#also this question killed me 😭😭

[pucaantaibhse]

No but Karna having died AS A CHILD, having basically given up her childhood and youth, dealing with so much shit, having Amangeaux’s actions basically cause her to have to start AGAIN from what she had built up from nothing, having the first person she ever had her own desire for not seem to see her the same way, (not as serious as the other stuff, but still, ouch.) and STILL ending her life grateful for the nine years she got, for the friendship and love that she HAD, fucking GOT ME.

Aabria posted on Twitter about one of the songs on her character playlist being “Love Kernels” from Crazy Ex Girlfriend, and I know that’s meant to be about her feelings for Deli, but there’s a lyric, “Whatever you got baby, I’ll take it, baby”. Amangeaux’s care for her, though not enough to carry through with their deal, the paternal feeling she got with Raphaniel sometimes, and Deli’s respect for and titling her “Skald”- it wasn’t ideal, but that was more than she thought she’d get, and she’s glad she got it. She had to fight for everything she had and everything she got, but she DID get it, for nine more years than she should have. She died permanently at 22, still young, but she got more time, and that was important.

How bad could the Hungry One be to allow that, indeed?

#the ravening war #dimension 20 #d20 #karna solara #the ravening war spoilers #trw spoilers #aabria iyengar you are killing me #😭😭😭 #also I have SO many questions about her past now #sorry if this is a bit pretentious lmao

[gunpowder-gemini]

FINALLY have wrestled my brain into sitting down and watching Good Omens and it is, in fact, very good!! Incredibly good!! Absolutely in love with it ♥️♥️♥️

It does, however, hurt terribly

#as a queer with hella religious trauma fucking OW 😭😭😭 #Aziraphale is exactly who I used to be #and Crowly is so much like who I am now #'I only ever asked questions' yeah me too 😭 #i really thought i'd kinda made peace with my religious trauma but it turns out i very much have not 🙃🙃🙃🙃 #i'm like 2 eps into season 2 currently but i do know generally what happens and I DO know how it ends #and it breaks my fucking heart bc I'm going to be so upset with Aziraphale but I'm gonna understand him better than I want to #bc fuck if I didn't think I could fix heaven once #i really hope that when that line of thinking comes crashing down around him spectacularly #it doesn't do so in a way that kills any hope and makes him act apathetic as a defense mechanism to pretend it doesn't hurt #bc Crowley and I are already here and I want Aziraphale to avoid that #and it sucks and Aziraphale is too good to end up like this I want him to be ok 🥺 #Crowley was too good to end up like this too but he's already here so I just hope he can heal better than I apparently haven't #idk I'm in love with this show and these middle-aged gay men but I'm also incredibly fucking triggered lmao #like ow mr gaiman good job but also kinda fuck you but also please I'm trusting you to give this a good end

[bangcakes]

.

#god i was so giddy today (or well i guess yesterday. its almost 2am JDJFJFJF) #i was waitin all day for him to finish work so i could message him n he messaged me in seconds... triple texted NDNDJDJDNDNDMDMDN #god hes so cute. im so !@@@@@ i like him so much. like ..... !!!!!!!!!!!! #he makes me so happy idk how to explain. i just !!!!!!@@ like him so !!!!@@ much !!!! #why do i deprive myself of him 😭😭😭😭😭 #but i mean we did talk for 2 hours straight in person a few weeks ago. not much you can like. converse about after that JDJDJDJDJDJDJ #:'))))))))) #maybe i'll let myself be a lil hopeful.... 🥺🥺🥺 #personal #also omg i think i figured out why he was so combative??? when i saw him last #i think it was bc of our mutual friend........... #n e way HDNDNDNDNDN #so maybe thats why he was like that. bc with me.... sure we tease each other but hes not like....... out for the kill idk JDJDJDNDNNDNDND #hes so sweet.... like not in an obvious way but like NDNNDMDDMD IDK. #we'll put it this way.... #when ppl ask him for help... he tells them to google it #meanwhile hes explaining stuff to me in detail; going up to the teacher n asking questions for me; getting up out of his seat n #looking for a plug for me JFJDJDJDD LIKE ????? #hes also so polite... thanks ppl... holds the door for ppl. god hes so...... #if he's like....... the guy im gonna be with for the rest of my life... o i'll be so happy BDJZNZNNZNZNZNZNZ #THIS IS SO SAPPY GOD. #if u saw the messages you'd be like literally what are you giddy over HFJDJDJJDJDJDJD AND THATS OKAY #hes just some guy.... love that about him the most.....

[lemongogo]

so if timeskip stampede s2 is fr are u telling me we can possibly get millie and eriks + og vash designs . ..

#YEAAAAHOOOOOOO #i hope so at least😭 man the timeskip thing is such a trip fr because like #did the fifth moon incident happen ?? in stampede . bc if not then theyd be looking at another 2 yr timeskip After the lost july that theyre #(i assume) setting up for in the finale #but then again ig that also assumes tht any semblance of the og plot remains #i literally have so many questions. ik theyd be answered if i just watched the show but i want to finish the manga first #ANNOYING I KNOWW😭💔😋 sorry HAHAGA #but it just confuses me soo much bc i dont know how u can get any forward progression #when theyre taking elements from way late in the series and introducing them in this prequel-esque s1 setup #ok anyaays . ANYWAYS im interested 2 know if we will see these changes #bc j want to see vash actually be and look like vash so bad its driving me crazy #and i want millie in the series soo fucking bad . loled at roberto dying ❤️ MAKE WAY OLD MAN #fr hated that guy.. i think he was intended to be used as this narrator for the audience to guide us into the series #but the whole reporter-know-all thing was annoying 😭😭😭 #anyways . millie be mine❤️ eriks!vash be mine ❤️ #hopefully manga/98-esque looking wolfwood be mine ❤️ #also idk wt the hell they did to livio (did they kill him or is it a fakeout for tripunisher return HELP) #or to legato . but they shld make themm all beefy again❤️ and cool❤️ for ME!!!!❤️❤️❤️ #trigun spoilers #trigun stampede #trigun #also yah someone else wondering if his bounty jumps from $$6 billion to $$60 billion #its such a small detail but i was so sad when stamp only put the $$6 on his head HAHACAHAHAHAGAGA #that one 98 clip thats like ‘the man who will slaughter the innocent.does the most evil of evil deeds- #-with the bounty of 60 mil double dollars on his head? YES I AM THAT MAN👹👍’

[chokehoe]

Sobbing somebody save me from alnst

#alien stage #alnst till #alnst #alnst mizi #i can’t take it anymore #these gays are making me depressed #where is sua?? #why’d they kill her so soon #why is Ivan now dead to #these aliens are homophobic as shit #the only time I’ve seen this many gays kicking the bucket was with toji from jjk #they need to put the jjk mangá down these aliens got to many ideas from toji #what do you mean the bullets make peoples heads explode?! #that’s fucking sick!! #why do you need that?! #also they clearly didn’t hit Ivan with them #if they did the man would’ve exploded #he would have been looking like gojo from chapter 236 #would’ve broke like a dam Kit Kat😭 #son of a bitch someone save me from these tragic gays #does till even like Ivan back?!?!? #like how does till feel about this?? #man is going through one of Hercules trials I swear #till don’t worry baby I’ll save you!! #I don’t know how but I will!! #also mizu are u ok? #that was a dumb question of course your not #aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #also Ivan calling his love shallow aaaahhhh #LET ME OUT!!!!!!!

[robotpussy]

I did so poorly in my interview 🫢🫢🫢🫢

#i literally couldn't concentrate my period started and the pain was killing me plus the questions the guy was asking were like #not what i was expecting. why are you asking me to tell you about myself YOU DONT GAF ABT ALL OF THAT 😭 #i dont even want the job anyway i only went as practice 🤷🏾‍♀️ #i have another one tomorrow. its also for a job i do not want. #ill just do my best 🤷🏾‍♀️ #the questions were also vague as fuck #he was like what are you doing in a situation at [redacted] i was like give me a scenario because idk 😭😭

[mattodore]

#making my two favorite ocs like oh i’m gonna give you both sooo many character flaws you’ll be helplessly drawn to each other bc of it #river dipping #theodore doe #echthroi #cw drugs mention #questionnaire lb #hello all........ i come bearing good news: theo's doc is already at 9.2k words <3 #not so great news: i actually still have 29 questions left so.......... um. i'm still not done... #😂🔫💥 #i'll definitely be making some cuts for length once i'm done answering all of the questions #like i simply can't have this go over 11k at any point... bc that would be....... just too much. like just way too much. #editing is gonna be rough when i get to it like i can just tell but whatever kill your darlings etc. etc. #also :) i've been so good at not opening tumblr or letting anything else distract me which is how theo's doc is already this long #in such a short amount of time like!!! i'm really proud of myself actually!! #i'm trying to finish it quickly bc i miss being on here but dfjkhh when i took that three hour break the other day to catch up i lost all #of my motivation to write and ended up stopping for the day bc i felt like everything i was writing was awful and ooc 😭 #so i'm holding off....... i do see my activity feed and i'll get to it i promise i'm not ignoring anyone on purpose!! #or. well i guess i kind of am but jsdkchddkj i'm just trying to get this done first!! #honestly i'm moving pretty fast tho so i feel like i'll have this done soon :) theo favoritism etc. etc. #okay... i need to go now........ i've rambled here for much too long #just felt compelled to drop another little update since my blog is inactive otherwise #logging out...... wish me luck friends and lovers

[moss-feratu]

Pov: you used aura read on the weird moth covered nos (you are about to be eaten)

#vtm #vtm oc #clan nosferatu #vtm nosferatu #nosferatu #bugs #bug #body horror #< for tw tags #eon arts #ethel williams #this took me so long to finish but i only spent 3 hours total 😭😭 i started working on this in november yall #ethel deserves more Diablarising. as a treat. its been 7 years since she ate one she deserves it #i didnt draw her mouth cuz i suck at drawing mouths next question #also please click tumblr killed ghe quality

[martinijordan]

What are your favorite things about your favorite VC characters? <3

I think I love their relatabilty factor. My favorite characters are Armand and Lestat but I really like Nicky, Bianca, and Riccardo too. I really like how they bounce off both Armand and Lestat and how strong their bonds are. Both Nicky & Riccardo broke my heart and at least with Nicky I really understood his struggle as an artist. Or even someone picking up a passion later in life or even how he disappoints his family by not shutting up about it. Riccardo i got attatched to him reading TVA like the rest of boys.

Bianca, admittedly I always loved her relationship with Armand platonically. Maybe because she was always such a comforting presence and I swear I could imagine the need to go to her house and crawl under her bed for a nap lmao. She's that type of person who would let you lay on her lap while combing her fingers through your hair next to an open window, during the spring.

With Armand, it can get a bit personal since there are parts of his life I heavily relate to which I wish I didn't. But it only fuels my love for him and the fact that I can understand his reactions to what happens to him and around him. And Lestat, he reminds me of someone I consider to be my favorite person which automatically shoots him up to my absolute favs.

I honestly love how these characters can be so messy, human, toxic and sympathetic all in one. I've been in a few fandoms before this that are very heavy with in canon moral superiority (super-heroes are like that) with hardly any room for the morally grey. So, I'm a bit exhausted with dealing with 20 characters that share a space, abide by a strict moral code, then go absolutely feral at the slightest deviation (i'm looking at you b@ tman) So, I'm grateful to this series and all the characters being the messiest of bitches.

#anon #answered asks #thank you very much for the ask #i go on tangents sometimes so im sorry if i didn't answer your question completely. if there is anything else you'd like to know feel free #to ask me #also i might be forgetting some characters i like but they were the first ones that came to mind #i remember crying like a baby when armand spoke to his parents again then i cried more when the boys and riccardo were killed 😢 😭 💔

[aloysarrow]

Wait. So is Lisa from Mondstadt or is she originally from Sumeru and could be headcanoned as Indian?

#genshin impact #i wish that Hoyoverse had done the skin tones for characters better #also Lisa's new outfit is cute and im probably gonna mis it 😭😭😭😭😭 #also obviously i should/could Google this but if someone has made fanart of indian Lisa i cant find it so let me know lol #my posts #edit: apparently i have enough 4g for tumblr but not enough for Google lol. and im serious lol. pls genshin girlies dont internet kill me #for not being able to Google this question lol

[tvrningout-a]

also ( yes i’ll start packing soon ) i so badly wanna bring out my morally grey witch/shapeshifter/nightmare fuel creature who is just so chill and helpful until she’s not

#i can’t decide what she is bc originally she was gonna be a huldra but! i associate her with crows and ravens #and huldras don’t have anything to do with those so i gotta brainstorm #but pls know i imagine her in a medieval-esque setting and she’s so nice if not intimidating #to the people who wander into her neck of the forest and she’ll be all ominous #‘careful you don’t know what’s lurking in these woods :)’ #but give you directions and food asdfg #buuuut she also maybe kinda kills and/or eats people who deserve it #villagers find her lil home and ask her to eat mark and she’s like k without question #‘do you wanna know what he did??’ #‘must be pretty bad if you traipsed into the spooky woods to ask a creature to kill him so nah’ #listen……… i’ve wanted to write her for YEARS pls enable me #get ready to ramble | ooc #okay i’m packing i promise 😭

[tellie-vision-art]

I’m gonna be honest I lowkey want to draw Axel or maybe her with Priya but I don’t normally draw fanart and I am scared 😭

And also I would hate if people followed me explicitly for that BC I don’t normally draw fanart and I know it would be disappointing to see my OCs all the time. Like would any attention I receive from it be worth it if no one’s interested in my actual art rather than just the characters in it. Like there’s no demand for my art would anyone who follows me even care if I drew fanart 😭 it’s a double-edged sword

And like interacting with fandoms always ends poorly for me (Scream Queens bc harassment, Squid Game bc lots of gross people) what if I draw it and post it and the TD fandom gets ruined for me too somehow, I would die 😩 I fear interaction outside my target audience (followers and my friends) I suppose

#total drama was my first hyperfixation fun fact for you #but I was too small and bad at art to make content at the time lmao #but like damn what if I draw them and they look like shit in my style I would off myself #also tbh I headcanon Axel probably doesn’t care about shaving bc she’s too busy… surviving #and I don’t want to get roasted for drawing a woman with body hair 😩 #I feel like also I want to give her a tooth gap I think her design would look aesthetically pleasing to me with it #I love her so much she was ROBBED #also she is trans and a lesbian she told me personally #if she told me to jump off a bridge I would with no questions asked #anyway random ship headcanon also: I feel like Axel is the one with the crush first #however her ways of showing affection are not necessarily seen as affectionate by other people bc she’s so intense #like i.e. I feel like she genuinely thought killing the squirrels for her team was a kind gesture #she just does not show things like kindness traditionally if that any of that even makes sense #THE POINT IS SHE’S SHOWING AFFECTION BUT PRIYA’S NOT PICKING UP ON IT BC SHE SHOWS IT WEIRDLY 😭 #lmao I’m imagining her trying to gift her a knife (or saw!) bc she’s baffled at the idea of someone not having one for self-defense #SHE BRINGS HER (cooked obviously) DEAD THINGS LIKE A CAT 😭 #she won’t get you flowers she will bring you military rations so you’ll have food when the apocalypse comes #maybe Priya even gets irritated by everything bc she’s capable of defending/doing things herself and she’s like #misinterpreting Axel’s shows of affection as her thinking she’s weak/incapable #and poor Axel wouldn’t understand what she’s doing wrong bc she is ensuring her survival! why is that not working! #Someone needs to help her but I can’t see her accepting help #but it would be funny to see someone suggest giving Priya flowers or smth and Axel’s like #why would I do that flowers just die wouldn’t you rather have a weapon for when the apocalypse comes #a strange way of showing affection but I think it would be CUTE #and it would be funny bc Priya would eventually show affection the normal way and Axel would not pick up on it at all #she would tell her she looks pretty today but what she REALLY wants to hear is I would trust you with my life during the apocalypse #the way to her heart is the apocalypse! she just tragically thinks it’s the way to everyone else’s as well #lmao I’m talking so much but it’s so funny to me #a disaster lesbian in her natural environment #they mean so much to me I saw them interact once and my brain was like yes this is it

[pepprs]

also the way a student (🤮 @ me calling someone “a student” btw. Omg) said straight to my face “ppl are gonna keep thinking ur a student” today and i had to sit there like 😀

#purrs #it was this speed d*ting event (very inappropriately named) for staff members and student government ppl except they called all the staff as #administrators except i think out of all the staff who were there i was the only one who wasn’t an administrator 😍. and i kept introducing m #myself as having just graduated a couple months ago and i also very stupidly dressed for casual Friday and wasn’t wearing businessy clothes #like everyone else AND some of the check in questions were like for students what was the most impactful experience w admin you’ve ever had #and for admin what’s the most impactful experience you’ve ever had w a student. and im like literally you guys are the first students im #working wi th like ever in this role helppp 😭😭😭😭 and im not even an admin. so basically i had the hugest impostor syndrome the whole time on #top of not being able to even hear anything really and then that guy came in for the kill at the end and i just didn’t know what to do w mys #myself 😭 like not a single student (again 🤮 at me referring to studnets a) at all b) as if i am not ONE OF THEM bc i can’t fucking #believe om not) but not a single student is goi ng to actually believe that im a staff member for like. 5 years i think. once there are no m #more students here who knew me as one and once it’s been enough time that ive grown into my role then i’ll be fine but this yr is literally #gonna just be me trailing after * going aheem heem whimper and nobody even looking at me bc they assume im 12. fucking awesome #i hate this like 😭 i know this is where i need to be and want to be but the impostor syndrome is so real and i don’t think any of the #The Students™️ (🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮) don’t believe it either. LMAO!

[homingpigecns]

#guy i have a crush on @ work in the past i did a lot of favors for him where i was like #am i being a total sucker. am i just being a total clown bc i have a crush on guy at work bc hes nice taller than me older handsome and nic #also i sjxbdbxhdhxbdb obviously. whatever #every time i have a crush im sooo obvious and i was omg. he knows and im being a sucker. #now its like months later and shdhd THIS IS NOT TRANSLATABLE. but theres a problem surgeon who has a crazy pick list and. #an attitude. and he works with him a lot so i asked him a little question bc they put me on his case today #and he answered. and sdbhsxhsb i didnt even ask him to but he picked the entire case...... he mixed the medications......... #he got the equipment i need......... i didnt even ask him i was working a different case in my room....... #its hard to explain but this would be a major inconvenience if he wasnt already assigned somewhere but he was #hes so nice...... im literally. omg. i was not a sucker. i literally wish he was less nice to me though bc sjdns #now i have to think abt this the rest of my life #i so obviojsly have a cfush on him im going to kill myself #WHATEVER #but literally sjsjs thisbwas me. i was like men dont let u down all the time. omg #brandon oscillates #personal #SHDHSH I FOUND THE POST I MADE ABT HIM ORIGINALLY I WAS LIKE IM GONNA BE SO EMBARRASSED I MADE THIS POST THREE MONTHS FROM NOW BUT #GIRL GUESS HOW LONG ITS BEEN. ALMOST THREE MONTHS. MEN DONT ALWAYS LET U DOWN OMG. #this is still going nowhere thoigh whatever young sweet girl feeling😭😭😭

[orcelito]

Honestly I find it hilarious that I've accidentally made it a thing of Vash being a horse girl (gender neutral) bc I'm writing his tomas as a weird horse

Chica the tomas was an accident. She was unplanned. I just tossed her in on a whim, realized I loved her, realized VASH loves her, & now a bunch of readers love her too

I've also gotten a few comments like "man I hope nothing bad happens to her!" And I'm over here just Sweating bc like

Objectively? That Bird Cannot Stay In The Story. If Vash keeps her, she will die. There is no WAY a normal mount would survive the utter chaos of his life in the coming months. Either he gets rid of her, or she dies. There's really no middle ground.

Which makes me sad :( I love Chica the tomas and itnl Vash loves her too

#speculation nation #itnl shit #ive so far answered the question about her fate with 'haha (nervous sweating)' or about that equivalent #bc like. genuinely. ive thought about a lot of things. #even beyond the abject chaos of his life. the destruction of cities. the Explosions. the EVERYTHING that could kill a bird. #imagine for one moment. that Legato catches wind of how much Vash loves his emotional support tomas. #that bird would be dead. Legato would kill her in a Heartbeat. easily. GLEEFULLY. she would not live. #and i thought about doing this bc Objectively if Legato is wanting to break Vash's spirit (he does want to) it'd be a quick way to do it #but Vash is not dumb. he's aware of the risks. and as much as he wants to keep her with him. he doesnt want her to die. #he's unwilling to let her die even if it means letting her go. #and to be fair. the time he truly needed her is over. he can pass her onto a place where she can be happy and peaceful #and he'll be okay. bc he has his friends back. he can go without his emotional support tomas. #she was so good for his mental health during his years of solitude. giving him company and cuddles during long lonely nights. #but he's okay now. he's ready to move on. and she can be happy elsewhere. #this will of course be addressed in the story but I ASSURE U READERS. i do not want to kill Chica 😭😭😭😭 #i did damn think about it but it made me sad :( so i decided not to lol #she Will have a happy home for sweet toma. vash will make SURE of it. #i have smth in mind. i gotta look into this thing. for now just know she will be okay in the end. #animal death ment/ #also horse girl (gender neutral) vash is such a great concept that i am More than happy to uphold #considering how on point his rein handling in tristamp is perhaps it has some basis. i like the headcanon tbh.

[yoohyeontual]

I just saw something that hurt me so much, even tho I shouldn’t care 😔

#do not reblog #I’m also thinking abouty dream last night and now I don’t think it’s funny now 😭 #I’m here wondering if I had been a good friend if it would have change anything #if I would have let my jalousy on the side and my feelings on the side #my life means nothing to me since 2019 I honestly can’t find happiness in anything #all seems so fake #and I’m tired of feeling like that I should just forget all about it and I can’t even if it’s killing me #I’m so furious at my self and so damn sad #I’m so tired #it’s been more than 3 years get over it girl #you had a second chance and didn’t do anything about it #but I was terrified of doing something about it and shy #and nothing happen so I guess I’m the only one who ever cares #cared* #i wanna cry so bad but I can’t let ruin my life even more #it hurts so bad but I gotta turn the fucking page I’m exhausted #i should have told my feeling and everything I still lost in the end but at least I would have known the truth #and not spend my life asking myself question and torturing myself #I’m gonna stop talking about it and do something else #i wish life was easier #I’m terrified of everything so I’m here at 24 and didn’t do shit with me life #I’m pathetic #alex.txt #tw negativity