#and I’ve been missing my ex-gf awfully and wishing I got a real chance to be with her

[polyamorouspunk]

Seeing people go through the EXACT same thing you’re going through and just crying because you have to believe that it gets better for people like you and them. You have to believe that it’s all going to work out for the best.

#I honestly was over catboy for a good while but I think this last phone call pulled me back to the exact same spot I was in before #not feeling like we’re in a relationship at all but having to believe that we’re going to be because I think at this point I need it #or I need him to shatter me so completely and devastate me even more to the point I can’t be around him ever again #or else I’m never going to get over him #and that maybe sounds dramatic but I’m still in love with someone I met when I was 8 #and I’ve been missing my ex-gf awfully and wishing I got a real chance to be with her #it’s 2am and I’m so in love that it hurts my chest #and I just need him so bad I need him in my bed I need his lips on mine I need him to hold me and kiss me everywhere #and I need him to just make love to me #and at the same time I just want a girlfriend right now so bad I just want a pretty girl to kiss and make love to #I’m so full of love and romance it hurts ans I just need and outlet #i’m just so in love #it hurts so bad