#also this hurt my heart to make

[tubbytarchia]

Somewhere in the woods, a moth tires of seeking light

#gempearl #shinyduo #shiny duo #not meant to be shipping propaganda for the poll but I mean... feel free to take it as such!! #the solitary plants feel out of place and maybe the color gradients could be better but its fineeeeeee. Not my proudest background... #also haha get it. Moth tires of seeking light. There's light all around her but its symbolic you guys #vaguely inspired by an estonian song. Some of the lyrics: #Luck pat her little girl’s head and repeated that beautiful is everything that there is #The girl then smiled and that was enough for her heart to understand where the sun lay #one of my favorite songs ever. Very beautiful and Id love to make an animatic or smth for it but the lyrics get a bit too specific :( #Shame that its in estonian and probably offputting to a lot of people too but.... õnn ja arm by mari pokinen....... #hermitshipping #commission #centaur cuddles tee hee <3 #horses etc cant actually twist their bodies that much without it hurting them I think. But please suspend your disbelief for me pleasee #tubby art

[lotus-pear]

regret

#literally excuse the shitty anatomy and cell shading i was thinking abt chuuyas reaction to what he'd done and i decided to make it skk #bc skk copium :') #the way i've hated dazai so fucking much but i still cried like a bitch when he died #he's not dead the bsd fandom has this phase like the elevator chapter where we're like ''dazai's not gonna make it he's done for!!'' #and then he comes back next chapter like surprise bitches yall thought i was dead lmao #this chapter fucking HURT for skk shippers tho like we rly lost this time around huh #deluding myself into thinking that chuuya used gravity manipulation to slow the bullet #bc we didn't see a bullet hole behind dazais head like when chuuya shot his shoulder even though the bullet to his skull was fired at close #the reason theres a wound is bc the compressed air that was still fired was enough to wound him #and the shock wave that followed caused him to pass out bc of the sudden tension to his head intermingled with the blood loss and poison #we also know dazai can control his heart rate at will so maybe he can drop his pulse to zero for like thirty secs #enough to make fyodor believe he's dead #in the event that all of this is untrue and dazai rly does die the way my entire being will go numb and cold and dead #knowing that fyodor will most likely use dazai's death as a weapon against chuuya effectively chaining him to his side #like bffr chuuya may dislike dazai but that's his partner his reflection the boy that makes him desperately want to be human #dazai is the embodiment of chuuyas humanity and once chuuya loses that tether to his human side he will snap and the facade will shatter #and we will truly see chuuya unhinged with nothing more keeping him bound to his mortal shell #this wasn't the skk reunion we wanted asigiri what the fuck :( #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #nakahara chuuya #chuuya nakahara #osamu dazai #dazai osamu #skk #soukoku #lotus draws

[yashley]

Did she keep you trapped?

#critical role #ygifs #fearne #cr3 #the way fearne Immediately needs to liberate trapped creatures with a desperation that makes my heart ache :) comedy?? nah Trauma :) #a lonely little girl growing up in a nightmare and her heart is so big she only sees the dream #and she grows up believing with all her love that her parents Love her. her nana Loves her. and they'll be together one day. #and then it's growing up realizing just how dark the shadows were around her but no her home was always lovely it has to be #and it's not their fault if something hurts. if anything it's hers right. shes the solution for them of course she was the problem after al #the nana she loves can't be the hag who took her for a prize the parents she's searching for can't have left her behind. #her home was never a cage she just Has to free every trapped creature she sees #she'll laugh lightly and often and shrug it all away because it's not heavy. it doesn't hurt her. she's fine. she's fearne. #love nana morri to death also a thousand percent sure she modified little fearne's memory A Ton to keep her :). #how times did fearne try to run away crying only to be given a grin and a postcard and those fears are just one more thing taken from her #and it's all so lovely and nothing hurts and she's totally fine #my galpaloway

[deoidesign]

I've been told my comic feels like it was written by AI.

I suppose I'm not trying to be groundbreaking. I'm not interested in pioneering genres. I'm not writing for the purpose of literary analysis.

But written by AI...?

I'm already someone who has my humanity questioned. My identity erased. My existence disrespected. It could be worse. Anything could be worse.

But AI?

I spend weeks writing single scenes, toiling over the implications of single lines. I have goals. My writing has intent.

If you cared to read deeper, perhaps you'd see the themes. Maybe then you'd see the value. If you tried to analyze it maybe you'd see something there.

Maybe you'd see me.

Someone told me my comic seemed like it was written by AI.

And my humanity was denied one step further in that my voice was not seen in the work I've poured years of my life into.

#this is a comment that has bothered me for... a long time. #it really sat with me. #its insulting of course... #but i get insults all the time #thats not what bothered me. #there was something more to it #something more to how this hurt my feelings and why it lingered so long in my mind #and i think its because of this. #it removes me. it removes my humanity. #in a world where i already feel so invisible and invalidated #where i express myself. my love. through my work #to be told it seems like something a literal robot coild make #a conglomeration of marketable ideas #god. jts so insulting on a completely other level. #its straight up dehumanizing #so. watch the things you say seem like ai #when its actually made by an artist #especially if you know that it was made bh someone #they have a heart an theyre trying to show it to you #i know its not that deep or whatever. #but isnt it? #isnt the point of our art to connect to others? to love them? to spend time with them?? #im being dramatic #but i also care #and sometimes a little extra drama is what gets my ideas across. #i would know #im a writer

[aquapede]

oh damsel we're really in it now

#slay the princess #stp #the damsel #stp the damsel #scribbles #her portraits right before the shifting mound takes her makes my heart hurt #the way she leans into the cup of the hand. so desperate to be palatable and loved but that gentle touch makes her look almost sad #but not entirely despairing just. theres a desperation and pain but also relief #princess i love you. slams my fists against the wall #EDIT: FORGOT THE IMAGE ID WHOOPS. its there now

[star-factory]

im playing ddd

#also sorry i like bat wings on riku tehe (does a peace sign #traverse town part 2 makes my head hurt a little bit #doodles #sora #riku #kh sora #kh riku #kingdom hearts #soriku #i think neku and joshua wld be real tired of their shit ngl

[time-woods]

it does me psychic damage evrytime i relate to harry- from the dumb ass mullet and bitchin style (terrible), or the scars on the back of his hands- like its cathartic in a way to see a story like his, im no where done with the game, all i know is that this man has been hurt, hes such a soggy papertowel

#disco elysium #LIKE I KNOW IM NOT SUPPOSED TO RELATE 2 A 40YO ALCOHOLIC COP BUT DAMN DO SOME SHIT HIT HARD #im jus a highschooler what th fuc man why this cop make my heart hurt #also appologies this is so messy

[hunterrrs]

rossi: the pens let sid keep his two long-time husbands, gave him a hot new gm who’s as hockeynerdy as he is, and a hot new dman who keeps manhandling him on ice; would they really let him keep his favorite son too??

#they SHOULD #they have to… also ugh these jake speculations make my head and heart hurt #sidney crosby #jake guentzel #pittsburgh penguins

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

SO. TO KICK OFF THE WEEK OF SPECULATION BEFORE THE UPDATE DROPS.

last night i had a bit of a Revelation. literally. i borderline woke up in a cold sweat with this realization. the way i lunged for my laptop to scream at friends... ough. lets get into it

so. i do believe I've made a couple of theory posts about Barnaby not being quite as receptive to his and Wally's "forced" best friendship as Wally - since the show wrote them to be friends instead of it happening naturally. i thought it might be a point of tension for Barn. i thought a lot.

YES SO I'M TOSSING (almost) ALL OF THAT OUT THE WINDOW!

the bios state Barnaby as Wally's best friend multiple times over. it had to be regularly reinforced. their colors were chosen to mark them as friends.

but Barnaby - presumably - can't see the bios, he wouldn't know the scripts. the friendship would be natural from his perspective. how would he know otherwise? even if the relationship started out synthetic, i don't doubt that it became genuine. in the context of their world and perceptions, realistically speaking Barnaby probably wouldn't sense anything wrong.

the reminders to be best friends weren't for Barnaby.

they were for Wally.

i'm starting to suspect that Wally is Barnaby's best friend, but Barnaby isn't Wally's. i think that Wally's "best friend" is Home - or at least Wally has a closer connection to them / Home is more important to Wally than anyone else is.

i remember reading this livestream trivia (from theneighborhoodwatch's doc, if you haven't their resources yet what are you even doing?):

and i assumed it was for Barnaby's side of the relationship. but it's not, is it? it's Wally's? and it makes too much fucking Sense! it fits! i can see it perfectly! i can feel things slotting together in my mind due to this shift in perspective, and i'm scared

Barnaby probably thinks the relationship is natural, just like how he thinks he's a real person in a real world. Wally probably knows that the relationship is a role, just like how he knows he's a puppet in a false reality.

that leaves me wondering how much of it is genuine on Wally's side. i don't doubt that they really are friends, but how deep does that connection go? in the interview, Wally sounded excited/proud about having a best friend, but how much came from a place of feeling, and how much came from a place of Fulfilling The Role? how much of it is performative? how much of it is a mask?

i've been seeing everything differently. Barnaby poses for Wally the most because he has good balance and is good at staying still, not because of favoritism or because he's Wally's best friend. in the 14 (15 including the hidden halloween) audios, Barnaby consistently seeks out Wally and checks in on him. Wally seems more casual about their relationship than Barnaby is.

i'm worried that Wally values Home & You/Us over Barnaby. that Barnaby is second or third place in Wally's heart. that Wally means more to Barnaby than he means to Wally. after all, only one of them needed their relationship to be reinforced on a seemingly regular basis.

i'm confident that Wally cares about / loves Barnaby, but the question is how much? to what extent?

#IM SO FUCKING ILL. #and by worried i mean Frothing At The Mouth. that would hurt so good. it would be delicious #i mean. it makes so much fucking sense. it feels Right! #and oh the ways this could hurt barnaby #i already suspect he has some Internal insecurities and shit but. oh man. if this is true it would break his heart wouldnt it #he has his hearts on his palms but wally's hearts are hidden on the soles of his shoes.... #god. no this. this. i cant start ranting and raving about what this means for barnaby and how i think it might affect him #the picture all the pieces of What We Know About Him So Far paint #all i'll say is. comic relief characters are always a tragedy under the mask. #wh speculation #homebogging #wh theory #welcome home speculation #welcome home theory #the way i was losing my absolute shit in discord. Man. #i am continuously in premature mourning over barnaby. #eddie might be doomed by the narrative but barn is Screwed by the narrative #poor guy just can't catch a break #also the idea. the Concept. that wally might consider you/us a closer/dearer friend than barnaby #is. its. well its devastating and juicy as Fuck! #there's. there's so much to unpack here im gonna be honest #for the first time since getting into this project im feeling like im starting to see a cohesive picture #the implications. the connections. the way it ties into themes. man... oh man... And It Makes. Sense. #barnaby knows wally better than the other neighbors - Besides Home - but how much more? #does he think he knows more than he does? i mean absolutely. wally is still hardcore masking around him. #wally doesn't confide in him not really #but man. Man. oh i understand why completely. at least i like to think i do #oh boy this is gonna kill me and im gonna like it #i had this realization and i felt my neurons shift just a little. just Enough. FUCK #barnaby b beagle. baby. i am so sorry but you're gonna have a hell of a fucking time

[personishfive]

in which ann takamaki is there

#joker p5 #ann takamaki #goro akechi #shuann #shuake #morgana #persona 5 #my art #i probably dont have to tag the supporting cast right...? #sorry for 5 comics(slash images) at once...i considered spliting into posts but theyre the same theme.at least #(the theme is ann <3 shes my second favorite p5 character. by the way) #make sure to click to expand!! or youre missing like. whole comics. lol #did all this in one session now my arm hurts X.X but well. persona 5 is a video game <3 #ALSO I REALIZE THESE R SLIGHTLY MORE NICHE EVEN COMPARED TO MY USUAL. SO. ENJOY THAT! LOL! #welcome to my twisted mind. #also sorry for the blatant sentimentality in this gomicpost. i wish i could say it wont happen again. but well. sigh. #also im prettyyy sure one of these is partially inspired by a convo i had with my bro? so uh. credit to him i guess! heart emoji. #also. sorry that i keep saying this but thanks for all the love in the tags of my gomics. it kind of makes my day so incredibly hard. <3. #ok bye #comics

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

♥️

#okay i actually can't cope with how adorable they are 🥺 #they're so tiny #tiny and giggly and just up there together having so much fun doing what they love most 🥺 #ugh my heart HURTS #also #the way miles leans forwards in the second one to get alex’s attention and make him laugh 😭 #tlsp #the last shadow puppets #miles kane #alex turner #milex #milex gifs #taotu era #baby milex #my gifs #lulu posts

[jinxedeyes]

if you want to be great

you can die at 28

27's on the nose

#wakfu #spoilers #wakfu season 4 #wakfu yugo #wakfu spoilers #doodles #season 4 is genuienly making me sweat bullets bro. im gonna get a heart attack #also yugo this season makes me feel so fucking sad my heart hurts

[viperbooty]

its a really big bummer to see the mass success of bg3, to see how many artists and players alike have enjoyed this game and yet, somehow, almost every time, wyll is magically not mentioned or drawn, featured in a video, hes not adored or hated

so far the fandom just generally acts like hes not even there. and it makes me sad to see the single black companion get this level of people ignoring him, his arc, his personality, even just people disliking or hating him

instead the only thing that caught any wind was how quickly a mod came out to make wyll white. how fucking sad.

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #look i know there are others who also like wyll i know #but its the sheer level where he is fully ignored as a character that absolutely sends me #ive seen ppl rage at hating gale and shadowheart- ive seen the adoration for karlach and astarion #but theres no sense of emotion for wyll #its like people just ... i dunno i doubt its purposeful but it just /feels/ like racism #theres only one black man - the rest of your companions are white - and hes the ONLY ONE out of the ENTIRE PARTY thats just ignored? #hes such a goofball - yet he takes himself so seriously - his romance scenes were so touching - theres so much to wyll ... #karlach and wyll are such a good pair to have running together bc they are both good people who want to do good #i just ... i dunno. makes my heart hurt to see the only black character get shoved into oblivion

[dvnieldraws]

tubbegg fredzone

#my art #artists on tumblr #qsmp #qsmp fanart #qsmp art #qsmp tubbo #tubbo fanart #qsmp tubbo fanart #hes just a lil guy (he has committed war crimes) (he will continue to commit crimes) #love the morning crew #the idea of tubbo having burn scars bc of the lava makes my heart hurt but its pretty based #I SJOULD GO SLEEP. #I HAVE TO GO TO SORK AT 4 AM #ITS 12. #also also #i LOVE doing character designs i should design more of the qsmp chars i jus get intimated by all the cool designs already floatin around #n by all the very talented artists sobs #LMAO intimidated i rwalized. jm dumb as hell

[shima-draws]

Actually genuinely started crying when Luffy almost said he wanted Usopp off the ship and then Sanji interrupted and yelled at him. What the hell. This shit is so sad what the FUCK bro

#In TEARS rn. Esp bc they’re really driving it in hard how MUCH the entire crew cares about Usopp #Even Sanji and Zoro who aren’t overly affectionate with him #My heart is BREAKING my kokoro is brokoro!! THAT SHIT HURTED!!!! #When Luffy and Usopp started arguing that’s when the waterworks started. I was sitting there like 🥺😭 my sweet darling boys pls don’t fight #The boys are fighting 😔 #Also it’s understandable why Usopp’s in denial and doesn’t want to let the Merry go but it’s also SO frustrating #Bc he’s clearly making it out to be that Luffy doesn’t care about the Merry #When in fact Luffy was probably the MOST upset at having to let her go #And he fucking AGONIZED over the decision to get a new ship #It’s a burden as the captain and he accepted everything that came with it #But Usopp just. Doesn’t get that. Bc he’s got too much of his own personal shit going on #And Luffy is upset that Usopp would even think he didn’t take the time and consideration to think over what to do with the Merry…… #ZERO trust there. Usopp’s majorly disrespecting Luffy. I bet Zoro in particular is Not happy about that #God this arc is written so well. I’m so upset. I’m SO upset #Lies down #One Piece #Shima speaks

[sygneth]

Another Love

So few days ago I was casually listening to music and this song stared playing and all I could think about since then was how perfectly HarryKim vibe this song has for me.

I believe that after everything Harry went through, even given his high sensitivity and emotionality, he seems likely to just have a lot of doubts and be afraid of another disappointment and potential heartbreak. Given that he decides to quit drinking and become more capable of taking care of himself in general terms, that fright won't be without cover. Another story like the one with Dora would probably just break him completely and he will just go down without any hopes for ever coming back. Especially, knowing how emotionally distant Kim can be.

(There are some scenes of my post-Return headcanon, I am thinking about publishing this as a full story, but I cannot decide if I want to make it as comic or fic series or a mix of everything, so maybe one day)

The song is of course "Another love" by Tom Odell

( Ko-fi | DevArt )

#On the other hand if the feelings already blossomed is it really any way of protecting yourself by not doing anything about it? #Like #hoping that things will stay this way forever and you just won't get hurt in the process? #Boy oh boy there seems to be only one good way out of this #And it's therapy for both of you guys #My headcanon is that Harry and Jean become besties again after like a year or so #And that Jean is smart enough to make him aware of this #(not the therapy) #(i mean this too but earlier) #but you cannot avoid a broken heart by crushing on someone for prolonged period of time and hoping they won't find anyone #while also not making any move #art #fanart #disco elysco #disco elysium fanart #disco elysium #harry du bois #harrier du bois #kim kitsuragi #harrykim #my art