#an experiment was right lol

[puppyeared]

my attempt at making a fursona

#i never see any mole furries so i thought id try my hand at it ^_^ #i was hungry making this and was thinking of dirt cup pudding so its partly inspired by that and mario grass blocks #i dont draw furries very often so this was a fun learning experience lol. also!! star nose moles are kinda cute!!!! #when i was coming up with a name my mind kept going back to that tiktok of dogs and the tts voice saying stuff like i like mulch #mulch is my favorite food! yippee mulch!! so if youre wondering where i got the name theres the lore for it #i also wanna make a sea otter fursona.. and perhaps a snowshoe hare or other winter animal. oh or a barn owl!! #im trying to free my mind when it comes to making multiple sonas bc im still trying to wrap my head around it #ive always kinda seen myself as my persona but i want to try and be silly with it. actually while i was making this i was a little doubtful #to call it my fursona bc it doesnt look like me but a little voice inside my head was like well. youre not a 5 foot tall talking mole eithe #so you might as well. and i was thinking abt ppl with their dragon wolves with wings and i was like wow.. youre right... i can do what i #want forever. and brother that shit was enlightening it was like my third eye opened when i realized that #my art #myart #my oc #oc #fursona #mulch #furry art #sfw furry #character design #oc ref sheet #reference sheet

[inkskinned]

crows use tools and like to slide down snowy hills. today we saw a goose with a hurt foot who was kept safe by his flock - before taking off, they waited for him to catch up. there are colors only butterflies see. reindeer are matriarchical. cows have best friends and 4 stomachs and like jazz music. i watched a video recently of an octopus making himself a door out of a coconut shell.

i am a little soft, okay. but sometimes i can't talk either. the world is like fractal light to me, and passes through my skin in tendrils. i feel certain small things like a catapult; i skirt around the big things and somehow arrive in crisis without ever realizing i'm in pain.

in 5th grade we read The Curious Incident of the Dog In The Night-time, which is about a young autistic boy. it is how they introduced us to empathy about neurotypes, which was well-timed: around 10 years old was when i started having my life fully ruined by symptoms. people started noticing.

i wonder if birds can tell if another bird is odd. like the phrase odd duck. i have to believe that all odd ducks are still very much loved by the other normal ducks. i have to believe that, or i will cry.

i remember my 5th grade teacher holding the curious incident up, dazzled by the language written by someone who is neurotypical. my teacher said: "sometimes i want to cut open their mind to know exactly how autistics are thinking. it's just so different! they must see the world so strangely!" later, at 22, in my education classes, we were taught to say a person with autism or a person on the spectrum or neurodivergent. i actually personally kind of like person-first language - it implies the other person is trying to protect me from myself. i know they had to teach themselves that pattern of speech, is all, and it shows they're at least trying. and i was a person first, even if i wasn't good at it.

plants learn information. they must encode data somehow, but where would they store it? when you cut open a sapling, you cannot find the how they think - if they "think" at all. they learn, but do not think. i want to paint that process - i think it would be mostly purple and blue.

the book was not about me, it was about a young boy. his life was patterned into a different set of categories. he did not cry about the tag on his shirt. i remember reading it and saying to myself: i am wrong, and broken, but it isn't in this way. something else is wrong with me instead. later, in that same person-first education class, my teacher would bring up the curious incident and mention that it is now widely panned as being inaccurate and stereotypical. she frowned and said we might not know how a person with autism thinks, but it is unlikely to be expressed in that way. this book was written with the best intentions by a special-ed teacher, but there's some debate as to if somebody who was on the spectrum would be even able to write something like this.

we might not understand it, but crows and ravens have developed their own language. this is also true of whales, dolphins, and many other species. i do not know how a crow thinks, but we do know they can problem solve. (is "thinking" equal to "problem solving"? or is "thinking" data processing? data management?) i do not know how my dog thinks, either, but we "talk" all the same - i know what he is asking for, even if he only asks once.

i am not a dolphin or reindeer or a dog in the nighttime, but i am an odd duck. in the ugly duckling, she grows up and comes home and is beautiful and finds her soulmate. all that ugliness she experienced lives in downy feathers inside of her, staining everything a muted grey. she is beautiful eventually, though, so she is loved. they do not want to cut her open to see how she thinks.

a while ago i got into an argument with a classmate about that weird sia music video about autism. my classmate said she thought it was good to raise awareness. i told her they should have just hired someone else to do it. she said it's not fair to an autistic person to expect them to be able to handle that kind of a thing.

today i saw a goose, and he was limping. i want to be loved like a flock loves a wounded creature: the phrase taken under a wing. which is to say i have always known i am not normal. desperate, mewling - i want to be loved beyond words.

loved beyond thinking.

#spilled ink #writeblr #personal #please don't ask me to talk on my experience on the spectrum lol. i hate how ppl talk to me about it #i really try not to write so specifically about it #bc inevitably someone talks to me like im a child #i think this is the first time i've ever openly identified with it but i've been hinting for years #i might delete this. feels big. #the thing is that being on the spectrum actually IS a spectrum #and if u say ur autistic #inevitably someone makes an assumption about ur needs/symptoms #please do not treat me differently than u usually would. like.... we can tell when you do #and like i mention. i do appreciate the effort. i do truly appreciate the effort. #but it still feels like... #when i was blind. sometimes people kind of did the same-ish thing. #they'd find out i was blind and start talking really loudly? #and while i KNOW they're just trying to help. it would be like. i'd be trying to find #the right way into a building (sometimes only 1 door is unlocked and i couldn't see the signs posted about where to go) #and ppl would be like ''OH UR BLIND? YES SO THIS IS A DOOR. IT OPENS INTO THE BUILDING. IT IS LOCKED NOW." #''A DOOR CAN BE FOUND IN MANY LOCATIONS.'' #and it feels like. when i admit to being autistic #someone comes screeching into my life being like THIS IS A DOOR.

[expelliarmus]

#mine #doctor who #dwedit #david tennant #catherine tate #the doctor: I WAS RIGHT!!!! we may die but I WAS RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!! #i've been meaning to gif this all week but then other gifsets got in the way lol #HELLO FRIENDS IT IS VERY COLD #yesterday it took me 3 hours to drive home from work #it was an absolutely terrible experience. do not recommend #so then i took the day off today because i didn't want to go back out there #but it seems to be a lot better.... just very cold.... #i should add it took me 3 hours because of a tiny amount of snow that turned the roads to ice #fun times!!! #edit: oh no... not showing in the tags #i hope it magically fixes itself later :(

[mccoalminer]

Alison Bechdel

#alison Bechdel #dykes to watch out for #ive been thinking about this image a lot partly because that right there is what we like to call a shared experience #but also because of the god damn gender of this dyke in particular #dtwof holds a special place in my heart because as a comic strip about queer/butch experiences it feels like a rare insight into how wlw #felt in the 80s-00s and especially over that progression. its not about traumaposting or sending a message #it was just dykes going and not to play into a cliche here but i think thats beautiful #just lesbians living their lives #i always think of it like if the f.r.i.e.n.d.s. cast was replaced by a group of gay ppl living politically charged lives #only without making the gay ppl the butt of the joke lol #ive forgotten what i was trying to sau with these tags but basically these two lil panels feel like a lot like home to me #gender #oh no i used the dreaded quotation marks in my tags and it has ruined the order of the tags #the 8th tag was supposed to say something like 'its just dykes going 'this reminds me of a dyke i know' ...' #7th tag not 8th i cant count #the point is #i tried

[jaytalking]

Hiiii have I told you guys he's my favourite guy. Have I told you. Can we talk about him for the love of god please Hi hello. <- has not shut up about him in days.

#MY SHINING STAR!!! THAT'S MY FUCKING BOY RIGHT THERE #I am a Heiji fan first and human second #I would gladly read a comic spinoff about his wackass adventures #detective conan case closed #detective conan #detco #hattori heiji #kudo shinichi #heishin #in that last pic. is it even worth mentioning? oh well #i love how he is the narratives favourite guy to put in near death experiences #like #Conan has several too! But Heiji has the highest Appearance to Near Death Experience ratio from what ive seen so far lol #also yeah the train ticket is specifically an Osaka one but he's accidentally covering the “Osaka” but its fine!!! <- about to bite someth

[shimmershy]

I caved and doodled Hunter instead of sleeping.

#if i didn't have school I would be drawing him soooo much right now #toh spoilers #the owl house spoilers #toh #the owl house #my art #sketches #doodles #hunter #hunter the owl house #hunter toh #toh hunter #the owl house hunter #thanks to them #i had a wild experience with color theory while coloring these because I was color picking directly from screenshots #and at first the color alone looked wrong but you add the other colors and suddenly it's like OH!!! #anyway its so cool but it still makes no sense to me lol #it's 2am and i have a class at 8am see ya on the other side folks ✌

[cocogum]

Yugo: “So yeah, in the end I no longer have my child body, I defeated and accepted my alter egos who have been ruining and messing around with the world, I saved Nora with some friends, I told our mother to leave if she wasn’t going to do anything, I became king of the eliatropes once again, and I got married to my childhood friend/crush which is why we got a last name now-”

Yugo’s old incarnations: “WE GOT LAID?!?!??”

#i have this huge hdc that if Yugo could communicate with his past incarnations the only thing they’d latch on to #is the fact that they got married lol #past yugo was definitely someone who couldn’t stop moving and was absolutely dedicated to adventure #it would be such a wild fact if they learned that they got married in one of their lives #they have like no experience in dating whatsoever lol #they’d act like kids around Yugo who don’t know how marriage works #“is she hot?? does she like adventure?! is she into life-threatening situations?!?? what about her family? do they like us?! TELL US!! #the first yugo incarnation is crying right now lol #“…is she into old bearded men too by any chance…? 😭😭😭 #wakfu #ankama #krosmoz #wakfu yugo #wakfu season 4 #wakfu s4 #yugo #yugo wakfu #yumalia #wakfu yumalia #wakfu yugo x amalia #yugo x amalia #yugo the eliatrope #king yugo #yugo sheran sharm

[sysig]

You keep underestimating others and it’ll come back to bite you (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Handplates #Sans #Gaster #Papyrus #And a touch more Fellplates for the road lol #Fellplates #Starting with Sans tho! The poor tired thing </3 #He has to put up with an awful lot for all the didn't-ask-for-this and single HP about it #Since it's been so long away I forgot how fun he was to draw - so many lovely designs all over ♪ #Onto Fellplates - technically a spacefiller idea that ended up being fun and silly #As much as attaching metal GPS devices to your experiment-children hands can be anyway #Fell!Gaster makes them rose gold to go along with his whole pastel vibe lol #That doesn't make it better Gaster! That's literally just a veneer! #I do love just how extremely done Sans is with him tho lol #Goes right to Papyrus like ''Hey so y'know those ideals could you maybe bend them just a little bit for me as a favour'' #Little baby Fell!Papyrus having to think about it! But from which direction hmmm #The Nature vs. Nurture of Fellplates really does interest me quite a bit ♪ #Very especially the idea of being told you are ''bad'' and how that shapes you - classic Handplates also explores it! Why not Fellplates #And then back to classic lol - Sans is Angery™ and Gaster as usual Does Not Care #What's he gonna do about it throw him into the Core? Pfsh #Do not 1v1 your child Gaster it doesn't go well for anyone #And finally a couple more sillies of he #Being rude - of course lol - just don't let whoever it is you're insulting see you! #''I wasn't using my own hands'' ''It's the same thing! >:0'' lol #And just a simple one of him inspecting his own bullets :) Gotta make sure they're strong and sturdy! Got a lot of ATK/DEF to do!

[purpleshadow-star]

So I went to an early screening for the first two episodes of the Percy Jackson show yesterday (Saturday), and let me just say, it is 100% the adaptation we deserve. It was amazing. Once it ended, I wanted more.

The characterizations were amazing, any changes there were made sense and made the situation more realistic and added tension, the story was straight from the book, it was just amazing.

I went with my mom and she, who doesn't know the books, really enjoyed it. I asked her how she liked it (literary just the first two episodes) compared to Harry Potter (which i had her watch a few years back), and she said there was no contest. She likes the pjo show much more. She said it was engaging and even had her wanting the next episode once it was done.

Everyone needs to watch this show. It was amazing. It lives up to the hype. We need to make sure it gets greenlit for season 2.

#oc it's not perfect #there is one (1) critique i have but tbh it's not a super big deal and could very well be rectified in future episodes #but other than that it was absolutely amazing #the whole theater was clapping at iconic moments and it was a great experience too #once we got home i made my mom rewatch the lightning theif movie with the new context so that she could see what weve had to live with #she hated it lol and she doesnt even know the amount of inaccuracies bc she hasnt read the book #she said it's just a bad movie in general and she's right lol #anyway the show was AMAZING everyone make sure to watch it as it comes out so that they greenlight S2 #riordanverse #rick riordan #percy jackson show #percy jackson tv series #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson #annabeth chase #grover underwood #pjo series #pjo show #percy jackson disney+ #pjo disney+ #pjo #no pjo spoilers

[the-way-astray]

thinking about the fact that in a handful of years, people will be able to read the entire kotlc series from start to finish without having to wait years before the next book comes out.

#kotlc #found this in my drafts lol #and like #yeah i'm so right #like omg imagine reading kotlc and not having the experience of waiting for years for the next piece of the story #like wow #what must that feel like #i think waiting for kotlc to come out changed my brain chemistry more than the actual series itself

[puppyeared]

RETURN TO MONKE (PUBERTY EDITION)

MK’s monkey form doesn’t feel right to me so i wanted to break up his transformation into stages. Maybe as he learns to accept that side of himself it becomes part of him, instead of changing between human and monkey randomly (which is probably painful). Love yourself, NOW!!!

@zymstarz im tagging you for FULL MONKE

#ALSO BECAUSE. THAT BOY NEEDS A NOSE #i like the idea of MK constantly flashing between his monkey and human forms as some sort of internal conflict or identity crisis #and he can’t hold his monkey form for very long soo. I’m going to put way too much thought into it and say its some sort of repression #also I made the hair on the sides of his face more attached or growing on the cheeks so it kind of frames it #maybe it’s because his design is so top heavy on his head and that’s why the sideburns feel wrong to me #like it’s fine with Swk and macaque because their hair is more like a tuft. but MKs hair is longer it just feels less balanced shape wise #I also don’t see his tail being very strong right off the bat because it’s. a new limb so the muscle has to be underdeveloped imo #I’m still a firm believer in the face mark XP system though. that is his Minecraft experience bar fight me #ALSO ALSO going back to him flashing between human and monkey. I just like this idea because to complement that idea of identity crisis #like think about it. if he comes to accept this new part of himself he doesn’t have to decide between one or the other I guess? like he #gets used to exploring this part of his identity. also it’s like Pokémon evolution lol #my art #myart #doodles #lego monkie kid #lmk #monkie kid #lmk season 4 spoilers #lmk s4 spoilers #lmk season 4 #lmk s4 #lmk MK #lmk xiaotian #lego monkie kid fanart #lmk fanart

[cilibi]

Gihim my beloved <3

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Pose reference: https://www.deviantart.com/jookpubstock/art/Sword-008-pose-reference-886842770

#ghirahim #legend of zelda #legend of zelda fanart #skyward sword #loz skyward sword #loz fanart #ghirahim fanart #I will never get over ghirahim #the is one of my original gender envy experiences #right behind Link himself lol

[yesokayiknow]

do you ever think about how martha left after a whole series of trauma and then when she came back for three episodes she experienced every single possible trauma at once

#rewatching s4 again sorry i love them #and like. good g o d #not trusted by the doctor bc of her job. finds out she got replaced and 10 told donna everything #then kidnapped and cloned. watches herself die. nearly sees the earth die. nearly watches her friend sacrifice himself #caught in an explosion. taken as a prisoner as war. exposed to radiation. nearly drowns. watches her new friend die. watches jenny die #like what the fuck right #it's been a while since i watched her torchwood run but doesn't she also get kidnapped and nearly experimented on there lol #like i think her experiences in those eps was a little overshadowed by uh. owen. but still #doctor who #martha jones

[ahappyphjl]

🖤🌹

#im experimenting with different stuff in photoshop so sorry my gifs are like not a consistent style or quality right now lol #mine #dnp #dan and phil #phan #daniel howell #dan howell #amazingphil #phil lester #dapg #dnpgames #dan and phil games #gamingmas 2023 #pinof reaction #dogdaily

[coquelicoq]

shin yoosung and lee gilyoung demonstrably would love kim dokja if he were a worm. they've proven it. they have a room full of evidence of how much they love every creature they think could possibly be kim dokja. when he disappears from the world they see him in all things and their love expands accordingly. so yeah, they'd love him if he were a worm. if he's a worm they immediately make him a super comfy terrarium and attach a label that says KIM DOKJA WORLD'S BEST WORM. the first few times they fight over who gets to cuddle him they maybe accidentally pull his head off, but they're quick learners. (and it grows back. the guy's a worm.)

now would they also find a way to make kim dokja being a worm into a competition over who loves him best? obviously. lee gilyoung would be all smug at first. he'd be like hyung is a bug, i win!! and shin yoosung would be all actually it means more that i love him because i clearly love ahjussi for ahjussi whereas you just love all bugs so it doesn't count. and then they'd slapfight until some nerd came along to reveal that worms are members of kingdom animalia, thereby destroying shin yoosung's argument. they have to settle it as a tie. a worm is clearly a bug and technically an animal. either way kim dokja is kim dokja and they would love him in any form, in every universe.

#idk is the whole returnee arc foreshadowing for the kdj fragments thing??? #i can't articulate this because i'm just banging it out during a commercial break but are you seeing my vision or is #my vision nonsense? i need a second opinion lol #anyway i am right about the worm thing though. would they love him if he was a worm? no question. zero. #they wouldn't even understand the thought experiment. they'd be like obviously? duh?? #orv #sys #lgy #orv spoilers #my posts #omniscient reader's viewpoint #f

[kimodraw]

thought a lot abt the cw shows these past few days

#spn #supernatural #spn fanart #sam winchester #dean winchester #castiel #third one is abt standford sam meeting his 40 year old self and neither of them enjoying the experience #captionned the first one 'end of the road' on twitter #i think lucifer would dress himself up (as seen in the end with the unfitting white suit) hence the stupid knight boots and stuff #bc he cares abt his vassal he loves his vassal (evil grin) #wherehas michael sees dean as utilitarian. his tool. daddys blunt instrument dare i say #so he doesnt take the time to put himself in different clothes than whatever dean is wearing #also i wanted the handprint to show so #oh also second drawing . love to put sam in his moms nightgown lol #+vaguely yonic blood shape on the holy sword yeah yeah we've all seen it #OH RIGHT and lucifer's holding a morningstar bc that's what he's called sometimes idk if this is obvious or not #ok. those r all my thoughts on these. lots of thoughts. good night