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SHE'S NO YOU - CH.15

A/N: I can confidently say that I have never been that sick in my life. I still have a pretty good cough left on me and Annaleigh is finally getting better. One week later, ugh! My partner only had it for 3 days... The flu absolutely bombs. I'm finally recovering and the updates shall return. Happy vibes guys! Here's a very belated, but welcomed chapter. I hope you like it. And this is the whine down of the story. P.s I will he doing 2 epilogue chapterS to this story! Years after the final chapter:) Likes always not edit. I don't have the time or energy. Maybe I should get a beta. Any volunteers HAHAHA lol:) --- CHAPTER FIFTEEN - AWAKENING LOVE --- FINN POV: Life had been a blur the past few months. Christmas wasn't celebrated, merely just acknowledge as another day. Even the new year was brush off. Everyone seemed to just move between their lives and being at the hospital like it was a regular thing. Wake up, work, hospital, home. It was a stupid mantra that my mind seemed to follow without even realising. Joshua and Ruby barely smiled, only when they would tell Rae's sleeping form about the fun things they did at school. I didn't blame them, I seemed to be more sour as well. I was without a personal assistant at work because of Olivia's very welcoming departure, and that left Archie to pick up my peices. I had refused any other applicant that had applied for the job, but do you blame me? The last bitch fucked up my marriage and it seemed that the males that did apply, didn't have the qualifications I looked for. Archie had taken the lead and downgraded his job title for now, just so he could follow me around cleaning up the messes I seem to create. Heck, even Dad seemed to have come out of retirement. I knew they were waiting for me to crumble under the weight of raising two kids and a company, but that was the last thing I needed to do. I wasn't the one broken laying in a fucking hospital bed, with a machine connected to my airways. So, I had no right to have a complete mental break down, like my body was inching towards. It was now Febuary 3rd and Ruby's birthday was only a week away. I know she wants nothing more then her mother to wake up, I hear her whisper it into Rae's ear everynight when we say our goodbyes. But, I knew that was highly unlikely. The more she stayed in this comatose state, the less likely she will ever wake up again. I was not prepared for that. They had taken her off medical sedation a little over a month ago, and still her she remained the same. Vitals never changed, and bloods always came back normal. Rae just simply wasn't ready to come back to us. I hadn't gone to work today. I woke to chaos, Ruby and Joshua fighting over the amount of time spend in the bathroom, then to who ate who's cereal. By the time I had dropped them off at school, I had sent an email to Archie telling him I was spending the day with Rae. So here I was, white walls surrounded me, the heart monitor beeping steadily and silence. I hadn't spoken since I arrived two hours ago, only too the one nurse who checked her Vitals, and once again everything was 'normal'. Normal? I didn't understand how any of this was 'normal'. Rae only moved her chest to breathe, she hadnt opened her eyes... How the fuck can that be normal? The doctors couldn't even tell me why she was still in a coma, even though she was taken off sedation. But, the only reply I every got was, 'everything seems normal sir'. My hand clutched hers, tight. My lips found hers ever so often, and the light flush on her cheeks never faded. She looked peacefully and perfecf, I was worried she didn't want to come back and I honestly wouldn't blame her. Not after the torment her heart had endured the last few years. Maybe she wasn't strong enough to brave us anymore. God was this fickle man, but I did believe that he had a plan for all of us. I just hope her story hadn't come to an end, when we were only experiencing the next chapter. "Rae" I didn't understand why I was whispering, but I was. "Hey baby, it's me. You need to wake up for me, Joshua and Ruby. You need to come back to us..." A tear streaked down my face. "You have to wake up baby, because Ruby's birthday is next week and she really wants you to be there, I really want you to be there." I breathed a steady breath trying to control my overpowering emotions. "We love you, and we need you back with us. I promise Rae if you wake up, I will be with you every step of the way. I will treat you like the princess you are, I will beg down on my knees until you agree to come back to me. I will do anything, absolutely fucking anything for us to be a family again." My head fell onto her arm. I couldn't stop the tears, I just missed her so damn much. Her body was here with my, but that soul, that charismatic personality I fell in love with was.  I was a grown man, in a Prada suit mourning my loss, whilst holding her warm body. I just felt like a little boy, broken beyond repair - unashamedly. "Do you remember the day I proposed to you?" I smiled, remembering one of the best days of my life. "I was so nervous that you would say no, I nearly didn't follow through with it. Plus, your brothers terrified me even with their blessing. Archie and Chop had practically kicked my ass when I told them about my self doubts." "I planned to wait until after dinner to ask you, but the moment I saw you come through the door of the restaurant in that black dress. Mm, you looked so good. I knew I wouldn't be able to wait. That's why the moment you stopped in front of me, I was down on my knee whipping that ring out. I think I put it on your finger before you even had the chance to say yes.." I laughed, then looked off into the distance. "When you married me 6 months later. It was the happiest I've ever been in my life thus far. Then you gave me Joshua and Ruby, and I thought my life was complete. The worst decision I ever made was hiring Olivia, and I promise I'll never make a stupid decision like that again. I promise from now on that I'll always chase you, no matter how far you run, I'll always be there. I'm not giving up again, but you have to wake up first baby... you have too..." I sobbed. "I can't do this without you..." 'Beep-beep, Beep-beep, Beep-beep' I looked to her heart monitor that was beeping a little faster, then back to her  beautiful face. The pale pigments of her skin glowed a little more brightly, light flush remained on her cheeks but deepened in colour. 'Beep-beep, Beep-beep, Beep-beep' The monitor continued to beep faster, and I was starting to get a little worried. I went to release Rae's hand so I could lean over and press the nurses button, but something stopped me. Rae's fingers twitched under my grip. Her nails lightly scratched my palm and my eyes widened. "Rae?" I kissed her forehead, brushing away the few strands of hair on her face. Her fingers move again. "NURSE!!" I shouted towards the door, then cover Rae's face with my palms. "Rae baby, can you hear me?" Then pulled away from her. "I NEED A NURSE IN HERE!" I yelled again as I watch Rae's eyelids flutter, but not open. I slammed my hand against the emergency button and within seconds nurse after nurse flooded into the room. "She's waking up! Rae, baby wake up!" "Sir, I'm going to need to step out of the room please." I scoffed, "I'm not leaving my wife when she's waking up!" I was irritated that she thought that would be the best decision. "Please sir, her blood pressure is elevated. Shes panicking because of the breathing tube in her throat." I'm panicking. The sound of her gagging was louder then what it sound be. She just wanted to breath properly, but to do that she needed to relax and let the doctors pull the tube out. "Rae!" I turned back to her and grabbed her hand. I know she could hear me. "Its alright baby, you need to relax so they can pull it out. Then you will breath. Relax-" I was forcefully pulled from her grip just as her eyes opened. I tried to pull against whoever had me, but was unsuccessful because of the two burly men that were not letting go. Her gulp of air was heaven to my ears, then her little pants soon after. The doctors had successful pulled the breathing tube from her throat without damage. "I love you!" Her eyes focused on me, but I didn't know if she could actually see me. "Remember, I love you..." "Finn?" Her voice was so soft I barely heard her. The noise from the doctors and nurses drowned out anything else she may have said to me. The door to her room slammed in my face, and there I stood in a crowed hallway just watching. Watching the madness that was happening around the once dull room. I couldn't do anything, but hope for the best. -- RAE POV: "Ms. Earl can you hear me?" A foreign voice spoke. The brightness from the light shone directly in my eyes, making it hard to see without glare. "Rachel, sweetie? My name is Barbra, I'm one of the Nurses here at Bellevue hospital, I've been caring for you for the last few months..." Months? What is she talking about? "You were involved in a car accident back in December..." The flash of a memory played in my head. Albert's crinkled smile morphed into the face of panic as the car was flipped. "Water" I croaked towards the older women, who smiled and poured some into a cup. "Here you go love. Small sips, because you'll find your throat might be sore when you swallow" Nurse Barbara cooed. My body ached, my head felt like someone had played the drums on it, but i didnt care. All I could think of was the moment I opened my eyes to see Finn standing over me. I craved the feel of his hand brushing over my dewy skin. I smiled looking towards the ceiling remembering everything he had told me this past few minutes. I never knew he was nervous to propose, because on that night he acted so confident like he usually did. My heart swelled remembering his words of love, and family. The promises. Just like the ones before that were kept, he was a man of honor. The nurses were still busy fluffing around me, checking that, doing this. I was flustered, all I wanted to do is see my family, my kids... "Finn" I whispered trying to get someone's attention. "Mr. Nelson is just standing outside the room, would you like me to go get him?" I nodded and relaxed back into the bed. A few minutes later he walked back through the door. He didn't acknowledge those around him, but me. His eyes bore into mine, a ghost of a smile kissed his lips. I couldn't think the moment he pulling my face toward his and covered my lips with his own. I savoured the sweet feeling for only a second, but i would never forget it. He smiled brightly as he pulled away and sat on the edge of the bed, pulling my hand into his lap. "You don't know how much you scared me.." he said honestly. "I thought I'd lost you that day" Finn looked at our intertwined finger, "You suffered a seizure not long after you were sedated after surgery. When they told me, I nearly broke. Loosing you... I can't even think about it, Rae." His head fell forward, his lips touched the skin on my hand. I could feel his tears, but I didn't have the energy to wipe them away. His sobs where quiet, but his body shuttered with every breath he took. "I needed you to be Ohkay..." he finally spoke, looking into my eyes. "I love you Rae" he smiled through the tears, and brushed mine away. I hadn't even realised that I was crying as well until this action. "I love you too" I croaked and swallowed hard. I meant every word I said, I truly did still love him. -- @lily-pop-2 @luly310 @tinakegg @arathewallflower @mmfdfanfic @i-dream-of-emus @l88cym @milymargot @milllott @hey1tskat1e @lurkernolonger @eveerez @mallyallyandra Did I get all the tags? Lol

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