#also Luke gets acne scars!!

[anaslair]

I’m a straight Bengali girl (daughter of Aphrodite), who’s a little chubby and has a lot of acne scars (both of which I’m insecure about, though, I’ve been staring to like my acne scars lately). I wear glasses and without them, the world around me is very blurry. I’m pretty shy and nervous, so I sort of have trouble speaking to strangers or people I don’t know well. But once I’m comfortable around you and we mutually see each other as friends, I’m able to show you my chaotic side and feel comfortable saying some pretty wild things. I also make quite a few sexual jokes. Though I am more comfortable to speak freely with my friends, if I’m in a relatively big group that consists of my friends, I get really nervous speaking in front of all of them, so I opt to talk to individuals rather than the collective. I crave for physical affection but I never ask for it because I’ll feel bad if I get rejected of such, so I’ll wait til someone decide to give me affection. I’m a huge romantic fan and love reading romance stories or fanfic, and I love men who are completely obsessed with you. If I’m going to be honest, I feel more attracted to depressed or sad men rather than happy or cheerful men. I love eating food, but don’t really like eating in front of people much cause I always feel like I’m being judge for the way I eat even if that’s not actually the case. I can’t help it, so I prefer to eat alone. My favourite food is chicken curry and rice! I have trouble keeping eye contact so I usually look somewhere else while talking to people, but I do occasionally (while in the conversation) do make eye contact. There are times where it takes time for my brain to process some situations or dialogue, and I have an awfully memory. I also hate reading out load cause my brain takes time to process the words on the paper for me to read out load, so it makes me say the words out load slowly and almost choppy, you know? I love my friends very much and always love to hang out with them, even if we are simply in a room together only doing our own thing. I just like being in their presence. Though, once my social battery runs out, I’d like to be alone in my room (though, I I have a romantic partner, I wouldn’t mind them being with me). I’m always open to be their for my friends if they are down and listen to their problems, but not good at verbally comforting them, so I’m open for providing them physical comfort such as a hug or rubbing their back if that’s what they want. If I don’t anything embarrassing, I will constantly think about the moment for years and best myself over it and mentally redo that whole conversation or action in a way better way that I should have done to have not embarrassed myself earlier, you know? I very kind and often give people the benefit of the doubt, and I’m sort of a pushover, but I’m still able to say no to situations that make me uncomfortable.

I love reading, drawing, and creating ocs and world building. I’m such a mythology nerd, especially when it comes to Greek mythology (I have many books about these myths). I absolutely hate bugs and because of them, I hate being in forests and such cause I always get swarmed by them. I’m also afraid of the dark, so when I sleep, I leave my door open and the hallway light on.

My matchups are usually long like this so that’s why they may take a little while to come out 🥸 pls bear with me guys 🫶

Hope you like it anon!! Have a great day and tysm for requesting!!! <3

I match you with…

Luke Castellan!!

(Let’s all collectively join hands and pretend he didn’t die 🫰)

After the second titan war was officially over, Luke went through a lot before finally being able to return to camp

He did literally stab himself to end Kronos’s reign of terror, so after a long fight discussion amongst the gods, it was decided he should be given a second chance at life. A brand new start

Not without cleaning his mess first though. He was assigned by the gods to send a load of monsters he recruited for Kronos back to Tartarus, while simultaneously healing from his fatal wound

Even under Apollo’s direct care, the injury left a huge, nasty scar on his body

Honestly, he preferred facing whatever punishment Hades had for him in the Underworld than helping any god. But he owed everyone (specially Annabeth and Thalia, his real family) an apology and to make things right

So he killed a shitload of monsters, (complained the whole time)

When he finally got back to camp, he almost couldn’t believe how much it had changed. The place was PACKED with new campers (and they were not all cramped in his cabin like usual 😱)

And there were twice as many cabins too??? for the smaller gods???

Was he at the right place?😀 Was he actually dead?🧍‍♂️

Took a lot of explaining for him to believe he wasn’t

The thought of demigods not having to go through what he went through was incredible, but hard to believe

A bit bittersweet for him too

On top of that, it took a lot of time and effort to regain everyone’s trust on him

Even with all the new space available in the Hermes cabin, he had to sleep on the ground for a long time before his siblings let him have a bed 💀

He had to prove himself for a long time before everyone started opening up to him again

Slowly but surely, it started to happen!! Annabeth and most of the campers got back to speaking terms with him, Thalia visited sometimes and Percy was still a little sus every time they interacted (specially when Annabeth was in the room🤷‍♀️) but it eventually got better

It wasn’t the same as before of course, which made him feel…lonely most of the time. It wasn’t perfect, but he was grateful for at least not being completely ignored

Travis and Connor even stole a new pillow for him after a while of him sleeping without any 👏

Soon enough, life was almost normal again (as normal as a demigod’s life could get)

He did live with an imense sense of guilt and had recurring nightmares about what happened, accompanied with sharp pains on his chest, right where he stabbed himself

But it was a small price to pay for all the pain he caused, he thought

Eventually, he became head counselor of the Herme’s cabin again and Chiron gave him permission to teach sword lessons to the newest campers.

Life was as good as it could get for him, for sure

Though it definitely got a million times better with you in it

You were one of the new campers, practically Luke’s age when you arrived, which got yourself urgent self defense lessons with Mr. Castellan himself

He was the ideal person for the job, being the best swordsman on camp and all

Chiron also knew Luke had a way of making newcomers feel welcomed, being used to do it with practically every new kid in camp before the war

So, as Luke made his way to your first lesson, he tried to come up with a way to politely ask you how you survived all this time without proper training-

Only to give it up as soon as he laid his eyes on you

Of course you were a daughter of Aphrodite, you were drop dead gorgeous. Probably survived all this time outside camp by using the power her kids inherited, charmspeak

All of that was going through his head while he intensely stared at you without saying a word 🗿

Making you nervously eye him back 👁️👁️

Noticing you were getting anxious, he snapped out of it, the very tip of his ears getting slightly red

Quickly introducing himself as your new self defense teacher, he offered a hand for you to shake

To which you did after a bit of an awkward pause, nodding at his words. He seemed like a confident, nice guy

He took it you were a bit shy so he made sure to try and not to make you uncomfortable while teaching you some basic sword moves and techniques

You were doing your best to keep up but honestly felt like straight up dying everytime Luke asked you to repeat a move

The sword was heavy and the afternoon was hot, making you sweat profusely

That’s when everything went downhill :)

Your glasses just wouldn’t stay still in your face, the sweat making them slip down your nose every time you tried a new move

Right as you were about to swing your sword for the millionth time, your glasses fully fell off your face, making you flail the big weapon around uncontrollably

Coincidentally chopping a good amount of Chiron’s tail off, who was just passing by to check on your progress

Chiron promised he needed a new trim anyway, but that didn’t stop you from apologizing almost a thousand times and sitting down with your face buried in your hands

The situation amused Luke profusely, but he could also tell you were seriously beating yourself up about it

So after thinking for a while, he gently tapped you on the arm, showing you small scar he had on his forearm

He told you it was from his first ever sword lesson, but it wasn’t caused by a sword

When you gave him a confused look, he told you it was a consequence of accidentally poking a Pegasus’s bottom with a sharp weapon

You tried not to, but you laughed right at his face

Which made Luke smile as well, you had a cute laugh

After that, you slowly started opening up to your sword teacher, who actually got attached to you pretty quickly

Y’alls friendship was honestly precious oml, he absolutely LIVED for the fact that you were completely unhinged when y’all were alone, which got both of you a lot of inside jokes

When you first made a sexual joke in front of him he was completely shook

You were in the middle of training, making him accidentally cut a whole training doll in half after you said it

Who knew that something like that could come out of a shy person like yourself

He laughed and threw a dirty joke right back at you, but his ears were completely red in the process

The first time he had one of his pain streaks next to you he got really stressed out, not really wanting to talk about the origin of his injury

Partially because it was tremendously hard for him to talk about his past, but also because he was afraid you’d hate him for it

But you never pressured him to say anything, just sat beside him with a hand on his back for support, furrowed brows in concern as you waited for his pain to pass

He absolutely adored you for that

He didn’t feel alone anymore

He’s a naturally attentive person so he can always tell when you’re uncomfortable in social situations, always making sure that everything you’re saying is getting the correct amount of attention, even if he was the only one listening to it

Everyone knew he kind of had a soft spot for you (totally unrelated to the crush he was developing on you)

He always went easy on you at sparring lessons, just to absolutely humiliate whoever was next against him by winning in seconds

He sneaked food into your cabin when you absolutely could not stand eating with everyone else at the dining pavilion

(anyone else would probably get caught in the act and get absolutely wrecked by the harpies, but he was a son of the god of thieves so 😋)

Kept you close during capture the flag, not only to keep an eye on you but also because he absolutely LIVED for the fact that you were more scared of the bugs than the monsters who lived inside the woods

You dealt with the monsters and he jabbed all the bugs on the way, you made a pretty good team

It was pretty obvious he had a thing for you, everyone knew about it but you apparently

I mean, he stole got you a whole deck of mythomagic cards because he knew you were totally obsessed with mythology, the guy was pretty much down bad for you pls 😩

And honestly, you felt the exact same way

It was pretty clear in the way your face got full on red every time he had any type of physical contact with you

He adored it and absolutely did it on purpose just to get a reaction out of you

He wanted to let you know how he felt, he really did

But on top of not wanting to risk your friendship, he was deathly afraid you’d absolutely despise him after you found out about his past

It was only a matter of time anyway, but he was going to avoid it as much as he could

Although you found out way sooner and it went WAY better than he expected

It was a warm night and you were awfully quiet, more than usual

It wasn’t because your social battery went out. No… he knew something was up by the way you hugged yourself tightly, touching your face from time to time

He asked if you wanted to hang out by the beach for a bit, to which you silently agreed

Y’all sat in silence for a while, Luke giving you concerned side eyes from time to time

He eventually spoke up, saying you could talk to him about anything you wanted to, he’d listen

Your eyes watered a bit. You breathed out and eventually told him that some days, you had a bit of trouble accepting your current weight and your acne scars

You told him you were working on it but some days were harder than others

Honestly, he was bamboozled lol

He could never imagine someone as beautiful as you had those kind of insecurities

Before even thinking about it, he said you were absolutely perfect in his eyes

It was the first thing he thought when he met you actually

You almost choked on air bro WHAT

Your face was COMPLETELY red, about to explode🚨

Ears fully red after realizing how he slipped, he quickly continued, telling you that he also understood how you felt

He touched the scar he had on his face, lowering his hand to touch the one on his chest right after

You knew something bad had happened to him. But you also knew he had to tell you on his own terms

You just softly repeated what he told you

“You can talk to me about anything you want to, I’ll listen”

His eyes met yours and you were surprised by how much sadness they held in that moment

He shifted his gaze from you to the sand, taking handfulls of it just to let it fall from his fingers as he told you about his past

He told you everything

“You can… cut contact with me if you want to, I’ll understand-“

He was suddenly interrupted by you hugging him

He was surprised to say the least, arms slowly closing around you after some time as he let out a shaky breath

You both sat like that for a while before you told him that none of what he said changed the way you felt about him, everyone deserved a second chance

Wait

The way… you felt about him?

Oop

He pulled apart from you gently, still holding you close in front of him

“Exactly how do you feel about me?”

You had no choice but to confess, face fully red and straight up stuttering the whole time

He smile was HUGE oh my gods that little shit was enjoying every second of it

When you finished, you were trembling a bit, afraid you just ruined the best friendship you ever had

Imagine your surprise when he slowly leaned in, kissing you

#percy jackson x reader #percy jackson books #pjo hoo toa #percy jackson imagine #the heroes of olympus #luke castellan x reader #luke castellan imagine #chalice of the gods #percy series #matchups #fanfic #fanfiction

[m00n-arin]

Skin marks of the obey me! Characters (like freckles, moles, scars etc.)

Yeah, this is cause i have skin marks but i never thought of them as imperfections, without them i wouldnt be me, one very specific mark on my left hand is the only reason i know my left form my right. Some skin marks, like moles and birthmarks are beautiful but make people feel insecure, even when they shouldnt. And i feel, the best part of meeting someone is seeing those little “imperfections” that make them unique.

Lucifer

I dont have to say this again, he has scars on his back and neck.

He used to be self conscious because of the origins but he has grown to like them.

Thats lowkey cause he heard that someone felt scars tell incredible stories.

Still rather not show them, thats why he never takes his shirt of.

Also stress related acne on his chest and back, which he keeps touching!!, LUCIFER STOP.

Mammon

He has some very small scars on his hands, because he does a lot of things and tends to be careless

He also has moles on his scalp, hands (on his left hand he has one near his middle finger nail, other in the base of his ring finger and on his right hand he has one on his wrist) and on the back of his left ear.

They are tiny and not noticable and he doesn’t care about them.

He also has one (1) scar on his leg that has been there since forever and there is no one that knows where it comes from.

Leviathan

Freckles.

Not normal sun freckles either but oddly colored freckles. Like fish freckles.

Hated them, but has learned to accept them.

On good days, but he does feel down cause of the sometimes.

Do kiss each freckles until he learns to love them, yes.

He also has various swimming related rashes at times. He complains about them ALL the time and he actually tries to take precautions against them.

Oh, and acne scars, obvs.

Satan

Cafe au lait spots on his arms (yes, i am only saying this cause i have them, leave me alone)

He also has a very big birth mark on his back which he used to hate cause it reminded him of his dad Lucifer.

Now he owns it, and no one even thinks of making fun of him, cause it looks amazing.

Also, he has a very long scar across his back, nearly following his spine, this is due to his demon form tail. Unlike lucifer, he never had a problem with this scar, he sees them as a sign of his true nature, which he no longer denies. He’s grown so much, i love ‘im.

Asmo

He actually does not have any freckles or moles or even scars.

He takes upmost care of his skin and even then his skin is smooth.

He has a tiny heart near his right eye, its pink and no one knows what it is. But it’s cute, and it fits his ✨ aesthetic ✨

He does have dimples.

He loves them, they got him so many compliments when he was little. And still do,haha

Beelzebub

Bug bites, so many bug bites.

Also a lot of scars, because he does a lot of physical work. All of them shallow too, he doesnt even notice when he has new ones.

And strech marks, his back is very broad beacuse of his muscles.

He a strong man, yall, he got strech marks,

On the human world, he got a tans quite fast. A week and he has a farmer’s tan.

Belphegor

Three moles near his left eyes. (Which i always forget to draw oops)

Eye bags, like deep eye bags.

Little bastard has a real smooth skin due to the amount of time he sleeps.

He is awfully pale and you can see the blue of his veins through it.

And he has those cow marks on his back and chest, tho sometimes the are lighter than other times.

Gets freckles easily when under the sun. He “hates” them 🙄 he actually likes them but doesn’t want to admit it.

Diavolo

Like Beel, he has strech marks on his back.

i don’t remember why, or who but someone planted this idea and i just, i just know that he used to have a tail and now he has a scar in its place.

Two moles on his neck, tried to make a vampire joke but they to far apart.

Also, other moles on his forearms, try connecting them like little dots, it’s cute AND fun.

Barbatos

I cant think of him having any marks, freckles or moles, really.

He takes care of his skin and he is really careful about not hurting himself.

He does have blisters on his fingers sometimes, but thats about it.

Solomon

Being immortal doesnt mean he’s invulnerable, so he has a lot of scars throught his body.

They are covered by tattos so you have to focus to see them.

More moles on his torso and arms that you can count.

Used to have a birth mark but it faded and never came back.

Simeon

Sun kissed freckles all over his face, arms, shoulders, anywhere where the sun hits.

They say each freckle is a kiss of an angel, so let’s just say he is very loved.

Man has impossibly smooth skin, he has no acne whatsoever.

Has some tiny moles on the back of his shoulders, 5 to be exact.

Luke

Again, sun kissed freckles.

Other than that, he has a smooth and clear skin without much moles and whatnot.

He does have one on the base of his skull but it’s covered by his hair.

#obey me leviathan #omswd levi #obey me belphegor #omswd belphie #obey me satan #omswd satan #Obey me beelzebub #omswd beel #obey me lucifer #omswd lucifer #obey me solomon #obey me barbatos #obey me diavolo #obey me luke #obey me simeon #omswd solomon #omswd barbatos #omswd diavolo #omswd luke #omswd simeon #obey me! #obey me #obey me shall we date

[pro-ship-self-ships]

Transmasc HCs in Obey Me!

Is this self-indulgent? Yes, but I’m transmasc and there needs to be more trans and queer stuff in the fandom. I simply write partially from my own perspective.

General

If you were already out in some way in your school/workplace, your name was used on the application.

If you came out during the year and wanted to use your new name at RAD, the administration would immediately take action, informing all teachers of the new name.

Gender-neutral bathrooms are built with magic in case you’re uncomfortable with the gendered ones.

If you’re ever worried about whether you’re going to go to hell for being queer, your friends at RAD will remind that no, you’re not a bad person, and you won’t go to hell for being queer. Your queerness is a beautiful thing and you’ll be reminded of that.

Lucifer

He knew already, but appreciates that you came out to him.

If you come to him for name suggestions, he might be able to come up with something more classy than his brothers.

Your bullies mysteriously vanish if you talk about them with him.

He’s the one who helps the most with getting T and surgery (if you plan on going the human route).

Helps to get you emancipated if you have unaccepting family (he has jokingly suggested just murdering them, though it probably won’t happen).

He takes you and the others to Pride every June. He’ll typically ask which places you want to celebrate at (I’d personally choose NYC or LA)

The man to go to for voice training bless you Kazuya Yamashita (although he’d help with a professional later down the line)

Tries to give you lessons on being a “proper gentleman” but gives up if you don’t show interest.

Studies trans laws in different countries in the human world to make sure which ones are tran-accepting in case you travel with him.

Might help you keep track of which documents need to have your name and gender changed

Might start listening to music by trans artists and enjoy them  (he better listen to Cavetown sdhkvshdvdh)

He might make the occasional dad joke about your name or about being trans (you can’t tell he doesn’t enjoy dad jokes a little, especially after the credit card debacle)

Mammon

It takes him some time to understand when you come out, but my goodness is he a vocal supporter.

He’s the most likely to accompany you to public bathrooms if you feel uncomfortable. The others attempt to follow suit, but Mammon won’t let them near you.

Do not come to this man for name ideas, he’d probably come up with something like “Mammon 2: Electric Boogaloo.”

With your permission, he and Levi record your journey and post bits and pieces online

Confused if you choose human methods for transitioning, especially because of the price, but will still attempt to save money for any procedures you bring up.

Sends trans memes and might bring it up as an inside joke (if anyone knows the tiktok from jvckass that’s essentially “my chest is versace bro”, i mostly refer to that one)

If you get top surgery, he’ll remind you of some of the wack things you said while on anesthesia

Will comfort you if you bring up having an unaccepting family.

Will probably also start listening to music by trans artists (i will continuously preach the goodness of Cavetown)

Gets the money for it if you need a legal name change, gets surprised if you start crying

Jokingly teaches you about “being a man”

After top surgery, will try to keep the room to just the two of you (unsuccessfully). He’ll still bring up his money schemes as you lie there

Likes buying pride merch for you (flags, pins etc), will deny liking it though hfdigbdkh

Leviathan

If you came out to him and wanted to come up with a name for yourself, he’ll immediately suggest the name “Henry”. He gets a little upset if you don’t like it, but will subsequently throw names of anime characters as suggestions.

Also sends trans memes

Will help you experiment with your look through cosplay.

Records some of the wack things you said when you were still on anesthesia after top surgery

He also just wants to watch anime with you after the surgery. He also finds your chest scars to be pretty cool.

Will try to find anime and other things with trans characters and talk about them with you

He seems to act more like a Japanese otaku than a western weeb, but he would still have to probably unlearn queerphobic language

Satan

Would have probably read at least something on being trans

Would be the one to ask the most questions if they’re not too invasive

Likes to discuss multiple topics such as biology or sociology. Probably will name drop Judith Butler or Julia Serano and have a convo based on that.

Probably might want to watch some shows that have trans characters in them. Buys books with trans characters or by trans authors.

If you’re up for it, he’d give a pet your deadname to help distance yourself from it.

Would be the one to look up “(insert culture here) names for boys” to help pick a name. Gets pissed if teachers can’t pronounce it, regardless of when you came up w the name. Same goes for transphobes at RAD.

If you get surgery, he stays by your bed and reads to you.

Would attempt to make testosterone if you say something about expenses. Also might try to plan forms of surgery

Asmodeus

He’s the one to help with your wardrobe and look (you knew this was gonna be the case). He simply won’t allow you to walk around in that one hoodie. He knows about which shirts and tops makes your chest look flatter. If you want to continue wearing feminine clothes, he’ll help out with the best look. Would get you the rainbow binder as a surprise gift.

Regardless of whether you brought it up, he’d probably buy you a packer. He finds it hilarious.

He might buy a bunch of strap-ons and dildos for you if you don’t get bottom surgery

If you start testosterone in the Devildom, he doubles down on your skincare. Acne gets really difficult, so he’s always there to help.

If you decide to get top surgery, he is going to get you so many pillows. Same goes for bottom surgery.

He’s the one to get you pads if you need them.

On your trips to Pride parades and other queer places, he likes to create outfits for them.

Might try to get Solomon to cast a spell or make a potion to make you “more masculine”

He wants to be the one to cut your hair, but is okay with going to a salon with you

If you ask for names, he probably has a whole list already (it’s just a list of male exes)

Overall, he will remind you of how beautiful you are

Beelzebub

If you have have issues joining a sports team, he’s here to help convince any coaches necessary(although do demons have gendered sports teams is the question)

Encourages you to eat more than ever, especially if you’re on T. He understands when you get really hungry. Brings up foods that increases testosterone. Has you eat pineapples before you get top surgery.

Wants to give you a hug after surgery, but the others tell him about the stitches and fragility

Likes to cuddle you if you want to talk about your dysphoria (much to Mammon’s annoyance) and if you bring up height dysphoria, he likes carrying you around on his shoulders so you can feel taller.

Might try to come up with a food name if you ask

Will punch anyone who attempts to bully you over your queerness

Has you exercise with him more often, especially if you’ve talked about gaining muscle on T.

Belphegor

He doesn’t really mind, but he’s still supportive

Might suggest naps as a way of getting rid of dysphoria.

He gets the concept of transness a bit faster since he used to hang out with humans more.

Diavolo

He’s pretty accepting and finds human’s relationship with gender to be fascinating.

Orders the construction of gender-neutral bathrooms for your comfort

Makes dad jokes about being trans and your name (all in good fun, of course)

With your permission, he might plan a gender-reveal party or a debutante ball for you.

Assures you that you won’t go to hell for being yourself.

Barbatos

He was the first to figure out you are trans, as he was tasked with looking into your history for the exchange program.

He’s accepting as well. If you’re worried about your future, he might give you a couple of hints to show you’ll be ok.

Besides telling Diavolo and Lucifer beforehand, Barbatos is willing to help you stay stealth if that’s what you want.

Solomon

Depending on where’s he from, he might be a bit hesitant, but he’s still accepting (he has no reason to discriminate for religious reasons, he practices magic)

Might suggests magic to help transitioning, but will relent if you’re dead fast on human methods.

Also likes sending trans memes

Simeon

Finds it fascinating to find how far human technology has come for transitioning

If you’re really worried about getting into heaven, Simeon is the best one to reassure you that you will

A calming force for when you have dysphoria

Talks about transness to Luke so he’ll understand

If you can convince him, he might write a new series with a trans character as the protagonist (and other queer characters as well)

He and Asmodeus would team up to make a binder you could wear 24/7

Is a little uncomfortable with the hypersexuality of Pride parades, but understands their necessity.

Luke

The one that takes the most talking to about it, but Simeon accepts you, so Luke follows suit.

Likes to make trans flag cookies for you, especially after reaching certain milestones.

Gets jealous if you start growing taller from T.

Joins Levi on watching trans anime with you.

#obey me #obey me swd #obey me lucifer #obey me mammon #obey me leviathan #obey me levi #obey me satan #obey me asmo #obey me asmodeus #obey me beel #obey me beelzebub #obey me belphegor #trans #transgender #transmasc #obey me diavolo #obey me barbatos #obey me simeon #obey me solomon #obey me luke #obey me imagines #mod joseph

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《  luke newberry. genderfluid, he/they, epilogue by keaton henson  》 oh my, there goes BRENNAN SWANN. the 20/28 year old WENDIGO is currently working at HUBBARD APOTHOCARY. they’ve been in salem, ma for 28 YEARS. they are known around town as THE FORLORN. i have a feeling they ARE aware of what’s going on in town, and they are NEUTRAL. hopefully, because they are known to be GENTLE and ENCOURAGING while also being REBELLIOUS and DEFENSIVE, they will survive. i guess only time will tell.

ORIGINS & FAMILY:

Full Name: Brennan Samuel Swann

Nickname(s): Bren, but honestly you could call them anything and as long as you clarified that you were actually talking to them they’d be happy.

Date of Birth: July 4th, 1993

Age: 20/28

Gender + Pronouns: Genderfluid, he/they 

Place of birth: Salem, MA

Parents: Carl and Janice Swann

Siblings: None

Relationship with family (close? estranged?): None to speak of, they’re an only child of divorced parents who were more focused on their new relationships then their current child. Both moved away to different parts of the country after Brennan’s missing persons case went cold. They haven’t bothered to reach out the either of them since returning.

Pets: none, but adopts any sad looking stray or forest dweller out of a sense of kindred spirits.

PHYSICAL:

Height: 6′

Build: Slender and willowy

Nationality: American

Ethnicity: Caucasian

Distinguishing Facial Features: Big doe eyes, dimples on the rare occasion they smile wide enough to appear, stupid long eyelashes

Hair Color: strawberry blonde

Usual Hair Style: shorter on the sides then at the top, long enough to see it’s wild and curly nature

Eye Color: Dark brown, very nearly black

Complexion (freckles, acne, skin tone, birth marks, scars): Pale skin, freckles like whoa, anytime the sun touches their skin more crop up

Disabilities (physical or mental, including mental illnesses): Depression

What do they consider their best feature?: There is not a single thing they like about themselves, but gun to head, probably their eyes, just because that’s the default answer everyone gives.

Worst they’ve ever been injured (what, how did it happen)?: Getting chewed on by a forest monster man thing didn’t feel great.

APPEARANCE:

Favorite outfit: Style is constantly changing but they gravitate towards like, a pastel punk sort of aesthetic? Like a nice tye dye sweater, lightwash skinny jeans, and some ridiculous sort of combat boot. Has been known to rock a flowercrown unironically. Everything 2014 tumblr wanted, fashion wise.

Glasses? Contacts?: neither.

Personal Hygiene: average- showers regularly and does not use three in one body wash, but rewears clothes religiously because fuck laundry, and there’s always some sort of paint, or ink, or some other kind of Art Dirt on them.

Jewelry? Tattoos? Piercings?: loves a good choker, and has several piercings. Had plans for tattoos but isn’t sure now.

What does their voice sound like?: Very quiet, slow speech with lots of pausing and restarting.

Accent?: none, just AMERICA

Unique mannerisms/physical habits: tugs at their hair when nervous or stressed.

Left handed or right?: left handed

Do they work out/exercise?: entirely too gangly and awkward for that.

BELIEFS & INTELLECT:

Known Languages: English, some ASL leftover from speech therapy as a kid

Zodiac: Cancer

Gifts/talents: Very artistically inclined- painting, sketching, sculpture, they’ve tried and loved it all. They’re not confident about much, but their art skills is a big source of pride.

Religious stance: Raised very religious and considers himself Christian, but has trouble reconciling their religion with now not only their sexual and gender identity, but their existence as a Wendigo.

Pet peeves: Nothing really gets to them, but the people who click their pens are on thin fucking ice.

Optimist or pessimist: optimist with depressive tendencies

Extrovert or introvert: introvert

INTIMACY & RELATIONSHPS:

Relationship status: single as a pringle

Sexual orientation: pansexual

Ideal mate/qualities they look for in mate: someone who will see them and not be left wanting.

Ever been in love?: no.

What’s their love language?: quality time, physical touch

Most important person in their life?: Bren doesn’t really have anyone besides himself

VOCATION:

Level of education: High school graduate, has a couple semesters of an art history degree under their belt.

Profession: cashier at Hubbard Apothecary

Past occupations: Elf at Santa’s Village at the mall

Passions: art

Which is more important – money or doing something they love?:  doing something they love.

SECRETS:

Phobias: public speaking, eye contact

Life goals: don’t hurt people and maybe make a friend or two.

Greatest fears: being alone

Most embarrassing thing ever to happen to him/her: every single social interaction they have ever had haunts them in their sleep.

Something they’ve never told anyone: tbd.

PREFERENCES:

Hobbies: nature walks, really into flowers as well

Favorite color: lavender

Favorite smell: Wet dirt

Favorite food: french toast

Favorite book: They Both Die At The End

Favorite movie: Dead Poet’s Society

Favorite song: Somebody To Love- Queen

Coffee or tea?: Tea

Favorite type of weather: cloudy but dry

Most used word or phrase?: "Excuse me”

#each night i pray to you;brennan #salem.intro

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Crimson Lane - Chapter 29 - The Beginning and the End

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The old man formed a silhouette against a cloudless blue sky, giving the impression of awed stillness, in commune with a world that was beyond these bamboo floors and screened walls.

He wore a black karategi and stood with his feet bare and hands clasped behind his back.

"Go placidly amid the noise and haste." The man's voice was distant and echoey in the open space.

"And remember what peace there may be in silence," Ben completed, as he entered the dojo with a bow. "Hello, Uncle Luke."

The words were from the poem Desiderata. Luke had taught it to him as a boy, and it had gone on to be a comfort in trying times, even though the long dark night of working for Snoke.

He remembered …

Lying in bed beside a woman who was not Rey, shaking at the realisation of what he had become. It was the first time he'd questioned his existence, and it would not be the last.

Outside, rain wept down the steamy windows of the Brothel as Ben twisted his hands in the angled lamplight.

These hands have broken and killed and hurt, he thought. There were scars on his knuckles and rust beneath his nails.

His eyes trailed down to his wrists, tracking the corded blue veins that twisted like gnarled roots. He studied them, penitent and thoughtful, a macabre thought taking hold.

What was the point of it all?

Then Luke's voice had rung out in the silence, the memory of him with a dog-eared book of poems, reading by campfire.

"You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should."

Ben had clung to those verses when all hope was lost, and even now, when life was beginning to have meaning again. It gave him the right to thrive, to pursue happiness and love.

He continued walking towards Luke and visions of the past rushed like fleeting shadows: from the first time he'd come to the dojo, a young, aggressive teenager who had so much rage and no idea how to expel it. And then to the last time, he was here, broken, near desperate, seeking solace but finding coldness.

The bitterness and hate he'd felt for Luke had long passed. The many hours they'd sat across from each other in the visitation room, awkward one-word answers to discussions of deeper things.

Another step. Luke took a meditative breath and Ben mirrored his position, his head bowed reverently and waiting.

The wind chided against the dojo as whirlwinds scooped up leaves and battered the windows with a soft tap, tap, tap.

"The tree has reached maturity and has overcome the darkness." Master Luke turned as he spoke. He'd said these words before, many years ago — another lifetime.

Ben was like the stillness following a storm, eyes fixed to the ground as Luke stood before him.

"I told you that, the night you became a sandan, do you remember?"

"I do." Ben's neck prickled under Luke's goading stare.

"And have you overcome the darkness?"

Ben's shoulders slumped. The darkness would always be there, hiding, dormant. It was like an old coat he'd worn through life. It was familiar; he understood it. His fiery passions and short temper, dark moods and haunted memories walked with him, they were his shadow.

But he wouldn't tell Master Luke that. Not after all this time — after everything.

Ben blinked, the grains of wooden floorboards blurring into one another. He tried to say "yes" but involuntarily his lips pressed together, shaking his head.

"Good. Honesty is a good place to start."

"I'm still angry. The rage is like a sleeping giant. I try to hold it in —" he centred with a breath. "Rey's understanding."

Ben lifted his gaze from the floor. "Being around her helps. She makes me feel light."

"She says the same thing about you."

He smiled. Because, while there was darkness, he had also found light. He saw it in the little things, the touch of her warm skin against his own, the way her nose crinkled when she laughed at his snarky jokes and most of all when they were silent and could just be. He began to see that the world was full of colour and laughter, that nature was beautiful, and emotions rose and fell like the tide. He had learnt that there was always joy on the horizon. His internal violence had been tempered with peace and his chaos subsided into harmony.

And Rey was always there, waiting for him with a gentle hand and a quiet heart.

"She's patient with me," Ben continued, because there were never enough words to make people understand how much he loved this woman.

"Patient? That's an interesting word for Rey."

"Not in obvious ways, I guess. She told me once, her upbringing had taught her two things. The first was to salvage broken things."

Luke gave him a half-smile. "And the other?"

"The second was to wait." Ben clenched his jaw, muscles tensing as he tried to quell the wave of emotion that had an embarrassing habit of sneaking up on him when he spoke about her. "I always thought I was cursed, but she makes me feel— worthy"

Whether Luke saw the way his breath quickened or the pure wonder in Ben's eyes at the thought that after everything he would be standing here speaking about something so special to him, he wasn't sure. But Luke placed a hand on his shoulder.

"She's lucky to have you, kid."

Ben balked because that was possibly the most insane thing Luke had ever told him. And Luke had said a lot of shit in his time.

"You're surprised?"

"I think you're insane."

"Before she met you, Rey's happiness had only ever been skin-deep. Yes, she's quick to smile, her enthusiasm is infectious, but it always felt like she wore a mask, you know?"

Ben nodded, not quite sure what to say.

"I mean, the girl's dealt with some serious trauma, but when I see her with you, there's no mask there. There's stillness and deep, heartfelt joy."

Ben caught his bottom lip between his teeth, genuinely surprised at his words.

"She's found her home with you, Ben — and that's very special to someone who never had one before."

His heart fluttered at Luke's words. Solidifying a conviction that had been growing in his mind ever since he'd walked into the dojo.

"Anyway, shall we?" Luke walked across to the far wall of the room, removing a bo staff from a rack and spinning it to his side.

"She tells me you've been looking for a job. Here." He grabbed another staff from the wall and threw it to Ben, who caught it easily.

How did she know that? For the last three months, he'd been waiting until after she'd fallen asleep, sated and exhausted before pulling his laptop on the bed and applying for anything he could find. The soundtrack of her heavy breaths accompanied him deep into the night as he read through rejection letter, after rejection letter.

It turned out having a criminal record was a terrible career move.

Ben must have been pulling a face because Luke chuckled at his bamboozled expression.

"Hasn't Han given you the 'women always figure out the truth' speech?"

"I guess I missed that one."

"So why have you come to see me? You looking for a reference, or something?"

"I'd hate to see what kind of reference you'd give me, Uncle Luke."

"Well, it wouldn't be dull." Luke lifted his bo staff at an angle and with a nod, he leapt forward striking as Ben defended.

Ben returned the blow, angling his staff diagonally as they met with a low clap. "I don't want a reference. I want a job."

"I'm not hiring."

"I'll hire myself," he snapped and cringed a second later. "I mean I won't need your money."

"Okay..."

Ben held the staff by his side. "When you trained Rey to fight, that changed her life. She was able to defend herself — to defend me, even. Imagine if we could do that for more kids, ones who have lost their way, or who are struggling with addiction, school dropouts, or those with mental health issues. What if we could really help the ones who need it most?"

Ben barely paused to take a breath. "If you could make so much difference to one person, imagine the impact we could have with a whole class of kids like that. Not the normal whiny brats you have but teach kids who really need these skills!"

Luke chuckled involuntarily. "Don't call my kids brats. You were the biggest shit out of all of them."

"You know what I mean."

"You'd have to manage it. My hands are tied with normal classes."

"I'd do everything. I've already spoken to Maz about some kids who would be ready to start now."

Luke opened his mouth to speak but Ben continued.

"You wouldn't need to worry about money, I have some funds to get it started. There are government grants that we can access. I've already applied to a few—"

Luke cocked an eyebrow at his nephew and Ben shrugged with a half-smile. "I figured you'd say yes."

Luke sighed, stretching out his decision. He liked these power plays to keep his nephew waiting. It used to infuriate him as a kid, but he understood now, he was teaching him to wait.

It was a lesson he still struggled to put into practice.

"You can use the Dojo with my blessing. But this is your project, you name it, you run it. It will rise or fall with you, Ben."

Ben leaned onto his toes, lips curling with an excitable smile. "I was hoping you'd say that."

Luke chuckled. "You'll do alright, kid. Come on."

They deposited the staff against the wall and Ben followed him through the glass-paned door and into Luke's office.

The room was bright, shelves and glass cabinets polished to perfection. There were the usual trophies and plaques and Ben's reflection flashed back at him, filled with memories of a boy much younger, seeing them for the first time and dreaming that he might be worthy of a place there. He'd been an awkward teenager, limbs too long and skinny, with volcanic acne dotted along his jaw, filled to the brim with nervous energy. He'd barely been there for fifteen minutes before Master Luke had demanded he'd run around the outside of the dojo one hundred times to expel his excess energy.

Ben grinned at the memory and then realised something had changed. The last time he was here, there were gaps where his trophies had been, dustless squares on the wall where newspaper clippings and certificates once were. His heart bloomed at seeing them all back where they were, painstakingly polished or framed.

"I put them back the morning after you came," Luke said beside him. "I never should have taken them down."

"I didn't give you much choice."

"No, Ben." Luke folded his arms, staring straight ahead at his cabinet of achievements. "We had many choices. We could have reached out to you sooner. I could have listened to you that day instead of— "

"It's in the past," Ben said quickly and then glanced at his uncle from the corner of his eye. "Anyway, you were protecting her and I will never begrudge you for that."

They fell into silence, the sound of the outside world creeping into their space; the roar of the ocean and traffic, the main door to the dojo slammed open with a crack and the hallways filled with children's voices. Ben looked at the clock, it was 8.55 am and the next karate class would be ready to start soon.

Luke went to his desk, removing the black jacket in lieu of a white one, carefully folding it into the draw and then wrapping his black belt around his waist.

"You're welcome to stay—"

"No, I've got a boat to catch and I still need to pay the bond on our new place before I go."

He bit his lip, staring at his uncle who was obnoxiously and patiently quiet, eyes twinkling again as Ben made his way to the door. Some of the younger students must have taken the bo staffs in the other room because they could hear the sound of battle amidst a fit of giggles. "I better get going before these kids destroy the dojo—"

"Did you get it?" Ben blurted.

"I may have," Luke answered, unable to hold back the childish gleam of joy from his face. "Did you want to take it with you?"

He nodded, feeling a rush of blood colouring his cheeks.

"It's barely been three months since you were released; you don't think that's too soon?" Luke pulled a black and gold cardboard bag from out of the safe, handing it to Ben. "Patience was never your strong point."

Ben snatched it, searching inside as he pushed white and silver tissue paper to the side, praying the jeweller had gotten it right.

It was perfect. Silver streams swirled like rivers, the words engraved within "never alone" and a single sparkling stone that winked as it caught in the light.

"I'm not going to rush into anything." He closed it back up again. "I'll wait."

"What, till the end of the week? I know you, Ben. A hundred bucks says you won't last the month."

Ben slipped it into his back pocket with a smirk.

"We'll see."

"Rey?"

Ben barrelled into the apartment that afternoon to find it empty. He'd run up from the jetty as soon as the ferry had docked, hair loose and windswept from the sea, and forearms a rosy shade of pink. Rey's laptop was open, fan whirring in the otherwise silent room. Her runners were airing on the lawn next to the bi-fold doors and there was a half-drunk green smoothie on the kitchen bench.

This is what normal life looked like now; from the tousled bedsheets to Rey's cotton panties scrunched up on the floor and the bra he'd given her so many months ago slung across the bed head. Everything in this room exuded her and it never failed to amaze him that their intertwined fates had come to this point.

Ben scooped up her underwear, tossing them both in the laundry hamper. Then he pulled up the bedsheets, smoothing them out and arranging the pillows. At last, he flicked the coverlet over the top, running his hand along the creases. All of it was done with military precision, a calming exercise, each sweep of his hand bringing to mind how it had gotten that way in the first place.

"It's just for the night," he'd told her, nuzzling sweet kisses below her ear.

"Too long," she'd whined, dragging him back into bed. "Can't you go next week when I'm not on deadline? That way we can go together?"

"Luke is expecting me." He kissed her on the nose. "I'll come find you as soon as I'm back."

"You better." She'd pulled his lips to hers then, tasting every inch of them with passionate enthusiasm. In the end, he had to pry her away or he'd have missed the ferry.

Life with Rey was full. Each morning, he'd watch the dawn light gild across her face, the glare making her nose wrinkle as she'd nuzzle into his chest, half asleep. She was his own sunshine and now he ached to see her.

He went to leave, stopping at the coffee table to play his next move of Risk on the way out. They'd been playing this round for the whole week. Rey must have been expecting his next move because she'd left him a little note saying, "Don't you dare!". He took the post-it note in his hand and smiled before sliding three troops onto Kijimi where a lone piece of hers remained. She'd be furious; he'd already conquered the Unknown Regions, Hosnian Prime and Crait, and tonight he would claim the mantle of Supreme Leader and enjoy the bounty that came with it. They often battled their differences on the game board, claiming dominion over the other at every opportunity. The game continued, deep into the night, between the sheets, fighting to bring each other to ruin.

And now, he needed to find her.

Ben Solo had never known such peace, and grace, as in those moments when Rey gave herself to him.

The anticipation of seeing her, of being inside her, made his loins stir and he rushed to find her.

Outside, he could see the resort cafe where his parents played a game of poker with Uncle Lando. As if sensing him, Leia looked up and gave him a warm smile.

"Rey's down by the beach!"

"Thanks!" He looked again at the scene below and noticed an extra couple of cards hidden beneath the table. "He's cheating again."

Lando scoured as Han ripped the hidden cards from the man's grip and a pair of aces flew across the table.

"Good work, Ben," Han called.

The three of them laughed and Ben felt something in his chest tighten, a knot of pride, yearning and happiness tied together. Leia had decided to step back from politics, focussing on three different NGOs that she led with a dogged passion, and Han was Han. He enjoyed the company of friends, driving the Falcon, and playing long games of chess with his son over a whisky on the rocks. It gave them a chance to really talk, about life, failure, even love. Ben came to understand he had more in common with his father than he realised, from his mannerisms to his heart.

Ben continued along the lush green grounds and down a sandy path to the beach.

Rey was there, her long slim shadow layered on the sand, warm light painting her skin in gold. Her bare shoulders were bronze, and she was looking down at her feet, watching the clear waves lap at her toes, burying them further in the sand each time it retreated.

He walked towards Rey and a gentle breeze brushed against his black t-shirt, filling the air with sea salt and summer heat. Rey turned, beaming a huge smile that was always reserved for him.

"Trying to sneak up on me, Solo?"

"I took Kijimi." She gave him a mock glare as he came before her and lowered his voice. "Now you and all your territories belong to me."

"You know, I won't surrender that easily?"

He leaned in with hooded eyes, half-hard and desperate to plunder her right now, but she turned on him, glancing warily in the direction of where Han and Leia sitting.

"Did you want to swim? I went in before and the water's still pretty warm."

He took in the sight of her bright eyes and flushed cheeks, then down to her top, where there were two large wet patches over her breasts. "So I see."

She looked down and frowned, also noticing the way her wet swimmers had left two very dubious marks against her olive-green top. "Damn it, that's embarrassing."

"I don't mind, in fact—" he pulled her in a kiss so urgent she stumbled back, pulling him down to her level as he chased her lips with hungry kisses. She tasted like sea salt, fresh waves and sunlight. "I find it kind of hot."

"So, did you miss me?"

"Every second."

They settled on the sand, Rey between his legs as he wrapped his arms around her as they watched the tide roll in. The sand was warm from the heat of the day and Rey rested her head on his shoulder, as gentle waves frothed and played by their feet.

Out of the corner of his eye, Kylo noticed Rey peeking up at him, her gaze meditating on his smile and then down to his shoulders.

"What?" he asked.

"You just seem —" she looked up, searching for the word she wanted. "Light. You seem so much lighter and relaxed. There's colour in your cheeks and by some miracle you've even gotten a tan."

He held her hands in his, their fingers braided together, his thumb softly stroking her skin. They seemed so small compared to his own, but they were strong hands; skin calloused and stained with oil and yet, so beautiful. They were the hands he wanted to see hold his children.

"I'm happy." He glanced down at once more, lifting her hand and pressing whisper-soft kisses against her knuckles.

"I'm happy too, Ben."

He pressed his lips to hers, soft and chaste. They were like this sometimes, quiet and at peace. Those moments were sacred and Ben lost himself in thoughts of her and their future. They were gentle, fingers tracing each other as softly as the wind, lips searching, a ceremony, a discovery of the other. It lasted until the sun touched the ocean, burning with crimson and bursts of gold.

Rey cleared her throat, reminding him that this place, this woman, was real.

"Luke said you had news."

"That crotchety old miser wasn't supposed to say a thing."

Rey smirked, almost seeming to hold her breath, she did this when she had a secret she didn't want to keep.

"What did he say?"

"Nothing." Rey shook her head, her smile deepening.

"Has he told you the whole thing?" Ben asked crossly.

"If it's that you're starting not-for-profit martial arts classes for at-risk children and have already written at least a dozen application letters to get government grants to make it happen then — maybe?"

He groaned, chewing on his lip, that tell-tale tic flicking under his eye. "Fucking Luke Skywalker can't keep his God-damn fucking mouth shut!"

She pressed a warm hand to his thigh, teasing it with her fingers, a clasp, an entreaty. It was their secret language.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to—"

"I know. Just thought I'd stop you before you got started."

"It's not like there's anything I can break on the beach, anyway."

Rey kissed his cheek. "Five things."

Ben rolled his eyes. "The sound of the waves."

She held one finger up, and he gritted his teeth together.

"The warmth of the sun on my face."

Two fingers. "How poetic."

"Sea salt."

"Three," she beamed at him and he felt the anger subsiding like the tide, flowing out to sea.

"Your body against mine," he said quietly, moving to kiss her neck.

"Four," she whispered, raising her eyes to the sky as he traced his lips from her ear to her collar bone.

"Hardness," he growled.

"Five." It was barely a word.

His fingers splayed beneath her breast, searching for the line of her bikini bottoms, touching her—

She started and Ben's lips curled in a sinister smile.

"Your wet little—"

"You're better." She slapped his hand away with a laugh and jumped to her feet, pressing the back of her hands to her brazenly red cheeks.

"I wasn't finished," he followed her.

"Is that all Master Luke told you?"

"You mean, there's something else you're hiding from me?" She peered up at him suspiciously.

He pulled her in tighter, clamping his mouth on her neck and sucking hard, lapping her skin with his tongue. The girl was insatiable when she caught whiff of a lead, and this was one story he wasn't ready to share. Fortunately, he knew the fastest way to distract her.

"I'm going to make love to you right now."

She snorted. "Here?"

"Yes, here."

He consumed her, and as always, her body responded, disappearing in his arms, just like the waves got lost in the sand. His hand followed the curve of her back, down—

"Stop it! Your family is up there!"

She had a point. He gave her one last squeeze and tried to push away the thoughts that were overpowering his willpower. "Stop looking so damn hot then."

Rey pulled herself away, lips red and plump from the way he had taken them between his teeth. "We should change the subject."

"Fine." He thought about it. "The room was a mess up there."

"Really?"

"Did anyone tell you that you're a slob?"

"This is your subject?"

He smirked, lowering his head. "We can go back to the other one if you want?"

"If you would stop ripping my clothes off whenever we get up there then maybe it would stay clean?"

"It's a small price to pay, I suppose."

"Cheaper than it used to be."

"Smart arse." He gave her a light slap on the backside but as she went to return the favour, he stopped her.

"What's in your pocket?"

"Nothing. What's in yours?"

She peered at him suspiciously, but dropped it, nevertheless. He was surprised to see she did have something.

"What's that?"

"Umm, only Finn and Rose's wedding invitation!" she shouted with excitement.

"What!?" he grabbed it, barely able to believe his own eyes. "When did this happen?"

"He just told me today. Wanted it to be a surprise."

"Haven't they only known each other for a year or something?"

"Well, they've been living together the whole time. I guess you know, when you know, right?"

He stopped looking at the invitation and met her gaze, searching for something that he hoped was there.

"Right—"

The waves gently lapped at his feet, the sound of them gurgling and brushing against the sand. She had looked away from him then, cheeks pink and an embarrassed smile.

A hundred bucks says you won't last the month, Luke haunted him.

He pushed down the thought. He could at least talk to her about it. It didn't mean he was going to do anything rash.

"So, what do you think?" Ben asked softly. They had hung out with Finn and Rose a few times now; he enjoyed their company and he envied Finn the way he could be so free with Rose. Ben had always struggled with this, there was always something too intense, or too awkward. There was always too much of him.

"What do I think of what?" Rey tried not to look at him and this made him nervous.

"They're getting married."

"Oh, I'm really happy for them!" she said.

"I mean the fact that they're doing it so soon?"

She shrugged, and this time she stole a glance, measuring his expression as much as he was measuring hers.

He swallowed and felt the way his face was grimacing as he did.

"The whole marriage thing," he was barely managing to keep his voice steady now. "Do you mind it?"

"Mind it? Um, I don't know, do you … mind it?"

"No." He shoved his hands in his pocket, grasping hold of the velvet box in one hand and squeezing it like it was a stress ball.

"As in 'no, you don't believe in it?'"

"No, no, I do believe in it. Do you?" Ben said.

"I think it's a good thing. To come together and be a family—" She studied him for a moment, her expression thoughtful and cautious. He wasn't sure what she saw there but something made her rush the next sentence. "I know it's not for everyone though."

What did that mean? He felt his brow creasing as he glowered into the ground.

This was a terrible idea.

"Would—" she continued, but when Ben snapped his eyes up to look at her, she faltered. His face was pulling in all the wrong directions and he was still glaring.

"What?" He sounded fucking rude now, he could see it in her face.

Rey hesitated, somehow looking young and gangly like all her girlish insecurities had come to haunt her. "Would you want to be married one day?"

"Yes."

Fuck, he'd said it too intensely. There were a million thoughts racing through his brain. What if he asked her now? Was there any chance she could say yes? If he showed her the ring and told her how he'd designed it during quiet times in the jail, that he'd forced Master Luke to stop at the jeweller's after their together when he was on bail, so they could start crafting it, that there was no point in waiting because he wanted this now, not in a month, not in a year…

"Me too," her voice was quiet, fading into the background as he agonised over the decision.

He wanted to make it special, to charter a sailboat, or take her away to Thailand, or some exotic destination. Worst of all, he thought about what would happen if she said no, if it was too soon, too much, or he just wasn't the one.

He wouldn't blame her; she'd be right to run...

Ben could feel the subtle flicker of a tic beneath his eye, and when he met her eye, he realised he must have still been scowling because Rey seemed — crushed.

Wait, had she said something?

"Let's go back." There was a frostiness to her voice that wasn't there before.

He snapped out of it. "I didn't hear you."

"Don't worry, we can talk about it later. Come on, I'll cook dinner."

She turned to walk along the sand but he didn't follow.

It was certifiably crazy, but some desperate urge had overpowered him and he lowered to one knee.

"Rey."

It was barely a voice and she kept walking. He should get up. It was too soon … she wouldn't be ready.

Slowly, he began to stand again when she turned and her eyes went wide.

"I ... ah," Ben stammered.

"What are you doing?"

He kneeled and she gaped.

"I know it's too soon," he said in a rush and blinked quickly because goddammit if he was going to cry. "You have so many reasons to say no."

Rey took a step closer, her brows furrowed like she was about to deliver news of a terminal illness.

Shit.

"It could be a long engagement — as long as you want. We could wait until you've finished your studies, or we've moved, or—"

Closer. There were tears in her eyes now.

Fuck.

It was too late now. He squeezed his eyelids shut, determined to see it through.

"I don't know where our lives are going and I know all of this started off really badly— god knows we can never tell our children how we met—" He cringed at that. "If you want kids, do you want kids?"

She nodded, "Yes, not right now though."

"No, not right now."

"But one day…"

"One day would be nice."

"It would."

They stared at each other and Ben almost forgot what he was doing.

"I wouldn't expect you to take my name or anything."

"I'd want to take it. If you're asking me that is —" She looked away, blushing. "Are you asking?"

"I erm."

"Oh my God!" She covered her mouth in shock. "You're really doing it?"

"Shit, I'm nervous at this shit." He'd forgotten how to speak and his hands were sweating as he wiped them on his knee. "Rey, all I know is I want to spend every day of my life with you."

"Ben..."

"Here." he pulled out the small velvet box, opened it, and held it before her. "I know you think I act first and think later, but this isn't an idea I've just had. I wanted to wait until I knew you were going to say 'yes'. But I can't even bear waiting for that anymore—"

His heart was pounding, his breath was shaking and even his fucking fingers were trembling, but he would finish this.

"Rey, are you crazy enough to say yes?"

She was still.

Still as the wind that had died, and the waves that shallowed out in response. The colour rose to her cheeks and her fingers pressed against her lips and then over her heart.

"Please," he whispered, reaching his hand out to hers.

"Please!"

Rey's world slowed.

The sun had fallen and darkness crept into the sky; the white foam brilliant with phosphorescence as waves pounded in a clamorous roar.

A million reasons fired in her brain as to why they should wait and not run head-first into the great unknown.

But when she saw him there, genuflecting at her feet and trembling …

"Please," he'd said it again, but this time it sounded different, softer, mournful, like he'd lost all hope.

"Ben—" She reached out and skimmed her hand against his in the lightest of touches and he raised his dark and desperate eyes.

A warm wind danced across the sand, caressing her face like an invisible force and Rey shivered — because, suddenly, she saw their future, solid and clear.

They were happy.

They loved each other until the end.

They fought with passion and loved with fervour.

And they were never alone.

She smiled at him, knowing they would face the darkness and the light, the good times and the bad together.

"You're not alone anymore, Ben." A tear fell, trickling down her cheek.

"Is that a yes?"

She lowered to her knees, level with him like the equals they were. She kissed his palm and he watched her with wonder, trembling fingers ghosting across her face.

"Yes!"

#crimson lane #reylo #reylo fan ficiton #reylo writers den #pink ladies #reylo fan fic rec #angst with a happy ending

[madd-devil]

“Most of the time, people would look down to me because I was just average…” The teenage girl started as she stared in a boring way a globe and playing with it. “Or they would just tell me what I had to do, all the fucking damn time!” She cursed as she destroyed the precious thing.

Michael looked at her, understanding what she meant by that.

“What do you want me to do then?” He asked, unsure of why she brought him back to the land of the living.

“I need a smart and a excellent scientist for a… project.” She announced as she turned around to face him with a smirk.

“You in?” Michael sensed that the girl had a cruel project and somehow it appealed him. She, after all, told him she will release him in his dimension when all will be over and that she would help him to reign on the galaxy. She promised it and he trusted her so of course, he said that he wanted to work with her.

Was she evil? Yes. But were her actions justified? Yes. She had gone in a crazy and insane state after this argument with her family, went for a walk in the forest and decided to explore the deep woods. There, she had found those strange stones, which gave her powers! She was basically a goddess now and she loved it. She could travel to different worlds, realms or dimensions, she saved people, some worshipped her! Also, she brought people back to the living because she knew they would obey her. She entered the bedroom, a pleased smile on her face. She was dressed in her leather jacket that she loved the moment she saw, a black shirt, black jean and her dear red doctor Martens boots… She had a new collar with teethes and spikes in it. Her short brown wavy hair that she had angrily cut one night, earning by the way a scold from her divorced parents, her eyes were darker but she loved them now. She still had her acne scars but… she found herself more beautiful, once she went to the dark side… She snickered crazily as she went on the balcony, observing the people who worked for her below. She smirked when she heard the door opening and she immediately guessed who it was. She waited for him to approach and Luke put his hands behind his back, dressed in his finest suit. He formerly worked for the Joker in Suicid Squad but how he worked for her.

“Michael says that there were a lot of damages on the Flying Death, boss.” The man said. “But he can manage to make it fly again.” She nodded, hearing those good news.

“Perfect.” She pronounced. “You can return to the Center now. And please, I would like to be alone for now but if the gang has to make a round somewhere, I would like to go so please, notify me if they do so. I want to show those people who their leader are…” “Of course boss.” Luke exited the room as Naomie went back and closed the doors of the balcony. She laughed insanely as she approached a golden globe of the Earth and she started to play with it as she sang. “How it all began, if truth be told? Had a master plan; now I rule the world…” She let go of the globe for the giant map on the table and she circled it with a content smile. “Took them by surprise, worked my way uphill. They looked into my eyes; I became invincible…” She sang as she started to smirk. She stopped abruptly, clenching her fists with a insane smile on her face.

“No one can stop, for I am in control! If you want me you'd better contact my people! In my crown I am king, I love their endless worshiping. I am raw, a dinosaur, but I will never be extinct! So don't mess with me; I'll shoot you down… Don't mess with me…”

As she was walking in the dark and miserable main street where the peasants and some noble people were, she smirked evilly as she passed a beaten up angel who was begging mercy… that she didn’t give. Everyone gasped when they saw the head of the man rolling on the ground. Then, a young and handsome man was staring at them, completely revolted by what just happened. With her charming voice, Naomie came over him, swinging her hips a little.

“Show me sex appeal, get on your hands and knees, forget about the meal, it's best to keep me pleased…” She caressed the cheek of the man who was trying to resist but could not. “Imagine if you will, our meet on the block, I've got time to kill, so how about a quick fuck?” She whispered in his ear as the boy face grew red but he quickly gave in. Some times after, the gang was waiting for her and she patted the boy cheek with a gloomy smile.

“I've come, it's been fun but won't you please disappear? Something tells me that you can't further my career…” After she told him that, she went back to the gang and they headed back to the castle they established themselves in. She spun around in her room, happy to be back and to had make out with some random boy. She knew that the old, kind and gentle Naomie would never do this, because she didn’t like having sex, hooking up with a stranger but thanks to having those powers, now it changed her mind. It was weird but she did not cared.

“In my crown I am king, I love their endless worshiping! I am raw, a dinosaur, but I will never be extinct! So don't mess with me! I'll shoot you down! Don't mess with me!” She sang angrily as she bursted out on the balcony, using her powers to open the doors. “'Cause all your heads are gonna roll, I've made your misery my goal!” She started to ascend and to climb in order to go on the highest tower of the castle, to test herself and to make sure everyone could hear her. “So if you want survival, kneel on my arrival. This is how I rule the world!” She sang as she finally was where she wanted to be, opening her black feathered wings and shadows of humanoid creatures with red eyes and long teethes appearing beside her. She breathed in and out slowly and deeply, after her moment of insanity and clenched her fists again.

“No one can stop me, for only I am in control. And if you want me you'd better contact my people” She murmured, as if she wanted to convince herself. “See my crown? I am king. I love the endless worshiping. I am raw, a dinosaur, but I will never be extinct… So don't mess with me; I'll shoot you down. Don't mess with me; I'll knock you down. Don't mess with me; I'll shoot you down… Don't mess with me!” She sang as she flew down on the city.

The morning after, she was woken up by Luke and Michael, who seemed worried. She muttered some curses in French and rolled to her side to face them.

“What?”

“Good morning boss. We have some problems.” Luke said as he glanced at Michael.

“It seems like people here isn’t taking well that you conquered this world. They are gathered a army and they are coming in our way.” Michael resumed the situation simply. “The question is: what do we do?”

“Fight them, teach them who we are, like we always do.”

The two men looked at each other, and it seemed that apparently, they were not telling her everything. With a sight, she sat up.

“What is it?”

“Your… soul sister are with them.” Luke finally said.

“I’m sorry what?!” Naomie yelled as she got up suddenly. “This little annoying bitch of an angel! What the heck is she doing here?!” “Defending people, if we understood her letter correctly.” Michael answered in a calm voice as Luke handed her the letter.

The teenage girl took it and read it quickly. She gripped the paper tightly in her hands, angry with what was written before setting the paper on fire. She turned to look at the two men.

“Where is Ethan?” She questioned.

“In the original dimension, I believe.” Luke recalled.

“Call him back. I want him to do something for me.”

“Of course, boss, as you wish.” The man wearing a black suit said as he left.

“What about your sister and the angry peasants?” Michael asked with a hum, watching her every move carefully.

“We fight, this is what we are going to do. Oh and Michael, you can return to the ship. Do you think it will fly soon?”

“I don’t know but I will try my best.” The hybrid nodded.

Naomie opened the balcony’s doors and advanced on it. She closed her eyes and could sense the divine presence of her soul sister, the beautiful and perfect little angel. Since Naomie got her powers, this woman won’t stop harassing her to come to the good side but she didn’t want to! She loved being evil, enslaving people, conquering worlds! She felt powerful!

“So she wants war… then I will give her a war…” She said darkly.

The fight was quickly ended and Angela tried once again to coax her into the good side, to which Naomie sent the biggest fuck you she could: throwing mud and so mudding the perfectly white wings of the angel. Of course, the latter huffed like a spoiled little girl and decided to go back to Heaven. Naomie was back at the castle, drinking some wine they had found in the cellar. Luke was there, doing some paper works while Michael was still working on the ship with the Night team. Ethan was back and had used his powers in the battle, with Alonzo and Georges. The two young men were playing with knives when suddenly Naomie put her glass on the table and looked at the group.

“I need you to travel with me.” She said, out of blue.

“I can’t. Work.” Luke told her.

Alonzo agreed because he loved traveling and discovering new places. In fact, he was an adventurer, back in his world but his sister staged his death so that she could get his money. What a bitch. Ethan was faithful to her and he would always agree with what she had decided so there was no problem for him. Georges nodded and asked where they would be headed.

“In your former realm: Once Upon A Time!” She declared as she stood up.

“Really? I mean… I don’t want to see my father you know…” Georges mumbled as he looked away, to not show his weakness.

“I mean, your father will be inside the town but we are just going to the forest, near the wish’s well.” She explained as she opened the portal and jumped in it, followed by the other boys.

“Who are you gonna bring back to life this time?” Alonzo asked with a shout.

She blushed lightly when she mentioned him. The man smirked, knowing why she was in a such state. Of course she would only come there for him, without a doubt.

It was night time there and it was perfect. Her powers were more powerful in night time. She approached the well, feeling excitement as she thought what she was going to do. Ethan helped her drawing the pentagram with rocks, Georges handed her a beating heart that he took from someone in town while Alonzo was watching the ritual. Naomie took the heart and plunged her dagger into it, to give it some magic, she started to chant strange incantations as two horns appeared on her forehead, as well as a tail and her wings. Soon, a body was lifted from within earth and put on the floor at her foot. It was the body of a tall, blond haired teenager with a scar on his face. The teenage girl put the heart in the chest of the boy and the pentagram disappeared, as well as the devil attributes who had appeared for a short period of time on Naomie. Alonzo, Georges and Ethan approached their leader, who kneeled down next to the boy, who was now breathing. He woke up with a gasp and looked around him. He stared at them, his mouth open, because he was surely not believing what he was seeing.

“Who… Who are you?” He asked with a small voice.

“Oh my friend, we are all the same.” Naomie said with a smile.

“What do you mean? How I am alive?” The teenager started to question, earning a laugh from the girl.

“I brought you back to life.” “Why?” “Because.” She crouched next to him and whispered to his ear: “I know what is like to be a social reject, Felix. Pan is dead, he used you. But with me? I won’t use you, friend. I just need you to be loyal for what? Six or seven months then you will be free.”

“What do you want from me?” Felix asked as he shot up to his feet.

“I already told you. I want you to stay with me for six months, then, if you enjoy to be with us and to be apart from the biggest gang of all the dimensions and to stick up with the winners, you are very welcomed. If you don’t, I will find a nice place for you to live. How does that sound?” Naomie offered with the most genuine and charming smile. Felix seemed to think about it for four minutes then he looked down to this teenager.

“I’m in.”

The lyrics of the song is Don’t Mess With Me by Temporshark and so it doesn’t belong to me! Also, just for the credits, Felix belongs to Once Upon A Time and so to ABC, Michael doesn’t belong to me, he belongs to its rightful owners. Thanks for reading!

#madd #maladaptive daydreaming #my shit #actuallymadd #paras #paraportal #actually madd #maladaptive daydreaming disorder #madd writting #writing #madd writing

[kenshi-vakarian7]

Hey, for OC asks: Let's physical. 5, 11, 12, and 13. :D

Thank you for the ask @rpgwarrior4824 :) 

5 - Whatscars/birthmarks do your OC(s) have?

Shepards

Adam –After the war, he receives burns on his left side; torso, arm, neck,and part of his face.  Both legs were shattered and he had multiplescars from surgeries as a result.

Amy –She receives a burn mark on her right calf after Akuze, but that ofcourse is gone after Lazarus.  After the war, she ends up with someburns on her left arm as well as surgical scars on her right leg.

Marc –He received a handful of scars from both as a foster kid and as astreet kid.  He also earned a scar on his right shoulder during theattack on Elysium and it’s the only one to remain after Lazarus. After the war, he has burn scars on his left arm and neck and scarsfrom multiple surgeries on his torso and especially his left knee.

Zena – Shehad some minor scarring on the base of her neck from the batarians’attempt to subdue her during the attack on Mindoir.  She ended upwith a lot of surgical scars after the war.

Ty –The scars from his biotic implant never quite healed right despitebeing done by a professional.  And of course, multiple scars wereleft on him after the war.

Val – Shehas one scar going along one side of her face and a few more on herarms and torso prior to Lazarus.  She also has a quarter size caféau lait spot on her right shoulder blade.

Eliza – Shehad a scar from a bullet wound on her right thigh before Lazarus. During the events of ME3, she received a stab wound to the abdomenthat left a scar.

Ryders

Kira – Shehas a scar on her right hip after being stabbed by a raider.  Thestab luckily didn’t go deep, but that reminder of how close it camefor her would always be there.

Luke – Hehas a scar on his right leg from breaking it after falling off hisbicycle as a kid.

Aleera – Hasa light, palm-size  café au lait on her left hip.

Rick –He had really bad acne as a teenager and it left him with acne scarson his face.

Rose – Hasa small scar on the back of her neck from her biotic implant.  It’snot noticeable unless you were really looking for it.

Erron –He does not have any distinguishing birthmarks and, as of now, has noscars.

11 - Which OC likes hotweather best?

Out of all myShepards – Marc  

Out of all my Ryders – Erron

12 - Which OC likescold weather best?

Outof all my Shepards – Zena  

Out of all my Ryders - Aleera

13 - What is your OC(s)favorite physical activity?

Shepards

Adam – Practicingmartial arts.  He grew up learning Alliance marine hand-to-hand and,as a teenager, was taught Sambo by his father’s CO.  Thanks to a bookhis sister gifted him during his incarceration, he started topractice Tai Chi prior to the Reaper War.

Amy – Sheloves to simply throw punches at a punching bag.  Not only is it goodexercise, but it also serves as a good way to take out any anger orfrustrations she has.

Marc –Any kind of weightlifting or cardio workout, especially swimming.  Atthe end of the day, it’s these activities that leave him feelinggood.

Zena – Growingup, she loved playing soccer.  After joining the military, shedoesn’t really touch the sport again until her two kids are oldenough to express interest to play.

Ty – Hewould first joke and say that it’s sex.  But in all seriousness, hedoes like morning jogs, which he enjoys even more after retiringfrom the military.

Val –She personally finds physically activities to be a necessity for bothperforming her duties and keeping herself in shape.  In other words,it has to be done.  However, she does enjoy going to the shootingrange (practicing her posture is considered a physical activity =P).

Eliza – Sometimes,a simple walk does her good, especially to help clear her mind.  As achild, she enjoyed horseback riding, but that’s something she hasn’tdone since Mindoir was attacked.

Ryders

Kira –She loves rock climbing and dancing.  Prior to Andromeda, she wouldgo out to nightclubs to dance the night away.

Luke –He loves to play paintball/laser tag with a group of friends.  It’san activity he especially indulged in as a teenager.

Aleera –Skiing is her favorite and will indulge every chance she gets duringthe winter season.

Rick – Heconsiders digging for archaeological finds his favorite physicalactivity.

Rose – Sheloves rollerblading in her free time and even got a new set of rollerblades to use once she settled in Andromeda.

Erron –He enjoys fencing as well as hiking and camping, especially ingorgeous settings.

#kv7 ocs #adam shepard #amy shepard #marc shepard #zena shepard #ty shepard #valisa shepard #eliza shepard #kira ryder #luke ryder #aleera ryder #rick ryder #rose ryder #erron ryder

[nyx-baby]

Time for another fucked up dream, friends

This one went hand in hand with the post I made a while ago about the dream lady I see in my grandparents’ house that wants to kill me.

Except she wasn’t at my grandparents’, she was at my house. I’ll put a Keep Reading link here for those of you that want to read, but as a disclaimer this is going to be a little graphic.

First though, if you missed the first three encounters I had with this nightmare bitch, click the link and read my previous post about her so that you’re caught up.

http://itsemmahaybitch.tumblr.com/post/172616115441/something-happened-recently-so-i-dont-really

ALSO, I want to clarify that every story I write and post under this tag is 100% true, and is an actual recount of something that has happened to me. This is a really long post, so I apologize in advance to y’all on the off-chance that you read it.

Okay so, yes, the woman who threw the baby, and the one that beat my face against the bookshelves. She’s back, and scarier than ever.

To preface this story, I want to briefly mention that I was at my Grandparents house recently, where I felt that Presence like I usually do, but I’ve learned to ignore it because usually nothing happens. When I got home, back to mom’s house I still had a bad feeling, but I just thought that it was because of the shit that goes on there, so I just kept on ignoring. You know, like a dumbass.

Now I realize that it was the Presence looking back, but I didn’t recognize it as the same then because I was in a different setting and I was under the impression that I would only feel that specific kind of fear and overall looming darkness AT UM AND UMA’S HOUSE and not at my own.

For a few days everything was fine, some spooky feelings but no manifestations of anything. One thing that I thought was kind of weird was that I was having trouble falling asleep, which hasn’t happened since before I put up the sigils. However, the issue with that is that since I’m done with school, my sleep schedule is a little fucked anyway, so I’m still not really sure if it was causation or just correlation. Oh well.

Either way, a couple nights ago, I was actually trying to fall asleep, because I was absolutely exhausted. I was laying in bed from midnight to 7 in the morning trying, TRYING TO FALL ASLEEP and I just couldn’t.

Finally I did after the sun already came up. The first part was almost like I was watching a movie about this girl a couple years younger than me, except that the entire movie was her in her bathroom. She was covered in these painful looking pus-filled abscesses, which I somehow knew were loosely connected to some mental illness or disorder that she was slowly developing.

This whole section of the dream was just her in the bathroom, squeezing what were essentially giant pimples all over her body to reduce the pressure, and it was NARSTY. I enjoy popping pimples and stuff like that, but this was almost too much for me tbh.

Then, in that dream way that you don’t really realize is happening until you wake up, it sort of blurred into me sitting on my bed awake, except instead of my bed it was the bunkbed that I slept in before we moved, the one that I made one of my first #scarystuff posts about.

One more thing to note before I go on is my desk. It’s right next to my bed, which is in the corner, and it was these shelves that taper up, the highest of which is about as tall as the stupid bunkbed, but in real life it’s covered in bottles of paper stars and some other stuff for decoration. The point is, there really isn’t a clear inch on that top shelf, except in the dream it was, okay? This is important.

So I was laying in bed, under the blankets and everything, but the Woman’s face was there near my feet because she was straight up LEVITATING and she had her chin hooked forward on the mattress, really fucking close to my feet. The whole time she was smiling creepily and talking to me, but even in the dream I didn’t know what she was saying. It was like every word she said I heard, but immediately forgot.

Then every once in a while, she would pull her arms out and reach out for me, not like she was trying to grab me, but just trying to touch me. Every time she did this, I would crawl across the top of my desk and she would just keep reaching at me and her head would turn to follow me, then she would stop and I would move back onto the bed for some reason, I don’t know. Dream logic I guess.

Then near the end, she started singing, or at least I’m pretty sure she was. It was like when she was talking, in the dream I had no memory of her even making any noise but I was just pretty damn sure it was happening.

While she was Maybe Singing I started seeing these visions(?) of two different scenes alternating. It was really overwhelming, but I knew that one of them was something that happened in the past, and the other was something that was going to happen. Only imagine that you’re a young Luke Skywalker (bear with me) watching Revenge of the Sith on one screen, and The Last Jedi on another. Except they aren’t on separate screens at all, it’s one screen and every couple of frames it switches to the other movie for a few frames, and then back, and again and again, and on one hand you’re getting some answers, but on the other you’re getting a really heavy sense of foreboding, and no matter what you’re just really confused and kinda headachey. Fucked up, right?

Anyway, what I was seeing from the past was this couple moving into a house and adopting a little girl who gradually grew up into the girl from the beginning of the dream. What I saw for the future was me huddled on my bed against the corner of the wall screaming while the Woman was crawlling around the room on the ground shreiking and howling and throwing her body at the bed and trying to grab me and getting REAAAALLY close.

But that wasn’t all, because of course not. I assume she stopped Maybe Singing and instead started Definitely Laughing and was reaching for me again, and then I noticed that she had scars all over her face and arms that were similar to acne scars but waayyy bigger, and realized that she was the girl from the beginning. As I crawled across the desk I noticed these raised bumps on my legs and arms, a couple of which were starting to turn white, and I realized that whatever condition she had I had too.

When I realized that, she stopped floating and dropped onto the ground and at the same time the lightbulb in my lamp (which is on the opposite side of my desk from my bed) exploded. She crawled around the corver of the bed so she could see me, screamed like and animal and threw her body up at me so I jumped back onto the bed and huddled against the corner while she scrabbled around on the floor, thus completing what I had seen before, and I finally woke up at 10, so roughly 3 hours after I fell asleep.

Now, I know that I usually try to link all my dreams to something I can experience for real, but there’s so much in this one that I just don’t think that’s the case. What I do think is that I pissed off whatever lived in my grandparents’ house to the point where it followed me home and is trying to fuck me up. I don’t think the dream means anything specific, I think it’s just trying to scare me.

That being said, when I woke up the Presence was in my room with me, which if you remember, no negative energies are supposed to be able to get in my room because of my sigils, which have all worked up to this point. That is what scares the shit out of me, is that whatever is scaring me so much can get into my little sanctuary. Of course, it might have just been my mind panicking and overreacting to the nightmare itself, but I have no idea. Either way, that’s some scary shit, isn’t it?

This post got really long and I don’t really know how to close out,  just stay tuned to my descent into madness I guess lmao. Goodnight everyone.

#personal #rambling #scary stuff #maybe demons #probably not tho #honestly its probably sleep deprivation but thats not as interesting

[facebeautyhq]

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Good skin is a big part in improving your appearance. Taking care of your skin is important to making it look its best throughout the years. Here are a few tips on how to care for your skin right.

Avoid wearing too much makeup when you suffer from acne. This can make the acne or exacerbate already irritated skin. Try not to apply makeup until the acne clears up. Do not try to hide acne either.

You can make homemade mask. Then you will want to add ground orange peel to this mixture. Apply the face for 15 minutes.

Don't use your socks or gloves that are damp or wet. If you wear wet gloves or socks, this can irritate skin and cause flaking, bleeding, or eczema.

Use moisturizer after washing your face. While you might believe it to be unnecessary, it can balance the oil production in your skin. If your skin is oily and you over dry it, the skin will overcompensate creating more oil.

Your skin is affected by what you take in. For clear skin, be sure to get all the vitamins and nutrients you need. Digestion is often linked to the quality so this is certainly true in that area. One way to better digestion is by incorporating proper amounts of fiber in your diet. Your skin and digestive system will appreciate the extra fiber in your diet.

Use skin care products regularly for best results. The product will work a lot better if you use it frequently. If you're someone that has trouble remembering to do certain things, put them in an area where you will notice them on a daily basis.

There are ways to avoid symptoms of different options available to anyone suffering from age spots on their face caused by sun damage. Some of these options are dermabrasion, chemical peels and dermabrasion. These can be done by themselves or in combination with other techniques. There are nonsurgical facials which can help.

Wearing sunscreen is a simple way of taking good care of your skin. The sun can cause severe damage to the skin than any other factor. Using sunscreen is a lot of sun damage. You can also purchase a moisturizer or foundation that includes sun-blocking ingredients.

Aloe vera has been shown to help clear up old scars. Aloe vera has vitamin E and amino acids which can aid skin repair skin. Just rub in the aloe vera on your scarred tissue after you take a bath. The more recent the scar is, the more chance you have of lessening or eliminating it with applications of the lotion.

To help dry legs, your skin care routine should avoid germicidal soaps, hard scrubs and very hot water. Using germicidal soaps can eliminate the natural oils from your skin. Scrubbing harshly and using extremely hot water may damage to your skin's protective layer. Use a high quality soap with luke-warm water and gentle rubbing to avoid dry skin on your legs.

The simplest way to shield your face from sun damage is to use a moisturizing lotion that contains sunscreen.

These cells keep your skin taut and collagen. Consuming too much sugar can cause your skin to sag and develop wrinkles.

Jasmine extract makes a great skin care product for your skin. Dermatologists even recommend this natural and beneficial product.

Sonic skincare brushes for the redness caused by rosacea. This can be quite helpful for people that have this skin disease.

A powder-based sunscreen is an easy way to touch up your lotion during the day. The container it comes in is so small and can tote it around in a purse or in your pocket.

A fresh blade on your razor is always necessary when you're shaving sensitive skin. A razor that is old or of poor quality will pull the hairs and scrape your skin, old razor will scrape on the skin and irritate it. This will lead to razor burn, chafing, and painful bumps. A razor should just glide down your skin with little effort and effortless manner.

Regardless of what type of skin you have, you will look better if you take better care of it. Doing basic skin care is quick and easy, and the results will show. Use the ideas you have just learned, and don't be afraid to share your skin care success with others.

#taking good care of your skin #great skin care product

[eudoctor]

Get a bright and clean face free from Acne!

Acne is always embarrassing and frustrating. The reasons are not clear though. All those who have acne scar definitely love to get rid of it very soon.How to remove acne scar is definitely the question of the time and which could also be done with the proper and timely Skincare with Tretinoin. There are a lot of ways to remove the white heads, pimples, blackheads and acne marks on the face. Here are some of the tips that will definitely answer your question of how to remove scar. Though, when you will go through the Chemical peling with Tretinoin, the skin acnes will vanish with the peeling after applying the cream and you will be able to get a bright and acne free face.

Keep your face clean

It is reported that clean face doesn't develop acne easily unlike the oily face. So you should use face wash that is free from alcohol. Luke warm water with 2-3 drops of lemon will keep the acne way as it kills the bacteria on the face. However, you may also Buy vitamin a and apply it on your face that will keep your skin clean and shining.

Antibacterial acne cream

There are a lot of antibacterial creams available online and in a market that are known to fight against the acne. Among all of them benzoyl peroxide reduces pimple and makes the skin fairer and clearer.

Proper Medications

Retinoids are well known to remove acne. Tretinoin will help you to get rid of acne easily and so you can Skincare with Tretinoinfrom various online stores. Commonly known as Retin-A has better effects in treating acne. Other products that are helpful are azithromycin, trimethoprim and erythromycin.

Oil-free products

Acne and pimples are more common in oily skin. So, it is advisable to use oil free-face wash and cosmetics. Oily skin tends to accumulate more dirt in the oil glands resulting in the formation of acne and white heads. Cucumber is the best solution to get rid of acnes and the scar marks.

Garlic

Garlic is one of the best herbal products that can be used for the treatment of acne. Consumption of 2-3 cloves of garlic on daily basis fights against acne. You can make a paste of garlic and apply over the affected area. You can see the results in a week. Apply the past on the affected area and allow it to dry for 15-20 minutes. Rinse with warm water.

Avoid oily food

Most of the people who have a tight schedule and heavy workload, tend to eat fast and oily food. This is one of the major reasons for the development of acne. So, it is advisable to include a lot of fruits that will flush off the toxin and free radicals. Apart from this, you should drink 10-12 glasses of water daily to get better results.

Summary:

Acne scars are the filthy thing which can happen on your face. It is however recommended that you should always prefer the home or the natural remedy which will help you to treat the acne scar without any kind of side effects.

[devilofmidtownwest]

Defenders Awards 2017

Best Scene

When Karen is being super patronizing to Matt and he tells her to suck it

 Worst Scene

Really, any featuring only Danny and Colleen

 Best Fight

Luke vs. Danny

 Worst Fight

Danny vs. Elektra (the first time)

 Best Group Fight

Hallway at Midland Circle

 Worst Group Fight

Parking Garage at Midland Circle where the Hand just bailed so the plot could go on

 Saddest Fake Death

Matt

 Saddest Real Death

Stick

 Death I Should Have Seen Coming a Mile Away

Alexandra (When will I learn?)

 Amount that Marvel Needs to Dial Back the “I need you to tell me what’s going on/You wouldn’t believe me if I told you” Speeches

1000%

 Villain I Rooted for the Most

Madame Gao

 Disappointment (But Not Surprise) that Stick Failed to Kill Danny

High

 Practicality of Stick’s Decision

Also High

 1 Time I Cheered at the Screen

When Misty finally got her arm cut off (Sorry Misty)

 Biggest Tease

Maggie

 Biggest McGuffin

Dragon skeletons?!?

 Weirdest Scene

Murakami kills a bear abroad and then guts it in a Manhattan high rise apartment

 Fate of Kun’lun

After 21 hours of Iron Fist-related material, still unknown

 Best Mom

That murdered kid’s mom

 Worst Mom

Alexandra and her first daughter

 Best Dad

Jack Murdock (wow there’s a real lack of dads on this show)

 Worst Dad

Stick (but he owns it)

 Most Inexplicable Filming Location

Elektra’s burial plot in a Jewish graveyard

 Most Inappropriate Image to a New Yorker

A tall office building in Manhattan exploding, burning, and then collapsing on itself

 All I Have to Say About That

This time it WAS an inside job

 Seconds That It Takes People to Realize Danny Rand is a Bitch Ass Punk

5

 People Committing Suicide in Front of Jessica?

Of Course

 Best Non-Defender Defender

Colleen Wing

 Best Monologue

Matt talking to the kid in a wheelchair

 Worst Monologue

Bakuto talking to Colleen (all of the times really)

 Lovable Defenders Most Cool with Watching Someone Get Decapitated

All of them, apparently

 Least Blood

Sowande

 Newest Accent on an Old Character British Elektra

 How Easy It is to Kill the Five Fingers of the Hand

Super easy it seems like

 Sword I Wish Elektra Had Chosen

The Final Fantasy VII buster sword that she walked right past

 Times I said, “Nope, Nope, That’s Not Correct” About Something Asian

Only three!

 Soviet Russia’s Biggest Mistake

Building Chernobyl Reactor #4 over dragon bones. Call before you dig!

 Thought I Feel Most Guilty About

“Wow, Elden Henson’s got a lot of acne scars.”

 Best Bender

Madame Gao (Earth/Metal)

 Calmest (and Therefore Most Boring) Talk Radio Host

Seriously how does Trish even have a show?

 New York-based “People with Abilities” That Remained Uncontacted

The Avengers

 Best Place in New York to Spend Multiple Days without Food, Sleep, or a Change of Clothes and Still Look Fabulous

The Harlem Police Precinct

 Most Inaccurate Fact about New York

“Hey, at least the rent is cheap.”

#I wanted to post this last week but I decided to wait until I felt like more people had seen Defenders #defenders #repost and pass along

[restorerjourney]

Week 10: The Great Commission & experiencing God’s healing!

June 15, 2021

I realized that someone is actually reading this blog post haha! Couple people have reached out to me this week and were asking me questions or mentioning my blog post and all I thought was, “Oh...someone out there is actually reading this!” I felt encouraged because sometimes I wondered if anyone would take the time to read it. That being said, I want to say I am sorry if it seems unorganized or grammatically incorrect, but honestly I don’t have much time to work on this blog. There has been just so much to do! And only having about two weeks left before going to outreach, it’s been busier than ever. A single day would be so packed with divine appointment, prophetic words, people being touched by God, and just trying to process all that has happened. If I don’t write it all down, I know I will forget and to me that would be such a waste! Yet I am determined to do my best to update you every Tuesday so please bear with me:)

This week we went back into the rhythm of things of having a speaker come and do things lecture style. Our speaker, Jacob Hong, who actually happens to be from Virginia was one of my pastor’s mentor (Pastor Bobby)! What a small world right? It couldn’t be coincidence that we had 3 Virginians here in this DTS at this time. He is currently a pastor and teacher at Honolulu, Hawaii after doing ministry in Virginia and has a heart for North Korea. His testimony was pretty neat because I knew some of the people that he spoke about! It was also redemptive to have some time to talk to him personally since he happened to know this one pastor who spoke things apparently from God that brought a huge scar and fear from hearing God’s voice over my life. Although I knew God redeemed that past and I am no longer fearful in hearing God’s voice, it sealed the deal to hear from him that he also agreed that this pastor drifted from the gospel and spiritually abused her power. 

He then talked a lot about the history of what occurred after the church in Acts. He spoke about numerous revival movements, reformation, how protestant christianity was born, and the pentecostal movement.  Here are some highlights from his lecture that I took away from:

-“Witness” in greek = “The witness onto death”. Being a witness means you no longer care about how you will live on this earth but now your whole vision’s purpose is on how you will live your life for God’s kingdom.

-Pentecost = the Holy Spirit came on the day of Pentecost, the church was born, and the power of the Holy Spirit came down on full force on the church so that we would share the gospel of Christ.

-Reformation occurred because we focused back on God’s word.

-Truth does not change by what you believe.

-When the church changes, the world changes.

-Theology: is the study of the bible from some of the scholars in the past. So when they talk about calvinism, it is the interpretation from calvin’s interpretation of the bible. Theology is important because we need accountability from other scholars. At the same time it is important for us to study bible for ourselves. 

-We as a christians need to read the word, and as a church obey God which will overflow and change our nation. Whatever the church decides will change our history.

-William seymour, a black, half-blind, preacher who seemed like a nobody to society... God used him to create the pentecoastal movement that still occurs today. Without his obedience, the church would have been lost.

Overall I thought it was important for him to share about all these big giants of faith because it reminded me that I am not alone in my faith. They suffered and fought for the gospel and really lived a life loving Jesus with their all. Even if they lived in a different era, we are all the same in our walk as Christ followers.

Another highlight that I would like to share about this week is an event that has changed my life forever. I experienced supernatural healing. I’ve heard about it, saw it, but in my heart I still had a little unbelief. Now I am a believer. I cannot deny what I’ve experienced because it was so real. It was so life giving. It was so beautiful and on June 11, 2011 a new day began for me.

There were three physical ailments that have always been on thorn on my side for almost 13 years. I have neck arthritis, shoulder instability, and polycystic ovarian syndrome (pcos). God healed my pcos that day but more importantly I experienced spiritual breakthrough which manifested physically. 

For those who know me, I have always stressed about my pcos. For many who may not know, when I was about 7, if you read my journals, I’ve always had a deep desire to be married and to be a mom. This desire have stemmed from deep loneliness that I’ve experienced during my childhood, but in combination of having a fearful view of God. I wrote in my diary numerous times for God to  bless me with those two things. As an adolescent, I started my period late and was concern but my family told me not to worry about it. During college I would get my period irregularly and when I moved to NYC for optometry school I slowly stopped having my cycle. It would go as long as 6 months and could have been longer but I was afraid and saw a obgyn by then. She put me on the pill and told me not to worry about it. Since I was so determined to do well in school and residency, I didn’t think much of it except that when I was on this pill, I did not have a period at all. Even though the doctors said it was normal, to me that psychologically affected me. I didn’t feel like a woman. It just felt off and my mom recommended that when I was done with residency, to come home and get treated. We poured so much money on eastern and western medication, and the only success I had was by eliminating sugar, gluten, dairy, caffeine, raw veggies, and meat. All I ate was sweet potatoes, seaweed, and rice. It was social suicide for someone in their mid-twenties. After 3 months, I finally got my period but I was so traumatized by that experience, living in fear about what I ate. and how I viewed food. I just never want to go through that again. I still remember going through the scary process of ruling out endometriosis and feeling so alone. That’s when they confirmed I had pcos (which was confirmed by multiple doctors) and that there was a good chance that I could struggle with infertility. That diagnosis crushed me and I began to identify with my condition. I suffered from depression, anxiety, and hopeless. I felt I had to have the conversation with serious boyfriends during that time that I may not be able to have children. I wrestled this with God so much because I felt that it was unfair, that he would have to make me suffer like this. I started to have unbelief in my prayers because I felt whatever I asked, He would have the final say and there is nothing else I could do about it. I tried so many different combination of medications and different birth control pills, discontinuing them and restarting them because I would not get my cycle after months. Last year I finally just accepted my fate that I had to take medication and was taking Junel Fe which is a birth control pill and spirinolactone for my hormonal acne. 

When I came here to DTS, for some reason I felt this persistent spirit of not giving up asking for healing. Like the persistent widow in Luke 18 and also  seeing and hearing about so much supernatural events here, it began to stir up my faith. Every chance there was for me to receive healing, I would raise my hand. My whole team, family, and friends know that I deeply desire healing and I am kind of shameless asking about it. But since I shared a week ago when I was not healed when my team prayed for me I started to lose faith. During this time I heard about this guy name Jared who had the gift of healing and is a staff at one of the DTS. He also happens to be my staff’s neighbor which is how we got connected. I’ve reached out to him multiple times but he was so busy and would sometimes forget to reply. Still I was like that persistent shameless widow and kept reminding him. Finally we agreed on a date to pray, I just had to remind him again.

Before this happened. when people prayed for me, they would always get a word for me from the Lord to not be discouraged and to continue to wait on the Lord. I also felt convicted to trust in God’s timing and that breakthrough was close. Remember on June 9th, was the last day I was supposed to get my period? June 9th, nothing happened and I asked the Lord whether to go back on the pill and He told me to wait. I thought perhaps it wouldn’t be in a few months, but little did I know what would happen this week.

When I ran into Jared on June 11, 2011, I reminded him. That day was his 1-year-old daughter’s birthday and his family was in town. I told him that if he wanted to reschedule I completely understood. He said, “ No that’s ok! Let’s meet out here outside and it will take probably 5 minutes so let’s do it today!”. In my head I was thinking, “uhm...excuse me? 5 minutes? in public? wow you are confident..” and as I turned away he said “ Hey! You are going to be healed!” Again I was just amazed by how confident he said those words. 

When it was time to pray, I came with Esther and he came with his friend Phillip who also has the gift of healing. I had a hat on and it was a bright sunny day so we decided to go in a corner underneath the shade of a tree. I shared with them my 3 ailments and again they were just confidently saying “Hey you are gonna be healed!” Jared started to pray and he humbled himself before the Lord proclaiming that God is the healer. Jared prayed over me: “ You are a woman faith, God sees all that you went through”...then Jared prayed against striving, anxiety, that Jesus’s yoke is easy and his burden is light. He sees me as a little girl being picked up by the Father and spinning around together in joy. They prayed in tongue and Jared prayed over my ailment with a snap of his finger that it would be healed in Jesus name. That my neck and shoulders would be healed in Jesus’s name that my ovaries would be healed in Jesus’s name. Jared encouraged me to focus on my relationship with God. Jared said “Thank you that you live inside of Alicia and I pray Isaiah 40 over you that you would run and not grow weary, that you will walk and not be faint..He then asked me to put my hands on my belly and prophesied John 7 over me,  “ that out of the belly will flow rivers of living water”. As Jared prayed, Phillip said “More...More...More”. Since my eyes were closed, and I was wearing a hat underneath the shade of a tree, my vision was pretty dark ( I’m talking about physically seeing, not with my mind). This is the crazy part, that every time he said "more” I felt someone was turning on the switch in my vision and it was getting brighter and brighter, so bright I thought I was in front of the sun. I teared because this was my first time physically seeing God and I was convicted that I was being touched by God and that He was light. I was amazed and overwhelmed in God’s presence feeling so light that I almost fell over. During that exact time , Esther had a vision of a light moving really fast that went straight into my back and move inside my organs and body until it reached my womb. She saw the light moving inside my womb and my womb started to move (almost like a heart beating) and turned purple-red as if it was coming alive. Then Phillip prophesied over me and broke over word curses and self-hatred over me and prayed that I would never speak complaints or negative words over my life...that God saw me beautiful, that I am God’s sweet sweet daughter, and that I am worthy...that God heals because he loves. Phillip asked me to stretch out my hand for anything I didn’t believe in God for: I laid out my finance, future, my parents, my marriage, my entire life and every control. Phillip said everything that was being prayed over to believe it and I said yes and amen to it. He prayed that in the future to not speak any negative words over myself. Jared confirmed that it was finished and it was done and that this weekend I would get my cycle. Phillip then told Esther to be in front of me as I held out my hands and to prophesy over me. Esther prayed that I am a holy beloved bride of Christ washed and sanctified by his blood. No remnant of sin was in my life. She prayed that my heavenly body would be aligned with my spiritual body. That I am a warrior for Christ and healer. Through this process, I will help heal others, and that I am a life bearer. Esther saw old dying things in my body become filled with new life. Esther said I am lovable and not alone. God is with me in every season, walking with me in the valley, on the mountaintops, in the desert, in the green meadows, he will never leave me or forsake me. Then Philip said I am a multiplier, and that I was life giving...that today is a random Friday but today is a new day for me. Everything in my life everything that I have done is forgiven. It is finished it is done, and that I am covered by the blood of Christ. Phillip said something happened in me spiritually and it is going to manifest physically. It wasn’t my fault and I did not cause it. 

After that prayer I tested my neck and shoulders and it felt the same but I felt so much lighter in my heart. They encouraged that we should pray again next week and to take things one day at a time. I felt so encouraged and amazed by the touch of God that I’ve encountered. I had to go to the farm after to do my work duty but I kept mostly to myself just processing and praising God for all that just happened. I was amazed how easy praying for healing was for them and how they did it in publicly and not for very long. I understand now what it means when someone says that it is their gift. After work duty, Heejae wanted to share her testimony and I decided to share what has happened. After she left, I felt the need to go to the bathroom. As I walked to my dorm, I thought it was strange that I felt I was leaking. When I got to the bathroom, I had a moment where I thought maybe it a period, but I’ve had many moments like this and it wasn’t. When I checked, I saw that I had my period. TMI but it was small and brown but I knew for fact it was a period and I fell on my knees crying and praising God. I ran and told some of the girls in my team and they all rejoiced because they knew I have been struggling with this for so long. 

The next morning I had to wake up at 3am to go to Mauna Kea and when I went to the bathroom, I checked and saw that I didn’t bleed. I started to worry thinking maybe that was it, so I asked Dayoung to pray for me. I was getting worried as we hiked up the volcano that perhaps my body was too tired, maybe it was because I wasn’t sleeping enough, etc but I remembered that I needed to believe and that my faith played an important role in seeing God’s promises so I had to declare in my mind that I was healed. When I went to the bathroom after, I saw that I started to bleed again and it was normal this time. I was so joyful. Again TMI but normally when I had my period, it would be light, max 3 days and I would get some symptoms before like cystic acne, mood swings, fatigue, etc but I had no symptoms! I haven’t had one single acne break out since I stopped taking my medications coming to DTS. I joke something is in this water here but I am convinced it is the power of the Holy Spirit. I also know in my heart that Jared and Phillip didn’t happen to coincidently pray right before I had my period. I believe with my life that they prayed and God healed me. This cycle I have right now, is not light, longer than 3 days,and totally different. God restored me. Praise God right?! I still am not fully healed because of my neck and shoulders pain and we have another prayer session next Friday so please pray for complete restoration and healing! I will be bringing two other sisters who suffer neck pain too so that they could be healed!

I am so thankful and I want to give Him all the glory. I want to encourage others to ask for healing because He truly does even now. I feel like the lame who was healed by Jesus. The moment that he was healed, he couldn’t help but share this with everyone. Also Esther prophesied that I was a healer. I’ve heard this before from someone else and Heejae experienced healing when I prayed for her knee! I’ve been trying to pray for everyone as much as I could and although it is not 100% success, I believe God is cultivating this gift in me now that I have been healed. 

So yea, that was probably one of the best weeks of my life and I am so grateful. Thank you for all of those who prayed and walked through this difficult journey with me. For those who are seeking prayers and healing answered, I want to encourage you to not give up. Declare and trust in His character and believe that He wants to heal because He loves... you just have to trust in His timing. Also I am convinced that many physical ailments, not all, but many are related to things spiritually. I pray that you would ask God for discernment if there are any spiritual stronghold the enemy has your life and to continue to persistently asking for healing because the Holy Spirit lives in you. The same spirit that resurrected Jesus abides in you! So don’t give up. Be courageous. Breakthrough is almost there. God is with you in every hill and valley and surround yourself with witnesses so that God would reveal His glory and healing power over you. 

Prayer requests:

1) Again physical healing over my neck and shoulder. Please pray for Naeun and Sebin who also suffers from neck pain

2) God’s grace and more faith to cultivate my gift of healing and prophecy.

3) Direction after DTS. The options are to go to Texas and meet pastor Derek before going home, go to secondary school for business which the Lord has been pressing on my heart lately, and medical missions with YWAM ships. 

4) Preparation for our outreach to Mazatlan. That God would stretch my love for the people in Mexico and I would understand God’s heart for His people there.

Mahalo!

Alicia

[facialsbyminna]

Major Skin Problems

Major Skin Problems

Most of us do not know this fact that skin is the largest organ that our body has. It is the largest both in terms of the surface area and weight. The importance of the skin as an organ is often overlooked and we tend not to take proper care of it that leads to a lot of skin problems. Our skin plays the vital role of protecting the vital inner organs of our body. It gives protections against outside foreign agents like bacteria, dust and harmful chemicals and also helps in regulating the body temperature. Taking proper care and giving nourishment to the skin is of utmost importance, failing which we can be a target to various skin problems, few of which are discussed below.

Acne

This is one of the most commonly found skin problems that affect a lot of population throughout the world. This skin condition is created due to malfunctioning of oil glands which are present under our skin. The pores of the skin are connected to the oil glands underneath by small tubes known as follicle. When due to the malfunction of the glands this follicle gets clogged, then acnes appear on the skin. They may cause scars if not treated early with the prescription of a doctor.

Dry skin

Dry skin or xerosis is a very common skin condition characterized by a lack of the appropriate amount of water in the epidermis. Symptoms include discomfort from skin tightness and itching. To prevent dry skin , avoid harsh soaps and chemical cleansers that disrupts skin moisture levels. If untreated, dry skin may result in complications, including rashes, eczema, secondary bacterial infections, cellulitis, and skin discoloration.

Home remedies for dry skin

Treatment generally requires more frequent and regular applications of emollients and moisturizers.

Natural masks can be used to deal with facial dry skin. Apply a mask made of wheat flour, turmeric powder and mustard oil and after 30 min, wash off with luke warm water. Also consider a mask using honey and milk.

Yogurt makes an excellent cleanser with a mild exfoliating action that will remove dry skin and leave you feeling refreshed and comfortable. Its a safe exfoliant for very dry skin as it exfoliates using lactic acid, instead of scrubbing granules.

Dab on extra virgin olive oil which will eliminate dryness.

Eczema

This is considered to be a variant of dermatitis called atopic dermatitis. This skin disorder is generally characterized by dryness of skin with a feeling of itchiness and rashes on several parts of the body like face, hands, behind knees and elbows etc. There is no known definite reason for Eczema and the treatment is based on the family history and personal health condition.

Home remedies for eczema

A careful washing routine is important if you have eczema. Preferably use to warm water for baths and showers. A warm bath containing added eczema-soothing ingredients like oatmeal or baking soda can be very effective in easing itchiness and relieving pain.

Indulge in a moisturising wash as well as apply plenty of moisturiser afterwards.

Choose a gentle cleanser and avoid harsh or highly fragranced soaps.

Don’t scrub at your skin, and gently pat yourself dry before slathering on plenty of moisturiser while your skin is still damp. Moisturising skin soon after washing helps seal in moisture. Emollient creams and ointments are more effective than lotions.

Use organic coconut oil which is a highly effective moisturizer. Apply the oil on eczema patches all over the body and allow to sink in.

Herbal Eczema Treatment

Cellulitis

Cellulitis is a spreading bacterial infection of the skin and tissues beneath the skin. The bacteria Staphylococcus and Streptococcus are usually responsible for this skin condition. Sometimes cellulitis appears in areas where the skin has broken open, such as the skin near ulcers or surgical wounds. It can be treated with oral or intravenous antibiotics. It usually begins as a small area of pain and redness on the skin which spreads to surrounding tissues, resulting in the typical signs of inflammation , redness, swelling, warmth, and pain. If not properly treated, cellulitis can occasionally spread to the bloodstream and cause a serious bacterial infection of the bloodstream that spreads throughout the body.

Home remedies for cellulitis

Cellulitis can be effectively treated with oral antibiotics at home.

When undergoing treatments for cellulites, you should take lots of vegetables and fruits which are low in calories. Alternatively, you can take fresh juices made using vegetables and fruits.

Garlic, best known for anti-bacterial activities helps in destroying the bacteria causing skin infection. It has to be consumed directly or in the form oil until the infected person is cured from contamination.

Yoghurt acts on skin infection by eliminating the bacterial actions. The infected person has to consume two cups of this natural cure which increases the good bacteria count in the body and helps in building the immune system effectively.

Pineapple is the natural cure for cellulitis as it contains an enzyme named bromelain. Pineapple has to be consumed in supplement form as a part of daily diet to remove the cellulitis completely.

Water is an efficient and prominent cure against bacterial infections caused on human body. By taking large amount of water, the bad bacteria are flushed out by constant urination that decreases bad effects on skin.

Sun damage

Prolonged exposure to the the sun can induce premature skin aging, skin cancer, and many other skin changes. Many skin changes that were commonly believed to be due to aging, such as easy bruising, are actually a result of protracted exposure to the sun. Skin texture changes caused by UV exposure include thick skin in coarse wrinkles, especially on the back of the neck and thinning of the skin causing fine wrinkles, easy bruising, and skin tearing, particularly on the forearms and back of the hands.

Skin color changes caused by sun exposure are common. The most noticeable sun-induced pigment change is brown spots . Moles are usually seen in sun-exposed areas. Although it is normal to acquire new moles from childhood through young adulthood, their formation is stimulated by the sun.

Home remedies for sun damage

Wear sunblock everyday regardless of your skin color and whether it is raining or sunny. Put enough sunblock on to cover any exposed skin. Ensure that your sunblock contains both broad spectrum UVA and UVB protection to prevent sun damage.

Make a mixture of one tbsp. of freshly squeezed lemon juice and a half-cup of water. Apply to your skin with a cotton pad and let dry. Wash off with warm water after 30 minutes. Lemon juice contains natural glycolic and alpha hydroxy acids that help to gently exfoliate the superficial layer of skin cells to improve rough skin texture and uneven complexion due to sun damage.

Apply honey to your face and other exposed areas of the body as a rejuvenating mask and cleanser. Spread a thin layer onto the skin and let it sit for 20 to 30 minutes. Wash off the honey with warm water and pat the skin dry. Honey, particularly the dark varieties, contains high levels of natural, healing antioxidants that help reduce free-radical damage on the skin due to exposure to the sun, pollution and stress. They work by improving texture, tone and moisture in the skin.

Moles

Moles usually are small, round brown spots but they sometimes can be larger. They can be pink, skin-colored or black. Some are flat and smooth while some are raised above the skin like a slight bump. Most moles are normal. Atypical moles, which are seen in non-sun-exposed areas serve as an indicator that the person with these types of moles may be prone to developing melanoma, a type of skin cancer.

Psoriasis

Scaling of the skin with visible swelling along with it, is termed as Psoriasis. Psoriasis can be of many forms but most of them cause red, usually thick silver colored scales to appear on various parts of the patient’s body. These patches can cause discomfort like soaring and itching and are generally formed on the scalp, elbow, face, palm, back or feet. This ailment is a bit difficult to diagnose because of its similarity with other skin problems, the doctor may go for a microscopic examination of the skin and see the reaction of the patients to certain medicines to diagnose it.

Home remedies for psoriasis

Dietary supplements may help ease psoriasis symptoms from the inside. Fish oil and vitamin D have been reported to help some sufferers. Fish oil applied directly to the skin has also been known to work well for some.

Use products meant for sensitive skin which are free of dyes and perfumes that can irritate skin.

Applying olive or vegetable oil to scales and patches of psoriasis can lock moisture and nutrients in.

Lukewarm bath with Epsom salt, mineral oil, milk, or olive oil can soothe the itching and infiltrate scales and plaques. Moisturize immediately after your bath for double benefits.

Rashes

This is another very common skin condition, affecting a lot of people. These may be temporary in nature and may come and go with the exposure of some agents like Sun or chemicals. It is characterized by dryness and itching of skin and can affect the face, upper back, elbows, knees and feet. Sticking to the doctor’s advice of good skin care regime, and avoiding the agents that bring rashes out can be considered as solutions.

Home remedies for rashes

Apply aloe vera gel which is renowned for its soothing properties. It relieves swelling and irritation.

Oatmeal has long been known to soothe itchy and dry skin. To remedy itchy skin, fill a bathtub with warm water and one cup of rolled oats. Soak for at least twenty minutes, and rinse thoroughly.

Olive oil is another natural cure that can be applied topically to moisturize and soothe skin rashes. It will nourish the cracked and itchy skin that is common with rashes while relieving the itch temporarily.

Vitamin E, in capsule form, can be used directly on the skin. To apply, break open a vitamin capsule and apply directly on the skin as needed. This sure will soothe and nourish cracked, dry skin.

Skin Cancer

This is one of the most common form of cancer. It may be caused due to a variety of reason like chemical exposure, radiation exposure or internal body problems. Basal and squamous cell cancer are the two most common forms of skin cancer. It can affect the body parts like the face, head, arms, neck etc…

Source: Prokerala

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Beauty is an important factor for a lot of people, so people focus on it. When you convey the sense that you like who you are, they will hold you in high regard. Read this article for strategies on how to stay beautiful from the inside out.

Always remember that exfoliating your face a few times per week!

It is crucial to apply moisturizer on the face. Even those individuals with oily skin needs to be moisturized. Make sure to use one that has an SPF included.

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Baking soda is a great home solution for making your hair! Mix a little bit of baking soda and shampoo in with your hand. Then you need to just wash it out of your hair as you would usually do. This helps restore your hair.

TIP! These processes open up your follicles, leaving skin vulnerable. This can also cause severe irritation to your skin.

Have some Vitamin E on hand. There are so many ways to use this healing vitamin. It can keep your skin healthy and soft. Vitamin E can be used on your cuticles to keep them from splitting and special creams fortified with the vitamin will soften the cuticles.

Use a “hot spray” on your wet hair dryer. This spray, which big-box retailers like Target and Wal-Mart carry, can be found at stores such as Wal-Mart or Target. It locks in moisture and smells wonderful.

Water can help to purify and detoxify your skin from the inside out, and this action provides you with beautiful and clear skin throughout the day.

Don’t take scalding hot water in your showers or baths. Hot water will enlarge your pores and lets natural skin oils escape.You will then wash them away. This should also save you money on your utility bills.

TIP! You can stretch the usefulness of your foundation by mixing it with your moisturizer. Beyond extending the life of the foundation, it will give you an attractive glow, rather than a caked-on, heavy look.

Do you find your nails get easily chipped and scratched after each manicure? A good top coat will keep your manicure. Be sure you don’t confuse it with clear nail polish.Purchase top coat for this purpose.

Drink some milk each day to help with your appearance. Research indicates that a glass of milk each day can help your skin and your bones. Milk has a lot of protein that can build muscle. It will also help you shed some weight. Milk is a necessity to keep your body beautiful.

TIP! Incorporate exercise into your daily life. You will stay youthful-looking and healthy by moving around.

Use cucumbers or rosewater to prevent dark eye circles that are dark. These both have natural properties that lighten the skin and cool your eyes. Dip a cotton pad into rosewater or cucumber juice; lay down and place the pads on your closed eyes, and leave the pad over your eyes for 15 minutes.

Avoid using conditioner use if your hair is particularly fine. You really only use it one or two times per week. Conditioner weighs hair down and make it look dull. If you want to keep a natural, shiny look, go easy on the conditioner.

TIP! To help keep your skin in good condition, try to use luke-warm water while bathing and showering. Your natural oils will escape if there is hot water on your pores.

The big difference between people who have an attractive and well-groomed appearance and people who lack this refined presentation. Once you become informed on the appropriate self-care methods, it makes it much easier to care for yourself.

Eye drops can add a little sparkle in your eye. Keep a bottle handy like in your desk at work or the car glove compartment and use only as directed.

Dental care should also be apart of your regular beauty as more traditional aspects.You will be a more successful in what you want to do.

To reduce facial puffiness from the inside out, try putting some ice in your mouth. Then splash your face with cold water, and you will see dramatic improvements in just a few minutes.

TIP! You can make your own alcohol-free mouthwash by combining peppermint oil with purified water. Put a drop of peppermint oil in for each ounce of water.

As you get up in years, you will notice the latest fashion trends and color palettes, but don’t just follow all of them. Your skin tone and hair are changing. You will find that there are colors that are good for you now; even though, or a color that used to look good may no longer be appealing.You should always utilize flattering colors, and steer clear of colors that are not complimentary.

If you love face masks, but just don’t have the time or energy to go to a spa, make one at your house. An egg mask is a face mask. Use the whites of an egg white as your face to create a mask to tighten pores. Apply this mask onto your face for no longer than five minutes and rinse. Egg whites have proteins that assist in restoring the moisture content.

TIP! If your skin is less than perfect, select a matte blush instead of a shimmer bush. Shimmering blushes can accentuate flaws, including scars, moles and acne.

Avoid alcohol, smoking, and alcohol. Foreign or toxic substances can age your skin faster and make you look older. Look at people who use these substances heavily to find the motivation to avoid them.Find other ways to create enjoyment for yourself, and you will retain your youthful appearance for a longer time.

A secret that supermodels use that is not well-known is they sleep with their backs. Sleeping on your face for eight hours each night causes puffy and sleep wrinkles. Your face will bounce back in no time if you are still young.However, as we age, these wrinkles and puffy look that you get from sleeping on the side or on your stomach can become permanent. Get into the habit of sleeping on your back, and you will protect your face.

Beauty does not have to cost a leg. Even though it could be tempting to buy some fancy facial serum, it’s possible to get quality products at reasonable prices.

It’s annoying to find little air bubbles after painting your nails. To avoid the formation of these types of bubbles, do not put a lot of polish on your brush before putting the color on your nails. You will also apply polish slowly. It may take more time to do, but your nails will end up looking a lot better.

TIP! Decrease the puffiness of your eyes by applying a thin potato slice to them. Keep a slice of potato on the affected area for 10-20 minutes.

If you take proper care of your hair and skin, and put your focus on nutrition and exercise, you will feel more beautiful. The advice you have just read will, if applied correctly, have you looking beautiful in no time at all.

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