#also on days that i have dysphoria the webcam feature is REALLY distressing

[actuallyyangxiaolong]

One thing that I absolutely HATE about zoom calls is that if I have my video on I can see my own face, cause I always spend the entire time staring at myself and obsessing over how I look and how everyone else is perceiving me, so I tune out everything and get super stressed and learn nothing (plus it slows my internet and everything buffers) BUT also not ever turning it on means no one has seen my face in 11 months which feels so isolating

#feel free to reblog #ugh zoom bad for my brain #also on days that i have dysphoria the webcam feature is REALLY distressing #but also dear god i want someone to see me just in a way that i cant ever see myself #it feels like going to class and holding up a mirror the whole time