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#and a woman said i dont fear death but i fear the headaches
catmat · 3 months ago
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When someone asks me how bad my headache is at its worse, I tell them that if someone offered me $1,000,000 to have this headache, even just for a few hours, I wouldn't take the money. That's how bad it is.
And they'll reply, "Oh, you're exaggerating. It can't be that bad."
Yes it can, and it is.
Believe people's pain.
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obsessive-ego · 12 months ago
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Just go with it part 2
Musical beetlejuice x reader
You have to meet juno and pretend you and bj are getting married
Nsft sorta, mentions of activity
Part 1
"Babes"
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"Sugar"
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"Y/n"
...?
"Y/n wake up, come on babes"
...!
"Beej?" You mumble rubbing your eyes "what's wrong?" You say in a whisper.
He doesnt respond, you turn on the lamp by your bed and check your phone clock
5:42am
You sigh, looking back at the demon, now being able to see him clearly, you freeze upon seeing that the demon was now completely purple, his hair, his beard, his tie, all deep purple.
"What's wrong?" You ask again, more fear in you voice then intended
"Okay y/n" he starts, using your name rather then a pet name was never a good sign "so you remember a few nights ago when that suit came by to see if I was lying about our relationship?"
"He's back?!" You sit up, more awake "wait... wasnt the repercussion to that not that bad? Just some extra work for you?"
Beetlejuice rubs his neck "yeah, thing about that, it's not him... my mother is here, to talk to you personally..." he trails off refusing to look at you
"Your mother...." you repeat feeling your stomach drop
"Yeah..."
"What's gonna happen if she finds us out?" You ask in a whisper
"...who knows with her" the demon spits before looking away.
The two of you remain in silence over the shit beetlejuice has gotten you into it.
Beetlejuice huffs out his nose as his focus goes back to you.
"So y/n, I mean honey~" the demon pulls you up from your bed and into a side hug "ready to meet mommy dearest?" Beetlejuice tried to smile, make light of the situation, but his hair betrayed him, remaining a deep purple, even though he tried his best to plaster a grin across his face for your sake.
You didnt know much about Beetlejuice's mother, other then she didnt exactly win mother of the year, beej only opened up about her a handful of times, long story short, you knew this was gonna be a rough experience for both of you, but mostly Beej.
Beetlejuice drops his jacket around your shoulders, pulling the same ring he gave you to fool the suit, the same tacky, pretty ring, the band was black and white, and resembled a snake, the gem was a brilliant green, your heart swelled at the sight of the ring.
The ghoul drops on one knee, and gently slides the ring onto your middle finger, pausing to kiss your hand before giving you wink, under different circumstances you would die from such a cheesy romantic gesture, but now was not that time, you did appreciate beetlejuice trying to lighten the mood.
"Alright honey, you remember the drill?"
"Yes"
"That's my future wife, let's not keep the bitch waiting" he smiles linking arms with you
Future wife...
You couldnt help but give the ghoul a soft smile at the thought.
Beetlejuice takes a deep breath, smoothing his hair back, wiping the purple away in favour of his default green.
The demon grabs your hand begins to lead you to your living room, you could barely focus over the sound of your heart pounding, who could blame you, you were about to come face to face with someone Beetlejuice was afraid of.
As the two of you head down the hall , she was finally in sight, you felt your stomach drop, in your recliner sat an old woman, dressed completely in red, she had a permanent scowl across her face, her whole presence give off a bad feeling.
"Lawrence, you took your sweet time fetching your fiance" she barked causing beetlejuice to flinch
"Ya know breathers, they like their sleep-" he forces a laugh, purple slowly creeping back into his hair
"Nonsense, it's nearly 6am, that's more then a reasonable time for breathers to wake and start their pointless routines" she waves off, beetlejuice frowns and leads you to the couch, where the both of you sit.
"Its been awhile huh Ma? Like I was saying earlier, it's nice to see you again and-" beetlejuice was babbling
"Zip it" was all she said and beetlejuice clamped his mouth shut and gazed down staring at his feet. "Lawrence, I didnt come here for pointless pleasantries" her eyes meet yours "y/n l/n I dont know what Lawrence has done to you or promised you, but I can assure you he doesnt care about you, and just wants freedom, further more Lawrence, do you honestly think this breather could love you? This game of yours needs to come to an end, there is alot of paper work tied up in this farce of yours"
You were taken back by her words, she really didn't beat around the bush.
"I dont-" you start, voice trembling
"Ma, y/n loves me and I love them, see~" beetlejuice grabs your hand to show his mother the ring, she eyes the ring for a moment, then goes bad to staring daggers into her son, her scowl never faltering.
"Tacky" she huffs, a simple response like that was enough to shut her son down, beetlejuice pulled away from you, pressing his back firm against the couch, lips pressed shut and hands clamped together in his lap.
"As I was saying, Lawrence is a natural born troublemaker, and youd be smart to back out of this farce before he gains life, knocks you up with a life ruining disappointment, and vanishes from your life" she droned as she lights a cigarette, taking a deep inhale, smoke shooting out from her neck.
You swallow hard.
"I would prefer if you didnt smoke in my house, ma'am"
Juno stares at you for a moment, then shakes her head as she puts out her cigarette on your coffee table.
"Ma'am I really do trust beetlejuice, and I love him, this isnt a farce-" you began, but your words were ignored
"If you want to throw yourself into a mess, I wont stop you, I'm not here to save you, but I have to applaud his efforts on tricking someone LEGAL this time for his little game. Even though this mess of yours is going to keep him out of my way for awhile, it doesn't cover the fact that Lawrence's efforts have caused my office nothing but work. And even if this "love" was real the boy ruins everything thing he touches, cant do anything right, having him around only causes headaches, you'll see soon enough y/n," Juno's hurtful words drone on, as if her son wasnt sitting across the table from her.
"Back to the matter, even if you do choose to marry this fool, I wanted to warn you about the mess your getting yourself into, giving him life would only cause you grief, and I dont want to hear it when you get to the netherworld after a suicide his actions caused"
You grit your teeth at that last remark, you knew juno thought poorly of beetlejuice, but did she honestly thing her son was so awful that youd kill yourself over his actions, you felt like you were going to be sick.
"Lawrence, why is your hair purple?"
You glance over to beetlejuice, who infact was completely purple, the deepest purple you've ever seen him wear.
Beetlejuice bites down on his lip, his hands clenched in fists as they sat on his thighs, he was frozen.
"Bee?" You gently whisper as you slowly place a hand on his, the ghoul flinches at your touch, beetlejuice slowly takes your hand in his and gives it a light squeeze.
"Come on Ma, y/n my be dramatic, and get mad at me from time to time, but they'd never kill themselves over anything dumb I'd do, and hell we already talked it over, we dont want kids" the ghoul leans into you for support.
Juno scowls "to remind you both, I'm not here to stop you two, the only thing I'm here for is to warn this foolish breather, and double check to make sure YOU arent mucking about and blackmailing the living again, there is a lot of paper work involved in this little game of yours, and you still havent delt with the paper work of your failed marriage and death by the hands of that poor child you tricked" her eyes narrow down to beetlejuice, juno pauses, then sighs
"Lawrence just come clean, this little game of yours has gone on long enough, even if you didnt blackmail this poor soul into marrying you, do you honestly think they love you? You dont actually think this breather wants you around do you?"
"That's not true, I do-"
You werent able to finish that sentence, with a snap of juno's fingers your mouth is now cover with a strip of duct tape.
"You've honestly fooled yourself into thinking you could be loved didnt you? Pitiful, maybe this breather found you amusing now, but you dont think it's going to last do you?" Her questioning goes on, she was convinced her son was unlovable, you tug away at the duct tape but it refuses to budge, beetlejuice was too focused on his mother's words, to the point where he was starting to believe her, the purple slowly faded from him in favour of white, a color you've never seen on him.
"Lawrence you're little game is over, and you're going to clean up the mess you made, I have a decade's worth of paper work for you to fill out over this farce and every other little issue you caused, I knew from the start this was fake, no living person in their right mind would let you into their life willingly"
A decade's worth of paper work?! Was that so important that she was willing to manipulate her own son into thinking he was worthless?
"Lawrence you are such a screw up, the amount of work your little games keep giving me is coming to an end, you will never be alive, you will never be loved, let alone tolerated, and you are coming back to my office to straighten up ever little issue you have caused, if you think being invisible for a millennia is bad-" she raises her voice with each hateful word.
This duct tape wasnt going to budge, so you went with plan B, you roughly bump into the demon's side to get his attention, beetlejuice looking your way, your eyes grow wide at his expression, he was crying, black gooey tears. The two of you stare at each other what felt like an eternity, Juno's voice no longer reached him, beetlejuice snaps his fingers and the duct tape vanishes from your mouth.
You jump up from you position on the couch "I'm sorry ma'am  but bee- Lawrence isnt worthless, and yes, he can be an ass, and insensitive at times, but I love him and I really do want to marry him! And whatever stupid paper work that is tied up in this, can just fuck off..." your voice tweaks as the ghoulish women sitting across from you stands up, eyes dead set on you.
You werent great with confrontation, and beej knew this, but here you were talking back to his mother, you  his tiny sweet breather talking back to a literal monster. The white from Beetlejuice's hair quickly left in replacement to pink 'I really do want to marry him!' Those words from your lips could have made his heart start beating , tho that was shortly lived when he saw this mother stand, purple took hold of his form once again.
He couldnt let you fight his mistakes alone, though he found it hot that you could be his knight in shining armor.
No, beetlejuice is quick to jump up and link his arm with yours "see ma, this little breather stole my heart, and hell, we've been planning our little wedding for months" beetlejuice snaps his fingers and in a flash his and yours clothes change. Beetlejuice wore a red tux made with crushed velvet, with a lacy front, his whole outfit screamed tacky, but that was him. Looking down at your self, you stifle a laugh, here you were, 6:30am, dressed in a red puffy lacing monster of a dress, in all honesty this wouldnt be your first choice, but now was not that time. Beetlejuice pulls you close, you could swear he could hear how hard your heart was pounding, could you blame yourself? He looked so handsome all dressed up, even if this was fake.
"My, my Lawrence, doesnt that dress look familiar, isnt that the dress you forced that poor child to wear the last time you played this game?" his mother sneers
"Its called a call back, and y/n loves it" he sneers back you nodded in agreement, beetlejuice continues "we're still working on a venue, trying to find a band, believe me, planning a wedding is exhausting, and oh! dont be surprised if your invite gets lost in the mail ma" the demon gives a shit eating grin, you smile seeing beetlejuice has gained SOME confidence back.
"I have no interest in attending your little wedding Lawrence" she spat "it's clear you're not going to budge, and still refusing to take responsibility for your actions, you always were a slacker, and if that's the case, once you die again you will be returning to my office to deal with the mess you made" her focus turns to you "or I could end this little charade by killing your ticket to life"
Your heart stops at her words, she was a demon, Beetlejuice's grip tightens on you, the silence must have been hurting him as much as it did you.
"But I wont, itd be too much a hassle ending a life before it's time"
You sigh in relief, and beetlejuice loosens his grip.
"This will end poorly for the two of you, and I dont want to hear it" juno walks past the two of you, and with a gesture of her hand the livingroom wall opens up to reveal an office full of the dead.
"Lawrence before you join the living I need to deal with one last errand, so I will see you later, and you" Juno's boney finger points to you "you have no idea what you've signed up for" and with that she was gone, the wall closes up as if nothing happened, the two of you collapse on the floor
"Shes gone" you sigh, you've never been more scared in you entire life then you were talking to Juno
"So you like your future mother in law?" Beej jabs you side
"Oh yeah, a delight" you snort, "how long do you think we have before she notices we havent gotten married?" You tone shifts to a more serious note
"No clue, guess you'll actually need to marry me now" he pulls you into a side hug
"What?" You stammer, beetlejuice laughs at your response
"HA! Just pulling your chain there doll, theres no way in hell she's coming back to check, if I know that Bitch shes going to file away those papers for me, there's no way she'll let them just sit there for who knows how long, and this time next week she'll be harping about something else" beetlejuice stands up and pulls you up with him as he sees you struggling to move in that dress, as you raise to your feet you mumble a thanks.
"You know beej, you really do clean up good, I mean, you look very handsome all dressed up" you smile, now that that two of you were safe, you felt it was the right time to say it.
The purple in the ghoul's hair quickly vanishes at your kind words and is replaced with pink.
"Well you know doll, the tux suits me, but it looks even better on the floor, you'll see on our honeymoon~"
"Is that so?"
"Dont believe me? I'll show ya right now baby~" the ghoul pulls you close pressing his chest against yours, as fun as this little exchange was it came to a halt when you yawned.
"What a way to start a weekend, early and terrified, I think I'm gonna get a few more hours of sleep" you grumbled rubbing your eye "you mind helping me out of this dress?" Beetlejuice goes wide eyed at your question, in a flash his hands were groping for the zipper on your back.
"Naughty minx" he purrs before you swat his hands away
"I ment with magic" you breath out, you may be tired, but your genitals were now wide awake.
Beetlejuice grumbles as he snaps his fingers bringing you back into your pajamas and him in his suit.
"Thank you, I guess this wouldnt be good night, see you in a bit" you shrug as you head to your bedroom to get a few more hours of sleep, you glance back at beetlejuice, who was purple once again, you frown
"Beej do you want to sleep with me? I mean you dont need to sleep, I just thought maybe, you wouldnt want to be alone right now?" After seeing his mother maybe he could use some comfort.
There was a long silence as the demon only stares back at you, you panic
"I'm sorry, that was stupid, I'll just, uh, see you in-" you babble as you spin in your heels eager to get away from this embarrassing situation. Before you could hide away in your bedroom you feel the dicey grip if the demon's hand on your shoulder, and in a deep gravely voice he purrs
"Isn't it normal for a husband and wife to sleep together?~" 
you honestly felt a shiver run up your spine.
The ghoul, now only in a pair of boxers has now cuddled up to you  his legs intertwined with yours, his arms wrapped around your waist, hand rubbing up and down your back, and head nuzzled into your chest, the demon now pink, purred feeling your hands scratching his scalp, his mother was wrong, you did love him, truly and unconditionally, maybe not now, but soon, he will marry you.
Bonus
It's been days since you met his mother, and it seems like beetlejuice has been back to stop caring about it, but sometimes you see him just staring off into space.
The ghoul had only one thing on his mind, replaying the memory over and over, of you shouting "I REALLY DO WANT TO MARRY HIM!"
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snkpolls · 11 months ago
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SnK Chapter 139 Additional Pages Mini Poll Results
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The mini poll results are brought to you by /u/staraves, /u/berthototototo and @momtaku​. We closed the poll with 3,417 responses. Thank you as always for supporting the chapter polls!
  RATE THE FOLLOWING ADDITIONS FROM LIKE TO NEUTRAL TO DISLIKE
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The additional pages for chapter 139 were not particularly well received, at least according to the slice of fandom who took our poll. Three of the four new major moments were voted more disliked than liked, with the one favourable moment being the returning spectre of war (oof). Sadly for Mikasa, her moments were the least divisive, with low numbers of like votes compared to neutral or dislike. The moment where the child finds the tree was more disliked than those, but the likes were a little higher compared to neutral.
TLDR: these pages did little to quell the salt brought out by the first version of chapter 139.
I didn’t think we’d get sucked back into this after chapter 139 lol
Eight additional pages and we still don't know if Levi opened his tea shop smh
Ymir’s convo with Mikasa just created unnecessary murky water. I thought I understood Ymir’s motivations well before these panels: that she needed to see a woman like her, so taken and tortured by unconditional love, free herself from those chains and do what’s right. What’s needed. To show her that it can be done. Or maybe that unconditional love ends the Titan curse. Now I can’t tell whether she just wanted to see someone go through what she did to end the curse. Or she just needed to inflict that pain onto others. I don’t know what Ymir needed anymore. And I don’t know if Titans can ever truly end. I’m left so confused and unsatisfied.
From the way the tree grows throughout the panels and how the buildings at the time Mikasa was at the end of her life looked so different compared to the modern looking buildings which were present during the war, we know that our characters, like eren wanted, lived their lives peacefully. It like looks around a hundred years passed after Mikasa died that this war is taking place. Human conflict never ending has been a big part of the story since the beginning. Even eren has shown thinking this all the way back in season 1. This is a very fitting ending to the series.
I found it acceptable, but I think there should have been more between them during the work from the beginning, so we were left with a question like "who is this girl that Mikasa always sees in her dreams or when she has headaches?"
I loved it. Mikasa showed Ymir that love is not akin to slavery and they helped each other let go. It felt very human.
Well I thought 139 was pretty bad already but I respected that some liked it but now with the extra chapters it’s not just bad it’s hollow for me. Everything is meaningless and the author did it on purpose imo.
Well I thought that the extra pages made the chapter more poetic, of course it doesn't fix the fundamental flaws I had with the chapter to begin with
Well the art isn't shit. And I like the ominous feeling the final pages gave instead of that tragic love story bullshit with Mikasa talking to a fucking bird.
The conversation had aura of sadness. Ymir realized that her life would has been happier if she allowed the king to die and focused on her daughters. Yet, when Mikasa thanked her, Ymir understood that even while sacrificing her life to save him was wrong and her afterlife was full of pain, her choice opened a chance for Mikasa and other people to be born.
Ymir and Mikasa's conversation was sad.
I felt nothing about Mikasa and Ymir's convo because Ymir is severely underdeveloped by Isayama. I don't understand her. Neither do I feel anything for her.
Further butchers the Eren-Ymir dynamic. Mikasa didn't care abouy the titan curse and had no knowledge of the events that led to the 2000 year cycle, yet she's thrust into the spoltlight? She had no clue about who Ymir was, but somehow the final conservation of the series is between them two
Conversation was terrible ymir did not say ONE WORD.
i wish ymir could have done back and forth with characters even if she cant speak. i dont see how it wasnt possible for her to talk to eldians through telepathy.
Aside from Mikasa and ymir conversation, the last chapter satisfied most of my questions, and ended as I believed it would, what hold me from saying it's a masterpiece is the huge plot holes that isayama putted, but these plot holes doesn't make the Manga less of a masterpiece.
Ngl the war continuing was dope asf
Eren was a good character but a horrible person, why are people mourning his death
These pages cement that either isayama has no clue what people enjoyed about his manga... or that he purposely wanted every single subset of fan to be disappointed. I don't know which of the two I'd prefer.
paradis getting bombed is one of the top 10 comedy moments of the year.
Before, the fanbase was divided on whether to like or hate the ending. Now, Isayama has united us all to hate on the hot mess that is 139..... TOGETHER!
To be honest I expected more from Ymir
can't believe granny mikasa is still wearing that raggedy ass scarf
Absolutely terrible conversation that makes little sense - love that Mikasa magically learned Ymir's backstory offscreen and I love seeing her so passive and kind to the person who is the reason why she had to kill the love of her life (as well as Ymir also being the one who enabled 2,000 years of suffering under Titans and then eventually the Rumbling) - really adds to the vibe that Mikasa lost every hard edge she used to have in favor of being reduced to being nothing but gentle, kind, and of course in love with Eren.
I think it was also nice to see the development of modern technology and buildings, Shiganshina as a sprawling metropolis and Mikasa living a long life with a family. Maybe it's just me, but I find simple stuff like that impactful; when you're so attached to a world and its characters for so long, only to witness 60-70 years of growth in the span of a few pages. It's like watching your kids grow up or something (idk, I don't have kids)
Honestly one of the only parts I liked about 139 was the fate of Paradis being left open ended and then this happens
Don't get me wrong, I still loathe the ending, feels like a part of me is incomplete. I do love the additional pages wherein Paradis is nuked and Mikasa kinda moved on, as it invalidates the reason why some fans still liked the ending. Funny if you ask me.
Boy am I salty that we get more Ymir being silent while others talk over her. And words cannot describe the anger I feel at seeing the Survey Corps lead a long happy life, after the Warriors’ forgotten deaths and flat-out character assassination. But there is some sense of catharsis over seeing Paradis get destroyed, and the little kid finding the tree. It doesn’t fix the mess of a final arc we had though…
Answered Mikasa's headaches, established the connection between Ymir and Mikasa more clearly, stayed true to the central theme of how conflict never ends and is part of human nature (world is cruel) but there is joy and meaning to be found (but also beautiful). Also liked the final panel going back to the Titan tree, never really answering the mystery of the Titans.
i like it 5% more , it's "fine" and has a more epic feel to the timeline
Some of the ending fits the themes of the story (like conflict always existing as long as there are two or more people alive, and the cycle of hatred continuing with the Eren tree). I can understand Isayama writing a depressive ending, since the whole series has a lot of depressive moments, but it doesn't feel impactful because we don't know how anyone's life continued. We know a little bit about how Mikasa lived on, but what about all the other characters? Do they still live in Paradis? Do they experience the destruction? Have they tried to stop it? It's just a little too vague, but then again there's not a lot you can do in 8 pages.
How do you shit the bed on the ending twice?
Some pages were good (Mikasa-Ymir, Mikasa and grave), but the tree...
While very flawed, the actual ending pages—I thought— were actually quite sweet. I liked how the story ended at the tree, just as it began, with Mikasa's (hopeful) path to moving on having just begun. It was a hopeful, yet sad, note to end on—fitting with the rest of the story. The new epilogue is far too nihilistic, and while realistic, ends the series on a thematically confusing note.
While I preferred the open ending, I'd be lying if I said the new ending didn't intrigue me. I love the imagery of the kid approaching the tree.
Ending Enjoyers are the most oppressed minority.
  DO WE FINALLY HAVE THE ANSWER TO MIKASA’S HEADACHES? DOES THE PANEL OF KING FRITZ BEING IMPALED SHOW THE REAL HISTORY OR JUST WHAT COULD’VE BEEN? WHAT’S UP WITH YMIR’S ADULT APPEARANCE? WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON YMIR AND MIKASA’S CONVERSATION, IF ANY? 1,619 responses
The final panels focusing on Ymir were interesting for sure, but did little to settle any of the longtime mysteries. Here’s a sample of some of the thoughts shared by respondents:
Mikasa has headaches because she has read the ending
I like their conversation it made since for Ymir to see the person who freed her.
Mikasa was trying to rebel against Eren erasing memories
mikasa's headaches are never explained and dont need to be.
ptsd and fear of losing her family was a much better answer to her headaches.
Ymir poking into Mikasa's head is a good explainatio n for her headaches.
Mikasa's headaches are left up to interpretation. It seems to be implied that Ymir caused them. There's no context with the Fritz panel and the dialogue has nothing to do with it. Just really confusing.
The convo between Mikasa and Ymir was a nice touch that helped add more context to the entire ending.
Ymirs adult appearance i believe signifies her maturing and moving on from her really dumb stockholm syndrome ways.
even Isayama realizes this is kinda fucked up and therefore it's adult Ymir who is love with Fritz and not the child version. Oh My God Please Isayama please stop describing Ymir's feelings toward her master as 愛 what the fuck is wrong with you.
I think all the what ifs around Ymir pretty much ruined the potential of her suffering having a message of any kind. Her relationship to Mikasa is shaky at best, her realisation doesn't have any significant changes to the story line and gives me deux ex machina vibes.
A poor attempt to justify Mikasa been the person Ymir was waiting for
Mikasa's headaches come from trying to understand this plot. Fritz committed sudoku to escape this series. I don't think the Ymir-Mikasa connection makes any sense, nor is it important. Maybe if Mikasa got some attention earlier to set all this up, give it some foreshadowing, it could've worked. But as it stands it feels contrived, drawn out of thin air.
Bullshit, those headaches are just the Ackerbond
King Fritz being impaled is just a glimpse of how things could have been if Ymir had the strength Mikasa showed killing Eren.
It’s a parallel to Mikasa’s own vision with living with Eren. Mikasa used hers to break her love with Eren to kill him, and Ymir used her vision to break her love of King Fritz and end the Titan power.
Yeah, it makes sense. Ymir just wanted to see what Mikasa would do in the future but couldn't as she was an Ackerman. Just Ymir's imagination or what she wished she did. That's her true self finally revealing herself. It was alright. Just glad we finally got some more motivation for Ymir's character.
I thought we already had an explanation of the headaches?? So I'm not sure why this is necessary. Confused about the panel of Fritz
I mean what Ymir went through was tragic and I feel like mikasa made her realized that you have to let go of that person no matter how hard it is and I feel like their conversation was fine with me bc Ymir finally rested in peace
I only ever got more questions from these new developments. None of my questions were answered.
I believed that King Fritz being impaled shows the real history that Ymir retroactively changed in the Paths to show to Mikasa that she was able to do the same thing, which is what the Titan powers “disappeared.” However, the flaw with this is that there should be no Titan powers at the start of the story and AoT pretty much never should have occurred.
BRO I DONT FUCKING KNOW, ONLY YMIR KNOWS
Dislike that King Fritz impaled because can of worms
About King Fritz being impaled, I think it was rushed honestly or Yams on a gun point, I never liked when something is to be left to the viewer where it depends on the viewer's own perspective. Shit like that only works when it is the intended purpose of the whole story itself. Also I never liked that half of the focus went into detailing Ymir's past, I know that it needed to be uncovered but to be directly involved? It also kinda makes my Naruto's Kaguya final boss ptsd comes back
LMAO NO! we had an answer already, in the very first episode Mikasa was having an headache because Eren guided Dina to kill his mother and the reality changed, her ackerman blood noticed it and "sent her a message". This reason if bullshit.
Stupid ass open questions
I liked the Eren-Ymir connection a lot more...
I literally didn't understand any of it. It think it was too rushed.
I was satisfied, because Mikasa love for Eren is different from Ymir to King Fritz
It’s symbolic, Ymir is finally free of her “love”. This whole plot was pretty badly done, but at least this provides some explanation
I like this a lot. At least it cleared up the headaches and Ymirs connection with Mikasa just as Eren mentioned.
Adult Ymir = self actualized/at peace with her choices Ymir.
Adult Ymir looks hot af.
Mikasa first got her headache after Carla was eaten. Why would Ymir try to "peek into" Mikasa's mind then? This reveal doesn't make any sense.
I would theorize on that if Mikasa's character wasn't as flat as Ramzi
Do we finally have the answer to Mikasa’s headaches? : Yes, I think it's due to Ymir.
we didn't  have a clear answer to Mikasa's headache, especially that extremely strong one at the end which transported Mikasa to paths with Eren, it makes no sense it being Ymir, that additional panel is insufficient and makes things more unclear. Ymir adult appearance shows to me her finally understanding everything, letting go and moving on.
I think that the headaches had something to do with the special powers of the Ackermans. A part of those special abilities were the headaches too, that's what I understood.
I wanted to learn more about the Ackerman tbh :(
Mikasa has become a love advisor to the gods LMAO
After the reveal of Ymir loving King Fritz and the comparison of that love to Eren and Mikasa's love... I've lost interest in both characters.
I interpreted it as Ymir not loving King Fritz. The reason why she stayed in paths was because she loves her children. She continued to serve her descendants, every subject of Ymir, her children. Because of love
That fact that you're even asking this proves that everything was left vague and up in the air for people to draw their own conclusions. Which at this point only leads to arguing and people insulting each other's reading comprehension. GREAT WRITING!!
Making a parallel between Eren/Mikasa with a Sex Slave and her Rapist is one of the worst false equivalencies í've ever seen.
I think it was meant to show Ymirs regret. That ultimatley despite her love for Fritz, Mikasa helped her realise that she should have chosen her children. It was meant to illustrate just what Mikasa showed her, that toxic love is well toxic, and that familial love is pure.
It is not enough to answer all the questions....but it remains relatively satisfactory
I think it was nice to see that it was like we were going to see Ymir for the last time.
The panel is just Ymir wishing she was able to overcome her bonds and attachments as Mikasa was able to.
The panel is symbolic. It's meant to show Ymir abandoning her love for Fritz and letting him die in her mind.
if ackermans cant become titans, why can ymir still look inside their head?
how does Mikasa even know about Ymir?
ymir is a simp
Yes, I do believe we have our answer now finally in regards to Mikasa's headaches. It pretty much confirmed what I already theorized even before the additional pages was released, so I liked it, and I'm glad that at the end, Mikasa and Ymir had a brief moment. It doesn't need to be anything more than that, so yeah, I'm pleased with that too. King Fritz being impaled panel I believe is Ymir's wishful thinking, what she wished she could have done instead of passing that burden to Mikasa. In a way, vicariously experiencing doing the right thing through Mikasa is what freed her.
Ymir finally shows up, after the horrible decision to leave her completely out of the initial conclusion, only to have people talking AT her again... I'm so tired...  I'm glad it showed that her true desire, was that she hadn't moved and had let King Fritz die, but it feels so out of place in the same chapter that Eren claims she loved King Fritz. What a mess...
Ymir is an adult because she's free from paths and can go to heaven and join her daughters.
I think she alters history so that she survives and therefore the curse disappears from the timeline
Ymir realized she could've been a way better person than what she was.
"Fritz being impaled" is no different from "Aaron Yogurt lives with Mikasa". Just an alternative scenario that never happened, it is just a vision. "Conversation" between Mikasa and Ymir is weird. Like how Mikasa suddenly knows everything about Ymir and her love to king Fritz? Where did it come from? What is this "goodbye forever, Ymir"? It is like Isayama expects me to cry over this or something.
Ymir regrets not having the strength to let Fritz go the way Mikasa let Eren go. It is beautiful and poignant.
  WE SEE THAT MIKASA HAS A FAMILY AFTER EREN’S DEATH. HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THIS? 3,280 responses
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Many readers were upset with Mikasa’s constant thoughts of Eren even years after his death in chapter 139, but we now see that she lives a long life with another man. This did not please 29.2% of respondents who resent that her character arc ends with a “who’s her man?!” mystery (that’s somewhere the Mikasa fans and Historia fans can commiserate). However, 27.6% of respondents were happy that she was able to move on from Eren enough to have her own family, while still clearly caring about Eren. 18.7% think that because we only see Mikasa visiting Eren’s grave throughout the years it means she hasn’t really moved on from him at all. 17.3% thought that this part of the epilogue was pretty unnecessary, preferring the more ambiguous ending of the original chapter. People had much to say about this, resulting in 7.2% of “other” responses.
I absolutely love getting to see that Mikasa got to have a family & was not alone at the end of her life.
I WANTED HER TO LOVE EREN FOR 10 YEARS AT LEAST!
Happy she moved on. Torn on the topic of "Why she gotta have a man?": Mikasa's life and family is being used to mark the passage of time and generations, because we're here to continue our lineage/species. I'd like to know what else Mikasa did with her life but this is a framing tool.
Her having a family would have been a good thing...if she actually moved on. Now it just kinda makes Jean seem like a cuck and Mikasa still a simp for Eren.
Happy if that man is Jean, if it’s not... I don’t want it. I mean, with Farmer kun at least we knew some background information. If it isn’t Jean, we know literally nothing about him... and she’s the female mc, so. But I’m upset that we didn’t get to see her doing something to else other than visiting Eren’s grave.
How come Mikasa's way of "moving on" was to be lumped with some faceless husband and become a baby machine like Historia while male characters who lost their loved ones like Niccolo, Levi, arguably Kenny, etc are shown to be moving forward without a romance shoved in? Thank you for ruining Mikasa's character Isayama, I won't let this misogyny go to waste.
Honestly idk. I’m a ErenxMika  fan and mikasa is my fave in the show. So I’m happy she moved on, I kinda wish it was with someone else not Jean.
I think showing her aging and visiting the grave is fine, I wish that her marital status was left ambiguous. To be clear, this is a mix of two answers. Yes I like showing her age and still visiting.
I understand her thinking about Eren her whole life, but wish we could have at least seen her be happy with her family.
I wanted Mikasa to move on, but not like this. I can understand visiting Eren's grave with her husband if he's Jean, but why is she taking generations of her family to visit someone who wiped out 80% of the global population?
I wish she had an actual personality and moved on from Eren at the end.
She deserved more layers in her story.
I wish that her epilogue could've been a little bit more conclusive - I liked that she moved on, but the debate about who she married is very annoying (it's probably Jean but we'll never actually know)
I am fine with it, the girl has to move on. However, i find it weird how the family has to visit eren's grave. I believe in mikasa's love for eren but its just odd to make the fam tag along
I don't give a fuck about Mikasa or her family and I'm mostly pissed it's implied she got with Jean just because Eren was dead. Doubling down on forced shipping bullshit only made this shit worse and makes Jean look as pathetic as Eren and Reiner did in the original chapter.
I think it is unfair towards her husband since she loved Eren forever she could ve adopted some kids and lived happily with them instead of marrying someone she doesn't love
i think it was a realistic ending, visiting a grave once a year is not obsessing
why is she honouring eren when he commited mass murder. isayama isn't condemning eren for his actions
Why is the epilogue about her too? Did Yams forget that he has other characters?
With Eren gone, I'm glad she ended up with Jean. However I'm also pissed that her character revolved around one man, and then the only thing people talk about is Eren vs Jean
Woman doesn't need a man to move on with her life. We all know mikasa only loved eren. She just wanted be with him. She never showed any interest in having a family. So I think showing mikasa having a family after eren's death was unnecessary.
Would've much rather a cool scene with the 104th mourning Eren. There are much better ways of concluding her character than marrying her off to someone we don't even know.
I liked that  mikasa moved on but still remembered eren for the rest of her so i'm okay with it
I liked that she moved but hate that she still simps for Eren after being married
I liked that she moved on and fell in love with someone else, but it bothers me that she wore the scarf her whole life, since it makes it hard to say if she actually moved on or not even though she had children with someone else. She could have kept the scarf without always wearing it.
I'm glad she was able to find happiness elsewhere, but I can't help but feel bad about the guy she ended up with. I realize stuff like this does happen irl, and other stories hace done something similar, but it's still a bit weird with the way they decided to show her taking her entire family to the tree. Better than what we had before though.
Don't care. After everything that went wrong in this ending, Mikasa ending up with another man is the least of my concerns.
Don't care, it's Mikasa
I liked the fact she married someone else because EMs are mad.
I love her moving on, but did she? She keeps the scarf and literally dies with it. She makes her generational family visit his grave. What the heck does she say to them? “Yeah this man killed billions, by crushing them to death. Ahh what a lovely, my beloved, my dear, I want you to come back.” WHAT THE HELL? If that doesn’t glamourize Eren then idk what does. This was a punch to the face to any Mikasa fan. And I love how yams makes her the main character in one chapter and in doing so, shits on almost every character.
have you ever considered the fact that we were shown her in the tree because... it's the setting of every event of the last pages? i mean, it's not that she went there 24/7, it's isayama finding an organic way to tell us a whole lot of information that would generally take an entire chapter, if done with dialogues and changes of scenarios. and i'm still surprised that people keep repeating that she is underdeveloped and nuance lacking.
I mean good for her I guess.
I dislike that she evidently never managed to overcome Eren's death. The most significant parts of her character as shown in these pages are that she kept returning to Eren's grave and that she kept the scarf until her death, both imply that her connection with Eren was the most important thing in her life for her entire life. A complete and insulting regression of Mikasa's character development.
I will NEVER get over this. He just used Mikasa for a cheap sequel bait involving her descendants.
She shouldnt have moved on
Given eren and mikasa's love for one another being portrayed as eternal, it felt tasteless and out of character to move on in this way. Moving on can mean different things for different people and people learning to live life in different ways after experiences like that. I believe other ways could have been explored for a character who was so deeply in love with one person. Imo opinion, it sends a bad message (I have similar feelings about historis's treatment).
I wish we saw other people getting older, I'd rather see what happened to Falco/Armin/Reiner/Levi since I found them more interesting than her
I wished she had moved on completely from Eren before he died. Idc if she ends up with someone after that or not, I just want her to forget him. (but only of her own choice and not cause eren asked her to forget him)
I would have liked a little character development for her in the end. And of course we did see some leading up to the rumbling, but it all flopped in 139. Just like the second option, I really didn’t like how she didn’t move on from eren despite all of his wrong doings. If the power of the titans was said to be vanished, surely Mikasa’s ackerbond with Eren would have broke. I seriously hate it
I'm both glad she could move on, and annoyed that it's causing so much discourse. Let her be fucking happy.
I'm glad she married and had kids, but never truly let go of Eren's memory.
I'm glad she started a family without Eren, but still cherishing him for her whole life just feels wierd.
I'm happy she moved on but I can't stand that cute lil memorial for a guy who committed genocide
I'm happy she moved on but I hoped we were able to see her moving on phase that is not connected to Eren (unlike the ones in the panels wherein all is about visiting Erens grave) I appreciate her love for Eren and her visiting him every year but not when her whole ass family is with her.
I'm happy she moved on, but at the same time it felt fast paced so I felt nothing from it.
I'm pretty sure all of Mikasa's grandchildren are talking behind her back. 'Get up sis we have to go that grave grandma never shuts up about'
I’m happy she can move on however it being part of the reason for the removal of the curse of the titans is annoying as fuck and she still visits his grave with the scarf like atleast get rid of the scarf
she betrayed eren in the end it wasn't real love before
Good let the shippers tears flow
I don't like that she had a family and relationship with ?Jean, without moving on emotionally from Eren, simultaneously managing to somehow cuck both.
I don’t like Eren being memorialized and moreover, it contradicts chapter 138
I don’t really have a problem with her starting her own family, vice versa with her never moving on from eren
I don't like all this importance given to Mikasa and her future out of all the other characters
I don't like how Mikasa still wears her scarf until the end of her life while being married.
I don't like Isayama did not develop the Hizuru plus Azumabito plot like Mikasa travelling to Hizuru with Kiyomi eeeeeeeeeek…
It's funny how there were a lot of people saying that they wished they could have explicitly seen Mikasa eventually move on from Eren in some way and that's why they weren't satisfied with her conclusion, then these extra pages come in and it shows that she indeed married and had a family of her own while still holding Eren close to her heart and now people are mad again saying things like, "Omg look how she's literally forcing her family to visit Eren's grave with her she's so disgusting!," as if Jean wasn't Eren's friend too lol. Seriously what more do you guys want? You ask for more and then when you actually get it you get mad again. This fandom confuses the hell out of me sometimes.
It is whatever i dont hate it i dont love it it is just alright
It just play into whole nothing mattered in the end, which I dont like
It makes me feel like Eren was still alive, especially since he had Titan marks on his face even though the Titans were erased. This is confirmed by the fact that his corpse created another Titan tree. I feel like she was still attached to him as her Master.
It makes sense to me with her character
It seems like the story was trying to simultaneously say she moved on but also never moved on, like trying to have its cake and eat it to. I think it's sad that Mikasa's life is just reduced to being shown visiting Eren with her family and then dying. Hiding the husband makes it worse because it implies that he doesn't matter at all and in that case, why even bother?
Mikasa having a family is literally and easily the worst part of these extra pages.. her ending should've been left ambiguous or she should've spent her life cherishing her memories with Eren.. giving her a family is too forced and goes against the themes of eternal love and soulmates.
Mikasa loving Eren who murdered billions, doesn't make any sense, why she killed him in the first place that's some serious poor writing that glorifies hypocrisy.
Mikasa moving on by marrying another man is out of character for her, she was always fixated on one person, that was Eren. This is totally out of character for her and I HATE it.
Mikasa single-handedly ruined the series after being a failure of a third main character.
Mikasa visiting Eren's grave versus Mikasa visiting Eren's grave with her family. Seriously, only shows me that Isayama cannot come up with anything else for her.
She never moved on so I feel really bad for Jean and all their kids. Imagine your mom non stop talking about her highschool ex instead of your own father.
i feel nothing. she moved on, but she still mourns for her friends killer. interesting idea, shit execution.
I had no objection to those who saw this future for her, but showing it in the last issue was in poor taste I think.
I think it's nice to see that she always thought about him, right until the end.
you cant even know if its her, its seen from behind
i don't like the idea that she had to get married to have a fulfilling life. cause there were other ways to show a woman has a fulfilling life other than marriege. her visiting Eren's grave throughout her life is understandble. but with her whole family? I wish her conclusion was left ambiguous. and it feels ooc to me that she just ended up with sb without any build up. we don't even see her face or her life to know if she is happy. if just see the back of her head. and are we suppose to just accept marriage = happiness??????!!!!
I don't really like it but I can't imagine it differently for this character
Realistic. A lot of people lose loved ones and choose to continue their lives. Mikasa always wanted to live a quiet life surrounded by family and she did just that.
  WHO IS THE MAN WITH MIKASA AT THE GRAVE? 3,313 responses
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Speaking of not liking Mikasa’s character revolving around a debate over which man she ended up with…... which man did she end up with?? Seems quite a lot of people are sure it must be Jean with 49.1% of the vote. The rest of the votes are almost evenly split between it being deliberate vagueness so as to let fans go wild with their own headcanons (25.7%), and not giving a toss either way (25.2%).
IS THAT JEAN?!?!??!?!??!?!?
it's jean's hair, jean's typical hat, jean's height, and jean's crush since the very beggining. this wasn't ambiguous at all.
i just don’t want it to be jean LMFAOO
Cruel because she never got to be with the man she loved, yet beautiful because she got to create an apparently happy family. Very in theme for Mikasa
It'd feel pretty cheap if Mikasa married Jean. Isayama shows she still has that scarf and she's placing a rose on Eren's grave....makes it seem like she never got over Eren but married Jean as a replacement since he was in love with her anyway. It's not a 'win' for Jeankasa shippers at all.
I think her ending up w/ Jean after Eren’s death makes sense, but I wish they had shown them being a good duo at some point during the last arc. Wish they also hadn’t included Mikasa’s grandchild.
Dove Ellen did a shit job at keeping Jean away from Mikasa
I'm happy that Jean at least got what he wanted most
Jean deserved better
JEAN WON BABY. Nice guys finish first
it's also a shame that the identity of her husband is such a big deal. Isayama has always been a troll, though, so I think he made Jean a suspect on purpose.
i am sure farmer or his brother gardener are the fathers jean is only there still simping for mikasa like she does for eren
I only want her to be with eren
I think he is armin but we have to wait for anime to see the hair color
Jean being the husband is just another slap to a character’s face. It would have been better had Mikasa simply adopted a child and raised them then just ship her off with Jean. The amount of love she showed to Eren isn’t going to be replaced and Yam’s screwed it all up by not having Eren show any love back for 99% of the series. Why did it become about love in the end anyways? That was a subplot I wanted developed and answered, but not put as the forefront at the very end.
She loves jean !
Rip fingerstein
If Mikasa was going to think all her life about Eren and making him a priority, it was not necessary to leave her with another man and have children, because it shows that she was not 100% focused on her family and Eren was still the one.  Most important part of her life and her true love, besides that this just started an endless ship war, leaving Mikasa as a shipping tool since people use a single argument "he had sex with her" basically leaving her as a  trophy
She and Historia got completely and utterly FARMED. Eren took a fat L. We smokin that yeager pack REST IN PISS
  WHAT IS YOUR TAKE ON THIS PANEL? 3,302 responses
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The dire scene of destruction received the only mostly positive response of the additional pages! War in the distant future could have any kind of connotation, so what was the message here? 29.3% of you think that eternal peace is just not something that can ever exist, so of course war would return eventually. 27.8% think this scene being included made the message of the story essentially pointless and nihilistic. 23.7% think this was representative of the alliance’s whimsical peace being reduced to rubble (even if they were all already gone), making Floch the victor. 19.2% cannot make any judgement as there was just no context to work with.
Erwin died for this shit
If the world suddenly achieved eternal peace, that would make for a terrible and unrealistic ending. Nothing, including countries and kingdoms, lasts forever. Sucks to see the home of all these characters get destroyed but that's just how it goes.
Paradis being destroyed after Eren killed 80% of the world proves that his plan was the worst one possible, rendering his entire character and arc worse than worthless. The story itself is a complete waste at this point.
Paradis being destroyed ultimately as a consequence of the alliance's actions proved the yaegerists right. Floch redeemed, never monged
When I see that the island become fascist, I know for sure that the world would never forgive them.
Paradis destroyed in the future welt realistic to me and I liked this addiction
Everthing that happended before was pointless in the end.Although Paradis getting bombed was realistic,it ended up destroying Erens character more as he waa proven wrong and now he just looks like a dumb person.
Humans in general suck so make sense if paradis is ruined and EMA na the scouts arent responsible for it bec theyre implied to be long dead
I accept the author's vision and opinion! To be honest, seeing there's a war again breaks my heart. It makes me feel that all these deaths were meaningless, but I guess it's in the far far future. So a peace for some centuries is much better than no peace at all. I want the work to be the way the author wants it to be, so since this is how he wanted it to be, that's how I want it to be too.
I wished paradis was nuked a little earlier so that armong and friends all witness the futility of their peace bullshit
Showed the point of Shingeki, humans are the real demons, if the world was wiped out it would just be Eldians vs Eldians
“I would be happy to give up my life, if doing so could change something”. Tell those bootlickers that nihilism is never the theme of the story. A total retcon
People whining about nihilism need to get a grip. Nihilism is based.
I'm surprised at people calling this ending nihilistic especially after chapter 137. the inevitability of conflict doesn't detract from life's precious moments, isn't that the whole point? "the world is cruel - but also very beautiful"
At least actions of allience have some consequences now
At least before you try to believe that Paradis survived despite the dangerously low possibility of that happening but now we don't even have that luxury.
At least Eren delayed the destruction of paradis. Erwin said even if the eldians were alone War is inevitable.
I see the war in the added panels as a direct response to Eren's dumass genocide plan and it probably could have been avoided with a better plan like maybe using the colossal titans in the walls as an army to protect Paradis. Literally any other plan probably would have been better than his genocide one. And if the genocide was going to happen anyways, then Yams should have at least had a better exploration of Eren's thought process before the final chapter and tied up his loose plot threads.
I honestly thought it was brilliant seeing Paradis at war in the unspecified Future.  I also love how it's unknown whether this was right after Mikasa and everyone died, or this is many generations in the future, where some conflict, for some reason was brought up, and we don't know why.  It emphasis the fact that war and conflict is always a part of human nature, and there's no way to acheive eternal peace, but Eren brought the 2000 years of human suffering at the hands of Titans to an end, and he gave the Eldian people a chance, and to be on equal footing with the rest of the world.  But eventually, peace treaties and negations were bound to fail.  The Paradis Island's government group IS LITERALLY NAMED AFTER THE MAN WHO KILLED 80% OF HUMANITY.  Eren also assumingly destroyed many nations, races, civilizations, cultures, and histories, by flattening out most of the world as well.  It would take A LOT of time and effort to rebuild outside civilization to back to a stable point.  I also believe that over time, Eren would be seen by both sides as an Angelic, and a Devil.  Think about it, Ymir Fritz was portrayed as a Devil by the marleyan goverment, and everyone else outside the walls, while the Eldian Restorationists and Grisha Yeager saw her as a divine being.  I belive the same happend with Eren.
As commander erwin once said, war will continue until there is one human or less. So afterall despite everyone's beliefs of being able to end the war and live in peace, the war never ends and the cycle of hatred can never be broken.
As much as I disliked the ending originally, I felt as though I could've lived with it. Granted, eren as a character didn't make sense and ultimately contradicted himself, I still could've tolerated the ending. Paradis being destroyed and the power of the titans potentially returning just kind of says "hey the story always repeats itself, nothing matters." The survey corps efforts ultimately did not matter. Were they fighting for all of Paradis or just the friends of eren? Because all eren achieved with saving his close friends. I understand eren wanted them to survive more than anyone, but you can't tell me he was not fighting for Paradis as a whole.
At least og chapter 139 left things ambiguous but with the extra pages it really took alot from the series and leaves you with the feeling of "what was the point of it all??" Especially how much it takes away from eren's achievement of ending the titan powers
Rest In Peace everyone who died for no reason
So you're tellin me Hanji's death means even LESS now? 😒
By having the alliance save the remaining 20% of the world and Paradis eventually getting destroyed, Isayama unintentionally wrote the most pro-genocide ending he could have. ""If Eren had completed the rumbling, Paradis would have survived"" is an extreme take, but it's the only alternative the fanbase is left with after Zeke's plan and Hange's plan are thrown out the window for the fumbling arc. At least the AnR ending wouldn't try to lionize Eren as some fallen hero rather than the villain he became in season 4. If Eren had been portrayed as a villain, I think this ending would've been way more compelling. Also, the manga originally ends on an optimistic note, with Armin, Reiner, etc. becoming ambassadors of peace with Paradis's future left ambiguous. Now, we know that it eventually is destroyed. We've been following this country for 4 seasons, and its eventual doom is shown in an epilogue panel?? How lame is that.
At least paradis is destroyed lmao thats what you get for being monged
  ARE TITAN POWERS AND PATHS SET TO MAKE A RETURN? 3,295 responses
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A plurality of respondents (41.6%) think that the Power of the Titans is bound to return one day, given the ominously familiar tree at the end. 35.1% can only throw up their hands and accept the unknowns at this point. 21.1% think that the titans were specific to Ymir’s wishes, and that the tree leaves open the possibility of other mysterious powers emerging. Kudos to the lovely 2.2% who just want to call a tree a tree.
I like the idea of titan powers, or something similar, returning to the world.
If the power of the titans comes back, what did eren die for
If there’s a new titan spawning tree, then what was the point ?
If there’s an indication that the titan power is back then the survey corps sacrifices were for nothing
I like the fact that the hallucigenia is still alive and would actually unironically love to see a sequel. I also love the theme of history repeating itself, which was a major theme through the entire story.
Would be down to see more of the world because fuck it big man's fighting, so I'm down with Beren.
The hint of Titan powers returning ruins the experience for me. I didn’t like that the hallucigenia died off-screen, and this raises even more questions
The idea that Hallu survived in wrens head creating the new tree is stupid. If it’s not hallu and Titans are a manifestation of someone’s pain, then wtf is hallu
It makes more sense that the power persists considering it's an actually living being and not Ymir's.
no clear indications that the titan powers did come back. As far as we know eren got rid of them and that is just a big tree
  HOW HAS YOUR OPINION ON THE CHAPTER CHANGED WITH THESE EXTRA PAGES? 3,292 responses
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There were only a handful of additional pages, but they changed the trajectory of the ending and overall story a fair bit. Unfortunately for a plurality of respondents (36.1%) it did nothing to change their negative opinion of chapter 139. For 31.5% of people, it actually made the ending *worse*. For 21.7%, the extra pages improved their opinion of the chapter overall, and for the happy 10.7%, their already positive opinion of the chapter remained unchanged. You guys know what true peace is.
The extra pages are like rainbow sprinkles over a spaguetti ice cream. Its a sweet addition but the ice cream is already weird.
I really liked this chapter, for me, this is the perfect ending
Hated it before, hate it a bit less now
Hated the ending, now even more.
Where is the "my neutral opinion hasn't changed"?
I like the additional pages, but still don't think they make up for the rushed but still "good" ending
i think the first ending was not right so i like the second more
The additional pages just made things worse. We didn't need to see this.
extra 8 pages ruined everything for me
If I'm honest, this ending is fine - or it will be, when it is presented in the anime. It isn't the ending I wanted, and it doesn't feel like a fitting conclusion to AoT. But it's what we got, and its just fine. I just wish it was better.
I think ending the series with the Survey Corps reaching the ocean was a perfectly quaint way to wrap everything up. These 8 pages are just a bunch of nonsense and have nothing to do with the rest of chapter 90.
These additional pages aren't needed, he should've focused on the problems which 139 had like Armin thanking Eren for genocide
If anything, these additional pages confirmed why Eren's plan sucked.
i prefered the open ending, it gave the opportunity for a more hopeful ending . The additional pages made the ending feel much more hopeless
I do feel like an ending I like very much has been swapped out for one that I hate. That's not a pleasant feeling.
No matter what Isayama add to the chapter, "The Stockholm Syndrome" being the key plot point and comparing Ymir relationship with king to Mikasa love for Eren is just awful way to end the AoT.
I accepted the first ending and felt content overall, after it had a chance to sink in. I'm still waiting to see if I can feel ok about these additional pages. Outlook is not good.
I accepted the other ending. Not great but not as bad as others made it out to be. This new ending is absolute shit, it answered all our questions in exactly the wrong ways and sets up for Beren which no one wants.
These pages really weren't necessary. The Ymir-Mikasa conversation was a good addition, except the flashback or what if or whatever that King Fritz impaling was? I think the whole MIkasa moving on undermines the purpose of the last two chapters even though it made sense she would move on. I just didn't need to see that. I also didn't need to see another war breaking, but for me it was still good with the whole "There is no eternal peace". Still my opinions unchanged
I liked it before, I liked it after.
Before, I gave the chapter a 9 out of 10. Now, I feel like the story ends too far into the future, and introduces events which, while entirely feasible and logical, do not add to the story in any meaningful way. It’s like if Naruto ended with the first three pages of Chapter 1 of Boruto: yeah, OK, fine, I guess that happened, but is that really where you want to end your story? 6 out of 10 for me now.
I liked the ending without extra pages, and with extra pages I like it even more. Thank you Isayama
  CARE TO ELABORATE? 1,321 responses
Mikasa's open conclusion in 139 was okay and I thought it was perfect. It was implied that she will move on with her life but not from her love for Eren. These additional pages are utterly unnecessary especially if the message we're getting from her visiting Eren's grave, with her scarf is that she'll remember him til the day she dies. It's as if we don't know that already. AND mikasa doesn't need any man to move on nor she needs to move on from eren in the first place. Idc, my headcanon would always be her adopting and raising a kid and dying a spinster lol
Paradise getting destroyed made the chapter better for me. I also kinda liked that Mikasa was able to move on.
pretty much everything in the new panels was already implied in 139. Like I don't really care to see mikasa die of old age and have war still exist, it all makes sense and it already did in 139 but yams always feels the need to hand hold these fans who can't use their brain longer than 2 secs. HOWEVER, the tree stuff at the end was cool and based, so I like this chap more now
137-139 already ruined the series for me so these pages were just meme material.
139 + 8 pages: It’s trash but with a sprinkle of fire so it’s a dumpster fire chapter. Ruined the whole journey of reading AoT. It felt that the ending ruined 6 years of my life
139 chapter was a great ending and an open where people could interpret the ending however they wanted, together we got this ending
139 genuinely angered me with how bad it was. The 8 pages are hilariously bad.
139 had bad writing and these extra pages didn't make it any better.
139 made me laugh (in a bad way), and the additionnal pages just made me laugh even more. By then, I kinda moved on, I think?
139 sucked because he left it too ambiguous. These extra pages sucked because they gave no substance, and also felt unsatisfying like original 139
139 sucked. That is all
139 was a decent enough ending to this story, Eren was never really the monster that he had the world think he was, there was hope for the future of Paradis and the remains of the world due to peace negotiations and no more titans or military. The war after just kind of invalidates all that and makes it feel pointless. Eren did let his friends live long happy lives but he also wanted to end the cycle of hatred and protect Paradis but the protection of his friends came at the expense of Paradis possibly a 100 years down the line which doesn't sit right with me. Original 139 had its problems but it didn't make me feel like what happened in the last 48 chapters didn't mean that. War just amounts to more war, it feels cold.
139 was annoying enough as it was, but at least it made the story have a decent ending, the extra pages just show that the entire story was for nothing, so I'ma stick with 139 or even AOR
139 was dogshit, but at least it was directed. The extra pages just make it even more incoherent.
Despite Eren's poor conclusion at the end of 139, there was some saving graces, and the chapter ended poetically in contrast with chapter 1. Now, the saving graces don't exist for Eren (Achieved nothing, titans still exist, Paradis is wiped out on top of 80% of humanity) and the symbolic/poetic ending with Mikasa at Eren's grave with no walls is gone.
Mikasa wasn’t a good enough character to deserve to be the center of both the ending and the extra panels. Her character is so vapid that there’s basically nothing even interesting about her aside from which man ends up with her.
I mean I feel like the sub is angry that their theories were wrong and isayama pulled an amazing chad move(IMO) by changing everything. I’m not saying I liked it but I like that he pissed everyone off. I think at this point we need to leave AOT alone for the next year  or at least until part 2 comes out and then we will have a better understanding of the ending.
The ackerman branch and their protection vow is the part of Ymir that felt obligated to protect king fritz. When Mikasa killed eren, the vow was broken and the panel shows how things would have turned out if Ymir had made the same choice as Mikasa. I thought it was nice that Mikasa was giving Ymir peace by telling her that she'd live the live she created for her with fulfilment, but the parallels between Mikasa and Ymir came so late in the story that it doesn't feel like the resolution of anything and it feels like Mikasa was shoehorned into something that had originally nothing to do with her. This moment would have landed better if it was formerly built up.
I orignally had a Negative Opinion on the ending, but still loved the rest of the series, and still respect Isayama's creative decisions. But these final pages, while not majorly changing the ending, provied more closure, world-building expansion, and added a sense of realism to the story.  I feel as if this updated ending, if executed properly with the Anime's Part 2, will absolutely break audiences, and I feel as if this ending CAN AGE WELL GIVEN ENOUGH TIME!!!
A great journey along the way even if the ending was pure sh*t.  I only wish Isayama gave himself more time to present the themes he had difficulty conveying.   Overall I’m excited for his next work, and look forward to another great series.
A hopeful ending after stopping the rumbling felt so out of place and naive. I'm glad the extra pages went for a realistic conclusion to the paradise-world conflict. The disappearance of hallucigenia-kun felt a bit strange too, so I'm glad it didn't magically vanish from the world
a lot of the positive stuff from 139 remains for me, but the these panels really aren't necessary, the amount crammed into this chapter really lower my perception of it
A realistic and tragic ending that still butchered eren's caracther lol, but it's better than what we have gotten initially.
a terrible ending somehow got even worse.
About what? I liked it. Get over it
Added some more context and showed that eventually, they were screwed. We don’t know if it’s 50 years or 200 years in the future.
All those pages added was just more disappointment. Eren’s death meant nothing cause Paradise got destroyed. Mikasa’s life is just weird cause her existing without Eren just doesn’t feel right (Yams should’ve made her less Eren dependent if he wanted to do that kind of ending). I would’ve prefer seeing Armin, Levi Reiner, Falco Gabi’s lives honestly.
Already disliked the final chapter/rumbling arc. The extra pages make me dislike it even more. It continues the trend of creating new questions rather than answering and sequel baits.
Already really disliked the ending, objectively it is way worse with the extra pages, but I don't care anymore
I appreciate the panels but at the same time prefer the ending without them
I chose "my negative opinion hasn't changed" but despite that, the fact that ultra Chad king, lord Floch was proven right is very satisfying
I did not like the extra pages, but I can't be disappointed more then I already am.
Already wasn't a fan of the ending, and the extra pages are more of the same stuff I dislike. War coming back does make sense, but just makes Eren's ultimate "plan" and driving force completely useless in the end. At best, he helped his friends live their lives out before their future children died horribly in a war. He never ended the cycle of hatred he talked so much about.
Although I like that Eren's refusal to rumble 100% of the outside world had consequences, overall, it only meant that the whole manga essentially lost its meaning, as Paradis was destroyed anyways, and the titan powers are likely to reappear.
I've grown to like the "Beren" ambiguous ending more than the peace deals ambiguous ending.
He should have used those extra pages to better explain Armin thanking Eren for genocide.
Can't fix horseshit even if you sprinkle truffle powder over it
All things considered, I liked how the manga ended. Eren being a slave to fate became fairly obvious once we learned about his inherited future memories, as well as how the Attack Titan worked. I'm not surprised that the series ended with Eren dying for his friends.
Can’t get any worse I guess
refuses to elaborate further
  WHAT LED ISAYAMA TO CHOOSE THIS ENDING? 3,218 responses
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Speculation runs amok as to why the new pages include quite drastic changes to the ending. The plurality of respondents (45.3%) think Isayama spent too much time reading feedback and let his doubts sway him into attempting improvements. 32.7% think a new post-post-apocalyptic adventure must be on the way! 22% just think this was always Isayama’s vision; the initial magazine print just limited the pages that could be published.
Ready for Beren sequel woot
Lesson of the day, kids: NEVER let fans sway your opinion on the story when you're already having a hard time reaching the end. By reading online reactions to the story it's painfully obvious who Yams ultimately tried to please.
I think problem here is Isayama thought everyone is smart enough to understand the narrative impact of eren and the story's ending. Isayama later even apologized and said he thought everyone would but feels sad that fans dislike it, which just further proves my point. we let him down because many people just want a badass character without emotions or feelings or any of that shit...truly the worst fanbase
All the additional chapters did for me was hint at a sequel/spinoff.
I wonder if this was the ending Isayama really wanted. I’m looking foward to his interview so I can understand his choices a little better…
editors made him fuck up the ending (possibly to prepare for Beren), the true enemy was capitalism all along
Very neutral on the whole Beren thing. I highly doubt it's setting up some ""Darling in the Titan Academia Shippuden Ultimate"" sequel series. I think it's just Isayama's way of saying the story goes on, both the good and the bad. It's bizarre that he chose to show it by implying titan powers still exist, though.
I actually like the mini set up of a sequel, even if it doesn't exist.
I'm fucking confused. I can't prove it but I don't think a lot of this was Isayama's idea.
He could have explained what he had and cleaned up stuff more and provided conclusions to Connie's character and show Levi with a a teashop. Instead went for sequel bait.
Ngl though, I kind of liked the sequel bait and the memes it brought
If in 4 years isayama release a spinoff of Attack on Titan I'll make a sincere reddit apologize comment for doubting the giga Chad himself
I won't forgive them if we get a sequel.
if there will be an aot next gen, i'd watch it for the memes lmfao
Honestly really like Beren, and imagine mad max world with titan powers holy shit I’d be in love.
if snk2 happens i hope old man reiner shows up, realizes titans are back, gets real fuckin' pissed and goes on a one man quest to kill the worm.
  ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO FINAL SEASON PART 2 OF THE ANIME? 3,291 responses
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After all these years, we’ve reached the end of the journey. There are no more mysteries to be solved. 36% of respondents are still keen to see how the anime brings the manga pages to life, albeit not with the enthusiasm they could’ve had. 25.3% are still all aboard the anime hype train, but 16.4% will only watch if the anime has a different, original ending (copium is a powerful drug). 13% will watch for the inevitable spicy memes, and 9.3% have given up on their dreams and died (inside)...
I can't wait for final season part 2 and can't wait to read the manga volume 34.
Overall, if the ending was given the pages it needed to make such drastic changes then the ending would feel more satisfying. I hope the anime version does it more justice.
Hopefully the anime will adapt the final arc faithfully to the manga but fix the wording and spotty pacing of the last chapter. But since Isayama has had the anime make changes before there's no reason to think he couldn't do it again.
I'm sad about this whole thing but at least the anime OST will be great.
i like the new panels they will be pretty to see animated
regarding the season 4 part 2 of the anime I'm going to be watching it until chapter 123 is adapted then dropping it.
hope that anime doesnt follow yams clownery
I don't want mappa to create their original ending since they've been so faithful to the manga, it would be weird for season 4 to suddenly be so different. But I hope they just animate the original 139 without the extra pages.
Hopefully anime will deliver the ending much better, that's all
Hopefully the anime will add more context to everything
I still hope the anime will have more scenes like Erens conversations with Reiner, Connie, Jean and Annie. Can't wait for the new OST and hope that the paths episodes will be done by the Ghibli team that helped out in the Ymir paths scene in S2!
I need to stop thinking about this series
If I watch S4P2 will I finally be free?
  LET’S SETTLE THIS. WHAT ARE WE GOING TO CALL THE CHILD ON THE LAST PAGE? 3,168 responses
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The mysterious child who appears at the end needs a name. Why? Indeed.
(At the risk of explaining the joke, apologies to the confused people who’ve never read Naruto’s epilogue. But don’t worry, I’m as baffled about Kevin as you are.)
He needs a name?
What? Where did those two names even come from?
Anything but the two above
Beren is the only way to fix the shambolic ending
Bevin
Someone save that dog
it's not eren's kid so it should technically be bikasa
What's up with these choises???
The kid looks like a Kevin, now that you mentioned it.
The dogs name is buster
My name is Kevin :)
Beren and his dog are cute.
The child is the MC of Chapter 0 (hopium)
It’s not the child that is the sequel, it’s the dog. It’s name: Dogren.
Albus Severus Yeager (Hope you get the reference)
BOREN
Bymir. Eren might have been the protagonist of the series but that kid is the new progenitor of the new titans(wasn't that a DC series?). It's gotta be Bymir!
🅱️eren and Sarmin Kirstein for the laughs
Moses Jr.
Bertoto
Fucking Boruto fuck it
Depressed Hitler Jr.
Deren
Twomir
dumb, who walks around alone in a forest
why the duck kevin is an  option ?
I dont care about the kid I just want the dog to be safe
Wtf do we name the kid's dog?
Can we call Berens dog Balto? Or 🅱️alto
I hope the dog falls in the tree and gets dog titan powers
Doge titan doge titan
I would like the name Mamoru, which means Earth in Japanese, if I'm not mistaken.
Seno (or Xeno). (Reason: It's the future. People might have forgotten who Eren was or even the past. And also, Xeno means foreign to me, so the boy is a typical "foreigner" with no "subjects of Ymir" Lineage)
Some Norse relevant name of the last surviving human, Lifthrasir
Something dope like Shulamith (i think its a girl)
The Little Elidian That Could
Yogurt
It's better to leave him unnamed.
Lil Jean
Little shit
Tree-kun
Does it matter?
Justin Case (get it? just in case Isayama does wanna make a sequel and more money hahaha i hate it here)
  ADDITIONAL COMMENTS? 904 responses
Ellen becomes tree (growing)
Ugh i cant look at the word 'Additional' anymore
You've been monged
This entire manga was like a perfectly executed backflip until the landing in which the guy broke every bone in his body then died
You know that feeling when you buy some ice cream after waiting in a queue for 20 minutes? And then, that fucking ice cream just falls to the ground? That's chapter 139 for me.
I have some mixed feelings
Paradis destroyed. History retconned. Floch was right. Not to mention the additional pages could’ve addressed other characters rather than destroy Paradis or show Mikasa bringing her family to another mans grave. No Historia dialogue. Eren offered to erase her memory of his rumbling plan. Did she know or not that he was doing the rumbling?
I didn't even know of these extra pages before seeing this poll, so thanks for that!
I didn't thank y'all for the hard work on the palls before so Imma do it now, it was really fun to see the reactions of the community (except... some). Also those 139 poll results must have been hell to deal with so kudos
BEST FUCKING ENDING EVER
I still like the real ending better than the fan edits, I think they misunderstood Eren's character quite a lot. I hope the anime will make Eren and Ymir's objectives more comprehensible, Armin harder on Eren's actions, and maybe even a nicer final scene for Reiner, Jean, Historia and Mikasa.
I still love this series very much, and appreciate Isayama for creating it. While I do think he wrote himself into a corner/fumbled with his story threads towards the end, I enjoyed the journey. Eren will always be GOAT; I just wish he hadn't died.
I still think the ending was suitable but to be honest, I expected something more elaborated and with a deeper meaning. Something impactful that made me suffer and be sad for a whole week. The ending, as much as I'd like to understand Isayama's ideas, was weak and I really want to like it entirely but I just can't.
I like the idea he was going for but the execution is trash
Amazing survey, thanks for giving me a place to share my feelings about these pages. Shinzou wo Sasageyo.
You seriously don't want to ask me this question because I've already written a 30 page essay about how the ending sucked and I'm still no where near done. Ill save you my rambling but just know it exists.  
I still don’t understand how either ending has managed to ruin the series for some people.
i still wanted an Eruri reunion :<
I subjectively liked those pages
I think 1 more chapter is needed to closure all points yams want to tell.
In my opinion, it just shows that the cycle of misunderstandings, love and thus hatred goes on. If people are so different and not accepting of change and differences, this will always happen through greed and means to an end. Most importantly, it hints at Titans returning to a destroyed apocalyptic environment, which would be awesome. Although, since the hallucigenia was seperated from Eren one has to wonder: Do the titans truly return, does the hallucigenia form anew from Eren's head? Or is it just his legacy; a giant, forever living tree. I'd say it's somehow the former, we know so little about the actual sorce of life. The "all is well in the end" ending that everyone wished for is not realistic in my opinion. Either start the story of humanity anew with 20% left, or show that in the end, it may have stopped the titans, but not the brutality of humans. It is not perfect, because for a more epic and truly amazing story end there should've been no people beyond the walls in this caliber, and that was already established years ago. So yea, the extra pages give more sad, nostalgic and inevitable substance.
I`m disturbed and annoyed by the way the addictions seem to have been interpreted by a broader audience as "Paradis is destroyed by war, the Titan Curse is back, Eren fought for nothing". I wonder if it`s me who`s being naive or it`s the fans who can`t handle ambiguity. I`ve been feeling suffocated by the amount of harsh critisism of aot since 139 dropped and the addictions made it even wosre.
idgaf what other people say the series isnt ruined its still goated. Ending couldve been better but is still alright imo.
Even if most of the story post-time skip was ripped from The Eternal Champion, (and the romance being just as bad as it was in that novel) I still loved some of the moments in the Rumbling Arc. Ramzi and his last coins along with Eren on Cloud 9 while killing innocents was fucking amazing. (I'm not a sociopath, I swear) while I love some moments, I also hate quite a few. Zeke being assassinated in more ways than one, Hanji doing Armin RTS cosplay, and, of course, Eren being a simp.
Paradis getting carpet bombed in retaliation for the Rumbling makes perfect sense and is consistent with what Floch, Eren, and the Yeagerists warned would happen. My issue with this isn't that its bad writing, however; its that these extra panels come right after a whole arc dedicated to saying "Peace can be an outcome!" All the ending plus its extra panels prove to me is that AnR chads were ultimately proven right in that an Alliance ending would not only suck but ultimately doom Paradis and the descendants of our main cast. But hey! At least Mikasa got to confess to Eren and vice versa! Right?!
Much rather would have had the ending have been Mikasa visiting Eren's grave like in the original chapter, not sitting there crying and getting visited by Birdren, but cradling or strolling a small baby, telling him she's ready to finally live her life or some shit like that, nd then leaving, with a big shot of the now wall-less Shiganshina (like a previous panel, so maybe cut that one out so this one hits harder). No husbandobowl, no cringe, just Mikasa moving on her with life and being given a purpose to nurture instead of fighting, as her own woman, in a free world. That or Eren paths ressurrection and they fuck happily ever after, not like there's a big standard of quality for the ending.
the nihilism is hitting too hard and is very unsavory. Aside from not allowing Mikasa to find happiness on her own terms like Levi, I don’t like all this mess made with not understanding Ymir, Titan powers, and paradise’s en. I will say that I don’t think Eren fought for nothing. Anytime we act in life, we take a risk. If we’re not willing to risk everything or fail, we can’t make significant change. That was a core message of the story. Eren risked it all to primarily save his friends (his most precious people) and perhaps secondarily defeat Titans (as in defeat the curse of his people). the fact that he could even act coherently at all seeing past, present, and future all at once—is incredible. So even if paradise didn’t accept the worlds olive branch, or armin failed again once more, or the world never forgave, erens act isn’t meaningless simply for failing to bring eternal peace. He still accomplished long lives for his friend and temporary Titan reprieve. And even if none of that had been attained, his actions still wouldn’t have been meaningless. Because it’s a risk we had to take, whether we wanted to or not. Life is full of unknowns. We must accept that and act.
Ending is still dogshit, but with Paradis getting nuked as the Yeagerists knew it would, makes it better. They had a point, and the manga would suffer if the ending was happy in spite of that.
Ending was absolutely shit on, everything getting destroyed reflects my feelings about what I hoped to happen to the cast in the present day. I mean cmon everything getting destroyed with no characters to mourn it is just cheap
Eren becoming a SIMP instead of talking about freedom didnt get fixed. We could have the same ending but Eren just talking about freedom( and saying stuff that actually fix the plotholes instead of "idk why i did it, only ymir knows". Like dam that was just retarded). 8 pages cant fix bad writing. I wanted EM to happen but damn this is not how it should've happened, way too forced. Rest of the ending is just neutral to me.
Eren did all that for short-term peace, and potentially didn't even get rid of titans completely, thus the cycle of hatred is bound to repeat.
Eren pulling a Lelouche is just bad, Armin thanking him is no good, peace with the world should have been uncertain, just like peace with Yeagerists was left ambiguous, Reiner still sniffing letter, Eren and Mikasa love nonsense still there...etc
Eren really did nothing.
Eren was an idiot. The new ending shows that his actions made no sense
Eren was still completely retconned and Historia turned out to be no better than her mother. Adding a cherry on crap is still crap.
Eren's sacrifices ultimately change nothing
even though i disliked the original ending, i could at least somewhat understand the themes that isayama was going for. extra pages make the message more muddled. for instance, the original final panel seemed like that mikasa let go of her sadness/guilt over killing eren.
Even though I had big problems with how the story ended, I was still satisfied enough with Chapter 139 to call the ending decent. These eight additional pages, however, make the ending straight up bad. Everything the main characters did was for nothing in the end. Paradis got destroyed and it looks like the cycle of Titans is about to continue. Sure, Eren achieved his goal of giving his friends long lives but all of their descendants are screwed now. In the long run, nobody achieved anything. The original ending had some hope to it but this ending is completley cynical and it just does not go well with the hopeful moments seen in the original ending. Ymir getting a conclusion now instead of just disappearing is good but there is so much wrong with the new final pages.  
Ever since the fight between the alliance and Eren started, the story, characters, and overall theming has sunken down deeper then the Marianna Trench.
Everyone died in vain, all the fights, all the struggles were for nothing. Discarding Zeke's plan for this is supposed to be better? This is just mindlessly mass murdering people for no apparent reason.
Everyone was able to continue their lives just as Eren had hoped for.  He died as a slave to fate.  While everyone else is moving on, conflict doesn't stop.  Eventually war would come and time eventually destroys everything.  Eren's head, which was buried at the tree, still contains the powers of the Hallucegenia and thats why the tree grew so large.  Titan powers will return, probably with that kid that discovered it.
Everything AOT built up to is that Eren sacrificed himself to be the bad guy the world needed to heal, but it ended up that the world descended into war anyways, Paradise is destroyed regardless of what Eren wanted. The last pages emphasize how much of a useless struggle Eren and the rest of Paradise faced when against the world, not even a literal god who could predict the future could maneuver around this shitty ending.
Everything felt pointless
The equivalent of a mediocre, expiried icing on top of a cake made of poo. A poor attempt to make shit a tiny bit better
Gee thanks Yams the Nazis won
Gone from a 2/10 ending to a -10/10 ending
Even after having to stomach the idea that in the SNK universe diplomacy doesn't seem to exist all the while crazy nationalists and wars run rampant, seeing the tree at the end was almost even more disappointing. Excuse me, but why on earth would it grow from Eren's head? Why is the head important? I thought the centipede was blocked from getting back to it and that broke the curse? Does anyone, including the writer, know or understand the logic here? And is Isayama implying that there was another centipede host running around before Ymir whose buried head had been sprouting the giant tree for who knows how long just waiting for another host, Ymir, to stumble along? Just why did we get this origin story as an epilogue rather than at a time in the story when it would have felt like an important revelation and made solving the mystery of the titan curse feel satisfying? And I am fine with the idea that the centipede was a species of animal that continues to exist in the world before and after titans, but the choice to show the tree growing big and strong in the final panel makes the whole genocide thing feel pretty pointless - just as the story in general. The cycle continues because Eren was a genocidal dick and Mikasa an incurable simp. Nothing changed and nothing was learned. I don't understand how Ymir could move on because of Mikasa, especially now after these added pages. It didn't make sense before, even less now. As a reader, I feel completely empty and dissatisfied. There was no reason for me to pick up this manga and invest my precious time reading it. It was just another scam. But I guess Isayama made a nice fortune with it, so, well played, sir.
Every franchise I loved in the 2010s died with a whimper.
Half assed ending and the extra pages are set so far in the future that nothing really matters anymore.
He should've left it as it was. I started to accept the first ending but then when the 8 chapters released it just went downhill at that point.
I think it's bitter and realistic. It been made on purpose to not please anyone. It's about human's nature and the cycle of life, starting and ending and starting all over again. It's how life goes. Defenitely different from every other story and with huge impact. I'll never forget this story. Great job Isayama. Thank you.
(sorry for my english, i'm using google translate, i hope you understand a little) Chapter 139 alone manages to destroy all those beautifully  themes of chapters 122 and 131. Even the chapter ""Sinners"" is greatly weakened … but at least Eren and Mikasa's conclusion was consistent. In chapter 139 we know that Eren doesn't want Mikasa to forget him, and he doesn't want her to love anyone else. In chapter 138 (chronologically later), however, he tells her the exact opposite for her own good. It is obvious to the reader that Eren means ""forget me and be free"" in a romantic sense. But Mikasa refuses to forget him and wraps herself in her scarf. It is tragic, but extremely poetic and coherent. What appears on the additional pages is simply narratively incorrect. Why after she has clearly expressed her will, we see her with a new family? Without any build up, with a man who has never considered in 139 chapters? It is forced, it weakens chapter 138, it weakens a love intended as ""eternal"" from the whole production of Attack on titan."
I feel like most people don't get that this didn't really happen, this part of the manga was purposely supposed to be the movie the castes characters are watching on the last fake preview. Why? Well, the "end" kanjis Isayama used for the first ending are the ones commonly used for manga endings. But, the kanjis used for the "end" of the extra pages are the ones commonly used in movies on Japan. After realizing that, I don't think those are Mikasa or Jean at all but actors in a movie. I really wish Isayama was more clear with this as to not cause confusion, but then again Isayama-sensei is usually quite ambiguous at that's something I like about him.
I wanted to see more of mikasa and Jean being married and had a families, Armin and Annie married and had a families, and other friends families to, and more to see more pages of their conclusions. And see their are life’s are like now for example what are they doing and do they have a different jobs. Do they even have family like were they married and have children. That’s what I wanted see more of it. Or Eren is secretly a live and married mikasa and have kids. And some of their friends doesn’t know he’s alive or some do but secretly.
I'm genuinely angry we didn't see Levi's tea shop. It's the one thing I wanted. He should have gone full Uncle Iroh. Forget AoTnoRequiem, I'm gonna write my own doujinshi about Levi and Gabi's Tea Shop Adventures. The first arc will be "The Gang Tackles the Post-Rumbling Property Market".
I'm happy that Aot will continue
Maybe I'm in the minority but I liked the final ending. I feel that everything was fully completed. Yes, some parts have flaws, but I still enjoyed it. Paradis was safe for long years, but while fighting is a part of a human nature - eternal peace wasn't possible and people went into a war again. This time Paradis lost. Yet, there is still some light in the darkness, because maybe one day the titan power will be used again, but this time not for destroying, but for creating something good.
My disappointment is immeasurable and my day is ruined
Reiner should have been the hero instead of Armin. Eren should have been more vicious. And making it all about Mikasa at the last Chapter was stupid.
Reiner was absolutely fucking ruined
Saw this fizzle-out ending coming from le mile away lads, frankly been somewhat resigned over a year since I realised that the Marleyan perspective and the Human cause were never going to be elaborated on or given the platform, perspective, or even any importance to the plot that they deserve, and that Isayama ignored the idea entirely. With that in mind, a relatively petty ending was inevitable in any case. Pretty lame I think but eh, it's a fun piece of fiction even with that shortcoming.
See you guys in Ermiar: Attack on Titan Next Generations
See you later space cowboys
Still a great journey up until this point.
Still confused about how I feel about the war being shown. The only reason the war makes sense could be to show Eren was wrong. Genocide is never the answer. Even if it bought them time nothing can erase that. BUT at the same time it does also imply the alliance's peace talks lasted barely a life span so like??? Doesn't that mean Eren might as well have gone with the full 100% deaths???
“I'm sad that ""power of love"" turned out to be the extent of Mikasa's character arc (damn it, Isayama...) but I like the idea of her moving on, while still not forgetting the place Eren had in her life. I just wish the narrative actually condemned Eren so I could read these scenes with something other than rage.
PLEASE WHICHEVER MEMBER OF THE POLL TEAM WROTE “NOT EVEN THE FOUNDER YMIR KNOWS” AS A POSSIBLE ANSWER!!! I HATE YOU!!!! I HATE THAT WE HAVE NO ANSWERS!!!! AHHH!!!! (I spent a good few minutes laughing so hard that I ended up choking, so thank you for that, but also I hate you. You have no right to be this funny, damn.)
Wait, I wrote this down and continued the poll only to get to “Attack on Titan: Next Generations”. Please… This is so funny, but why did this amazing manga come to this…
Watching season 4 part 2 with a lot of excitement over chapter 119 animated (Porco and Colt, my beloveds…), and sniper Gabi; some enthusiasm over Path chapters since I know the voice-acting will carry the chilling atmosphere those chapters had; and the rest for the memes.
I don’t think there will be an original ending per se, but probably just an expansion on the extra pages. Maybe we’ll get Alliance side of the extended epilogue, confirmation of Mikasa’s husband, or (the one thing I’d like to know tbh) the little kid’s name and background.
But most of all, I’m just tired. Man, I just want this to end…”
AoT is not a happy manga. It is a dark and sad manga. The happy ending we got was nice for our characters but AoT needed something more, something darker. Their whole island getting ruined was well deserved after how they stopped Eren from fulfilling his path,
Hopefully the Fanmade ending, AoT AnR, will be so good that I can pretend it’s the canon ending.
AOT no requiem is what we should have gotten
Does mikasa even clean that scraf
The ending is good.
The ending is trash
The ending isn’t as bad as people say it is
The Kino is almost there but you fumbled hard
Floch being proven right was kino, rest was more garbage. Read AoTnoRequiem
Floch did nothing wrong
Floch was proven right, that's the only good thing. The rest is still shit and the ending is still ruined.
Fuck armin fuck mikasa fuck chapter 139, nothing make fucking sense. Seriously a tree, a fucking tree. What is the point of wasting your time into a manga about an island if the island goes to shit in ONE PAGE CMON!!!!! In demon crybabby at least we see the planet going to shit in several chapters not one panel.
No but you guys are cool
no hecc u
no it was just like having a bad meal and then drinking water to remove the taste but it was actually toilet water.
FUCK i CANT believe how they ruined a series which had been a 10/10 up until that point
Holy shit I hated the last chapter but now it just doesn’t make sense what Isayama wanted to portray
Honestly I feel like the Mikasa Jean part kinda pissed me off(as you see I’m not a fan). But I think everything else makes sense in context of 139
Honestly the pages didn’t add anything interesting to the history other than more plot holes
I think the chapter was perfectly fine without these pages. Why was there so much focus on Mikasa’s family? What happened to everyone else? The extra pages don’t really explain things better, it just takes the fun out of the deliberately vague ending. The original ending let us decide what happens to Paradis afterwards, whereas these pages answer questions nobody really asked for. Not only that, but why did Mikasa need to have a family to show that she “moved on”? She still wears the scarf and still visits Eren’s grave, with “My most beloved, my dear” written on his headstone. I personally think it would’ve been better if she stayed independent, because this doesn’t feel like she married happily with this second guy.
why must I suffer.
They should have revived Erwin even if he didn't like it.
The whole Rumbling arc (123-139) has been riddled with bad writing (Pie scene, Hange's stupid death, Zeke talk no jutsu by Armin, Past shifters helping Armin, Kaya seeing Sasha in Gabi, "To save ZA WARUDO", Stormtrooper Yeagerists at the port, Eren not knowing why he did everything, Armin thanking Eren for committing genocide) either because Isayama was somehow forced to change his original plans OR he is just a hack writer. Chapter 139 was already garbage, these pages don't change anything
The whole series amounted to Eren not having a clue what's going on, but feeling compelled to commit genocide anyway. Zeke's plan was better. Eren's plan was just a knock-off Karl Fritz plan, but with other countries suffering.
I think the destruction of Paradis make the story better and for me now it moves from mediocre ending to fine ending. Other things in additional pages don't change my opinion and for me they are meaningless
I respect people's opinions really, but all the salt and rudeness and toxic negativity some 'fans' are throwing are just too much and it's honestly killing my enthusiasm over something I really love. Sorry for the rant. But thanks snkpoll team, as always! Stay safe.
There were some very good panels added to a less than mediocre chapter.
The New Ymir panel is a plus. Miksa moving on is a plus. Paradis being destroyed, although it fits the themes of the story, is worse than the open ending we got originally. I would prefer if the whole world was destroyed by the war, not only Paradis. Portraying theme of the never-ending cycle of violence. It feels like it was done for the sequel set up. So the kid could find titan powers in post-apocaliptic world.
I'll try to keep it brief. Although the cycles of war are a theme of aot, humanizing the oher side and try t understand them is also there. With this the idea the wars continuing was disappointing. The curse being broken, would allow for the rhetoric of how the eldians were treated to be changed. They dont have the potential to turn into monsters or weaponized. Also the eldians also suffered from eren's actions and it was eldians who stopped him, showing that they didn't agree with it. These things make it really interesting how the rest of the world and eldians would now interact. The extra pages seem to reject this by showing conflict will continue. Side note the way historia was treated also hurts what could have been an interesting aspect for the future. Instead of seeing what type of leader she can be, she was forced a family and allowed a borderline fascist group to take over. I think i gave my opinion on why I also hated how mikasa was treated as well. The messaging here leaves a really bad taste in my mouth. Just give them a family to move on when there are other aspects to be explored.
I'm glad they lost, since it only would make sense the alliance knew they were risking their island to stop Eren, they succeeded but also failed, it made the chapter better, but the chapter still sucked since imo it isn't satisfying or enjoyable to watch our main character fail and get embarrassed
Isayama unintentionally keeps romanticizing war criminals. Visiting the grave of a person responsible for billions of deaths is not "wholesome". The last chapter is just full of apologetic nonsense for Eren, these new pages change nothing about it. Paradis being ultimately destroyed only reinforce the disgusting idea that leaving 20% of the population alive was a mistake, instead of the nihilistic approach Isayama likely was going for.
It added some small details, but nothing that drastically changed the story. We knew conflict would return, a panel showing it doesn't change much, at least for me. Same with Mikasa missing Eren. It really seemed to reinforce what we already know.
It answered some questions about the ending
Karl Fritz's decision to retreat and build Paradis also led to a long period of avoiding war between Eldians and the rest of the world. He didn't have to kill 80% of the world to do it, so what was the point of genocide?
I really don't care I just want to know about Levi 🥺
No, I don't have the time I'm voyaging to Japan to shit in Yams Sauna
Not only was Eren’s plan just a straight contradiction to his entire character, but what he did “for” the alliance was meaningless. Every character minus Levi had such a poorly handled send off with the additional pages.
Good survey design and questions. I'm taking a break from this fandom because I can't stand seeing a single braincell being abused over and over again. Imagine writing a story on the damaging effects of ignorance and hatred only to attract the very idiots who happily perpetuate that shit. Let's meet again in winter and settle this once and for all.
Only like it more because it stops people reducing Pieck to her ass because of Jean. Also, let's be real, if Mikasa couldn't have Eren (and she didn't remain single) it was ALWAYS going to be Jean
so every single thing that eren ever lived for was totally pointless?? cool cool cool. i've been saying for YEARS that turning eren into some villainous enigma was a dumb move and now it looks like i was right lol. jeez i admit i was never an eren fan and especially not after he started uhhh killing everybody but you know what...at this point i just feel bad for him. now i'm nostalgic for the eren before the timeskip because at least then i could understand him and he was a unique kind of hero. if only he was in a manga where the author didnt hate him, although ironically this has made me like his character more than ever if only because of salt about his wasted potential. guess i'll re-read chapters 71-74 to cope or something idk
So far these extras only serve as a sequel bait. The main message hasn't really been altered. Eren killed himself so these opportunistic rats would have long lives. The only people discontented are the ones who think Mikasa should've stayed a devout virgin for Eren and Eren stans in general. The destruction of paradis is so far up the future that not even us doomers can cackle about it.
The chapter was rushed and vague, but on the bright side it left some open ended topics which I enjoy. Armin had already said conflict is inevitable, we didn't need to see that future war. We don't know if all Paradis was destroyed, but edgy fans like to jump to that conclusion, for all we know, only that city "New Shiganshina" was destroyed. Mikasa was just visiting Eren's grave on his death anniversary, she wasn't being obsessive, her future with a random family wasn't needed. Beren and the implied continuation of the magic/worm/curse SUCKS. For me that's what really made the story pointless. The extra pages did more damage than help.
The conclusion being "hurr durr humanity will always be at war" is just really dumb and shallow.
The entire motive of Rumbling, conversation between Mr. Kruger and Grisha was useless, Eren's desire for freedom even his love for his Mom all was made useless at the end by this clown Isayama.
The entire story justifies genocide by saying if we don't genocide them they will genocide us. It's not as politically intelligent as it wants to be. I don't like the sequel bait. This has become just another popular shonen.
Didn't like the final panel. Would have preferred the one where EMA were running towards the tree together like what was on the volume cover. I think that would have been the most fitting out of all the rest considering the story began with the three of them, so it would only make sense for it to end with them as well. I hope to hear further elaboration from Isayama in the future so maybe I can make better sense of why he decided to officially end it with a tease of the titans coming back or whatever that was supposed to be. That was the only part of these new pages that left me flooded with questions that I was hoping I wouldn't be asking...
Everything with the founder is uneededly complex and opaque. Making romantic love and Mikasa the central point of the climax was a mistake. Eren being able to use power of paths to affect the past and Ymir reviving past shifters (ergo any Eldian), and paths existing outside of time, makes them so cosmically powerful that their choices become comical. Based on what the story showed there is no reason Eren couldn't just revive everyone from Marco to Sasha, or just beam all the info of the outside world into past commander Erwin's head or deprogram every Eldian in Marley's ghettos. Instead he threw a nuclear temper tantrum, after spending the first 100 chapters growing out of that mentality. And I think that, that is a bad thing.
Floch was essentially the only character who made it out the end of Isayamas wild ride unscathed. A good character beginning to end. Should have listened to Floch, or better yet, common sense, and did the full rumbling. Because Eren was too horny for Mikasa and the alliance was too obsessed with "morals", the island was destroyed likely killing atleast the grandchildren of the alliance, and now the story of aot will repeat once again, causing much more untold ssuffering. Thanks for nothing Eren, the alliance, and especially Isayama.
From now on I will stick to manga written by women: FMA, Noragami, Akatsuki no Yona, Kono Oto Tomare, Fruits Basket (Just in case anyone wants any recs)
“Fuck editors. Between this rushed nonsense and Kentaro Miura passing I feel like the two most powerful and influential Japanese stories to effect me as a writer and story teller were taken from me abruptly and I just have to accept it.
After so much emotion and interest and sheer passion invested in Berserk and Attack on Titan, I feel like I’ll never get closure for either of these epic stories. The last two months have been rough in that regard. I wanted to take away something from the ending that I could hold onto for the rest of my life. Titan was so deeply powerful, it needed an ended that felt like it took the time honor the immense journey Isayama took us on. It made me feel like Isayama didn’t even care about his characters as much as he did.
As a writer he is allowed to disappoint his audience. But he let down the characters that he created and treated them like they were just props for plot devices. Perhaps my mistake was that I didn’t see them that way and cared too much about this story.
Also...
Am I the only person who assumed he was going to stop at 145. The 13 plus 9 thing seemed less meaningful compared to 145, as that was the King who created the walls. We saw that number constantly. I feel like he had 6 more chapters in him to explore the effects of the rumbling and Erens motivations.”
Gabi did nothing wrong
Genocide is whack as fuck.
Goodbye AoT. Wish it didn't have to end this way
Great ending fuck you
What was the point of Historia’s character, if she wasn’t in the story at all past season 3 it wouldn’t even change a lot.
While I don't like the ending or the additional pages, they've made me appreciate a lot of the earlier parts of AoT, and the manga as a whole, more.
why!!!!!!!!!!!!! what was it all worth YAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!? WHHHHYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!
Wish we saw Floch memory shred
wish I could've known what was the origin of the Walls Titan and what happened to Yelena, but well, whatever
Guys, you didn't liked the ending,read the fan-fics, don't hate isayama. If you liked the ending, don't bitch about people trying to enjoy fan-fic. Also, don't try to sell your favourite fan-fic as canon as dm editor and kondansha. Don't spoil it for anime-onlies. Attack on Titan was entry point to whole different world for me. I liked every character, every music and literally everything about Attack on Titan. Never felt the shear adrenaline rush about watching anything other Attack on Titan. Even now thinking about ep 5 ending, AT and CT reveal scene, declaration of war give me chills. I think the ending was something that people can be content about. Really sad that we won't get anything extra in future(at least not the og cast).
I actually liked the chapter, these pages just made it all meaningless
I actually liked the ending better.
I actually was somewhat satisfied with chapter 139, but these extra pages made me create a negative opinion on the ending.
I already disliked it, but somehow some of the few good things I DID like about it were crapped on, making me hate it even more which I thought was impossible.
I already disliked the original 139 chapter, and these additional pages just solicited that. More than anything, I did not understand the odd and undue focus on Mikasa out of all people in the end, with her apparent obsession with Eren all the way to her grave literally right next to his and with the small hold scarf around her neck. However, I will say that Paradis being destroyed after the world had time to rebuild entirely makes sense. Armin can’t talk-no-jutsu his way out of this, and it only proves that Floch was right and Eren’s 80% was the most stupid thing he could have done.
I always felt like Ymir's thoughts and feelings were left a bit too open, so even just a few extra things are good to have.
I am assuming that the war is for whole different reason and not rumbling. War is a common thing in any nation's life. Regarding Mikasa, though I liked her moving on, all of her panels just being around Eren's grave didn't assure me that she moved on. Had we got just one panel of her being happy with her family and her husband, I would have no problem with it.
I am free
Aot was a mistake
Loved it before, still love it now. Peace.
LOVED these pages and the fact that erens genocide did not solve any problem.
Make the titans 5x taller, constantly hardened skin, transformations the size of bunker bombs. Add in some magical powers and paths fuckery and we got the ADVENTURES OF BEREN a dark comedy
I think no matter what, I seriously love Shingeki no Kyojin. This was the work that inspired me to think for the first time that the way you tell a story is way more important of what it is about. I aspire to one day write something that I feel proud of, as Isayama-sensei did with his work. No matter what this manga will forever hold a special place in my heart. And honestly I'm so grateful that it has been animated so beautifully by the multiple animation studios it has gone through, it deserves it. I apologize to whoever will have to read my lengthy responses, I'm just too passionate about this manga, sorry.
What I have the most problem with is the freaking tree at the end. In 139, we see Eren take away the power for all Eldians to transform into titans, but there's hardly any closure for the hallucigenia. In my theory, hallu-chan is life itself (as implied by Zeke in his conversation with Armin) so, as long as living creatures still exist on the planet, the worm won't die or go away. It might take up different appearances, but its existence is tied to life. The hallucigenia might be under that tree, but we don't know if it will lead to more titans or another kind of power. Thanks for listening to my absolute bonkers theory!
I want Beren to eradicate earth
I wish Historia had a larger role in the final arc, and that' where my disappointment rests.
I'm not pleased with the direction Isayama decided to take this story.
I’m still on hopium. However for the ending to really be good the entire rumbling arc needs to be revised and that’s basically impossible. Just hope mappa animators get some good treatment
I'm thankful I was a part of this community, theorizing chapter to chapter, the memes, people I spoke with. I think I'll remember the reddit folks more than the manga itself
I'm tired. Hopefully Part 2 will have great animation for the amazing moments that will be in it, but it will come to the same hollow ending sadly. But I wouldn't miss it because I still enough this series for the most part.
I've wasted so many goddamn years on this shit
Ymir Freckles shoulda lived and take Historia away from all this royal bs
Words cannot describe how much this ending hurt me.
Yeah the about the wars, I don't know if it's the same war that would result from Marley vs the Paridisians. IDK if that would make much sense because shit looks pretty advanced in the panel with the bombings. So IDK. Also I think the clear implication of Bob and the tree is that he's gonna find the Titan power again. It looks exact to Ymir finding her tree, soooooo.....why else would it be drawn??? Also I just really like the way the tree is drawn. Also, if that IS Jean, then LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
I like each of the individual scenes but I feel like with the exception of Ymir and Mikasa's meeting, that too much is still left unexplained. I also liked the ambiguity of the original manga ending.
i like how Floch was proven right and it shows that the rumbling was the only way forward
I like how they show how war still continues and that this cycle is one of inevitability
I like it more as it shows that Eren not doing a full rumbling lead to his entire country being obliterated. It’s a bit of realism the original chapter 139 lacked.
I like it more now because we got a complete ending in previous ending things are left very open, mikasa was 19 and has no family or friends in paradis so she needs to start over again by having a new family so it makes sense why she got married and paradis was at peace for a few centuries which is good if eren did 100%rumbling paradis would survive but there won't be any peace it may last only for 10 years at max
I like it showed the consequences of the alliances actions.
I like it slightly more for the extra (yes, it's not much) context that connects Mikasa to Ymir. I also love the art of the final few pages and it's cool to see the ravages of time and war from one vantage point.
I like Mikasa's development in the future and I find the war against Paradise Island very realistic, counting as the world was at the end of the story. The only thing that maybe I didn't enjoy about this 8 pages is that tree becoming like the tree where Ymir found titan powers the first time, because it means the story is kinda open to another circle of titans and stuff and I don't think I'd like that.
I like more Mikasa moving on and the realistic aspect (it´s settled in the future and wars are recurrent in time). I like less and less the Ymir resolution
I like paradis being destroyed basically. The rest is bad/meh tier
I like the way the cycle is shown at the end, there will always be conflict, its not because of the titans, and the clarity of the endings message has gotten better, its still not perfect, its a little bit rushed, but the extra pages made it better. I hope that they take some extra time for the dialogue between Eren and Armin, it could help a lot.
I liked a more bleak finale
I liked how the ending had a significant element of unanswered questions. The additional material has given us some answers while raising new questions, so ultimately my feelings are unchanged. I still enjoy the ending overall, but there was some poor dialogue choices by Isayama.
I liked it a bit, but it doesn't change that the last chapter sucked and the entire series(mostly time-skip) sucked.
I grew to like the original chapter 139 after weeks of thinking about it. These extra pages truly make the story meaningless imo. What was the point of all this suffering. If Erwin learned about this outcome, would he think the mountain of lives lost was worth it?
I don't know if constant twists over being able to foresee the trajectory of this story was a good move in the end. It leaves more questions than answers. Although we are given tools to figure out enough. I guess I'm just tired of the simpleton one-note meme-like ""interpretations"" I've been seeing. It'll be a few years until the collective fanbase has a more consistent opinion on this series. Or maybe we'll constantly be fighting (poetic). Either way, I'll seclude to my own space from here on out. I'm grateful for the podcasts and polls ye have done. It's been one hell of a journey. I wouldn't be surprised if there was ever an ""End of Evangelion"" treatment to Attack on Titan.
Ymir being in love with the King was very random and I disliked it. Eren being a slave to his powers could’ve been more enjoyable but it ended up w/ him coming off as a nonsensical character. Suddenly he’s a hero, not a genocidal maniac.
Ymir plot is the biggest plothole, if she love Karl Fritz she should have lived with him, but she chose to die for that spear, whitout regenerate herself. This should be changed.
Zeke was proven right. Would have gotten the same results without the genocide.
AoT no Requiem is Kino
AoT No Requiem is my new personal canon. I didn't like ANR theory but it's better than the bullshit 139 chapter.
At least I‘ll still have Berserk...can’t have a disappointing ending If your story never ends :,)
At least it’s done
At least Levi got a good ending I guess.
At least the ending to Game of Thrones didn't justify genocide.
At least the memes that came out of this were good lol.
At this point the 8 pages could just be a weird movie ending when considering that it follows the caste AU where rather than saying "end of a series" its "end of a movie" in japanese
We need more World Building
We were dead-ass calling Eren the greatest MC of all time with the best, logical character development ever. Clown moment.
Attack on titan was a great experience
Attack on Titan will forever remain my favourite show/series
Attack on Titan, your ending might've been shit and full of bullshit and asspulls, but I still adore you. I wish Isayama and his wife a happy life, he deserves it after so many years of consistently delivering a great story for people without breaks or hiatuses.
Authors should never let never themselves be influenced by fan comments because a fan service ending made of retcons is bound to be a complete failure.
i havent smiled in 2 months
In summary, maybe good idea but very bad execution.
I liked the pages, though I wish they clarified more things that weren't very clear.
I love Attack on Titan manga/anime even with this rushed nonsense Rumbling arc and conclusion of this story. Without this Rumbling arc (130,131 are exceptions) this manga would be one of the best. But it is what is it. Now my,and maybe perhaps other fellow Titanfolk people, hopium is anime original ending or the people behind Anr project will deliver fan ending which is the perfection to end this story,which will become the headcanon of many of us. I am writing off roads, but how to end rhis additional thoughts. I am still happy I was part of this ride even the end was downfall, still enjoyed most of it,even these last chapters and pages, thanks to memes, which were the best of it
I love that even the pollsters are done. I don't think I've seen this level of memery and (barely) hidden salt in any poll before this. Anyway, please allow me to acknowledge about the poorly written political allegory (I mean, titans are Jews and once ruled a global empire? Seriously?) and misogyny (looks like every recurring female character's fate in this series is to either die or get impregnated? Oh wait, or they can become a fascist a la Rico and Hitch. Nice.) which is sort of concerning but...ehh what do I know. I don't even know what to make of Eren. Is it too late to say SnK ended at chapter 50/73/80/whatever other number is popular these days?
I personally say despite the reactions to the ending, Attack on Titan was a fun ride and I miss it.
I personally think the story went down hill since they reached the ocean. AOT should've never changed to a political and philosophical story. Even Isayama admitted the themes ended up being to much for him as a writer. Eren should've never been turned into a (fake) edgelord.
I love this series and I still love this series despite thinking the ending is lackluster. Eren nearly surpassed Lelouch for anime protagonist to me but alas it wasn’t meant to be. Maybe AotN requiem can save some of us that enjoy fan fiction.
If I'm being honest, I feel the series in general got weird after a while, particularly after the timeskip. Like, it was already weird to begin with, but at least it was so in a way where it was definitely still great. The Return To Shiganshina arc in 2016 was really the honeymoon phase of the series for me, or when I felt it was at its best. But after that, it started to go downhill from there as it drifted somewhat from its roots, and it was definitely still good despite being weird, but not as good anymore. The series made certain decisions that really just felt arbitrary or out of place. For starters, Historia seemed to become so big in Uprising, but then she was essentially written out of the story and made not that important anymore because of a pregnancy subplot that already felt sudden and forced and out of nowhere to begin with, and had no real payoff for all the emphasis and foreshadowing and time it was given either. Then,  they had Levi sabotage himself with the Thunder Spear against Zeke, which was essentially character derailment. Levi would have never done that back then. And they gave too much time and panels to Gabi and Falco for too long. I like Falco as a person, but I feel he took certain scenes that would have been better for Historia to have, particularly as a titan. And I'm sorry, but with all due respect, I was not curious to see what Eren would have been like in another world. Also, weren't Eren and Zeke supposed to be rivals who clash? That feels like a dropped idea now. I also think Eren should have been more concerned about Zeke dying than Historia becoming a titan if he knew titan shifters would be saved and didn't want Historia eating Zeke. Otherwise, it feels so overcomplicated and done in a roundabout way for no reason when it would have been so much easier if Historia just became a titan. And in general, I think Eren and Zeke would have made a better enemies of humanity duo at least as a temporary measure. I liked that Historia strongly opposed genocide and would prefer for her to remain that way and temporarily be Eren's other light foil opponent alongside Armin. I understand much of this is just my personal opinion. But even so, it felt like the series later on could have been noticeably better if it was just given some tweaks.
Is AOT still antiwar? I owe an apology to all those saying not was fascist or was open for fascist readings. I was blind by my love of the series. I did not read the first article and ignored salient points. The reason I write this is that I feel that's why the ending is bad. Simply because it refuses to entertain the idea of the piece and wrote Eren in a way where he was forced to commit genocide and where him succeeding probably would have been a good thing. It is kinda weird how the paths lets yams excuse Eren's actions as a closed time loop he has no real control over. Like I interpreted his break down in chapter 123 if I recall as him choosing the course of events based on possible futures and realizing the human cost of his actions. But this later chapter demonstrates no he had no real control ever and it is a closed time loop. Kinda sad to on thematic level the one character desperate for freedom was a slave and it's only a blip in series. Like you would think that be a pretty big thematic arc but the ending kinda of sells it for the ymir plot.
Isayama master troll
isayama masterpiece
Is ok to believe the ending wasn't that bad, but I cannot take seriously anyone who says that Attack on Titan is a "master piece" unironically.
It's not that serious as other people make it out to be tbh, and that's coming from someone that adores cohesive and deep narratives.
With some time I moved on and barely care. Rumbling arc haven't become better with those additional pages. Most characters still feel like a caricature of themselves there. I think the theme touched after timeskip ended being too complex for Isayama to handle and all of his weaknesses as a writer came to light. Events that should've got the focus, explanation and especially careful treatment were barely touched while things that could've been left to imagination or never moved the plot filled the pages. Why explaining plotholes, forgotten threads?  No, let's exibit the destruction of paradise that is so vague, it only makes the point of "war, war never changes". Yes, it was explicitly told in the story before, but character arcs (I.e. Gabi) were there to show that it's not true, it could be broken. Why mourn for 80% of humanity and those who suffer the Rumbling consequences? Pfft. And Schrodinger Mikasa she moved on but she didn't. It's hard to believe she is happy, the only scenario that comes to mind is Jean with wig pasta. Tree finale doesn't feel earned. I guess it was meant to be tragic, but hopeful - cycle continues, but maybe this time it will be broken. But only joke "Beren and his dog Tukasa: New Generation" comes to mind.
“Your question about watching the new season of the anime was very badly constructed. The only choice to choose from that involved not watching the anime was ""I refuse to waste any more time on this franchise"" (which is what I picked, not because that is how I feel but because it is closest to the reality of not watching the new season). This question needed a few more possibilities such as ""I don't care for watching (the) anime in the first place, so of course I'm not going to watch the next season"" (which is how I actually feel), or ""I'm undecided at this point in time"" (as I MIGHT watch it if an anime original ending occurred and it was brilliantly executed).
With regards to the question about the Isayama and the ending, I actually think that this was an early draft of how Isayama envisioned the ending (though not necessarily his original draft), and that he deliberately cut down the character development of a lot of characters (e.g. Eren, Zeke, Reiner, etc.) to shoe-horn Armin and Mikasa back to prominence. There was also not nearly enough foreshadowing to imply Eren's ROMANTIC feelings for Mikasa, or any reason for his pathetic display in chapter 139. Chapter 139 destroyed much of what made SNK a great series (and to a lesser extent so did chapters 132 through 138), though at least the final few extra pages were a return to realism (even if it was too little, too late).
What also helped me accept the ending more was by a perceived parallel to chapter 69. I think Isayama intended for Eren to undergo a similar development to what the 145th King Fritz did, where the ultimate power of the Founding Titan turned Eren into a compassionate individual who wanted to stop the rumbling in such a way as to ensure a paradise of peace for his closest friends. Re-read chapter 69 with Uri as Eren, Kenny as The World, Helos as Armin, and the peace of the walls with the post-rumbling peace negotiated by Armin.
I still love SNK (like a bad divorce where there's still love but also too much pain). If any of the fan projects manage to deliver on a solid and convincing ending, then I'll probably discontinue believing in Isayama's ending and will take a fan ending as my new headcanon.
Lastly, thank you all for making this survey and for participating in the community. I think you still have a lot of room to grow with regards to survey because several of these questions were very narrow in what answers they allowed, but excellent initiative all the same. Perhaps it would also be a good idea to end the survey with two open questions: one for (constructive) criticism about the survey itself, and one for allowing people to share additional thoughts on the ending (not covered by the survey itself).”
“I tried giving this anime a chance, I really did. I know many animes take a while to get into things, but 64 episodes in, and I have given up on this shitshow completely.
In the first season, I had high hopes. We were introduced to many cute waifus early on, such as Mikasa, Sasha, Armin, etc., but they show almost no skin. Fan service is essential for any anime, but the directors and animators of this show were so arrogant they thought that they didn't even need to include it to be successful. This is a recurring problem, and there are so many missed opportunities in each season, including Gabri wearing a night dress instead of a tight bikini. The only skin we ever see is in season 3 part 2. After the whole erwin and armin, fiasco we end up seeing armin shirtless, but it turns out she is flat AF.
I skipped season 2, so I will just talk about seasons 3 and 4. In the first part of season 3, it is pretty much just talking and no action. The most exciting part was when Armin has Aaron chained up and there is mad sexual tension, but of course, it ends with nothing sexual happening at all. I stopped watching season 3 part 1 right there.
In season 3 part 2, people whose names I forgot who were Aaron's friends are suddenly evil and titans? Aaron fights them and blah blah blah and suddenly we go to his dad's story which is completely irrelevant to the plot. I skimmed through the last few episodes and saw no titans fighting so I just stopped watching.
With season 4, I was hopeful because a new studio was taking over and maybe they could improve this heaping pile of dog shit, but my hope was quickly extinguished when i saw gabriella's attire, as i mentioned earlier. This last episode was straw that broke the camels back when they did not play the ost i wanted at the end when Erin transormed. RIght when i finished that episode I spammed all of MAPPA's staff telling them how worthless they were for not playing you see big girl.
This might just be the worst anime of all time, and that is no exaggeration. It is somehow number 2 on the rankings right now, so I am gonna make as many accounts as I can and rate this trash a 1. Anyone who enjoys this anime is too easily entertained and must have a very low IQ”
Birb was better then tree
Blessed. I hope results for this are close to the truth and yagercucks or 139 fanboys don't give multiple answers
Bad ending, still the best shit I have ever watched/read. Thank you Isyama
drink water and stay hydrated
At this point in the story I only cared about 2-3 characters and they didn't show up in the extra pages, hopefully because they lived long and happy lives.
At this point, we don't really care. It was a fun ride till we hit this point. Goodnight.
AOT IS FUCKING FIRE AND IF U DONT AGREE UR A BAKA
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zuffer-weird-girl · a year ago
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The past
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He didn't liked to fight with you, really... bjt sometimes he forgot how... far away he can be with his emotions.
He was more stuck on his thoughts than he was used to... even Overhaul, his childhood friend, called him out for it. Mimic had to slap the back of his head to make him go back to concentrate on the meeting, even the big boss was getting worried at this point.
The worst part of the day was when you tried to help him with something and he lashed on you.
"Just-!" He breathed in and out with a hand on his head before letting out a chuff and giving your back to you "Just leave me alone. I dont need another headache."
"... fine then Kurono." You hissed his sur name and he winced at the sound of it "I was only trying to help my boyfriend you jerk."
"Whatever. As if I needed some." He waved you off as he heard your scoff, heart cleansing when he just knew you were going to get angry at him, cry because of him.
Fucking idiot...
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The man laughed in glory as he stared at the target all pierced with the amount of shots that was hit.
"Ya saw how maany scores your dad did Tiger?!" The man laughed louder as a tony giggle escaped his mouth at enthusiasm of the man.
"Now now..." a femine and more calm voice called from the balcony "We dont want to cause problems to the neighbors now do we? Hajime?"
"Nah!" The man waved with a bark of laughter "If anything I just 'WOSH!" he grabbed him and threw in the air as he catched.
"Dad!" He clinged on his arms but pet put a nervous laughter.
"No using of quirks Hajime..." the woman sighed but soon it looked like she felt a bit dizzy and the man was fast enough to catch her even with him on his arms.
"Ayumi.." the older man spoke on a less happy tone, brows furrowed as he checked the woman's temperature.
"I'm fine Hajime." Despite the pain and fatigue, she still could smile a bit and pinch his cheek "How is my teddy bear doing huh?"
"Mom... are you getting sick?" He mumbled as his father put him on the ground and helped his mother to get up.
"Is just a flu baby. Nothing to worry about." The woman said gently as the man furrowed his eyebrows and looked away.
"When you're going to get better?"
"Soon, Hari. Mommy is going to get better soon."
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He sighed, hand resting on the balcony as he stared at the city... the sky was with a beautiful shade of orange, indicating that soon night time he was going to take some rest at least.
He took off his gun out of his pocket to inspect...but his mind was in other place as he furrowed his eyebrows at it.
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"This is a very well gift of your old man to ya tiger, I need you to take care of it." The man gave the gun, unloaded, to the boy as he furrowed his eyebrows at it.
"When you're going to get back?" The boy mumbled as the man sighed, patted his shoulder and got his suitcase and a hat, smirking sadly at the boy on the entrance.
"See ya soon... Hari."
His father never called him Hari.... it was always a nickname ... something wasted right... and before he could reach the door to tell him to wait the door was closed on his face.
"Hari..." he heard the call of his mother and he immediatly dropped the gun, grabbing the tray where it contained a plate of food, a cup of water and inumerous pills he didn't know for what.
"I am here." He mumbled, entering the room as the sickly woman giggled, her usually bright with life now it seemed drained out of energy and... everything.
"You sound like All Might there baby.." he frowned as he took a seat besides the woman.
"You won't eat?"
"Dont have energies to do it hun... I actually called you here for other thing... " the woman got up slowly on her elbows just to drink the water and the pills.
He could see her bones... it wasn't normal... none of that was. His father leaving without a explanation, his mom didn't ever got better from thsi flu... what the hell was even happening?!
"Hari..." she carresed his cheek, knowing already of his quirk "You are such a beautiful and little gentleman you know that?"
He pursed his lips... he didn't liked where this story was going.
"Despite having my character and appearance you still got daddy's eyes and quirk that I love so so much." She mused before quickly grabbing a napkin and having a fit of coughing.
"Mom..?" He said and widened his eyes in horror at seing a bit of red on the white napkin...
"Sweety... remember that talk me and your daddy had? About a beautiful place where nana went?" He nodded as she gave him a hearted yet sad smile "Mommy is soon going to met nana once again!"
"Can I come too?" He asked while fisting the sheets as the woman shaked her head before cupping his cheek.
"I'm afraid not honey.. you still have so many years here."
"You too!" He exclaimed as the woman brought him to a hug, he could feel her ribcage and her shoulder blade yet he hugged her trembling.
"No honey... mommy has to go met nana." She said with a sad smile while carresing his back "baby, you would like to live with your uncles?"
"No!" He exclaimed, fist clenching on her clothing as he cried "I want to stay like it was before! You and daddy!"
"... daddy is not coming back sweety..." she said painfully as he widened his eyes "That's why I want you to stay with your uncles.."
"But-!" She shushed him quietly and weakly.
"Please... be good to your uncles... promise me?" She lifted up her bony arm with her pinky out as he sniffled and wiped his face with the back of his hoodie and interlocked his pinky with her.
"Okay..."
"That's my brave boy..." she cupped his face "You're such a good boy Hari..."
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The punching bag was almost disfigured from how much he had used so far.
"Angry today buddy?" Rappa asked while rolling his arms to strech some bones of his shoulder.
"Could say that." He mumbled with a nonchantly look before hearing Overhaul voice calling for him.
"Go on. Overjerk is calling for you man."
Nodding towards Rappa, he grabbed his coat and got out from the hide out and met with Chisaki leaning on the door frame with a nonchantly look.
"Listen, I knew that I fuck up." He lifted his hands up as Chisaki only arched a eyebrow but soon mentioned with his gaze at the door of his dorm. "... ah."
"Not even me get my past get the best of me blockhead." He muttered nonchantly before turning his back to him and waving "I dont want to see that partner of yours crying their eyes out, it makes me sick."
"Oh fuck off, what doesn't make you sick dude?" He muttered before gulping at the death glare he received.
Cursed hearing of his...
He sighed before knocking, seing your face before you quickly turned it away from him and layed down.
"...(Y/n)... Can we talk for a bit?"
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"You forgot to clean that place." His uncle muttered while couting some bills as he glared at the bloody wall.
"Why I am the one to clean this?"
"Because you are living with us? Maybe?" His aunt spoke while putting on a necklace of pearls on her neck as he furrowed his eyebrows.
"... You two live well. Why couldn't you help my mom? Or my dad?"
The woman laughed as the man sighed, grabbing harshly on his shoulder and making him turn his front to him.
"Your father was a mere thief that couldn't even provide for my sister. And was her fault to get sick this way, if she hadn't turned out to be such a bitch, agreed to her arrangment marriage and hadn't stormed off with that Kurono guy she would be out of those fucking problems."
His eyes narrowed while clenching his jaw, grabbing the gun his father gave to him before leaving and pointing at the male.
"You can say whatever you want about my dad but NOT about my mom!" He growled as the woman shriek in fear at seing a child with a gun as the man raised his hands up before smirking.
"You dont even know how to use this thing brat."
He quickly took the ammunition he had stolen from his uncle's office and with enormous accuracy he shot it an inch away from his head. The woman letting out a scream again as the male widened his eyes at him.
"My dad at least did a good thing on teaching me how to use a gun at the age of three." He said with anger as he lowered a bit his gun before a bunch of man, wearing suits invaded the house and pinned both his uncle and aunt on the ground as he in fear got hidden behind the kitchen counter.
"You both think is funny taking advantege and being in debt with the yakusa huh?" A much older voice spoked up as he peaked one eye to see a man with white hair glaring at both of his uncle and aunt.
"P-Please sir we were going to pay-"
"Liars." A man lowered one pocketknife onto his uncle shoulder as he put his hands over his eyes as he flinched at the shout of pain it came after "you even went to the cops to tell about our plan in order to some money... and I lost a bunch of capable man and it will cost a millions of yen to get every single one of them out of jail."
"Boss!" He shriek when a man found him "We have anothe-" without thinking a strand of his arrow hair shot and cutted the man's cheek, the poor guy being immobilized and falling onto the floor.
A bunch of guns and males with attacking quirks aimed at him as he trembling picked the gun again and pointed at least of one of them.
"Don't shoot you idiots! Is a kid!"
"Yeah but he is got a gun!"
The man glared at them and in one motion all the guns were lowered, yet he didn't lowered his one still.
"Hey, kid... no one is going to hurt you, relax." He soon directed his gaze at the couple on the floor "Whose is this? I thought neither of you wanted a child."
"Is my sister's son with a thief rat." The man growled as his wife helped him with his missing fingers "That little shit died and gave him to us."
"I asked for his name imbecile." The man growled as his uncle yelped and bowed to him.
"K-Kurono Hari master!"
"... Kurono, huh?" The man looked at him as he still had a firm grasp on his gun "Say kid... you know how to deal with those I see, those these two treat you well?" His gaze fell on his uncles before he shaked his head.
"... How about an offer then?"
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"So this makes kinda you and Overhaul brothers huh?" You giggled at the glare he gave to you before he flipped your head.
"You're the worst. I tell you this all shit and-" he stopped talking and gasped when you hugged him tightly, grazing your nails into his back much like his own mother would do.
"I get it Hari, and I'm not mad at you..." you kissed his neck and sighed "Just rely on me more often okay? Instead of being a dick."
"... yeah. I will." He hugged you back as he smirked, at least he knew he had a home of his own. You. You were his home.
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(A/n): this was shitty, I know. But it was what came to my mind. Forgive me. I didn't do justice for arrow haired man... ;-;
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fruityutas · a year ago
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the devil wears prada
mafia!lee taeyong x female!reader
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!this story is a work of fiction and the characters used in it are in NO WAY like this in real life!
genre: thriller, fluff if you squint hard enough, ANGST
p.1/?
summary: lee taeyong is a cold-blooded mafia leader, not meant to give or receive love. what happens when an innocent by-stander turns out to be the most beautiful woman he’s laid eyes on? 
✰ warnings: cursing, blood, murder, descriptions of wounds (man does taking nursing classes help with that lmao), violence
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taeyong was an enigma to the world. hell, even in the mafia he confused many. he was arguably one of the best leaders out there. many feared him and his men. the tactics used by his team terrified even the toughest of mafiosos. 
 “do you want us to dispose of the body or?” the sentence johnny had asked snapped taeyong out of his trancelike state. 
 “hm, no. let them see what will happen if they try any other funny shit, the bastards really thought their new recruit could do a mission of that significance? idiots.” johnny chuckled and turned away from taeyong, a smirk overlaying his features. 
 “anything for you, tae.” as johnny walked out, taeyong thought of all the different instances where his men’s loyalty had been tested, and every single time johnny had been one of the only ones to stay by his side. he smiled to himself and left his office, ready for the next mission. he walked out into the grand room where a few of his closest men already lingered, talking amongst themselves.
 “cmon, they were already going to die, i helped them out in all honesty.” 
 “donghyuk, how in the hell is slitting someone’s throat helping them?” taeyong rolled his eyes at the two younger’s antics. 
 “will you two be quiet? youre giving me a headache. and mark?”
 “yes, boss?” “donghyuk has a point, he wouldve suffered a much greater fate if not for him.” mark stutters and bows to taeyong, apologizing. taeyong pats him on the shoulder reassuring him he was being light-hearted with the comment. he walks away from the two boys and over to yuta and jaehyun, his two close-range shooters.
 “so who’s coming with me tonight?” they both look at him and shrug. taeyong thinks for a second before deciding on jaehyun. yuta had a bad week and needing a small break. 
 “nevermind that, jaehyun will come. yuta, you need rest, ok?” yuta nods and offers the leader a slice of cheese. taeyong looks at him questioningly and takes it. he and jaehyun walk off shrugging.
 “so whats the plan tonight, tae?” taeyong stops and turns to his companion.
 “well, johnny is stationed at the door while you and mark go in first. kill anyone you see and scope out for any other outlying threats. then you’re going to go to the main room in the building and search for the target, don’t kill them, this is actually a rescue mission. i’ll have taeil and doyoung in the van watching the security cameras. once you find the target get him free but dont let him get away from you, we need him alive. bring him back to the van, taeil will know where to go. once you and mark get to the second location, i will already be there along with jungwoo and donghyuk. we will take it from there and you can head back here after that. simple enough?”
 “of course, but who needs them rescued?” 
 “im not sure exactly who, but some ceo needs him alive apparently.” jaehyun shrugs and continues walking towards the basement, where all things field related are. guns, knives, bombs, armor, you name it and it’s down there. the team for tonights mission all get ready in their required gear and pile into two vans, taking off into the quiet night. 
walking in this neighborhood was a terrible idea. you were shivering from the cold and every sound around you had your senses heightened and on alert. ‘what a shitty night’ your thoughts momentarily clouded your mind and you failed to notice the scene in front of you. three men came out of one of the many abandoned buildings around here, but why was one tied to a chair? you look up to see one of the men pointing at you and looking worried. your walking starts to get uneasy as you get closer. the other man throws the hostage into a van and then turns to you. you’re close enough to hear them speaking. 
 “what the fuck are we gonna do? we cant let her leave.”
 “i dont know, mark, lemme figure it out. maybe she didn’t see.” your face gives yourself away, the taller one rolls his eyes and groans. he starts towards you, the other looking uncomfortable. you stumble and start to back up.
 “um can i help you?”
 “yea can you help us with something real quick? we need a third person for it.” you hesitated but slowly start to walk over to the van.
 “so uh what do you need help wi-AH, WHAT THE FUCK?” the taller man pushes you in beside the one still tied to a chair and shits the door harshly. you get up and try to open it but theres no handles.
 “shit shit shit, holy shit what am i gonna do?” the man in the chair chuckles and wheezes. 
 “so what do they want you for? interference? or maybe you’re one of them too.” you turn to look at the man.
 “what are you talking about?” he scoffs and turns his head away from you.
 “hmm let’s hope your death wont be as grueling as mine, huh?” you swallow a lump that had formed in your throat.
 “what do you mean death? they’re trying to kill us?”
 “well sweetheart, im a contract so yeah, but you- you just ran into some shitty luck huh? these are your last moments if im being honest. no one comes out after being taken by nct.” your heart rate had skyrocketed. 
 “who is nct? why am i going to die i didnt see anything of importance. i just saw those two up there ask me for help.” he tsks and smirks. 
 “thats too late now, your already in this van being taken to the second location, and thats where the boss is- taeyong -he aint a nice guy you know, i would be praying for just a simple gun to the head at this point.” your face pales and the tears start falling. why did you have to choose that shitty side of town to go through? now look what happened, you’re being kidnapped by some organization that kills people for nothing. you curl into a ball into the corner and fall asleep thinking of everything you’re not going to get to achieve. 
the van’s door slides open and moonlight streams in, illuminating you and the man still strapped to the chair. you pull your head from your knees and push yourself farther into the corner, praying they would have forgotten you. the man that shoved you in peeks his head in and looks for you. his eyes land on you and you stay put. his face quirks before he reaches in to drag you out. you put up a hefty fight, punching and screaming at him.
 “you bastard, put me down or so help me-“
 “i think its best if you shut the hell up.” you scoff at his words and still attempt to wriggle yourself from his grasp. he pinches your arm and you finally just fall limp, giving into your fate.
 “what are we going to do with her? taeyong is already in there finishing up.” your captor said cooly to the smaller man.
 “just wait until he finishes, he’ll want to know we have her.” he sighs and walks towards a different van than what you arrived in, opening the back doors before turning back around. the man holding you starts walking towards it and sets you in it.
 “ya’know you made this whole thing hard for us? usually if a person sees something like what was happening they turn away and leave.” you scoff,
 “i already told you i didn’t see anything.” he smirks and turns away laughing.
 “i’m not dumb, i saw you before you even saw us. so what were you doing on that side of town so late at night?” you refused to reply. 
 “mark can you see if taeyong is almost done? i’m getting tired of watching this girl, she’s such a brat.” he turned back towards you and got closer.
 “am i gonna have to repeat myself? i require answers when i ask something.” you rolled your eyes and look away. before you can blink he’s grabbing your hair and yanking you closer to his face.
 “i dont like attitudes, brat. its like you want me to hurt you.” your eyes turn to saucers and you whimper out,
 “i- i was staying and studying late, i’m, i’m not supposed to be here please let me go! i wont tell anyone i dont even care i just want to go home!” he scoffs and hangs his head before looking back at you. a new voice makes its way to your ears.
 “i’m afraid i can’t let you go, sweetheart.” 
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cayenneavocado · 2 years ago
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Dont Fret My Dear, Ill Keep You Safe
Requested by anon! Var gets roofied and Hugo prevents anything from happening! That being said there is a slight warning possibly? For the usage of well the roofie and while nothing bad happens it is discussed as a possibility of have happening. That being said Enjoy! 
One second, all it took was one second to turn this wonderful evening into an absolute shit show. He was grateful that Nuru had offered them a night to themselves, staying at their campsite with Yong while he took Varian out for the night. He supposed technically it was their first date. They’d been together for a while now, but it was hard to find time alone when they were constantly traveling. He had been looking forward to it, and it had been everything he could have ever wanted, until that sick bastard made his appearance. He had flirted with Varian persistently, never letting up in his advances despite the fact that Varian had repeatedly told him he wasn’t interested, despite that he was very obviously uncomfortable, despite that he had made it clear numerous times that he was taken and Hugo was right there. He seemed to finally get it when Hugo resorted to threatening to cut up the man into pieces so small they’d never be able to piece him back together again. Maybe he shouldn’t have, maybe if he didn’t Varian wouldn’t have had to suffer the consequences.
Once they were certain he was gone, it didn’t take long for them to fall back into the comfort of each other’s company as they drank at the tavern. He should’ve stayed more alert, he should’ve paid more attention. All it took was one second, one second in which their eyes closed as their lips locked together, one second was enough for that creep to slip something into Varian’s drink. He knew what it was, he knew it, as soon as Varian started giggling like a maniac. Sure Varian was typically a happy drunk, but it had been excessive and he hadn’t even had that much to drink yet. He had been selfish, he ignored the signs of the drug, all because he didn’t want the night to be over, he certainly didn’t want it to end like this. So he waited until the next effect hit. He was all too familiar with the signs of the drug, he’d used it, not for any of its more sinister purposes, but it worked like a charm when he stole from other’s. He knew the signs like the back of his hand.
Varian’s eyes were half lidded, glossed over, and seemed unable to focus on anything. He drooped forward in his seat, leaning heavily on Hugo. “I don’t feel very good.”
His cheeks were flushed pink from the alcohol, but Hugo knew it wasn’t the reason for his sudden sickness. He quickly paid their tab, sliding out of his seat. “Let’s get you out of here.”
Varian didn’t protest, didn’t say anything, just gave a small nod as Hugo wrapped his arm around him, keeping him as close as possible as they exited the tavern. He knew it was the purpose of the drug to make the victim as complacent as possible, it still made him sick to his stomach. What if he hadn’t been here? What if he had to leave Varian for just a moment? What would’ve happened then? He didn’t want to think about it, with the way that he looked at Varian he already had a pretty good guess. He hated that he put them in this situation. He felt Varian slump further against him. He was already more or less carrying Varian, his steps slow and unsteady. Just how much did that bastard slip him?
Hugo tightened his grip around him at the sound of footsteps approaching from behind, his other hand slipping into his pocket to grip one of his vials. It wouldn’t be nearly as effective as the bombs, but it would give them enough time to get away. He turned slowly, careful not to jostle Varian too much, the slightest movement and the boy would probably fall over. Of course the bastard had followed them. “Hey! I’m not letting you reap the benefits of my hard work.”
Hugo was shaking with rage, his hand clutching the vial so tightly he thought it might break, Varian of course oblivious to it all, he wasn’t even sure he was aware of anything going on. “You sick fuck, I am not going to rape my boyfriend!”
The man scoffed, he fucking scoffed, as if what Hugo was implying was absolutely ridiculous. “That little slut is anything but innocent. He’s been throwing himself around all night. He just needed something to loosen him up. He wants it.”
He let his anger take control, letting go of Varian and storming towards the man. “You take that back! You don’t know anything! Just because your giant ego can’t handle rejection doesn’t mean you can rape someone!”
“Stop saying that word!”
“Fucking make me!” Hugo sneered, leaning forward on the balls of his feet ready to strike, a loud thud gaining his attention. His eyes went wide as he spotted Varian crumpled in the dirt road, the effects of the drug finally knocking him out. He had been so caught up in his anger that he put Varian’s safety in jeopardy again. He needed to get Varian out of there first and foremost. He tossed the vial to the ground, right in front of the bastard’s feet, the smoke spreading instantly. Hugo scooped Varian up as the man sputtered and coughed as the smoke filled his lungs. He ran a few doors down, he learned to never enter the first available door, it made one all too easy to find. He swung the door open, closing it just as quickly behind him before taking a deep breath. Varian was limp against him, his limbs hanging uselessly, his head the same. Hugo tried to adjust his position to support him better, it was impossible to do so when he was carrying him bridal style.
“You need a room for the night?” Hugo jumped at the sound of the woman’s voice, turning to face the reception desk. She wasn’t even looking up, her face buried in a book.
“Uh, yeah. Thanks.” Nuru would kill him for spending the money, but it was the safest route. He didn’t want to lead that sicko back to their campsite, at least at the inn they’d have a lock and Yong and Nuru would be safe. With some difficulty he handed over some money and took the offered key, struggling again when he came to the door. His arms were shaking by the time he got them safely inside. Varian wasn’t particularly heavy, but he wasn’t that strong either. He set Varian down as gently as possible, thankful the room was stocked with water. He filled a glass for Varian before dipping a cloth in it and placing it on his forehead. He’d have a hell of a headache whenever he woke up. “I’m sorry, babe, I should’ve been keeping a better eye out for you. I’ll do better next time.”
He couldn’t do better, he couldn’t be better, not when Donella still expected him to betray them. But he didn’t have to, did he? He could stay with the group, never return to her. He could do it, he should do it. This was where he belonged, with Varian. He loved him, holy shit, he loved him. He was in too deep, there was no going back now. He placed a kiss to Varian’s cheek, it was as far as he’d go when he was like this. He prepared himself for a long night. He needed to make sure Varian would wake up and get him properly hydrated when he did.
He waited two hours, two excruciating hours, before Varian started to stir. He groaned, moving to sit up. “Hey, take your time. Take it slow.” He helped him into a sitting position, Varian cradling his head in his hands.
“I feel like death. How much did I drink?” Varian asked, gladly taking the water from Hugo’s hand and taking small sips from it.
He was at war with himself. Did he tell him what almost happened? Did Varian not know how close they were to disaster? Was it right to keep it from him? “How much do you remember?”
Varian stiffened, his hand shaking slightly around the glass. His eyes were wide, fear lacing them. “I- what happened, Hugo? Please tell me it was a dream. Did- did he-“
Hugo took the glass, placing it on the bedside table before pulling Varian into a hug. “No, no I didn’t let him lay a finger on you. He just slipped something in your drink, but no one touched you, okay? You’re okay.”
Varian nodded. “Thank you. I’m glad you were here.” Something about the words sent a feeling of guilt through him. He caused this to happen, he didn’t pay close enough attention. He was supposed to protect them from this kind of stuff, he was supposed to be the street smart one.
“I’m sorry. I should’ve done better.” Hugo pulled away from Varian, keeping his eyes downcast. He didn’t want to see the disappointment that was sure to be there.
“How?” Varian asked. Hugo’s head snapped up, his confusion matching Varian’s.
“What?”
“How could you have done better? You kept me safe. What more could you have possibly done?” Varian seemed to be genuinely curious, gently lifting Hugo’s chin so he was looking at him again.
Hugo was panicking, why was he panicking? He should know the answer to Varian’s question. He’d heard Donella say those words so many times. What could he have done differently? What could he have done better? If he didn’t answer, if he didn’t know, what punishment awaited him? “I should’ve- I could’ve-“
Varian’s look softened, something sad lingering behind his eyes. “Nothing. The answer is nothing.”
He didn’t understand, he didn’t get it. Varian still suffered, how could there be nothing he should’ve done differently? He should be angry with him, disappointed in him, instead Varian looked at him with nothing but love. Hugo smiles then, reminded of why he was willing to leave his old life behind for him. He expected nothing but love in return. And he could give that, he wanted to give that. Varian closed the distance between them, pulling Hugo as close as possible, his lips feeling heavenly on his. And maybe Varian was right, the answer had to be nothing, because there was nothing he wanted to change about his time spent with Varian.
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kewltie · 2 years ago
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in the midst of a battle w/ members of LoV, pro-hero ground zero save a rookie journalist who LITERALLY threw himself middle of all the chaos to grab photos & after yelling at the ignorant fuck, katsuki doesn't think he'll see him again but then HE SEES HIM EVERYWHERE. his name is midoriya izuku & he has some sort of death wish really bc katsuki keep finding him in the middle of all these hero vs villains battles and ONE TIME he tackled down a villain right???? and he doesnt even have a fucking quirk & yet he is seemingly unafraid of everything.
needless to say, katsuki is v smitten bc the litle awkward death defying shit. also, anyone who accidentally send katsuki to the hospital several times a month bc he keep getting into trouble and katsuki have to come rescue him and THEN YELLING AT KATSUKI FOR INTERFEARING W/ HIS JOB – may be katsuki’s true love.
katsuki get so fucking rile up at this quirkless man, who shown no fear and easily go toe to toe w/ him and yet is so incredibly humble and hilariously awkward, he is just into this badass idiot who is entirely devoted to his job and cursed w/ severe stubborn???? feels relatable. so yea, katsuki ofc taps that ass right the fuck away bc he knows a good one when he sees it bc izuku is indirectly responsible for three broken ribs after katsuki had pulled him out of ANOTHER TROUBLING SITUATION. he's a trouble magnet and shit-stirrer and katsuki's heart is moved.
so they start dating and it goes SO WELL. izuku still get in major shitstorm for his job and katsuki still drags him out of it w/ a few bruise here and there, but afterward they go grab a bite and crash at each other place. super romantic and sweet and it's so v good. but!!! there's something weird about izuku. he doesn't talk much about his family, to katsuki anyway. BUT HE'S SUPER CLOSE TO THEM. his parents seem to call him daily and he go visit them often, but he never bring his parents up to katsuki esp his dad & izuku kinda got a stalker??
it's not like katsuki didn't notice right away, but HE THOUGHT IT WAS HIS STALKER. one of his super creepy fans probably but nope this person only tails izuku and when katsuki tell him about it, izuku is like, 'oh that's just toga'. apparently, izuku knows his talker v v well. the stalker apparently is sent by izuku's father to watch out & protect izuku and katsuki pauses bc who the fuck does a journalist who lives on takeouts and shitty cable TVs need a bodyguard?!!! so yea katsuki's new bf background is fucking weird and mysterious.
katsuki has his agency dig into izuku's background (not that they hadn't vet izuku's before for katsuki's safety) but they comb through the archives and izuku's history and it's comes out v v v v clean, sparkling even. honestly, katsuki doesn't know WTF IS UP W/ HIS NEW BF. so he confront izuku about his weirdo stalker/bodyguard, his avoidance about his family & his dad in particular, and his eerie squeaky AND CLEARLY SCRIPTED papertrails. izuku get shifty eyes and is like, "you won't believe me." And katsuki says tersely, "fucking try me."
Izuku drops his gaze to the floor and says, finally, "my dad is the leader of the league of villains." and YEA, KATSUKI'S BRAIN SHUT DOWN FOR SEC bc his deku?? stupid suicidal stubborn bleeding heart deku??? FUCK NO. but izuku just nods his head and grimaces. the LoV is the largest criminal org in the world w/ long list of crimes & longer list of criminals that make its their home. their roster are made up of terrifying people w/ dangerous quirks... and IZUKU, quirkless and softhearted izuku is the leader's most precious son. the idea itself is COMPLETELY ABSURD! HOW does that ever make sense? izuku is a civilian who works normal if a bit dangerous job & doesn't seem to have any *evil* inclinations at all yet he hail from the worst kind of genetic source possible. maybe he's just faking it all along.
which made katsuki absolutely furious that izuku might been some kind of sleeper agent from the LoV sent to trick spy & kill him or something and izuku's eyes wide, immediately protests, "no, no, i swear! i dont have anything to do w/ my fathers... org." but katsuki has a hard time accepting it esp with the truth bomb thrown at his feet now that he realizes HE'S DATING THE ONLY SON OF EVIL OF THE MOST VILE CRIMINAL IN THE WORLD. so yea, he walks out on izuku, saying he need some space & izuku was looking so heartbroken as he left
for the next few days, katsuki stews in his thought. he doesn't tell anyone about what he had found out, but he doesn't contact izuku either. This last for couple of weeks until, one day just as he in the middle of patrol there's some commotion that attract his teams and katsuki is separated from them. he's cornered by several LoV members, outnumbered five to one and katsuki lost his comms in the ensuring scuffles but instead of kicking his ass bc well they're foes, one of them break ranks toga (the blood queen) approach him w/ a bloodthirsty grin & a knife pointing toward him.
"hey, pretty boy," she coos w/ a flicker of edge, "stop ignoring our young master! you made him cried & he won't come out of his room. I hate seeing him so upset bc Izuku-chan should always be smiling! if you dont fix this ill rip your hide from your bones and wear it as a cape."
the group behind her make various grunt of agreement, all promising him death and disembowelment for... apparently breaking izuku's heart. katsuki is so outrage that he nearly explodes on the spot bc these dumbass villains think they CAN BLACKMAL/THREATEN HIM?! HIM, GROUND ZERO?! also, even more furious by the fact that they insuate that HE BROKE UP WITH IZUKU?! wtf, he never said that!! needing space meant just a temporary break s he gets his bearing on wut to do next... but not like a perma break, but izuku's ppl thought their relationship ended.
katsuki is even more offended by that notion bc izuku is even a bigger idiot than he thought. HOW could someone that much of crybaby over just temp break is some manipulative coldhearted spy?? right now his instinct says, izuku is telling the truth. he isn't tricking katsuki.
izuku is seemingly sweet, humble, & awkward but he got that rebellious streak a mile wide. loud in his opinions & shit-stirrer by choice, he faces down villains & heroes alike like they're on equal ground even though izuku is defenseless. he respect the law but only when it applies. katsuki has never seen such a fucking firecracker like izuku who loves people & the world but have little respect for any gov entity or laws and think they're good only when they're helping ppl but otherwise they're abritary (lmao). he such chaotic force for good it's hilarious. so yea, he believes that izuku is the SON OF AFO now bc that lil shit is a menace. A GOOD MENACE, but still a goddamn menace. he seems to stay firmly on the side of 'good' as it is which make his relationship with his villain father a fucking mystery & headache for katsuki.
so katsuki, gritting his teeth, clichely demands the LoV group to take him to their leader so he can verbally kick his bf's ass for keeping his fucked up secrets and stupidly mistaken that they're broken up. the group happily ties up him and blindfolds him bc well SECRET LAIR. katsuki is crazy, ok. like, STUPIDLY CRAZY to go blindly and no backups w/ some of the worst villains in history so he can meet up w/ his stupid bf and his crazy father. he could end up dead tmr or some shit bc it all could have been a trick to lure him in w/ his guard down but if izuku can be an idiot for dating a hero when he's a son of a villain than KATSUKI CAN BE A BIGGER IDIOT FOR GOING TO MEET HIS BF'S VILLANIOUS FATHER AT HIS SECRET TORTURE FORTRESS OR SOME SHIT. love can make ppl dumb and they're both a perfect example of it.
so katsuki get blindfolded and escorted to the LoV hq and it's a suprisingly sweet ride to there. no bumps, no abuse, no torture shit going on. he get offer food and drink and it's FUCKING WEIRD. his kidnappers start some casual convo w/ him about izuku and his job of all things. they even joke about how katsuki arrested one of them one time and almost kill another THE OTHER TIME & it's all happy bs??? it's even worst than torture. katsuki just want this to end already!! eventually they arrive and katsuki is let out. he get inside & his blindfold is off.
it's... nothing like he expected. it's traditional japanese house w/ sprawling garden, koi ponds, & beautiful woods. it's pristine, homey, and terribly normal. "ha, you thought we were going to take you to some kind of evil lair, right?" twice says, grinning bc he's an ass. "that's next time! we save that for official bsn." he jabs Katsuki's in the shoulder playfully. "you're meeting sensei and the mistress so of course it got to be at their house and not the 'office'."
katsuki's hands start twitching like he's going to explode someone or something but he's quickly drag away before he could do anything about it. lead through some hallways before depositing inside a tearoom where there's a SHIT TON of pics of baby!izuku & his childhood accolades on the wall. this look less like a room to greet visitors but to show off izuku. just as katsuki goes to examine a cute pic of bb!izuku playing in a field of flowers & holding one up towrad the camera, the doors slide open and a couple walk in. one of them is an older woman who looks eerily like izuku and the young woman also ft. in many of the wall pics.
she smiles warmly at and goes to greet him right away. "hi, bakugou-kun! welcome to our home, i'm inko, Izuku's mother," she introduces herself. while she's a source of happy energy and warmth, the other man beside her is another story. he gives katsuki's an icy stare. katsuki already knows who he is before he even say anything. AFO looks younger in comparison to his reported age, notably handsome, and he carries himself like some warlord from the warring periods.
"I should kill you," is the first thing he says. "my son should only cry in joy, over his terrible taste in romantic media consumption, & dumber things." spoken like a man who dealt with midoriya walking crying machine izuku his entire life and also a hopelessly devoted father.
"hisashi!" inko scolds. which is strange to katsuki bc he didn't even think AFO even have a name but in front of him isn't some evil man who mastermind gov't take over & ruin so many ppl lives but astupid father overprotected of his son.
"but i won't," AFO admits regretfully. "Izuku would be even more sad and if you're dead your death will haunt him needlessly more. he won't be able to forget you and move on." he frowns, like he actually had CONSIDER THAT ROUTE DEEPLY before casting that idea aside.
What the fuck, katsuki thought and says exactly that, "what the fuck. there's something seriously wrong with you," he points out what he think is v obvious.
AFO shrugs. "I love my son. He's my-" Inko's frown and he clears his throat, "our most precious treasure and we do everything to ensure his happiness. do you understand us, bakugou katsuki? inko and i have raise with love and care for 20yrs and i won't have some rough neck capers try to destroy his smile. i dont care who you are or wut you can do bc i can put you ten feet under w/ a snap of my fingers & nobody will be able to save you but like i said i won't."
Katsuki grind his teeth, fists clenched at his side, before lowering his head. this isnt time to fight, they're not on the field & on the job. this isnt about their respective stance on moral superiority but izuku. izuku is why they're both here. "i came here for him. i want to fix it," he says. "just let me see him." he pauses & grimaces like the taste of whatever he say next disgust him. "please."
AFO frowns, staring at katsuki for a beat, two. like he can pull apart katsuki's motives and tears into his rib to see w/e make him tick. "fine," he waves katsuki away, "you may see him now but if he cry anything beside in happiness i'll have your head and your entire agency." it's not a threat. it's a warning lace with truth that katsuki has no doubt he will carry out if a single tear slip pass izuku and fall.
inko claps her hand happily. "great, i'm glad you guys are geting along so well!" she says, like threats of murder haven't been thrown at his feet. clearly, she's used to the fact that her husband is a completely psychopath and whipped for their son. this fucking crazy family.
katsuki grunts, not knowing what else to say beside, 'have you ever thought of fucking divorce bc yea maybe you will be less crazy by then' but he holds his tongue bc they're still izuku's parents and he already made a bad impression on them even though technically not his FAULT.
AFO doesn't promise anymore murder in his future but the dark look on his face is enough as inko's lead him out & toward izuku's room. she drops him right outside it and gives him an encouraging smile before heading off, but katsuki has no doubt the parents are lurking around. katsuki sucks in a deep breath before raising his fist and knocks. he hears unhurried footsteps on the other side and slowly the door is slide open.
"Papa, I already said--" izuku whines, and stops as soon as he sees who ACTUALLY on the other side. "K-Katsuki?! What are you--?"
Katsuki blinks, trying to get his fucking brain to grapple with the thought of AFO as 'papa' and his head nearly explode. he drags a hand down his face and once again thinks, THIS FUCKIN' FAMILY. "Look, you idiot," he starts in lieu of any answer. "We didn't fucking break up."
Izuku looks haggard, buffy red eyes and the dark circle under it, speaking of how upset he was. he clearly didn't get any good rest these several days they were apart. he lifts an accusatory brow at Katsuki. "you didn't pick up my calls or answer any of my text," he retorts.
Katsuki rolls his eyes. "what part of I needed space, time to think didn't you get?" he snaps back. "It didn't mean go cry and sulk your parent's home like a damn coward because you were too dumb to think of anything beside we may have broken up!"
"But--but," Izuku's lips wobble and katsuki nearly jump out of his skin bc jfc don't cry here or i'll be skinned alive, "i was scared that you really mean it! that's why i didn't want to tell you in the first place bc then you wouldn't want to have anything to do w/ me."
Katsuki sighs, a bone deep tired sigh. "Now, why would you think i would have any problem with dating the son of my nemesis?" he says dryly. Izuku's brows furrow. "All Might is Papa's nemesis," he unhelpfully point out. "I don't think Papa even knew you existed until we dated."
Katsuki scowls. "that's not the fucking point," he shouts, temper rising w/ every word. "Your dad is the fucking boogieman who wants to sow discord in the world & it's my job to catch him &lock away for good. Do you see my moral crisis over this when im dating his beloved son?!"
"I-" Izuku's face falls, "dont you think I dont know that? I've lived with him for over 20yrs, I know exactly what he's capable of." he looks away. "But, he's my Papa & im terrible for still choosing him over the world. So," izuku says solemnly. "i dont expect the same from you."
Katsuki grits his teeth and steps right into izuku's space, up in his face. "Look, im only going to say this once so listen the fuck up," he starts. "I like you. A lot. Stupidly. Gods know why when you drive me up the fucking wall all the time, but here I am standing before you."
"A lot, huh?" Lips twitching, Izuku's eyes go soft.
Katsuki scowls. "Dont make me repeat myself, but yes fucking a lot that your fucking groupies & your old man threatened to kill me several times over did not deter me from coming here," he says, hand cradling Izuku's cheek.
"It's because I'm dating you and not your father. Whatever crimes he'd commited is not on you, you don't have to carry his sins," he tells Izuku, leaning in to press a kiss too fast and fleeting on izuku's forehead. "just stay true to yourself and i'll fucking deal with it."
Izuku's close his eyes and lets out a shaky exhales, the air of relief that passes through him is shuddering. "Ok, ok," he murmurs, opening his eyes to look at katsuki. there's a twinkle in them as he smiles, soft and sweet, the kind you can stupidly drunk on & never let go.
In that hazy moment, katsuki thinks, AFO doesn't need to plan any premeditated murder in case things go v wrong bc this is how he'll die w/ izuku's smile right in his front his eyes, cutting him down one curve lips at a time. Fuck, he's just as whipped for izuku as AFO.
it's good that izuku not a fucking psychopath like his father bc this would have gone v v v wrong. izuku would make a terrifying villain. Worse than his own father bc it's not fear & intimidation that will get ppl to follow him but izuku's own magnetic personality that move them.
"don't ever become a villain, ok?" katsuki insists suddenly, grabbing his shoulder tightly.
"where did that come from?" izuku laughs, eyes crinkling. "And dont worry, papa had tried. many, many times but i haven't turn over to the darks ide if that's what you worry about."
"Good," katsuki says firmly, and thinks the world better for it. one less crazy midoriya to raise hell. izuku is trouble enough as it is when katsuki thought he was just a quirkless journalist w/ a death wish but now there's a chance he could go rouge any moment and--yea. no.
"Sooo," izuku says, bouncing on his heels. "are we back together now?"
katsuki flicks him on the forehead. "we never broke up in the first place, you dolt."
izuku grins and suddenly throws his arm around katsuki. "ah, i miss you so much kacchan!!!" he declares excitedly.
and after they made up, katsuki interrogate izuku about wtf is wrong w/ his father bc how did AFO of all ppl get a villain son who isn't all about /that/ kind of bsn he's in. turns out izuku always have a healthy regard for heroes so he never thought of joining his father's organization. though AFO would have been super happy to take izuku in bc izuku is terrifyingly clever & resourceful but he lets izuku go & do his thing anyway. they just mutually agree not to talk shop when it's family, keeping their jobs outside &not in the home to keep both of their sanity.
so izuku knows shit about the 'family bsn' except wut everyone knows bc he's not involve with any of that and in his everyday job as a journalist izuku often times clash w/ his father AND expose some of his schemes bc it's part of his job & he doesn't shy away from it. AFO wasn't upset at all having his plans ruin by his own son. nope. he was SUPER PROUD OF IZUKU!!! to able to accomplish such thing on his own even if it's against him lol. but izuku is still his father's so so he doesn't take on just AFO, other villains, & dark org. he takes on the gov't, hero association, and even other heroes themselves if he ever catches on if they didn't live up to his ideals of being 'proper hero' like all might. he fiercely chases and exposes anything that he deems corrupted and wrong not caring which side they're on.
which makes izuku kind of chaotic good. he acts on his own whims & sense of justice, disregarding all rules & barriers. which is why he admires katsuki so much bc katsuki stands by his rule staunchantly & won't ever move from it, izuku knows katsuki wont ever be sway by the dark. kinda like izuku's father who stands firmly by his belief & does everything to reach his goals. WHICH IS NOT EXACTLY WHAT KATSUKI WANT TO BE COMPARE TO ESP BY A NOTORIOUS VILLAIN LIKE AFO lol. but yea, now that he got izuku's motive and why he's the way he is, it get easier.
they continue dating, izuku continues getting into trouble 120% of the time, katsuki keeps bailing him out, and sometimes IZUKU BAILS HIM OUT bc izuku may be quirkless but he got an army of the world's most terrible villains on his side so yea izuku IS TERRIFYING. and they aren't just dating but they're 100000% serious w/ each other bc now katsuki go to izuku's parents house for dinner every sunday and have to put up with AFO and play nice w/ each other for izuku's sake bc they come ton an understanding they will be IN-LAWS one day lol! their dinner convo is mostly the two of them taking jab at each other bc katsuki trash of AFO's plans or AFO's sends katsuki's ppl to the hospital and got away with it. they never stop being enemy even for izuku bc of where they stand on but mutually agree not to kill each other. they're both fiercely devoted individual who are obsessively workaholic, stubborn, vainglorious, and loves just as much as they breathe for their ppl and though they never agree on anything, this they will agree on bc izuku's happiness is everything to them!!!
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tommysparker · 2 years ago
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Black & White: Chapter 1
heyyyy sorry this is a little late, had to make some last minute editd but I hope you enjoy :)
Warnings: like one no-no word, incorrect representation of religion, bad hindi (i used google translate bc I dont really know hindi so Im sorry if i did it wrong blame google)
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                                                                                                            “Forever?” 
                                                                                                             “Forever.” 
                                                                                                           “Promise?” 
                                                                                                      “... I  promise.”
Tom gasped as he stirred awake. What the hell happened?
He could still feel the burn on his wings but didn’t have the energy to lift his head and check. The dull ache in his head was an unfamiliar feeling, for it wasn’t from pain but something he knew not how to describe. 
His vision came slow, but he could make out a couple of things through the mess of blurry colours. 
The walls were stone, with scriptures in an unknown language carved along the edges. There were more engravings, almost like pictures. There was one image that stood out, however, the one that stared right back at him. 
The illustration was of a man, but no man that Tom had ever seen in his life. This man was painted blue, with four arms, and sat on top of what appears to be a bull. He held something that resembled a whip in one hand, and a weapon of some sort in another. What in God’s name is that thing…?
“His name is Yama.” 
Tom jumped at the sound of another voice in the room, his eyes scanned frantically for the source, but finding no one.  
“He is the God of Death and Justice,” the voice continued. It was familiar, he’s heard it before. 
God of Death and Justice…? How can that be? He thought to himself, or maybe out loud because the voice responded. 
“Things are different here, Angel. Think about it, the entity that deals with all the souls infected by bad karma serves justice by forcing them to spend eternity down here. Get it?” 
His head continued swinging back and forth, desperate to locate the place the mysterious wind was whispering in his ears, while also processing what this voice was telling him. Perhaps, the Justice in the name is justified, but one thing still confused him. “There is only one God?” 
“For you, maybe. But for many of us, we have many, thousands even. It gives me a headache just thinking about it.” 
Tom felt a hot breath against his neck and flinched, whipping around to find nothing but a blank wall. He turned his head again, only to be shoved back by a gust of dust. His arms flew across his face to protect his eyes, and once the wind had died down he slowly removed them, but soon regretted the decision after seeing what stood in front of him. 
“What’s with the face, pretty boy? You aren’t happy to see me?” She mock-pouted, wings stretching as she stood tall at the foot of the bed. “C’mon, the least you can do is thank me for allowing you to sleep in my bed, as opposed to the rocks we have in the dungeons.” 
Looking around him, only now realizing exactly where he was. The lit candle holders that lined that were installed strategically, the closet wardrobe that sat on the side of the room, tables and chairs placed accordingly, but most importantly the blood-red mattress he sat upon, a silk canopy above him, the pillars that seemed to be carved out of cold. 
The angel tried to scramble away but winced when he moved to use his wings. He carefully spread them out, wrapping his wounded feathers around his front. The marks the rope had left were indented by a red line of irritation. A small whimper escaped his throat, which didn’t go unnoticed by the Queen, who stood and watched the whole moment. 
All she could see was red, those fucking idiots! 
Now was not the time to get mad, not in front of him at least. She would certainly be paying a visit to a certain bone-head or two. “You’re hurt.” 
Tom looked up from his burn and towards her face-- avoiding eye-contact of course. Instead of the usual stone-cold expression he had seen during their last encounter, he was met with a look of sympathy...and perhaps worry? 
“Allow me,” she reached forward, stopping short when the angel flinched back. “I’ll make it better, just trust me.” 
The divine-being studied the she-devil for a moment, making the reluctant decision to let her do whatever it is she wishes to. He doesn’t know why, but a small voice was telling him it was going to be okay, the same voice that told him to ask if she was alright the first time. 
The Rani waved her hand over the wound, a small black glow emitting from her palm, before disappearing, along with any trace of the marks. “There, good as new.” 
His eyes widening, Tom watched as the magic healed his pain. He opened his mouth to thank her when he realized what kind of magic had been inflicted upon him. Dark magic.
“It’s nothing that will cost your holiness, just a very simple healing spell any person who possesses mystic abilities would have learned.” 
Silence fell between the two mythical creatures, one pondered his thoughts, the other studied the white figure with intensity. 
“What do you want from me?” The angel finally asked. It was straight to the point, the sooner he could get back to heaven and jump into a bath of Holy Water the better. 
“You are very special, my little Angel. I just don’t know why...yet. So ‘till I do, you are staying here-- close your mouth I’m not finished speaking. Good. As I was saying, you’ll be staying here with me. Now you can either stay willingly, or you can resist and have your wings fed to my demons. The choice is yours.” 
There were a lot of things to process. Tom would rather keep his wings attached, and he could always try to escape at night. With his wing fixed, how hard could it be? Sure, he may not have had magic like some other angels but he had confidence. All you have to do is retrace your steps back to the gate...easy right? 
However, something about her made him almost want to stay. Her authoritative persona was no-doubt appealing, and the way she called him her Angel sparked a feeling he has never experienced before. 
She stood patiently, awaiting his answer although she had a pretty good idea what it would be. Reading minds comes in handy with these types of situations. 
“O-okay… I’ll stay.” After weighing out the pros and cons, he decided the best thing he could do was stay for now, and either pray the Angels will send someone to rescue him or he could escape on his own. 
“Wonderful,” She grinned, canines bared. Her teeth were as sharp as a wolf’s, with fangs like a vampire.  
Tom tried to avoid looking into her eyes, but he could see the small glow emitting from the area. Is that normal? 
A quiet knock caused both heads to snap towards the entrance. A frail body with a bull’s head stood, head slightly bowed and hands folded in front of their chest. 
“M-Maharani, हम अभी भी प्रतीक्षा कर रहे हैं…” The man spoke, a hint of fear in his voice as he addressed what Tom assumed was the woman in front of him, though he had no idea what was being said. 
The Queen nodded once, “हम जल्द ही आएँगे.” She turned towards the angel, smiling again but this time it was different. There was no wolfish grin, instead, she wore a soft beam that highlighted her cheekbones. 
“So, you hungry?”
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हम जल्द ही आएँगे = “We will come soon”
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creativegodtiers · 2 years ago
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Prompt Response: Upstart/Exodus Scenario
(apologies for the troll quirks 😔) “yo,” Virave, the Knight, said, lying sideways across their chair. “there’-S a lil -Situation -Stirrin up” “Yes, I Gathered bY the fact You’d called us all into the Situation Room,” Evelit, known to the mortals as the Mage, said with a raise of her eyebrow. “be nIce!!” Lilith, the Sylph, admonished, before turning back to her moirail. “what’s the matter??” “okey doke, here’s the thing,” the Knight said. With a flick of their hands, a small figure appeared on the table, bearing a smug smile and a toga. Lilith leaned in to inspect the figure. “Caesar?” “no i think that is the chicken man,” Summer, aka the Rogue of Void, said solemnly. “Don’t be ridiculous,” the Mage admonished. “{summer has a p(o)int. he greatly resembles the chicken man,}” Wisria, the Heir of Space, said. “I don’t know who that is,” Evelit mumbled. “haha!! smartie Doesnt know something!!” Summer crowed. “Fuck off.” “can we get back on track?” the Knight demanded. There was silence. “thank-S. thi-S guy claim-S he’-S a ‘better’ god, the ‘true’ one.” They tapped a claw on the table, narrowly missing the little figure. “-So far a-S i can tell, he’-S a de-Scendant of one of u-S who got hopped up on power and ha-S a literal god complex. needle-S-S to -Say, i want thi-S twink obliterated. who want-S to go put the fear of the god-S in hi-S heart with me?” The Rogue, the Sylph, and the Witch (also known as Elmara) immediately raised their hands. “{i d(o)n’t like c(o)nfr(o)ntati(o)n, but if y(o)u need a s(o)lar eclipse, text me,}” the Counter of Stars said with a small smile. Evelit sighed. “This could Go a lot of waYs. If I See You start makinG bad choices, I’ll alert You throuGh the usual method.” “texting “DONT DO IT DUMBASSES” to the group chat,” Virave said with a nod. “got it.” The man—his name has been lost to mortal minds, but we’ll call him Chad, because he was so a Chad—stepped down from his platform. The people adored his message, his speeches were on point as always, and just as he’d thought, those so-called Creators were either not real or too detached to do anything about it. “yo.” Chad glanced over to see four unassuming troll youngsters. He had to stifle a chuckle—three of them had their arms crossed and one was leaning her elbow on another, the very picture of teenage skepticism. Regardless, he would convince them. He was very convincing. “What can I do for you?” he said, putting on his best smile. He’d never been fond of trolls, but more followers were always needed. “A little birdie t+ld me y+u’re playing at g+dh++d,” one said, moving forward. Her red skirt swirled around her feet. Chad idly wondered how she avoided tripping. “I’m not playing, my dear, I am a god. A better god, in tune with the people, not sequestered in my tower all the time like some ‘gods’.” “okay but like heres the thing” one girl said, stepping forward. Chad wondered what caste these trolls were-none of them had a sign, and the dark blue of this girl’s shirt didn’t point to one specific caste. “the gods r literally always out n about u just gotta LOOK DuDe” Chad scoffed. “Don’t be ridiculous. If the gods are so active, why haven’t we seen them in action recently?” “maybe you haven’t,” the jadeblood (you could tell by the scarf) girl muttered. Something clicked in Chad’s head. “Ah. You’re going to try to prove you are the gods.” “well, he caught on...decently fast,” the jadeblood said to her comrades. “so how we gonna play this?” the blue shirted one said. Chad felt a sting of mild irritation that they were ignoring him in favor of keeping up the “gods” facade. ��okay, here’-S my idea. i -Shank him, and lilith heal-S the wound,” the one who hadn’t spoken before said. They pulled a knife from their yellow coat and twirled it easily in their hand. Lilith (presumably) gently whacked them on the arm. “don’t be sIlly! we‘re under some sort of oath not to harm mortals, aren’t we?” “no,” the other one grumbled, “but fine, i gue-S-S.” “I c+uld d+ the timey thing,” the one with the red dress suggested. There was a chime and she looked down. “Ah. N+pe. Evelit says bad idea. Damn.” Chad couldn’t deny a stirring of fear in his chest, but he pushed it down. “If you are the gods, then which ones are you?” “fuck yes!!” Lilith cheered. “transformatIon sequence tIme!!” “Yes,” Red Skirt Girl said. “HELL ye-S,” Knife Kid said. “hell fuckin yes” Blue Shirt said. “Can I g+ first?” Red Skirt Girl said. “I’ve been practicing.” Everyone nodded, so she took a breath in and began to twirl. The edges of her skirt flew up, revealing striped green stockings, which quickly became a blue as she spun faster and faster until- A glittery green shoe clicked hard against the pavement and the girl stopped, beaming with pride. Her skirt settled around her, shorter and fluffier now, her sleeves longer and— The Timecrest emblazoned proudly on the front. “The Wild One,” Chad whispered, unable to keep a hint of reverence from his tone. The Goddess of Tune did a very silly bow. “In the flesh.” “me neXt!!” Blue Shirt cried, clapping her hands. She closed her eyes and- Chad couldn’t quite describe it. She seemed to almost fold in on herself, imploding, but before she could implode all the way, she was back, suddenly, fully formed. She was still wearing the oversized blue shirt and black leggings, but now she had fingerless gloves, a domino mask, boots, and most importantly, the Voidcrest on her shirt. “The R-g-e of ——“ Chad said. Or, well, not really said so much as half-choked. The Rogue grinned. “Someone knows their history!” “So you’re-“ Chad turned to the other two. The jadeblood girl simply flicked her hands and the scarf transformed into flowing ribbons, the dress lengthened, and the Lifecrest bloomed into existence, along with several flowers springing up around her feet. “I thInk some people call me the Goddess of UprIsIng, whIch Is great, don’t you thInk?” The one remaining had apparently already changed, into the glowing golden cape and matching shirt and pants of.. “The Speaker of Truths,” Chad said. “Bingo bongo,” the Knight deadpanned. Chad took a deep breath in. No matter. He was still the better god, even alone. He had something they didn’t! “Well, regardless of your flashy transformation sequences, you are out of touch,” Chad declared. “The people have forgotten you, and a new god—a better, friendlier god—is here.” “woooow,” the Rogue drawled. “i cant even...ive seen stupiD, but this is something else.” “can i plea-Se ju-St -Shank him?” the Knight said, twirling their knife. The Sylph gently patted their cheek. “shoooosh.” “can we call in a solar eclipse now?” the Rogue said, but the Witch shook her head. “It w+n’t d+ any g++d. This is a matter +f rhetoric.” “OH!!” the Sylph said suddenly. “I’ve got an Idea!” She turned to Chad. “when’s your next sermon?” Chad checked the time. “A few minutes, actually.” “great! we’re comIng,” the Sylph said, and shoved past him, dragging the Knight along. Chad, confused, followed. When he arrived on stage, a crowd was already gathered, expectant. The gods stood off to one side, leaving the microphone available. Chad stepped up, tapped it a couple times, and told himself his mantra in his head. You are powerful. You are mighty. You are open. You are a god. “Helllooo, my people!” “our people,” a clear, commanding voice cut in. Everyone turned, and when they saw the gods, gasps and whispers broke out. “is it gonna b a rap off” the Rogue stage-whispered to the Knight. “nah,” the Knight said back. “i think i get what -Sylphie’-S plan i-S.” The Sylph started to walk towards the podium, and her friends followed, creating a strange little parade. “um. hello,” the Sylph said into the microphone, and the whispers increased. “thIs man claIms we have abandoned you, that we are out of touch. he lIes. we are among you, always, and not even fIguratIvely. who here has been to a protest recently that turned sour?” A few people raised their hands. The Sylph nodded, pointing at one of them. “you. protest for goldblood psIonIc headache medIcatIon to be legalIzed? there were a bunch of sonIc blasts, but somehow no one got burned. that was me helpIng. best of luck, btw.” “you, the one with the nice jacket,” the Knight said, and the people quieted, because the Speaker of Truths would not lie to them. “i told your mom -She had to get you vaccinated. did -She?” “Y-Yeah,” the kid said, looking shocked and maybe a little overwhelmed at having this attention put on them. “She did.” The Knight nodded, satisfied. “Y+u,” the Witch said, pointing at a young woman. “We fucked +nce. Last week, actually. Call me?” “okay, well, that Isn’t the best example-“ the Sylph said. “we went 2 a rave together!!” the Rogue said, pointing at yet another startled face. “wait, u 2? aw fuck man. i cant believe uve done this.” “-So, we gonna -Smite the-Se dork-S?” the Knight, and the crowd all backed up a bit. Chad, for his part, was eyeing the mic as if weighing the chances of being able to grab it back vs the chances of the Knight “shanking” him. “nah, they’re good,” the Sylph said. “just needed a lIttle remInder of theIr real gods, I thInk.” “sure we shoulDnt try 2 push that reminDer a bit?” the Rogue said hopefully. The Sylph smiled. “Already texting Wisria,” the Witch said. The Rogue stepped forward and raised their hands dramatically. “citizens! in the interest of fairness, we will allow this chaD here 2 give a lil Demo of his talents.” Chad stepped forward, looking like a man who had just seen his own death and was not at all pleased with the indignity of it. “Yes. Ahem...observe!” He pulled an apple from thin air, spun it around with a flourish, and then tapped it, It instantly aged and became a wrinkled and gray mush. “Cute,” the Witch said. The Rogue nodded. “one of urs. alright, y’all got the flashy anD non fatal powers. take it away!” The Sylph seemingly spontaneously grew a pair of jade wings and fluttered over the heads of the crowd. With a hum, she perched on a tree and gestured to the Witch, who sprouted matching wings of her own and joined her. Together, the two managed to age a small tree to the point where it’s shadow fell upon the whole gathering (considerably grown by now), and then to the point where it died. The Sylph then casually regrew all its limbs, and the two leapt down from their now considerably heightened perch. “Alright, our turn,” the Knight said, and right on cue, the sun went out. There were several gasps and a few shrieks, but everyone fell silent when the glowing Crests of the gods appeared in the sky, bright enough almost to replace the sun. Then they faded, the sun reappeared, and the gods took a bow in the style of stage plays. “learned your lesson, dearIe??” the Sylph said to Chad as the Rogue shoved him in front of the mic. Chad looked down at his feet, not meeting the eyes of what had once been his congregation. “I...I am not a god.” “damn right,” the Knight said. “alrighty, peace out y’all.” “stay safe!!” the Sylph cried. “keep an eye out 4 us,” the Rogue said with a wink. “Call me!” the Witch said, pointing again at the young woman in the crowd she had singled out before. And the four ascended away, pleased with a job well done.
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luminaluminesce · 4 years ago
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This needs to fucking stop. My weight is not what you think.
I'm sick to death of being made fun of because of my weight. I'm gonna lay down the fucking facts. First of all, I never got to go out and play as a child because of the shitty neighborhood we lived in, the drugs and murders going around, and at age 4, I was diagnosed with asthma. My mum scared it into me that if I ever ran around too much, I'd end up in the hospital or maybe even die. So as I grew up and got more freedom, I never left home. Put on top of that the fact that I had no friends and was afraid to go out for fear of being bullied on a regular basis. I was bullied for being poor and having shit clothes, but mostly for my weight and I started eating less and less. To this day, I'm lucky if I eat 2 meals a day, I still struggle to feed myself on what I get and still live at home with a shit job. Anyways, I digress.
Now, I eat one meal a day, maybe two, I'm free of asthma but because I didn't go out as a kid, my lungs are weak so starting an intense workout would possibly land me in the hospital for a few days if not maybe a few weeks. But because I'm in a constant state of starvation, my body takes whatever I eat and stores it.
Here's a basic scientific fact, quoted from Ivan Nikolov;
* The body enters in the starvation mode with consequent metabolic rate slow down
* Rather significant calorie ingestion at night causes the body to store the surplus as fat
This is what's happening to me. I don't eat enough during the day, or at all and what I eat for supper is stored in my body as fat because it doesn't know when it'll be fed again.
Effects of this starvation is, AND I QUOTE:
extreme feelings of hunger
shakiness
fatigue
brain fog
headaches
feelings of weakness
inability to concentrate
binge eating
I'm starving on a daily basis, as I type my hands are shaking and multiple occasions my entire body has started shaking uncontrollably, as I type this my head is splitting and has done for a few days in a row, I'm completely exhausted most of the time and would like nothing more than to sleep for a month, at school I can't focus, and on some occasions I will binge. I will eat everything in sight because my body is saying EAT NOW BECAUSE IF YOU DONT YOU WILL DIE. I NEED CALORIES AND VITAMINS AND YOU BETTER GIVE EM TO ME.
I'm in pain, not just because I'm starving but because no one understands what it's like to go through this. It's easy for you to sit and judge when you don't know the story and you're hiding behind a screen. It's far too easy. My life has been so hard not even counting the outside problems and no one knows. Nor does anyone care because to the outside, I'm a fatass who eats too much McDonalds. Allow me to enlighten you, I can not eat McShits. I can barely eat any food. My body rejects anything I put into it so I'm sick most of the time, why would I make that worse by eating a big Mac???
I am trying to get to a somewhat normal weight, a normal size. Keep in mind too, I'm 5'10", I do a lot of heavy lifting so underneath this fat, I have quite a bit of muscle. I'm 325lbs (about 170kg for everyone else reading) but having said, I am not unhealthy. I've gone for a physical, the most recent being sometime last year, my heart is fine, my liver is working as great as a childs, compared to teens my age who binge drink and have a liver like a 50yo, my blood pressure is dead center (can't remember the specific number), everything is completely normal. And yet, I'm viewed as disgusting. Ugly. Unhealthy. Vile. Revolting. Overall a giant blob of grease.
Having said, my self confidence has dwindled, I'm hanging by a thread. I'm afraid to go to a gym, I can't even afford a membership. I'm afraid to go for a walk in public, I see people stare at me, even if they aren't, I feel their eyes. Judging. Disgusted at what I am. I've heard the horror stories of people my size walking into a gym and being laughed at. You do not laugh at someone who is trying to better themselves. Let me repeat; YOU DO NOT. LAUGH. AT SOMEONE. WHO IS TRYING. TO BETTER THEMSELVES. That behavior makes them want to quit, and it turns into an out of control downward spiral.
And when I hear that this happens in a society that wants nothing more than equality for all races, all social classes, all sexual orientations and both genders, it makes me want to curl up and die. I feel so upset, so hurt. But no one cares what the fat woman feels, she'll just eat her feelings and get fatter. Something needs to be done. It needs to stop. And I don't know how to stop it.
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yoonasgf · 4 years ago
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171015  dreams
i always have dreamsthat aren’t good? either i dont remember what i dreamt or it was bad dream. sometimes i have like real nightmares like the one with the it clown last friday, but most of the time i have dreams that make me anxious or stressful circumstances, or feeling of being uncomfortable.. i’ve had two dreams of men since nobuya left. the first one was of him backhugging me and grabbing my hand and trying to embrace me even though i was trying to push him away, as he was holding me i clearly remember the feeling of anxiety and discomfort and slight fear that it gave me, just how i felt when he kissed me. i wish i could get over it, it seems that it really damaged me. the second dream was of this kid in my class, i think he kind of likes me, or maybe his friends just tease him so i think he does, or maybe he just feels attracted to me, but anyway in the dream i think he was showring and someone (a girl) told me it was time for me to go in too and for some reason i obeyed but hesistanly, so i took off my clothes and got into the shower and avoided his gaze and immediately turned around, but he started stroking my back and i had the same feeling from the other dream only a bit more uncomforable than fearful, and for some reason i kpet letting jhim do it. i don’t understand why it’s hard for me to say no to men, i don’t even like men ?? idk why i feel like i should just let them do what they want i should really fix that. lately i’ve had dreams involving boats, i often have dreams with boats but i’ve had 2 this week, in which the same boat appeared. it’s like this white boat with blue enhancements, a motor boat like the ones use for transporting people to islands but with the appreance of a yacht. in both cases i was wearing a life vest and the sea was a bitt turbulent. today i took a nap after lunch, i had a really weird dream. i was in some kind of world that i knew wasn’t this one, maybe some kind of after life or place between death and life. but i wasn’t dead i think? it wasthis sort of village with log cabins covered in snow, and i don’t remember what happened clearly but there were these tall.. people? like humanoid creatures that kind of were the staff of this place and they seemed evil but they actually jsut doing their job, i think me and a group of some other people were on some kind of trial but the part i remember the most was that for some reason one of the women in the group she needed help so i went and called 3 of the staffs one of them being the female humanoid creature that was “incharge” of our group. i think the woman needed immediate help because i was really desperate, but the two other men (humanoid) where kind of walking slowly? they were following me to the place where the woman was but they were liike joking and chatting and i was like ? why are they acting like this is an everyday errand. andthe other woman staff kept telling me things that i think hadto do with me but i got upset and yelled “why are you not helping her?!” and she told me to look at her closely and when i looked she waslike kneeling with her eyes glowing red and kind of lost? without moving and next to her was this yeti looking thing that was like gaining power and the woman staff told me something about that creature coming out of the woman ?? idk if it meant that the woman failed to control it and keeping it inside her or if it meant that that was her real soul? it had to do with the soul i”m sure the humanoid said that. i think that was what the trial at the village was about. so then a flood started coming kind of like how tsunamis look, and the humanoid lady helped me get on top of the roof. the woman died because her soul had gone out of her(the monster) and she couldnt move.. idk it was such a weird dream i woke up with a headache. people always think dreams have ameaning but today i thought maybe they just don’t and it’s meaningless stories, like maybe they do portray what’s bothering you or waht’s on your mind, but weird dreams like that one maybe they’re just weird dreams.
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kewltie · 2 years ago
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or how pro hero ground zero finds himself accidentally dating the most notorious supervillain, AFO’s precious son. 
in the midst of a battle w/ members of LoV, pro-hero ground zero save a rookie journalist who LITERALLY threw himself middle of all the chaos to grab photos & after yelling at the ignorant fuck, katsuki doesn't think he'll see him again. but then HE SEES HIM EVERYWHERE
his name is midoriya izuku & he has some sort of death wish really bc katsuki keep finding him in the middle of all these hero vs villains battles and ONE TIME he tackled down a villain right???? and he doesnt even have a fucking quirk & yet he is seemingly unfraid of everything
needless to say, katsuki is v smitten bc the lil awkward death defying shit. also, anyone who accidentally send katsuki to the hospital several times bc he keep getting into trouble and katsuki have to come rescue him and THEN YELLING AT KATSUKI FOR INTERFEARING W/ HIS JOB
katsuki get so fucking rile up at this quirkless man, who shown no fear and easily go toe to toe w/ him and yet is so incrdiably humble and hilariously akward, he is just into this badass idiot who is entirely devoted to his job and cursed w/ severe stubborn???? feels relatable.
so yea, katsuki ofc taps that ass right the fuck away bc he knows a good one when izuku is indirectly responsible for three broken ribs after katsuki had pulled him out of ANOTHER TROUBLING SITUATION. he's a trouble magnet and shit-stirrer and katsuki's heart is moved.
so the start dating and it goes SO WELL. izuku still get in major shitstorm for his job and katsuki still drags him out of it w/ a few bruise here and there, but afterward they go grab a bite and crash at each other place. super romantic nd sweet and it's so v good. but!!!
there's something weird about izuku. he doesn't talk much about his family, to katsuki anyway. BUT HE'S SUPER CLOSE TO THEM. his parents seem to call him daily and he go visit them often, but he never bring his parents up to katsuki esp his dad & izuku kinda got a stalker??
it's not like katsuki didn't notice right away, but HE THOUGHT IT WAS HIS STALKER. one of his super creepy fans probably but nope this person only tails izuku and when katsuki tell him about it, izuku is like, 'oh that's just toga'. apparently, izuku knows his talker v v well.
the stalker apparently is sent by izuku's father to watch out & protect izuku and katsuki pauses bc who the fuck does a journalist who lives on takeouts and shitty cable TVs need a bodyguard?!!! so yea katsuki's new bf background is fucking weird and mysterious.
katsuki has his agency dig into izuku's background (not that they hadn't vet izuku's before for katsuki's safety) but they comb through the archives and izuku's history and it's comes out v v v v clean, sparkling even. honestly, katsuki doesn't know WTF IS UP W/ HIS NEW BF.
so he confront izuku about his weirdo stalker/bodyguard, his avoidance about his family & his dad in particular, and his eerie squeaky AND CLEARLY SCRIPTED papertrails. izuku get shifty eyes and is like, "you won't believe me." And katsuki says tersely, "fucking try me."
Izuku drops his gaze to the floor and says, finally, "my dad is the leader of the league of villains." and YEA, KATSUKI'S BRAIN SHUT DOWN FOR SEC bc his deku?? stupid suicidal stubborn bleeding heart deku??? FUCK NO. but izuku just nods his head and grimaces.
the LoV is the largest criminal org in the world w/ long list of crimes & longer list of criminals that make its their home. their roster are made up of terrifying people w/ dangerous quirks... and IZUKU, quirkless and softhearted izuku is the leader's most precious son.
the idea itself is COMPLETELY ABSURD! HOW does that ever make sense? izuku is a civilian who works normal if a bit dangerous job & doesn't seem to have any *evil* inclinations at all yet he hail from the worst kind of genetic source possible. maybe he's just faking it all along.
which made katsuki absolutely furious that izuku might been some kind of sleeper agent from the LoV sent to trick spy & kill him or something and izuku's eyes wide, immediately protests, "no, no, i swear! i dont have anything to do w/ my fathers... org."
but katsuki has a hard time accepting it esp with the truth bomb thrown at his feet now that he realizes HE'S DATING THE ONLY SON OF EVIL OF THE MOST VILE CRIMINAL IN THE WORLD. so yea, he walks out on izuku, saying he need some space & izuku was looking so heartbroken as he left
for the next few days, katsuki stews in his thought. he doesn't tell anyone about what he had found out, but he doesn't contact izuku either. until, one day just as he in the middle of patrol there's some comotion that attract his teams and katsuki is seperated from them.
he's cornered by several LoV members, outnumbered five to one and katsuki lost his comms in the ensuring scuffles but instead of kicking his ass bc well they're foes, one of them break ranks toga (the blood queen) approach him w/ a bloodthirsty grin & a knife pointing toward him.
"hey, pretty boy," she coos w/ a flicker of edge, "stop ignoring our young master! you made him cried & he won't come out of his room. I hate seeing him so upset bc Izuku-chan should always be smiling! if you dont fix this ill rip your hide from your bones and wear it as a cape."
the group behind her make various grunt of agreement, all promising him death and disembowelment for... apparently breaking izuku's heart. katsuki is so outrage that he nearly explodes on the spot bc these dumbass villains think they CAN BLACKMAL/THREATEN HIM?! HIM, GROUND ZERO?!
also, even more furious by the fact that they insuate that HE BROKE UP WITH IZUKU?! wtf, he never said that!! needing space meant just a temporary break s he gets his bearing on wut to do next... but not like a perma break, but izuku's ppl thought their relationship ended.
katsuki is even more offended by that notion bc izuku is even a bigger idiot than he thought. HOW could someone that much of crybaby over just temp break is some manipulative coldhearted spy?? right now his instinct says, izuku is telling the truth. he isn't tricking katsuki.
bc it all make sense now. izuku who stands fearless against villains bc he'd grown up around them all his life and was raised BY THE MOST NOTORIOUS ONE. anytime there's a LoV related incident, izuku always seem to come out of it unscathed like THERE'S A ZONE OF PROTECTION ON HIM.
izuku is seemingly sweet, humble, & awkward but he got that rebellious streak a mile wide. loud in his opinions & shit-stirrer by choice, he faces down villains & heroes alike like they're on equal ground even though izuku is defenseless. he respect the law only when it applies.
katsuki has never seen such a fucking firecracker like izuku who loves people & the world but have little respect for any gov entity or laws and think they're good only when they're helping ppl but otherwise they're abritary (lmao). he such chaotic force for good it's hilarious.
so yea, he believes that izuku is the SON OF AFO now bc that lil shit is a menace. A GOOD MENACE, but still a goddamn menace. he seems to stay firmly on the side of 'good' as it is which make his relationship with his villain father a fucking mystery & headache for katsuki.
so katsuki, gritting his teeth, clichely demands the LoV group to take him to their leader so he can verbally kick his bf's ass for keeping his fucked up secrets and stupidly mistaken that they're broken up. the group happily ties up him and blindfolds him bc well SECRET LAIR.
katsuki is crazy, ok. like, STUPIDLY CRAZY to go blindly and no backups w/ some of the worst villains in history so he can meet up w/ his stupid bf and his crazy father. he could end up dead tmr or some shit bc it all could have been a trick to lure him in w/ his guard down
but if izuku can be an idiot for dating a hero when he's a son of a villain than KATSUKI CAN BE A BIGGER IDIOT FOR GOING TO MEET HIS BF'S VILLANIOUS FATHER AT HIS SECRET TORTURE FORTRESS OR SOME SHIT. love can make ppl dumb and they're both a perfect example of it.
so katsuki get blindfolded and escorted to the LoV hq and it's a suprisingly sweet ride to there. no bumps, no abuse, no torture shit going on. he get offer food and drink and it's FUCKING WEIRD. his kidnappers start some casual convo w/ him about izuku and his job of all things.
they even joke about how katsuki arrested one of them one time and almost kill another THE OTHER TIME & it's all happy bs??? it's even worst than torture. katsuki just want this to end already!! eventually they arrive and katsuki is let out. he get inside & his blindfold is off.
it's... nothing like he expected. it's traditional japanese house w/ sprawling garden, koi ponds, & beautiful woods. it's pristine, homey, and terribly normal. "ha, you thought we were going to take you to some kind of evil lair, right?" twice says, grinning bc he's an ass.
"that's next time! we save that for official bsn." he jabs Katsuki's in the shoulder playfully. "you're meeting sensei and mistress so of course it got to be at their house and not the 'office'." katsuki's hands start twitching like he's going to explode someone or something.
but he's quickly drag away before he could do anything about it. lead through some hallways before depositing inside a tearoom where there's a SHIT TON of pics of baby!izuku & his childhood accolades on the wall. this look less like a room to greet visitors but to show off izuku.
just as katsuki goes to examine a cute pic of bb!izuku playing in a field of flowers & holding one up towrad the camera, the doors slide open and a couple walk in. one of them is an older woman who looks eerily like izuku and the young woman also ft. in many of the wall pics.
she smiles warmly at and goes to greet him right away. "hi, bakugou-kun! welcome to our home, i'm inko, Izuku's mother," she introduces herself. while she's a source of happy energy and warmth, the other man beside her is another story. he gives katsuki's an icy stare.
katsuki already knows who he is before he even say anything. AFO looks younger in comparison to his reported age, notably handsome, and he carries himself like some warlord from the warring periods.
"I should kill you," is the first thing he says. "my son should only cry in joy, over his terrible taste in romantic media consumption, & dumber things." spoken like a man who dealt with midoriya walking crying machine izuku his entire life and also a hopelessly devoted father.
"hisashi!" inko scolds. which is strange to katsuki bc he didn't even think AFO even have a name but in front of him isn't some evil man who mastermind gov't take over & ruin so many ppl lives but astupid father overprotected of his son. "but i won't," AFO admits regretfully.
"Izuku would be even more sad and if you're dead your death will haunt him needlessly more. he won't be able to forget you and move on." he frowns, like he actually had CONSIDER THAT ROUTE DEEPLY before casting that idea aside. WTF, katsuki thought and says exactly that, "wtf."
"there's something seriously wrong with you," he points out what he think is v obvious. AFO shrugs. "I love my son. He's my-" Inko's frown and he clears his throat, "our most precious treasure & we do everything to ensure his happiness. do you understand us, bakugou katsuki?"
"inko and i have raise with love and care for 20yrs and i won't have some rough neck capers try to destroy his smile. i dont care who you are or wut you can do bc i can put you ten feet under w/ a snap of my fingers & nobody will be able to save you but like i said i won't."
Katsuki grind his teeth, fists clenched at his side, before lowering his head. this isnt time to fight, they're not on the field & on the job. this isnt about their respective stance on moral superiority but izuku. izuku is why they're both here. "i came here for him."
"i want to fix it," he says. "just let me see him." he pauses & grimaces like the tatse of whatever he say next disgust him. "please." AFO frowns, staring at katsuki for a beat, two. like he can pull apart katsuki's motives and tears into his rib to see w/e make him tick.
"fine," he waves katsuki away, "you may see him now but if he cry anything beside in happiness i'll have your head and your entire agency." it's not a threat. it's a warning lace with truth that katsuki has no doubt he will carry out if a single tear slip pass izuku and fall.
inko claps her hand happily. "great, i'm glad you guys are geting along so well!" she says, like threats of murder haven't been thrown at his feet. clearly, she's used to the fact that her husband is a completely psychopath and whipped for their son. this fucking crazy family.
katsuki grunts, not knowing what else to say beside, 'have you eve thought of fucking divorce bc yea maybe you will be less crazy by then' but he holds his tongue bc they're still izuku's parents and he already made a bad impression on them even though technically not his FAULT.
AFO doesn't promise anymore murder in his future but the dark look on his face is enough as inko's lead him out & toward izuku's room. she drops him right outside it and gives him an encouraging smile before heading off, but katsuki has no doubt the parents are lurking around.
katsuki sucks in a deep breath before raising his fist and knocks. he hears unhurried footsteps on the other side and slowly the door is slide open. "Papa, I already said--" izuku whines, and stops as soon as he sees who ACTUALLY on the other side. "K-Katsuki?! What are you--?"
Katsuki blinks, trying to get his fucking brain to graple with the thought of AFO as 'papa' and his head nearly explode. he drags a hand down his face and once again thinks, THIS FUCKIN' FAMILY. "Look, you idiot," he starts in lieu of any answer. "We didn't fucking break up."
Izuku looks haggard, buffy red eyes and the dark circle under it, speaking of how upset he was. he clearly didn't get any good rest these several days they were apart. he lifts an accusatory brow at Katsuki. "you didn't pick up my calls or answer any of my text," he retorts.
Katsuki rolls his eyes. "what part of I needed space, time to think didn't you get?" he snaps back. "It didn't mean go cry and sulk your parent's home like a damn coward because you were too dumb to think of anything beside we may have broken up!"
"But--but," Izuku's lips wobble and katsuki nearly jump out of his skin bc jfc don't cry here or i'll be skinned alive, "i was scared that you really mean it! that's why i didn't want to tell you in the first place bc then you wouldn't want to have anythig to do w/ me."
Katsuki sighs, a bone deep tired sigh. "Now, why would you think i would have any problem with dating the son of my nemesis?" he says dryly. Izuku's brows furrow. "All Might is Papa's nemesis," he unhelpfully point out. "I don't think Papa even knew you existed until we dated."
Katsuki scowls. "that's not the fucking point," he shouts, temper rising w/ every word. "Your dad is the fucking boogieman who wants to sow discord in the world & it's my job to catch him &lock away for good. Do you see my moral crisis over this when im dating his beloved son?!"
"I-" Izuku's face fall, "dont you think I dont know that? I've lived with him for over 20yrs, I know exactly what he's capable of." he looks away. "But, he's my Papa & im terrible for still choosing him over the world. So," izuku says solmenly. "i dont expect the same from you."
Katsuki grits his teeth and steps right into izuku's space, up in his face. "Look, im only going to say this once so listen the fuck up," he starts. "I like you. A lot. Stupidly. Gods know why when you drive me up the fucking wall all the time, but here I am standig before you."
"A lot, huh?" Lips twitching, Izuku's eyes going soft. Katsuki scowls. "Dont make me repeat myself, but yes fucking a lot that your fucking groupies & your old man threatened to kill me several times over did not deter me from coming here," he says, hand cradling Izuku's cheek.
"It's because I'm dating you and not your father. Whatever crimes he'd commited is not on you, you don't have to carry his sins," he tells Izuku, leaning in to press a kiss too fast and fleeting on izuku's forehead. "just stay true to yourself and i'll fucking deal with it."
Izuku's close his eyes and lets out a shaky exhales, the air of relief that passes through him is shuddering. "Ok, ok," he murmurs, opening his eyes to look at katsuki. there's a twinkle in them as he smiles, soft and sweet, the kind you can stupidly drunk on & never let go.
In that hazy moment, katsuki thinks, AFO doesn't need to plan any premediated murder in case things go v wrong bc this is how he'll die w/ izuku's smile right in his front his eyes, cutting him down one curve lips at a time. Fuck, he's just as whipped for izuku as AFO.
it's good that izuku not a fucking psychopath like his father bc this would have gone v v v wrong. izuku would make a terrifying villain. Worst than his own father bc it's not fear & imtimidation that will get ppl to follow him but izuku's own magnetic personality that move them.
"don't ever become a villain, ok?" katsuki insists suddenly, grabbing his shoulder tightly. "where did that come from?" izuku laughs, eyes crinkling. "And dont worry, papa had tried. many, many times but i haven't turn over to the darkside if that's what you worry about."
"Good," katsuki says firmly, and thinks the world better for it. one less crazy midoriya to raise hell. izuku is trouble enough as it is when katsuki thought he was just a quirkless journalist w/ a death wish but now there's a chance he could go rouge any moment and--yea. no.
"Sooo," izuku says, boucing on his heels. "are we back together now?" katsuki flicks him on the forehead. "we never broke up in the first place, you dolt." izuku grins and suddenly throws his arm around katsuki. "ah, i miss you so much kacchan!!!" he declares excitedly.
and after they made up, katsuki interrogate izuku about wtf is wrong w/ his father bc how did AFO of all ppl get a villain son who isn't all about /that/ kind of bsn he's in. turns out izuku always have a healthy regard for heroes so he never thought of joining his father's org.
though AFO would have been super happy to take izuku in bc izuku is terrifyingly clever & resourceful but he lets izuku go & do his thing anyway. they just mutually agree not to talk shop when it's family, keeping their jobs outside &not in the home to keep both of their sanity.
so izuku knows shit about the 'family bsn' except wut everyone knows bc he's not involve with any of that and in his everyday job as a journalist izuku often times clash w/ his father AND expose some of his schemes bc it's part of his job & he doesn't shy away from it.
AFO wasn't upset at all having his plans ruin by his own son. nope. he was SUPER PROUD OF IZUKU!!! to able to accomplish such thing on his own even if it's against him lol. but izuku is still his father's so so he doesn't take on just AFO, other villains, & dark org.
he takes on the gov't, hero association, and even other heroes themselves if he ever catches on if they didn't live up to his ideals of being 'proper hero' like all might. he fiercely chases and exposes anything that he deems corrupted and wrong not caring which side they're on.
which makes izuku kind of chaotic good. he acts on his own whims & sense of justice, disregarding all rules & barriers. which is why he admires katsuki so much bc katsuki stands by his rule staunchantly & won't ever move from it, izuku knows katsuki wont ever be sway by the dark.
kinda like izuku's father who stands firmly by his belief & does everything to reach his goals. WHICH IS NOT EXACTLY WHAT KATSUKI WANT TO BE COMPARE TO ESP BY A NOTORIOUS VILLAIN LIKE AFO lol. but yea, now that he got izuku's motive and why he's the way he is, it get easier.
they continue dating, izuku continues getting into trouble 120% of the time, katsuki keeps bailing him out, and sometimes IZUKU BAILS HIM OUT bc izuku may be quirkless but he got an army of the world's most terrible villains on his side so yea izuku IS TERRIFYING.
and, they aren't just dating but they're 100000% serious w/ each other bc now katsuki go to izuku's parents house for dinner every sunday and have to put up with AFO and play nice w/ each other for izuku's sake bc they come ton an understanding they will be IN-LAWS one day lol!
their dinner convo is mostly the two of them taking jab at each other bc katsuki trash of AFO's plans or AFO's sends katsuki's ppl to the hospital and got away with it. they never stop being enemy even for izuku bc of where they stand on but mutually agree not to kill each other.
they're both fiercely devoted individual who are obsessively workaholic, stubborn, vainglorious, and loves just as much as they breathe for their ppl and though they never agree on anything, this they will agree on bc izuku's happiness is everything to them!!!
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