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star-studded-whales · 10 months

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Nomi J. - writeblr intro

Hello everyone! My name is Nomi J. (any pronouns) and I am an adult fiction and 18+ erotica writer. My narratives center around queer characters and experiences and are typically magical realism or high fantasy. I'm always happy to chat with people about writing, so don't be shy about messaging me or sending asks if the mood strikes you. I'm a Tumblr veteran of at least eight years (so I've seen it all, no really.) I've been writing for many years, but have only recently had the courage to put my work out into the world. Romance is my whole jam, and it will be the primary focus of my blog.

A note: Please steer clear if you are under the age of 18. My work is for adults only. I will block minors. You have been warned.

A bit about me...

I am in my mid twenties and definitively queer/genderqueer. I have ADHD and I will occasionally post ADHD content that relates to writing. I do not engage in discourse of any kind, as I prefer to respectfully listen to the experiences of others.

My favorite book (of all time): The Master and Margarita by Mikhail Bulgakov

I'm currently enjoying: Mo Dao Zu Shi (The Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation) by Mo Xiang Tong Xiu

Other interests/skills of mine include art, guitar, harp, video games (particularly The Elder Scrolls and Dragon Age), and anything that involves mermaids.

Current WIPs (as posted on my blog)

Lunar Lagoon (I update when I have time for writing.)

Lunar Lagoon is a series of lesbian vignettes that started as erotica and has moved towards long form erotic romance. The main characters are Lyria and Amelia, who are drawn to each other through the sparks of both pleasure and genuine romance. This is a fast paced, supernatural romance with mermaids, lgbt themes, and an ambiguous modern setting in the Mediterranean. The narrative deals with trust, control and freedom, and autonomy in love and relationships.

Lunar Lagoon Masterpost

Crossroads (Stays in my google docs until I publish it.)

Hazel Abernathy, a witch with financial struggles, gets stood up on Valentine's Day at the swankiest club in her city. She meets two demons, Lillian and Aleksander, who give her a night to remember and a promise to continue the fun. Days later, Hazel strikes gold with an anonymous client who is willing to pay mountains of cash for a secretive issue. When she meets the client for the first time, she finds that she knows the client far more intimately than she could have anticipated. This is a spicy supernatural romance set in modern America. The relationship is a m/f/f throuple and the narrative deals with themes of grief, loss, and unconditional love.

Short Stories

Wear a Coat (link here)

A horror short story set in the Appalachian mountains, where I come from. What happens when you don’t follow your mama’s advice and go looking for berries without a coat? Maybe you’ll just get cold or maybe you’ll attract unwanted attention from something dwelling deep within the forest…

Additionally…

I write because I am passionate about it. At the end of the day, my writing is for myself, and any enjoyment that others derive from it is a lovely bonus. I do not take unsolicited constructive criticism, especially on matters of taste. All original posts on this blog are my intellectual property, and I do not give permission to repupload or cross post on any other sites.

#writeblr intro #writeblr #lgbt author #queer writers #writing #romance #adhd #actually adhd #genderqueer #lunar lagoon

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boycrazybimbo · 9 months

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Hi again! I was the OG anon XD. Anyways, I hope ur doing well and all. Drink a cup of water and rest some- I know this may not apply to you, but still. :) Anyways, I came to rant again and get your honest opinion on WHB. Like, I don’t understand the part of being inclusive with male players. Don’t get me wrong, like, I’m fine with the game allowing male players, but that’s not exactly an Otome game, isn’t it? Like, its not actually targeted towards women, and it’s irritating that many fans make MC to be genderless… Like, it is an Otome game- Not a game “for everyone”. This isn’t offensive, but this will offend others. Like, come on. If prettybusy wanted a game for women, it should be for women- Sorry if I offend you, I just can’t shake this feeling off rn.

I agree with you. Here are things to consider:

The adult industry(pornography(hentai, games, etc.) is mostly male dominated. There’s a 2% chance that anything even remotely explicit will pertain to the female audience. Go check yourself. Visit your favorite site to watch adult content and you’ll only ever find things for males. Femboys for males, Lesbians for males, despite being lesbians, men fetishize them. Also, thus, there’s more gay porn for men than there is straight porn for women. It’s rare you’ll ever find porn female-centered.

Hentai games like What in “hell” is bad? always include male players. If it’s explicit, expect it to be for males, because apparently “more men watch porn”.

Hentai games, which are usually for males and are as proven many times, never include female players. You’re always playing this man who may or may not be an average joe, have a beer belly, may have dark skin or a blank face, or even a normal creep. Despite this, he manages to snag his harem of women by doing minimal tasks. Like… Umm… Hello? That’s not how women actually are- I would know as I am one myself and so are you.

So why are female-oriented games inclusive but male-oriented games aren’t?: There’s no explanation for that. Apparently making something for half the population, women, is seen as so inclusive that men can also be included. That’s not true, nor should it be. That’s basically a way of looking over women and catering to gay men. I find it odd how there’s more inclusion for gay men than women. Like, there’s definitely more women on this earth. That being said, that doesn’t help women at all. Like, if you cared so much about making things female-orientated, there shouldn’t be a male option to choose between. I don’t understand why prettybusy decided that to be best especially when their games “are for women”. Like, not really.

Making the MC neutral doesn’t contribute anything to female players, because if it actually were an otome game, and, as prettybusy said something along the lines of “We make MC’s face blank so others can relate more”, then making the MC female would definitely do the trick. If they clearly wanted female players to “relate to the MC”, then being genderless is not apart of that.

Other issues include:

The point of otome games are to raise and boost women’s confidence and self-worth. And creating an explicit otome games creates a bigger message: “A game for women that they can safely, unforgivably indulge in their desires and fantasies without being silenced”. This problem is still at large. Looking at pornography, women don’t receive foreplay, reassurance, or even viewed as humans sometimes. “Big butt latina”, “Petite asian chick”, “Hot ebony does […]”, “Sexy MILF”, “Curvy white chick”, “BBW does […]”… There’s a problem with all of these. They all either are (racist) stereotypes or unrealistic expectations.

“Petite asian”, “Big butt Latina” are either unrealistic or contributes to a beauty standard placed on women. Yes, it’s true many Asian women tend to be short and petite, but constantly putting labels like “petite” on them makes other women in comparison, usually blacks, appear more “masculine” or “unattractive”. “Big butt latinas” is a VERY high expectation of latin women. This doesn’t care about the well-being of the woman, but rather that assets she may or may not have. Women are more than butts.

Ebonies and BBWs: Ebonies isn’t a name I, as a black woman, would be comfortable of being called. The word ebony means black, which is a pretty stupid label to put on black women. Not all black women are dark-skinned and some aren’t even near the complexion of black. Secondly, saying Ebony meaning “black” emphasizes the skin tone of the individual. That’s fetishizing. Black women aren’t ebonies, they’re black women. People don’t call whites or Asians “ivory”, just mostly pale or fair. BBWs are beautiful, but mostly in porn they’re fetishized. Many people often associated BBWs as “curvy” or “voluptuous”. Not to say they aren’t, but that label doesn’t fit them since being “curvy” is defined as having either an hourglass figure, sometimes pear. Which means, that “curvy” women waists are supposedly small. Let’s just stick with what plus-size women since curvy only ever fetishizes them more.

MILFs: We all know the “step-son” in the porn isn’t a step-son. He’s just an actor in porn that he wants to live out his “taboo” fantasies. This is fairly the worst in my opinion. This is the most unrealistic, but not the worst one of expectations from women since, not every woman you see will be your step-mother-

In conclusion: Women don’t have much for them and are often shamed for their desires or fetishized. Female-oriented games should be for females.

#Otome what in”hell” is bad?#Otome #Otome games #Female-oriented #Female-orientated games #WHB?#What in “hell” is bad?#WHB opinions

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illuminesce · 3 months

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Originally posted on my cohost.

The End of IWAKAN Magazine

Have you ever discovered something so inspirational or fascinating only to find out that it's no longer around?

I heard about IWAKAN Magazine in November. Iwakan (違和感) is an uncomfortable feeling or sense of discomfort. The magazine's tagline is, 「IWAKANは、世の中の「当たり前」に「違和感」を問いかける雑誌です。」or "IWAKAN is a magazine that questions discomfort with what is "normal" in the world." It is part art magazine, part queer zine, part activist discourse, featuring interviews from a host of performers, drag queens, queer community activists, feminists from in and outside of Japan.

It started in October 2020, during the worst of the pandemic and published about an issue every six months including video interviews that are up on their Instagram. Looking at the contributors, there were many folks I know in the Japanese LGBTQIA+ community, many whom are personal friends, who were interviewed or made illustrations for the magazine.

There are interviews with Japanese trans men and nonbinary folks on how their relationship to masculinity has changed over time. With lesbian sex workers on how they approach love as entertainers. With kabuki performers about how they personally inhabit the masculine and feminine spheres as they switch roles. It's an incredible archive of personal stories from the Japanese community, and many are radical and awe-inspiring.

I have heard blanket statements about the LGBTQIA+ community in Japan—how it's behind the U.S. by twenty years or how the community is non-existent, and that it's hopeless. The government and laws in Japan are painfully slow to change. But it's personally frustrating for me because in the streets of Ni-chome I see people organizing, protesting, taking action and fighting. There is hope. And IWAKAN is a record of those conversations, especially during a time when people were sequestered in their homes.

On December 20th, 2023 IWAKAN posted a blank white square on their Instagram with the words, "The end - IWAKAN" and a brief message: "We know this is a sudden announcement, but IWAKAN will cease production as of the end of this year...thank you to everyone who supported us."

My heart fell into my stomach when I read that. Only a month after I discovered this publication and they were ceasing production. There will be no more IWAKAN this year, the year when Japanese government is hearing the lawsuit for same-sex marriage.

But those voices are still alive. And their website (for now) is still alive. So I wanted to share my discovery with you.

You can still buy IWAKAN...for now

Until the end of this month (January 31st, 2024) you can buy physical copies of IWAKAN magazine on their store. Volumes 01~05 are only in Japanese, and Volume 06 is in English and Japanese.

If you live in Japan, please consider buying a copy.

Official store is here.

I made an unofficial translated archive

At the end of the month when the store deactivates, I am worried that we will lose the summaries, table of contents, and photographs of the magazine as well as a critical piece of Japanese queer history.

The degradation of Site Formerly Known as Twitter and shifting TOS of social media has made me aware about how we preserve queer media, especially personal stories about sexuality and gender. Some of the images of the magazine would be flagged as "porn" by social media sites though in context they are about discussions of queer liberation in sexuality.

I decided to make a small archive of each of the IWAKAN issues with photos of them and English summaries, translated by me. I hope this can preserve a piece of history online for longer.

Volume 01 特集女男 (Feminine/Masculine)

Volume 02 特集愛情 (Love)

Volume 03 特集政自 (Government/Individual)

Volume 04 特集多様性？(Diversity?)

Volume 05 特集（不）自然 ([Un]Natural)

Volume 06 特集男性制 (Masculinity)

未来の男性へーIWAKAN書簡集 (Dear Future Men - Letters from IWAKAN)

Please be aware Japanese is not my mother tongue, so if I have made errors, please get in touch to let me know.

Please spread the word if you find this interesting and want to spread this gem of Japanese queer culture.

#iwakan #japanese #japanese culture #japan #queer community #queer #lgbtqia+#queer zines #patriarchy #queer activism #japanese queer culture #genderqueer #design #illustration #zines #trans community

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moonlit-flowerfield · 2 years

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Im.

Gonna.

Murder.

TW/CWfor the rest of the post: Talk of sexual stuff and the like.

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I've come to to the conclusion that most men (particularly cis ones who I would assume are straight) who see an oversized female body on most dating apps?

Think the female bodied person is only on there for sex and nothing else.

I cannot count how many times I've been messaged about sexual things, and asking if I like being treated like a slut.

Spoiler alert: I might be a sub and like some kinky things, but I actually hate being called demeaning things like whore and slut.

I get off on praise. And unless the person specifically says their into that, I don't get why men think they can get a person who has tits to sleep with them if they ask "do you wanna be fucked like a slut?". It's so stupid.

It's so upsetting and really makes me feel worthless when someone messages me like all I am is a notch on a belt because I happen to be on a dating site/app.

Most dating apps aren't even set up for LGBTQIA+ people either. You can find straight dating apps, gay dating apps and lesbian dating apps. But you can find Pan ones, or asexual ones.

It's so stupid, I hate it, and I especially don't want that to be the first message I see from someone after a long break like they went to sleep or something.

Sorry for the rant, it's just.

It reminds me of something that I don't wanna have any sort of repeat of, and it's so annoying.

SIDE NOTE: WHY DOES IT MATTER WHY I DONT LIKE GIVING HEAD?I HAVE ANXIETY AND IT MAKES ME UNCOMFORTABLE, THAT SHOULD BE ENOUGH TO NOT BE ASKED MORE THAN ONCE ABOUT IT.

GOD, I hate those guys.

#cw vent #cw suggestive #cw sex mention

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fagito420 · 1 year

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The last time I logged into this site, I was inundated with toxic culture. There was no space for me. My Tumblr famous ex got me out of jail by raising money on this site in 2012. It was toxic then, and it is toxic now. thanks for paying my bail tho.

I used to run message boards in the mid 2000s and it was no different. I had a friend group of other POC from the US and UK along with white Europeans who felt that white Americans were totally nutso. We used to engage in flame wars. Some of us wrote fanfiction and people would get into drag-out fights on LiveJournal (remember that?). People act like ship wars are new. I hate when people compare things to their ship getting crapped on to a hate crime.

It makes me mad that there are so many people on all platforms who act like they are woke or inclusive when in reality the cottagecore only hang with the cottagecore, the queens with the queens, the granola lesbians with granola lesbians, and ACAB white-guilty queers with other guilty white queers.

As a young queer coming from a rural environment, I felt like I did not belong. I come from a place where the indigenous drag queen is the community and white people were extremely distrusted. When I moved to the city I felt as if I was out of my element..I am Mexican American and white but still. It was as if I was going to be brainwashed into a community where you HAD to dye your hair. You HAD to pierce your face. You HAD to spew the Ideology of the Day and the correct terminology in order to have clout in the queer community.

I met people whose sole personality was Activism. I was just a trans person of color trying to live my life. Their world did not match mine. I was in the world dealing with machismo culture and my safety DEPENDING ON passing. I could not just dye my hair black and take my piercings out. I actually had to work harder than the cis men at my jobs and I didn't have the clout or resources to get a nonprofit job or a "queer friendly" job. I was working in Dollar Stores, Casinos, Bars and Hotels.

My survival mechanisms were taught to me by older Mexican American cis men. It can come across as threatening due to prejudice between white queers and the Hispanic community here. I would not expect them to understand. However they were out there proselytizing how much the lives of trans people of color mattered.

It is hard to feel like you matter when you don't belong to a clique. I felt so isolated. I was already culture shocked after moving to a place that had 60% white people as opposed to only 10%. I know I am not Native American but it still messes with my head.

So why can't you just wear what you want, believe what you want, cook what you want, and so on?

while I feel so many people use Tumblr as a way to find themselves, especially young people, it is the same toxic environment the internet has always been. You HAVE to check the bingo boxes. You HAVE to wear Birkenstocks and use the newest lingo else you're transphobic. You can't be masc and abused in a relationship according to Tumblr woke ideology.

and so here is my safe lil corner, where I can be myself. Nice to meet you. I am a person as are you, and you are beautiful no matter your identity.

I have a stalker and the activists don't care. I have been fired from many jobs for being trans and they don't care. They pick the loudest white person who dyes their hair and pierces their face. However all they do is hurt the causes they say they support by silencing POC . The ramifications and consequences are far greater for us than they are for them. white people like keeping up with the Joneses

And I thought white people were better than that. But I guess all the mockery they got from my small town (yes even you radical leftists) is well deserved.

I don't get on social media much anymore and my life is better for it. This blog is a placeholder for when I have to log in, in order to see something. I don't give a single shit.

And maybe if y'all are so socially awkward it wouldn't hurt to SOCIALIZE with people who aren't like yourself. The internet is an echo chamber full of lambés and yes-men. either they're gonna follow you blindly, or slam you like they would never slam someone in person. I get the aggression, really I do. I spent my time getting incel blogs ToSsed in the mid 2000s and trolling Stormfront. However the thing everyone wants on the internet is attention.

Imagine if a hateful person wasnt sucked up to. Imagine if they got told tf off publicly and humiliated publicly. From a trumper to an ACAB white clique leader activist. Imagine if someone had the guts to take them out back and kick their ass. You know, like real life. Which you know these people are scared to do.

I never realized that having some fucking CAJONES would be seen as problematic.

My ex used autism as an excuse to spread gossip about me under the guise of being an open book. Self diagnosis is great and all and our criminal justice system is garbage but if you have worked in criminal law, public defenders will always do the mental illness defense. it doesn't matter whether they are Actually Guilty or not.

If someone can create a plausible paper trail documenting said mental illness, then someone can get away with the excuse. I get that self diagnosis is what a lot of people do. We know our bodies more than anything else. however when it is an excuse to be an asshole, then I lose all my sympathy. Insanity please, lol lol lol

#toxic tumblr #Toxic queer community #toxic behavior #Subtle racism #Xenophobia #Cliques

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dee-the-red-witch · 3 months

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Okay, let's do this. February Pinned post GO!

Hiya, I'm Dee.

I'm a forty-something queer lesbian poly trans woman. I'm an artist, writer, leatherworker, and tattooist. I'm a shitposter, a mom, and a few other things I've spaced on for the moment. I'm also Not Your Responsible Adult, and will hand you kids pamphlets on sex and kink education, a couple double espressos, and a bag of fireworks or a puppy. I fully believe in sex, kink, and body positivity and reblog as such- if you need censor your own experience for whatever reason, don't follow me, because I will not censor myself for you.

I also post a lot of my work here, but you'll also find a lot of it available for purchase right here: http://tormentedartifacts.com Here's a few highlights:

As I said before, I'm also a tattooist- self-taught and primarily working on myself (yes, about 90% of all that ink in my selfies is my own handiwork, no I'm not taking professional clients yet, more just the occasional test subject)- here's some of the flashwork I've been doing for my own portfolio:

I'm a writer and occultist as I said before as well, and my first book and companion tarot deck are available through my site, or you can catch me doing weekly card readings and media reviews over here.

The absolute biggest thing right now, though, is my surgery fund- My Gender Confirmation and Facial Feminization operations both happen this November over a two week span, and I'm trying to get enough in to cover my stay and the downtime I'm going to have to take off from everything up there.

So here's the link for my GoFundMe for that.

if you can kick in on that, or just spread word around of it elsewhere, I'd REALLY appreciate it.

And to answer a few specifics:

If you're contacting me about an order the best way is using the email on my site, not messaging me- I will answer when I can, but I'm also backed up and almost constantly low on spoons. Tumblr's where I come to dopamine-mine among other things.

No, I don't sell content to use the current parlance. I do absolutely support those who do, and so should you.

Yes there's a discord. Yes you have to actually ask me for an invite.

No, I really am only 5'6". Half the rumors are true, but so are some of the outright lies. Yes, I'll still record voice requests, even scripted bits. No, you may not call me mommy. Terfs, swerfs, bigots, conservaties, and other fash can fuck directly off. Tipping should be mandatory. Plastics suck. Landlords and borders should be immediately expunged. Give the fucking Land Back. Do make it weird, don't make it creepy. Do make it terrifying, otherworldly, and possibly even wondrous. Buy more leather.

Otherwise, that's it. My inbox or messages are open if you've got questions

#monthly pinned #Still never sorry about the wall of text #selfie #self id #station identification

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radsmutt · 2 years

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peaking

I thought I had already peaked last year. But this year’s Pride coupled with the Amber Heard trial on top of everything else wrong with the world is pushing me to a breaking point that I thought I had already surpassed. I am usually not a confrontational or aggressive person. I do not have a big, online social media presence (mostly because I despise it and am old enough to remember life without it). I just got back from a camping trip. I left town to camp because I could feel myself entering that dark place in my head. Camping helped but I’m back now and the current news is propelling me right back there. I’m posting this (even though I know this is a new baby blog without a lot of followers) because it would really help to talk to someone like-minded. I can’t take anymore of my other social media sites. The majority of people on IG and FB (which I just reactivated for marketplace purposes) either don’t care or are dangerously left. To the point that I want to throw my phone at the wall and scream “THAT’S NOT TRUE.” It’s only June 2nd. Two days in and already this rage. Already the posts about Marsha and Stonewall and everything being directed towards “queer” people. I feel isolated in my own community and no one here understands. I feel silenced and alone. Maybe there are other radfems and lesbians out there who can message me and we can get through this month one day at a time.

#pride #peaking

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pencilscratchins · 3 years

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are you ever worried people will think youre faking being gay for clout?

the people on this website once genuinely thought there was a genetic disorder that made you be born with purple eyes and no body hair. im not really losing sleep over whether or not they believe i have sex with women

#the internet is the only place where faking being a marginalized identity would be ‘for clout’ lmAOO #why do people feel the need to doubt every person who says theyre a lesbian?#is it the lesbianphobia?#oh it is ? okay #am i the only lesbian on this site who gets these messages or am i the only person who published them #lmAOOOO #ask #anon #not art #absolutely bonkers question thank you

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charcubed · 3 years

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Don’t be shy, share the take 👀

Okay, so last night I bitched in a mini tag rant saying how everyone on my dash was reblogging the same post with the same bad take and it was driving me bonkers, and then this anon sent me this message, and since I have now seen the post on my dash yet again, I will answer this ask lol.

Also this is an SPN-related topic so anyone not in SPN fandom can keep it moving lol

Before I say anything else though: I’m not out here trying to be a Fun Killer or whatever. Please note how I habitually stay in my lane and simply do not interact with posts that I do not like on this site. Do me the same courtesy and keep scrolling if you don’t like what I am about to say! I am also not trying to shade any mutuals who may have reblogged content I dislike. So... I’m gonna keep this very general, because it’s a wider topic anyway. And I know I’m not the only person who feels this way, based on private conversations (with long-time fans, too).

2 main points of contention:

-If people want to talk badly about Jared they can simply do so without involving Misha or Jensen’s name in it with what is typically bad meme-y format posts, coupled with unwittingly bad takes about Misha and Jensen in the process. I am being vague here on purpose, sorry, but whatever.

-And, mostly: this website is developing a problem with wanting to either call Jensen in particular homophobic or queer without using those exact words, and the result in either instance is people coming up with increasingly convoluted ways to be weird about him or towards him. It’s like either they can’t get a read on him so they want to disparage him, or they think they’ve clocked him but don’t want to mention it, and what ends up being posted in word salad hot takes under the guise of enlightenment is either... literal disgusting slurs (fruity, fag, dyke, etc) whether about Dean or Jensen or both, or the idea that Dean is bi but it was an accident and Jensen couldn’t possibly have been aware of that because it happened beyond his will, or that Dean and/or Jensen is simply repressed, or that Jensen wants to fuck Dean, or ????????

And it’s very like... literally what the FUCK are you even saying and why are you saying it, lol. I get that there’s a certain Style Of Typing that’s becoming popular in this fandom on this site right now, and it’s often in the name of this sort of exaggerated joke posting. But half the time people are just slinging around words and everyone thinks it’s funny and (seemingly) not enough people stop to think twice about how it is, more often than not now, getting fucking weird.

Is it a big concerning deal (beyond the slurs thing, which is absolutely inexcusable)? Nah, not yet. But the numbers are getting huge on some of these posts, and that makes me grind my teeth more, because it means this overall attitude/joke posting format is spreading throughout the fandom hivemind with very little resistance. And it’s upping the frequency of that sort of language and shitposting. So while things that stay on Tumblr don’t have huge impact, right now a lot of things are also transferring over to Twitter as fandom and stan culture has shifted. And that’s when we get into Dangerous Territory On The Wider Stage that can trend or route back to actors, especially because of how Twitter algorithms have changed recently. (I can elaborate on that if need be.)

Really the bottom line though is that I am seeing multiple variations / posts along the line of the same thought process, where the actors of this show (especially Jensen and Misha) seem to be casually dehumanized in language I find startling and off-putting, and people are getting this mental disconnect where they’re forgetting that it’s not okay to say certain things about real people even in the name of jokes. It’s even pushing it when it’s characters, but when it’s about the actors it’s the crossing of a double line. So it’s becoming normalized, and then people don’t stop and think twice, and the posts just circulate because they’re “funny,” and then I see the same thing on my dash 8 times and feel like I’m going insane.

It bothers me and makes scrolling on my dash a minefield of discomfort, but yes, it’s not like that’s going to be seen by the real people in question as of now because Tumblr is Tumblr... but if this mindset becomes pervasive and normalized enough, what happens is people then become even further desensitized especially the kids who are new to fandom, and then in 8 months we’re gonna have some teenager at a con talking about Jensen’s “lesbian photoshoots” to his fucking face and also asking him how he feels about being overtaken by the spirit of a “repressed bisexual character.” The prospect of which makes me feel like I’m going to grow grey hairs.

So. Yeah. There you have it lmao. I am once again asking everyone to stop being weird about real people and queer topics (whether IRL or fictional), be mindful of language, and notice what they’re actually saying or implying in the name of jokes. But, feel free to think ~I take things too seriously~ or am exhibiting ~fake concern~ and just keep scrolling and ignore me though! I am simply answering the question.

#anonymous #asks #char writes things

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weirdmixofweirdness · 2 years

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Future Me Letter Response

So last year, I decided to go on the site Future Me and make a letter to my future self. Well, I received it today and I decided I’d respond to it here.

Here’s the letter (Please note, some names will be removed for the sake of privacy):

Dear FutureMe, Hey, Wren. Do you still go by Wren? If not, that's okay. I'd rather we not keep a name if we're uncomfortable with it (not that I am right now, but I guess I don't know if I end up feeling that way.). I'm in a weird place right now. In case you don't remember, Unus Annus was deleted yesterday and it feels weird not to have it on my YouTube feed anymore. For the past year, it's been such a constant of chaos and existential dread, but I wouldn't trade it for the world. Do you still have the UA notes in your Google Docs? If so, do you still look back on it every now and then (when you're not busy with classwork. Oh, who am I kidding? You're still on the internet and procrastinating most of the time.)? Also, have you made that YouTube channel? Recently, I've started to come up with UA-esque ideas for my own channel. I hope I actually act on that. If you haven't, it's okay. There's always next year. How's the family doing? Ever since Aunt Mom died, things have felt good between Uncle Dad and me. He calls every now and then to check on me. It's so sweet! (Hopefully, nothing happened to him and I didn't just make my future self cry. If I did, I'm so sorry!) Are you still close with Aunt L? We went out for lunch at J&P's yesterday (in her new car) and had a great time. Hopefully, when you're reading this, Little Miss Rona is gone and you and her are able to go on your monthly dinners (if nothing happened to her, which I hope nothing did). Have you discovered more about your identity? Right now, I identify as a grayasexual lesbian aromantic homoalterous demigirl (boy, that's a mouthful!). That could always change, though. However I choose to identify in the future, just know that you are valid, no matter what anyone says. Have you written more of your stories lately? Right now, I'm on (yet another) hiatus. I'm hoping to improve on the speed and quality of my writing. Hopefully, I actually have (at least a little bit). Is @lildevyl still on Tumblr and writing? She's such a sweet person! So many bad things are happening to her right now that she doesn't deserve. If she's still there, send a message to her after you read this letter. Let her know how much you care for and appreciate her. You'll really make her day. Now, to the big questions for 2021. First of all, how is Biden doing as President? Are things getting better? More importantly, did Trump have to get escorted out of the White House by security? If he did, was it hilarious? I bet it was! I hope that guy was treated exactly how he treated the country: with no respect whatsoever. Anyway, rant over. Okay, here's my second big question: how's drinking? I don't think I'm gonna be a big drinker. In fact, I know I'm not gonna be a big drinker (unless you drink that alcoholic iced tea.). How was your first drink? What was your first drink? Where did you have your first drink? Okay, I'm done asking drinking questions. You're probably tired of that. How is my cosplay thing going? I've been telling myself that I'm gonna be doing some once I have enough money to buy stuff for it. The ones I'm the most excited to do are Mayor Damien and Actor Mark. Have you been able to do those? If so, know that I'm internally screaming just imagining it. Okay, I think that's all I've wanted to ask. The only thing I have left to say is this: you're an amazing person with so much to give. Please be kinder to and more patient with yourself. Change doesn't come instantly. Just keep moving to the best of your ability and know that there are so many people who believe in you (and this is coming from yourself, so you can't deny it!). And as Mark said on that UA livestream, be sure to try and spend every second doing stuff that makes you happy, whether it be working on a story or just relaxing and watching YouTube videos. I guess what I'm trying to say is take care of and believe in yourself. I wish nothing but the best for future me in all that I do.

Hope to see you again in 2022, Wren Wesley

My response

Past Me,

Hello from the future. To start off, no, we chose not to keep the name Wren. After a while, we ended up feeling like it didn’t fit us. Now, we go by either Tori or Arden. We have decided that we want to make Arden our middle name. Mae is too feminine, and Arden seems like a name that fits us. Yes, I remember Unus Annus being deleted. How could I forget? As you said, it impacted us so much. In fact, we set up an anniversary project for it on the internet. Unfortunately, mental health stuff got in the way and we had to postpone it to next year. Hopefully, I’ll be talking about it in my letter response in 2022. As for the notes, yes, we kept them. No, we haven’t looked at them every day. We’ve been so swept up in TikTok, Tumblr, and YouTube (as well as school stuff, of course) that we haven’t really looked at it for a while. Regardless, I still have it in my Google Docs and will be looking at it again sometime either today or this week, since you reminded me. Unfortunately, we haven’t made that channel yet. We got kinda sidetracked with life and, again, mental health. As you said, there’s always next year, so I’ll try as hard as I can to make that happen. Family relations hasn’t been too good recently. A few days ago, I started a temporary college leave and am living with Aunt L until Fall 2022. Uncle Dad isn’t too happy about it. He feels as we’re abandoning him. However, you know as well as I do that we need a break from that environment. We don’t feel like we can truly be ourselves with him. From this, we’ve discovered that we have troubles with communication. We’re looking to get therapy for it very soon. For now, we’re settling into Aunt L’s house. The room she gave us is nice. We even have a TV to play our Switch on (yes, we got a switch this year. Aunt L gave it to us as a birthday present). I guess that answered your questions about our relationship with her. And yes, we are once again doing our monthly outings with her. Our identity has changed somewhat drastically since you wrote this letter. As of 2021, you will start identifying as an Agender/Neutrois, Libramasculine, Aromantic, Panqueerplatonic, Aegobisexual. Yep, it’s even more of a mouthful now. However, we’re much happier with our identity now. Yes, we have some moments of doubt, but everyone has those moments. we haven’t written many stories lately. In fact, we accidentally deleted our writing blog, so now we’re mainly writing on AO3 (when we do write). However, we have so many ideas for new stories and hopefully they’ll be written by the time I respond to the next letter. We also discovered that the speed of our writing doesn’t really matter. Write on your own time (although you do still need to push yourself to write every now and then). Yes, Dev is still on Tumblr. We haven’t talked much this year, unfortunately. I’m hoping to improve on that from now on. I don’t want her to end up another person that I fall out of contact with due to my lack of socialness. (Dev, since I tagged you in this, just know how much I appreciate you. I’m gonna try to show that appreciation more this coming year, because you deserve all of it. You are such an amazing and talented person who I have the amazing pleasure of knowing.). Biden has been...meh. I mean, I feel less constantly stressed than when Trump was in office. However, there has been a shortage of a lot of things recently. Whether that’s him or a side effect of Covid, I don’t know. But, yeah, it’s a pretty meh presidency so far. And no, Trump didn’t have to get escorted out. However, Trump supporters did storm the Capital in January, so yeah...As for drinking, it’s not all that, just like we expected. Other adults hyped it up way too much. My first drink was this random, small bottle of wine at Uncle Dad’s house. It was terrible! The cosplay thing is moving very slowly, but we’ve done more. We haven’t dressed as Damien or Actor yet (sorry, you have to hold your excitement for a while). Still, we dressed as Chase and made 2 cosplays out of our DA OC, Nora Ables. It’s not much, but it’s still progress. Well, that’s all the answers I got. Thanks for the encouragement. You didn’t know, but I needed that so much right now. Anyway, I guess I’ll write another letter and make this a tradition. So, see you next year,

Tori Arden/WeirdMix

#arden speaks #future me letter #future me letter response #politics #agender #neutrois

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confused-stars · 3 years

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Hello again, it's the inspired anon! Notes are still lost but i wrote a couple more so here's a tiny bit if you're still curious about them! Context: inko and AFO were together in this au, raising bio child Izuku and finders-keepers child tomura, with Kurogiri as their sitter/bodyguard/afo's evil errand boy. Inko finds out abt the plan to possess tomura's body after AM's battle and pulls the plug on afo, kills ujiko and gives Kurogiri his own files. (1/3)

Inko goes into hiding with the kids, Kurogiri goes on a self discovery journey on his own (eventually gets back together w the rooftop gang) and a year later they reunite. Neither he, the kids, or inko are very good at the whole being a model citizen thing. Now, the short af snippet: (2/3)

When the kids ask Shouta and Hizashi if they've killed anyone, how many - they always remember. They have names. They have a face or two they won't ever be able to forget, graves they visit. /Nobody's asked Kurogiri, and he's selfishly glad it's stayed that way. /He's lost count. (3/3)

(4/3) thx for listening. Also how the heck do u put paragraphs on asks??

(5/3) and thank you for making this possible. Your content is a blessing, as always! That kurokami headcanon made me laugh, and takami's name really is fitting!

(6? /3) and also yes absolutely i don't know what locked tomb is but I'll always say yes to more of ur stuff

so many messages!!!! i absolutely adore that au holy shit, i'm always here for Inko getting to be badass and i love the idea of her and Kurogiri being friends/working together/helping each other out

and that snippet hit me so hard, you have no idea. i'm looking forward to reading more of your writing!! (also i dunno if you can put paragraphs on asks yet, this site is very broken and it seems like everyone has a different experience with how it works)

it means a ton to know that my silly little blog with its chaotic content is actually inspiring people to make stuff! <3 also people liking this completely baseless ship i made up xD

as for the locked tomb, it's a book series (currently two books out) and i've only read the first one so far. it's about lesbian necromancers in a science-fiction setting and also there's swords and memes. 10/10 would recommend. i've started putting together some ideas for how the au would work, but similarly to the temerant au, it probably won't make a ton of sense without me putting some context for people who haven't read the books. what it does have is a very powerful Tomura, Aizawa and Shinson duo, undead Oboro, and probably some murder about to happen. also i really screw over Touya in this au, but he almost invites me to do that every time

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P5R: Rebel Girl (A FeMC Story/P5R Rework) Chapter 58: New Beginnings

The next day after school, Makoto messaged Ren.

Makoto: Hey.

Makoto: I know that we should work on the whole Kaneshiro-Naoko thing,

Makoto: But I want to feel a little more confident in myself before we begin.

Makoto: Can we talk?

Ren: Sure.

Makoto: Great!

Makoto: Meet me up by the student council room.

Ren headed up to the student council room. Makoto was standing outside of it. “Ah, please come in.” Ren headed in, and Makoto followed behind her. They sat down across from each other. Makoto sighed.

Ren was curious. “What’s up?”

“Hm,” Makoto muttered. “I’ve been feeling a little listless.” Ren was intrigued. “For so long, people have been putting expectation after expectation, and label after label on me. I’ve always hated it, but I never felt like I could do much about it. But now I feel freer than ever.”

Makoto groaned. “But it’s hard for me to figure out my new found freedom. I know I don’t want to be some puppet on a string, but figuring out what I DO want is a bit more challenging. Of course, I want what’s best for the students, and I want to forge my own path, but what that is is a little more...complicated.”

“I see,” Ren said. “That is complicated.”

“I feel like you’d be the best person to ask about this, since you seem so free,” Makoto said.

“The most free person you know is someone on probation. Ironic” Ren said.

Makoto rolled her eyes. “See? It’s things like that.” They both shared a laugh. “So, I was thinking that I could try doing more things kids my age are doing.”

“And you want my help with that?” Ren asked. Makoto nodded. “Well, I guess I could help.”

“Thank you,” Makoto said.

Ren smiled. “So, do you have any ideas?”

“Well… I haven’t been to an arcade in a while…” Makoto said.

“THAT sounds like a wonderful idea” Ren replied.

“Well then, let’s go,” Makoto said cheerfully. The two headed off. Once they arrived, Makoto took it all in. “Wow.” She turned to Ren. “Um, do you have any suggestions?”

“Well, I like this gun game here,” Ren answered.

“I guess that’s as good a start as any,” Makoto responded. She walked up, put some money in, and started playing. She was a little hesitant at first while she was trying to figure out how the game works. “Wha? WOAH! GAH!” Soon, she was getting into it. “TAKE THAT!” Once the game ended, Makoto was breathing heavily. She regained her composure. “Well, I think that went well.”

“I’ll say,” Ren said. “You managed to get a really good score despite this being your first time. You’re a pretty fast learner.”

Makoto blushed. “Thanks.” She giggled. “You know, I’ve always been smart. I study a lot. I've even developed different methods of memorizing different pieces of information.”

“THAT’S going to be handy in the Metaverse” Ren noted.

Makoto chuckled some more. “But what you said earlier was the first time I’ve been complimented on my own merit, at least in a while.” Ren seemed confused. “It’s always ‘I should have known, you’re sister’s smart too’ or ‘just like a Niijima’. Even stuff like ‘you really are your father’s daughter’ got to me after a while. I don’t want to say my sister or my father aren’t smart or anything, but,” she sighed, “I want to be appreciated too, you know?”

Ren slowly walked up to Makoto and gave her a hug. “I do.” Makoto smiled, and gave her a hug back. They eventually stopped. “So, what do you want to do now?”

“Well, I am a bit parched,” Makoto said. “I’m going to go get something to drink.” She walked to a vending machine. After she made her purchase, she heard a loud thud. She turned over to see two Shujin boys, one of whom was pinning the other to the wall. She walked over. “What’s going on. She got a closer look to see that the two boys were making out, causing all three to be surprised. “I’m so sorry.”

“Please don’t report us!” one boy yelped.

“Huh?” Makoto said.

Ren came looking for Makoto. “Oh hey. You were taking a while.” She noticed the two boys, one of whom was in her class. “What’s going on?”

“Ah!” the other boy screamed.

“Well...it’s a bit awkward…” Makoto said. “But the long and short of it is I thought this guy was shaking down this guy...but they were making out…”

“Oh” Ren said, taken aback.

“Mmmmm” the first guy groaned.

The other boy sighed. “I guess we should have expected the student council president to not be on our side.”

Ren was confused. “Hey!”

Makoto put her hand up. “I’ll deal with this.” Ren smiled and nodded. “Now, what makes you think I’m not on your side?”

“Oh, well,” the second boy stammered. “You told someone else about us.”

“Right,” Makoto said. “But she’s a friend. I trust her with this information.”

“Well, how do we know you’re not going to tell the principal?” the first boy asked.

“The principal?” Makoto asked.

The second guy sighed. “Yeah. He caught us...you know...and he threatened to expel us if he caught us again.”

Makoto was stunned. She smiled “Hm. Well, you don’t need to worry.” The boys were curious. “You’re secret’s safe with me. Principal Kobayakawa and I haven’t been seeing eye to eye recently, and this just goes even further in our divide.”

The two boys looked at each other. “How can we be certain?” the first one asked.

“Um, well…” Makoto said, struggling for an answer.

Ren smiled. “Because, she’s friends with me.” The three of them looked confused. “I just happen to be a lesbian. And if Makoto’s cool with me, she’s cool with you.”

“You’re a lesbian?” the other boy asked.

“Problem?” Ren replied.

“No,” the second boy said. “I’m just a bit relieved, is all. It feels nice to know that there are others like us in school.”

Ren smiled. “The feeling is mutual.”

“So, you won’t tell Principal Kobayakawa?” the first boy asked.

“Absolutly not” Makoto said.

“Thanks” they said together. They noticed that, blushed, grabbed each other’s hands, and went to find someplace a little more private to finish making out.

Makoto turned to Ren. “Um, was that real?” she asked. Ren seemed confused. “Because I was about to say the same thing as a ploy...but it didn’t feel right to lie to them like that.”

Ren looked at Makoto. “Yeah. I’m actually a lesbian.” Makoto sighed, relieved. “Is that actually a problem?”

“Of course not,” Makoto said. “I learned at a young age that people should be accepted no matter who they are.” Ren thought about that, smiled, and nodded. “But my question now is why do you feel comfortable telling me, or even them?”

“Well,” Ren began, “you told me you wanted to forge a new path; one that’s defined by you. But as much as I admire self-determination, it can be hard to do on your own. However, since I came to Tokyo, and made friends with people, I feel like I’ve grown. So, I want to show you that progress can be made.”

Makoto smiled. “Huh. I see. Thank you.” She began thinking. “I guess as much as doing things kids my age do can teach me, it’s worth interacting with them and seeing who they really are. And if I want to be the best student council president I can be, I have to be willing to fight for who students are, rather than what’s popular. I think I’m starting to understand.”

She turned to Ren. “But I don’t think I would have reached this conclusion without you being there. So, thank you. Thank you for helping out with that situation earlier. Thank you for being honest with me. And thank you for making me want to be a better person.”

I am thou... Thou art I… Thou hast acquired a new vow...

It shall become the wings of rebellion that breaketh thy chains of captivity.

With the birth of the Priestess Persona I have obtained the winds of blessing that shall lead to freedom and new power.

Priestess-Makoto Niijima: Rank 1

“Well, shall we continue?” Makoto said. Ren nodded. They headed back to play some more arcade games. “Oh. Um, does anyone else know? About…?”

Ren smiled. “Just Morgana, Ann, and Ryuji.”

“Why not Yusuke, Jose, or Sumire?” Makoto asked.

“Well...that’s a bit complicated…” Ren said. She started to blush.

Makoto analyzed Ren. “Wait...Sumire?!” Ren blushed harder. “I see…”

“Yeah…” Ren said.

“Well, whenever you’re ready, I’ll be there for you,” Makoto said. “Let’s play some games.” The two spent some more time in the arcade.

Once they had gone their separate ways, Ren checked her phone. She had received some messages from Mishima.

Mishima: So, that Ohya woman…

Mishima: She was...kind of scary…

Mishima: Of course, I’d do anything for the Phantom Thieves.

Mishma: But please don’t make me do that again.

Ren: Are you alright?

Mishima: Well, I guess…

Mishima: She didn’t do anything elicit.

Mishima: She’s just a lot.

Ren: I see.

Ren giggled to herself.

Ren: I don’t know how you expect to get a date.

Ren: All the best girls are a lot.

Mishima: HEY!

Ren: Relax. I understand. I’m just teasing you.

Ren: You are absolved from meeting with Ohya.

Ren: Unless you want to.

Mishima: ...Thanks…

Ren checked some new sites to see if Ohya’s article went live. Sure enough, she found an article “Boy M. Tells All About Shujin Incident.”

Meanwhile, at Crossroads, Ohya was having a drink. Lala was glaring at her. “What?”

“You need to tell her what happened,” Lala insisted.

“I will,” Ohya said, downing more of her drink. “Just give me time.”

“NO!” Lala said. “I’m cutting you off until you do something about this. She could be in trouble for all we know.”

Ohya looked at Lala. “You’re really serious about this.” Lala continued to glare. “Ugh, fine. She got out her phone.

Ohya: Hey kid. Can you come over?

Ohya: There’s something you should know.

Ren was stunned, but she messaged back.

Ren: Sure.

Ohya: Great.

Ohya: See you later.

“There,” Ohya said. “She’s coming.”

“Why didn’t you tell her over the phone?” Lala asked.

“Because I’ve only had one drink so far,” Ohya said. “I’m not drunk enough to forget how stern you are. If I said I did that, you’d just tell me I’m lying.” Lala chuckled. Soon after, Ren arrived. “HEY! It’s you!”

“Yup, it’s me!” Ren said, not really sure what was going on.

Ohya turned to Lala. “Can I have a drink now?”

“Not until you tell her,” Lala replied.

“Tell me what?” Ren asked.

Ohya sighed. “Ugh. Fine.” She turned to Ren. “Listen. After you left Saturday, this detective came in. He apparently knew I told you something, and wanted to know what that was.”

“Did you tell him?” Ren asked.

“Well, I didn’t want to,” Ohya said bitterly. “But he had something I wanted.”

“It was really impressive,” Lala said, adding to the explanation.

“So, yeah” Ohya said.”I told him.”

“Hm,” Ren said.

“Can I have a drink now?” Ohya said. “I need it.”

Lala began fixing up a drink for Ohya. She looked at Ren. “Well, what do you think?”

Ren smiled. “I understand.”

This shocked Ohya. “You do?”

Ren nodded. “You’re only human.”

Ohya chuckled, then sighed. “I’ve gotta tell ya, as a reporter, it’s rare to find anyone that’s human these days, myself included. So thanks.” She sighed. “Because of that article I did, my boss wants me to be THE Phantom Thieves journalist. Ugh. Talk about sensationalism.”

Ren sensed an opportunity. “I could help with that.”

Ohya was shocked. “Really? After I betrayed your trust?”

“You did no such thing” Ren informed her. “You got some information out of it. And to be completely honest, that whole thing was helpful in the end.”

Ohya was confused. “How so?”

Ren was ready to lie her ass off. “Well, you see, after I made a big splash during that TV interview defending the Phantom Thieves, the Phantom Thieves got in contact with me. They needed help finding their next big target.”

“Oh” Ohya said. “Huh.”

“Apparently, they told me that there was some intervention the day after I told them what you told me, but they said it helped them figure some more things out afterwards” Ren said.

“I see,” Ohya said.

“So now, I figured I could help the Phantom Thieves more by talking about what I know with you” Ren said.

“And what do you want in exchange?” Ohya said.

Ren giggled. “Well, as demonstrated, I am a fan of the Phantom Thieves.”

“I see. So you want me to lionize them?” Ohya said. “Alright. I at least owe you that much.”

“So, what do you want to know?” Ren asked.

“Shhhhhhhh” Ohya said. “Later. Tonight, we celebrate. LALA-CHAN! SOME DRINKS! I have a new partnership!” Without saying anything, Lala gave Ohya some booze, and Ren some water. “I GUESS this will do” Ohya said, rolling her eyes. She raised her glass. “Still, cheers.” Ren raised her glass and clinked it.

I am thou... Thou art I… Thou hast acquired a new vow...

It shall become the wings of rebellion that breaketh thy chains of captivity.

With the birth of the Devil Persona I have obtained the winds of blessing that shall lead to freedom and new power.

Devil: Ichiko Ohya: Rank 1

Ren and Ohya shared a few more drinks before Ren went home for the night.

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