#an inconvenient affection

[grishaverse-chaos]

hmmm something about dominik haunting the narrative in king of scars. everything nikolai does is at least a little bit for him. he learns about the life of average ravkan people by meeting dominik's family. he starts gaining influence in politics just so he can improve dominik's life. and then he promises dominik that he won't let ravka break him.

that promise fucking haunts him. it follows him wherever he goes. it's the driving force behind everything he does, every step he takes to heal the centuries-old wounds in ravka. it's what drives him to do better, be better.

dominik is always there, in the back of his mind: this country gets you in the end. always pushing him to do more, because he couldn't save dominik and so he has to save ravka (for dominik) (because he promised) (because he loved him)

#my spicy hot take is that nikolai's relationship with dominik actually affects the narrative of the duology more than - #- his relationship with zoya does #you could argue that *none* of the events of the duology would have happened without dominik's influence #and honestly zoyalai as a relationship doesn't really affect the narrative/plotline all that much #which is One of the problems i have with it being endgame #anyway yes i am writing an angsty nikolai backstory fic why do you ask? #it's mostly about how he reinvents himself at every minor inconvenience (but also how incredibly fucked up his childhood was) #and if i have the energy it might turn into a rewrite of the ending of rule of wolves #bc him giving up the throne just plays into that pattern of running away #so honestly i think it's not a great ending in terms of his arc and character development #this may just be a me thing idk but i just feel like he doesn't actually get that much development in the duology #bc there's this idea of him as being Perfect and Invulnerable and Not Affected By His Trauma #which. is not the case. #it's all very dear reader (taylor swift) imo #ANYWAY #mayhem.txt #mayhem grishaverse originals #nikolai lantsov #shadow and bone #king of scars #grishaverse

[dunmeshiminimumwage]

#mod chilchuck #not to post twice in a row but yknow #i used to start my shift at 8am and now its at 730. for no obvious reason. #ihave to get up even earlier now. #its not even like we open the store earlier. it still opens at the same time. #dunno what it is. #it really only affects me and the other girl who works weekdays #but still. its inconvenient #it doesnt even make sense given that the high schoolers cant get there at 330 to releave those of us that work days. #so theres an hour long gap in the schedule where its just the managers. #whagever #i do get to work with the other girl who works days on wednesday. this rarely happens (usually work opposite days). #dunno who theyll have working register that day since thats what we both usually do. idc either way. #izutsumi #kabru #shuro

[anxiously-sidequesting]

#inspired when i saw an ad on youtube for wizard101 #where it said “come play for free and explore 16 different worlds!!!” and i was like okay thats a fucking lie #you cant even get all the way through the FIRST world #personally i think its stupid and inconvenient to have to pay to play the MAIN QUESTLINE #for the people who dont have time to grind the set amount of time you pay for membership or those who dont have money #you either pay for a year and are pressured to do as much as you can before time runs out #or you're stuck doing nothing. there's very little you can do without membership #like the main selling point of the game is so you can finish the story. thats what we download the game for in the first place #it gives you the impression that the priority here is your money and not the consumer's enjoyment and comfort #like there are plenty of games who make the entire game free and still are well off #we pay like 40-50 dollars on bundles and even more than that on crowns. that should be more than enough #there are other games where if you dont have membership it barely affects your gameplay experience overall #or games that have no membership function but still can make decent money #imo having to pay to just actually play the game doesnt make it free. like yeah you can do other stuff like fish and duel each other- #and thats it. you walk around the commons and talk ig #thats like the biggest reason i dropped the game its just wayy too expensive and inconvenient to play it #wizard101 #w101 #wiz101 #polls

[justanangryduck]

Do you think any of the FBI people who were trying to find Sam and Dean ever encountered the Supernatural books?

At first they would have thought the brothers had read the books and just had some weird delusions about being the characters but then it gets so much weirder because their birth certificates and records and every place they have ever lived in from before the books were even published all match with the back story in the text. Then it gets weirder because... the books would have talked about the FBI investigation right? About all the alleged murders and torture and bank robberies and all of it.

If you were that FBI person you would have to assume that Sam and Dean had written it or that Chuck knew them personally and belived in their monster delusions or was enabling them. Did they think that Chuck was the mastermind behind it all? The one encouraging the Winchesters to commit these crimes and then basing his book series off of it?

#obviously none of the FBI put it together because Chuck didnt let them but can you imagine how funny it would be? #the meta reason is that to maintain status quo nothing that happens can actually affect the setting and culture in the spn universe #and also that it would be inconvenient if everywhere they went ppl were like “hey arent you literal mass murderers? i saw you on the news” #supernatural #spn #dean winchester #sam winchester

[exmeowstic]

can people have any amount of sympathy for pharmacy staff like. im fucking begging yall to use your brains those are underpaid service workers the same as anyone else and they dont personally control every aspect of your medications. they arent fucking holding your meds over your head because they think its funny, theyre normal people working a job as a shitty middle man between doctors and insurances and manufacturers just trying to make sure you can get your meds

#literally called my coworker giving them shit bc THEY forgot to keep track of their own business #we literally had their shit sitting here ready for like a week and they just never picked it up #then decided they had a chip on their shoulder abt it when OF COURSE they ran out bc they never picked it up!!! #doesnt help rhat their attitude towards people and like. basic decency goes out the fucking window the second something actually #inconveniences or affects them #edited tags to make it a Bit more vague but man. that person was a dick for no good reason

[harbingerwife]

Sigh. It appears my internet might be a bit compromised due to the political climate and the upcoming elections, so I might disappear for about two or so days.

#This is. terribly inconvenient and I am awfully worried about my classes. #Although; since this issue is meant to be affecting the entire country; surely the classes will be cancelled? #Who knows. #Hopefully it’s just a rumour but we will most likely have no net following today’s noon. #Til 9th of the month. #🫀; scriptures.

[adhdo5]

It's kind of a testament to how far it's been that despair converts so easily to a directed anger but it still doesn't do that Enough. I wish I were the kind of guy that can use that directed rage efficiently as ambition but I'm not, not yet at least, and that's is, derangedly, humiliating to me in and of itself

#It's embarrassing to be so made of jelly! It's so embarrassing to be so emotionally fragile #I know it's not a bad thing to be easily affected etc but it's embarrassing and inconvenient #It makes me feel powerless which makes me feel small and self conscious #It's upsetting. I'm upset. And I am not good enough at making that upset into impetus #I am just frustrated with myself and bored and annoyed

[everlastiingiimmortals]

((had to follow up my ticket to staff about mutuals not appearing on my dash....))

#//immortal; (OOC) #((sobs)) #((this is seriously so inconvenient i'm constantly checking the blogs affected on my end bc im paranoid of missing stuff)) #((orz)) #((if anyone has solutions/experienced this problem and can help lemme know :') ))

[elizabro]

people are so spineless about protests. bro it's a peaceful rally that inconveniences you slightly. people with all these attitudes like "what's it gonna do? go do it somewhere it matters..." and "now everyone just thinks you're assholes" "you just want attention" "you're just virtue signalling" holy shit. there is not One Big Protest you go to and then the war stops and everyone goes home. have you read about a single social movement in your entire life? where the fuck are we supposed to protest. white house steps only? we gotta fly out there? use our inside voices? hide from the tourists? sanctioned protest hour? get fucking REAL

#sorry I have to do this to keep from arguing with people in my city's subreddit #'what can our local politicians do??' 'what can the average american do about a war in the middle east?' USE YOUR BRAIN #dude the thing about protests just turning people against your cause is so absurd. #people will get annoyed no matter where or how you protest. #too many people whose core values are based on their own personal inconvenience. #also yeah? of course we want attention. do you know what a protest is. #what is with this attitude that trying to draw attention to any social issue at all is borne out of egotism? #it is not more egotistical to ignore everything that doesn't affect you personally?

[semifemme]

STIMMING NOT TWITCHING OR SHIVERING ‼️‼️

ITS CALLED STIMMING GOD IM SSUCH A DUMBASS

DISREGARD THAT PART IN FUCKSHITPOST 4.86

I CAN STIM IN THE COMFORT OF MY OWN HOME NOW WITHOUT ANYONE TO JUDGE AND ADMONISH ME BECAUSE I AM VERY VERY NEUROTYPICAL PRESENTING TO THE POINT PEOPLE REFUSE TO BELIEVE THAT I AM YKNOW EVERYTHING NO ONE WANTS TO BELIEVE IM AUTISTIC DESPITE BEING DIAGNOSED AT 2YO AND BEING NONVERBAL AND HAVING TO BE PUT IN THERAPY FOR YEARS BCS OF THAT PEOPLE R SHITTY SOMETIMES :(

#okay hot take but self diagnosis is hurting neurodivergent individuals especially feminine presenting people a FUCKING LOT #AND SHITTY REPRESENTATION TOO #FUCK YOU GOOD DOCTOR #LIL BITCH #DONT TAKE A RANDOM BUZZFEED AM I AUTISTIC QUIZ OR SOME TIK TOK POST GO ASK YOUR PRIMARY CARE PHYSICIAN FOR A TEST #IDK MAYBE THAT’LL WORK BUT JUST DONT TRUST A RANDOM LIL QUIZ #just don’t take something as serious as that at face value #these disorders are not a new quirky personality trait it’s something that causes so inconveniences and affects the lives of many people #like sure I consider myself a special little snowflake and empower my self and many mental and physical disorders/disabilities do not #define me and who i am but they do make up a huge chunk of me #and that’s okay #why do I have to be ashamed #I have many chronic diseases and mental disorders and that okay #it’s just that especially in younger people with all the cases of some individuals faking disabilities for clout end up affecting the #people who actually have said disabilities terribly and makes us seem like we’re being ignored #idk where i was going with this #anyways I’m bad at remembering words :(

[koishikei]

yoooooo i'm gonna have another mental breakdown~

#kei goes off #something something..emotional regulation or lack thereof #forced into a sort of flat affect in order to mask and not inconvenience anybody #but because i live with 3 other people that's literally 24/7 of masking #because when anyone else shows any semblance of negative emotion around me i get super uncomfortable and even triggered #so why would i knowingly do that to someone else by having my own emotions? #so i hold everything in for days and days at a time until i fucking explode #i've been extra crazy today anyway because i'm so exhausted from yesterday and my nerves are all shot so i'm in widespread pain #i rly should be laying in bed but i can't lay in my office (threat of being disturbed putting me on high alert) #and i can't lay down in the bedroom because i'm guaranteed to be disturbed and also sensory overload with no escape

[impissimshitimlessthannothing]

being in a relationship or liking someone as a bpd will never fail to bring the worst out of me lol

#and i mean that in so many ways #literally one minor inconvenience or lack of affection/attention and ill b wanting 2 off myself 😇 #dear diary ^ . ^ #bpd vent #actually bpd

[toomuchdickfort]

Vent abt smth that gets on my Nerves

#tried bringing up to mom like. hey how could I bring up coming out to family. and she was like visibly uncomfortable so I was like dw I’m no #gonna like try to ruin Christmas with it or some shit I’m just. nervous u see. and I’m sat there anxiety rambling abt it because oh my god. #and she pulls out the fucking. ‘can’t you just be a person?’ mom I am a person already. the problem is. the PROBLEM IS. EVERYONE THINKS I AM #AND THUS TREATS ME AS A GIRL. like oh my god. #vent #it’s not a huge vent like if it comes up I’m not gonna Lie moms discomfort abt the matter be damned. #but like. ‘can’t you just be a person’ is what she says every fucking time it comes up. like mom. mother. mi madre. do you realize how much #of an insult that feels like when you say it EVERY TIME I bring up trans anxieties. or dysphoria. or any of the ways my transness affects my #life. like being trans doesn’t make me less of a person oh my god. but also frankly I don’t have the patience to be nice about getting into #things and I don’t have the heart to hurt her about it and even if I did have one of those I don’t have the patience to hold her hand #through all this shit. like I gave up having mom on this journey ages ago do you know how painful it is to un-give up on something that #immense. it’s hard and it hurts and it burns and it’s like. giving up to begin with didn’t hurt too bad- it’s cutting off the festering #wound. but. but then. you find out that. you can in fact work with that. and suddenly you have to try and clean the wound. care for it and #wrap it and do it all over again. and god it hurts. and. I’m not entirely sure I want to un-give up all the way on this? it’s. a lot #like I get and I appreciate that she’s trying to do. something. in theory at least. she avoids the subject when I bring it up and all but #cringed when I brought up coming out to her side of the family. she calls me my deadname and her daughter more than she did before she said #she would try. and I don’t have the energy to uncover that wound enough to start cleaning it. I’m just letting it sit there because frankly #it’ll be such a huge thing because it’s Always a huge thing when I don’t let the subject drop mega fast and I’m. I know she’s not gonna cut #me off for just being trans but GOD I want to keep ONE of my parents in my fucking life when I’m able to stand on my own two feet holy shit #and. man. it appears this is. still more of a thing than I thought it was. thats. annoying and inconvenient

[fullmoonfireball]

he’s outing himself as colourblind (complaining about ink colours)

#Vesper's Art #Jet Pack Guy #Rookie #not putting this in the main tag because...... yeag #Club Squid #this could probably count as jetkie if you squint but i'm not gonna tag it as that #anyways. 90% of the time i forget that i DO hc jpg as deuteranopic bc it just. doesn't really affect things much. #but i just got blasted with the realization that uh. it'd kinda suck for him in Club Squid! #like yes colour lock is a thing but idk how that'd work in-universe and i think he'd probably be too stubborn to use it anyways #esp since it could potentially be an inconvenience for his team (having less opportunities for turf wars n all that) #in reality they probably wouldn't mind too much but like. it's the thought of dragging them down that gets him yk'now

[derbophobia]

one of the worst things abt me is that bc i got into therapy at 13 and was able to get a huge headstart on working thru very common problems, i associate those common problems with immaturity just due to them being smth i only rlly felt while like 12-15. so now im sitting here experiencing a very widespread and normal self esteem issue and my brain is like WOOOOOW. you sound like such an annoying little juvenile baby rn. meanwhile its a self image issue that most ppl deal with at my age

#its the weirdest thing honestly #a deeply inconvenient association! #like this isnt the problem dw but for example like #i only experienced my ed from age 12-16 right #so now if i were to suddenly be having Those sorts of thoughts #my brain genuinely is like wow cant believe youre having little bitchbaby problems that only ever affect little babies you dummy #as if eds are only for preteens???

[bloodyke]

next person to bring up project 2025 to fearmonger support for genocide joe is getting blown up i cannot stand you bitches

#zenith.txt #yall know NOTHING #you only have 1 talking point and its never worked #if you want people to vote you need to give them something to vote FOR not something to vote against or else all arguments are meaningless #second of all who the fuck do you think is currently laying the groundwork for project 2025? its literally biden #all the shit you fear is gonna happen is ALREADY STARTED UNDER HIS PRESIDENCY #third of all you all sound like fucking GHOULS when you say 'yeah genocide is bad but if we dont vote itll inconvenience ME this time' #what the fuck is wrong with you #joe biden will not get a second term that is a fact and it will be his own fault #if you guys ACTUALLY cared about these issues you would be mobilizing in your communities instead of yelling vote blue no matter who #its the fact that weve known about project 2025 for a whole year now but yall are only just now bringing it up bc people #are criticing biden more than ever and it scares you that your precious status quo is being challenged #legitimately fuck all of you trying to weaponize the fears of marginalized communities #the privilege in saying that under repubs things will get worse... #itll get worse FOR YOU. all of the things you worry about finally affecting YOU are literally already fucking happening #to black and brown (particularly black and brown disabled people) for DECADES #and im saying this from a place of privilege being white myself #yes i am a gay disabled puerto rican but i am white first and have been able to for the most part avoid a lot of the shit that has been #KILLING my family and the people in my communities #all of the things youve been saying will happen in project 2025 are things i have already fucking watched happen to the people around me #the only difference between now and this hypothetical project 2025 is now it will effect white people too #and thats the only reason yall even fucking care about it because now YOUR life is going to terrible and YOU cannot ignore it anymore #everything you criticized trump for biden and his team also does. #yall are so fucking pathetic wringing your hands and spouting the lie of electoralism but you refuse to do anything #that could enact meaningful change beacuse the point is you guys dont actually want change #the only thing yall want is to have people stop talking about all of this so you can continue to walk around with your head down #and not be inconvenience in your daily life bc you actually enjoy the status quo #saying you have to vote for the wolf in sheeps clothing over the wolf is not fucking better they are the exact same thing #and its time yall opened your fucking eyes to the world around you #'i domt support genocide but-' THERE IS NO BUT HERE.