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#and how willingly he’d allow himself to be hurt by the Doctor in some verses just to have his attention and any affections afterwards
deathxproof-archive · 5 years
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Man oh man there’s just a WHOLE ass rant about the Master and his dependency and abandonment issues in the tags that I don’t want to make into a real post rn enjoy bls read if you wanna
#tbh i could go on a rant for days about how dependant on the Doctor the Master is to the point where he spends so much time being like#‘maybe this’ll catch the Doctor’s attention!!! maybe he’ll be impressed !!! maybe they’ll just get mad !!! theta’s attention !!!#and how when the Doctor is actually around and they have some semblance of normalcy he’s DESPERATE to keep it#desperate to keep his affections and meticulously try to make sure the Doctor still Loves Him#until things get to be too much or too loud or too stagnant and he has a breakdown#but even then he tries so hard to hide some of them#‘cant have theta see me hurt myself cant have theta see me like this theta wont love me anymore theta wont want me around bc im a monster!!’#until he actually acts out or does something he knows they wont approve of in some capacity. or until he gets upset w them#thats not even getting into when he feels like he doesnt deserve their affection and love and they deserve to be hurt or something#and how willingly he’d allow himself to be hurt by the Doctor in some verses just to have his attention and any affections afterwards#just to know that they DO feel that strongly about him in some way#(in some verses)#but like the abadonment and trust issues are so real that instead he just wants to hyperfixate on them and try to do everything in his power#to keep the Doctor around okce he finally has him again#theres always at least a little part of him that aches and is hypervigilant as to when the Doctor might leave again#(and usually in his head its never ‘might’ its always ‘the Doctor WILL leave again if you dont do a good job’
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