#and also look incredibly uncomfortable

[kirnet]

Watching the Barbie movie for the first time and I’ve got about 30 minutes left. I think it’s well acted and made and it’s definitely entertaining and margot Robbie is always stunning. Not necessarily loving the apparent idea of “patriarchy is just perpetuated by stupid men who don’t know rather than an incredibly violent and complex system carried out both purposefully and accidentally, intelligently and systematically”. But I’ve still got 30 minutes left

#I don’t think it’s gonna change lol #ramblings #also Ryan goslings abs make me so uncomfortable I hate looking at them #like good for him but put them away #also what is the point of Barbie land being incredibly diverse in appearance and body when they somehow still have our beauty standards? #if that makes sense

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

[cws: starvation/food insecurity, fantasy racism, psychiatric abuse, ableism, and Upsetting Pictures.]

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one thing that fucks me up immensely about pericles before and after the asylum is how fucking skinny he is.

like. as much as obviously the two designs are Very Inconsistent in general which annoys me, look at him pre-timeskip. look at how he's shaped.

his head and face are way smoother and rounder, both in front and back, and the space between his cheekbones and his eyebrow ridge is filled in; his body is rounder in general and his belly is noticeably between his thighs when he's standing up; he has kind of a chubby butt; his chin and neck are softer and wider around, which you can really see with the width of the scarf compared to his shoulders and the angle where it meets his head. it comes up in front of his face more because there's not as much of an angle with his chin to hold it down.

now. compare all those things to this.

christ.

and like, you could argue some of these design differences are tiny things to zero in on in a show that's as loose with its models as sdmi is. but present-day pericles' design is pretty obviously supposed to be unsettling because he's physically built to be a Cute Roumb Little Mascot Creature--so much so that the framework has managed to stick around a little in spite of everything--and has become gaunt and haggard anyway. and you could also argue that the body type changes are just thanks to aging twenty years (and i don't doubt that's contributed).

except. he spent those twenty years in an asylum where the other inmates we see look like this.

christ.

(fun little fact that @thecottageinthedark pointed out also: remember how he literally got caught at one point because he couldn't stop eating sunflower seeds, even during a heist? a high-fat, high-calorie snack for birds? you know, exactly the kind of thing a starving person who finally has proper access to food would be wolfing down?)

(yeah.)

did i mention that this happened in a (fantasy) racially segregated prison, which is technically an asylum so the inmates can be kept there indefinitely, because in an actual prison you're required to have a sentence? did i mention that none of the human characters we see in human prison look any less healthy during or afterward, and on top of that are allowed to move around and socialize? did i mention the absolutely horrific treatment of the asylum inmates is implied to be despite the fact that the (physically abusive!) guard is playing up how dangerous and malicious they are? (you know. except for pericles 🙃)

did i mention the man who got pericles imprisoned--who he had not only done nothing to beforehand, but had helped--says he was there to 'live out the rest of his miserable parrot life in a cage, where he belonged,' and not only do none of the characters we're supposed to side with have anything to say about that, but the audience is clearly supposed to agree with him too?

(did i mention said man--who was in on the crime, singular, that pericles went to prison for!--spends those twenty years living a life of luxury in power while abusing the child he kidnapped as a baby and held hostage his entire life, and when we see him in prison he is not only chilling out and helping the authorities but reading a newspaper?)

did i mention the part where by the time we meet pericles he hasn't spoken in years?

like. man the 'ooooo scary evil abused asylum crazies' trope is bad enough, even when they pretend to lampshade it for a minute before playing it straight; i don't know how they added in All That and made him emaciated and expected no one to find it heartbreaking or even sympathetic. i don't care how bad he was before the asylum (and dear god was he ever), that is horrifying and no one deserves it. god damn.

#sdmi #professor pericles #scooby doo: mystery incorporated #the worldbuilding re: the talking animals in this universe is already really fucked up and awful #but everything to do with the asylum is one of the biggest things for me that shoves it over the edge from #'this aspect of the show is really disasteful and uncomfortable and i Don't Like It' #to 'wow this is actually really fucking upsetting i am straight up having to skip past scenes and/or take breaks when a detail comes up' #anyway pericles is a colossal piece of shit and also incredibly fucking tragic and i need more content that acknowledges and goes into that #and also due to Recent and Ongoing Life Experiences i am especially pissed these days about #'character loses a ton of weight and looks Haggard compared to before; because of that and in general' being associated with Evil Scary #especially when it's done to them in some way as *punishment* for being Evil #same energy as how badly it fucked me up as a kid to grow up constantly seeing #'villain has a horrifying spiraling mental breakdown because they're Pathetic and Evil' #in every fucking piece of media i engaged with! #anyway lol #the crit files #SDMItag #cws in post

[neurotypical-sonic]

once again thinking about how in the sonic movies green hills has around the same population as the town I grew up in

once again thinking about sonic wachowski having grown up with this idealised veiw of the town just from obversation and projection/maladaptive daydreaming

once again thinking about sonic actually starting to interact with the town and it's people and having his eyes opened

#like. i love fics where he's a beloved and accepted member of the town and goes to school etc etc I like to see him happy #however. they are so hard to read. are you kidding me. any media that romanticises small country towns I cant sit through it makes me so #uncomfortable #sorry if im using words wrong or whatever im incredibly mentally unstable rn #but yeah. ALSO THE FACT THAT GREEN HILLS /LOOKS/ PRETTY. listen #pretty small country towns are the worst of them all. run #egg.txt

[zappedbywho]

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#Diary #So here’s something I remember DEVASTING me for some #I was at the playground with my step sibling. and we were playing this game where we would swing and point out the smaller kids like ‘Thats #my kid’. Choosing babies basically and not much else. And this one girl was getting teased so we invited her over and she sat in my step #siblings’s lap while they swung. Well this girl chats like the 5 year old she was and I stumbled over my words or something and my step #sibling laughs at me hysterically. That hurt my feelings but I remember thinking that I wanted to be more thick skinned than I was when I #was the girl’s age so I just pushed it back and kept swinging. My step sibling had to #pee or something. so it was just me and this girl. I wasn’t as chatty as my sibling but when the girl slipped off the swing and couldn’t #Get back on. I asked her if she wanted me to help her get back on. and she was like ‘My mom doesn’t let me talk to strangers’ #Of course this confused me. because we just met and I am also a child? #She looked. like. uncomfortable near me or something and I just felt so weird in my body #Cause like. I know I’m chubby and taller than other girls but am I really scary like an older boy? #My sibling was an average size and a little malnourished and I was already incredibly insecure about our differences #Like I was wearing knee shorts and a t shirt to swim in the lake and they were wearing a girl’s bikini lol #Then this little kid gets right back on their lap when they got back and I was like ‘😬’ trying not to cry and just walked away to sit by #myself. Now there’s a picture of my clueless father sitting next to me when I’m like ‘Oh ‘extremely high kid voice crack’ sure you can sit #next to me dad😃 Please drown Em in the lake for me because I hate them and that people like them better’ from behind. #This was a pretty regular experience for kids but I was a little off and even kids sense these things lol

[aurosoul]

Game Developers Conference (GDC) day 1!!!!!

it’s been crazy!!!! this isn’t even nearly all of it, either. I’m sharing holograms with tons of people and am meeting insane engineers who are developing crazy things like AI that can generate matter?!? the future is looking like it’s gonna get Weird.

honorable day 1 mention, this lil guy who was with Niantic:

#incessant meowing #picture journal #gdc #game developers conference #me #there’s also ALL GENDER RESTROOMS at the conference center #this has done so fucking much to alleviate my anxiety #gendered public restrooms are the only place that i’m uncomfortable being trans #and this is my first time encountering all gender ones in the wild #which is incredible at an event as huge as this #there are thousands of people here #anyways i’m having a fucking blast #look forward to more stuff soon!!!!

[cerbreus]

Gonna have to wait for her to post the final pics she took, so just some screenshots of the vid she posted but!!!!! my first sleeve is finished today!!!! ♥ it turned out amazing, I'm soooo fucking stoked ❤💕

#already got the second sleeve all set up for this fall too x) #i think. if ic an get everything done by her from here on i will LOVE to like. if she can do my chest piece i'd be pretty stoked too #genuinely this turned out incredible i'm so so so happy #also lmfao it feels strange to call it a full sleeve bc it kind of is? but it's kind of a half sleeve? x'D #i'll prob get the underside filled in eventually #but i love the negative space rn! and also! this required like. no contorting or uncomfortable positions so that was nice #ahhhh dude i love getting tattoos #my stuff #everyone should get tattoos but like definitely just spend some time looking at portfolios first

[astrumamasia]

why cant people just hire neurodivergent/disabled actors to play neurodivergent/disabled characters please and thanks

#this is about #the sound of metal #its an incredible film i wont discount that #but W H Y not CAST an actual deaf person for the lead?? why #also with lou! #there are so many actors out there with scars #i am not deaf but i DO have very visible self-harm scars #and yea it makes me kinda uncomfortable to see fake self harm scars done with fx makeup so you can #portray a character with scars without just casting someone who looks like the person you need them to look like?? #just sick of it tbh #self harm tw #self harm mention #mental illness #miscasting #disability #neurodivergence

[maretriarch]

getting a nicely tailored thick fancy coat has immediately me worse and more pretentious by like at LEAST 300% percent like i really do feel like a walking sherlock gifset i hate myself

#now i need some dressy nice looking yet also somehow comfortable n retail friendly work shoes. also maybe a nice pair of slacks #and as nice as a cute scarf would look w my coat and turtleneck combo thats like. way too sherlock also scarves r so incredibly #inconvenient and uncomfortable for anything other than walking outside to and from places #a nice pair of winter leather gloves are also a no go for this reason as well as i REALLY do not want to be the Leather Gloves Wearer Guy

[francisforever2014]

i hate when people comment on my body like even though it’s in a positive way and i’m grateful for that it makes me so uncomfortable when people are like omg you’re so skinny or whatever like thanks it’s the extreme lack of appetite due to mental illness 👍

#i’ll delete this in a min so tmi warning but like #this break when i went back home i had literally lost so much weight bc i was barely eating #and my best friend was the only one who commented on it in a like .. worried way #which in grateful for btw like he knows i need to check in sometimes #*im #and it’s the only thing that made me realize it’s like a serious problem #but another person who’s like a family friend was like wowww you look so good thank god you avoided the freshman 15 or whatever #when i was like . incredibly unhealthy #and my mom commented on it in more of a neutral way so like whatever #and today at work i was talking with this girl and she was just like talking about how i look which she weirdly does all the time #and she was like you should be a model or whatever you’re so tall and skinny #which like . i know that’s a compliment so i’m really not mad or anything #it’s just uncomfortable to be like haha thanks . like it’s not a extreme problem for me #she was also doing it in like a self deprecating way you know so it’s just so awkward #it’s happened so many other times too like can we just not talk about it . please #tw ed

[caracello]

WHAT I KNOW abt warm walter from his one conversation besides the fact that his name is fucking awesome is that he can offer therapy and his go to petname (while working) is 'honey'. which doesnt realy help me in terms of his actual personality but literally i will take WHATEVER scraps i can get. im pretty deadset on his personality being different bc hes essentially marketing himself as like a Perfect Big Spoon and while He Is a good part of the nonphysical stuff is probably something he workshopped to appeal to the most people. the fact abt his go to petname also doesnt help at all in terms of figuring out personality but it does help Me , in Being Gay

#hes also dressed in like. disheveled business attire ? which to me is also a like marketing thing #tho um .business clothes are uncomfortable as hell to cuddle in but whatever it does make him incredibly hot #in my mind i think hes particular abt how he looks in his off time tho. like his hair seems ehm. coiffed? is that the word? #it feels like its very carefully arranged to look Almost Messy #i dont think hed go full suit or anything in his off time #but i think like a neat buttonup. or even more casual just Neat #crushposting #Im workshopping here dotn even worry about it. its here or subject my polycule to it and mostof them are busy rn

[unopenablebox]

how is it possible that there aren’t just like. comfortable cafés with adequate seating in cambridge

#tatte is incredibly crowded and the seating is actually ridiculously uncomfortable #everywhere else is also uncomfortable and the food is bad #it looks like whoever runs lifealive knows about cushions at least but the nearest one is by work and i simply can't face up to #going back there at this hour on a sunday #is there really no one interested in selling me an adequate chai latte that i can drink in a chair that doesn't hurt? #it seems difficult to believe. and yet. #box opener

[patrice-bergerons]

I love writing comedy and h/c fic based on misunderstandings except every time I do one part of me thinks surely this plot is too contrived, who in rl acts like this?

But the answer is me. I act like that.

Case in point is today- where I met up with a friend who is going thru something heavy and quickly realised his prime coping mechanism is walking. I'm the same way, except I somehow injured my foot where it currently hurts to walk.

But! Naturally I was like yes let's walk for a bit and by the time I was in enough pain to put a stop to it, we had already walked 5k steps at which point I realised if I told him now he will feel terrible at having made me walk this far. So what did I do? I just walked. And walked. Friends I'm literally at 30k steps rn - I never walked more in my life and this on a day when I had resolved to take it easy so my poor foot gets to recover ☠️☠️☠️

#me watching exeunt: why would e morse attend [redacted event] if he is clearly injured and probs bleeding internally? #me today: ha. haha yeah. i get it now #but it's like- if it helps my friend and im not keeling over on the street- then why shouldn't i suck it up for a bit ya know? #also tb to that time when i thought i was just meeting up a (different friend) #for the evening and she thought i was staying over at her place #and i did not realise this even when she gave me pjs and told me to change bc m6 outfit looked uncomfortable #i was literally like this is a bit weird but ya this binder *is* rather uncomfortable #it took us 3.5 hours in total to realisw #incredible truly

[zemnarihah]

i've been having. gender issues i must say

#i think like in a different and much more progressive world i would like almost certainly id as nonbinary in some way but like #idk i do think i have dysphoria esp w my chest lately but i don't think it's to the level that my life would be improved by like #going by different pronouns and coming out w a different gender label and stuff #bc it's just so incredibly inconvenient and like especially in my area ppl would either not take me serious or like be straight up hateful #i also think i'm not like. NOT a woman like i've lived as a woman my whole life i don't think i'll ever see myself as like divorced from tha #but it's just. still not quite right yk #like i feel pretty uncomfortable w most traditional femininity but i feel COMPLETELY uncomfortable w almost all masculinity so it's like. #idk #not cis or trans but another secret third thing yk #i mean at the end of the day there's not rlly any point in doing anything abt it and i think i have had lapses like this before and have had #times where i think i was fairly comfortable w being a woman and w my body (relatively) so maybe it's just smth that will come and go u know #i just wish i was like 50% more androgynous looking and like. didn't have tits. and could go by a pronoun that like isn't she/he or they #but is also very normal and commonly understood that nobody will be weird or confused abt #so. idk #like now that i think abt it there's no pronoun that i actually feel good abt ppl using for me. but i think that might also be bc i feel #uncomfortable w the idea of people even talking abt me at all #i think i'm starting to understand people who use it/it's lol #i mean before i never liked judged them or anything like i always use peoples correct pronouns but i was always like huh idk why someone #would want that #and now i like. see the appeal. kind of divorced from gender and identity in general. it's nice

[elytrafemme]

i wonder if it’s strange, but something i find so fascinating to study is corruption in authority & moral conundrums in law. like i was talking to my brother and father about this but the reason that i want to go into law is because i’m fascinated with the concept and eternal question of what prompts you to defend a guilty person (especially tied with the question of does defending a guilty person defend more people than just that person?) and like. i really love studying corrupt governments not because it depresses me but because i find hope in figuring out where the root of that corruption is and how we as people can work to lessen it. 

i guess it’s less strange when i write it out but i dunno. these things don’t depress me or fill me with existential fear. i find them really exciting actually.

#nightmare.personal #i think one of the best things w the legal point is examining amendment 4 #because there's so much there in the guidelines of searches & seizures #that are just. really really really interesting #also the sex offender registry and the abuse of it. which is significantly more uncomfortable for me to think about #for personal reasons inherent to. you know. but it's just. interesting to look at #how every person is deserving of rights and how we oh so frequently toe the line where we begin to take it away from people #actually within that. do we deserve rights or do we just. need rights. like where is the delineation #because deserving implies that there's a point where you couldn't deserve it #and that's why things are so shaky . why people are treated inhumanely #i don't know. very interesting to me. #can never decide if i want to become a psychologist or go into constitutional law but i guess i'll find out through college #psychology is interesting too because the psychiatric field has so many flaws within it #i would love to research to reduce stigmatization and dehumanization of people w psychiatric disorders #would also love to just. be a therapist and see people and help them out or offering a listening ear and all of that #at the same time i want to do constitutional law because there's so many fascinating moral questions as i just said #but also being a journalist would be interesting but i guess that kind of slots with law as #somethhing i'll do on the side for probably the rest of my life #isn't the future so incredibly wonderful to think about? like it's scary because so much can go wrong #but this is my life. figuring out where my life goes is just. it's so interesting

[i-am-a-whimsy-boy]

I got this submission and for some reason, tumblr won’t let me post it, but I am LOSING MY FREAKING MIND

#murdoch mysteries #george crabtree #fabrice luchini #submission #THIS MAKES ME INCREDIBLY UNCOMFORTABLE AND I CAN'T QUITE ARTICULATE WHY #HE LOOKS MORE LIKE JONNY HARRIS THAN JONNY HARRIS DOES #I THOUGHT IT WAS A REALLY GOOD EDIT FOR A HOT SECOND #BUT NO #THAT IS IN FACT A WHOLE ENTIRE OTHER PERSON WHO LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE JONNY HARRIS #I NEED TO LIE DOWN #also idk what's going on with tumblr and why it won't let me post this submission #it might be cursed #but I felt that you needed to see it

[theoretically-questionable]

like. cards on the table: at first, i thought, hey, maybe the framing and recounting of the predstrogen situation is (understandably) biased because this seems really fucking weird, even for tumblr.

but, for real, it does just look like a series of repeated mass-reports drew staff attention to her and inevitably got her accounts flattened for entirely normal edge-case posting.

like, repeatedly, mass-reports happened, she'd appeal and get it reversed, and then it'd happen again, until finally it stuck. oh boy, did it stick! permanent lifetime ban.

the "death threats" that got her banned were cartoon-violence grumblings (responding to getting stung by bad-faith mass reporting) and the "harassment" seems to have just been pointing out specific user accounts that were needling her or outright harassing her. neither are against rules unless you're taking a bizarrely bad-faith reading of things.

and of course, all of this was her direct response to repeatedly being falsely reported and having to wade through the drawn-out, unresponsive appeals process while far worse content and accounts remained untouched, despite being reported.

also there was the whole "incredibly obvious and malicious rape/pedo-jacketing mass-anon disinfo campaign" run against her.

deeply uncomfortable that the CEO of tumblr took to posting about the mean anon threats he was getting about the situation, but didn't say a peep about the *genuinely malicious* threats and harassment predstrogen was getting. like. that's not worth a quick callout, lil buddy? you can't see why people are pissed?

anyhow. car hammers, or whatever.

#predstrogen #avewy #photomatt