#and how he is open with buck

[suntails]

dance of dreams

#THEYRE SPINNIIIING THEYRE TWIIIIIRLING JUST LIKE IM TWIRLIIIING MY HAAAAAIR blink blink blink blink. hi :3 #im not taking back the :3 its how i feel dammit. its REAL RAW EMOTION u gotta accept it. en ee wayz #so 7.3 eng drop huh. yea so um. i . so u remember how the initial drop made me go insano mode and i drew 5 pieces in 4 days? #so it wasnt done. the second drop gave me one more to draw. its the THEM chapters its mals rage when hes like 'YOURE AWAKE??' #the TENSION!!! the DRAMA!!!! oh i am SICK my heart SKIPS!!! the two guys with dream powers fighting ougughh made just for me #made in a LAB for miss cartoons!!!!!! made in a lab for ME!!!!! silver's eye is a lil bit open if u look close. mal will find out soon #IM SICK SICK SICK SICK AND TWISTED MY BRAIN IS RATTLING LIKE A JUNKER CAR U BOUGHT AT 16 FOR 400 BUCKS #twst #twisted wonderland #twst silver #malleus draconia #the overblot fit still sucks to draw but goddammit ill do what i must. also yippee i dont hafta tag spoilers for once FGHJD #suntails

[whollyjoly]

so aisha just tweeted this....

and im looking at those last two emojis 😐😳....

and i remember that lou said this....

...and this....

...

...what does it MEAN??

#i have a prediction that feels insane and too good to be true #but i also said that last week about buck asking tommy to be his date at the wedding #and here we are #SO HERE IT GOES: #tommy rescues chim from whatever the fuck he's up to #and makes a dramatic ass entrance in the helicopter at the venue #maybe lands it on the grass cause theres a lot of it?? #and the doors fly open and a soot-stained tommy and worse-for-wear chim stumble out #and their buckleys run up and kiss them #and the 😳 is the kiss revealing to everyone that buck is bi and dating tommy!!! #THATS THE INSANE CORKBOARD THEORY #i'll see you back here in three weeks and see how we did #✨i am manifesting✨ #what a time to be alive #(i feel like im going insane) #aisha hinds #lou ferrigno jr #911 cast #bucktommy #kinkley #tevan #tuck #whatever else the fuck #otp: better ways to get your attention #evan buckley #tommy kinard #madney wedding #911 spec #911 abc #911 on abc

[princessamericachavez]

like yes yes eddie needs to choose and buck needs to be chosen but also 

Eddie needs to get over the very big trauma of losing his wife. Last time he dated someone he had literal panic attacks at the thought of her being mistaken for Chris’s mother and as much as we saw him work through in therapy we never?? really?? talked?? about?? that?? So, yeah, Eddie needs to realize that he’s at a point where he’s ready to risk his heart and give love a second chance 

(and maybe realize he already did becase there already is a partner in his life who gets consistently confused for Chris’s guardian and it feels natural to him?? but he still needs to realize he’s ready for love)

And Buck needs to be ready to be in a relationship where he’s loved for who he is, where he doesn’t bend and twist to fit someone else’s expectations. And for that Buck needed to die, and needed to come back, and now he needs to process that trauma and steady himself. 

(and Buck loves so quickly, so openly, so loudly, and he gives so much of himself and he wants to be loved that way, and maybe he’ll realize that he already?? is?? loved?? but he needs to let himself accept it)

so basically, it’s not only a matter of choice... eddie needs to be ready to love and buck needs to accept that he is loved if they are ever going to find each other properly together

and that, my funny little friends, is the point of their arcs were we are at right now

#buddie #911 fox #evan buck buckley #eddie diaz #i'm not going to lose hope over this because i remember a million shows where this had been the path #how many relationships this castle and becket have before they finally were at the point where they could be together?? #hey remember when chenford were in two fairly stable long term relationships because they needed to open up to love again #AND they needed to be in the /wrong/ relationships to finally realize WHAT they wanted??? #eddie deciding he's ready to date/love again is a NECESSARY step for buddie and what they needed right ow #just like buck processing his trauma and maybe having a potential relationship in which he gets to say 'no this isn't right for me i deserve #more' is what he needs to realize he HAS that love #anyway the couch isn't a theory it's a laimotif and its a proper literal metaphor in the show #and we know where that's been popping up lately #so like unless they suck at their job i can't see this being the end #CHILL #911 spoilers #ish

[wikiangela]

seven sentence sunday

tagged by @daffi-990 💖

making more progress on alive shannon yaaay! this fic is gonna be such a mix of angst and fluff, and I hope i'll get the angst part right bc I'm not good at it, and so far a lot of after-accident stuff is turning out too cute lol (gonna fix it soon with the bombing lol) here's a lil buddie moment finally haha (they're not in love here yet but obvi there's always been something - and it's so hard to write them not in love and pining bc in my fics they're always in love already haha)

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“So, it’s weird, isn’t it?” he asks, then takes a huge gulp of his beer.

“What is?” Buck asks carefully, grabbing the second bottle and opening it.

“This whole thing.” Eddie shrugs. “Shan being here. Was it weird?” he nods towards the living room, indicating Buck hanging out with her before Eddie came home. Buck thinks for a moment, not really sure how to answer.

“I mean, I guess a little bit? Not as much as I expected, we just watched TV.” It’s Buck’s turn to shrug. “It was fine. It is fine. A little awkward, but we literally just met, so hopefully that changes. Since, you know, she’s here to stay, and I’m- I’m, uh- I guess I’m here often enough, so I don’t want it to be awkward and stuff-” he stumbles over his words, suddenly not sure why it’s even important for him and her to get along. It would be so easy for them to just not see each other. It’s not like Eddie and Shannon are gonna hang out all the time now, after she’s better and gets back to her own life. All that’s gonna connect them after the divorce is Chris. So, really, Buck has no reason to want to get along with her beyond her staying here for now. They don’t have to be friends, and if it’s weird for a couple weeks, so what?

“Buck.” Eddie interrupts his rambling, his eyes softening. “I know what you mean. I- I kinda hoped you guys would get along, is that stupid?” he chuckles. And, well, it’s settled now, Buck has to make friends with her, doesn’t he? “Since you’re, you know, Christopher’s best friend.” he adds with amusement, and Buck beams. But then Eddie sighs and shakes his head. “And he’s so happy to have her around.”

“I noticed.” Buck smiles.

“Yeah. He loves being able to just go into another room and hug her, talk to her, have her help him with his homework, play games with him. Just have a relationship with her again. He’s actually-” he laughs. “He’s teaching her to play his favorite video games, and she sucks at it. So bad. He’s determined, though.” Eddie gets that look on his face he always gets when talking about Chris, so much love and fondness and adoration. It might be one of Buck’s favorite expressions of his. Not that he has any favorites, of course, that’d be weird. He’s not analyzing his best friend’s face and looks and smiles, and he’s definitely not making sure to remember every single one, mentally filing them carefully in the rapidly growing drawer with Eddie’s name on it in his mind.

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no pressure tags: @elvensorceress @gayarthur @diazass @thebravebitch @silentxxsoul @shortsighted-owl @eddiebabygirldiaz @arthursdent @diazblunt @911onabc @eddiediaztho @housewifebuck @lover-of-mine @gayhoediaz @rogerzsteven @watchyourbuck @hoodie-buck @monsterrae1 @hippolotamus @ladydorian05 @forthewolves @honestlydarkprincess @wildlife4life @spotsandsocks @eowon @theotherbuckley @weewootruck @thewolvesof1998 @disasterbuckdiaz @spotsandsocks @jesuisici33 @callaplums @loserdiaz @fortheloveofbuddie @underwater-ninja-13 @thewolvesof1998 @giddyupbuck

#seven sentence sunday #the alive shannon fic #shannon diaz #buddie wip #buddie fic #wikiangela writes #my writing #fic snippet #my wips #not sure how i feel about the ending of this bc they're not supposed to be in love yet but idk lmao #(also eddie is turning out way too open in the convo that follows this and idk how i feel about that either lol) #still stuck on one scene and it's driving me crazy that it's not done and im just moving on with the fic lol gotta get to it soon haha #also so excited to jump into this whole dynamic!! eddie trying to navigate it all and buck not knowing where he fits in aahhh

[buttercupbuck]

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[image description: 4 gifs of evan buckley and eddie diaz from 9-1-1. the gifs are arranged in two rows, 2 gifs per row. the two gifs in the left column depict a scene from season 5 episode 13, and the two gifs in the right column depict scenes from other episodes of season 5.

gif 1: buck stands outside eddie’s bedroom door. speaking to eddie through the door, he says, “hey, eddie. it’s, uh...it’s me. can i come in?” after he asks if he can come in, he tries during the door knob.

gif 2: from season 5 episode 11. standing in eddie’s kitchen, buck stares at eddie with a bemused expression as eddie dismisses his concern and turns away from him.

gif 3: buck looks around briefly before speaking to eddie again through the door again, warning, “all right, eddie, i-i’m gonna come in, okay?”

gif 4: two gifs. the first is from season 5 episode 14. the camera follows eddie as he walks into his dining room, where buck is standing and putting away christopher’s coloring utensils. the second is from season 5 episode 18. eddie listens to buck as he talks and patches up eddie’s bedroom wall.

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#evan buckley #eddie diaz #buck x eddie #buddie #911 on fox #911 fox #9-1-1 #911 #911edit #alicia edits #i juuuuust. the parallel of buck literally being on the outside looking in #and feeling kind of at odds about it and unsure of how to proceed and what lines he was allowed to cross #to him breaking down eddie's door and letting himself in for eddie's sake #because he knew eddie wouldn't and couldn't do it for himself.... #and then not only is buck just there and present and supportive as eddie picks up the pieces of himself #but eddie learns to cross that line and let him in himself as well #he lets buck see him as his shirt is damp with his own tears and as he can barely stop crying #he comes home to buck after his therapy session and lets him see him exhausted and hopeless #he lets buck help him repair his bedroom wall and is just so easily open and vulnerable throughout that entire scene #i just...it truly makes me So unwell #anyway i know we're all buzzing about the new titles for s6 but im posting this anyway lol

[littlespoonevan]

tragic: the song i've been obsessing over for two days straight is actually best represented by buck and abby's relationship and i will never be able to convince someone to have an in depth discussion about it with me and/or make a gifset of it 💔

#911 related #but also the bridge is actually quite ali coded askdjfh #why am i obsessing over his old relationships you ask???? #bc i'm thinking about buck's romantic arc again Obviously #and am actually now even more frustrated and enraged by the s6 finale in light of 7x04 #because everything in his romantic arc since s1 has been so carefully considered and constructed #and the end of s6 was so POINTLESS and completely disrupted it skadjfhas #like imagine if s6 had ended with buck alone sitting on a couch he'd picked out *himself* to mirror 6x01 and signify he was ready to open #himself to love again and THEN we got what we did with 7x04 #imagine how fucking perfect of a transition that would've been!!!!!!!!! #and i know the reasons behind it blah blah blah i know it was walked back immediately in 7x01 #but!!!!!!!!!!! #the trajectory from abby who was his first real love (but who he loved too much) #to ali who was a fresh start but who couldn't love him completely #to taylor who *he* tried to love in the right way but couldn't #to finding a way to be content on his own #to realising his sexuality and kissing tommy?!?!?!? #what a good fucking pipeline y'know!!! #that should've been the pipeline but now the end of s6 will always be a blip and it will always annoy me askjdfha #anyway #someone listen to reckless driving and please let me talk about buck and abby lmao

[eh-33]

I don’t necessarily know how I would want this to go - or even if I want it to happen, but I do wonder if 9-1-1 is going to address the fact that biphobia exists and how often biphobia is related to the idea that bisexuals ‘can’t pick a side’ or the fact that bisexuals are often indirectly just slut shamed.

I am bisexual, and those comments definitely exist and can be said unthinkingly. And often they are said as a passing joke but for the person they do hit and it’s not fun.

With Buck now officially starting his discovery of his sexuality - it would be a good time to open up that narrative.

It’s not like I’ll be angry if they steer clear of that because if Buck can have a smooth coming out and self discovery then I’m absolutely down for that - and I love that for him and the show. But I just feel it could be addressed if they felt like adding a bit of angst. And it’s been in my head all day as a thing that could happen.

#911 abc #evan buckley #buck my beloved #just some thoughts about his story #and how #bi buck #is real #and I love it #again #if it doesn’t happen and instead it’s all love about buck #I’ll be so happy for him #because he deserves happiness #but it’s a door that could be opened #and it would narratively make sense to bring it up now if they were going to #evan buck buckely #buck x tommy #is the perfect opportunity to open the can of worms if they so choose

[panevanbuckley]

okay okay so watching baby daddy and umm the way riley tells danny she loves him?? like he's supposedly unconscious after an accident and she doesn't think he can hear her finally admitting it?

yeah so anyways eddie coming to the realisation that he's in love with buck and actually telling him whilst he's in his coma except buck's just woken up and hears every damn word. that. i want that.

#and then either buck pretends he didn't hear bc he doesn't know how to tell eddie leading to angst and awkward dancing around each other #or he opens his eyes and eddie is mortified but he can hardly take the words back especially since buck is awake at last! y'know?? #i need this #even just a fic of it honestly #911 fox #buddie #baby daddy #riley x danny

[snekdood]

everyone who says they hate rap is required to listen to this song first

#fave #music #mood #its not all about pussy money weed #listen closely to the lyrics in rap music #rather than dismissing all rap just say you think that particular rapper sucks yaknow #but also you gotta appreciate pmw rap a bit too- that was one of the points in contrapoints' opulence video that everyone glazed over #bc god forbid she not know the internet wants buck angel to shit and die #(which btw is a really good video if you can get past your blinding rage for buck angel and listen to the rest of the 40 min video) #it why even though the majority of wiz khalifas rap is pretty uhm. shallow. to say the least- #in amber ice he has a line that goes like 'we aint even supposed to be living near this people' as in WHITE people. #its about flaunting that which you are denied by a society that oppresses you #ARE YOU GETTING IT? DO YOU GET IT YET???????????? #im literally frothing over here tryna make ppl understand #which is why btw its weird when white ppl make songs like that about 'having more money than u' about themselves or make a whole song like #that. like becky you're not revolutionary at all. you're a rich white girl. oooooo so different and unique. #rap music about money is usually like 'fuck you i can do that shit too' not JUST about the flaunt bb girl #*glares at ariana grande* #ariana- YOU'RE the exact type of person rappers are pitting themselves against. flaunting your money isnt cool or different or anything #you're not revolutionary in your music at all. you're just a rich white person being open about how above everyone you think you are #thats the difference between white rappers like ariana and black rappers- white rappers rap about their money to flaunt how above everyone #they are. black rappers flaunt their money to show how above rich white people they can be #you're not proving you can do it too you're being a privileged asshole lmao #the difference between rich white rappers and old money is that rich white rappers are actually being open about how they think they're #superior than everyone #like ok becky we get you embrace being a white supremacist colonizer and no one can tell you to stop 🙄😒

[bibuck-saved-me]

learning about buck’s childhood just makes the grocery store moment so much worse. he talks to the 118 about his problems because he thought he could trust them with it. because the only other person he could ever talk to about anything was maddie, and even she was always just a little bit out of reach. he tells them so much bad stuff because they’re supposed to be the safe place he can go where nothing hurts. somewhere he isn’t alone. his family, to remind him that he is loved and everything is gonna be okay.

what eddie said told buck that it never was a safe space. that every time he spoke to them, when he thought he finally found someone who cared enough to hear him, there was a part of them that saw him as a nuisance. an exhausting nuisance who complains about everything. who’s problems are so minuscule, they don’t matter at all. he was an inconvenience. something they had to carry but didn’t want to.

just like his parents.

#please don’t yell at me for this i do love eddie and the 118 #as someone who relates a LOT to buck this is how i perceive the situation #when you grow up invisible and you finally trust someone with all of you it leads to a lot of opening up #about all sorts of things even just stubbing your toe cuz for once in your life you have someone! who might care! #even though it’s just your toe #because in the past it was never just your toe #it was every single thing that hurt #every bad moment you kept inside because you were alone in the world #there was no one there to hug you when you were sad #buck’s parents may have started out caring when he got physically hurt #but they were always emotionally neglectful #and when they did care they cared for the wrong reasons in the wrong way #and even that faded with time #their love wasn’t just conditional it was. it was so rare #how many times did he sit alone and ache and ache and ache #and all he wanted was someone to hold him. tell him he’s gonna be okay #how many times did he cry himself to sleep #how many times did he sit and wonder what he did wrong. why they saw through him. why he wasn’t enough #what could he do to be enough? what would make them look at him and see him #and be happy with what they saw #happy enough to smile at him #god what he would’ve done to have someone smile at him #and then he thought he found it. he thought he could be enough for someone. they loved him #they listened to him #and then eddie says that it’s whining. that it’s annoying and exhausting and awful #that buck should suck it up and deal with it on his own #and. and the pain he must have felt #911 #evan buckley

[homestuck--edits]

hey!! i feel bad coming in and requesting so much stuff, so if you dont want to do it, its fine! could i possibly get a talksprite of my oc aontwi with a damara base? she is a limeblood if that helps! thank you so much for all your hard work!

her :))

-mod davesprite

#mod davesprite #homestuck #talksprite edit #talksprite edits heart heart #anyway had comp today #i wasnt allowed to participate but i have a fun story abt finding a place #so last year we hosted at the college which we could do because they had the security guard there on saturdays #this year they didnt meaning wed have to pay his salary for the time he was there #unfortunately we recieve 0 district funding #so we had to find a new spot. tried to go to the ymca #held one comp there (my last one uh. Ever. but we did the best weve ever done !!) #and then this time. six days before competition. they said wed have to pay 50 bucks an hour to compete there again. its a 9 hour competition #so we had to find somewhere else. which i was tasked with #i called: hospital‚ pud‚ civic center‚ city hall‚ local lumber company‚ library‚ tax place‚ senior center‚ fire department‚ and six churches #oh local bus company also #anyway finally person from tax place recommended a coffee shop downtown thatd charge 75 bucks a day for a decent size room #so me n gf went down to check it out. unfortunately theyre only open five hours a day. for a six hour competition. so they couldnt do it #our last options were... visit more churches. the cops ? and... that was all. so we went to get coffee #coffee shop that gave me my cute lemon bracelet :DD! so anyway was complaining to the store owner abt not having a place. and she went #oh would here work? and i went uh. yeah? is it okay if we bring computers? and how long are you open? #she said yeah the computers are fine and we can be open as long as you want ! and i went oh okay. so how much do we have to pay #because wed be occupying the whole place all day. and she said oh no worries :)) free !. and . holy shit. so she called her daughter #who stayed like three hours late today. unpaid. for us to compete #fucking insane this coffee shop has done more for us than the school district has ever. and it was great!! #a lil cramped but cozy and also Coffee. we spent probably 200 bucks on coffee altogether?? hope it was profitable for them they were so nice #gave some of us free stuff fucking insane honestly #also shoutout to the dairy queen for not killing us for walking in with 67 dollars and going give us all the chicken strips this will buy #it was 44 btw. and they gave us a free burger some guy named alex made. i dont know why they did but they wouldnt take no for an answer #anyway im not in a good mood but fuck dude i love local business. i also got a tiny palm reading book to carry around :>

[stagefoureddiediaz]

Does anyone else sit and think about how the firehouse and Bucks loft are both a main floor and a mezzanine and how it’s the mezzanine space in both instances that are the most “lived in” spaces while the main floor spaces are more work/ utilitarian spaces lacking personality?

How the show is drawing a parallel between the firehouse and it’s mezzanine and that being the family space, full of personality and where the firefam - Bucks found family - eat and spend time together and Bucks bedroom mezzanine being the most personal space in his loft - the only place where there are books and photos that show his personality.

#I could also comment on the concept of mezzanine’s being floating spaces - not truly an upstairs space #how they’re open for everyone to see and how that reflects Buck wearing his heart on his sleeve and seemingly being an open book #floating spaces - almost like they’re transient - how you can never really hide or close a door with a mezzanine #how we’ve seen so many of the firefam big moments where they can no longer hide take place in a ‘floating’ environment #(bucks balcony also plays into this idea) #I don’t know I’m sure others can be more coherent than me but I just find it so interesting that Buck has an apartment that so closely #resembles the firehouse and how that mezzanine level is the only place he’s put his personality to any degree (lamp aside and even that is #more about the job than him as a person!) #911 on fox #911 fox #911onfox #evan buckley #buck #thinky thoughts #bucks lofthe firehouse #parallels

[chronicowboy]

god do you ever think about eddie's exhausted sigh when he goes into the kitchen at that dinner with buck and taylor?

#sami rambles #its fucking heartbreaking my lord #anyway my mind just conjured up an image of eddie inviting buck over to actually open up about how he was feeling at least a tiny bit and #then buck asking if taylor can join him and eddie just saying yeah bc he's got to put effort in yknow but then him just pulling on that #mask and acting his way through what was supposed to be a family dinner because buck's happy and eddie doesn't want to ruin it and god #ive made myself cry #911 show #911 fox #eddie diaz #buckley diaz family

[unnecessarilygrandiose]

i have this fic idea but i haven't written anything creatively in EIGHTEEN MONTHS and i am afraid i forgor how to write

#also there's a couple other reasons why i can't write it but tbh i can overcome them. so really there's no excuse #anyways the idea is #and bear with me here #that next episode opens with eddie waking up a little bit confused trying to take in his surroundings #and realise he's Not at his home #and we see whatever it is that happened hit him all at once #camera pans around #and boom. he's naked in bed with marisol #BWHAHAH I THINK I'M VERY FUNNY #i just want to see his demi ass panic over his life's first one night stand!!! #maybe show up at buck's later trying to seek reassurance because how the hell were you doing this *regularly* man wtf i'm dying here #and buck is trying to be helpful but also having the time of his life because living with the woman whose babydad you are is hard #and his boy best friend is giving him good comic relief #anyways manifesting #911 spoilers #um i guess?

[trashendence]

honestly still feral about that post wondering how many times eddie thought of telling buck he made him chris’ legal guardian in the year following the well almost-disaster. because the sole image of eddie holding back (in the name of shame? fear? desperation?) claws at my insides but. but. i wouldn’t rule out the possibility of eddie never allowing himself to even think about the will. going on with his days vaguely aware that he’s secured a future for his kid in the warmest and safest of places - buck’s arms - but never stopping for a moment to feel anything more about it. never shame and definitely never fear. a safe heaven where chris and buck have a serene future without him, where he’s dead but death eventually happens to everyone so it’s okay, a sub-reality where everything is organic and none of the things he’s decided to do with his heart has to be analyzed or questioned. not even by eddie himself.

and isn’t that equally telling about his motives? this fierce protection - even from himself - of the most precious thing he has?

#no listen i actually hate the depths of this man with passion #someone went ‘​how can you love someone without thinking about it? #while you’re still asleep and haven’t even opened your eyes but you *know* you love? how?’ #and he went ‘well just like this?’ #he mentions it just for buck’s sake. he doesn’t even compute it as something big probably #because when you’re too close to the trunk you can’t fucking see the whole tree. #babes i’m Going Through It #buddie #eddie diaz #evan buckley #buckley diaz family

[krumbaphant]

gonna scream

#d speaks #why wouldnt brother tell me how much it FUCKING costs for his t-shot earlier #more importantly why do i have to pay for the entirety of it did he not set ANY of this months pay aside for it #i am. trying to get ahead. and he wont FUCKING let me. #im already covering everything else. rent food bills. #like i literally have maybe 40 spare bucks outside what he needs to get groceries/transport for. yknow. my job. for over a week. #he said he'll reschedule but fat fucking chance bc he refuses to be awake at a time that places are open. #and besides even if he pushes it back a week i still dont know when pays going through bc the first is a saturday #and the following week is riddled with holiday shit on top of my bank taking a million years to process #so i dont know whats going to happen! #i wanted to be able to fix the shower. i wanted to pay friend back. i wanted to do something nice for me over my short break #and now i fucking cant. as usual </3