#always kerejean

[dayurno]

do u have any thoughts on kevin day and pet names…… unfortunately i can never quite picture him using them in my own writing but every time someone else writes him saying them im like Yeah :))) ultimately i think he would just steal whatever his partner calls him mostly but im curious to hear ur opinions on this topic dr dayurno

DR. DAYURNO well i have them in the sense that i don't think kevin would use them....... i think at best you can convince him of a nickname of some kind (re: nicky and not nicholas, thea instead of theodora, matt instead of matthew) but it has to be 1. widespread 2. not something you come up with just for him. these are real rules he would set. for example i don't think you could waterboard a 'jer' for jeremy out of kevin. he'd say 'drew' only very severely drunk or very severely tired and it's less of a nickname and more of a slurring :)

the thing about kevin that i really believe is that he just has the teacher's temperament and especially the teacher's voice so i can't see him using nicknames because the way i hear it in my mind's voice he's really bodying those syllables when he says someone's name. do you understand what i mean. i think kevin speaks clearly and at length like he's giving a lesson at all times so of course he's using full names. i need an hour long clip of him just pronouncing names from the trilogy. nathaniel. theodora. moreau. nicholas. tetsuji. UGH!!!!!!!!!! i know he's bodying those vowels

i will say though i think it can depend on the context! while i can't see it being used in common day to day conversation there are special moments where kevin day's glacial heart is known to thaw a little. this has nothing to do with my own desire for him to call jean sweet boy

#asks #kevin #kevin is seriously sooooooooo annoying i love him but come on. would it kill you to say baby #in my kerejean jeremy is always calling him pet names and kevin calls him by his first name like its jeremys funeral #hes NOT hearing it for the boy. hes NOT giving the boy a hand at all #anyway hes terrible hes really awful kevin is not the kind of person who should date anyone #its hard being this beautiful

[figuringthengsout]

I finally understood why I find the idea of love-triangles-turned-polycules much more appealing than the original intention of having to choose. And it's the possibility of a built in enemies-to-lovers relationship with a front row seat on all the juicy development thanks to the third point of the triangle knowing and loving the other two.

#and of course the bi panic sprinkled on top #name a love-triangle that wouldn't be better as a polycule #you can't #tropes #roba mia #writing #also I'm looking at #kerejean #but I'm always looking at kerejean

[jeanvaljeancheri]

Here are my two favourite jerejean fics as well as other favourites of mine, all in no particular order!

My two all time fav jerejean fics

Chasing the Night to See the Stars

Jean Moreau comes to the Trojans a broken man. The Trojans, for their part, decide that broken does not mean unlovable.

I have so much to say about this fic, I almost added screenshots of the notes I took while reading (seriously I genuinely had to hold myself back 😭)

Like coach Rhemann? The books? And Galaxy's watch? How am I ever supposed to move on from this.

Sixteen hours

started out with a kiss, how did it end up like this (affectionate)

Jean and Jeremy secretly start dating in their final year at USC.

I don't even know how to describe this fic. Their love is just so delicate and gentle and caring and soft and everything.

The ski trip actually owns my heart.

Other favs

A Little Illumination

Jean's a lonely firefighter, and Jeremy teaches kindergarten. Everyone learns something about themselves.

The Care and Keeping of Jean Moreau

Don’t panic. Call Kevin Day.

Jean has always been something of a black box. Whereas Riko Moriyama and Kevin Day spent so much of their childhoods at Evermore in the spotlight, the details of Jean Moreau’s personal life have been kept largely in the dark. In post-game interviews, he’s always blended into the monolith of Ravens standing behind Riko. But until Kevin called a couple weeks ago, you thought you at least had a general impression of Jean Moreau: an absolute nightmare of a backliner, with the ruthless ambition and arrogance expected of any Raven — especially one marked for Riko’s so-called Perfect Court.

The person waiting for you in baggage claim at LAX is like someone else entirely.

Do’s and don’ts for rehabilitating an ex-Raven, by Jeremy Knox.

love looks better in colour

"Colours, like features, follow the changes of the emotions."

Jeremy Knox is twelve years old when his soulmark appears. Nothing after that is easy.

a bicycle made for two (or three)

The other hindrance was due to the fact that Santa had been very generous this year, which left Jean standing on a patch of sidewalk he’d kicked clear himself, holding his four year old daughter’s hand and wondering how he was going to get all of their stuff plus the Pink Unicorn Princess Dream House up four flights of stairs without something breaking.

Golden State

"Yeah … about that …" Jean is glaring down at his phone like it is covered in slugs, lips curled downwards. "Kevin texted. He is bringing Neil Josten with him."

"What?" Jeremy blinks, taken aback. "Why?"

Jean shrugs, shoulders stiff. "He didn’t say. Just ..." he hands his phone over, opened to a thread of messages. The last one is from an hour earlier. Jean had asked about the time Kevin’s flight comes in, the answer is a curt

Saturday, 2.30pm. Neil is coming too.

Or, Two ex-Ravens, a Fox and a Trojan meet up for Vacation. They have a lot of things to work through, but maybe it will turn out better than they expect.

Becoming A Sugar Baby To The Husband Of My All-Time Favorite Exy Player?!??

Jeremy Knox, otherwise known as… Jean Moreau’s accidental sugar baby?

After sustaining an injury on the court, Jeremy opts to take a semester break to studying abroad in France. There, he’s taken under the wing of Jean Moreau, otherwise known as exy star Kevin Day’s best-kept secret: his husband.

Sooo this is actually kerejean but I couldn't resist adding it on :)

#jerejean #kerejean #fic recs #Jerejean fic recs #aftg fic rec #aftg #aftg trilogy #ao3 #aftg fic #all for the game #angst with fluff #The trojans #jeremy knox #jean moreau #tfc #Trc #Tkm #friends to lovers #ptsd #angst with comfort #hurt/comfort #andreil #the nest #slow burn #neil josten #soulmates

[knickknacksandallthat]

hey I know you said you were thinking about posting around April

Do you have a date in mind?

if not it’s perfectly ok we’ll be waiting as long as you need for the sun and moon ☺️

ahhh, anon! This is a loaded question, lol, not that you would know that. But here is the conclusion that I have come to, after many, many shifts, moves, outlining rounds, trial and error, etc.

I have unfortunately decided that I have enough material for two fics.

In some ways, it was a little silly of me to think I could squeeze Jerejean's POV all into one fic when I had the material of both DON & DBD to work with. But here we are. After cutting three chapters altogether (THREE anon!!) and doing my best to cut the other chapters ruthlessly, I'm still looking at about 60K words, unfinished, and I haven't even touched DBD's timeline yet.

So, although I reserve the right to change my mind, I've decided instead of publishing Once In a Blue Moon, I will first be uploading Place in the Sun - a fic focusing on Jerejean's relationship through their time at USC. And yes, my goal is still to publish it in April. (Wish me luck, anon 😭😭)

Now I have to be clear since the timing is sensitive. For better or worse, I have established Jeremy's and Jean's characters in this AU with the limited canon information I had before TSC. Once TSC is published, these characters will likely conflict with what Nora has decided, but I won't be changing them. Where canon fits into the plan, I'll look to include, but the family members I've made up for them, friends, agents, personality quirks, etc., etc., I'm going to keep true to the AU I've built. It is what it is at this point, and though I feel somewhat awkward about it since I've tried to keep their characters close to canon, I'm very proud and happy with the A Falling Star series. I'd like to finish Kerejean's stories and do them justice as I've always planned to.

This in no way diminishes my excitement for TSC - I'm beyond thrilled that Nora has decided to give us canon Jean, Jeremy, and all the Trojans. It's going to be amazing and devastating and everything we've hoped for, I'm sure. But I have to be fair to the fic I've created as well.

So....there we have it, anon. Hope that answers your question. 😅

#literally pray for my soul anon #this has been quite the uphill battle #jerejean has been fighting me the whole way #but only because they had so much to say #and so much of Jean's trauma to get through #that I literally couldn't speed through it #it didn't feel like I was doing either of them justice #so.... yeah #Place In The Sun #here we goooo #jean moreau #jeremy knox #jerejean #kevin day #kerejean #a fallen star #my works #fic asks #lovely people #thanks for the ask anon!

[fallenstarzz]

can u talk more about wips 2 and 5 thank you <3 im so curious - dayurno

Omg @dayurno hi....

And I absolutely can!

#2 is what I call my Raven scandal fic. It's gonna be set in 2015, so seven years into Kevin and Jean's pro carreer, and I'm gonna go ahead and already call it non-TSC compliant because I have a very specific vision for what the future in this verse looks like. Anyway, the point is, an article about the female presence in Exy sparks a massive exposé on the Ravens and Tetsuji's abusive coaching as a whole, including very detailed accounts of what life on the Nest was like. Kevin and Jean, who are both the most famous ex-Ravens on the major leagues and trying very hard to leave the past in the past, are then very unwillingly dragged into the spotlight (and back at each other's lives) as people start to demand their sides of the story. To add insult to injury, Kevin was already in the middle of a personal crisis upon receiving the news he might not be able to play for very much longer due to his growing health issues, which also does not help the fact he feels like he is getting replaced in Exy and public counciosness by a newbie striker he was kind of strong-armed into mentoring (her name is Celia Knight and I love her very much. You also best BELIEVE I am using those puns). And that is not even mentioning the pressure from the Moriyamas. So, a very bad time is being had all around. But everything is maybe sort of going to work out in the end. Probably.

#5 is a very fledgling WIP but still very near and dear to my heart. It's a kerejean gothic romance AU, wherein due to being accused of theft, a recently fired Jeremy Knox can only find employment in the decrepit and isolated Evermore Hall, an estate owned by the eccentric Mr. Riko Moriyama. Evermore is a very strange place, starting with the fact that it has a extremely small staff who all appear to absolutely hate each other; the groundskeeper, Mr. Moreau, seems to not be allowed to enter the main house; and if the footsteps he hears coming from the attic and the figure dressed in white Jeremy is always getting a glimpse of are any indication, the place is also haunted. (That is to say, yes, I have at last attic wifed Kevin Day). I'm having a lot of fun working on it, but because I'll take a while to write it and it's set on Jeremy's POV, I'm gonna wait for TSC to roll around before actually dedicating time to it, so I can get his personality and some background details to the AU to be more accurate.

#asks #my wips #kerejean #kevjean #also finally giving Riko his gothic villain moment is a fucking blast. #5 is a very fun time. for me. the boys are also struggling in that one #but that's par for the course here on fallenstarzland

[kazoo-the-demjin]

23. ship you've unwillingly come around to

i'll answer for aftg, i assume it's for aftg it's the king's portion of my fandom rant

A couple, actually. Like Kandreil. Kerejean. Kevin+Jean. Jean+Jeremy. I actually hadn't thought about some of them much, but im pretty sure i was always weird with kandreil. But im fine now, some of the fics are like real good and make it make a lot of sense. so im cool with it. Kevin+Jean...I think i read one fic that included it, and it wasn't so bad either?? i've been pretty indifferent to those more or less, but now i don't mind some of the content.

#asks #anon asks #aftg #tay shit #tay.aftg

[fictionalexistences]

all of my ot3+ rarepairs start bc my 'first' ships are usually underrated/not popular and my multishipping ass is super indecisive

#ot3 #ot4 #ships #inotanzen #matsuhanaiwaoi #kerejean #always kerejean #zhuilingyizhen #zhuilingyi #my multishipper heart #multishipper #trying to post more on my main

[dayurno]

pacing around my room motioning widely towards my pinboard and when you look at it its just this chart of me trying to figure out the kerejean dynamics of the fic im planning

#jean paying the tithe of half a boyfriend to harem master kevin day #just joking but ive had some time to enjoy them lately #yes cuties i read niknak22s in the light of day rest assured thank you for sending asks about it #“why does jeremy see kevjean as baby birds” vulnerable and gentle . easily spooked. #“why does jean see jeremy as his best frienemy” because he is too afraid to say the other bigger word #“why is kevin jeremys nagging wife” thats his job #txt #kerejean #for how kevin felt about jean i thought about putting “i will always love you” from the beatrice letters but #i thought it too niche #so just imagine that there ifit helps #favorite person is just a wide term for how he feels about jean but we dont have time to unpack all of that.

[figuringthengsout]

currently…

@bloody-wonder thank you for tagging me!!

Current time: almost 11 am

Current activity: sorting through all of these tag games 

Currently thinking about: if this is just going to be a summer downpour or the end of the world

Current favorite song: Don’t sit down cause i moved your chair - Arctic Monkeys

Currently reading:  A conspiracy of kings - MW Turner

Currently watching: honestly? Technically Demon Slayer because i promised, but i can’t really get into it for how much i try, so I’m watching Beef on netflix

Current favorite character: i’m quite enjoying the two main characters in beef

Current wips: a third part for my kerejean au and/or the kandrew fic i’m always thinking about 

Tagging @bookish-moony @midnight-sun16 @miidnightraiin @notesofadelfa @siriuslyarrogant @batri-jopa and whoever wants to do it!  

#roba mia

[codename-adler]

Hey! So I saw someone ask you for kevaaron recs and I saw the ones you recommended. I have read like more than half of those and I really like your taste (especially the one on Instagram, that one's great). So, I wanted to ask if you would give some of your favorite jerejean recs, since you also ship them. I don't have a problem with explicit scenes btw, but I don't prefer kerejean (I am sorry if that doesn't suit with you, but it's just not my thing)

This will be an honor and a pleasure!

All of these can be found on ao3, as they are from my personal bookmarks of Jerejean fics (12 in total, you can also find them regrouped on my dashboard @ codename_adler on ao3, just put the Jeremy Knox / Jean Moreau tag to filter down your research!)

I should also mention that these are all pretty long, triggering, explicit, mature and more or less canon compliant, considering how little we know in the books. To me, Jerejean is about healing and mending and finding solace in each other. If you're looking for something more... bright and AU-ish and short & sweet, I'm... yeah, not the right gal to ask. But please give these a shot, they are all so brilliant and beautiful!! ALSO, any Jerejean fic without Laila and Alvarez is lacking that quality content. I said what I said.

Alright, come on now!

Jerejean Fic Recs

Marrow Without Bone - exyfexyfoxes

First AFTG fic I ever read, first Jerejean fic I ever read, first ao3 fic I ever read... My first love. Always and forever in my heart.

(19 chapters, 79k, completed, M + TW + Explicit)

. When they laid Riko’s body to rest, the only thing Jean could think about was Kevin Day. Kevin Day, Castle Evermore, and the fragile blades of grass near his feet. He thought he must’ve been imagining their brightness, the absolute intensity of the iridescent neon bright fucking green of them.

Riko was dead.

-

'The Ravens never scouted me,' said Jeremy. He was bouncing his leg under the table. 'Didn’t you know why?' ''

playing on - flybbfly

Oh my god, they were roommates, but make it Jerejean with a bucket of angst, feels, trauma and sexual tension. So long. So slowburn. Yet never enough.

(31 chapters, 142k, completed, M + TW + Explicit)

(this one is also one of two fics that can only be accessed by registered users, make to have an ao3 account to read!)

" "Who knew California Golden Boy Jeremy Knox could play dirty?”

Jeremy grins. “Best kept secret on the west coast. Told you there was a western division striker who could dispossess you.”

“On a practice court, maybe," Jean says. "Try to get it away from me during a game.”

Jeremy leans back, bracing himself on gloved hands. “Luckily, I won't ever have to.”

In which Jean Moreau and Jeremy Knox play exy, share a dorm room, and accidentally insult each another a lot. "

philtatos - lydjah

A Jerejean getting together and healing fic with references to TSoA? It's more likely than you think. Hurts more than you think, too.

(5 chapters, 21k, completed, M + TW)

" Helping Jean Moreau heal is a game Jeremy Knox feels the stakes are too high to even consider the thought of losing. Jean’s first game as a Trojan against Edgar Allan feels like even higher stakes. Falling in love with Moreau - well, those are the highest stakes of all.

“You are his Achilles’ heel,” Laila whispers, in the dark, and her words bleed straight into the empty places in Jeremy’s heart. "

Quicksilver - lydjah

Alternate POVs between Jean and Jeremy, and so, so much love.

(5 chapters, 21k, completed, M + TW)+ Non-explicit sex)

" Jean’s first month at USC is nothing but darkness. Of course, he is used to this. The only colour Jean can anchor himself to in that time is Jeremy Knox’s bright, golden hair.

Fucking martyr, Jean thinks in savage French. "

Saturday Sun - bamboo_astronaut (A_Lesbian_With_Pink_Hair)

Setting beloved characters on the path to healing is its own form of therapy. I'm not even joking.

(1 chapter, 32k, completed, M + TW + Explicit)

" Jean Moreau arrives at USC bruised and battered, and Jeremy Knox is determined to help him heal from his painful past and welcome him to the Trojans with open arms. "

between hoping and believing - cryptickidprem

A soulmate AU!!!

(16 chapters, 47k, completed, pretty G-rated, slight TW bc duh it's Jean)

" Jean convinced himself a long time ago that he doesn't have a soulmate. Or maybe he just wants to believe that. Things would be easier if he was destined to be alone. It will at least hurt less when he inevitably winds up that way anyway.

And then there's Jeremy, who's been dreaming of meeting his match for years. For some reason, Jeremy seems determined to convince Jean that sometimes he might actually be able to have the things he hopes for, and that soulmate or no, Jean Moreau has people who will stick with him. "

Unholy Revelation - the_oxfordcomma

Brace yourselves. This isn't pretty. This isn't nice. But. Doesn't mean it's not worth it.

(1 chapter, 6k, completed, VERY M + TW + Explicit)

" Jeremy didn’t see the approaching Ravens. He was chattering away with Kevin and Matt Boyd, dazzling grin still in place from an hour ago when he’d climbed the stage to accept the award on behalf of his team for the final time. Although everyone in the room had known the Trojans would win, Jeremy still lit up with pride at the announcement, eyes sparkling as he squeezed Jean’s hand under the table. Jean had squeezed back.

Of course the Ravens would try and cast their shadow on the brightest thing in the room. "

Coupure Électrique - lscar123

The only uncompleted fic I'd recommend (last updated in 2017), although the last chapter ends in a way that could be a valid ending, which is why I'm putting it here anyways. The French is cringy but because the rest is so good it deserves a shot.

(21 chapters, 58k, incomplete, M + TW + Non-explicit sex)

" Jean and Jeremy spend the holidays together and learn more about each other than they ever could have imagined. "

Shield for a Heart - neilskey (spellitwithyourpeas)

Oh, the ansgt. Oh, the slowburn. Oh, my heart.

(16 chapters, 55k, completed, M + TW + Explicit)

" “It’s your choice, but you’re rotting away in here, Jean and no matter what she says, you can’t live in Abby’s spare bedroom forever. Time to start fighting again.”

Kevin’s hard and commanding tone was no surprise. The softness had been beaten out of him around the same time as Jean.

“What if I don’t want to anymore?”

Maybe it was because he had been half hidden in shadows-Jean had kept the shades drawn, but light still seeped in the cracks- but Jean thought he had seen something akin to understanding paint Kevin’s cool expression. “He’s gone. You survived. Play or don’t, it’s up to you, but you need to get out of this fucking house.” // Jean's first year at USC. Jeremy falls hard, Jean comes around eventually. "

He Could Taste the Stars - subtlehysteria

Yeah, there's a happy ending. But first, pain!

(25 chapters, 48k, completed, M + TW + Explicit)

" I am a Trojan. I go to USC, Jeremy Knox is my roommate, he has blue eyes, I have grey –

Jean recollected himself. Those were unimportant details. So why couldn’t he get the thought out of his head?

Jean is still adjusting to being a Trojan, Jeremy tries to help Jean open up to his new team. "

I Guess I Like You Like You - lazarusthefirst

This one goes pretty quickly into what matters and we like it like that.

(1 chapter, 7k, completed, M + TW + Explicit)

" ‘Even if it’s just sleeping, I’d rather do it in your room.’ "

Ask the Messenger - Metis_Ink

Second soulmate AU! But this one is very heavy... Made me cry. I cannot stress enough how sad and triggering this one is, even though it ends okay. Please be careful.

(5 chapters, 33k, completed, VERY M + TW + Explicit)

" Jeremy Knox and the soulmate.

Guest starring: Exy, a transfer student, generalized anxiety, older sisters, drunk lesbians, bread, cake, a shed, the beach, the absence of Hennessy, Star Wars, Renee Walker, self-taught smooth talking, gratuitous French, No. 1 Trojans fan Kevin Day, relationship drama, general drama, the power of Friendship, questions, answers, team spirit!, and, of course, romance. "

AND THERE YOU GO!

#jerejean #jerejean fics #jeremy knox #jean moreau #aftg #aftg fic #aftg fanfic #all for the game #usc trojans #exy #fic rec

[knickknacksandallthat]

do you think you’ll give Jeremy or Jean a pov in the story or is it strictly Kevin’s?

Anon! It's like you know me! Have you been peeking into my WIPs???

My plan has always been for this to be a five part series. The first three fics are Kevin telling us the main story of how they get together. The next fic, though, is definitely Jeremy and Jean's to own.

After we officially earn the kerejean stamp, I want to go back and show certain scenes through J/J's eyes. There are things to explain, and new scenes/moments between the three to unveil that I think help flesh out their characters in this universe, and round out the relationship so that you understand why certain choices were made.

(Plus then we all get to wallow in the angst and pining again so...why not, right?)

There may be additional oneshots or ideas that I've been tossing around too - it all depends on whether I have enough time and motivation to get to them. I really love this au, though, so I'm hopeful inspiration will carry me through. We'll see, I guess.

Thanks for the ask, anon! Hope this is good news for you lol!

#timeeeeeee #why art thou mine greatest enemy?? #gimme some of that jean and jeremy goodness #also if it could write itself that'd be great #kevin day #jeremy knox #jean moreau #in the light of day #a fallen star #aftg #all for the game #my works #fic asks #lovely people

[thewickeddevil]

A Study In Jean Moreau

(tw: mentions of Jean's past, violence, mental health and suicidal thoughts/intention to die. let me know if there's something else)

ok, so, i say all the time that Jean Moreau is my favorite and comfort character in All For The Game (i know. it literally hurts but also brings me joy sometimes) and i would literally kill for that man. so, that said, i think too much about him and, consequently, i have too many hcs about him. on request, i will now do what i'm gonna call A Study In Jean Moreau

(my beta reader and best friend helped me a lot with this. thanks @jostenrun)

i'll start with this quote from one of my kerejean fics (https://archiveofourown.org/works/26146540)

During Jean's first four months at USC and playing with the Trojans, he would always ignore Jeremy and put a frown on his face whenever he was in the same place as him. It obviously wasn't the best of strategies to put distance between himself and all the Jeremy glow, but it looked exactly bad enough to work.

Still, Jeremy was all pompous and charming looks at him, always smiling and being polite even though he received much less in return. It pissed the shit out of Jean.

He was used by the Ravens for many years, treated exactly like the exchange item he had been, just possession and obliged to follow lines and lines of rules too strict even for how he should breathe.

Riko was violent, the Ravens were cruel, the Moriyama family was wrong and he needed to repeat this to himself on a daily basis to be able to just keep going.

Back at the beginning of those days, many times he would fight back until he was taught that it was only worse. Many times he would beg until he realized that it encouraged Riko more than it prevented him. Many times he would cry until he was taught that it was wrong.

He would often bleed.

He would often wish to bleed until there was nothing left in his veins, no thoughts in his brain, no air in his lungs, no words on the tip of his tongue—

And he would often try to do just that on his own.

That was his daily life for a long time. Evermore was what he knew, the Moriyama family was who he belonged to and all of that was for what he served. That was it.

How was he supposed to know back then that suddenly overly nice twenty-eight other people would replace all of that with magnificence?

How was he supposed to know that they wouldn't look at him with disgust whenever he accidentally let a curse in French slip away?

How was he supposed to know that the Trojans had complete freedom within the team, instead of having to walk in pairs like the Ravens?

How was he supposed to know that Jeremy wasn't going to hit him whenever he made a mistake?

Or how would he know that Jeremy never considered anything that he made a mistake?

It was all a very big break from reality and so, so suddenly. Jean felt confused at first. Lost, wrong, out of place, stupid and scared.

And Jeremy was always determined to be the best he could be. Jeremy was safe.

Until Jean felt comfortable, confident, fine, and satisfied. He was someone instead of something and he really felt like that.

i think Jean would take years to relearn how to live instead of surviving. sometimes he would fail at that, but so many failures can only lead to success eventually.

he really didn't want to keep playing exy after everything, he doesn't think exy is good at all and trauma made him hate it, but he needs it because of the deal with Ichirou. fortunately, the Trojans are a team big enough to put him in the background for a while, to give him a little rest. but he knows he can't relax too much

he starts therapy. he needs it badly and it takes time for him to really be able to do it, but Jean was never anything but strong, and when he sees the chance to finally heal he knows that, despite how tired he is, despite how many times he wonders if it's worth it to keep going, he needs to grab that and at least try. just one more time. he never wanted to work for anything in his life because nothing was important before, but now he thinks that maybe things are changing

the Trojans get a dorm exclusively for him at first, because they don't want Jean to force himself to share space with someone he doesn't know and still doesn't trust. they want Jean to have his own space and feel safe before anything. he needs that solitude and he knows that it doesn't mean loneliness because his team will always be just a call away from him

he relapses sometimes. days without taking basic care of himself and without getting up from bed, and he no longer remembers whether he’s alive or not. sometimes he's able to call his therapist when that happens, but sometimes he isn't

this is how he gets into the habit of learning poetry. and eventually, writing poetry. he needs a coping mechanism and words seem to be safe enough to float around in his mind and make space in his core

(French poetry that Kevin always dissects for him and tells about the history behind the period in which those texts were written, or about the authors of each text)

the process is slow but it’s progress nonetheless

so, we know about therapy, about not being easy, about difficulties and things happening slowly during the healing process, now let's talk about the little details when things finally start to work out positively. when the best part of Jean's life finally begins

he finds out that his eyesight isn't bad only because of the beatings he took in the nest, and finds it ridiculous when Jeremy offers to help him buy glasses because, according to him, all the glasses Jean likes make him look like a middle-aged man that curses people for fun. Jean doesn't hate it though

Jean learns how to swim and likes it more than he thought he would. he likes the fluidity and movements of the liquid around his skin, how he cuts the water with his body when moving around and how it doesn't hurt him, and he just feels light

Jean likes nutella and chocolate with nuts, because Jeremy used to give it to him after nightmares or difficult days, and it became a comfort food for him (something he wasn’t even allowed to eat in the nest)

Jean's musical taste is a big mess of R&B, soul, pop art, folk, dark pop... he likes artists like Lorde, Aurora, Marina, Sigrid, Sleeping at last and the list goes on

Before he left France, Jean's family had a farm and he was responsible for harvesting fruits and vegetables there. this is one of the last memories he has about France, so he likes to harvest fruits and vegetables whenever he has the chance in the US

Jean loves to read fantasy books. he is a hufflepuff and part of cabin 6 in camp half-blood (children of Athena)

he likes geography. pedology, topography and weather are his favorites. he likes to look at the sky and know how to name climatic phenomena regardless of where in the world he is

(he also likes history and sociology, but only because he can hear Kevin and Jeremy — respectively — talking for hours and hours about those two subjects)

he hates biology

he absolutely hates croissants, tea and coffee. in the morning he always drinks juice or chocolate milk (the latter is Jeremy's fault)

the first time he willingly got wasted on alcohol, he, Sarah and Laila woke Jeremy up in the wee hours of the night while singing in Spanish (Jean barely knows Spanish). he passed out after that and woke up the next day in his room. his first thought was that he was fine even though he lost control of himself around other people, and he cried because of that. Jeremy was concerned because he thought he was crying from a headache or something related to a hangover

Jean can never find shoes his size in conventional stores because he's very big (fucking tall, muscular but not too much, with large shoulders and hips, and eventually a tummy) and, consequently, his feet are also big. he needs to have it personalized and he completely hates it

he loves dogs but is easily scared by them. he couldn't get out of the dorms for almost an entire day after Jeremy's mom's dog barked too loud and it scared Jean. he felt guilty and didn't want people to be mad at him for being so scared of a simple dog

he loves cats though, and after some time into therapy, he adopted a service cat. Kevin and Jeremy always joke about it looking like a replica of Jean himself

Jean doesn't understand the purpose of MMA competitions, because he doesn't like violence and thinks martial arts should be only for self-defense, so he doesn't really understand why people choose to compete over something so aggressive

he also doesn't like the violence in exy, but he forgives because, at least, violence is not the main goal of the sport, but to score points

he learns to draw and starts to open art commissions on the internet. this is his first job and he's proud of it because it was something he achieved by himself

Jean and Jeremy fell in love on the beach

Kevin and Jean take time to forgive each other, especially Jean. the broken heart Kevin left in Jean hurt more than being abandoned by his parents. he suffered from it for years but he didn't really want to blame Kevin. he also knew Riko, after all. he knew how capable of driving someone insane Riko was. it didn't make things easier or less painful though. Kevin and Jean took time, but they never loved each other less

Kevin and Jean fell in love for the second time (the time they could, the time they were allowed) after one of the matches in which their teams were rivals

Jean is very picky for food consistency, and he hates ketchup and mayonnaise for that. he insists all the time that if people knew how to season the food well, they wouldn't need those condiments

(he secretly loves Dijon Mustard though)

Jean was born on 08/31. he’s a virgo

plushies are the first resource that Jean uses when he feels alone but is unable to be around anyone at the moment, so he unconsciously starts making a collection of them. they're all small, except for two that Kevin and Jeremy gave him and are, respectively, a fox and a red and gold trojan. he eventually distributes his plushies to children in local orphanages but keeps those two to himself out of sheer emotional attachment

he doesn't stop suffering because of his trauma throughout his life, but he learns to deal with it. that's the point of everything. he never thinks he will magically forget or get over it, but now he is in a different place in his life and he can start working his way to be the best version of himself he can. he doesn't fool himself into thinking it will be easy and fast, he never thought it would be less difficult than it really was, but he takes things slowly and carefully and hopes it works

his entire healing process is too complex and extensive to explain everything here, but i did the best i could and now i really need to stop because i could stay here ranting for days. xx

#Jean Moreau #all for the game #aftg #the foxhole court #the raven king #the king's men #Jeremy Knox #Kevin Day #USC Trojans #Healing #i love him too much for my own good #this man deserves the whole world and i'll stand for that #Kerejean #Jerejean #Kevjean

[thegreenerartist]

The witching hour was the hour that I came to you

I needed something to ease the pain

You took the palm of my hand,

Studied it and said to me

It won't be long now until you're free

And I saw stars

Above

And I saw the star that you turned into

You took my heart

With you

Only particles of dust lay in my chest

As if by magic you illuminated all the skies

An effervescent glow shone all around

And even though you're gone,

I know for me you always knew

I won't forget you and all you've done

For me

I saw stars

Above

And I saw the star that you turned into

You took my heart

With you

Only particles of dust lay in my chest

So the life we had was now laid down to rest

You will always own a percentage of my heart

Even though in human form

We are apart

KEREJEAN KEREJEAN KEREJEAN VIBES-

#i have so much ships for my boy kevin (spoiler alert it’s because he deserves the world <3) #kerejean #kevjean #jerejean #keremy #kevin day #jeremy knox #jean moreau #aftg #tfc #all for the game #the foxhole court #alexis listens to autoheart #akin

[minyards-pipedream]

fluffy kerejean 🥺🥺🥺

YES OKAY SO

-Kevin and Jeremy both sleep totally starfished, so Jean is always stuck in the middle of a tangle of limbs and he absolutely loves it. Jeremy smushes his face into Jean’s neck, and Kevin sleeps halfway down the bed with his head on Jean’s stomach. Sometimes he just lies awake in the morning playing with their messy bed head.

-Jeremy sends pictures of Jean and cute selfies to Kevin all the time, so Kevin’s background picture on his phone is constantly changing to whatever adorable picture Jeremy sent him this time. He loves it so much and looks forward to them every day.

-Jean sends Kevin pics too, but it’s usually pictures of Jeremy where he’s not looking at the camera, distracted by something like a dog walking on the other side of the road, or pointing out a cloud that looks like a chicken. Kevin loves these because Jeremy looks so soft and natural.

-Kevin flies out to see them at least once a month and they spend that time either huddled up in Jeremy and Jean’s dorm or at the beach. Jean always sunburns like crazy, but Kevin and Jeremy tan soooooooo good. He can’t get over how great they look after spending two days straight handing out at the beach.

-Jean also doesn’t mind temporarily looking like a lobster because Kevin and Jeremy always offer to help him with sunscreen and aloe and the gentle touches on his skin make him feel like he’s utterly melting.

-After Jean and Kevin graduate, they move in with Jeremy and they all play for the same pro team. But, most importantly, they get a dog. She’s a rescue mutt with big floppy ears and one blue eye. Jeremy wants to call her sunny, but Kevin points out that they call Jeremy their “sunshine” so that could get confusing. They end up naming her “Rosie”.

-Speaking of nicknames!!! Jean calls Kevin “mon lapin” (which means “my rabbit”) and Jeremy “mon canard” (which means “my duck”).

-Jeremy is a sap and is always calling them things like “the loves of my life”, “my darlings”, “my moon and stars”, and “the assholes that stole my Cinnamon Toast Crunch again despite complaining that it’s unhealthy garbage”. But when he’s really sleepy, he’s known for hugging them from behind and just sighing softly, “mine”.

-Kevin isn’t big on nicknames. He calls Jeremy “sunshine” and Jean “handsome” but it’s not all that often. He prefers more silent things like holding their hands and brushing the hair out of their faces.

#kerejean #kevin day #jean moreau #jeremy knox #aftg #tfc #kevjerjean