so, ive been inactive on here. its been a wild few weeks.
i used to open tumblr a few times a day and make posts sometimes several times a day. the last few weeks have been filled with exams, long shifts at work, and other stressful life changes.
ive stopped tracking calories, for fear of what I will see. ive been drinking more coffee (specifically Starbucks or other sweet coffees) and eating more snacks. ive stopped walking, because i dont actually have the time in a day to go to the gym. a big reason for the coffee and eating is to maintain mental sharpness at work and school.
but, in my failures, i still recognize my wins.
i dont eat more than one meal a day. the snacks i do eat are controlled and still low calorie. i understand i need to maintain this mental sharpness in my daily life to get by. although i stopped tracking, i know i am only consuming 1000cal a day (with some days being over, and some being under). i am proud of myself for still losing 12lbs over the last month.
but, I feel like shit for not following the rules I set for myself.
with this in mind, i am swearing to myself to get back on track when school ends for the summer. i will get back to how i was living before, and i will be happy with how i am living.
anyways, this is my long way of saying, I am still driven to reach and surpass the goals i have set for myself.
thanks for reading + following along in my journey :)
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I will be skinny by Christmas:
❄️ I can eat Christmas Dinner without worrying about calories
❄️ I can look so small in Christmas jumpers
❄️ The jumpers barely touch and scratch my skin
❄️ The warmth in my stomach from hot chocolate
❄️ Looking masculine and blending in with my cousins
❄️ Being the skinniest at the dinner table
❄️ Having weight loss not on my new years resolution
❄️ Everyone being confused on what size clothes to buy me
Just being skinny
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a second on the lips forever on the hips
a second on the lips forever on the hips
a second on the lips forever on the hips
a second on the lips forever on the hips
a second on the lips forever on the hips
a second on the lips forever on the hips
a second on the lips forever on the hips
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THATS IT ‼️
i WILL lose weight
i WILL reach my ugw before my birthday
i WILL NOT be fat
i WILL stop enjoying food
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