#also we hooked up again after that

[thedreadvampy]

hey fun thing. fun thing I'm experiencing lately. is that the case which every terf journo in the fucking UK is freaking themselves about FINALLY being able to put on the front page - trans woman convicted of rape sent to women's prison - is uhhhhhhhh. really close to home? emotionally? for me? and it's on every fucking newsstand????

(obviously transparent as fuck every time that everyone's suddenly so concerned about the wellbeing of women in prison when all the same publications are usually in the CRIMINAL SCUM PRISONS ARE TOO SOFT TRAIN but OKAY. OKAY. since you suddenly care so much about female prisoners shall we uhhhhh idk address the rate of sexual assaults by guards? police? other cisgender prisoners? maybe rethink the whole 'prison' thing as a whole? oh this is just about how you think trans women are scary again? cool. cool cool cool.)

#red said #the commonality. not to overshare. is that i was raped in 2013 by someone who then went to court in 2015-16 following another incident #and that was a wake-up call for her about her increasingly bad drug and alcohol use and blackouts (which was what happened in both cases) #and so she started self examining on that and partway through the case she realised she was trans #and the thing is i know this bc despite what she did we were still friends by the time it went to court #i was a supporting witness because my experience was used as evidence that it was a pattern of out of control behaviour #anyway it dragged on for a while. even longer bc she was a us national in the us military so the civil case was dropped but #there was also a military investigation #which i didn't have to provide evidence for in the end but i was on the hook not knowing if i would need to for like. another 2 years. #anyway the transition aside there's a lot else about this case which resonates with my experience during that time??? #and it sucked a lot going through that case and i would prefer not to have to think about it every time i pop to the fucking supermarket??? #(also this is gonna sound bad but the thing i resent most about that whole affair was that during the case and her early transition #she leant on me for support a LOT? so i was doing all this trauma reliving and giving witness statements but also before and after that #she called me almost every day to talk about the toll it was taking on her. and i was like. i think you're right to talk about this #and i think you need support right now #but i also think. it's fucking wild that you think I'm the person to offer that when i just told you you assaulted me in a drunken blackout #like. my big Sick Trauma Feeling memories from that time are a) court and b) Oh No My Phone Is Ringing Again #anyway. this is a big trauma dump that may be misinterpreted which is why i don't talk about the case that much? #but this is part of why i hate terfs so much. the insistence on treating an individual's shit behaviour as condemnation of All Trans People #makes it Really Fucking Hard for those of us who've experienced individual shitty behaviour from a trans person #but recognise that that's just a statistical probability based on how many people do shitty things in the population at large #to talk about harm we've experienced without being coopted to a genocidal narrative

[unproduciblesmackdown]

billions could only have a gay man, who was married, and died by the end of that season; only deal with taylor's upending of presumed cishettery by having everyone who's not terrible be automatically down without putting some crisis about it on them, as the better approach to trying to have people talk about it (true, certainly in this case); extent of its room for rian's latent nonbinariness being "never wearing skirts/dresses, always wearing makeup though"....all that is to say, even with neither of them allowed to be "truly" cishet, b/c that's the rewarded realm for superior people, billions could never do winstuk. but they could be kissing right now

#winston & tuk: cannot be cishet in a way that matters (billions means this as an insult. i mean it as a testimonial) #sure convincing that winston's own ideals are like ''wow im the straightest in the world'' after One alleged official dating experience #and Two crushes on nonbinary people. and being the One person who's a) supported tuk b) without telling him to Stop Being A Loser #the one way other characters can Elevate(tm) tuk more than winston: not Really support him; just tell him to Become worthier #while winston: does not do this #anyway nobody at all gets to be ''truly'' ''ideally'' cishet; just like other inventions re the Correctest body/mind's look & behavior #tbt yrs & yrs ago some random lady talking abt ''queering'' her marriage by having a cellphone or smthing like ma'am i agree nowadays fr #winston Cannot have a ''correct'' sexuality even if he's supposedly ''at least'' cishet with it #neither can tuk; next most loserest dumped no gf nerd! neither Unglasses'd; neither Thin; winston's autistic; tuk isn't white.... #show goes ''well just look at & listen to him XD'' towards winston on occasion; usually doesn't ''overtly'' do this; doesn't re: tuk.... #meanwhile the idea that well Non Hot(tm) people who have no place in ideals & fantasy of Correctness & what's most desired? #they can get with Each Other :) that doesn't threaten things haha don't know how wrong they are. or have accepted All They Deserve (less) #billions is so proximately capable of letting these two be Involved in this way lmao. but it also Isn't #can barely handle taylor & just avoids addressing as much outright as often; again: one gay man; neatly married; neatly deceased.... #iconic total hc's: supplementary dynamics the ladies who are also friends they hooked up w/in 6x11 having a fourway abt it #no anxious negotiating of what must be done & must not be done to keep it all cishet ''enough'' lol. congrats to them all #winston billions #winstuk #was already thinking winston could be dating someone we don't know abt till billions tried to reassure us oh he hasn't Of Course lol right #same is true for tuk ofc but he gets the same treatment (ft. ben's utter mysteriousness re: Any mention of past dating history....) #riawin could've been great & was completely welcome; issue became how the abusiveness there would just also manifest re: sex / romance #totally won't find resonance / overlap b/w ableism & homophobia in how winston's sexuality is seen as mere sex drive that's also gross btw #tuk's really also framed the same way like Of Course You'd Be Rejected; and Any desires would become repulsively Too Much #b/c the superior parties have to want it for it to be correct! & they'd never want You! you're just completely wrong & outside of it all #winston talking at all? Too Much. he must be talked To; & that is so usually begrudging & nonideal #other ppl being horney like well of course. pretty epic really #like w/e winston's sucking & fucking & [Saluting] if he isn't dating at all. like good for him. he can make out w/tuk one way or another #''winston can go fuck himself'' (like one bg dialogue person straightup says) Okay. He Is. party for one? this too can be Sex

[veshialles]

lowkey worried my birthday is gonna be a disaster now... lmao.

#2 of the people i invited straight up aren't going now bc of circumstances #2 others said they'll try to make it 'after work' but never specified what time that would actually be #1 friend promised to bring snacks and stuff but then turned out to have work that same evening so she's probably not gonna be there at all #1 other friend said they're just straight up gonna leave early; probably before other people even start to show up #my friend I've known since we were 13 said she's excited to go but also hasn't hung out with me in years so idk if she'll show or not #and given how awkward last night was hanging out with 2 of my other friends who are hooking up now I kinda.. don't wanna deal with that #so like at this rate it's probably just gonna be my goth girl bestie and that one gay boy from work #watching me eat and drink too much while jamming to classic rock and then cry on the floor while my gf tries to console me #anyway im overthinking it will probably be fine. im just. a mess. i need to be drunk again already #ruby rambles

[theriverdalereviewer]

just remembered how in the sixth grade there was a fucking riot in the cafeteria that ended in the entire grade getting silent lunch for like 3 months

#I think it was 3 months but it felt a lot longer. my god middle school was the school to prison pipeline at its finest #on one hand I think its unfair that we were all punished but to be fair the entire grade participated in this riot. I don't even remember #what we were rioting? I just remember a girl named whitney was involved and 1 thing led to another and whitney ran out of the cafeteria #and THE ENTIRE GRADE WENT AFTER HER 😭. myself included I didn’t even know why either but WE WERE AFTER THAT BITCH 😭 #it was so bad I remember everyone was heading one direction and then everyone started running back the other direction. #and I got knocked down in the process looking back this was really dangerous. but after that we got silent lunch for what felt like forever #like not only were we forced to sit with our homerooms (and some us didn’t even like our homeroom) but we couldn’t even talk to each other #which is honestly not good for socialization?? but again I can’t entirely blame them cause the situation was out of control. #but also shouldn’t the adults have had that thing under control??? anyways the person who ran silent lunch was the vice tyrant dr levine #he fucking hated us like that man was PISSED OFF and he made it clear cause if you made a sound during silent lunch #that man was gonna threaten you with detention extended detention ISS (aka in school suspension) #he didn’t even mean it but it was pretty good for instilling fear in us good kids. but one time I remember there was a kid who didn’t buy i #he didn’t give into levine’s fear tactic and levine started yelling “ISS!! OSS!! EXPULSION!!!!!” like calm down #I feel bad thinking about how so many kids who would ACCIDENTALLY make a sound were punished. and they were so damn terrified #cause it was like you were on your best behavior all of the time and then one noise and suddenly you had an out of school suspension #one time a boy named jc’s phone went off and he picked it up and it was his grandma asking him if he wanted ice cream 😭 no fucks given #and levine was screaming at him to hang up the phone and jc was like “this is my grandmother I can’t hang up" #and there came a time where we were finally off the hook and I just remember people in the cafeteria were clapping 😭 #like this was school sanctioned oppression and we were finally liberated... but then we were back to silent lunch and I don’t even know why #I remember once even I ended up in Levine’s office but I dont think its cause I was talking during silent lunch?? #I think it had something to do with bullying idk?? I just remember levine had my back during it and made the other kid cry and apologize #so shout out to levine. always good times goodbye!

[pierswife]

I meant to go to sleep an hour and a half ago, but I started down the researching tropical cyclones, tropical depressions, tropicals storms, hurricanes, and extratropical cyclones rabbit hole again oops--

#and I'd do it again kdoajduw #this time I started with the labor day hurricane of 1935 and cat 5 storms in general :> #and I ended with hurricane sandy like I normally do gkwkkdkske #listen I basically got a week off from school and my dad's power was out for almost a month that year #got lucky at my mom's and our power came back after 3 days iirc? #legit my mom had my sister and I pack up to go stay with our aunt since her house had power and we all went out to dinner #cause some places in the town over got power back and the grocery store was still out #and when we got back to my aunt's and my mom said bye to my sister and I to go keep an eye on the house #we got a very very excited phone call of “THE POWER IS BACK OH MY GOD THE POWER CAME BACK A WEEK EARLY” #my dad though yeesh he was living off a generator for a month bro #he got cable and internet back before his fucking power (he had the TV and router hooked up to the generator for the news) #and my god I was so sad that Halloween got canceled that year #but the gov of my state rescheduled Halloween #like ngl I could go on for hours about hurricane sandy in particular especially the logistics of it and my personal experience #oh and irene! hurricane irene also sucked!!! #bless pokemon black and white for getting me through the night the storm hit /lh #data log: personal #what can I say I fucking love weather and in particular tropical storm systems

[bo0zey]

y’all….…………….ain’t no way this is how i just found out i’m blocked by my ex

#this asshole smh #ain’t no way we hooked up 2 months ago n now he wanna act like the victim as if he didn’t cheat on 3 times #having the nerve to block ME ​as if he wasn’t whining in bed telling me ‘this 🐱’s gonna have me saying fall ‘i love you’ again’ #yes we broke up like 3yrs ago after he made 2 tinder accounts while i was 2hrs away at college freshman year #1 in late september & again in december 2 days before finals/a week before my 19th bday smh #and both times 2 diff girls from my hometown sent me screenshots of his profile ffffff 1 was my childhood neighbor n a girl from high school #then i found him messaging girls on twitter that summer n i was like 3rd times a charm Bye #yes ir took 3 cheats for me to break up w him ok LISTENNN he was my 1st everything ie high school bf love fuck etc n we dated 1.5yrs #my mom also died like 1.5 yrs b4 we met n i was crashing n burning then met him n bpd made him my everything lol #i already lost my whole world once!! i didn’t wanna lose it again!! it took 4 months for me to accept my feelings for him!! #my dumbass ​considered him my bf AND my bff!! just like my mom was my mom/world n bff. i was dumb ok!! i didn’t wanna lose 2 ppl in 1 again #anyways i just thought this was ironic n funny asf lol #cheater cheater pumpkin eater #mine #ramblings #toxic relationship

[emlos]

i dont think i enjoy making out

#i meanit was fine i guess #but i dont like the feeling of another girls tongue #i assume a mams.i would also not like btw #it took way too long and it was just... weird #i did like thw e part where we hooked up in a kfc bathroom after but we didn't kiss there so.it was nice #ih #drunk milo oversharing again lmao #delete later

[blueberrythyme]

i started playing disco elysium bc this guy told me it was his favorite and when he described it to me i was like oh that sounds dope but i didn’t buy it until after we stopped talking and like. i just wanna text him like “i demand to speak about the horrors. but don’t think it’s because i like you”

#text #🍊 #put this in my cringe comp #disco #he Gets It and i Know he gets it because i been playin it and i’m like oh shit. yeah. He Gets It #but also we haven’t spoken in a month and when we did it was because i was yelling at him for being an asshole and he was like. so anyways #wanna hook up again sometime? and i was like what the fuck is wrong with you. yes. i’m off monday. and then he NEVER SPOKE TO ME AGAIN #after ghosting me for 2 weeks and when i was like UM what’s the MATTER with you? which i don’t do and thus resulted in me calling him out #he was like oh i knew you’d come back that’s why i didn’t block your number #BITCH you didn’t block my number because you were HOPING i would WHAT THE FUCK #anyway talk to me about disco elysium idiot man

[girllovinggirl]

literally almost everything we do has to mean we're into each other except no one takes the initiative to talk

#it's soooooo dumb #the way he looks at me #the way we both knew it was going to happen beginning of the day #the stuff he said that last time #the whole conversation we had when i asked him about this other girl he kissed a 2nd time after we hooked up a first time #how he said he wouldn't kiss her again (way before anything between us happened) because he thought she was taking it more seriously #than him. which i also mentioned #soooooo if he's not interested than it's really fucked up behaviour that also doesn't fit stuff he said before

[eversncenewyork]

more yupdates

#saw D again a few days ago #it was confusing lmao he didn’t want to hook up because he said he ‘def wants a relationship but isn’t sure about me’ #and i’m like THANK GOD? don’t be sure about me after 4 dates in 1.5 weeks?? #i view sex as another metric to see if we’re compatible but i’m happy not to rush it #it’s just not something i’m used to #but i will say we did make out and the kissing was MUCH improved we just needed a sec #but now he’s away for 3 weeks so i told him to text me if he wants to when he’s back #but i don’t want to anxiously maintain object permanence for 3 weeks #but honestly the fact that this man can be hard and be offered head and say NO for emotionally legitimate reasons #IS SO SEXY??? #but my goblin brain is of course saying that he doesn’t want to fuck me bc my body is gross #she’s always saying shit #and the taylor swift album drop wants me to text T SOOOOOOOO BADDDDDDD #oh also when D was over even tho we had that weird convo he was so snuggly #which also makes me furious with T #this near stranger can hold me in a fulfilling manner but he couldn’t even spoon me #but yeah he stacked himself on top of me like both on our stomachs and i read something to him #it was lovely

[raisedgone]

Elina is good with hookups, less with feelings :’)

#*「 ❥ 」 » 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒 . ‘ #( someone: we are fwb ) #( elina: after that moment we shared Ive come to realise I am deeply in love with you ) #( cri e s bc she feels a lot ) #( and sometimes the platonic and romantic gets muddled up ) #( she’s also not really in the best of mind with how her brain works anyway ) #( so she ends up hurting herself by reading too much into things djdjjee ) #( like yeah maybe that was a fling but there could be a chance they’d reciprocate so she should go through with it! ) #( and I think she believes sex = love whether it’s supposed to mean something or not ) #( if someone’s asking her to hook up for whatever reason she’s going to think they feel some type of way ) #( bc that’s how it’s supposed to work in her mind ) #( then again what does a girl who’s spent her entire life with only her patron that stays by her side know about love? ) #( I think whether it’s platonic romantic or someone just looking for a body she thinks some kind of connection is needed ) #( to share your body with another ) #( you’re both trusting each other in your most vulnerable state ) #( she just has a lot of feelings 😭 ) #( n e way that’s my kinda tragic sinday hc dmdkdk )

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA for sabotaging my boyfriend's hookup with his girlfriend by filling his sex playlist with DJ Crazytimes

I (28NB, they/he) have known my boyfriend (call him C, 29M, he/him) for some 15ish years now. As long as I've known him, he has been on and off again with his girlfriend (call him T, 29NB, he/him). Respectfully, and with love, C and T are two of the worst and most annoying people I know. I want to marry them both specifically so that I can study them under a microscope like a parasitic virus.

Technically they're monogamous, but they're both hooking up with other people (myself included), usually the same people, because they have the same taste in lovers (bad). I have suggested that they give actual polyamory a try, and they reject the idea wholeheartedly. I think they get off on their dynamic, and far be it from me to try more than the bare minimum to dissuade them from it.

A couple months back, they got into a fight and broke up (again) because T (who was unemployed at the time) stole $50 from C (who works at GameStop) so that he could pay for a tank of gas (using C's car) to go hook up with another guy a couple states over. C was not upset that T was hooking up with another guy (because he was Also hooking up with that guy and knew he would not have a leg to stand on), but because of the stolen money + car.

C and I currently live together, because you can't afford an apartment on a GameStop salary, and also, like I said, he's my boyfriend. I'm making carnitas tacos next Friday, and T is coming over, because despite everything, he has nothing else to do on a Friday night. I know that C and T are going to get into a huge fight, and I know that it's probably either going to end with them getting back together out of spite or with someone's vehicle getting keyed--I'm betting on both.

Here's where I think I might be the asshole. I would really like to get inbetween them. Not in a "I don't want you to date each other" kind of way, but in a "holy shit you are both so insufferable i would like to get in on that" kind of way. I currently have my thing with C, and I've hooked up with T once in the past, but I would really like to make it official with him as well.

My plan is as follows: C and T are going to be in the same space again next Friday. They're going to fight, then hook up, then get back together again. C is one of those cybersexual "i built my own computer and run it on Linux" people, which is to say, he thinks tiktok and youtube are evil, and he he thinks spotify premium is supporting megacorporations. So, his sex playlist for T (we do not have our own sex playlist) is just an actual folder of mp3 files.

While C is at work, I'm going to log into his computer and change several of those mp3 files to DJ Crazytimes' Planet of the Bass, which I play often, and he is frequently annoyed by. My hope is that he'll realize it was me, he'll come and yell at me for ruining their hookup, T will take my side to piss him off, and the tension will get to the point where they let me join their hookup, and I can ask to date both of them after that.

To be clear, I recognize that I'm also Incredibly Toxic for enabling and encouraging this behavior. That said, I feel like I'm justified in this scenario considering C and T are both Also toxic, and furthermore, it is a known fact that I'm dating C right now, so for them to hook up, C would technically be cheating on me. I asked C's sister (a childhood friend of mine) for her take on whether it would be funny or just annoying, and she just told me that we all deserve each other, so I think I should be good. Am I being uniquely shitty here?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole #one of the submissions of all time #the dj crazytimes saga

[cator99]

I was so weird about lesbian sex for a long time because when I was 14 I hooked up with an older girl at bible camp and suddenly got my period during it and I was so embarassed but she didn't care so we kept going and then I suddenly got a severe nosebleed for no reason while I was on top of her kissing her and you can imagine how that went so there was my blood everywhere all over both of us and this sounds like I'm making shit up but it was insane and k i was panicking but she was like all about it so we just kept going and like it was too late, there was already blood on both of us! Like all over us. and I thought it was kind of powerful. so I let myself get blood all over the cabin. we were feverish. At first I just let my nosebleed drip on the floor and we both laughed like fuck this place yeah lets get blood everywhere. And we did. This is just what makes us girls. We had this cabin entirely to ourselves too for 3 whole nights!! They didn't check on us in there even once!!! Not even the counselors wanted to be near us- we had wanted to be alone and not participate in the religious activities so we told everyone we were sick, however the absolutely insane family who single-handedly ran the camp (the mom was rarely seen of course but the dad was this freaky cult-leader type preacher named Greg, and they had ummmm I think 15 kids or something, most of whom were adults, so they had no issue running this camp on an acreage they owned with very little outsider involvement) genuinely thought we were just posessed by demons, and in response they gave us our own cabin in order to ensure that we were kept away from the other kids there. Major oversight on their part and also sounds illegal but I could tell they were scared shitless of me (weird hair I cut and dyed myself, 3 lip piercings, septum ring, mid kandi kid phase so I had rainbow bracelets up past my elbows) and the girl (who had a jugalette tattoo and was the only black girl at the camp, I think ever)... I ended up getting banned from bible camp for other reasons... lesbian sex blood rituals aside....... (a kid saw me smoking something in a pipe and snitched, and they thought it was weed but it was so obviously just mint tea...) yeah after that I was like "was god punishing me for being a lesbian by making me bleed everywhere during sex oh god I'm going to hell forever and ever waaah" because even though I didn't believe in that shit in any real way at all I still had raging paranoia about being punished for being gay... regardless I came to the conclusion that if all that bloodshed was the price of homosexuality then I'd just have to learn to enjoy it. And I was so right for that . But yeah when I did have sex again after that I was like Ok hellooooo God where is the blood are u there God...???