#and do homework in like half an hour?

[horizon-penblade]

#i have like. a few hours left to do this. more if i let myself work on it on sunday #i have already drawn the bonus image version #but if i use the tee for one of the costumes that's actually required for class it *might* save a bit of time/creative energy lol #if you don't get the context check the post i reblogged before this lol #my costume history homework is designing costumes for two predecided characters (i picked ham and oph) in like 12 different time periods #and ever since we got into the latter half of the 20th century it's been a bit tougher to plan #because like. I absolutely hate when modern shakespeare adaptations put every character whose involved in politics in a business suit #but for the last few time periods (now decades basically) I thought I had to do it and then I was like 'wait no that's dumb' #so now i am just ignoring that aspect of the plot. he spent a nonzero amount of time on the run with pirates he can wear a t-shirt

[made-nondescript]

JIMMY LITERALLY KISSED FWHIP WHERE ARE YOU

IM IN FUCKING CLASS ARE YOU SERIOUS ????? ARE YOU FUCKING FOR REAL

#I WONT BE HOME FOR LIKE ANOTHER HOUR #........... #do i stay on campus another half horu to wathc this #head in my hands #ohhhh mygod #OF ALL EPSIDOES I SKIP TO DO HOMEWORK #nondescript ask #anonymous

[bitegore]

god i really forgot that every business management professor specifically is the most unpleasant human being alive for no good reason. i have two business classes with like econ and accounting professors respectively and those look fine and then oh my god if i have to go back to this class with this professor i think i might actually kill myself

#red rambles #she's not. *mean*. she is. um. fucking. i think condescendiing is the word #she made us do a kahoot in class on questions we didn't know explicitly because she knew we didn't know them. i hate kahoots #she went through the syllabus like we were children which. fine whatever every professor does that it's why i hate the first class #but she also kept going off topic to give us life advice. never give me life advice ill fucking kill you #im really not sure what else was my fucking problem but i genuinely felt like i was being psychologically tortured #also i have done one of the several assignments for the class already and they're babyshit but its going to be one of my most #busywork heavy classes and she wants us doing discussion questions every fucking week #and i have to download yet another fucking app for her class #and i need it for my degree plan but oh my GOD. i need to get the fuck out of it #im gonna try and find a different session of the class taught by a different professor and switch in #do you know how much i have to hate a class if im willing to eat two entire finished homework assignments to get out of it #eta. i take it with this professor or i take it with a different professor i know and already know i cant stand #who is also going to work us like dogs unlike this prof who is going to apparently treat us like we are 14 years old #i guess its not college if i'm not being forced to experience psychological torment for an hour and a half every couple days lol #ill just have to like eat something before that class and do my best to fortify myself before i go in and turn evil

[reneeub]

The Greek gods really went off with punishing Sisyphus huh

Like we all get that pushing that boulder uphill over and over is a hard job and also gets boring pretty quickly but it's cruel in a more complicated way than that

It's the growing frustration with failing the one simple task you've been doing for so long.

It's getting angry at yourself, why can't you learn anything from from what you just did.

It's always second guessing yourself if the problem is you, are you the reason you fail every time?

It's the loneliness when you have no one to ask even for smallest hints to make your work easier

It's seeing the boulder down the hill again and wondering if there is any end to this or is it just like that forever?

#greek mythology #sisyphus #sorrry i get tons of homework every week and have no energy to do them and when i try they take me hours for some reason and when i finally #do half of them it's the deadline already and next day i have another ton of them to do and cant finish the first pile #and then its exam wednesday and i didnt even study bc i feel like i spend my whole time over this homework so i know what it looks like and #i cant even look at the text book bc just looking at it makes me feel bad and guess how the exam goes... #its been two months i thought it would get easier by now but its the same #and it propably will be the same for the next two months until the semester ends and then for the next few years until i graduate #and knowing life after uni there will probably come another task that's exhausting in this way #the grind never stops

[cinnamon-phrog]

Just saw the break time I'm getting to have when I go to college this shit unreal /pos

#TWO AND A HALF HOURS OF DOING FUCK ALL!!!! I LOVE THAT!!!!!!! #at first i thought i was gonna do seven straight hours 10am-4pm on a Thursday but nah #and on a wednesday when it starts it's SO short like under four hours i think?? #fridays too and then i have a four day weekend doing art homework [homewotrk is so much easier because i can relax with music on my own] #🗨🐸

[arthur-r]

as usual i am up late into the night planning my future when i should be: getting a good nights sleep so that i even have a future!!

#i have work in seven and a half hours. so i should really be getting to bed #BUT i officially made my final definitive degree plan!!!! i mean not the actual classes but all the requirements i have to meet and how!! #(in order to earn: history and information science double major. with certificates in material culture and classics) #and i’m genuinely excited for every single class i have to take except for human-computer interaction #just cause i know it’s gonna get overly technical in ways that won’t quite apply to my future #anyway every single other thing i’m gonna do is very cool and exciting. so everything is good really #but i should be sleeping. and i’m not. as usual 🤧 #idk wish me luck!!!! i’m so hyped about my degree plan though #i’ll go into more detail another time. i’m very excited #ANYWAY goodnight!!!! can’t be so busy planning my future in library science that i DONT GO TO MY SHELVING JOB #kind of important to actually go to work for the library that employs me…. #and then i might go see a first-printing roget’s thesaurus!!!! or i’ll sleep. we’ll see #followed by lunch with GUY WHO IS THE WORST KILL HIM WITH HAMMERS #(there is nothing really wrong with me he just keeps kind of being mean to me and also expecting me to fall in love with him. but like #extremely passively and not manipulatively it’s just like. hey buddy you’re doing this friendship wrong….) #anyway then i have a class and after that i have an hour to rest. and then a phone call and then a lot of homework #(ten page paper draft due in a week and a half!! so it’s time to start writing the actual body of it) #and then i sleep for a LONG time and then work again on saturday. and then sleepover with somebody i have a crush on?? #and then be normal all day on sunday and do a little more paper writing. and programming homework. and whatever else #and then keep up with the slog for three weeks!!!! and all of a sudden it’s summer!!!! #projects left this year: material culture paper (entirely unstarted. but may research the thesaurus and just win!!!!) #history project (draft due the monday after next and real paper due a week after classes end) #one more programming assignment where i adapt my recipe doubler project (probably. it’s getting stupid at this point but it’s what i got!!) #and a programming test in two weeks and then the final a week after that. then no more programming #and then i just have my weekly latin tests and a latin final on may 5th. and then EVERYTHING IS DONE #ok i got this. sorry for walking through my schedule in the tags it’s how i remember what’s real #can’t believe my fucking partner just kind of walked out on me there hello???? like. we should be powering through finals together #but i’m genuinely better off without him so i guess it’s just whatever. trash took itself out or something?? #anyway. i’m so regular. and i have work in the morning. and i’m going to sleep #thank you world. goodnight

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else

#i have to sleep a lot. i’m at the point where functioning requires 8 hours of sleep if not more #I should probably be getting 10+ but i’m a student and i work so 8 is the minimum. but then also getting ready for bed is a whole process s #the whole thing can take 10-12 hours depending how much im sleeping. just to make sure i can do anything #that is time in my day i cannot use for anything else. it’s not ‘oh but i can push through it’ because i can’t without spending the next da #lightheaded and nauseous and vaguely dizzy and with such intense brain fog I can’t think with my fatigue so bad i genuinely don’t know how #get myself to work a lot of days. my abled peers don’t have to deal with this at all. they have unlimited study time if they want to #and yeah it is a choice i’m making that’s true i could just not do. except i would lose my job and fail out of college because i would not #be able to get to classes or do my homework or think. but being told ‘but you are making choices about your life’ when i have lost so much #of what i used to be able to do because i am spiralling down and continuing to get worse is so. #literally last year i would wake up at 6:30 and then go to school till 3 and then go to my internship until 10 and get home at 11 and be in #bed anywhere from midnight to two in the morning and then wake up the next day and do it all again. i graduated with a 3.9 gpa and made it #into my top college while dealing with my cancer symptoms and then the two surgeries about it #but now i lose half my day to just making sure i can get out of bed. i can’t go anywhere because my body is physically too exhausted #any extra time goes into doing homework or occasionally time to myself #not decimating my health by doing minimum body care responsibilities isn’t freeing. occasionally i have a good day which is freeing but tha #usually goes into just. other things outside class or work or eating. I don’t go do something for myself or go do something fun on good day #because I still can’t. good days just mean i don’t want to lie down on the pavement when i’m going somewhere #I just. I don’t magically have control over my life because i try to get enough sleep. i lose half my day to doing that and ultimately it’s #just a bodily function that would have to happen anyway #this is a vent post im just having a really hard time right now because it feels like im in exponential decline. it was nowhere near this #bad last semester. my grades are tanking and i have no free time because anything outside of sleep is either work or school #vent tw #yall can rb this just ignore my tags completely #disability #chronically ill #i keep trying to explain to people how pots works because that’s all logical but there’s no way to explain what it’s doing to my body or ho #i feel all the time. the last time i felt this bad was when i had a bad flu or immediately after surgeries because i don’t react well to #anesthesia and always come out of them feeling like shit. and now i just feel like this all the time and it’s only getting worse #I can’t even stay up late anymore because my body feels like it isn’t counting the sleep even if I get 8 hours #I can deal if I have a free day the day after but that just leaves Friday and Saturday nights and I usually still have to do homework

[charmcoin]

a little over halfway thru the goal i set myself for history today 💪 taking a dinner break and then starting physics

#pers #i think i'm gonna start catching up on homework before i start doing practice problems since the final is cumulative #i need to do that extra credit too blehhhhh #tuna mac for dinner. YUM #i'm gonna do physics for like an hour and then come back and do the rest of the history #bc the first half only took like an hour

[tarantula-hawk-wasp]

Wayy to much unstructured time this semester it is already making me spiral

#I hate graduate school for the one day a week seminar classes that are 3 hours long and expect you to do a bunch of homework over the 6 days #they’re not meeting and like I hate independent research I hate trying to manage that time #I already feel like I’m rotting this semester just wasting half the day trying to get myself to work but also not letting myself do fun stuf

[whoa-where-did-the-pancakes-go]

What if I just don't sleep. What then.

#it is 11:01 and i just finished taking a shower that was supposed to have been taken at 9:30 #look. unless someone (steve usually) forces me to go to bed i will not despite knowing i will be complaining the entire day #“im soooi tiiiiired” well maybe its cause you only slept 6 hours you fucking microwave oven #ik its recommended for teens to get about 10 hours of sleep but if the school system wanted me to be healthy they should not make an entire- #-essay due in three days and maybe consider letting kids have more than 10 days absent or even not starting the day at 8 am what about that #huh??? huh??? wisconsin school system i have a complaint to make #see i get 6 hours of sleep. 7 hours at school. that leaves me 11 hours for personal stuff and a good four of those are spent eating and- #-doing chores and talking to family etc etc. so i get about 7 hours to myself add in showering homework and laying on the floor sobbing #and ive got like 5 and a half hours of free time so excuse me if i like to. yk. do thingsand maybe im not getting the recommended 10 hours #- of sleep. #im regan thank you for coming to my speech i wrote it in 10 minutes it is now 11:12 goodnight of youre going to bed if not? #join me in being a fucking goddamn disaster all the time :)

[purple-is-great]

I have a lot of shit to do but the most urgent is to watch a video of a presentation i did today and write some self assessment, and oh god i really really don't want to do this

I know that once i do it it'll be over (except that i'm supposed to watch it at least twice), but i hate thinking and writing about myself and i hate hearing my own voice recorded

#oh god oh god #i did get all the coding homework done that's due by monday #i've got some left that has almost two weeks to do #but next week i've got so much shit to do #some of it fun some more serious #and i'm also doing fun stuff this saturday #and expect to be very hungover sunday #so i really gotta do this today #so i can spend friday preparing my slideshow for the study session i'm leading on tuesday #or like. i'm trying to summarise half a course in two hours #with room left for questions

[rindomness]

okay so having reviewed... most? of the spamton sweepstakes lore stuff since i missed most of it cause i was busy at the time ive concluded that some people need to remember that deltarune ch 1 was released as a .exe file called “survey program” downloaded off of an objectively kind of sketchy site after a series of cryptic tweets and no other fanfare or warning. so idk why im seeing people surprised hed release important lore information through some weird arg-adjacent-slash-auction event. this is pretty standard par for the course toby fox behavior actually

#im catching up from the weekend #cause i was either sleeping or doing homework p much the whole time #thanks to quill showing me some of the actual pages i didnt get to see them i still dont 100% know how to get to them #if theyre still up? idk what the situation is there #im half asleep so this probably. doesnt make much sense #but like. at this point. if you are surprised/shocked by toby fox doing weird shit with deltarune meta #where have you been the last four years #i found out about deltarune bc my ex kept showing me the tweets and then a very frantic text the night it dropped #for the first hour of gameplay i wasnt sure what the fuck was happening and that any minute now it would just stop and be revealed as some #odd ruse #only to discover it would qualify as a wholeass game even w/o the promise of a ch 2 #for free legally just there on the internet for all to find #i was not completely sure it was not going to be a virus until i got a thumbsup from my ex cause my antivirus flagged it #like would have missed this w/o that text #anyway im going to sleep now but like #man. every time toby does something theres going to be some group of people baffled #BAFFLED that he would reveal information in this fashion

[emkini]

Today I have had literally all the ugliest parts of my depression ripped out and thrown back in my face, 0/10 experience I want to die now and I am falling just barely short of meaning that literally 

#and I mean the really ugly parts. the ones that are toxic and awful and vicious #didn't do my homework because I was tired and lazy #got in a fight with my mom over it just because I was so angry and upset I wanted to hurt someone #self-harmed after forcing myself to hang up because hey we're already deep in it now #finally finished apologizing for that and was starting to feel a little better #then had a rancher friend look at me with the Deepest disappointment and mockery when I told her I was having too much anxiety to ride #cried in the bathroom for about half an hour after that #ultimately solved absolutely nothing except making my parents feel sorry for me #like what the hell. what a day #nevermind em

[vulpinesaint]

in other news i get two weeks of summer break!!! :D i thought my summer classes were going to just lead me straight into school again but i do actually get some breathing room before it all starts up once more :D

#can't WAIT to be back in french class i'm gonna have so much fun #and like! ten thousand english classes!!!! everybody say yayyyyyy!!!! #gonna see what i'm taking rn actually. chronicle it #taking literary theory + criticism ; us literature 1 ; folklore and mythology ; sacred texts ; nd emerging lit in global context #on the waitlist for the emerging lit one. but i am first on the waitlist so. it's practically my class already #absolutely no doubt that someone will drop if i'm not just allowed to crash #even if i don't get it it's no big deal though honestly! it would be my only tuesday/thursday class so i wouldn't have to be on campus... #spending five days a week on campus is pretty silly. i got through it last semester but it'd be nice not to have that #nd i'm at 18 units with that class so if i don't take it i'll be back down to 15 which is totally reasonable #bracken's favorite hobby is actually being completely insane with his school + work schedule #18 units and i'm still like 'yeah i wanna work 20 hours though' #you have clinical issues. shut up. #anyway hopefully i'll be able to work 20 hours a week on top of this sdkfjghdsf #if monica gives me morning shifts! i can do that easy peasy (afternoon shifts are 5 hours instead of 3 and a half now. kiss kiss) #so two + a half afternoon shifts a week and a couple morning shifts... we're so set #'bracken when will you have time to do homework' that's a problem for me to solve by just not having free time <3 #one of my classes is asynchronous so. ha. haha. i'm sure i'll have appropriate amounts of time to do work. #mondays + wednesdays i have class straight from 1:30 to 7 but it's FINE! it's FINE! #i'm sure i will be very reasonable about it #i got through my three hour 5-8 film lecture last semester. so i can do anything #would i prefer morning classes? oh absolutely. but having the morning for homework will still be good for me #so excited to be back in school i love school so much #( <— has been in school this whole time w/ summer classes ) #OH MY GOD I WAS GONNA SAY THOUGH. I'M SO FUCKING EXCITED TO TAKE FOLKLORE AND MYTHOLOGY #anyway #valentine notes

[dreamertrilogys]

oh my god so my friend is taking GLE (essentially a spare but you get a credit for it) right. and he has to read a book and answer some questions on it (which he’s gonna use sparksnotes for). and i asked them what book it was (like just out of curiosity. i was expecting some random book i’d never heard of & that i’d forget the name of in 3 seconds). and NOTHING could’ve prepared me for when he pulled THE FUCKING RAVEN BOYS out of their backpack. like.

#i was telling layla how i could probably do all of their homework within half an hour and do it better than if he’d not only read the book #but spent hours answering questions and layla was like you literally have a phd in trcology…. #.txt

[upside-down-theater-kid]

*inhales* I WILL NOT GET NOSTALGIC FOR THE 2020-2021 OR THE 2021-2022 SCHOOL YEARS I WILL NOT GET NOSTALGIC FOR THE 2020-2021 OR THE 2021-2022 SCHOOL YEARS I WILL NOT GET NOSTALGIC FOR THE 2020-2021 OR THE 2021-2022 SCHOOL YEARS I WILL NOT GET NOSTALGIC FOR THE 2020-2021 OR THE 2021-2022 SCHOOL YEARS I WILL NOT GET NOSTALGIC FOR THE 2020-2021 OR THE 2021-2022 SCHOOL YEARS I WILL NOT GET NOSTALGIC FOR THE 2020-2021 OR THE 2021-2022 SCHOOL YEARS I WILL NOT GET NOSTALGIC FOR THE 2020-2021 OR THE 2021-2022 SCHOOL YEARS I WILL NOT GET NOSTALGIC FOR THE 2020-2021 OR THE 2021-2022 SCHOOL YEARS

#anyways has a conversation with a friend that made me romanticize those times for a few minutes #but i can't #like those years were objectively bad #maybe not as bad for my self-esteem or mental health as the current school year is #but still objectively worse #rose-colored glasses are all fun and games until you're sad #did i learn nothing from those sad nights in my later elementary school years when i cried from missing kindergarten and first grade? #apparently not #i need to do homework and i should have been in bed half an hour ago #whoops #chaotic ramblings from me