#and i cried all the way home

[identitycrux]

I want to list good things from today.

Saturdays a rugby day!

Had a good road trip up to the game location with the team.

Met new interesting people.

Won our game 90-22 (it was really two games, 44-17 and 46-5 but it was the same team same players)

I scored a few times

Enjoyed dressing up for the costume contest (though, I did not win lol)

Was told I look fresh and clean, cute, sexy all in one day (mind you this all happened on the pitch lol)

Got to talk to my best friend on her birthday

Watching more rugby now…

#I did this because I was going down the life sucks hole #I drove the team up today… #as soon as I dropped them of I cried #and I cried all the way home #because I don’t know how to call… my best friend my ex… #and I got home and cleaned #and I started to things about how life is sucking right now #hard #but I had a great day #and I should smell the bees #and let the rain inside me fall too

[augustinewrites]

anon who asked me what the fushigojo home looks like ily bcs that question made me so excited

#in my mind the kids move into fushigojo mom’s place first #bcs i KNOW 18-19yr old gojo still lived at home and the gojo clan is no place to raise children #especially zenin children #and so they live in a small two bedroom where the kids share a room #soon after gojo gets his own place which is way bigger! #with enough space for all of them!! and the kids get their own rooms #bordering on penthouse but not. but very comfortable #they live there until fushigojo baby comes along 🫶 then move into a house outside of the city!! #i know i wrote that they moved into a house #but i’m god of this series and i say now that gojo had their forever home built #cries sobs #[—augustinechats] #keeping up with the fushigojos

[gideonisms]

this job has so far been extremely uneventful which also freaks me out because I'm like. What's the catch when is it going to start attacking me

#maybe the catch is i get up at 3:45 am drive half an hour and sort mail and lift boxes all day #idk i keep expecting someone to start harrassing me or yelling or having a medical emergency or an active shooter to break in #like i'm just waiting for it to activate my fight or flight but it's not yet and THAT'S activating my fight or flight #idk why i'm acting like some type of scared Creature like a shivering rodent or something #anyway. i'm waiting for the therapist office to start making calls back in January so until then y'all get to just overhear this #two days into this job and i have not cried on my way home! low bar but previous jobs have not passed it

[binart]

O(-(

i got an iud

it should help with my debilitating cramps but. IT WAS SO BAD

HOW DO THEY NOT OFFER TO KNOCK YOU OUT FOR THAT SHIT OH MY GOD

#i left the office and immediately threw up #cried the whole way home #horrible pain all throughout the rest of the day and night #only now able to even sIT UP #that was BEANS but in a bad way #anyway here's hoping it was fUCKING WORTH IT because ow ow oof ow #bina.txt

[justmwahstruly]

humans your molly

silly option don’t look teehee

/nf

oh you thought it was fun silly huh

conned. scammed. b a m b o o z l e d . /ref

#molly melancholy #welcome home oc #welcome home #welcome home human #puppet girl no longer #it’s the same day i am given specific instructions on smth to draw… #party planning! #very excited for it! #the mother calls it a ‘sensory party’ #but i know its REALLY just a stim party #i mean. come on. #little layer bottles of glitter and sequins and alike! #it simply gives stimboard to me! #IM GOING TO HAVE THE ULTIMATE EXCUSE TO BE AUTISTIC. #if only it wasn’t all the way in february… #yea my moms insane like that #but! better than doing everything super fucking last minute like i do! #cries #at least break is here… one more day of just reading and doing simple work #LES FUGGIN GOOOOO #a #a a #yey #hrrrmmnnnn dies in i have to draw

[ackee]

also everyone whos like "erm dont do love triangles just make them get in a poly relationship 🙄" is so boring. like i thought this was the drama loving website

#i love when the loser is sad and cries and throws up and is home alone thinking abt why they didnt get chosen!! #so called angst lovers when theres angst smh #men should pine over women. other way around it shouldnt exist tho. hashtag feminism and all #txt

[jeysuso]

#jey the rock uso, everybody

#jey uso #walemania #idk what they had them drinking this night #or how STRONG #but these men are drunk as fuck #and it had them impersonating the rock at every given opportunity #between this and the way jimmy walked on stage and stood with big e. sirs. fuckin calm down #i just know adam went home and cried this night #they rinsed him for all he was worth and then compared him to sami #notice how jey was really nice to him though #he asked how ucey would they rate him and jey contemplated #jimmy straight up cut his throat. bastard (affectionate) #the one positive is that they understood his accent really well lmao #made me feel all 😌 cause they'd also understand me #also the way he looks so fucking proud of himself in that last one. sit your intoxicated ass DOWN joshua #mygifs*

[paulxlahotee]

Hi guys! I can’t afford food right now and I would really really appreciate it if y’all could buy some earrings from me!! My prices range from $12 to $50!! I also have an instagram where I have more inventory and earrings!!

(I’m also working on a full collection of pride feather earrings!)

Please consider helping out an indigenous beadwork artist this holiday season!! 💞

#please reblog!!! #pls pls pls I don’t have any groceries and I haven’t eaten all day #I literally cried on my way home from work because I can’t afford food and I feel so defeated #my post #ndn tag #beadwork #artists on tumblr #beadwork for sale #indigenous #native american #native American beadwork #for sale

[miradorjake]

the universe said here u go <3

#that’s girlfriend jake at her finest that’s my gf that’s my wife #I love him :( #jake kiszka #also I forgot I cried all my makeup off on the way home from work and when I got inside my sister was like OH my god #I look like a raccoon <3

[sieglinde-freud]

GODDDDDDDDDDDDDD FINALLYYYYYYY

#ann cries about feh #YES I KNOW NOIRE DOESNT HAVE HER BASE FORM #but for now… i am at peace… #ALSO I HAD TO GO TO PITY FOR SEVERA. AND I ONLY GOT ONE LAURENT ON THE WAY THERE 😭 #luci came home immediately tho bc of she did. like im using default lucina here but i did get rearmed luci :) love her #anyways if aether resort could just have TWO MORE SLOTS for both of the morgans… ugh #but u get the point. they r all mine :) #im missing two lucinas though. and fallen m!morgan. one day…

[bleue-flora]

Welp, I think it’s time for some brain rot don’t you?

So, I noticed in my rewatching, I think awhile ago but I kinda forgot about it until recently, something interesting. After prison, most notably right after with Punz, Dream mentions an island -

[5:35] Dream: “I would have had us go to the island to be fair but I just thought it’s a little too far so…”

And like, what? What island? Do they have a secret island? Is that where the lab is? Is that where Dream’s house is? Has anyone else picked up on this line, like am I crazy or did he just mention a staged duo hideout?!

Then in Daedalus he mentions going to an island again, this time saying ‘metaphorically’ -

[12:30] Dream: “I was you know on an island you could say.”

Sam: “On an island?”

Dream: “Well yeah just you know—metaphorically”

Sam: “What—what? What island were you on?”

Dream: “I wasn’t actually on an island. I was just metaphorically I was on an island but.”

Which… what does that even mean? And why would he tell Sam that?… Unless he didn’t mean to answer Sam but did out of ya know… habit and then had to cover up by saying it’s metaphorical so Sam doesn’t go out looking for the island. I mean like, otherwise why mention a metaphorical island in the first place and then fail to go into it any further?… like… Dream, what island?!

#I have so many questions… so so many… #and the picture of Dream sitting on the beach with his crooked toes and scarred feet deep in the sand as he sunbathes at the beach #gives me so much brain rot…. your welcome ;D #The Island aka his vacation home XD #lol staged duo and all their secret lore we never got… cries #dishing up lore #dreblr #c!dream #dsmp #c!stagedduo #dream smp #c!punz #dsmp dream #dsmp lore #staged duo #c!sam and c!dream #daedalus arc #c!sam #look I’m not gonna say I’m the only one who’s picked up on this but I haven’t seen anything about it… #🏝️ #ok also in the blueberry prison break video at the 40:46 mark - the way Dream says “Phil’s helping?” with a such surprise breaks me : #:’( oh it hurts. #anyways… in light of things I thought I could provide a fun distraction and topic… hope it helped :)

[introspectivememories]

literally can't stop thinking about mafia!bernard and police informant!tim

it got too long for the tags

bear's in the mafia for whatever reason

and tim is part of a police team called idfk the bats

anyway bear's mafia is getting too big and they need sm1 on the inside. enter tim.

tim is a police legacy. his dad was a policeman and so was his father's father and on it goes

and he might've made it onto captain wayne's team but he's desperate to prove to the force that he's not a fuckin nepo baby

so he takes the job. enter bernard who only meets tim after he's been on the mission for a year now.

bear quickly takes a liking to this new recruit who's efficient and smart and has the tiniest waist he's ever seen.

and tim goes along with this liking cause hey information from the top will be more valuable right?

and they fall into this fuckbuddies relationship that quickly becomes way more. because like fuck bear looks at tim like he's worth smth

like he's more than what his parents have set out for him. like he's somebody. like he loves tim for tim. and not for what tim can do for him.

and fuck he loves bear and his smiles. the way his eyes crinkle and his gums show. he loves the way bear looks with a gun in his hands and he knows that's fucked up but the first time he saw bear with a gun in his hands and blood splattered across his face he had to actively stop himself from jumping bear in front of the mafia. and no matter how rough bear is when he's on the field he always caresses tim's cheeks with a softness tim didn't know was possible

and fuck his dick is massive and it's really not helping tim's feelings. and he knows he's compromised and fuck cpt. wayne probs knows too

but shit bear holds him like he's precious. bear looks at him like he loves him. bear twines their bodies together like he'll die if they part

bear whispers sweet nothings into his ears as they fall asleep and it'll break him when he has to give bear up but he's always been selfish

he'll keep this for as long as he can. (please lord let him have this.)

and on bear's end he really only becomes interested in this new recruit when he watches the boy deliver 10 backhanded compliments in a row

and nobody pick up on it. it takes 3 months before bear figures out that tim's a spy and still he keeps seeing him

bc it doesn't matter that tim'll be his downfall. it doesnt matter that tim doesnt really love him or care about him. that it's only a mission for tim bc tim is the best thing bear's life.

he is the sun to bear's moon. the first word on his lips when he wakes up and the last when he goes to sleep.

and he loves every version of tim -- when he's caustic and biting, when he's blissed out in bed covered in the marks bernard left, when he's laughing, when he's crying

every version on tim is a version he likes. and one of these days, his pretty bird is going to have to leave their nest but at least bear can hold tim until then

at least bear can press promises into his thighs. at least he can whisper his devotion into the crook of tim's neck. at least he can leave marks on tim -- lovebites on his neck, handprints on his thighs and hips -- a tapestry that says "i was here. and i loved him. i love him and i am here."

but until that day comes, bear will work on quitting smoking and turning his favorite safehouse into a home for them.

(please lord, just let him have this. just let him have tim.)

#honestly if i was to sum up this au in one sentence it'd be #'dick so good you'd let them commit war crimes' #he quits smoking cause his baby has no spleen. tim nearly cries when he hears that #bear always kisses tim before he leaves in 3s. one to the forehead. one to both cheeks. and one to his lips. #the first time tim says 'welcome home!' to bear he has to take 3 business days to recover #the first time bear comes over to money-laundering coffee shop front tim's been assigned to with a bouquet of flowers tim spends the rest #week giggling to himself. also tim and bear get relentlessly teased by their coworkers. #and when all is said and done and the mission comes to an end and tim has to arrest bear he does it with a tremble in his hands and tears #in his eyes. and bear's eyes are so sad almost mournful with the way they look at him in his police uniform #'hey pretty baby. here to lock me up at last?' bear asks #'you knew?' tim whispers. bear nods slowly like doing it any faster will spook tim off. the hand holding his gun trembles. #'then why-' #'why do you think tim?' bear responds quietly 'i love you.' #tim chokes on his sob. 'i did too y'know. i do too.' #bear smiles sadly 'but the job comes first right?' #and tim has nothing to say to that. tim loves bear and bear loves tim and it's not enough. maybe it was never enough. #anyway #how yall doin #i'm so normal about them i swear #bernard dowd #tim drake #timbern #timber #dc

[shima-draws]

Just got back from my friend’s wedding :’) I think it says a lot that I was the only high school friend that showed up

#TBF the others in our friend group back then live in different states now #And flying out for a wedding can be SO expensive. #But yeah idk it just meant a lot to me :’) #And my friend (the groom) was SO happy to see me. And his family was too #That made me really glad 🤧 #The fact that he invited me to come at all also says a lot I think #And you know what maybe I cried on the way home in the car but that’s nobody’s business but mine!! #I’m very very happy for him. And his wife is SO sweet and so pretty #It’s just weird yk? Cause in high school I liked this guy SO much #Like I daydreamed about getting married to him some day #So seeing him marrying someone else felt very weird lol #Bittersweet mostly #Sorry this is super embarrassing LMAO but it’s not like I’m ever going to tell this to his face. #I know they’ll be very happy together and I’m so so glad he found someone that fits together with him so well #He’d better come to MY wedding tho. In the future. LOL #Shima speaks #It was a very ‘saying goodbye to your first love’ kind of thing. #Even after I confessed to him in high school (and got rejected) I never really stopped liking him #Like I just never got over it I guess. Even tho I KNEW nothing would ever come of it #Idk sometimes it’s hard to let that stuff go! It’s hard to stop liking someone after you liked them for so long and so strongly #I want to say I’m over it now but considering I was crying in my car: #Well. JFJSJMFMSMSNN #I know I don’t feel that way for him anymore like as a fact but. Idk it was weird— #Again bittersweet. I think I just needed a second to process and really let it sink in #Goodbye to my high school fantasy //waves a handkerchieff #Also MAYBE I saw them be so happy and was like. Why can’t I have that with someone. HUH #Leetle jealous. I need to find me a someone *squint emoji* #Anyway rant over wedding was good I’m just an idiot ;)

[creature-once-removed]

I've been reading and watching some reviews of Oppenheimer and am shocked at the way some people don't seem to be able to connect to characters who are a little bit closed off and inwardly complicated.

This is a film you need to bring your own empathy to. It isn't actively provoked and drawn out of you.

Which, given that it deals with the construction of the Atomic Bomb, I think is something that should be self explanatory. If you go into making this thinking "Oh I will make people feel so bad about the bombs" you're already headed in the wrong direction. It's not the question whether or not it's bad. The question is whether or not you realize it's bad when no one tells you outright how to think about it.

This movie is incredible for doing this.

#oppenheimer spoilers #oppenheimer #also it is very much not impartial or distant or anything like that #there's razor sharp opinions in the details; the script is fucking amazing #they just don't jump in your face with it; you gotta notice for yourself #I see in this movie a tiredness of needing to discuss baselines of human decency #'if you cannot recognize for yourself that constructing a bomb like this is horrible then I have no patience to discuss it with you' #is a sentiment I felt very hard throughout the whole thing #people paying attention to it will notice the affirming details #and it's a delight how simple it is in terms of many other things #it's amazing how good Nolan becomes when he's not trying to make another gimmick movie for once #I had so much fun in the theater and it was horrible #how can you have fun knowing what it all means #incredible experience. pretty upsetting. I cried on the way home #can recommend it for people who are a little bit tired of flashy emotional symphonies in movies #and for people who like to start analyzing and reflecting while the film is still running #and honestly for people who like pretty movies #because honestly this movie was very very beautiful in the best oldschool simplistic way #(maybe slightly tasteless side note: Cillian Murphy would make an amazing Frankenstein) #(pathetic wet rat of a man (tragic and unhinged variety))

[s1ld3n4f1l]

dingaling had to make buzzo and lisa's relationship unhealthy cause he knew that if they weren't they'd be unstoppable.

#lisa rpg #buzzo #lisa #im thinking bout them again guys #theyre so #bites and mauls and tears and cries and screams #slash positive #im listening to will wood in case i make it and grrrr they're so screams #becoming the lastnames + thats enough lets get you home #in my domestic au of course because its all i thinkabout #i like exploring the characters and getting them out of the traumatic situation I feel like is a good way to do that. #though you could argue against that #who cares im having fun #anyways i also like happy endings so. #oh btw buzzo is transfem. this has nothing to do with the post but its a belief I hold dear to my heart and I wrote this post in that idea. #all her problems are because of The Horrors and also her egg is uncracked

[belle--ofthebrawl]

A few days late but I've only just gathered the emotional strength to go through my concert goodies. Bracelets, a sticker and one banana.

#my most vivid memory besides the pick #is looking up at the ceiling during dance macabre and reaching out my hand to catch all the confetti floating in the air #i think i might have cried a little bit then #because if you'll permit me to get personal in the tags of my own post in my own blog #but when i saw them last year i was so miserable where i was and so stressed out #and i cried the entire three hour drive home because I didn't want the dream to be over #and this year everything and everyone was so wonderful and added to the experience in their own little ways #and now the dream is over. but I'm not sad about it. i put the pick in a velvet lined silver box #put the signed photograph in an old frame #and went to bed in a place that was finally my home. #I can't wait to see what's in store next.