#and also bc there is a difference between 15yo me being like ''oh alistair is supposed to be king bc that's what the game is telling me''

[luobingmeis]

i just saw a take that the king alistair ending completely goes against alistair’s character and all that he wanted in life and i am in this complicated position bc like yes that person has a point!!! in my most recent replaying of origins, i kinda had to do some mental circles to convince myself that 1) “hardening alistair” doesn’t make me feel like an asshole and 2) a union between alistair + anora can work w/ my warden as mistress,,, and like yeah i have fun with that ending bc i make it fun bc all this shit is made up anyway but after playing origins last year for the first time since 2015, i realized that the warden alistair ending is like......... the one that makes the most narrative sense 

however i retroactively choose to make alistair king bc otherwise he will not survive past inquisition bc i absolutely will not sacrifice hawke and i don’t feel like killing one of my favorite characters akjsdkjdsjk

but then this opens up the discussion on how, in my opinion, narratively it makes sense for hawke to be the one that dies in “here lies the abyss” and, dare i say, should be the one to sacrifice themselves bc 1) the wardens need to rebuild and 2) corypheus was hawke’s problem first. but i really don’t feel like killing the character i dedicated dozens of hours to previously so. rip stroud in canon and alistair theoretically.

so sometimes............... dragon age is all about making decisions based on what is the least emotionally devastating and not on in-game morals asdhjdhjd

#like okay i have fun with king alistair bc like. i have fun with it and i make it work akjsdjksd but like!!! #i almost instinctively went warden alistair endgame and then i panicked bc then i would have to kill him #bc like!! i love alistair. one of my favorite dragon age characters. /i will not kill hawke./ #so i just let stroud take the fall akjdsjkdsjk #i think abt this probably more than is normal #and also bc there is a difference between 15yo me being like ''oh alistair is supposed to be king bc that's what the game is telling me'' #and 20yo me being like ''well i don't wanna kill him so here take this crown'' #this is the sole reason why i love ''here lies the abyss'' bc there is no hard choice for me at all akjsjksdj #like i genuinely do not want to think abt having to choose between hawke and alistair bc like #in theory i dont want to do that to my warden w/ alistair #in-game i don't want to do that to varric bc his friendship with hawke is my favorite thing #and then that also tests me in my ''technically it makes more sense for hawke to die'' line of thinking #bc with stroud like............ that's a character i do not give a shit about akjsdjksdk #but alistair? one of my faves????? yikes! #anyways it's been a hot minute since i've rambled abt dragon age stuff that doesn't matter