#also the notre dame is on fire and im really sad | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

bansheeoftheforest · 3 years

Note

Uh, is there still an angst break? Ignore this ask until your ready if so 👉😎👉

What was the au where Jekylls pushed down the stairs and experiences a skull crackening again? Oh well but I've been thinking of a branch of that where Jekyll doesn't know hes dead like all day. I also cant remember if that was already discussed or not

The lodgers patch him up, he complains of a headache, and goes on his merry way! He's confused why all the lodgers are so nervous and being nice to him all of the sudden, why creature is looking at him with a stange mix of empathy and pity. He was told he fell down the stairs, fell unconscious, and obtained a bit of an injury. He cant fathom why Frankenstein is "The only doctor who can treat him" why he has to constantly go to her for checkups. Why Maijabi is suddenly following him practically everywhere.

Hyde squeezes back control for a moment and tries the potion but it doesn't work. Maybe a bit of pain but certainly no transformation. Jekyll assumes his injury or whatever medication they're giving him to treat it somehow negated the effects

Jekyll complains about "suddenly blacking out" the lodgers know its because his soul is slippery. They tell him it must just be a side effect of the injury and not to worry

How long can they keep it secret from him? When does he find out? Does he? Does it get to be years only for him to realize that he hasn't aged? That he still needs checkups from Frankenstein? Does he learn sooner? Does a lodger crack and say it? Does he rot? Does he notice how so very cold he is. How animals act around him? It's all very interesting,,

I actually did think a bit of Jekyll's kidnappers for the amnesia kidnapping au! When drawing that lil sketch of Henry and O'Leary meeting Robert I had considered making it so O'Leary was suspicious of Lanyon like "Oh theres no news anywhere of someone matching Thomas' description who's missing. But some random people walk up claiming to know him? Begging to take him back with them?" And he'd think they were the kidnappers. But ultimately I decided against it as I felt Lanyon and Rachel were pretty clearly, genuinely concerned for "Thomas" :p

I tried playing assassins creed once, the first(?) one. But the controls were confusing and everything was sorta thrown all at me at once, and I got bored of it quickly

But! I went to the store the other day and just so happened to notice Syndicate was being sold for 15 dollars 👀 So I bought it because funky Victorian assassins and your influence! It's a bit less confusing then the first ac game I tried but why is going down or dropping so hard bdksnks. I'm having quite a bit of fun! If you dont count my rage and annoyance-, the B button refuses to cooperate with me unless I'm looting corpses >:(

The b button being the bane of my existence aside, I AM having fun! I like the funky outfits and I want to play as the girl twin (evie?) forever because her clothes are good and shes better at attacking than jacob(?) For some reason. Probably the stun her weapon has? Oh well! I have not unlocked any new outfits yet, nonetheless I wish there were more.

Also! I was thimking, and my current quests are taking place at 1868? Did I get that right? And Jekyll is like 35 in 1885. So in game he'd be 18! An au like I believe you mentioned sounds very interesting 👀 but I must play more to know what's going on and daydream about it

That would be the resurrection au <3

But god, I really like that branch! Especially combined with the hc that he can't feel pain bc the HJ7 and the transformations made him immune. Frankenstein patched him up and made fleshweaver to heal the crack in his skull but it still has to be bandaged, he surely broke a few bones, yet all he has to do is to be careful because it doesn't even hurt. He doesn't even realize how severe the injuries are because it doesn't hurt, it very well might just have been that he accidentally slipped at the bottom of the staircase and accidentally hit his head on the railing during his fall, rather than getting physically pushed and flying down the stairs, shattering his skull upon impact with the marble floor. Y'know what would be extra fun? If he only starts getting a bit suspicious about how severe the injury was once he realizes his lungs stop breathing for minutes at a time when he gets distracted, or his heartbeat stops dead in his chest. I know that that's not how biology or even creature works but lets say the HJ7 is funky, Zombie Jekyll my beloved. Perhaps he would only fully grasp what had happened once he blacked out too much and 'passed out', but his soul slipped out enough to leave his body unconscious on the floor while his soul/ghost was just... Watching. And it's not until Maijabi (who, as you said, follows him everywhere) immediately calls for more Lodgers saying that Henry's soul is getting unstable and Frankenstein's lousy job is starting to shine through that he fully understands that it was not a mere hit to the head. Or maybe it is when days, weeks, maybe months has passed and the headache never goes away, he only feels how his body starts feeling so much more... Fragile and delicate, that the guilt has eaten Helsby up alive and he corners him and spills everything, knowing he is going directly against what the group agreed to but not being able to keep it a secret much longer-- or maybe Creature would tell him immediately, once Henry is, for once, alone perhaps days after the initial accident. He cannot see Henry struggle to understand what is going on when he already knows what's happening to Henry, his mind, and his body. He doesn't listen to the plan that Frankenstein and the Lodgers has set up and immediately tells Henry the first moment they are alone. That would certainly be horrifying, I can only imagine how the Lodgers would find Henry after that, once he actually knows and manages to process everything. He would be so mad, not only to have been killed in the first place, but also because he was robbed of an afterlife because the Lodgers were selfish and could not accept the consequences of their actions. He would be mad, he would be so pissed and I have no doubt he might actually be mad at Maijabi too for even agreeing to help Frankenstein and the rest of the Lodgers. That anger would not stay long, though. That anger would soon turn into misery and sadness and paranoia so even as Henry has tried to push Maijabi away, Henry still ends up on his doorstep begging him to help him make sure he is not rotting, because no matter what anyone says, he is sure he can see rotten spots and patches on his skin and he is just so scared and jdhfjsdfdsfsfs... <3

Ooooooohhh, I was actually daydreaming about this just this morning! Granted, I woke up at 5 and began to daydream to fall asleep quicker but I still like the thought of O'Leary being suspicious of Robert/Rachel/Jasper/the Lodgers bc he is protective of 'Thomas' and doesn't want anything bad to happen to him and especially with the idea that Henry still has hallucinations and they both think he was abandoned by his family, left to rot at a mental asylum. O'Leary might very well think that it might be Henry's friends and family that dumped him that Henry had 'escaped' the hospital and that's why they knew he was missing since the Asylum itself obviously wouldn't have posted the news... I really liked Jeks idea, okay? Like a lot, I absolutely love it <3

Oh, the oldest AC game I played was Unity bc it was free after the Notre Dame fire, and I can confirm, I played 15 min and could not get through it even if i would have wanted to, it absolutely sucks so i have no doubt the older games are just as frustrating <3

BUT!!!! I'M SO GLAD MY CORRUPTION IS SPREADING AND YOU BOUGHT AND PLAYED IT AND ARE ENJOYING IT SO FAR!!! Trust me, Syndicate truly is an absolutely amazing game and is definitely one of my top 3 games of all time. I sometimes play it w my friend watching me play and trust me, I know that rage of trying to do smt but the character does smt else... or you try to do smt but the game doesn't react and you miss your chance... Oh well, still a wonderful game <3

My friend loves to play as Evie as well but I'm definitely playing Jacob every chance I get and I honestly get a lil pissy when I have to play as Evie bc I always prefer to play male characters, plus, I just like Jacob better bc he is a sweetheart. He is also canonically bisexual as hell!!! Have you met Abberline yet? The police officer? Him and Jacob together is one of my fave ships for the game. I also bought the ultimate/golden/whatever name it was edition so I had a bunch of extra outfits, I love the sherlock holmes outfit for Jacob but my friend keeps bullying me for it </3

Honestly? The time difference is the bane of my entire idea for the au bc if it's during their time Henry hasn't even graduated yet, and definitely not well-known enough for them to actively meet for whatever reason, and if you use the timeline for the jack the ripper dlc (in 1888) a lot of... Less than pleasant things happen so it wouldn't really make a lot of sense for a crossover to happen at that point but maybe it's just bc im a pussy and refuse to play the dlc. Rn, while imagining the au, I just imagine the 1868 timeline to be the same as the TGS timeline. I like to imagine the Frye Twins hearing about Henry and the Society and promptly breaking into his office to ask him to make poison and stuff for them. I also have a feeling that Jacob would flirt wildly with Henry and that Henry would be less-than-amused. It would also be a very fun thing with the fact that there would be two Henrys, with TGS Henry Jekyll and AC Syndicate Henry Green, soo... XD

#Man I really want to hear your journey through syndicate!!!#Oh man I cant wait until you meet Maxwell #and Crawford for that matter #he was the guy I based the crawford in the fic off of bc i had no idea what else to do <3 #OHH there would also be a lot of mixup with Lucy Thorne and TGS Queen Lucy #oh i can imagine them being rivals #that would be fun <3 #ask #darling-dolly-darlene #banshees au #resurrection au #amnesia kidnapping au

13 notes · View notes

combeauferre · 4 years

Note

River Song & Emily Grace 💖

river song - if you could travel anywhere in space and/or time, where would you go?

queen! at! liveaid!!!!!!! also id love to see notre dame before the fire tbh

emily grace - talk about something you’re passionate about?

passions? in my me?

bastille! the best band on this earth? u know it,, every one of their songs has a really deep meaning and they’re all incredibly sad even if they dont sound it and i just,,, vibe with that tbh,,, id say more but im tired and on essay brain right now so writing about anything other than plath doesnt rly compute right now

#thank u amy!#abie answers #rawritsamehh

1 note · View note

relatewithrelations · 5 years

Text

A Letter to My Younger Self

Dear 16 year old Eliza,

I wish you could read this letter. I wish that you knew the pain I’m feeling for you because I know that it’s there deep inside. I know you struggle with a lot of things inside, that no one ever sees. I know that your heart is being ripped apart by people who are supposed to love you and protect you. I also know you feel guilty that this pain hurts so bad when your life is so “perfect”. With your perfect family, perfect friends, perfect grades, perfect goals, everything is just so fucking perfect.

I’m not here to tell you everything is going to get better soon, because it’s not. It’s hard to believe but you’re far from rock bottom. Everything that is crumbling right now ends up collapsing. Your rock, that is so intertwined in your heart that it feels you feel what they feel, they leave. Your sibling, who you have grown to love, they leave. That burning fire in your stomach to be the very best at everything even if it kills you, well it kills you. And that fleeting dream that you’ll prove everyone wrong even though you might get broken in the process, well it breaks you. Notre dame? you dont get in. Love? ha. Every single thing you think could not get worse right now, does. Every single thing you think could not go wrong, does. Like I said, you are far from rock bottom.

The thing is, my sweet young Eliza, you hit rock bottom fucking hard but you live. You survive. You get ripped to shreds again and again… and again. But after awhile, you stop taking pain and turning it to something destructive. Instead, you choose to turn it into something constructive. You stop hating the world and everything it has done to you, and you start seeing all it has done for you. I’m not going to pretend like life turns into sunshine and daisies because it doesn’t. I know you’ve read 300 of these “letters to my younger self” and always scoff at their happy-go-lucky outlook. It’s unrealistic and almost more sad. Your cynical and sarcastic outlook to life doesn’t change, which is good because it helps protect you. Your very strong walls protect the fragile girl inside. That is ok. You’ll be ok.

My advice for you is to listen to the advice given to you. Allow people in, even when it’s terrifying. Do this no matter how much it ends up hurting. The scars of your past become beautiful tattoos of your future. You are a single person in a large universe and do not need to hold the weight of it on your shoulders. Remember to breathe sometimes. Remember to sleep sometimes. The fear of missing out is a far better feeling than pure exhaustion. You hold the torch to your life, don’t burn the midnight oil on people that don’t matter. There are people in this world that will never give you what you give them, take that with a grain of salt. It’s ok to let people into your house of a soul and provide shelter from a storm, but don’t be afraid to kick them out when the sun is out again. Stop begrudging your family and friends for past events. Choosing to judge yourself for extensive periods of times is a choice you make, it doesn’t give you the right to judge others. Forgive them. Be better than them. Remember they are human.

My advice for you is don’t be afraid to fall in love with all the wrong people. You’re going to get hurt. Like really,really,really bad. Like so bad, you’re going to cry yourself to sleep for many more months than you were with them. For a long time you will think love isn’t real and that it’s not possible. Don’t listen to that voice. Love isn’t who’s sleeping in your bed, it’s the people around you. You’re going to love a lot of people, and you're going to love a lot of the wrong people. Even writing this now I want to write RUN DONT TRUST THE SYSTEM but I know that’s not true. I know that me letting in people and getting hurt every once in awhile is part of me growing up and you need to learn that too. Not everyone is going to leave. Not everyone is going to hurt you. Let your walls be gates, they can keep some people out but also let them in.

My advice for you is don’t be afraid to “break the plan”. To be honest, you have no idea what your plan is yet. You think you do, but you don’t. The plan now is to be free. Learn to do the things you love, and learn to love the things you hate. Stop being so picky about avocados, you actually like them. Stop being so afraid to make the leap, you end up loving it. Be honest with yourself, be honest with your parents, and be honest with your friends. They aren’t part of the plan, but they’re part of you. Your plan sucks, and is sad, and is boring. You’re not boring Eliza. You’re the opposite. Your life is full of wild twists and turns so enjoy the ride. Break the plan, and be free.

I wish I could write everything that’s going to happen to you. The good, bad, and ugly. But I cant, you need to learn these things on your own. You need to know that when you’re going through hell, keep going. You have not reached your destination yet, it’s a pitstop or pothole of the journey. Your story is not written, even I don’t know where we’re going yet. Stay motivated, and stay open. You’ll figure it out soon.

Love,

22 year old Eliza

PS Pay attention in your language classes more, it’ll become important ;)

#blog #weekly thoughts #letter to self #letter #love #life #growth #hell #survive

2 notes · View notes

cccreekturtsss · 6 years

Text

as suggested by @elevatorville, ill be doing this whole thing (minus a few for reasons like requiring input from the asker or me legitimately just not having an answer)

answers under the cut

1: a song im ashamed of liking? def a lil peep song, maybe downtown 2: shit man, remembering my favorite lyrics is gonna be hard. theres car seat headrest's "apologies to future mes and yous, but i cant help feeling like were through. the ripping of the tape hurts my ears. in my years, i have never seen anyone quit quite like you do." from famous prophets. that one fucks me up good. 3: some of my favs are the dismemberment plan, car seat headrest and radiohead 4: god uhh i guess 1: academy award by the dismemberment plan, 2: i want you to know that im awake by car seat headrest, 3: neighborhood #1 by arcade fire, 4: age of adz by sufjan stevens, 5: the great curve by talking heads 5: this is pretty generic but. i shot the sherrif by bob marley. i was getting put on new anxiety meds and getting used to them making me barely concious while spacing out to planet earth. 6: wilco is overrated imo, but i am trying to break your heart will never not fuck me up 7: alice in chains is the shit but man in the box is overrated as all hell 8: famous prophets (stars) by car seat headrest. more specifically, the first time i heard it. the piano part was so unexpected, and THEN they pull the pain star shit. DAMN. 9: i wouldnt say they saved my life but the antlers helped me through some shit in the past. specifically hospice. shit in that album hits close to home for me and to relate to it when i needed it was kinda nice. 10: car seat headrest. deadass who else would you expect 11: grizzly bear's veckatimest and yellow house + department of eagles' the cold nose and in ear park bring back major memories to the Good Old Days. 12: kiss another day goodbye by david kauffman and eric caboor 13: i dont sing in the shower, but girlfriend is better by talking heads would be my go-to 14: in elementary school, i tried to play the flute but i sucked so bad i forged my moms signature on the practice sheets 15: uh? the tourist by radiohead maybe 16: devil in a new dress by kanye west, communist daughter by neutral milk hotel, only you by makeout videotape, family romance by department of eagles and id engager by of montreal 17: does saving weezer from becoming mediocre musicians count? 18: ok computer by radiohead. no questions here, its just like. THE album. 19: forgiveness is due by the dismemberment plan 20: i can change by lcd soundsystem 21: all i can think of is. piss on your grave by travis scott 22: passing put pieces by mac demarco. 100% 23: breathe by dandelion hands 24: comfort by jerry paper 25: sad claps by machinegirl 26: idk? i dont have a good memory of lyrics so. heres "im bound to your bedside, your eulogy singer" off of atrophy by the antlers 27: either xtc or talking heads 28: im trying to learn guitar, but its so damn hard hdhfjl 29: mac demarco. his bands shows look so fun. 30: cds. vinyls have a nice aesthetic but cds are more accessible, plus they fit my aesthetic more anyway 31: oh boy this is gonna be a long one. sober to death by car seat headrest, no surprises by radiohead, take me down by smashing pumpkins, chalk talk's cover of wouldnt it be nice, weezer's brain stew cover, the good times are killing me by modest mouse, cheerleader by grizzly bear, after hours by the velvet underground, kurt cobains cover of and i love her, nude by radiohead, only you by mac demarco, pale blue eyes by the velvet underground, when the lights went out by whitey, from the stars by redvox, i am trying to break your heart by wilco, i dont belong by look mom im on tv, me and hawkins by best witches, your protector by fleet foxes, you are you by fleece, in ear park by department of eagles, she wanted to leave by ween, let down by radiohead, helicopter by deerhunter, zebra by beach house, i want wind to blow by the microphones 32: naruto themed sexting (by pannuci’s pizza) is a pretty obligatory one. i also like despair came knocking (by daniel johnston) tremor christ (by pearl jam), and disco infiltrator (by lcd soundsystem) 33: why bother be weezer? man idk 35: sylvia by the antlers 36: ive talked about them too much here already but. im proud of how far car seat headrest has come even just since i started listening to them. im really proud that theyre getting some of the recognition they deserve. especially knowing alot of wills early stuff, its been a long time coming. 37: i want wind to blow by the microphones 38: my smile is extinct by kane strang 39: telecastic fake show by moving on is the only one i have the english name of both the band and song for. in terms of non-english songs, aside from a few edgy italian and japanese rock songs, its mostly instrumentals by far 40: submarino by franco tamponi 41: la mer by debussy 42: earthborn by brian bennett 44: rooster by alice in chains 45: just what i needed by the cars (massachusetts) 47: orange things by best witches 48: girlfriend is better by talking heads 50: i wouldnt rock it but id definately put some mf passion into academy award by the dismemberment plan 51: someone great by lcd soundsystem 52: that one part of impossible soul by sufjan stevens. you know what the fuck im talking about 54: shit, disney songs generally just arent my thing. hellfire from the hunchback of notre dame i guess? 55: kid a by radiohead 56: kim's caravan by courtney barnett 57: blow up the outside world by soundgarden 58: summer love by justin timberlake. his older albums unironically have some fucking bangers 59: pink triangle by weezer 60: eight and a half minutes by the dismemberment plan 61: two wuv by tally hall 62: guerilla radio by rage against the machine 63: spook by adult jazz 65: the summer ends by american football. some government required down-to-earth chilling 66: dreamy by jad fair 68: no one does it like you by department of eagles 69: shouldnt you be laughing by jerry paper, and bonus: a song that a former friend associated with me that really stuck is making flippy floppy by talking heads. hell, this got me into talking heads so theres that too 70: real talk? i like alot of charles mansons music. a specific example would be home is where youre happy

2 notes · View notes