#and have to calm myself down

[lumi-nesnce]

some ellabs stuff *runs away*

#ellabs #i kept having to calm myself down making these #what’s the yuri equivalent of fujoshing out #ellie williams #abby anderson #ellie tlou #abby tlou #tlou2

[jemmo]

i need to go and huddle in 5 layers of blanket and not be human for a while bc that was quite possibly one of the most beautiful and heart-breaking scenes in all of media history. from mohk describing his perfect last twilight for day to see, to day describing what he can see so mohk can close his eyes to see it too and that gorgeous light coming over both of them, and then when day turns to mohk, the final thing he wants to see, touches his mouth to see if he’s smiling bc he wants that smile to be the last thing he sees, but mohk just cannot bring himself to bc the hurt of it is too much, but it’s beautiful bc it is shared, the pain and unfairness and loss, after a moment so stunning and perfect, it hurts so much but it’s a hurt they are sharing, day is not alone in that moment, it both mourns and celebrates the beautiful in the world and the beauty between them and it’s just absolutely phenomenal. perfect.

#i have not sobbed like that for a long long time #im talking sobbed so hard i had to calm myself down bc I couldn’t see through my glasses bc they were fogged up with my tears #last twilight

[n8nt]

based on true events

#subnautica #my art #this has been in my drafts for iver a year #i have a playlist thats full of happy yet fitting songs to listen to #to calm myself down in a tense moment #theres been many a time where ive gotten violently attacked to this song #ryley robinson

[getvalentined]

Getting back on my Zack Is Canonically Polyamorous soapbox because the people need to know and also the number of people accusing Aerith of being unfaithful in Rebirth is absolutely fucking ridiculous when taking Zack's romantic escapades into account.

There are spoilers here, and I'm tagging accordingly, but I'm not putting it under a cut.

We know for a fact that Zack is in a relationship with Aerith. We've known this since the OG, although we didn't know most of the details back then, just that they were together. In Remake, Aerith describes Zack as her "first love." In Chapter 11 of Rebirth, the first memories of Zack that Cloud reclaims are of him talking about how great Aerith is, and Cloud describes him as being "head over heels" for her. In Chapter 8, we found out that Zack's parents were able to recognize her based entirely on Zack gushing about her when he wrote home—and this is one of the most important parts, honestly.

Zack has a thing with Cissnei. We don't know how deep it is, but throughout Crisis Core (and even in the summer event in Ever Crisis) we can see very clearly that there is something between them, and it's never treated like a big deal. She's never completely honest about her feelings, so we can assume he didn't know that she saw him as anything more than a casual thing, but they have a relationship. It's made explicitly clear that this is the case when Zack returns to Gongaga and she lets him know that she's spoken to his parents, and he warns her that they're basically going to suggest that she marry him.

Zack's parents know about his relationship with Aerith and they also apparently know enough about his relationship with Cissnei to suggest that she make that relationship "official." They want her to join the family. They asked, she apparently reciprocated, and she lives in Gongaga after Veld is "killed."

Cissnei is also aware that Zack is in a relationship with Aerith, but that doesn't stop her from pursuing him anyway. She gets it and she's okay with it. She never, at any point, tries to push him away from Aerith—she's the one that tells him how special Aerith is, how important, how lonely. She's supportive of his relationship, and doesn't seem to feel that it makes her own feelings or their relationship any less valid.

Okay, so that's proof that the people around him are, at the very least, okay with him having multiple partners. That doesn't necessarily mean he's poly, though, maybe he's just a womanizer and everyone accepts it. Weird, but possible. He's really endearing so maybe they all give him a pass.

But no! No this isn't it at all! And we know it because of how Zack responds to Aerith being in love with someone else in Rebirth. When he finds out that Aerith is has feelings for Cloud, there's not a hint of jealousy in a single thing he does or says. He's disappointed when Marlene says it's because he wasn't there, but it's not disappointment in Aerith or in Cloud—it's disappointment in himself, because Marlene is right. He wasn't there. He couldn't protect her. There's also no spite there, he never responds like her feelings are wrong because he's here now and that means Aerith can rely on him again, and we know that because of how he responds to this information.

Zack finds out that Aerith has feelings for Cloud, and his immediate mission is to make sure that Cloud recovers as quickly as possible. Now it's not just for him, it's not just because that's his friend, it's because Aerith loves him (too) and that means he has to save Cloud for both of them.

He's fully supportive of Aerith and Cloud having a relationship, to the point that the last thing he says to Cloud when he gets thrown into a dying timeline is a request that he take care of Aerith. He's not exactly passing the torch here, because he's still alive—but he doesn't know if he'll be able to meet back up with a version of Cloud that is awake again, and he needs Cloud to know that he supports them in this.

And then, in the dying timeline where Zack is banished after fighting Sephiroth, he has the ability to synergize with Cloud from across the multiverse. The DMW limit break connected to Aerith is active in the space. All three of them are together here, just not physically; Cloud and Aerith are protecting Zack as much as Zack has been struggling to protect them.

Zack loves that Aerith loves someone other than him because that's how he is too. Zack has multiple relationships at the same time, he loves multiple people at the same time, he has emotionally intimate connections with multiple people at the same time. Why would he take issue with the love of his life feeling the same way?

Cloud isn't his replacement any more than Cissnei and Aerith are interchangeable, and Zack understands that, because Zack is polyamorous—and he's really happy that Aerith may be, too.

#ff7 rebirth spoilers #fandom ramble #ffvii #final fantasy vii #final fantasy 7 #final fantasy 7 rebirth #ff7rb #ff7r #crisis core #ccff7r #cissnei #zack fair #aerith gainsborough #cloud strife #not tagging ANY of those ships lol #I don't even really ship any of them myself tbh #except for a throuple involving z and a and cissnei #that's my preferred combination here #but the love is there regardless of my preferences #it's in the source material very clearly #also I do think zack has feelings for cloud #but I can't cite a specific point in-canon to indicate they have a RELATIONSHIP #and it's the CANONICAL RELATIONSHIPS that are the key here #polyamory isn't cheating y'all #nobody here was unfaithful to anyone else #calm the fuck down #100% sure on that

[larkoneironaut]

I had a dream that I was going on a ball and Solas was there, I tried to ignore him in like a shy or flirty way? And then that delicate, intimate touch when I was walking right past him … I’m never gonna forget that dream, I had to sketch it 😭

Pls ignore that Solas' scar is mirrored, I'm an idiot

#dragon age #bioware #my art #dai #dragon age inquisition #da4 #solavellan #? #I don't know if I was Lavellan tbh #I think I was just me #This is probably the closest thing to a self-portrait I'll ever draw haha #That dream was so intense my heart is RACING when I think about it #It was just so intimate #I had to calm down when I woke up like damn #He actually wore a glittering robe in Thranduil style but I'm exhausted and this was enough effort for a quick sketch 💀 #I was a bit lazy with this one but I had to stop myself from making a full painting out of this or like 4 - you know what I mean? #I would have burned myself out with this one 💀 #So have 4 sketches #I have to stop looking at them or else I'll find ten more mistakes that make my eye twitch #dread wolf #solas #fenharel

[little-cereal-draws]

NOBODY FUCKING TOLD ME IT PLAYS THE NIMONA SOUNDTRACK WHEN YOU LOOK AT THE ART BOOK

#i have 20 minutes until my next class so I thought I’d flip through it and now I’m crying #tears are in my eyes #I’m so rocking back and forth and pacing and taking ridiculously big breaths to try and calm myself down #I HAVE A PROJECT CRITIC I HAVE TO GO TO #I CANT BE CRYING OVER NIMONA DURING IT #(tho I did bring my nimona stuffy w me in my bag for moral support. it’s just one of those days) #nimona #nimona concept art #nimona art book

[loweyzverse]

better cr gets more and more appealing everyday 🙏

#me yapping #reality shifting #shiftblr #desired reality #shifting #scripting #i love all of my drs but also like some of them are lowkey kinda intimidating to think about actually living in #like some concepts are really cool but i have to slow down and remember that like i will be actually living through that #so maybe i should calm down for a second and adjust some of the script so i don’t traumatize myself when i shift

[solroskajan]

It’s fall. That means my favorite characters get to wear knitted scarves! 

#Drawing to calm myself down #sometimes all i need is copy paste and some colors to feel a little happier i guess #submas #pokemon ingo #pokemon emmet #next step would be to actually knit these scarves #as i always do #but i don't have any of the colors and i already have way too much yarn... #either way i love these two they are so fun and easy to draw like they're just shapes

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

AHHHHHH okay so i may or may not have just spontaneously bought tickets to see miles in london in february and i am SO EXCITED 🤩🤩

#i probably shouldn’t have bc i’m seeing him once already #and my bank balance is crying #but you know what #it’s been a really tough couple months and this is my ‘well done for getting through this 💗’ present to myself #and i absolutely cannot wait #it’s also going to be my first time actually visiting london which i’m so excited for #AND i get to see my best friend who’s just moved there #so many things to be happy (and a little nervous!) about #anyway now i need to try and calm down so i can go out and meet my friend without seeming like i’m actually high #I’M GOING TO SEE MILES AHHHHHHH #miles kane #omb era #lulu posts

[jils-things]

to love someone is to heal someone

#~ art #♥️ memoryshipping #ignore tags if youre just here for the art and not me going full diary mode #anyways ... this is a little personal to me #especially with how i treat her here. i think this is a direct projection of how i'm feeling right now #today has been a little harsh on me - maybe a little painful even #i'm okay now - because i resolved it. albeit harboring some bits of anger to it but its not worth fighting about anymore #its hard to say that i'm - very optimistic so to speak because it's only one pillar i just jumped over and there will be more later #and this is me coping with it and im lucky to have mustered some energy to at least express it through drawing #i havent been drawing much for myself and it makes me sad because its my source of happiness #my time for drawing is being repurposed for other stuff right now and it still is and i dont feel entirely happy doing it unfortunately #i still have many things i want to follow up on my drawing list especially in my recent interests peaking again #but i resorted for now to making something im already used to. stevaide lol fgsjsddsjjsdjkghsdjgdjkhskjghshsgsasjhjsjksdjfhsfasgs corny ass #rest assured im at a somewhat relaxed state right now. throwing boops here and there calmed me down because theres people around me #who ig thinks im cool eajdhajhd #ahh anyway

[act-more-like-a-dog-sirius]

HP Rants: Things Fandom Gets WRONG

The Dark Mark (tattoo)

where oh where is the reading comprehension??? did y’all really not read any of GoF??? not only does the minister of fucking magic not know about the Dark Mark tattoos, as snape has to explain and show it to him (which just ????? astounding incompetence from the ministry of goddamn magic and the wizarding world at large) but sirius literally says in response to the kiddos telling him that Karkaroff showed snape something on his arm, “'He showed Snape something on his arm?' said Sirius, looking frankly bewildered...'Well, I’ve no idea what that’s about." despite the fact that he KNOWS for a fact karkaroff was a death eater. (and his own goddamn brother was a death eater. And his family was super pro-voldemort).

The whole fucking point is that no one knew.

Otherwise it would have been obvious who was and who wasn’t death eaters, or at least, inner-circle death eaters. Sirius would not have gone to Azkaban. The Malfoys and literally every other free death eater would have.. but this didn’t happen because the wizarding world is complete shit at handling things and disseminating EXTREMELY IMPORTANT information.. that’s the whole fucking point.

#every time i see a fic say that regulus “took the mark” #or that sirius' parents wanted to make him “get the mark” #i want to scream in rage #and i immediately close the fic no questions asked #and then have to take at least 5 minutes of deep breaths to calm myself down and remind myself people are allowed to be wrong #i can be mature and let them be wrong #i am a mature adult and can let them be wrong #i don't need to start a fight because i am a mature adult and i can just let them be wrong it won't kill me #but seriously #why the FUCK is everyone so fucking wrong #ALL THE FUCKING TIME #WHERE or where is the fucking reading comprehension???? #salty hp rant #hp rant #hp meta #harry potter #sirius black #dark mark #salty hp takes #marauders #harry potter meta #i hate being the only correct person in this fandom #lmfao #god please help there is no reading comprehension in this fandom #it is so diseased and sick #marauders fandom #literally the fucking worst

[moeblob]

Can today be over yet

#fe engage #alcryst #im terrified and have to leave for an appointment in 20 mins #to the point that im not even driving myself bc i have to take extra antianxiety meds #to just calm down so i am NOT having a good day and i will not want to draw later so here #take a 20 minute or less alcryst and im done for the day bye

[codename-adler]

i wish we had a little more canon snippets of Andrew in class.

#i'm leading a seminar in class today and i #i asked myself 'what would Andrew do?' to help myself calm down #but i actually have no idea what he's doing @ uni #and neil is NOT a model to follow #andrew minyard #aftg #all for the game #the foxhole court

[copper-skulls]

Grillstertember: wartime

local dragon has to remind his guy after a long day to turn off his green before he manages to faint them both

#grillby #gaster #grillster #...with a tiny question mark. #grillstertember #smok signals related drawings #gaster blaster au #digital art #krita #fanart #undertale #I VERY did not mean to draw this today but I hfkajdhs needed to. draw to calm myself down whoops #full disclosure these two are evading me on the whole 'have you two DATED. this is IMPORTANT' front. fhaskj. #they're exes on extremely good terms they never dated they'd die for each other. you get me right. ..right. #I should've reblogged the writing i posted for smok signals today before this. in case anyone's up for a double whammy

[stop-breaking-my-heart-telltale]

if dorian didn't show up, do you think louis would have shot minnie?

I do. I know some people think either he wouldn't have or he would've missed so that's why the writers had him shoot Dorian instead, but mmmmmm no, I don't personally think so. I like to think that if he had taken the shot, his shaky hands would've caused him to shoot her fatally.

Mostly because I'm already so normal about the fact that of the Ericson crew, Marlon and Louis are the only ones with a body count. Well, that we know of, but shown to us in the game, at least. Plus, we know it's Louis' first kill.

Like yeah, Clementine and AJ become part of the crew and they have bigger body counts, and if we're counting indirect kills caused by actions, then Tenn has a count... and I guess everyone has blood on their hands for blowing up the boat... but I'm talking about killed directly with a weapon like....... I lied, I'm not normal about that at all, Louis and Marlon are the ones who have killed someone in Louis' route. I'm also not normal about the fact that Louis kills Dorian and then even as he's clearly in shock, he tries to go with Clementine to get AJ, and then later on when they talk about it, he says it feels like bile but not quite and he's glad he has it in him to do it.... listen, listen, listen... I'm obsessed with that.

Anyway, so if Louis shot Minerva, I think he would've accidentally killed her and can you imagine? He's already enough of a mess after killing the woman who pinned him down and tried to cut his finger off [or succeeded] but he knew Minerva, they were friends before the twins were taken. Even Violet couldn't kill her even though that would've been the smarter thing to do, and we know thanks to meta knowledge that killing her would've saved lives, but Violet couldn't, and I don't think Louis would intentionally either.

Speaking of Violet, if Louis killed Minerva, I hate to think about what that would've done to Vi. I think she might've actually left at that point, like what was planned before it got changed to her being burned. I don't think she would've attacked Louis over it, though, like yeah she attacked Clementine in the cell but Louis? I don't know, but I don't think so just because it's Louis and he'd be a mess about it anyway.

Though if he did kill her, it would be a neat parallel to draw... y'know, because Louis forgave AJ for killing Marlon even though he was pissed and heartbroken, and Violet was annoyed with him the entire time... but could she ever forgive Louis for killing Minerva? Y'know? We already have a similar parallel with AJ shooting Tenn, but still.

If Clementine killed Minerva in that moment, though, then I could see Violet attacking her since in her eyes, Clem proved her right.

So yeah, I get why they added the Dorian kill to his route. It adds another compelling element to Louis as a character, but we also need Minerva alive for episode 4; Louis can't kill her, he can't miss, and he's not going to stay with her because we need Violet to stay on the boat and him to be on shore for all routes.

#asks #twdg louis #twdg minerva #twdg clementine #twdg violet #twdg marlon #twdg tenn #honestly whenever i see someone say louis is the boring option i'm just like '.......that's your opinion but also how can you say that??' #then again i'm sure other people look at me saying violentine just isn't for me and they say the same thing so y'know... i can't talk haha #also time is such a weird thing because i look at the entire cell scene in louis' route and like... i'm not even mad about violet anymore #like yeah i still don't believe she was brainwashed like i'm sorry y'all only believe that because kent said something about it #not because there's all this evidence toward it in game like vi being pissed at clementine makes sense she doesn't need to be brainwashed #for it to work like her being vulnerable and easily manipulated into submission makes perfect sense especially with minerva there #it's like everyone was pissed that she attacked clementine and people needed a way to excuse it so it's not violet's fault when like... #that's literally what makes it interesting like calm down it's okay if violet is pissed and scared and behaves accordingly #also my controversial opinion of the day that i'll hide here in the tags so maybe people won't find it sksksk but #I personally find the concept of vinerva and the doomed tragedy of it more compelling than anything violentine did #like i'll defend violentine and i do believe it's an important and good ship it's just not my personal favorite #anyway but then the whole thing with lilly and minerva is so good and louis screaming FUCK YOU at minerva?? amazing love it so good #i love when the soft character who never chooses violence is so pissed off that all that anger they have boils to the surface and it's raw #like... he's SO mad he's SO furious he's SOOO UPSET like he wasn't even like this when marlon died or anything like he hit his limit #and then shooting dorian through the mouth while an accident is just well done i love it and i love his reaction of mortification #and apologizing and YET he still tries to go with clementine he's trembling and can barely string together a sentence but he wants to go #he wants to help her he wants to save aj THAT is the gut reaction he has after everything that just went down #'louis isn't loyal or good for clem because of the vote' babe tell me you don't understand any nuance of louis' character without telling m #it's fine IT'S FINE you don't have to agree and i just have to remind myself that it's fine not everyone likes louis we're okay #this drives me crazy in the best way like y'know what? i love the cells scene in louis' route all of it even the stuff i used to rant about #even the stuff that used to piss me off now i'm just like 'no wait past cj was dumb she wasn't looking at it this way aaaaaaaa' sksksks #that was my tag ted talk about the cell scene thank you