#am preparing for publication

[zaacoy]

freenoodles request!! Tang smoochin his husband on the snout and Pigsy getting extremely flustered!! (I love these old gays so much they are my fathers actually) ((real)).

he caught him off guard

Here are your dads, thank you for your request!! Very cute concept to draw out thank you very very much :D !

Small bonus! heeheehoo :3c

#heehee them <3 #Threw a small hc into this!!: #Even if they do live together they very rarely get to the restaurant at the same time #Be it because Tang has to go to work somewhere else or because he refuses to wake up at 8 am with pigsy every day to open shop- either work #They've worked out a schedule/times that Tang comes in and Pigsy keeps a close eye on the clock every day waiting for him #He also probably prepares a spare bowl of noodles just for him a few minutes before he should get there #Got to make sure husband is safe!! and well fed!!!! #Also the hc that they both get kind of flustered by sudden unexpected affection from the other especially in public #They are very husbands your honor this is my testimony #lmk pigsy #lmk tang #lego monkie kid #monkie kid #freenoodleshipping #lmk freenoodles #It is 2 am and my brain is refusing to word smart sorry if any of these tags are worded weird auaghh #He was late in the first place because he was brainstorming ways to fluster his husband just for funnsies #snout kiss proved to be very effective!! #Zaacoy art💫

[northernsiberiawinds]

when always

me: I'll just make a skinblend for infants 

me: or two 

me: and I don't have enough hairstyles, so I'll make a remesh of EA hairstyle for my infants 

me: and now I need bangs as an accessory, because I don't like this bare forehead in a bear suit 

me: and eyelashes! 

me: and I also need to make poses, because I haven't seen any suitable ones  

#In case you want to know why I'm so slow #I am already preparing СС for publication #I'll delete it later

[uncanny-tranny]

Apologetics for transphobia is just transphobia. Transphobia is just as dangerous, even if it's "well they don't want you dead, they want [x, y, z]." Transphobia doesn't have to end in somebody's death in order for it to be real, dangerous, and worth discussing (not to mention that "non-lethal" transphobia is still very much lethal).

I understand why people want to categorize transphobia into "real and dangerous" and "not real (and not really dangerous)," but that isn't going to save us. Transphobia is transphobia. Transphobes often do not want to ~💐save trans people💐~ with kind words and affirmation. They want us eradicated - gone.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #transphobia #transphobia tw #like i've heard over and over that transphobes want to ~save the trans men~ for instance and they don't want us dead #but they fucking do. wanting to save trans men like a transphobe does is to want for our deaths #wanting to detransition trans people is wanting trans people eradicated #wanting trans people to be pushed out of public life is to want to eradicate trans people #you don't always have to be presented with the literal worst transphobia to recognize how harmful and genocidal it is #because a transphobe doesn't want to save a person like me - they want a person like me dead #brought up trans men because: 1.) i am one 2.) i see this form of transphobia apologism too much 3.) it terrifies me to see that shit #because what recourse is there for trans people who don't face what is deemed 'good enough' transphobia? what do they do? #what do you do when nobody wants to help you because you are either not suffering enough or you aren't suffering in the 'right' way? #the overarching trans community must be prepared to deal with a variety of trans lives and issues if we ever want trans liberation #if we are not equipped to help and aid trans people who are not what you typically expect then we are doing trans people a disservice

[mattodore]

i’ve been pretty quiet on here and avoiding my activity and dms these last few weeks because october was easily one of the worst months i’ve had in a very long time and i lost my family dog of seventeen years and had a medical scare for not only myself but my cat and just all these things happened at once that felt incredibly hard to bounce back from mentally… but aside from being sick atm things are starting to get better for me and my family so hopefully i can actually start being. normal. again soon 🧎

#river dipping #i don’t think i get personal on here very often just bc. the pd. um #but i figured i should say something bc my avoidant personality disorder is uhhhhhhhh #certainly Avoiding. #i’m so sorry if you’ve messaged me or @ed me or just tried interacting in any way #ik i wrote in my pinned navigation that yea i take breaks and avoid my activity and it’s nothing personal #but i still just wanted to reiterate it #i tend to keep notifications off for tumblr and my activity and everything like i only ever check when i’m mentally prepared for the State #my brain goes into when interacting with people #it’s not that i’m ignoring you!! my brain is just. very bad. #and i have a lot of trouble actually replying #especially in private messages #i’m much more comfortable talking publically which is why discord is so not for me 😭 #i really have been pushing myself out of my comfort zone a lot this past year and it’s certainly helped a ton #but still. it’s a disorder i’ve had my whole life so 🤷 it’s still sticking around ykwim #so i’m sorry 😔 but i’m also incredibly thankful toward everyone who’s taken the time to talk to me and interact with me and just thought of #me in general even when i’ve been so isolated recently #ummmm but on the bright side i moved out finally and am at a place that isn’t gonna poison my brain anymore so ‼️ #it took a few horrible days for my pets to get used to the house but things are fine now and i’ve set up my room and am :) doing better #surprisingly my panic disorder has been absent since the move… which is very weird for me #i fr think my previous place might actually have been poisoning me like i’m serious #……..i might delete this post in a bit if i start feeling too crazy abt being vulnerable lmao. um. #but for the people that’re online rn! my beloved friends and lovers yk #there’s my little update

[tennessoui]

“You’re such a bitch.” Would love it if you could make it work in the Cheating AU (cosss I'm obsesssssedd with it).

Ideally Anakin saying it to Obi-Wan, but doesn'tneed to be, whatever inspires you 💙.

hey hi hello!!! ok so this is set in the cheating au (gffa au where obi-wan and anakin cheat on their partners---satine, who knows and doesn't care and padmé who doesn't know and will definitely care---to be with one another), and i'd go into detail about the timeline more, but actually I think the characters pretty much say everything you need to know. In my mind this is about three months before Anakin gets hurt and obi-wan makes him choose between his wife and him.

(2k) (cw: infidelity, jealousy, asshole behavior from obikin)

The twi’lek waitress keeps making eyes at Obi-Wan and the man is letting her. His wife is right there, next to him.

Anakin is right across from him while he gently touches the server’s wrist, compliments the length and coloring of her lekku, refers to her by her name that he remembers—Niv’era—and laughs over jokes she hasn’t even really said. 

It’s all very disgusting, and it’s even worse when Anakin catches Satine’s eye from across the table. She has the most annoying knowing look, and Anakin blanches beneath it. He hates that for a second, they’re in the same sort of twisted club. In love with a man who is an incorrigible flirt.

Well, Satine has said many times she feels no romantic inclination towards her husband. Anakin just can’t believe that’s true.

It’s Obi-Wan.

Obi-Wan, who has taken a singular bite out of his correllian beef tenderloin and has stopped Niv’era on her way past the table to praise her for the suggestion, as if she personally cooked it herself. She probably can’t even cook. She looks younger than Anakin’s children, and they’re three.

Padmé shifts next to him, setting her fork down and placing her hand over his own fisted hand, as if trying to soothe him.

The movement catches Obi-Wan’s eye, and he pauses for a second before he continues, even louder and more flirtatious than before, running a hand through his hair with a roguish grin as the star-struck child of a server tells him about the last time she visited Stewjon and what she did there with her family.

Out of some unpleasant and nameless emotion, Anakin flips his hand over and intertwines his fingers with his wife. He can feel her wedding band against his knuckle. Anakin had forgotten to wear his ring. He usually does these days when he knows he’ll see Obi-Wan.

“Your anniversary is coming up, no?” Satine asks. Anakin glares at her, but she simply smiles in return. Bitch.

“In two weeks,” Padmé says, taking a tiny sip of her plum wine. Obi-Wan’s whiskey is untouched on the table before him. He’s finally dismissed the waitress and has turned his attention fully back to them.

Anakin fights a sneer and wonders if in a few nights, Obi-Wan will come back alone to this restaurant, ask the girl for a tour of the place, push her into a closet and coax her into breaking her marriage vows for the chance to lick the taste of whiskey out of his mouth. She probably wouldn’t say no.

Anakin hadn’t.

“And how many years will that be?” Satine asks, nibbling at the edge of a crust of bread. “Five? No. Six?”

“Six,” Padmé agrees. “We married very young.”

Anakin had married very young. Padmé had married at a respectable age.

“Six years, wow,” the blonde woman says with a tiny shake of her head. She raises her wine glass. “Here’s to six years of love and commitment. May there be many more.”

Padmé laughs and raises her own glass, tilting her head up to look at Anakin. She’s probably expecting a kiss from her husband. Anakin is hardly her husband anymore, and he is absolutely not the man she married.

Obi-Wan raises his own glass and tossses the entirety of the contents back in one go. “You’re such a bitch,” he tells Satine, pushing away from the table. “Excuse me.”

Padmé’s hand has fluttered to her mouth in shock at the words, eyes wide and quickly turning angry for the sake of her friend. “That was absolutely out of line, I’m sorry, Satine.”

“Oh, it’s alright,” Satine looks amused more than anything. “We’re all tense over the elections.”

“There’s no need for that level of disrespect though,” Padmé declares. Anakin knows he should say something, fall in line with his wife and agree. But Padmé doesn’t have all the information. Satine was being a bitch, and she’s the only one at the table who doesn’t know it or understand why.

 “I know you two have an…unconventional marriage—” it’s no secret among friends that the Kenobi-Kryzes have an open marriage, something Padmé has never been able to fully understand— “but if my husband talked to me like that in a serious manner, I would divorce him on the spot.”

She looks at him and he nods because he’s supposed to nod. He’s supposed to find the threat slightly funny, and agree that he would never do something so uncouth like that.

But all he can think is, Promise?

“I’m going to go check on him,” he says, standing and putting his napkin on the table. He can’t spot the waitress either and now he’s thinking the worst. His chest is tight. If he finds Obi-Wan and he’s kissing someone else, Anakin doesn’t know what he’ll do.

It feels like it would be a betrayal. Of them. Their relationship.

But aren’t they both betrayers already? Obi-Wan’s marriage wasn’t open until three years ago, when Satine had declared to the pair of them that she wanted to have just as much liberty to take other partners as Obi-Wan apparently thought he had. And, she’d said, having an open marriage meant that she wouldn’t have to hide it. Unlike Obi-Wan and Anakin.

And Anakin and Padmé’s marriage….It was not always what it is now. The guilt should eat him alive and sometimes when he’s in the fresher, washing off the scent of Obi-Wan before his wife comes home, it does.

Most of the time though, it’s not there anymore at all. It’s been four years, sneaking around with Obi-Wan. He’s addicted.

Addicts can’t let guilt consume them. That’s what the addiction is for.

Padmé has slid over to his chair to grasp at Satine’s hand. She’ll probably have a long fiery speech prepared for Obi-Wan when he gets back. Suddenly Anakin doesn’t want to hear it. 

For a brief second, he wishes he could just find Obi-Wan and leave the restaurant all together. Leave the planet. Run off into the stars.

He looks at the back of his wife’s head. She’d spent an hour styling her hair in the fresher mirror before coming out tonight. He’d been asked to hold certain pieces in place as she pinned them. In the early days of their marriage, which was also the early days of their relationship, he’d been humbled and awed to be invited into such a precious domestic scene. Tonight, he’d only felt vaguely irritated that she cared so much and that her caring had made them late, which meant minutes where Obi-Wan and Satine were alone at a restaurant like they’ve been for years before.

Anakin stares at the back of her head and feels the words rise into his mouth. You’re such a bitch, he imagines telling her. He wants to tell her.

But more than that, he wants the words to be true, and he knows they are not. He’d married a kindhearted woman with a soul just as beautiful as she is. And yet.

And yet.

Obi-Wan is in the restaurant’s fresher. It’s deserted otherwise, which is good because Anakin is fuming and he’s feeling reckless and as soon as Obi-Wan turns to look at him, he pushes him up against the edge of the sink.

“You’re such a fucking asshole,” he snarls and Obi-Wan’s hands immediately come up to fist into Anakin’s dress tunics, mess them up. Pull him closer. It’s always about closeness with Obi-Wan. 

“I’m an asshole? What was I supposed to do, listen to your wife talk about your fucking facade of a marriage until the desserts course?” Obi-Wan spits right back. “You’re a fucking—”

Anakin kisses him to shut him up. It’s angry and too much so fast, too much teeth and spit and Obi-Wan is kissing him like he’s trying to draw blood, like the only reason he’s kissing him is so that they’ll go back to the table and his wife will notice Anakin’s red lips and ask what happened.

The thought that Obi-Wan is kissing him for any other reason than because he loves him—he knows he does, he’s said—makes him even more furious. He rips himself away as quickly as he’d attacked.

Obi-Wan is breathing heavily against the sink.

“Don’t fucking flirt with the waitress in front of me,” Anakin says as calmly as he’s capable of. He catches sight of himself in the mirror behind Obi-Wan, and he doesn’t even recognize himself. His eyes are dark and his mouth is red and his chest is heaving.

“Don’t fucking hold hands with your wife in front of me,” Obi-Wan shoots back like he has any right to demand that from Anakin, any right at all to dictate his relationship with his wife.

It makes Anakin let out a crazed sort of laugh and he scrubs his hands over his face, through his hair. “Fuck, Obi-Wan. What the fuck are we doing? This…this is too much. This—”

He cuts himself off because Obi-Wan has stepped forward, into his space. It’s dangerous and it’s perfect and half of Anakin wants to pull him closer. The other part wants to push him away. That part has never won, and Anakin doesn’t think tonight will be the night it suddenly does.

Carefully, almost apologetically, Obi-Wan fixes the lay of Anakin’s tunics, covers him up and makes him presentable. His hands move just as gently up to his hair to comb it into place. Anakin shivers and lets him. This side of Obi-Wan is addicting as well.

After he’s been fixed and fawned over, Obi-Wan’s hands come to the back of his neck and rest there. For a second, Anakin thinks that he’s going to rise up on his toes and kiss him. Instead there’s fumbling and then Obi-Wan lifts the necklace Anakin is wearing off his neck.

Anakin thinks he needs to stop him. After all, it had been Obi-Wan who had given the jappor snippet back to him in the first place two years ago, telling him that there was no way his wife wouldn’t notice.

“Why don’t you keep this for me?” He’d said. “Wear it around your neck, tell your wife you’ve just been missing Tatooine. It wouldn’t be a lie. We’d just be the only two that knows what it means.”

The symbol on the pendant that Obi-Wan turns to fasten around his own neck means homesick. He’d carved it for the man after a month and a half of not being able to see each other. He’d—it’d been hard. It’d felt impossible, it’d felt wrong. Homesick for Obi-Wan.

When Padmé had noticed the new addition to her husband’s wardrobe, she’d asked what it meant. After all, he’d given her one all those years ago, a snippet he carved that meant good fortune. “We’ll match,” she’d said with a charming giggle, showing him the bracelet she’d fastened the snippet into. “And let’s see about visiting Tatooine soon.”

What neither Padmé nor Obi-Wan had understood, of course, was that on Tatooine, nothing was more important than one’s home. A place for family. A place to shelter from the elements. Safety and comfort and love wrapped in one.

On Tatooine, the symbol for homesick had five lines diverging from the middle and curling around themselves in a knot to leave an empty circle.

The pendant around Obi-Wan’s neck right now has the same design, but the circle is filled in. This symbol means, simply, home.

“This is mine,” Obi-Wan tells him. They both know they’re not just talking about the pendant. “I’ll remember if you do.”

Anakin wishes he could bring himself to forget, but it’s impossible. Obi-Wan makes it impossible just by being in the same room.

Later that night as he’s getting ready for bed, Padmé asks him what happened to his pendant.

“Must have slipped off some time during dinner,” he tells her. 

“Oh, that’s such a shame! You should call the restaurant tomorrow morning and see if they’ve found it. I know you were attached to it.”

“Yeah,” he says. “I will.” You’re such a bitch, he wants to say. But it’s not true. It’s not true and he can’t hurt her like that, not when he’s already hurting her in other ways. Ways she doesn’t even know about yet.

Yet.

#asks #cheating au #cw: infidelity #obikin #prompt fill #yes i am still working on these bless #obi-wan taking the pendant and wearing it is him basically gearing up to say #'i'm sick of not being yours/having you in public and i am very close to saying fuck it so be prepared for that xoxo' #anakin sort of gets this

[mike----wazowski]

i have 2 presentations tomorrow my world is collapsing like a house of cards

#mike's musings #what if i ******* ****** #im great at public speaking #my dumb ass is trying to rehearse and then gets dialogue snippet ideas for my ff7 fic #barret ily but get out of my head rn i need to talk about overexpansion during the pandemic #why am i pretending thati didnt have time to prepare this before literally the day before

[tendebill]

not to post personal shit on main, but this school year might fucking kill me

#im gonna be so tired for an entire year i can already feel it #so much shit to prepare for and manage and get thru #and i am just a little guy #on top of that public transit has failed me once more and i have to change how i get to school #personal #misc #might delete this later

[maraeffect]

okay today was like the first time since surgery that i've been able to exist as a human outside my house!! and i had a great time even though i am PAYING FOR IT. HEAVILY 💀

#god my ribs are KILLING ME SLOWLY #anyway i had a good day 🥺🥺🥺 last night my partner and i woke up at the same time #bc we both had to pee. and i totally forgot but when we laid back down i told her ''i'm hungy..'' #bc it was like 3 am and i didnt wanna get up. so i just wanted to complain lol #but she woke me up to a big breakfast she ordered in like ''hey it made me sad that you were hungry jn the night- #so i got you and i a big breakfast 🥺👉👈💖'' and UGH it made my heart so happy #and then we chilled out before i decided i could handle leaving home and wanted to go to the mall #and i had a really good time existing in public!!! im getting a little depressed from being bed bound #i FINALLY got after laughter on vinyl after wanting it for like almost 5 years 😭😭😭 #and some cute stickers!!! anyway yeah i had a nice day w my baby and it made me happy 🥹💖 #as much as im hurting badly rn it was worth it for the lil date 💖💖💖 pain meds should help soon anyway #im just glad to have finally gotten out of the house #chatter #round 2 #also let me just say my previous thoracotomy did NOT prepare me for this one. #turns out the open version is VERY DIFFERENT. which i knew but god its so stark when youre living it #p sure by 2 weeks post op last time i was relatively fine!!!! almost back to normal #oh and uh #autumn

[audreythree]

oh yeah lol i’m back but i still have an episode and a half left of ghosts because i lowkey feel like i will die inside once i finish it (christmas special notwithstanding) SO i am avoiding like the plague (unlike mick. poor, poor mick)

#hi ghosties #will watch today probably #i just have to mentally prepare myself #i am literally on a train for the next two hours so i have to weigh the pros and cons of crying in public #bbc ghosts

[peniscat]

i've only watched the romangerri tern haven scene once in my life because i'm afraid that watching it again would literally kill me

#yes i am very normal about it. completely regular #i was once listening to a podcast episode where j was interviewed. they had put a clip of the tern haven scene in the middle of the episode #i was not prepared. i swear my pulse skyrocketed to 200 when i realized what was happening. i was also in public. good times #i simply suffer from a condition called being obsessed with gerri in multiple ways. each of them is completely deranged <3 #yeah so. normal behaviour <3 #personal

[surfedoutbrainwaves]

bracelets for the fob show tomorrow!!

#i am so scared. i’m not prepared to feel the fall out boy emotion in public at a fob concert #or god forbid. patrick emotion. #i used 10yd of cord for these. im normal about this band #txt #mine #also i know i’m asking for the millionth time but roll call! is anyone else going to fob la <333

[milflewis]

lewis with his braids out in all black silk and pearls. shirts few buttons open. i am in his fucking walls how dare he do this without giving me a heads up first.

#i am in PUBLIC #and fucking kyle smh. sending it to me without a warning #i warned You about half naked mick #i travelled all day yesterday and wandered around the city today. looking Hot. and being hot af bc summer is in and handing in cvs #i am only so strong lads pls. i need mental preparation ok #blessed.txt

[uncahier]

Reflecting on last night’s accident, I had been on a Southwest flight previously, and man I would’ve loved a delay or rescheduling snafu over my taxi getting hit by another car

#anyway I have learned a lot about airbags and how they deploy during my downtime today #so there’s that #they really don’t prepare you for the smell #or at least they don’t if you don’t own a car 🤷🏻‍♀️ #I will pay way too much for housing I am never living somewhere without decent public transit

[wild-at-mind]

Saw a post yesterday that I got the meaning of but thought the execution was a little misguided. Basically it was saying that you shouldn't shame people for not proving with posts that they are doing all kinds of activism around the war in I/P. But it said you shouldn't do this because maybe they are doing super secret potentiall illegal activism and it's not safe to post about. When in fact I would argue much more generally- stop writing things that attempt to shame people for not 'doing enough' activism-wise AT ALL.

I really don't get this because I've been involved in environmental activism groups for the past 4 years and the most common thing people criticise environmental activist causes for is focusing too much on individual change. (Whether this if fair or not is debatable- sometimes yes, sometimes it's definitely in bad faith, sometimes people are projecting massively, and also often they are talking about some manner of corporate activism or token 'good faith' gesture from big companies that doesn't do much and that environmental activists are alsp criticising.) Therefore now there seems to be a big resurgence in trying to make individuals feel terrible until they put their nose to the grindstone enough to solve huge, monumentally vast conflicts, I am fucking confused. Ok I am being a little flippant here but I keep seeing people who are clearly feeling quilt tripped out of their minds about not doing enough. It is very concerning. What exactly do these ranty posters expect???

There was a period in 2016-2017 where I was really trying to be more involved in activism for a number of social justice issues, but I was also in a massive depressive episode and dealing with a lot of issues with black and white thinking. The way a lot of posts on tumblr were worded like 'hey you! Fuck you because everything you're doing or may even contemplate doing in future regarding activism is wrong somehow! Oh what you feel lonely and isolated? Well don't even think about mixing with anyone local to you who cares about similar issues because what if they disagree with you slightly??? That can't happen! Best not risk it.'

I don't know why people write stuff like this but I honestly find it basically locks up my brain until I can't do anything at all. And judging by some of the recent posting I've seen on here I'm not the only one. I'm not so affected now because I'm on better meds, and now I know a lot of activists IRL which has helped. Once I had recovered from the depressive episode I started getting involved in local environmental activism, as that is the main type of activism around here, and ignored the little voice in my head that I learned from tumblr saying I should get involved in more social justice oriented causes (which plain don't exist round here FYI). Turns out that people who care about one cause care broadly about most, even if they don't always get it right, and being in activist spaces in person helped me turn off the 'oh my god what if these people are...imperfect??!' inner monologue.

No one should have to justify their level of activism to you or anyone else. I'm not even going to give reasons why they may not be able to do more because everyone already knows and also because the whole line of thinking is flawed. Not posting about something does not make you complicit in it. Not exposing yourself constantly to the most disturbing and horrible news coming out of Gaza does not mean you are looking away from injustice. If your brain says that then flip the script on yourself- tell yourself that you personally looking at these things does not help anyone in Gaza. You feeling like shit helps no one.

I think people are much more able to stand up for causes they believe in when they are not being ground down by miserable guilt tripping. I think anyone who wants to avoid this needs to also avoid going along with the logic of these posts. Whether someone is doing a tonne of secret activism or no activism- it's not my business, and it's not for me to try and judge their heart and mind. Or for any of us.

#this unproofread post may not make much sense unless you have or are aware of a particular kind of OCD #just a warning- please take me in the same good faith you would want me to extend to you if you don't understand where i'm coming from #i am prepared to risk being misunderstood to write this anyway because i'm seeing a lot of warning signs in people #of the same mental state i was in in 2016-17 #all this and i didn't even have time to write my thoughts about secret vs non-secret actions in activism #but basically i find any idea that actions eg. marches that are well known enough to talk about publically #being useless and all secret actions to be more legit and effective to be damaging #especially because it's very hard for outsiders to become involved in secret actions for obvious reasons!! #but also because i think it's not true #and thinking that is likely to make people who are trying to get involved give up and just do nothing

[krispiecake]

you know when you get those adverts for like protein shake meal replacement bullshit products and people say shit like ‘im just so busy with work i never have the time for breakfast or lunch or dinner or snacks, so this horrible brown powder milkshake is a huge life TIMEsaver!’ and ‘its so convenient! i just swallow a glass of tasteless powder to meet my basic vitamin needs and then i have all the time my employer wants from me!’ and then you have to keep watching the unskippable ad only for the person not to become immediately radicalised by what they were just forced to say. I genuinely cannot fathom how people write these scripts, say them out loud, film these videos, edit them and publish them and nobody involved in that process is going insane. are you even listening? are you reading those words? cant you see the exploitation of workers is forcing you to stop performing even the most necessary of tasks like eating real food? and cant you see we have been so convinced that is normal that there are entire businesses and ad campaigns based on it?

food, actual real good normal food, is a human right, but also part of your culture, your family, your community. Its a source of joy, health, fun, love and creativity. please dont let these fucked up companies convince you its just time that could be better spent slaving away for the rich monsters that hold your contract.

#this is all so dystopian on so many levels #i also want to make clear bc if this ever sees the light of day outside my internet circle #that i am not talking about meal replacements for people who actually need them #if you have a chronic illness/disability or just some other physical condition that means you need to recieve your nutrition through #meal replacements of any kind - this post is not about that situation #this is about capitalism convincing the general public (forgive the phrasing) that people should forgo proper food in order to create more #time for corporations to exploit out of workers #i think (as some recovering (sort of) from an ed) our society has warped the way we view food and nutrition so disgustingly #and not just in the body image ‘health’ obsessed way #but also in this way and im sure many others too #so many foods or meals are marketed as prepare/cooked in x minutes and no prep and super convenient and has daily dose x x and x vitamins #LIKE. WHAT ABOUT TASTE. WHAT ABOUT THE JOY OF COOKING A BIG MEAL WITH YOUR FRIENDS. WHAT ABOUT FAMILY DINNERS. #WHAT ABOUT THE PRIDE YOU FEEL FINALLY GETTING A RECIPE RIGHT #WHAT ABOUT MAKING UR FOOD LOOK CUTE FOR FUN. WHAT ABOUT TEACHING KIDS HOW TO COOK. WHAT ABOUT SHARING FOOD WITH UR NEIGHBOURS. #WHAT ABOUT FAMILY RECIPES AND SECRET INGREDIENTS AND FEELING FULL AND HAPPY. #CAN ANYONE HEAR ME.

[snoopyisbisexual]

NGL my only friend at college is a rly bad friend and also has some unbearable flaws that I can't even address w her. but she is funny sometimes + I have nobody else

#she is a poli sci major who's obviously been told her whole life that she's smarter than everyone else around her #but she's a poli sci major + has literally defended public christmas only lights with ''ppl of other religions celebrate christmas'' #she is literally a very ignorant white person but bc she's a hair less ignorant than everyone else where she's from #she thinks she's exempt despite saying mad classist + weird ass shit unprompted #she also never asks me about anything + only talks about herself + assumes random shit about me + treats me like I'm a baby #bc im not hooking up w ppl all the time. like just bc I'm not as out there as her doesn't mean I'm clueless #it genuinely doesn't feel like she's at all interested in me + just wants someone to talk to without engagement #and I'm kind of tired of it tbqh #me + the femme r on hiatus which is kind of hard bc she's one of like the few ppl in my life rn who i feel like actually enjoys + #understands who i am + is invested in me personally but im not abt to be like. can we resume the relationship you're not prepared for so i #can feel wanted by someone like that's literally insane #also super selfish #but im hanging out w heaven tomorrow+ forgot to take my meds so it's probably fine #but also whenever my meds lapse i get kind of pissed off about this friend so idk #part of my problem is that im not talkative that much bc im autistic so im either super verbal or just thinkin' #but tbh I'd rather have silence than to feel like my voice is only 5% of the conversation does that make sense #but maybe im being unreasonable idk #also she actively prevents me from hanging out w her other friends + im kind of tired of being ostracized on behalf of ppl #who otherwise like me ?? like im acquaintances w her friends but she like. will not hang out w me + them #like i feel like thats wild behavior esp bc she knows i want to ? like i want to party but she's always like #''oh i just thought you wouldn't lke it'' which likr. why tf did you decide for me ?? #she always does this + never asks me like. ''lh i thought it would be weird to bring you'' but you brought your roommate who literally met #thrm last month + I've known them since last year + we literally had classes together ????? #smth fishy af going on