#and her panic at breaking the rules shes always followed after calling YD a clod

[divine-buster]

eventually ill make a more comprehensible post about this but like. peridot's arc and the way her character and the way she acted changed so suddenly honestly makes a lot of sense? before, when we first see her, she's just doing her job that she was made to do and has always done, for her diamond, yellow diamond. then things start to go wrong on a simple, easy mission, and she looses her way to go back to homeworld, and is trapped on a planet that is going to be destroyed by the cluster she was tasked to come check on

and she becomes so desperate in fear of the cluster that she even asks steven for help (by. kidnapping him but whatever), and then is captured by the crystal gems, looses her limb enhancers and all her other things and is out of her area of expertise and finds herself not knowing anything for probably the first time in her life

and she's panicked because she has nowhere to go and is now in danger from the cluster which was never supposed to happen. and now she has to betray yellow diamond if she wants to survive, and the only people who would understand or be able to help are the crystal gems, whether that's giving in and joining them or somehow trying to betray them

as bismuth said rose quartz told the gems that they could be something other than what they were designed to be, and that they could be themselves. peridot ends up with a "defective" gem, a pearl without an owner, a permafusion, and a steven, whatever that is. while jasper is faced with this opportunity she just denies it because she's used to being "better" than everyone else and the most powerful gem, peridot has lost everything and has no power over the crystal gems, and she is able to actually realize who she is as her own person

#peridot is weird at heart. and her acting super WeirdTM at first in a seemingly sudden and uncharacteristic way #is likely because she's panicked #and like did you see what she said when steven locked her in the car after she stole a communicator. #how she juts grinned desperately while going i should never have let myself enjoy anything here! #my only purpose in life is yellow diamond! my life is unimportant i live to serve her! #and her panic at breaking the rules shes always followed after calling YD a clod #my posts #peridot #su meta