#amandathoughts

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Watching BEEF and god I think I cannot consume a24 content anymore. They’re always so unsettling and makes me anxious!! Sometimes it’s fine but my god it’s just…wrong?? Its like fuck your happy ever after and take something horrible and turn it into even more horrible but in a pretty, best for the camera lens way and proceed to just smash your brain in. It’s a good show or at least up to episode 6 and there’s a lot of layers to all of it and it’s good. I’m so nervous about what’s going to happen next!!

#amandathoughts #beef #beef netflix #Netflix

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Did I ever make posts about Loveless by Alice Oseman?? Because I’m deleting my photos and I cannot believe how relatable it feels to me!

Anyways got me feeling so many types of way. I love this book and I wish there were more overtly ace characters out there.

#amandathoughts #Alice Oseman #loveless #asexuality #asexual icons #asexual representation #ya lit #books #quotes

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Chelsea Cutler is amazing!! Here’s some lyrics that I am absolutely ✨feeling✨

#amandathoughts #music #Spotify #Chelsea cutler #new music #lyrics #sad girl pop #boom clap pop #can u tell I’m sad as shit??? #Instagram is my source of new music now #it’s just this growing up sad girl pop songs that gets recommended to me #I’m so goddamn sad all the time

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Cause the sun’s engaged to the sky / And my best friends found a new guy / I'm only getting older / I've never had a shoulder to cry on / Someone to call mine / Everybody’s falling in love / And I'm falling behind

#amandathoughts #music #Spotify #laufey #falling behind #songs about yearning #discovered her music today #AND IT SLAPS in a way #i still wish it was more pop #but i think i can get into just listening to more jazz style

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Aggretsuko is such a good twenty something show. She is literally meeeeeee and just stressing about everything!

#amandathoughts #aggretsuko

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But then the voices say, "You are not the exception You will never learn your lesson" Foolish one Stop checkin' your mailbox for confessions of love That ain't never gonna come You will learn the hard way instead of just walkin' out

#amandathoughts #foolish one #taylor swift #screaminggggg #love #lyrics #music #speak now tv #from the vault #spotify #Spotify

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Maybe the universe is giving me a massive sign for some reason?? boy from Beijing broke my heart hurt my feelings. Smashed my thumb in Beijing and got so massively sick in Beijing that I haven’t slept more than 4ish hours since I got here because I keep coughing. (I can’t do anything to alleviate the coughing!! The air is so goddamn dry and I don’t have my humidifier!). Also I’ve got a ton of bug bites all over my arms and legs and Im starting to think it’s beg bugs! No way mosquitos can survive out here in the cold! It’s also hella cold out here and wind is CHILLY. And this hotel is tooo luxurious to be properly enjoyed.

#amandathoughts

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Yooooo this is my song!!!

I mean the difference is that we’re not together but man I thought about his ex soooo much and memorized everything he’s ever said about her!

#amandathoughts #olivia rodrigo #obsessed #obsessed by Olivia Rodrigo #music #Spotify #unrequited love

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I’m doing No & Low Buy this year and I set up rules and regulations for purchases and it’s day one and I woke up to the urge to BUY!! I saw this reels of the is person building Mount Fuji in 3D paper and I was like ooh I want to do that and my thumb immediately moved to find the link to where they got it from. I stopped myself but the movement was so automatic. Then watching fashion videos makes me want to shop even more so I gotta limit my screen time for real. It’s gonna be a long and exhausting year I swear fjfjfjdndnd

#amandathoughts #no buy 2024 #new years

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What would make sea beast a true 10/10 is if the sea beasts ate the monarchs because let’s be real they are the true enemies and they choose to uphold the tradition and propaganda of hunting beasts and sacrificing the hunters. Anyways, all around good movie besides that! Lot of spunk and fun quips and love a classic pirate hunting large beasts movie that ends in beasts and humans coexisting!

#amandathoughts #sea beast #sea beast netflix #Netflix animation

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to repel my shopping urges i'm going to just go to the library and browse there. i just like browsing and going outside!! walking in a park is fun however its full of people but a library is just quiet and nice! can pick up something and not its FREE!

#amandathoughts #shopping addiction #LIBRARIES #i love them so much #how do i stop comparing myself when im outside?!!

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#amandathoughts #sad #web weaving #well my screenshots weaving #and these feelings are back in full force today!

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Wow Beef was absolutely amazing! I just absolutely love how this story centers purely on asian american stories and these characters are so complex and yet so easy to emphasize with while creating excellent amount of tension and comedy!

I genuinely enjoy Danny’s side of the story a lot because it hits closer to home for me! Even Isaac who’s such a loud and vulgar character, he does spit a lot of truths! Especially when he shouts something like “why do you hang out with white people! You’re Asian!” towards the end when a white lady says some weird shit and the other Asian characters don’t say anything which I like to scream sometimes lol. Danny’s side didn’t have to deal with white people per se and his environment is navigating the complex relationships between the Asian community. It’s messy and it’s lies and beytrayals just to make sure they have money to get by. The burden of not having money was so prominent here and its shown so well how that burden shapes how they talk to one another and believe what “success” means. They are so upfront and loud they end up being more honest (juxtaposed to Amy’s situation).

Amy’s story feels similar to me as an individual and having to navigate these white environments as well as balancing the family and the work and trying to keep her sanity. It’s the politeness of it all! Sometimes it feels exhausting to have to be so friendly and polite all the time especially at work when I really want to by pass the pleasantries and just tell me straight up what you want! Not in a mean way but just please be upfront (and since moving out here I feel this happen more often which I called California Nice). It’s seeing Amy put on so many masks and clutching her teeth a lot to present a front that appeases who she’s talking to. Like she knows she’s getting angry but she stomps it out and really tries to be calm and pleasant for everyone! No wonder when she found an outlet to go batshit crazy she does!

I don’t have that much pent up anger like these characters and the drive for revenge is insane to me but what a story!! They are reflections of one another and I love the cinematography did a fantasy job of showing that! They’re twin flames! They’re intertwined so much that they are the only people they can be their complete selves with! I love this juxtaposition story where everything they do is an opposite and opposing force and how their story shows the duality of being Asian American!

#amandathoughts #beef netflix #beef minor spoilers #a24 films #Netflix

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#amandathoughts #Katherine li #YOO!!! #Spotify #music #unrequited love #love songs #WOWOOOOWW!!! yeah yeah!! #when songs encompasses everything you’re feeling??? THIS IS ONE OF THEM #I feel seeeeenn and it’s a sad bop

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lyrics from GUTS that hits hard even as a late twenty something

^ THIS THIS THIS THIS THISSSSS

#amandathoughts #OLIVIA RODRIGO #GUTS

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Wait but why the fuck is it so hard to buy tickets for the eras tour movie???? I’m going through Ticketmaster again I swear djdjdnd ne

#amandathoughts #taylor swift #the eras tour movie