#and david and gillian are talking about playing m & s and gillian is convincingly lying that she intended to dye her hair red lol

[myassbrokethefall]

Folks, I ordered the S10 blu-rays while I was preordering the S11 ones, and I’m watching the making-of docs and I am

IN A GLASS CASE OF EMOTION

#xf revival #xf revival extras #remember the summer of 2015??????? #they're shooting on the street and there are a bazillion people taking pictures #and i'm like 'wow look at these assholes' and then i'm also like REMEMBER WHEN I SAW THESE VERY PICTURES #AND IT WAS THE MOST EXCITING DAY AND I CAME ALIVE AND IT WAS SO WONDERFUL #and joel mchale is there #and everyone's excited and happy and I'M excited and happy #but then also i dislike the struggles so very much and i'm so upset about so many of the things in them #but i like watching them make it so MUCHHHH #and they're BUILDING THE UNREMARKABLE HOUSE #but also talking about how SCULLY DOESN'T LIVE THERE #and i remember the moment i found out about the breakup and the acute disbelief and disappointment of that precise moment #which happened while i was watching a production of newsies and received a text from my friend #there is a picture of us afterwards in the lobby and i'm smiling and when i see it all i can think is #'i just found out mulder and scully were broken up and my tv life will never be the same from this moment on' #and yet LOOK AT THE UNREMARKABLE HOUSE THEY'RE BUILDING IT IT'S MY FRIEND #and david and gillian are talking about playing m & s and gillian is convincingly lying that she intended to dye her hair red lol #and chris is getting TEARY at the first read-through of the script and i'm like CHRIS I'M SORRY FOR EVERYTHING I LOVE YOU #but then i'm like 'this script was my struggle though why couldn't it just have been betterrrrrrrrr' #and david's all 'yes this monologue is very LONG and uh makes no sense haha' and i'm like FIX IT GUYS YOU HAVE TIME #did i mention i'm in a glass case of emotion #guys no one should be this emotional over a tv show #how did this become my life #i actually thought i was done being super emotional over xf...lol guess there's still a little gas in the tank