#also side note: i kinda have covid lol

[joycrispy]

So I've mentioned before that I've had a lot of arts n' crafts small creative projects on the go (and a few not-so-small ones, but that's another post), and I just kinda felt like talking about 3 of them.

SO I WILL.

1. Bookbinding

This is more of an ongoing learning process than any one particular book I'm binding --but the process is going very well. Pictured here is the latest attempt, and my most ambitious attempt in that it was mostly me going, 'huh, I wonder if that would work' and dicking around until I got some sort of result.

(Example: I dyed that cover black. Did not know if it would work. It...kinda does? Further testing required.)

The final book is far from perfect, but I'm actually very happy with it. It's like a prototype of the kind of book I've been wanting to make all along, the whole reason I picked up bookbinding. Old fashioned tomes are the goal here.

More on that in a bit.

2. DnD Character Journals

At the moment I am in three different ongoing campaigns (including one I'd been playing in for two years before Covid happened, now picked back up again, and another which is a sequel to a previously completed campaign. Exciting stuff. The third is a character I usually reserve for one-shots, but she got a whole campaign this time. Good for her!), and I have completed journals for two out of my three characters.

(If you don't know what a character journal is: it's basically just a Character Sheet, but way more extra and ~Aesthetic. Sort of a functional gaming scrapbook. I also design mine to make the game as accessible as possible to my very ADHD brain. I highly recommend it, as a practice).

Pictured here is the main stat page for my monk, Wormwood, who just reached level 5.

Speaking of DnD...

3. Campaign Journal

So anyone who has played with me knows that I take EXTREMELY DETAILED NOTES, but this time around I'm taking the notes, immediately converting them into readable prose recountings (as opposed to fast n' easy notetaker's shorthand, which only makes sense to me), and then sharing them as an editable Google document with the group. They can add anything I missed, or flesh out details I skimmed over, add their character's POV of a scene, or whatever they like!

(This also has the neat side-effect of generating material for the DM's World Anvil, which is nice. He's free to pick and choose what he wants, or ask me to write an article for him, etc.)

This makes it very easy for the group to refresh their memories between sessions, but also, when the campaign is finished...there will be a very thorough record of it.

Last year I had the thought that, with the way I take my notes, I could easily print out a campaign journal and bind it as a physical book, and then have that as a memento/give it as a gift to the other players.

That's an exceptional amount of work to do AFTER the fact, but doing it one session at a time, as they happen...that's very doable.

I mean. People bind novel-length fanfiction for their own personal collections. There's no reason I shouldn't bind a novel-length campaign, lol.

And I can personalize each book to each player, as well! No, yeah, this is EXACTLY the kind of thing I love to contribute to a game. The group's excited, I'm excited, lots to look forward to, here.

I have other projects, including two large ones that are each going to take the better part of 2024, which slows all these little ones down...but I'm consistently whittling down the daily to-do list into something more manageable.

And work is nice right now because my main job atm is something I'm really, really good at...

(charity fundraising: my location is 1st in the district and 7th in the country for donations, and almost a third of those donations were made through me. I'm very, very good at this part of my job)

(I tend to be good at things I care about --ADHD, like I say-- and our partner charity benefits local queer and disabled kids who need shelter and support, so, YES, I CARE ABOUT THAT)

...so it makes the days pass quickly and peacefully. I get to come home in a good mood to all my little arts n' crafts. It's been very fun.

I'm glad I have time to be on tumblr again, though.

#about me #I can't remember if I have a bookbinding tag or not #I'll figure it out later #the moment I hit post on this I am turning around and throwing myself at one of the big projects for the next two days so wish me luck #Leah bookbinds

[hollowknightnerd]

Hello everyone! I'm currently struggling with what to do with Bretta. You see, for a certain plotline to work, she needs to be "aged up." I never really thought of her as super young in-game, more like~ 19 or so. But with Ghost being a child in my story, that gets uncomfy super quickly.

I'm kinda struggling with including female characters in a way that makes sense. On the one hand, I do want to include them, but other than Hornet & Iselda, I don't know who to include other than Bretta. I do have ideas, but it doesn't make sense for Oro to just let Lost explore/ visit characters like the White Lady, Mantis Lords, or Seer. Also, as a side note- what are your headcanons about what happens to all the infected bugs post-game? I don't want to make any OCs, but I'm really trying to gauge the environment that Hallownest would have post-game.

Anyway, all suggestions are welcome! No promises that I'll use the ideas, but if I do, I'll credit ya. I have the first 2 chapters done and plenty of segments/scenes to merge later on. Also, I've become one of THOSE A03 writers! I've had a kidney stone, COVID, and serious nausea on top of my usual chronic illnesses (illnessi? lol). Thanks for all your lovely comments-I will respond to them as soon as I catch a break! Haha.

Love ya guys!

- hollowkightnerd

#stay and be safe #hollow knight fanfic #hollow knight

[princessaurorasdiary]

Diary 2/26: life update cause it's been 6 months at least

Hi 👋🏼, It's been a long time, about 6 months about. I'm 23 now

I have a lot of up and downs and haven't felt like writing, and my main creative outlet has been TikTok because to be honest, I feel less alone when I can see that people saw my video, and maybe ever gave it a like or comment

I guess I'll talk a bit about the last 6 months, I work at a craft store now, quit my old horrible job that mistreated me constantly, got COVID soon after quitting the old job, went and saw a medium sized artist I like in concert, second ever concert, her name is Tessa Violet, dragged my bff with me cause we planned it for her to come down and visit me during Spring Break.

I also confessed to my crush, they said they like me too and have just as long as I have but she thought me flirting was pitty compliments cause ADHD runs through both of us lol, it's been moving really slowly cause things keep happening to her, the universe is just slapping her weekly bro.

I don't hate my job at the craft store, but I miss doing a version of my chosen career as a baker/cake decorator, really wish that place wasn't so toxic and that I had a car already.

I'm still trying to get a car, it took me 3 months to get a new job after quitting my old one, the COVID thing was a month of that but also just this job market sucks, origami current job was seasonal, but I have really good numbers on the register and I'm good at the other parts like stalking and sorting and fixing things on the shelfs so I got kept on. I make sure not to give a ADHD 100% anymore, it killed me at my old job and whenever I only had a normal person's 100% they acted like I was failing when I was just doing a normal amount instead of a crazy amount, so I learned not to grind myself to the bone.

I can't remember if I've mentioned this, probably not tho, I go to a weekly crochet club for months now, it's all older ladies and me but it's better than nothing with how I don't really have friends other than my best friend. They care about me and I care about them and it's nice to talk to others once a week.

I kinda ran outta steam for finding friends the last 2 months, I was trying and trying and I'm just tired after months and months or trying 🤷

I think about making a post all the time, but also feel like I'm writing into the void, which has been terrifying me lately, the void that is, long story short, I was stressed AF and couldn't sleep for days the day before Halloween and tried to smoke to fall asleep, but before I'd just taken a hit or two of my brothers sleep type vape, but actually smoked it that night for the first time and instead tripped horribly and it's still affecting me mentally, the memory of the horror that was that night.

Editing a note: I was basically trying to test for a bit if a sleep strain of weed would help with my at the time rampid insomnia since sleep meds either don't work on me or give me bad side effects, but after that night I'm probably never touching it again so ✌🏼

I also am just not feeling great medically, I just got my broken tooth pulled through and did my wisdoms at the same time and already feel better even with the jaw pain, so hopefully some of the not feeling well was because of my teeth, I've been working on trying to finally fix my teeth as well and I think it might actually happen now

Anyways, it's after 3:20am so I'm gonna go lay down even if I don't sleep till 4 cause laying down is better than nothing

#diary #diary entry #dear diary

[wanderrlust0]

2/2

it ties into the female attention & peaking his interest even if its by the slightest. idk, like i said, this happened almost 3yrs ago when we were in a tough spot unfortunately and ive put it all behind me and weve been moving forward. i know how he feels about me & we would hate to ever lose each other. its just after hearing about this new news to me, i feel like it triggered my brain into thinking about how he can maybe feel things easily towards people. also, hes already apologized to me about the stuff in the past so i dont really feel any more of the frustrations that i felt bc at first he was not seeing my side of things and i was feeling so annoyed by that. luckily, thats all over now. i still get a little attentive when it comes to his classmates & any other girl i hear about bc then i start thinking, well is she pretty, does she like him, does he like her, how much do they talk, etc. which is just a normal girl thing..i think lol. im not totally insecure but it is easy to feel some type of way. so, i think i expressed everything i wanted to. i replied to the other guys msg and i honestly feel kinda bad for him but i hope they can work things out..

edit 7/29: not to add More things to this but.. i hung out with him today & i could tell that he felt terrible about himself for that happening & he felt like i was letting him off too easy. like, just not getting mad or lashing out i guess. im too shy to do that to him tho but i did say how i did think about it a lot & that you two were honestly stupid for doing that. also, how i did feel bad for her husband. i didnt say much more than that but if i did i just wouldve said like, you two knew it would ruin the friendship. even tho it didnt right away, look at it now. just bc you two couldnt put your sexual thoughts aside. but you know what, it just goes to show that it was always ever so slightly present since the beginning of the friendship. they both have had thoughts of fucking already & they finally caved. so he was given the chance to sleep with her & he took it bc 1, it benefited him and 2, hes been secretly wanting to do that. IM STILL NOT OVER THE WHOLE BREAK THING (kinda am) BUT I CANT DWELL ON IT. i just asgdjflk. like broT-T ..made me believe that we were just not gonna talk as much, yet still be friends. it was both of our first time trying out a break. he made me believe that wed be back together once things chilled out & we could hang out normally since it was covid year (honestly was torture & i was in one of my lowest moments). He made me be under the impression that he just needed some spaceeee. I didnt think it was to the point where he felt like he was single, ready to mingle!!! like dude didnt even wait that long to find a whatever rebound, then had the guts to cry to me about stuff i didnt understand at the time but then later found out it was over some other girl!!T-T posting a fricken poem on his story & telling me a lie. turning off his location. taking longer & longer to reply, then not replying for almost a day. But yeah sure, telling me we’d still talk during this time, just not as romantic. sending me snaps of his dealer writing a little “cute” ass note w a heart on it. whyy would your dealer even do that. like she obviouslyyy wouldnt do that for just anyone. posting on your story about something that had to do w him being available & wanting to date. until finally he starts talking to me like he used to bc oh yeah, he wants me back. meanwhile, i havent even thought of myself being single or looking to find a new romantic partner. idk, that all messed w my head soo much. AAND that stupid poem was hung up on his wall for literallyyy monthsD; i couldnt even loook at that wall while we were being intimate bc it turned me off so much & didnt have the guts to mention it. he finally replaced it w something i gave him & when i saw it i was like about time & i showed it to my friend. i got sidetracked but that was important to let out. back to his friend..me knowing that hes been cheated on & how much it has affected him, i would think that he wouldnt enable someone else to do it to their partner the way his ex did it to him?! that was another thing i wouldve told him. i guess i just didnt feel like hurting him more than he already felt about himself.. but to wrap it up, i think were done with it. he kept complimenting me all day. he feels like he should unfollow her off everything now. they honestly havent really talked in a long time & they havent been close like they used to be so its not like they talk. he just doesnt wanna be involved with her & her hubby at all after this. he said i should unfollow also. tbh, i sort of dont want to? is that weird.. i feel like i should be hating her more but i also dont feel enough hate to remove her from ig. idk..he also might ask her how her husband found out. idk its like a sticky situation bc i wouldnt describe my feelings as hurt towards everything. i felt shocked, but not completely surprised. i felt old feelings that i felt when i first found out he hooked up w people during our break & now there was more to uncover. i felt like my suspicions were proven.

#journal #mypost #continued in the comments

[iniini]

I defurried Telma! I’ll need to draw better art of her if I make her character sheet.

If you want to see me go on a tangent about Telma

Anyway yeah Telma was a danganronpa oc lol. Her whole thing was that she was a prick and very closed off. I got into danganronpa into the beginning of Covid like at the time everyone thought we would just have 2 weeks off I wanted to make an oc but I still didn’t know how to draw humans but I also kinda know the trope of the pro tags having the ahoge. So I chooses to make Telma a mule (at first she was a pony) because they have hair. Idk I remember giving her big glasses because I thought to myself if she was in a game her eyes would always be obscured until she opens up.

Something like this she also went through a lot of changes in terms of character and design I wish I had all her old art but it’s stuck in my old laptop. I’m surprised to find that I wrote like one paragraph about her in my notes, it’s not the best lol.

Anyway I did make her a beastman at first but didn’t like how that looked so I just completely defurried her. The person nest to Telma in the second picture is Felix I’ll need to defurry him as well.

Anyway these two were mostly relegated to the sketch books I would bring with me to school maybe if I find them again I’ll show more pages I like her current human design but I’m also fine with her furry design though I did change her hairstyle again because she didn’t look right without the ears but eeehhhh idk I have lizard brain

Side note Telma is the kind of person to say “you are broken, I on the other hand am used to winning.”

#twst oc #my art #telma warne #unusual post #Telma was a oc I made before I was confident in drawing humans

[hexonthepeach]

hi! i just read thru your answers to asks relating to the d&s universe(?) and i hope youre ok w/ my questions:

1. Since sungtaro & the 3rookies are now out of nct ((tbh i still cant forgive sm for this but at least sungtaro are about to have proper idol activities now & hopefully shohei can debut soon too!)), will they still be included under ncta?

2. I saw that youre planning on/in the middle of writing separate fics for the other ncta members, will the y/n be different from the one in d&s & vitamin? im sorry if this sounds dumb, i just got into reading yn!pov fics & sometimes i get kinda confused when reading it as a series :’))

Hope youre doing well, & i absolutely enjoy reading your current omegaverse series!

hey thank you so much for your ask i am so happy you're interested in more d&s! i have it on the back burner at the moment but i do have a few wips already written: dotae/y/n, and a jungwoo/gn oneshot i actually have shelved for the moment if only because i may end up repurposing a bit of it for the f4 au 😅 long story, but when i get deep into the weeds i try to make sure my au streams don't cross and they're distinct

in answer to your questions

1. the NCTA au will always have room for Shotaro and Sungchan even if they are now part of RIIZE. They will always be NCT members in my heart if for the fact that they made the last NCT U releases so special for me (Sungchan on Round & Round!? Shotaro on Make A Wish and Universe?! they're my boys). Also I know I only hinted at it but the AU is very SM in general with there being other agencies involved who built it, support it, and trouble it still (Diamante, Exile, and Artemis, respectively)

To your point about their loss being felt though I watched NCT Universe when it came out and really felt my heart break over and over at how delayed their debut was due to SM incompetence, COVID, et al. I really liked Eunseok (my RIIZE bias no lie) and Seunghan and wanted Shohei to be a part of NCT so badly after him taking on a second career as an SM trainee. he could have been an essential part of NCT Tokyo but they pivoted towards the competition model and didn't include him and it feels like a slap in the face to everyone who wanted this unit and how much work went in to preparing them for it. But I have hope for RIIZE in that their journey is starting and they deserve it after all they went through. On a side note I've been watching LASTART because I have a Viki sub for dramas but have little interest in the outcome because it's clear they've already handpicked who they want to debut but wanted the false reality show lead-up. Sion and Yushi will make good additions to NCT, at least. Yushi is an exceptional dancer although very shy, and Sion has a quiet confidence and natural skill as a leader that I look forward to seeing. My apologies to them both if they end up in a surveillance van (lol)

2. Great question and yes, any y/n outside of D&S will be a different character and that was always the plan (although I did have a lot of headcanons about an agency key party that I hopefully neatly folded into the reverse harem dynamics of agtbtb). The Doyoung/Taeyong series has them fighting over their secretary who's maybe a little into BDSM and my unwritten and unspoken outside of DMs Mark/Haechan oneshot introduces a con artist out of Hawaii who ends up with at least one of them. I have no idea when I'll have time to write both but they're on my mind, along with the third part of D&S

thanks again so much for the inquiry and welcome to y/n self-insert fics! I never wrote for this medium before this outside of old-school OC self-insert writing (which shows in my eternal need for characterization but isn't foreign to the genre). i'm so glad you are enjoying the omegaverse and hope you don't mind living here for a while as we get towards the inevitable build, climax, and finish 😉

#hex peach answers #hex peach updates #dark&stormy scenario

[kippens-a-goodman]

Makes sense, especially since hsmtmts is on hiatus right now.

But yeah, my family's close with her and her husband (who left the school as the choir teacher last year), and my dad works at the school, so the two of us are taking it a bit hard xd. She helped me through a lot of stuff, so I'm just hoping I'll be okay with the next one. And also treat them fairly lol. But I'm kinda one of the ones especially tasked (probably) with keeping our traditions alive, because I got elected to our cabinet/presidency a few days ago lol.

Anyway, that's amazing!! Finch is a good role, and co-directing is so impressive dude :D. I love Newsies, practically all of the characters in that show are babeys lol. I love them <3. For some reason my favorite background newsie is Tommy Boy lol. Anyway, too bad you have to leave, but I'm glad you managed to get it back, and hopefully into good hands :).

-Ally

Change happens you just got unlucky with it happing in your time but can't do much but keep carrying on the traditions covid made many of my clubs traditions rest on mine and my co-directors backs with having few long time member seniors so I hope you have a good team to fall back on

Tommy Boy's eyebrows are perfection and could easily block the Suez canal with their size and shape

My newsies side account is somewhat known for obsessing over Finch he was just the high note I hoped to end on and my best friend/co-director got me really into newsies a couple months before the show so I learned everything before the musical was confirmed as newsies it's become one of my favorites because it's both good and it means something to me and my friends now

[taylors-fourth-cat-meow]

Since i've had many anons in my inbox asking for more acowar commentary....

I present to you Chapter 5

(this is the chp where Feyrug violates a SA victim 🥰)

Let's gooooooo

I crawled back to the manor two hours after midnight, too exhausted to last until dawn.

Exhausted bitch what even did u do tho?? Well i guess eating that whole chuck of my brain last chp must be exhausting nvmnd

Especially when I noted the way Tamlin looked at me, remembering that dawn last year when he’d led me away and kissed me as the sun rose.

Oh yay!!! Oh I LOVE THAT SCENE FROM BOOK 1!!!!!THE SUMMER SOLSTICE!!! OH WAIT WHILE I GO HAVE MY FANGIRL CRISIS OVER IT 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I changed into my nightgown, a small, lacy thing I’d once worn for Tamlin’s enjoyment

Huh "Tamlin's enjoyment"

Oh yeah beach i see what u r doing. Tryna sell the whole Tamlin is a misogynistic bastard who made u wear lacy nightgowns for his enjoyment.

But weren't u the one who wanted to wear lacy things and show up to Tarquins place????? Because ofc u thought he was in love with u????? And wasnt precious rhysie the one that invaded you mind and showed u images of u and him doin it in the said lacy wear shop?? Yeah bitch cant prove tamlin is a dick with saying the same about rhysie not on my watch

The Attor. The Weaver. My sisters being thrown into the Cauldron. All of them twined and eddied around me.

Rhysie, babes your matey is having nightmares of the weaver. You know the old ancient cannibal you sent your 20 year old supposed love of your life to see if she cud get the ring your dead mother left to see if she was "worthy" of being your partner

*Cough* equal in every way my ass*cough*

Most of the others were still celebrating when I yelped, a sharp, short cry that had me bouncing from the bed.

Pls why am I imagining her doing this

“I heard you—what’s wrong.” He scanned me, russet eye wide as he noted my disheveled hair, my sweaty nightgown.

OKAY NO THIS IS SOOOO WRONG!!?!?

My poor fox baby is so caring and concerned for this birch and she is just there to manipulate him!!!

Ugghh let her suffer bae shes not worth it!!

Bare from the waist up, he’d managed to haul on a pair of pants before opening the door, and hastily buttoned them as I strode past.

Pls what'd i'd give to see Lucien fcking Vanserra shirtless 🥵🥵🥵

“I can’t remember when I am.”

Ummmm... Miss ma'am isnt that's wrong English?

I dragged my eyes to his, haunted and bleak. “She had me spiked to the wall. Like Clare Beddor. And the Attor was—”

Pls the AUDACITY and i mean THE AUDACITY this bitch has taking Claire Beddor's name and fcking lying while doing so

AS IF YOU AND YOUR PRECIOUS MATEY ARENT THE REASON SHE WAS SPIKED TO THE WALL IN THE FIRST PLACE!

Lucien paused half a foot from me. He didn’t so much as object as I threw my arms around his neck, burying my face against his warm, bare chest. It was seawater from Tarquin’s own gift that slipped from my eyes, down my face, and onto his golden skin.

Aaaahahah

Okay a lot to unpack here

A] Pls each step of the way Lulu is a SWEETHEART and each step of the way Feyrug has managed to make me want to take out her cranium and femur and fashion a makeshit shovel out of it to dig a hole in the Sahara and bury the rest of her there. Its impressive really.

B] Also here u go guys the privileged white protag again shamelessly using our anti-slavery and pro equality black mans powers after she brainwashed, manipulated and violated him... to... brainwash, manipulate and violate another poc. Gosh sjm really doesn't get tired of her racist bs does she

And lastly,

*Takes deep breath*

*Throws phone across the wall*

*Rips into pillowcase*

*Jumps on chair*

*Falls down from chair*

*Retrieves phone*

GOLDEN MOTHERFCKING SKIN!!!!!

Lucien whipped his head toward the door. Tamlin stood there, face a mask of cold calm. The beginnings of claws glinted at his knuckles.

Pls i feel so bad for Tamlin 😭😭😭😭

He deserves so much better than this. Lucien and Tamlin both do 😭😭 their friendship deserves better 😭😭😭😭

Tamlin was just staring at Lucien, whose mouth had tightened into a thin line as he marked those claws, still half-drawn.

NOOO I CAN ONLY IMAGINE THE BETRAYAL ON HIS FACE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

is it weird that i want to force tamlin to shapeshift into a cat and take him home and put him in a nice lil cat bed and give him milk and fish and protect him from everything?

Yes it is, sweetie, yes it is.

“Good night,” I said, and shut the door in Tamlin’s face.

Alright bitch i got the super glue and the chain saw and the scalpel out just need your cranium and femur now.

I wondered if Lucien had pieced it together. That I had known Tamlin would come to my room tonight, after I had given him so many shy touches and glances today. That I had changed into my most indecent nightgown not for the heat, but so that when my invisible snares in the house informed me that Tamlin had finally worked up the nerve to come to my bedroom, I’d look the part.

The way she is playing not only lucien but also Tamlin?

I mean what she is doing to Lucien, is worse as it is.

But she is also leading Tamlin on? Playing with his heart? Why wouldn't he slut shame this bitch at the high lords meeting?? She fcking deserved to be humiliatied like that. I said what i said.

Good lawd i am fcking livid.

A nightmare, I’d told Tamlin. I was the nightmare.

Preying on what Tamlin had feared from my very first days here.

.....

I had not forgotten that long-ago fight he’d picked with Lucien. The warning he’d given him to stop flirting with me. To stay away. The fear that I’d preferred the red-haired lord over him and that it would threaten every plan he had. Back off, he’d told Lucien.

I already made a whole ass post about this so i'm just gonna link it right...here.

I- i don't think i have the mental, emotional, physical capacity to deal with Sarah Janet's infamous retcons rn

Considering how this very morning, Lucien had knelt before me, swearing fealty to a newborn god, as if we had both been Cauldron- blessed.

NEW BORN WHAT NOW???

PLS SHE DID NOT JUST CALL HERSELF A GOD WHAT IN THE ACTUAL- 💀💀💀

There was more work to do.

The more work being coming in between two centuries long frnds who are each other's only family by manipulating a SA victim into implying having sexual relations with him without his knowledge and in the process also ridding him of his only family and support system he cud possibly get and at the same time manipulating and mind r*ping innocent people into thinking their high lord is a tyrant and making them revolt during war time ultimately leaving the population of an entire country vulnerable to invasion by a foreign army and hence causing a warcrime and a mass murder.

But...like.. atleast she is .... hard working....gotta appreciate a hardworking girl boss queen u guys....

#and thats....CHP 5 #istg the joules of my energy i wasted on this shit is so not worth it #i'm kidding it kinda was #also side note: i kinda have covid lol #anti sjm #anti acotar #anti feyre #anti feysand #tamlin #anti acowar #anti rhysand #anti rhytrash #anti sjm stans #lucien acotar #lucien vanserra supremacy #acowar commentary

[italeean]

The best cure for an emo mode

Based on this masterpiece by @skribblz​

During a volleyball match Bokuto gets into another emo mode and there's only one thing that can bring the optimistic ace back

NOTE: Ciao, scusate se questi giorni sono un po' sparita... (Hi, sorry if I kinda disappeared these days) unfortunately I got covid and yesterday I wasn't in my best mood. Now I have some symptoms, but I've been through worse experiences, so I should be back on track, also because I've got a lot of free time in isolation lol. I hope you enjoy the fic!! Support and/or suggestions are always appreciated 💚🤍❤️

DISCLAIMER: This is a tickle fic, if it's not to your taste I don't suggest you read it

Set

SPIKE

whistle

OUT!!

This was the fifth time that Bokuto missed his line shot, he'd been nailing them the whole week, so why now nothing went as he wanted?

When his hair began to lower, his temmates predicted what he was about to say. 'Guys...' he began 'DON'T TOSS TO ME ANYMORE!!' he declared dramatically. Hearing that, the Fukurodani players sighed and resumed the game as always. However the ace showed no sign of optimism during the whole set, which they lost.

The ace used the break to go to the restroom and Akaashi, being the kind and generous friend and boyfriend he was, followed him straight away. He found him moping on a toilet (he didn't even bother to close the door). 'Are you okay?' asked the second year. 'AGASHIII!! I NEED IT!!!' whined Bokuto. 'R-right now, Bokuto-san?' the setter couldn't believe that his boyfriend chose that moment to ask for that. They only had few minutes before the game restarted!

Bokuto, however, knew how to persuade him 'Pleaseee' he said with the cutest tone of voice. 'Fine... but only two minutehehehes nohoho waihit' the ace didn't waste even a second and got to work, digging softly in his lover's sides. One may think that he needed to be made laugh, but in reality, the thing that always got him out of his emo mode was Akaashi's laughter.

'Hehehehehehe are you hahahahahappy nohohow?' the setter tried to ask 'Not even close' Bokuto answered, then he went to his ribs ad underarms, going back and forth between the two spots. Those weren't as ticklish as other parts, but the ace couldn't wear Fukurodani's brain out, so he kept it soft.

Despite his non-aggressive approach, Akaashi was quickly reduced to a puddle of giggles, which were the most endearing sound in the world for the third year.

'Timehehehe's up! Wehehe gottahaha gohohoho' Bokuto stopped right after hearing those words, feeling better than ever. 'You are great, Bokuto-san. Let's prove it to the other team, too.'

The second year knew exactly what his boyfriend needed to hear, in fact, the taller guy had the biggest smile ever and exclaimed 'YESS!! LET'S WIN THIS MATCH!!' and then he went back to the court, announcing himself with his typical 'HEY HEY HEEEEY!!' to let everyone know that the ace was back. Akaashi was right behind him, smiling fondly at the sight of his lover being cheerful and back in shape.

TIMESKIP

'HEY HEY HEEEEY!! WE WOOON!!' Bokuto yelled nothing but that the whole way home, followed by a quiet setter. After the overwhelming victory, the ace invited the second year at his place to celebrate. Obviously ordering take-out to avoid a dramatic turn of events involving Bokuto and the kitchen.

After coming back home, the couple waited for their dinner to arrive and chatted a bit to kill some time. Surprisingly enough, the match was the main topic. Akaashi didn't really mind, on the contrary, he was glad to see his lover so passionate about what he did. What they both did. What brought them together.

'...and have you seen my last spike? I think it was the best ever and it made us win the match!!' well, clearly the shorter one had seen it, since he was the one who tossed the ball, but he didn't give it much thought and answered 'Yes, it was perfect'. 'And it's all thanks to you the ace concluded. Feeling a bit romantic, he lifted Akaashi's sleeve and placed a tender kiss on his shoulder. What neither of them expected was the squeak that followed the sweet gesture.

'What was that?' Bokuto asked genuinely curious. 'U-ummmm... nothing...' the setter was already blushing. He himself didn't know his shoulders were ticklish.

'I KNOW, I KNOW!' uh oh... the third year had a smug look in his eyes and he was way too excited for Akaashi to feel safe, which is why he tried to dart straight to the bedroom and lock himself in, but unfortunately his lover was faster and hugged him tightly and started lightly kissing the newly found spot, eliciting giggles and little squeaks, tha grew in intensity when he dared to give some nibbles.

The surprises didn't end there, though. When Bokuto's fingers accidentally grazed his lover's elbow, he jumped, giving away another ticklish spot.

'WAAAAHH AGASHIII!! YOU'RE TOO CUTE!!' the taller guy yelled, tickling him gently. 'EEP! I'm nahahahahat hahahahahaha' hearing that, the ace gasped and exclaimed 'What nonsense are you saying? You're the sweetest cutest boyfriend ever!! Here, I'll prove it to you'

The third year stopped the gentle tickled and picked his lover up bridal style. Then he proceeded to throw him on the couch and started squeezing his thighs.

'HAHAHAHAHAHAHA NAHAHAHAHAT THEHEHEREHEHEH' it was surprising seeing a guy like Akaashi, who was usually composed, go ballistic like that, but his thighs were his death spot, so it couldn't be helped.

'Tickle tickle tickle...' when it came to making his lover realize how adorable he was, the ace knew no mercy. He squeezed, poked and scribbled every inch of the second year's thighs, enjoying every single moment and every single reaction.

'Are you ready to admit that you're the cutest guy who ever existed?' Bokuto asked teasingly. By that time, the setter's face was beet red and tears were forming in the corner of his eyes. However, he'd be lying if he said that he didn't like it at least a bit. 'IHIHIHIHI'M NAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAT CUHUHUHUHUTEHEHEHEH STAHAHAHAHAHAP'

His reply wasn't really appreciated by his boyfriend, who decided it was time to go for the kill. He manhandled his lover to make him sit on his lap and, without stopping the tickles on his thighs, he began smooching his neck, adding a few well deserved (according to him) raspberries and nibbles.

'NAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA STAHAHAHAHAHAP IHIHI GIHIHIVEHEHEHEHE HAHAHAHHA' the setter's reaction was instantaneous. 'You know what I want to hear...' Bokuto whispered too close to his neck, making him let out a girlish squeal.

'IHIHIHI AHAHAHAM THEHEHEH CUHUHUTEHEHEST BOHOHOYEHEHE EHEHEVEHEHER' Akaashi didn't want to take any risks and repeated exactly his lover's words.

Finally, the merciless tickling stopped and the shorter guy was wrapped in a warm hug. However, the moment was interrupted by a knock and a voice from outside.

'Ehmmm... excuse me? I heard yelling, it's everything alright?' oh no, Akaashi thought. It was the food delivery! How much did hear?

He didn't have time to answer his questions because Bokuto was already at the door to take the order and clarify any doubt. 'Thanks for the food' he began 'and don't worry about the screaming, my boyfriend is just too ticklish for his own good'

The way too honest answer left the delivery guy speechless and kind of embarrassed, so he left quickly to avoid the situation. Inside, Akaashi was just as flustered, if not even more. 'You really had to say that, didn't you?' he asked blushing. 'I didn't lie, though' was the ace's answer. 'Now let's eat, I'm starving!!' he added.

The two of them began to eat, but Bokuto didn't know that someone was already plotting revenge.

Luckily for him, said plans went south the moment Akaashi's head touched the pillow when they decided to go to bed and watch a movie. In fact, the setter was hit by all the tiredness of that day and his eyes started to close.

Maybe tomorrow... he thought, referring to his revenge.

Seeing him falling asleep so peacefully, his lover couldn't resist the temptation to place a sweet kiss on his forehead and whisper lovingly 'Sweet dreams Akaashi, I love you so much... even more than volleyball'

Maybe I'll let it slide just this once... was the last thought that crossed the setter's mind before drifting off to dreamland.

#haikyuu!! #haikyuu tickle #bokuaka #ticklish!akaashi #lee!akaashi #ler!bokuto #tysm skribblz #LOOK AT THAT DRAWING #tickle fic #tickle

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Hello! I am recently new to your blog and wanted to request something urgent and it’s based on something what I’ve went through especially since COVID happened. Can I request an Eren x Depressed!Autistic!Fem!Reader (shes also overwhelmed with suicidal thoughts) where Y/N sat down in bed crying her eyes out before Eren (side note he sleeps completely naked) comes to bed and comforts her. Finally, he reminds her he’ll always be her guardian angel before cuddling her and let her rest? Thanks - 🌙

Eren Comforting Autistic Reader Who's Crying At Night

Pairing: Eren x Fem!Reader

Warnings: Mentions of depression, mention of suicidal thoughts, crying, Eren being naked (nothing happens, this is SFW don't worry)

Genre: Angst, Comfort

Post-Type: Drabble

Word Count: 850

Summary: In which you depression and suicidal thoughts become so overwhelming one night that it sends you into tears. Eren walks into your shared room, sees you crying and tries to comfort you until you calm down and fall asleep in his arms.

[A/N: Hello 🌙 anon! Thank you for trusting me with your urgent request and welcome to my blog! I'm glad you found me :). This is my first ever time writing for Eren, so I hope I did him justice lol. Ik you asked for a oneshot (which is over 1000 words) and I tried my best to reach that word limit, but I honestly didn't know what else to add, so it came out as a drabble (under 1000 words) I hope that's okay :(. (I also wasn't sure how to incorporate that reader is autistic, but I'm sure you can still imagine that she is while you read ;c) Hopefully Eren can provide you with some comfort through this drabble. Take care of yourself and I wish you luck on your road to healing <3]

Quiet sobs echo in the dark room as rays of moonlight bleed through the window, casting light on the edge of your bed. Tears race down your face due to the overwhelming suicidal thoughts that race through your mind. Sitting on the bed you shared with your boyfriend, Eren, you rock back and forth with your hands over your ears, hoping the thoughts would just stop.

It isn’t long until Eren walks in completely naked, ready to hop into bed and sleep as the day has finally come to an end, but he sees your crying form and pauses at the foot of your bed. You’re already used to his nakedness since he sleeps like that every night, stating it makes him feel “free” while he sleeps, so glancing up at him with teary eyes, you’re completely unfazed at the sight of his body.

Eren already knew that you dealt with depression and suicidal thoughts as there were frequent nights like this where you’d have a complete mental breakdown; he knew exactly what to do to help calm you down.

He slithers into bed beside you and speaks in a gentle voice, trying to get your attention off your thoughts and back to him.

“Deep breaths Y/N, you got this, just like we practiced,” his soothing voice fills the room.

A warm arm wraps around your shoulders, getting you to stop rocking back and forth as he brings you to his chest, whispering beautiful words in your ears to ease your thoughts and try to get you to calm down.

“You’re okay. Your thoughts are only thoughts, you have the power to stop them. Take as much time as you need, you know I’ll be here for you through every second until you can calm down.”

It takes a while before your tears finally dry and you lay still in his arms as shaky breaths leave your mouth–evidence of all your sobbing that you had just done.

Eren wipes away the remainder of your tears and places soft kisses to every inch of your face before speaking.

“You remember what to do when this happens, right baby? You take deep breaths and call me over so I can help. I told you I’d always watch out for you–kinda like your guardian angel,” his deep voice vibrates in the pit of your chest as he leans his head on your shoulder, “You did so well, I’m proud of you for calming down, but next time don’t forget to call me. I don’t want you to have to suffer on your own like that when I’m under the same roof as you.”

“I’ll try to remember next time…but thank’s for coming in time,” you whisper, “I just wish I could get over this already, I hate having my depression and suicidal thoughts control me. I want to be happy and normal again…”

“I know baby, but you’re making so much progress. Change won’t happen overnight. You’re working so hard towards a happier future for yourself and I’ll do whatever it takes to help you get there. We just have to be patient and understanding. You won’t have to go through this one day, I promise,” he kisses your cheek before cuddling you closer to his chest as you were both still sitting up in bed.

You sigh, but nod your head. It was very frustrating having little to no control over this sudden sadness that loomed over you, but Eren was that little light–or as he put it, your guardian angel– through it all. His voice led you out of the darkness temporarily, as his arms brought upon a warmth in you that reminded you to keep pushing forward and living.

You yawn–exhaustion flowing over you after your breakdown, which Eren notices and leads you both to lie down as he continues to hold you close to him. He was doing his best to stay strong for the both of you, but he feared that one day you’d slip between his fingers. The thought terrified him and made him squeeze you a little tighter, deeply inhaling your familiar scent that he hoped would always remain.

“I love you,” he reminds you gently, nuzzling his head into the crook of your neck, “Just rest now. You’ll be okay, I’m right here with you.”

“I love you too. Thank you Eren,” you just barely get out, feeling safe in his arms as you finally drift off into a surprisingly peaceful sleep; your mind felt a lot lighter than it did before Eren entered the room.

Eren just admires the peaceful look on your face as you rest in his arms, smiling slightly at you. He wished for your sake that your mind could always be as calm as it was when you slept, so you could be happy again. He knew though, that the day would come eventually when you would be able to get through the day without any overwhelming negative thoughts.

He presses one last kiss to your cheek before closing his own eyes and drifting off beside you, just glad to have you safe in his arms.

REQUESTS ARE OPEN :D

Posted: 2/4/2022

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Let’s talk about Hospital Playlist. (KDRAMA REVIEW)

note: does contain spoilers

When people ask me what is my favorite Korean drama of all time, with no doubt, IT’S HOSPITAL PLAYLIST. This drama has the comic relief, the emotional scenes, realistic characters-just to name a few. No toxic relationships and petty revenge fights. Nothing else will stop me for saying that this is the ultimate feel good drama.

SYNOPSIS: The drama shows insights into the daily lives of doctors and nurses working at Yulje Medical Hospital. It focuses on 5 doctors who have been friends since medical school, who also play together as a band.

This drama encompasses so many elements and characters so bear with me yo this might be real long 

Hospital Playlist is produced/written by the Shin-Lee PD and writer pairing, whose previous works were the renowned Reply trilogy and Prison Playbook (which are *chef’s kiss*) I really like that all their dramas really highlight humanism, and puts emphasis on creating a heartwarming and realistic series. There isn’t always a major conflict to be resolved, but instead it showcases how different people-in this case mostly those in the medical field-go on about their daily lives.  I also liked their reasoning to produce a medical drama which was that hospitals were where the most dramatic moments occurred, for example during births, deaths or sickness. And since we are still in the Covid-19 pandemic, it ties in greatly to be paying homage to all the medical personnel saving lives. Hence, props to those who were involved in this meaningful masterpiece <3

The drama is not the usual 16 episodes, but has 12 episodes for each season (SEASON 2 IS COMING SOON YAAS) Good thing is I felt that they were still able to weave a dynamic storyline in the first season even with lesser episodes. The writing was just top-notch with the witty humor bits. Additionally, the music is AMAZING. I love the concept of the main characters being a band and playing different songs every episode too.

Okay, now onto the characters. I thought that every character in this drama was well rounded. Starting of with the main five characters, also known as The 99ers, whose distinctive personalities and natural chemistry make all of them extremely likeable. All main characters are professors of different specialties, and I find the male OB-GYN (Seokhyeong) and female neurosurgeon (Songhwa) very refreshing. Also, I like Shin-Lee dramas always have characters that might be realistic yet hardly seen in other dramas or films. For example, Professor Ahn Jeongwon. Despite being a chaebol (inheritor/heir), he isn’t depicted as a spoilt brat or a cold character, instead as a warm Pediatric doctor who uses his wealth to secretly support patients in need. However it makes him stingy to his friends LOL

To be honest, I really thought I was gonna dislike Junwan due to his cold and tsundere nature. I pretty much believed that he was going to be the party pooper type of the bunch, but with the writer being a master of character development, he turned out to be really sincere and hilarious at times. Same for Ikjun, who apart from his enthusiastic and happy go lucky exterior, cares the most about the people around him. Although Seokhyeong seemed detached and introverted, he shows a emotional side to his friends as well as his mother. Songhwa is literally a girlboss though haha she’s smart, capable and gets along with everyone well. And she’s the most sane out of the bunch. 

With all the main characters, we have the relationships. Junwan is the first to date seriously with Iksun (the dog or Micky? jkjk) who is Ikjun’s sister. When it first happened I was like not again Jung Kyung Ho (bc he dated his best friend’s sis in prison playbook too LMAO) I think their relationship was realistic and open. It also showed a more sensitive side to Junwan who would do anything for her. I especially liked how he said he didn’t need access to her phone because he trusted her. Yet as all couples do, they have their fair share of ups and downs. Like conflicts on getting married and a long distance relationship as Iksun moves overseas for graduate studies. I don’t really know how to take the ambiguous ending for these two, as Junwan receives the returned box (that has the ring he sent) I really hope nothing bad happens to these two though.

I’m sure we all love Wintergarden couple though, tbh they’re kinda my OTP at the moment 🤣 It was pretty much a ‘will they won’t they’ relationship with a relatively slow build. I think Gyeoul turned out to be one of my favourite characters. Shin Hyun Been did a good job at portraying her as a straightforward but innocent Resident, who is pretty much openly crushing on Jeongwon. The scenes they had together were adorably awkward (and the scene where he gives her chocopies omg) And when Jeongwon battles his inner conflict to become a priest, the final decision where they kiss was beautifully shot, with the actors both showcasing their emotions extremely well. 

Then we have Chihong who pursues Songhwa, his professor. Midway through the drama, it is also shown that Ikjun and Songhwa might have had romantic feelings for each other. Songhwa ends up rejecting Chihong’s confession. In my opinion, Chihong was quite a interesting character but I didn’t really like him at the end. (I like the actor though) He did a real jerk move during drinking games, insisting on Ikjun to confess his feelings towards her even though he is already trying not to put Songhwa in an awkward spot. Although his character did end up making a cool exit and when I thought about his incredible story of soldier to doctor, I kinda regret disliking him that much. As for IkSong, In the final episode Ikjun confesses to her one last time, and we are left waiting for Songhwa’s reply. As much as I love this pairing, I don’t think that the ship will sail or maybe not as quickly as we think. I believe Songhwa would meticulously consider the sacrifices to their friendship or other aspects and might not be able to bring herself to it, but I hope it’s otherwise. 

Lastly not forgetting Seokhyeong and Minha, another Professor+resident pairing. This one’s a bit ambiguous though, mainly because there hasn’t been much romantic development. To me, the most impactful scene came from Minha who had been irritated by continuous night shifts and was on the verge of a breakdown. She ended up remarkably saving a patient, starting off surgery on her own for the first time. Oh man Minha was such a lovable character, I remember feeling so bad for her but extremely proud of her for her accomplishment. Although Seokhyeong seemed a bit aloof and distant (which was intentional bc he’s an introvert) I think the backstory and all the hardships he faced with his family really made me feel for him. I hate to break it to you, but I’m not so sure if the ship will sail because of the phone call from his ex-wife and Minha’s somewhat rejected confession. But who knows, they might pull off a twist 👀

Apart from all these characters, there are more characters HHAHAH However, I think this is the killing point of ShinLee dramas. Unlike typical dramas which usually focuses on a main character and 2-3 side characters, they like to cast a diverse range of actors (especially those from theatre/musicals and lesser known drama/movie actors) while actually give their characters personality or a reason to be there. I’ve seen many dramas where extras or side characters were kind of irrelevant thus making me feel that they weren’t needed to build the storyline, yet ShinLee dramas hit different y’all. Every role, no matter how small, holds significance to the drama. It really seemed like a collaborative work that shows off every actors skills (and not forgetting staffs) and teamwork.

Anyways because there are way too many characters and too many scenes for me to mention them all, I’ll just talk about some honourable mentions heheh

1. Sunbin and Seokmin confession scene (ahh so cute)

I kinda sensed that they liked each other at the start but I didn’t know Seokmin would ask her out on a date at the end. Even though it’s kinda awkward that they are dating and working with each other though (both are in the same department) but hey the confession was cute and awkward and just warm and fuzzy 🥰

2. MAMA ROSA IS THE QUEENN

I think we all (would) love Mama Rosa because she’s a real one ☝️ (probably the coolest mother ever) She’s feisty, hilarious and kind to others. Plus her friendship with Ju Jong Su was just adorable and super wholesome. The scenes where they were supporting one another through tough times and hanging out with each other when they felt lonely always put a smile on my face. Oh and how Mama Rosa treated Gyeoul was extremely sweet. (as well as Seokhyeong’s mother) Despite her tough exterior, she’s a likeable character for being a strong but caring woman.

3. Just Do Jae Hak

I seriously love this guy so muchhh omg he’s so funny

Do Jae Hak has a funny amd clumsy personality, though it’s clear he’s been through a lot and is strong willed person. From admitting his indecisiveness to counselling Jun Wan on his love issues, there’s literally nothing to hate about him.

4. Uju and his dadd

The father and son chemistry between these two is so good omg. The scenes with these two are so adorable and heartwarming (not to mention hilarious) It’s amazing to see how Ikjun cares so much for Uju despite his hectic workdays while going through infidelity issues with his ex-wife. Uju is matured for his age and shows his love and appreciation for his dad too, making their interaction a great portrayal of a healthy family relationship💞

5. the food stealing the show🥘

Who doesn’t love food and when a show has great food scenes? Some of the best scenes are definitely when the 99s gather to eat. It really showcases each character’s personality with the tiniest details as well as highlight warm delicious meals. Just don’t watch this when you’re hungry at 2am in the morning guys you’ll be drooling all over your screens HAHAHA

Of course there are way more aspects, like Hongdo and Yoonbok, Ikjun and Iksun’s pigeon jokes and raps, or Jeongwon drunk crying in the chicken shop with his brother (who was his coach in Reply 1994 when he played Chilbong LOL)

Most importantly, I think it is the themes and messages that you get from the drama that really create such a lasting impression. Not only does it hit you in the feels with the hardships of hospital patients, or the hardworking doctors+nurses who are working long shifts saving lives, it also tackles topics of friendships through the possibilities of platonic and friends-to-lovers relationships. However I think the biggest lesson for me came from Seokhyeong, who learns to live his life doing what he want, with the people he treasures. Although the drama might seem slow at times (mainly because there isn’t really a main plot line/conflict occurring), but this drama would still bring you on a journey where you would laugh, cry and finish the series, begging for season 2 ✌🏻

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[waynedunlaptheorgandonor]

hey so “find me” dropped on premiere and i just watched it, so you know what that means??

it’s review time!

(super rambly as usual) spoilers under the cut

before i say anything, let me say, IT’S FINE, Y’ALL. as predicted. people are gonna be dramatic bc there are daryl/leah scenes, but like...we been knew? and some of them were rly important caryl-wise. (tbh, the episode was kind of boring and just a set-up for other stuff, lmfao)

okay, review:

opening credits, which i think most of us have already seen, were cute. obvi there was some weird tension with daryl that leads to the coming-to-a-head thing at the end, but their banter is still cute af

they went fishing and daryl’s reaction to carol was adorable, and there’s an important parallel later on, so bookmark this

similarly, there’s an important parallel to carol’s “the dead catch up to us eventually”/daryl’s “i ain’t gonna let it”, so bookmark that, too

dog is the instigator for the flashbacks, so if you wanna blame anyone, blame him. he races to the cabin, which for some reason daryl, who spent five years in this forest, seemed surprised to see? didn’t you literally map out that whole area, my dude? whatever

cue flashback!

i might have the scene order mixed up, but i think it starts with daryl being all sad by himself, and then dog as a puppy shows up and he’s like “!!! a dog!!!” which is v cute, and then he runs back off. we don’t meet leah yet

we see carol and daryl having a conversation while standing on opposite sides of a river for no reason except to probably symbolize distance or maybe covid, lol. the conversation basically goes:

carol: things are different

daryl: yeah

carol: how long are you gonna be out here?

daryl: -shrug emoji-

carol: i get why you’re out here, and i’d join you if things weren’t...

daryl: different

carol: yeah

daryl: yeah. anyway, it’s gonna rain, and also i’m having emotions, so ttyl

the end

at some point we see daryl sitting with an extremely unhappy face while it pours rain on him in the dark, and i want that as a reaction gif IMMEDIATELY 

also the rain destroys his “where in the world is rick grimes?” map, which makes him v upset and scream-y, and we get the idea that he might be going a bit bonkers being all alone looking for a dead (or, ig, kidnapped by helicopter) man

in present day carol finds the note, and is like “oh dunk, she lived here??” so she knew about leah, and daryl’s like, “i already told you everything,” and carol’s like, “no you didn’t,” so we go back to flashbacks (but i’m still not sure what parts carol didn’t already know?? whatever, it’s not that important)

i’m just gonna hit the highlights of the flashbacks bc they were not that thrilling:

first time daryl meets leah the dog leads him to her cabin, and leah ties him to a chair and holds a gun to his head being like, “what are you doing on my land?” bc apparently you can claim whole forests during the apocalypse, and daryl says very little, and eventually she lets him go

next time dog finds daryl and he brings her back and leah is like, “the dog likes you” and they’re kinda flirty, and then daryl says very little and leaves

next time daryl is surrounded by walkers and leah shows up and helps and they hide in a tree and are awkwardly close to each other and daryl cannot handle the close physical contact so when the walkers pass he says very little except to tell her to never come back again, lmfao

the next flashback is my favorite bc daryl just fucking

goes to leah’s cabin and throws a fish at the door???

i laughed for ten years

he throws a fucking fish and then stands there for a minute like “is she gonna notice that i gave her a fish??” like, no, dumbass, you didn’t even knock, you just threw a fucking fish at her fucking door, what is wrong with you??

no wonder it’s taken him and carol so long if he thinks throwing fish at people is a smooth move. boy has NO fucking game

anyway, leah gets him back by finding him and throwing the fish at his head, being like, “wtf, don’t throw fish on my porch?” which, fair, leah

IMPORTANT CARYL PARALLEL (from here on out known as “caryllels”) #1: so earlier i mentioned the carol fish thing, and apparently the same thing happened with leah, where she speared a fish on her first try and daryl was like “tf?” v blatant “we are supposed to be thinking about carol and daryl’s relationship during this scene” sort of thing

leah’s backstory is bland. had a family, they got eaten or disappeared or something. she, her adopted son, and dog’s mom got away, but the kid was bit, and died the same day dog was born, bc ig when god closes one door, he replaces your dead son with a puppy, or however the idiom goes

ONLY PART THAT GOT ME LEGIT EMOTIONAL: 

leah asked daryl who he lost, and he says, “my brother”

asklfdjaslfdjskl

god i miss rick

i hated rick for so long and now i miss him so much

but i digress

IMPORTANT CARYLLEL #2: leah and daryl have the same “the dead get you eventually”/”i ain’t gonna let it” conversation as caryl had earlier, only daryl is playing the role of carol in this scenario, so again we’re supposed to be comparing the two relationships. lemme get through the rest of the summary and then i’ll tell you my opinion on what that means

fuck what even happens next?

i have these out of order bc they were all the fucking same, but the two of them get closer, and there is the vaguest suggestion of sex ever. you literally only see daryl’s hand

then jump-cut to them sitting at the table being emo, ig bc daryl was gonna go back to look for rick for a bit, and leah is like “who do you belong with? your brother you won’t stop looking for? your family that you left? [side note: that seemed rather pointed, like, “hey hoe, you abandoned your family, that was kind of a dick move”] or me?” and he says he doesn’t know, and she’s like “yeah you do, now choose”

jump-cut to caryl scene where carol finds him at the river and says that she won’t be visiting as much, and daryl’s like “k” and they have a brief argument where daryl’s all snippy, like, “what? do you want my permission for you to move on with your life? i’m not still emo about the fact that you’re moving on with your life, and i also don’t think it’s contextually significant that every time you show up in my flashbacks you explicitly mention that you’re married and have a kid,” and carol is like, “bro, you need to Get Your Shit Together and come home”

jump-cut to daryl having what i’m assuming is an epiphany that carol/fam have all moved on while he was out being emo, and so he decides to go be with leah, except, plot twist! she’s gone. the picture of her and her son is gone, but dog is still there. daryl leaves the note, which says, “i belong with you, find me”

for those freaking out about the wording about the note, may i remind you that she specifically asked, “do you belong x, x, or with me?” so he was just answering the question

aaaaaand back to present day

carol is like, “what do you think happened to her?” and daryl is all -shrug emoji-, and then she’s like, “...do you think she might have just...you know...left?” and daryl gets rull offended, which was kind of funny

(she probably just left, bud)

carol tells daryl to stop thinking that when people leave it’s bc of him, and connie’s name gets thrown into the mix, and daryl gets a “oh here we fucking go” look on his face, and it sets him off

he said basically what we were already spoiled for. “you just want to run, you don’t know when to stop, i shouldn’t have taken you off the boat bc you still just want to run” etc

and carol looks fucking HEARTBROKEN, which hurt me, and she goes into the other room and we end the episode with daryl staring forlornly out of the window 

the end

okay

so quick analysis

i think the significance of this episode is supposed to be so we have an understanding of why daryl is suddenly so !teamfamily, and !teamfuture, and how badly he wants carol to be there with him. at one point, one of them even says, “this isn’t about leah, or connie,” or anyone but the two of them. the title “find me” feels significant, bc the whole episode is daryl grappling with where he’s supposed to go, and what his purpose is, and by the end, he says to carol, “i know where i belong,” (implying, with her and the fam), pulling us full-circle. in the first flashback onward he is lost, but by the end he is found -cue amazing grace-

daryl and leah were flirty, but to me it felt very much like something that was just being used as daryl character development. we barely got anything that juicy between the two of them (except the fish throwing thing, that was amazing), and i still don’t think that it would make any sense, regardless of the showrunner, to pair daryl up with some rando after having so many other choices that people would have preferred. i don’t think we’re meant to #endgame ship it, so much as we are supposed to be like, “oh, ok, daryl learned the power of family and stability and leveled up, -you know what that is? growth gif-” as a result, i literally have no idea what leah’s role is gonna be in s11, but i don’t think it’ll be a huge plot point

so now we firmly know where daryl stands. he is all about moving forward, not looking back, and doing the best he can, and he’s frustrated bc when he took carol off the boat he wanted her to be in the same place as him so that they could grow together, but she wasn’t and isn’t there yet

so my guess is that what’s next for carol’s storyline is her reaching that same zen-level daryl’s at

once they’re both there, then they get to ride off into the sunset and make passionate love under the moon casting shadows over the vast desert wasteland 

whew

anyway

tl;dr: idk, episode was fine, if not kinda boring. lots of caryllels. can i go back to writing my vietnam war au now? 

the end

(stay hype, stan kang, and get daryl to call carol sweetheart 2k21),

-diz

#thank god i can move on with my life now #caryl #caryl spoilers #twd s10 spoiler #dunlap tp

[cdmagic1408]

Gonna explain myself for a sec here, but there's a TL;DR at the bottom of the post if you'd rather read that instead, but anyway...

So......I'm realizing that my IYTM content has been kinda lacking lately... 😟

And I just wanted to take the time to explain why:

First off, I just want to say right off the bat that I still really love talking about this story! This was my major passion project for the Onward fandom, AND the very first fanfic I ever wrote, and I couldn't be more proud of it! It really amazes me how it still gets some reads on AO3 and WattPad everyday! ✨

But right now I'm wrapping up yet another semester in college and my mind's been kinda busy on that at the moment. Not only that but I've also found that I have a much better headspace formally writing (novel-writing) personal projects when I'm not in school and have absolutely nothing to do. Hence why IYTM is the only piece of writing you've ever seen from me lol 😅

For real tho, if it weren't for school, I'd argue that it actually took me less than a year (around 9 months according to my calculations) to write IYTM in full.

I began writing it during the first summer of COVID (May 2020), then I took a hiatus when I went back to in-person school (August 2020) and didn't resume writing it again until my next break which wasn't until winter and I'd say that was roughly a month, then I was back at school for another 4-ish months, until finally I had summer break again and that's when I finally finished this story!

So anyway yeah, I still have 2/3 of commentary left to do for this fanfic (which I've really enjoyed doing!) and some drawings based on it that I want to color and get out there too but that probably won't happen until I'm out of school which luckily will be in a couple weeks, late April early May. If not late April then definitely early May! 👈

By that point you'll probably see a lot more from me! And I'm really looking forward to it! Until then, I'm always jotting down bulleted ideas that are swirling around in my head for what's next in my notes! 📝

But yeah seeing as writing and being a storyteller is something I want to pursue seriously as a career IRL that's why I really feel the need to take my time with it. It's just my own personal preference and I appreciate all of you for your patience with that 😉

Other than that, I'm still here! As usual my ask box and DMs are always open! It's the start of another week, it’s off to a great start for me, and I hope it's off to a great start for you too! 🌟

TL;DR - apologies for the lack of content from me lately (especially the IYTM content, never fear I still really love talking about that!), I will be a lot more active with that once I’m out of school in early May and I’m really looking forward to it! P.S. and side note I also want to utilize "TL;DR" a bit more since I tend to ramble/explain myself A LOT lol

#CD Announcements #onward #if you trust me #onward if you trust me #an onward fanfiction #pixar onward #onward pixar #disney onward #onward disney #pixar #onward fanfiction #cdmagic1408

[anexlarrieblog]

Well I am back

I feel like I’ve always been and on and off larrie based on how depressed I was? So when I was good I wasn’t one and it seems like the most ridiculous thing I’ve heard . I left after Danielle maybe ? And then came back after Harrys first album came out . Really bad time in my life 2017/2018 so it makes sense lol .I think a conclusion I made was that to people Larry is more about themselves but don’t want to actually say it .

Anyway I’ve always said that the fandom doesn’t treat harry right and turns little things into problems that don’t exist and focuses so much into making Louis the victim when it comes to him everything they don’t agree on it’s the management or someone else doing . So obviously he hated Eleanor ,his friends and everyone else knows he is not straight .The baby is not his duh

So when fine line came out obviously everyone was angry but me ? Like I obv didn’t like camille but I was excited for new music unlike others but I still stayed a larrie .

I had to explain myself every single time I didn’t hate harry lol. Like how dare you listen to his STUNT SONGS and like them? How can you like the lights up MV ? Or his art for that matter . I think at that point I was slowly not believing in it ?

And then covid happened . And all the theories from big larries didn’t make sense . They got more angry at the WS music video and I didn’t . They got angry at this stay at home charity tshirt but I didn’t . They got angry because he wasn’t in London with Louis but I didn’t . To me it made no sense . This virus that was killing people was happening,why would they wouldn’t just try to be together if it seemed like everything was so bad in the world.

Fine line made harry HUGE during that time . You were suppose to kinda of say sorry for harry being your favourite because he has Jeff and everyone likes him and Louis is still sabotaged !!(later on louis leaves and has the power to do that lol so that makes it even funnier now )

Then I decided to look back at everything and I looked at it without the bias side I had on as a larrie and Everything changed .

Then obviously the whole Olivia thing happened and it just didn’t make sense for someone to ruin their reputation and have their life questioned over ‘helping a guy stay in the closet ‘ because harry was never in the closet . Every tweet about Larry from Louis ,every video and every conversation from ‘insiders ‘ made sense now :We basically made it super awkward for them to be friends,we told a straight dude he doesn’t know who he is and that his baby is fake - And we kept insulting a teenagers for having a dating life calling it the ‘womaniser ‘ imagine lol . He made a queer guy feel like he had to explain his sexuality and if he doesn’t ‘officially come out to us’ he’s still in the closet until he’s out BUT WITH LOUIS.

Thanks for coming back and telling me your un-larrying experience! Larries defos consider themselves to be Louis’ saviour and are more ‘protective’ of him and see him as the victim 100%. I think because Louis is very obviously straight and they like to explain that away by pretending he’s ‘extra closeted’. They also hate Harry’s success and the fact that he has made comments suggesting he may be into men and celebrates the LGBT+ community so openly. Larries can’t stand it deep down as it doesn’t explain why hes able to do this and Louis isn’t.

On a side note, even as a Larrie I loveeeed Danielle. I was so sad when she and Louis broke up lol.

#ask #anon #ex larrie