero information learned this month #6 classes covering 3 chapters is just stupid imo #especially when most of those classes we were released halfway thru them #i still have so much cis110 homework as well #and there are the last home games of the season this weekend #so i wont even be home #and growlithe has been weird today #probably bc hes cold #and the heater i ordered doesn't come til Saturday #when im not here!!!! #somebody tell me i cant skip just so i dont have to test #also my pell and arp funds hit and i put that in savings and ive never had this much money in my life #which is fucking sad for a 24yo #i feel like shit and idk why #theres too much and not enough happening #math prof even said this is an easy test which makes me feel WORSE #i just want to play game and crochet and sleep #kt gets edumacated

[sysig]

TMP 1 Adventures (Patreon)

#Doodles #Tamagotchi #Yaaay I can share them! My Tamas! ♥ #It's been a fun experience to play with Tamagotchis for the first time haha - it's a much slower burn than I could've expected! #I only ever got to even hold a Gotch for maybe twenty minutes up til this point? Lol - not very long at all! #As you can imagine I only got to play with the Egg Hatching/Baby stage which is very chaotic and needy so that's what I had to go off of #It's different! Not Super different in certain ways lol ♪ But different! #Smol very graciously agreed to play with me since I got both a Mesu and Osu :D She got the Mesu and named her Honey #And I kept the Osu and named him Bee! :D #I'm still in a little bit of conflict as to whether the Device (Gotchi) is named Bee or if the Creature (Tama) is named Bee lol #I think I've decided that the Device /and/ the first generation of Tama is named Bee and then all subsequent generations are puns on Bee lol #So for Bee's child I named him Bay - BayBee lol #Bee was a cute little lad <3 I miss him a bit :') But he was a good father as well! Fed little BayBee haha #It was sooo cute to see their futons next to each other and then a little bittersweet to see little Bay's all alone one night :'''D #Other fun little things like smol raising Honey differently than I raised Bee so we ended up with non-counterparts lol #If you know anything about Osutchi raising yes you are allowed to judge me on my competency lol #I still think he's cute! He was almost half Honey's size tho which I found funny haha #I love my very big wife #There was also the fun of having a somewhat scuffed sleep schedule but them always waking me up Earlier than necessary thanks guys #They were mostly good! Bee was awful for naps tho lol - and I watched both of them at night since smol was scared she'd miss Honey's wake up #We also discussed the implications of the babies being twins but also....growing up to be.........partners? Uhm #My personal headcanon was something akin to parthenogenesis and non-mutating identical genes leading to identical babies- #Look they're code as far as I'm aware virtual pets don't suffer from inbreeding lol #And if they do well darn oh gosh oh no I guess I'll just have to get more lol ♪ #They are hecka cute <3 They quite literally grow up so fast! I'm glad I get to play :D