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#and i decided that no. i wouldn't. because there's no guarantee that i would meet her again
mylovelo-ak · 9 months
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meeting imbibitor lunae
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pairing: dan heng x gn!reader
wc: 688
synopsis: it's been a while since dan heng left for xianzhou, and he came back looking different??
notes: established relationship; spoilers!!! wrote bc im stressed w school </3
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"i don't know, himeko, i haven't been able to reach him for days."
himeko let out a light laugh before sipping at her tea.
"he's a strong guy, (name). i guarantee you he's fine."
it's been a while since you last saw dan heng on the astral express after he decided to go after the others on the xianzhou. and he hasn't been replying to your messages since. dan heng has always been quick to reply to you, so his silence was frankly, out of character.
you're worried he's been involved in something keeping him busy or in danger.
dan heng never told you anything about his life before the express, and he never mentioned anything about xianzhou. but his uncertain expression when the place was mentioned, was a dead giveaway that something must've happened before.
"well yes, but he's all alone there and—"
a loud noise cut you off, followed by march's excited voice exclaiming about something.
"well looks like they're back!" himeko smiled before getting up to greet the returning members. you follow suit, eager to see your stoic boyfriend.
your footsteps were hurried, and you only mumbled a quick hello to the rest and went straight to... dan heng?
"did xianzhou give you a voucher for a salon or something?"
dan heng looked different.
his hair was longer, ears pointed, and is that eyeliner?
"hello." was all he said as his eyes darted to look everywhere but straight at you. there was a faint blush on his cheeks, which you assume is a result of your staring.
"must've been a wild trip, huh?"
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"so let me get this straight, you were reincarnated, then thrown out of xianzhou, and you're actually some former big shot over there?"
"something like that."
after slipping away from everyone, you and dan heng settled in your bed in your room. his head was nestled in your lap as you hand your back against the bed frame. it's a position you both resort to after a long day, or in this case, a week.
you were mindlessly toying with his hair, almost convinced it wasn't real. for not being in this form for so long, his hair was pretty smooth.
"can i braid your hair?" you asked, already separating strands because you knew what he was going to say. he hummed in response. he leaned into your touch and let himself relax.
it wouldn't be the first time that you've done this. he used to leave the express with tiny braids scattered in his hair.
you started at the part where his hair split into two directions. you figured it would be better to do two huge braids instead of potentially hurting his scalp by doing what you used to do when his locks were shorter.
it frustrated you a little since his position would make the braids turn out wonky and inconsistent, but it's been a long week for your poor lover, you'd rather he lie down and relax.
it took you a while to finish because you took so many breaks admiring dan heng, but eventually you did.
"hey, can you move so i can lie down with you?" you tapped his cheeks to grab his attention.
you waited but to no avail. dan heng was fast asleep on your lap. you took the time to properly look at him. he looked so different from the dan heng you first met. every feature felt amplified and a lot to take in.
you let curiosity take the best of you, tapping on the horns on his head. he frowned in his sleep. he shuffled a bit and you almost panicked that your tap woke him up. but he only moved to nuzzle further into your thigh.
he was still dan heng after all. a boy of a few words who rarely smiled unless it was with you. dan heng who loved to fall asleep on any part of you and would whine when you’d try to escape from his hug (he’d never admit to doing that when he’s awake though).
you'd endure your legs falling asleep anytime for this man.
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woniverse-writes · 6 months
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Hii could you maybe write about Y/N dancing at a studio late at night and Bada joining her? Reader then shows Bada the dance (which is suggestive) which maaaybe leads to smut?🙏 i love your work so much and this is my first req ever lmaoo
❤️
“sex money feelings die”
bada lee x reader
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summary: you work on some spicy choreography for a class and teach it to your girlfriend, who has never had good focus whenever you try to teach her something
word count: 900
warnings: smut, dry humping, not proofread
notes: I don't even know what this formatting is i'm so sorry bro...
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Bada had plans to meet you at the studio to help you work on choreography for your next class. Once she finishes teaching her own class, she heads over to a few rooms to an almost empty studio room. The lights were dim, but the music was moderately loud, the only person occupying it being another choreographer.
You probably wouldn't have noticed someone entering if there were any lights on, but the brightness from the hallway attracted your attention as the door slowly creeks open, revealing your girlfriend
You pause the music and greet her, chatting a bit about your days and how her classes went
When you finally show Bada the choreo you came up with and girl is like "omfg my gf is so fucking hot I need to *** *** *** ***"
And then you teach her the combination which goes well and is easy for the most part
Bada always seems to have trouble focusing whenever you teach or dance
When you're teaching her a combination, guarantee that she's only half paying attention to the choreography
The other half of her brain is completely focused on trying not to push you against the mirror and shove her tongue down your throat
After learning the chunk choreography you two decide to come up with a fun little duet to a later part of the song that you wouldn't be using for class
It was touchy and sensual, very intimate choreography that definitely gave off the vibe of two lovers, and probably wasn't very appropriate to perform in front of a live audience of students
(looking back on it afterward, you both were shocked at good the choreo actually was considering you both (mostly Bada) were extremely horny)
ANYWAYS-
Once you finished choreographing, you decided to record it to remember it
You did it a few times not liking the first recording, then really liking the second one
But you decided to do a third just because you both felt even better about the choreography after doing it on camera a few times
And it's a good thing that the second one was good because lord… nobody would be seeing the third version
As you and Bada danced for the third recording, the sensuality for whatever reason has been amped up, making the moves somehow even more intimate
As you transitioned into the last move where Bada usually just walked towards you, while you walked backward- she smoothly placed her hands on your waist while guiding you back and you reached up to place your hand on the back of her neck, the other hand placed over one of hers
You finish the dance and immediately after Bada uses her hold on your hips to pull you against her and kiss you passionately
It was so smooth and graceful that it almost looked like it was choreographed and part of the routine
You continue to make out in the middle of the room, but eventually make your way over to the sofa placed in the corner of the room 
The music was set on a loop due to you practicing it for hours, so your and Bada’s activities were accompanied by “sex money feelings die” playing in the background
You started out straddling her, fingers tangled in her hair as she felt you up underneath your (her) large t-shirt. She’s pretty sure the sweatpants you had on were hers too as she tugged at the string, untying them
You stood up briefly to take off your pants, Bada raising her hips to do the same before tugging off her shirt, leaving her in a sports bra and panties
She pulled you back toward the couch, this time having you lay on your back as she hovered over you, straddling one of your thighs so that one of her own was pressed against your core
She began to grind herself against you, gripping your other thigh as you began doing the same
The two of you continued to moan into each other’s mouth as you sloppily kissed and dry hump each other’s thighs, trying to gain any sort of friction or relief
It was messy, and not exactly ideal, but you were two horny girls who just wanted to fuck their pretty girlfriends, so that’s what you did
Bada’s hands were under your shirt, pushing your own sports bra up to reveal your tits, as she dove underneath the loose fabric to suck on your hardened nipples, causing your moans to increase in volume due to them not being muffled by her lips anymore
When she came back up after a few minutes, your hands found their way under her sports bras to do the same, pinching and flicking her nipples as she whined against your throat, leaving wet sloppy kisses
You both picked up the pace, rhythm becoming erratic and wreckless as you reached your climax
You buried your face in Bada’s shoulder as you pulled her against you moaning into her hair as she whined and whimpered against your neck
You lay there for a few moments before she sat up slightly and looked you in the eyes and you both began giggling and blushing
After putting your clothes back on, you began looking for your phone before realizing it was still at the front of the room, recording the whole thing
This was definitely going to be something the two of you rewatched often
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natriae · 1 year
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Hi can I request Ushijima having a crush on reader? 🥰
yes ofc!! This will be placed in highschool btw
If there was one thing you could guarantee every day walking into homeroom it was that Ushijima would be staring at you with no shame. You're fully convinced he hates you. Always glaring at you. He doesn't look away, and he never tries to talk to you. Trying to look though your brain to find any interaction you've bad with the ace and all you can think of was the time you brought him a sharpened pencil for his exam since then one he was using broke. Maybe he didn't was you to do that. Did you over step some boundaries? You didn't understand it until White day.
Walking into homeroom you notice Ushijima wasn't staring at you. It was weird his eyes were focused on his desk and eventually closed once you reached your desk. Looking down you saw a singular dandelion on your desk that looked like it was picked right outside the school. You begin srunching your brows trying to think of who brought you this. There was some dirt left behind and nothing else. There wasn't a note or anything.
Continuing on with your day you still couldn't figure out who left the flower at your desk. At lunch Tendou seemed to be in an awfully good mood. Running around and even going as far as to give Ushijima a kiss on the top of his head. Surpised you looked over and smiled. 'Jima looked up and immediately look back down once meeting your eyes. That was new. Did you mess up again. You decided that you would stop at the gym to confont Ushijima. You wouldn't let him keep treating you like this especially when you did nothing wrong.
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School had ended for the day and you were ready to solve this problem once and for all. Marching over the the gymnasium you saw a kid with dark hair in a bowl cut shape. You've never seen him before so you assumed he was younger then you.
"hi! is there anyway i can talk to Ushijima-san?" you asked politely. You tilted you head slightly as you spoke just to convice the kid a little more.
"u-uh yea-yeah i'll go get him right now," The black haired boy turned around as he said that almost running into the door of the gym. He must have thought it was urgent. Good, because the sooner you can get these feelings off of you chest the better.
Soon enough Ushijima came walking out of the gym doors seeming a lot less confident then he normally is. He wouldn't even look at you in the face. This was it. You called him face to face and he still can't respect you. "Ushijima I don't know what I did to you, but can you at least act like a respectful peer and look at me in the face. It wasn't hard for you to do all those months. I'm sorry for whatever I did but can you at least tell me what happened," Finally getting those feelings off your chest you felt a lot better. But what you didn't expect for him to do was to turn and look at the grass next to the door. No response from him. You couldn't help but scoff. Turning around to go home all you heard from Ushijima was, "wait,". His deep voice cut you off and you turned back around to him. He reached to the grass and plucked one of the dandelion from the ground. He eyed it one more time before gently grabbing you hand it placing the small flower on to it.
"i'm sorry the first one i gave you wasn't that nice. This one reminds me of you more," He said quietly. His deep voice still rang though your whole body as your brain finally realized he was the one that gave you the flower this morning.
"no Ushijima i'm not mad about the flower. You were mad at me right?" You asked him. The broad man just shook his head at that. He seemed confused at you accusations.
"why did you think i was mad at you?" He questioned. How ever the tone of his voice had not changed.
"you're always glaring at me and never speaking," holding on tighter to the flower you looked down unable to look at him the the face. The whole situation was confusing and upsetting you to the point where tears were building up in your eyes.
"i wasn't glaring. I was admiring... tendou did say i was being creeping," He whispered the last part of his sentence. " i picked that flower this morning because it reminded me of you, but i thought you didn't like it so i picked another," He said like it was obvious.
"it took you a long time to pick one," you sounded defeated, questioning if what he was saying was really genuine.
"the other ones didn't remind me of you...just those two" evertime he spoke he sounded so sure of himself. That must be what draws people in he's confident in almost everything he does.
"but they all look the same?" you questioned.
"no this one is prettier then the others," You didn't quite get what he saw, but you didn't need too, because you could tell he was serious. Like those two flowers were the only roses in a bunch of weeds, and yes a dandelion was technically a weed but you wouldn't hold it against him.
"so let me get this straight you don't hate me, and you got me these flowers because you...like me?" After your questioning statement he nodded his head once looking directly in your eyes. If the area wasn't so shaded you would be able to see the pink dusting his cheeks.
He wanted to say sorry for being weird, and that he has a hard time communicating his feelings, but your smile was enough for him to feel comforted. He felt even safer when you got down, picked a dandelion from the grass, and placed it gently in his hand. He wouldn't tell you, but he still had that flower years later, in a frame, wilted and dead but still his most prized possession.
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i think i may make a samu but from ushijima pov 🤔
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blueaetherr · 1 year
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hi would you write a fluff with Mason Mount? Maybe they are having a baby and they decide to spread the news to his family on a dinner? I really appreciate your writing! 💗
the good news
pairing: mason mount x fem!reader [she/her]
warning(s): none
summary: the one where they share the news about their growing family with mason's family
author's note: hi anon, thanks for the requests and ur kind words! i haven't written for mason for a while so this one is a bit shorter compared to my recent ones, but i still hope you enjoy it. also, i'll be trying to write more for the next few days so my requests are currently open!
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"I'm real nervous right now," Y/N said, quite out of nowhere, as the two were strolling on the footpath.
Mason chuckled to himself as he guided his partner around a puddle so she wouldn't step in it. "You make it seem like you're meeting my parents for the first time."
Perhaps sure it wouldn't be the first time for Y/N, but it definitely felt like it. She remembers that day—meeting Mason's parents that is, and the emotions and experience that came with it all. She was initially a wreck. She remembers her nerves flaring up; the shaking hands, the unsure smiles, that feeling of not feeling prepared for any confrontation, constantly having to recheck her appearance over and over in the mirror before they left.
Fortunately, with her nerves acting up came Mason. Through his voice and physical touch, he was there to put her at ease. Reassuring Y/N that everything would be alright, that she didn't need to fuss over an outfit because she already looked perfect, that her interest in him– something so pure and real– was enough for his family to love her as they did him. From the time he had arrived at her apartment to when they had reached his parents' home, Mason remained her voice of reason. 
So Y/N trusted Mason, and she was right to trust him. 'Cause from the friendly welcomes she received from everyone in his family to sharing kind conversations with his mom and bonding so well with her, it was a good day for her—an outwardly positive experience. She had walked away pleased with the meeting.
Those same emotions felt back almost two years ago were being felt right now. Or maybe that was just because of the acute life growing inside her.
"I promise there's no reason to be, love. Why would you be anyway? I know my mum tries to bring up the baby convos with you too." He pointed at his girlfriend when he noticed her dimples appear, making him tilt his head back in laughter. Exhaling deeply, he shook his head. "Of course she does." 
Both Mason and Y/N knew his parents were excited that they were together, especially his mom. They didn't guarantee anything like kids or marriage when Mason finally got a girlfriend, and his parents respected that. His relationship, now rather established and prospering, simply kept the hope alive.
He opened the front gate of his parents' home, allowing Y/N to pass by first. "They love me but they probably love you a bit more." Stopping at the front door, he took the opportunity to press his lips against her cheek and watched her smile flourish even more. If her nerves really were present, he wanted to be the one to give her reassurance; to let her know everything would be alright. "This is everything my mum has ever wanted for us. I think we're in the good."
She felt her head tilt in admiration for Mason. For his emotional support through his jokes and distinct words because it wasn't the first she had heard them. The reassurance he was giving her mirrored the one he'd offered her some time ago– back when he had introduced her to his family. She absolutely loved the growth in his words, the transition from they'll love you to they love you made her feel whole.
And from there, the rest was only deja vu for Y/N. The door opened and they were welcomed by Mason's mom with her smiles and everything galore, with her embraces too for Y/N that felt like unique warmth and kindness and love. And it was all the same with his friends and family present. Speaking to her with commonality, including her in jokes and conversations by simply mentioning her name or calling for her input.
Or the moments when someone would pull Y/N away from Mason when he wanted her all to himself. It was something that should've annoyed Mason, but honestly he didn't mind it. Witnessing his favourite people interact and have fun was a sight he would never be tired of seeing. It was also 'cause when Mason would catch her attention from across the room and mouth I told you so, Y/N would cave in and roll her eyes. But always did she follow it up with a small laugh. 
'Cause when it was all said and done, Mason wasn't far from the truth—Y/N, with time, came to understand that well. From his parents to his siblings and friends, she was loved and embraced by everyone with open arms. There was nothing for her to be scared of.
And glancing around at everyone as they were sitting around the dining table for dinner—passing around food options with harmony, clutching onto one another from excessive laughter, encouraging conversation and simple talk for everyone to be involved in—Y/N realised that's the environment she wanted to be around. For herself, for her relationship with Mason and for their future child.
An environment where you would feel accepted, loved and felt like you belonged among this amazing band of people. Where someone would pull you in when you were suddenly drifting, where you would find yourself entertained when everything seemed quite dull, where you would smile and laugh without any intention of stopping 'cause you were just so consumed with joy and happiness.
That's all Y/N wanted for her budding family—comfort and security, a place clear of judgement. That's all she could ask for.
Hearing her name being called out, she turned to the person calling for her attention– Mason's mom. "Y/N, you okay hun? You kinda blanked out on us there."
Y/N blinked a few times, realising that she had indeed drifted for a minute or two. Thankfully, the room was busy with chat and laughter, so the focus wasn't completely on her. "Oh sorry, I'm fine, yeah," she moved her hair off her shoulders, chuckling through a soft exhale. "It's been happening for a while now. I didn't think the first three months would be like this."
It was only when she was taking a slip of her drink that Y/N realised the phrasing of her words, quickly putting it down to correct herself. She seemed to be late, however, when a gasp from Mason's mom had the commotion in the room fall flat. Her glance at the young couple caused the focus to shift to Y/N and Mason as everyone witnessed the older woman struggle to form her words.
"What do you mean by that?" she asked, glancing between her son and his partner. She tried to hide it, but there was a bit of excitement in her words. She had an idea in mind (I mean, it seemed a bit obvious), but she needed someone to confirm her thoughts before she could celebrate anything. "What does she mean by that, Mase?"
It was amusing because Mason and Y/N chose to announce the good news without saying anything. Joining hands, fingers interlocking well, they shared smiles keen and knowing before her free hand fell comfortably on her stomach.
That was enough confirmation for his mom who was the first to react; a cry full of happiness and delight that sent everyone in the room in awe. And from there everything else went so fast: the congratulations, the whole yet delicate hugs, the kisses on her cheeks and forehead, the reassuring words from every other person approaching the couple– that they would be supported and loved during the next few challenging months.
It was all overwhelming for Y/N as she wiped away those few stray tears, with her laughter and smiles, however, far more prominent. This environment that she wanted for her aspiring family was no longer a want; she was officially a part of it now.
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mooncleaver · 2 years
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how they would hold your hands
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pairings: percy jackson, annabeth chase, leo valdez, jason grace, piper mclean; gn! reader
warnings: once again i am rambling. are we surprised
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#PERCY JACKSON
➵ percy is a physically affectionate boy!! he likes to hold your hand or any part of you really at every chance he gets.
➵ now don't tell me he wouldn't wear rings. i refuse to believe he doesn't. (LIKE OMG imagine him just doing his normal business, wearing the most gorgeous pinterest bf vibe clothing plus being laden with all sorts of accessories; vintage, gold, silver, turquoise/opal. what a concept. PEOPLE WOULD BE SCARED!) this man would have a generous collection of them and they're amazing fidget items. he also let’s you wear them and at some point you guys have matching rings <3
➵ i’m the number one (1) supporter of percy jackson being a vivienne westwood king. but feel free to comment on that my besties x.
➵ it becomes such a common thing that if you sit next to him he'll automatically grab your hands. its a subtle way for percy to show you he’s there and to make sure you’re safe.
➵ when he gets nervous he searches for you and 99% of the times ends up with your hand on his lap. (or vice versa, really)
➵ when i tell you he has grip that's so evident whenever you're holding hands.
➵ this is so genius to me wtf but you have a handshake that leads to hand holding. when it's been a thing for a really, really long time the two of you would probably start doing it subconsciously. in a cabin meeting? boom silent handshake. approaching him during a group conversation? boom absolutely soundless and flawless handshake. no eye contact was even made. it ends up with your hands intertwined behind your backs if it's not a pda kinda moment <3 i'm not gonna get into the technicalities of the handshake because i'd be damned, so you get to decide how you want it lovelies!
➵ likes to do regency-ball-type-beat-jane-austen-slay gentlemanly kisses to the back of your hand while greeting you. (ikyk) it's silly but it's a 10.
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#ANNABETH CHASE
➵ i’m gonna base this off of like percabeth 2/4 romance arc so i think annabeth may be a little shy (sometimes prideful lol) to hold your hand at the beginning. it's not that she doesn't want to, but she's like um.. im kinda embarrassed,, so its a sweet and slow thing that you will have to initiate most of the times.
➵ my bestie definitely has other, more prominent love languages lawl
➵ finger holding is her get-go!! the type to drag you everywhere (gently) on dates. now it's guaranteed she'll do that if you’re going to a museum or a place with lots of architectural structures. you best believe she’ll be tugging you around explaining the origins of each monument to a t!
➵ overall, annie has loose and almost fleeting contact when it comes to hand holding. but it can be upped to like a 100 during distressing situations.
➵ sometimes when you're around, she'd start tapping or lightly pulling on your fingers in stressful situations. like when she's trying to decode or figure something out on daedalus' laptop and she feels too much all at once, the comfort of your hands may just be her anchor.
➵ i don't know why i’m imagining something so emotional with annabeth but when things get really bad; in the middle of battle.. or something tells the two of you that tragedy is over the horizon, she'll just grip your hands and look at you with the most vulnerable and intense—almost heartbreaking—look in her eyes. complete with the eyebrows furrowed and nostrils flaring in barely-subdued panic. you don't need her to say it to know that she loves you.
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#LEO VALDEZ
➵ leo!! i think leo runs hot so he's like your cute little furnace. he would quite literally warm your hands up while cradling them between his. it's very convenient when you're sitting on his lap or leaning your back against his chest.
➵ this probably goes for all the characters that they can be quite fidgety, but leo does these.. strange positions when hand holding. very unorthodox ways to combine each other's hands but you'd go along with it anyways bc its cute and fun.
➵ for some reason he always has something in his hands like tools, food—yes food. snacks that are exclusively for the two of you to share—or smears of oil and ashes. (courtesy of the lovely festus) so you'd have to be particularly mindful about that.
➵ gosh he would be the type of person that twirls you around for a hug. i think it's just me being super cheesy and romantic, but just imagine... it's such a fun and carefree way of greeting each other. esp happens during joyful moments. so spontaneous and unexpected when you think he's only taking you by the hand but he actually spins your body towards his embrace :,,)
➵ also very accessible. literally will just hold his hand out in the air and there'd be a telepathic signal for you to plop yours atop his. people are staring at him like sir?? what? and then you'd come in and everything makes sense. (when you're more familiar with each other, this would def apply for giving him tools and scraps when he's tinkering and making things)
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#JASON GRACE
➵ jason.. dude.. something compels me to say he would be kinda awkward. like partially bc of his strict upbringing in camp jupiter for idk 12? years of his life.
➵ but he’s SO SWEET like if you were the one to initiate it—smiling at him and taking his calloused hands in yours—he would blush like mad idc what anyone says. jason really has an adorable, jarring carmine blush whenever he feels flustered or embarrassed and it paints the tips of his ears too.
➵ definitely one for super subtle, pinky-to-pinky hand holding and fiddling with them whenever.
➵ sometimes when you two are alone he holds both of your hands and it allows for a more intimate face-to-face conversation/ moment. jason thinks doing all these gestures are very personal and.. sacred? almost. like, he treasures them a lot and it's incredibly heartwarming.
➵ there’s a really specific idea i thought with jason but you have this thing where you’d do the ‘measure my hands against yours’ gesture and turn it into hand-holding. i think that’s so cute.
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#PIPER MCLEAN
➵ piper is a hand swinger ong. like yeah she's in a relationship and she's not afraid to flaunt it??
➵ piper has really beautiful, nimble? fingers. i don’t know how i can explain this without sounding weird, but there’s an unusual elegance to the way they move. it’s very distinctive to hold.
➵ she holds you by the elbows. so looping your arms together :)
➵ that opens the door for brushing her fingers atop your skin. but with piper, she tends to do so over your wrists, stroking the skin encasing your veins.
➵ she traces over your palms too; all the lines and jagged marks. dunno if you guys also did this, but when i was younger me and my friends would do palm readings to "predict the future". it's not actually true i think pls, but piper seems like the kind of gal who'd do it just for laughs.
➵ you obviously have matching charm bracelets. also lots of those diy friendship bracelets that decorate your wrists like rainbows.
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🦋: ok so.. originally this was supposed to be hand holding only but i went a little bit off the rails
credits to original artists for the arts that i used! also, they're only references and i'm not trying to pertain to a specific gender :D
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lavender-romancer · 8 months
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Winter
Ivar Ragnarsson x Reader CW: suicide mentions, conflict
You wanted to be his again, not owned by him but a part of him. But it had been so long since you'd felt close to Ivar that it felt out of reach as he descended into rage filled madness
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You were drifting apart more and more with every hastily made decision fueled by anger that Ivar made. He would curse you, berate you and you could do anything because you didn't trust that he wouldn't kill you himself. You knew something was deathly wrong when you kept finding yourself high on a hill looking over a rock face, moving closer to the edge every time and not feeling afraid. It was impossible to not feel that you were lost in the dark of Ivar's tyranny. But you still craved his adoration, his love and the affirmation that he only wanted you. All of these things would never happen now, you weren't good enough for him.
You needed him running through your veins like a sickness that couldn't be cured- a toxicity that fuelled your love and in turn, your hatred for him. You didn't want to need anyone, when you were younger your mother had always taught you to never need anyone more than yourself. To stay self-reliant and not let anyone control you but, it was impossible. When you met Ivar he was the son of Ragnar, a grumpy boy with no battle experience and a soft spot for you. Now, after 6 years of marriage you couldn't decide if you needed to try harder or just throw yourself on to that cliff face.
"It feels like he's trying to erase me, fade me out of his life and forget I was ever there." You told Helga as you sat descaling some fish with her.
"Ivar is… complicated, I'm sure I had this conversation with you when you started seeing him. He's a different type of person from us. Not as emotional," she tried to smile but could tell that her words weren't necessarily comforting.
"I was so convinced that he loved me then, that he would do anything for me. But he just wants power and money and meaningless sex, I just can't believe he deceived me into this marriage." Helga suddenly gripped your hand.
"This is not your fault. As you said, you were deceived by someone who claimed to love you. The boy has some kind of power. It pulls some people in and I don't know what it is but it captured you," She paused. "I think you should tell him."
"He wouldn't even see me, I can guarantee there's a thrall rooted to his lap right now." You clenched your teeth together and tried to hold in your rage.
"You need to let it out, your rage. Go to the top of a mountain and scream, allow yourself to feel it." Helga suggested and you nodded.
"What I really want is to have him, it's pathetic but I'm so in love with him it's hard to overcome." You placed down the fish and groaned.
"It will pass, and if it doesn't, meet someone else who will be more emotionally attentive. Ivar seems like the kind of man who needs other people's feelings laid out in front of him." Helga smiled and her dark rimmed eyes made contact with you as the two of you carried on with the fish.
Ivar was drunk out of his mind, two naked thralls sitting on his lap as he'd occasionally take their breasts into his mouth. Some days he would forget you were even his wife, you hardly saw each other. He wouldn't say it was an excuse for his behavior but it was definitely a promoting factor of it. You used to smother him, cover him in a blanket of affection and make him feel like no one could hurt him. Ivar didn't remember when that stopped but he also didn't remember when he began sleeping with other women. The crossover between the two was so seamless it made him feel less remorseful, as if your absence made his actions warranted.
When Ivar saw you walk into the Great hall he felt less than he thought he would. In some ways he was happy to see how miserable you looked, hopeful you'd come crawling back to him in pure adoration. Ivar couldn't think of a better way to gain a woman's affection than by making her jealous. Unaware of his ridiculous thought process, Ivar continued looking you up and down through his eyebrows. You could only glare back at him as you headed towards your room, but you annoyingly had to go past Ivar.
"You despise me, wife?" Ivar asked and you stopped in your tracks, sighing deeply.
"Yes." You said simply, even though you loved him you needed him to wake up.
"But… that's not. What?" He said confused, pushing the thralls to the floor, with a resounding yelp from both the women.
"What do you want, Ivar?" You looked at him with such disdain it genuinely surprised him.
"You cannot speak to me like that!" He yelled and you sighed again.
"Then kill me." You sounded defeated, you didn't care anymore. It would be easier for it to all be over so you didn't have to deal with the emotional turmoil of him.
"I'm not going-" he paused. "You are my wife! Why won't you respect me?" He yelled again and you almost winced at the level of noise he was making.
For a few moments all you could hear was the scrape of his crutch and the crackle of the fire, for a moment it felt surprisingly peaceful. You just wanted to exist in that scene, a beautiful fire with furs on the floor in front of it where the local children would sit and be told stories. There was such a serenity to watching children's faces as they listened to a story, they hadn't experienced the hurt or the pain. All they knew was that this was their favourite day because they could sit inside the great hall and feel important. Even Ivar couldn't take that sense of pride away from them.
"Are you going to say anything, wife?" Ivar broke the blissful silence and you couldn't quite believe how aggravating it all was.
"I hate you, I hate what you've done to me." Was all you said and he looked astonished.
"I won't have this bullshit!" He yelled even louder before calling for his guards. "Tie her to a tree in the forest." He swatted you away like you were a pest but, at this point you saw no reason to resist. Ivar would do whatever he wanted with his power and most of the time that would mean fucking you around.
Even the guards were uncomfortable as they threw a rope over a strong tree branch and tied you by your wrists so that your arms always had to be extended. It wasn't the worst punishment you could have got, you were surprised Ivar hadn't got a lust for blood when you disrespected him. He would continue to degrade you and debase you no matter what you did, even though you loved him it didn't matter anymore. Ivar was so consumed by greed or power or hatred for you that he couldn't focus on anything else.
Your heart felt cold and tight. There wasn't any room for any more love because you had given it all away to someone who didn't want it or didn't realise how much he needed it. In one breath you would hope that he would just come and kill you and in the other, you still hoped he would wait for you. That he would allow your coupling to at least attempt to survive. Sometimes when you were around Ivar, you would feel a tiny part of your body decompose. One part of you died because you couldn't hold on to someone who only wanted to break away from you. But all you wanted was to be taken back to when you were younger, you needed him, you wanted him and he would never be what he was again.
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I really like your Headcanon about blade x reader as nahida/rukkhadevata
Can you make part 2? When the reader meet blade again
Its okay if you don't want to
hello! i wrote a very short drabble regarding this request because if i do a oneshot, it would take forever.
part one is here.
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Move.
Move to another place or city and never look back, your original plan upon discovering blade's true intentions but the thing is you didn't want to irritate him considering he is just a mere stranger.
a stranger that wouldn't escape from your mind. the stellaron hunter kept to the shadows but it never was a guarantee that he would be satisfied with just observing you.
blade was unpredictable where he might decide to swoop in on you one day or hopefully just grow bored and ditch you altogether. you never told anyone though because it likely would sped up either of these two outcomes.
the second one would be nothing but relieving but the first outcome would be a doorway to never ending hell. what was the stellaron hunter truly capable of? you don't become a wanted criminal just by stealing a few things from here to there.
the curiosity won but after reading one news article detailing his crime, you stopped researching the man because the contents was enough to freak you out. blade used an innocent child as leverage so imagine what he would do to you, a full grown woman.
the mere thought sent shivers down your spine. so as a feeble attempt, you tried to pretend blade didn't exist and resume your daily life. maybe if you became bland enough, he would forget about you but dating was not an option right now since who know what would happen.
since the letter incident, blade had disappeared entirely. the only choice was to forget about him but after leaving the house, you would always double lock the door despite it's being useless.
it still managed to invoke a sense of calmness, so you did it every time but on a particular chilly night, the door was slightly ajar open. your senses went into overdrive after noticing it.
where is blade?
that is when you felt a pair of arm wrapped around you from behind along with a foreign scent.
"boo, (y/n)."
you wanted to scream. blade was standing behind you with his arms wrapped around your frame.
what will happen now?
you didn't know.
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yurislotusgarden · 4 months
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TEACHER/PROFESSOR!DAZAI HC'S PART 2
ʚїɞ There are hc's just about teacher Dazai but also some including reader once again so-
ʚїɞ Dazai x reader
ʚїɞ Keep in mind English is not my first language, so you may find mistakes!
ʚїɞ word count: 785
ʚїɞ Part 1
ʚїɞ My current ongoing Christmas event
ʚїɞ Tw’s: None! Just some regular fluff and stuff
ʚїɞ The first part was more liked than I thought damn
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ཐིཋྀ If you want to find him outside of the lesson there are 3 options if he isn’t in the classroom
ཐིཋྀ One would be that he’s in Chuuya’s classroom to annoy him (many students wonder why he goes there when they claim to hate each other)
ཐིཋྀ The second one would be that he’s gone to the teacher's lounge probably annoying Kunikida
ཐིཋྀ Or the third option, the lil shit is wandering around the halls so you need to count on sheer luck to find him
ཐིཋྀ Everyone wonders whether he comes to work with bed hair everyday because he's too lazy to brush it out or his hair is naturally messy
ཐིཋྀ HE WOULD HAVE HIS HAIR UP IN A PONYTAIL VERY OFTEN SO IT DOESN’T GO INTO HIS EYES VBDWIBWJWDAEDIVAD
ཐིཋྀ In winter he makes it look like he has a new sweater/shirt everyday, but he simply styles it differently (Motivation comes from the amusement he gets after confusing the students)
ཐིཋྀ He so would wear jewelry like necklaces, earrings, and rings (he wore all his rings outside of the gloves besides the marriage band until his marriage was revealed to the students, after that, it joined the other rings on top and not under the material)
ཐིཋྀ Chuuya even gets him new jewelry every few months, even if there isn't a special occasion
ཐིཋྀ He wanted to make one of those charts with stars or other shapes for specific things like ‘you get a star if you give your work in on time’ to give out good grades practically for free but the school didn't allow him
ཐིཋྀ Students would love that idea, because who wouldn't want free good grades
ཐིཋྀ Actually, I think the school would let him do the chart thing in his first year, but said ‘no’ later
ཐིཋྀ His classroom would be decorated for different occasions, no doubt on that one
ཐིཋྀ He and Chuuya once came to work in each other's clothes and literally everyone was so lost on why they lost a bet to you
ཐིཋྀ Whenever he's in as a substitute, he makes it so damn fun that no student even thinks of skipping because they would miss absolute tea
ཐིཋྀ He always has pens/pencils for the students to borrow if they need it
ཐིཋྀ During his first few years,  a student would get expelled every year from his class due to their stupid decision to flirt with him because they wanted better grades or needed to pass
ཐིཋྀ Speaking of that, a student flirted with you once (a small passing crush) and you had to stop Dazai from expelling them for that😭✋
ཐིཋྀ One time, he randomly called in, saying he couldn't go in. It was obvious he wasn't sick but he hung up before anyone could ask questions
ཐིཋྀ You were sick, that's the reason
ཐིཋྀYou brought cookies the first time you visited Dazai’s class to actually meet the students, and immediately, they held you in high regard because ’Professor Dazai’s spouse brought a cookie for every single student in his class, and you just can’t dislike someone who gives cookies because they wanted to make sure they seem nice’
ཐིཋྀ You wanted to bring ice cream but you realized early on how much it would need to be and decided on cookies instead
ཐིཋྀ The students would be absolutely jealous of Dazai’s bentos when they saw them, no matter whether it was before they knew about you or after
ཐིཋྀ If it was before, they would always ask where he got them and he would give a random street name, just for the students to realize it was something completely different once they checked out the actual address
ཐིཋྀ If it’s after they found out, I can guarantee that some students straight up asked or even offered money to have a bento made by you💀
“It looks so delicious [random name]!”
“You still shouldn’t have asked his spouse to make you food.”
“You’re acting like the professor knows I asked about it.”
“And you’re acting like it’s not obvious that I’ve been told about that.”
ཐིཋྀ Yes, he scared those 2 students in the middle of the lecture and assigned extra work for the one that asked you for food
ཐིཋྀ Dazai gatekeeps your meals from most people, he would from everyone if it wasn't for the fact that he knows it would make you sad to be unable to give food to your friends😭
ཐིཋྀ You sometimes give Dazai 2 or more bentos than just one if you know that one of the other professors didn't make food for the day (if the other person is Chuuya, you need to tell the ginger that Dazai has another bento with him or he won't get it because of Dazai not bothering to tell him or giving it to him)
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Notes, comments, and reblogs are greatly appreciated
@kissesmellow21 @deonsx @sukiischaotic (I hope you 3 won't mind the tagging <3)
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harlowhockeystick · 1 month
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coach sidney as written by taylor swift songs
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to begin, she hoped sidney wouldn't think of her as some sort of slut for doing what she's doing. for hooking up to get her son on varsity, but in the midst of all that she starts to fall for him. she starts to imagine what it would be like if they were together. if other people started to talk, but she couldn't help it because it went straight to her head. she got lovesick, they were just in the wrong place at the right time she thinks. it might blow up in their faces, they might just fall in love, and if they do so what?
then it moves to a scene like i can see you. right after the infamous dinner at sidney's house where she laid it down real good so her son could get on varsity, the tension was thick between them. they had to be fast and keep quiet, both of them had imagined things to do with each other, and when sidney sent her a text in the middle of a school district fundraiser gala that said meet me tonight. he was tired of seeing other guys talk to her.
as she feels herself falling in love, he does too, it turns into both of them wanting to be end game. sidney wants to be her number one, he wants to be the first thing on her mind always. he knows they would be the cause of a lot of chatter amongst school staff, they would be a big deal and it might cause a rip in their reputation but he wouldn't care. and she doesn't want to be just another woman to sidney. they might try to just forget about the first hookup but they just couldn't. every night she thinks of his liquor colored eyes and she realizes she doesn't want to be just anything, she wants to be end game.
she realizes after a few dates and actually getting to know one another, that he is the absolute king of my heart, as she wrote in her journal one night. because she was perfectly fine living on her own, after her ex husband left her she decided it was just going to be her and carter and that it was better that way. but now, a month in, he calls her baby and he stays at her house some nights too when carter is at his friends for the night, of course. she enjoys spending nights outside under the stars, drinking beer and having innocent touches turn into lustful fistfuls of clothing and dark marks left in spaces where only he can see.
she knows people will just call it what they want after they have to tell the hr department at school they're together. she knows people will snicker, start rumors, paint scandalous pictures when they see them in the teachers lounge together. when they see him sitting next to her during warm ups before a game, or when they see the two love bird on a date out in town. but she smiles because she's the one he's walking toward, she's the one he's sitting next to. he caused flowers to grow back, she can laugh and smile more, she can have fun too. oh, and when she shows up to work one day with a 's' charm on her necklace next to the 'c' one she got for her son carter, you can guarantee that everyone is losing their minds.
she keeps waiting for the other shoe to drop, for something drastic to happen, for the end to come, but she keeps running home to his sweet nothings to remind her that everything will be just fine. after a year of being together, sidney makes sure to have lots of time with carter too. sure he's dating her, but he wants to make sure over and over that carter is okay with it. she gets so happy to sidney bond with carter like he does, to make sure that sidney includes carter in everything he does at home. to see him in the kitchen humming, teaching carter how to use the grill, it happens all the time.
sidney makes sure to ask carter before anyone else if it's okay if he marries his mom. he takes him out to lunch and he makes sure carter knows it's okay if he doesn't want it to happen and that sidney will respect his decision. he gets his blessing, and as if she was eavesdropping that night she said she'll marry him with paper rings if he ever asked, and that was all the confirmation he needed.
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This is the stupidest thing I've ever written. There's no ship, it's just Moon being a dumbass with Nikto from @thedovesaredying 's cowboy fic. I can't do him justice but I can annoy him.
You decide whether this makes him Canon in the Cowboy town.
The run down pickup that creeps up the driveway sets Nikto's teeth on edge. Nothing good comes with rust on its wheel wells. Nikto clicks his tongue and Sputnik hops to attention, following after him as he stands and settles a hand on the gun at his hip. His fingers tighten on the grip, as the truck comes to a stop. Sputnik let's out a nervous laugh, taking a step closer to the vehicle before Nikto can give a stop command. The engine shuts off and he watches as the driver pulls themselves out of the driver's window, settling on the door like a seat.
"Hey," the nun, he thinks that's a nun, yells, "is your dog friendly?"
Nikto looks down at the hyena at his side, then at the nun. "No." He calls back, because she isn't a dog and she definitely isn’t friendly. The nun nods and slides back into the truck, before opening the cab door properly and hopping to the ground. Shes got army boots on, Nikto's fingers tighten on his handgun and he whistles for Sputnik to guard.
He has to nudge the hyena for her attention, the animal creeping forward to sniff at the air. The nun crouches and makes smooching noises, tossing bits of, something, towards Sputnik. "Is not friendly," Nikto tells her again. He's starting to question if some secret assassin wouldn't be smarter than this. He takes his hand off his gun to scruff the hyena and prevent it from mauling this idiot.
"That's what the dog treats are for," she tosses another and Sputnik eagerly lunges for it.
"Is not dog," Nikto growls, starting to lose patience. As if to confirm Sputnik let's out a frustrated laugh, turning to try and bite at him so he'll release his iron grip. The nun seems undeterred, standing back to her full --unimpressive-- height with a scowl.
"Look man-" the annoyance in the nun's tone makes him press again.
"Дурак, is not dog."
"Whatever," she waves a hand, "you gotta unload your booze either way. Lemme pet the dog."
Nikto holds the nun's unamused stare for a moment before releasing his hold on Sputnik. He's done enough good deeds for the day, if the hyena rips the nun apart... He warned her. Sputnik is all too happy to follow the trail of treats, sniffing along the dirt for the next morsel as Nikto makes his way around the truck to examine the cases of hand bottled liquor. He tugs a clear bottle free, inspects the crystalline liquid inside, and pops the cap to sniff it. He hears the laughter that should prelude ripping and tearing, and focuses instead on the scent of pure alcohol that fills his nose. It's burns even just smelling it. He takes a swig and has to suppress the cough that rises to meet the sting. Fuck that's good.
He grabs two more bottles and goes to meet the nun's corpse.
She's petting the damn-
"What the fuck are you doing?" He asks the hyena, spits the Russian at it. Sputnik hardly registers his question, busy having her chin scratched while the nun coos at her.
It takes several more minutes to wrangle both the nun and the hyena into getting payment processed. Does she not know that this animal has torn men limb from limb? Apparently not, the way she keeps tossing treats at the thing between every sentence. Explaining that she normally charges more but as a first time customer he can have a discount. Nikto suspects someone else is likely paying through the nose to guarantee this kindness. If he can even call it that. He hasn't been around many nuns, but he would think someone devoted to God would be a bit more... godly.
It's a blessing when the nun finally gets the fuck off his property. The delivery is better than having to go into town but fuck, not by much. Nikto glares down at the hyena sniffling at the ground again, looking for more treats.
"You're not dog," he reminds her, earning a big sad eyed stare from the animal in question. "Idiot," he grumbles, turning to take his bottles into the house. Some guard dog.
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I just know that that anon is the same person who was camping under two Jikook blogs yesterday and I don't know why y'all even waste your time on them because it's clear as day that they're just a Jungkook solo who's extremely homophobic.
It's okay to think that he's not with Jimin and that he's someone who fools around and has a high body count. Anything is possible. But to double down on the fact that "JK fucks girls" is all I need to know about that person and what their agenda really is. If the point they're trying to make is that it's unlikely for a young, handsome, successful and famous man like him to be in a committed monogamous relationship, then why is their emphasis only on the fact that he's sleeping with women? He can still be sleeping with men as well, no?
I love how they use "scandals" and that recent smoking clip of him *nonchalantly* staring at a girl for three seconds as proof that he likes pussy, but conveniently ignore all the times he's shown blatant attraction towards men over the years.
I wouldn't be surprised if anon is just a JK solo imagines herself as his future Y/N and doesn't like the fact that there are so many people who believe he possibly doesn't like women, likes men and even more so, that he's been in love with one for so many years. It shatters the illusion.
Anon should give up on coming here with some mission to make Jikookers "see the light". It's futile. There have been many like them years before, they're not the first. But what's always interesting about these people is that I've never see them camping under Taekook, Yoonmin and Vmin (when it still had people who genuinely believed they were in a romantic relationship) blogs with their theories.
I've always lurked on every side of ARMY Tumblr and I never see the other shippers getting such asks; it's always Jikookers. Which is strange considering that Jikookers aren't even nearly as loud as Taekookers or Yoonminers for them to always attract people like that.
Simple answer?
Cuz they feel threatened by a 5'9 androgynous beauty who gets heart eyes 24/7 from their solo stan.
But what they forget is that before Jimin's "glow up" (cuz dude was always hot he just matured into an ethereal being and honestly good for him) JK was still obsessed. Constantly touching and squeezing his arm muscles, the almost exorcist neck turn when Jimin would flash his abs during the choreo for "No More Dream", how when the members were asked what part of Jimin they liked the best, JK doubled down and said "all of that".
He LOVES that man. And whether they think it's platonic or romantic, some people have a problem with it. And that's horrible for them because their bond is so rare. It should be celebrated. The gods decided those two should meet, they should bond, and we are better for it. Because something like that comes along so rarely, and we are privileged to witness it.
But homophobic bitches and delusional yns ruin it. They can't accept it. I guarantee you that if those two weren't half as hot and as popular as they are, they wouldn't give a fuck. It's the audacity to them. How dare a gorgeous man love another gorgeous man? He should be getting all that pussy, spreading his seed far and wide, not settling for a man. How dare he gatekeep his own hotness??
That's how they think. And it's revolting.
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14 𝓓𝓪𝔂’𝓼 𝓦𝓲𝓽𝓱 𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓡𝓮𝓷/𝓡𝓮𝓭𝓪𝓬𝓽𝓮𝓭 𝓗𝓮𝓪𝓭𝓬𝓪𝓷𝓷𝓸𝓷’𝓼
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Things I genuinely think Ren-Ren and Redacted would do, because they live rent free in my mind. Did I get the both of them a little mixed up a bit; probably. Yandere and slight NSFW Content trigger warning! ૮‪ ˶ˆ꒳ˆ˵ ა
18+ Content; Minors Do Not Interact
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❥ Much like your blow up mattress in the closet, Ren/Redacted would tamper with anyting that insensitive’s having guests over. You bought travel sized soap’s for guest’s to use when they come over? Really? Are you sure? No you didn't—the products aren't where you would have put them so maybe it was all part of your imagination; maybe you used them.
❥ However that being said, if you have a chalk board and write a cute little ‘welcome’ message on it, he wouldn't tamper with it, despite the message being for guests. Instead he'd pretend you wrote it especially for him, and stare at if for a couple minutes after walking in; your hand writing is too cute to look away!!! although if you happened to have a generic target welcome sign, he’d snag it or make it look like it fell super hard on the floor so it’s ruined. The apartment building you’re in has plenty of issues so maybe the rats climbed the table and knocked it off—if this happens you should really give that landlord a piece of your mind! Or move in with Ren/Redacted.
❥ Prior to meeting Redacted’s Ren persona, Leon invited you out to the beach. You were so excited to see your childhood friend again after all the time you spent apart; you even bought a new swim suit. You set the folded suit nice and neat on your living room table, ensuring nothing would happen to it. However when you woke up the suit had somehow ripped and your bottoms wouldn't stay on… you couldn't necessarily surf commando and considering how much money the suit put you out, you decided to call it, giving Leon a quick text. It had to be those damn rats again!
❥ If you like to bake—whether you’re good or not, you notice that anything you leave out has little indents, as if you unconsciously bumped the cake or knocked it with a butter knife while applying the finishing touches. Guaranteed Redacted and Ren both straight up ran a finger along side it like a kid at a birthday party who can't have a piece yet. Every time you leave something out, Ren/Redacted deeply contemplates how much they can take before you notice. They would definitely make it look like it fell off the table after having a piece— if they knew it wouldn’t upset you. Most always they stops themselves from destroying the baked good because it’s something their Angle made, with love! When they think about how they just tasted something made with your love, their brain goes haywire with scenarios of you baking together.
❥ Your perfumes have been draining so quick lately, to the point in which you wondered if all of Conan bay could smell you when you walked outside. Honestly, were you using that much? No, Redacted plays smarter not harder. He popped off at his nearest Ulta and bought an empty perfume sample vial, and the exact same perfume; now I know what you're thinking. If he already has the same perfume, why would he buy the sample vial? Because it just hits different when it's from ‘Your’ perfume. It's because ‘You’ own and use the perfume in your bathroom, and on top of that he gets to sneak the new perfume into your bag or your apartment after you’ve gone shopping, so you think you bought it—unknowingly accepting his gift. Drives the dude crazy. Made every awkward glance at ulta worth it.
❥ After you start ‘dating’ Ren because he declared it so, you might have the common thought to buy him a gift; what sane partner doesn't wanna put a smile on their own partner face? Did you get him a little pink cactus to put by his computer because it’s also pink and fluffy? A cutsie light up keyboard? A mug? don’t come for me :(;゙゚'ω゚'): Bet you thought you hid it well or that if you bought it while out with him, he never noticed; ya’ wrong. Ren and Redacted both notice everything their Angle does. There is only Angle. Ren had a hunch, Redacted was just pretending to be blissfully unaware but, once you give it to him, he’ll drop hints that he knew.
❥ At some point you invite Ren/Redacted over only to find that the heater isn’t working. Every time you set it to 72, ten minutes later it drops down to 62. Luckily Ren/Redacted was there to warm you up. Ren would be more passive and wait for you to say you were cold but if you took to long he’d drop some obvious hints that he was cold even though he was in fact not cold. He was the one who was playing with the thermostat after all. This Man just wants some cuddles. Whilst I think Redacted would be adamant about wanting to keep his Angle warm (Even if angle isn’t actually cold)—maybe a bit too adamant if consensual. Even so, if cold really bum’s Angle out he would probably have never messed with the temperature in the first place or he would fix it immediately to look like he was useful around the house; to impress angle of course. He would also try this but uno reversed; it would be 84 degrees up in your Livin’ room.
❥ If you didn’t drink to much while on a dinner date, Ren might pretend to be tipsy so he can have the excuse of leaning on you as you help him get home. Ren wouldn’t want you to be tipsy when he tried this because if you were under the influence, he’d want you to feel safe with him. However Redacted can hold it, despite no confirmation of his experience with alcohol, I strongly feel he can hold it. But honestly, if he can’t he wouldn’t allow himself to get drunk in the first place because he has to protect Angle. If Angle gets drunk Redacted would politely interrogate ask her questions that she probably wouldn’t answer sober, nothing too invasive that would push any boundaries or disrespect Angle—like skeletons in the closet/ deeply personal things, no. He respect’s Angle (in a weird and confusing way) and would never manipulate her into opening up while under any influence; he wants Angle to open up to him authentically on their own timing. Instead he’d ask things like “Is (f/c) honestly your favorite color?Because I saw you eyeing that blue shirt yesterday.” Or “Did you really like the song I played you yesterday on the guitar or were you being nice to me?”
❥ Redacted would straight up send your favorite band money anonymously so they’d show up and have a free concert on the beach. This man would stop at no cost to bring your favorite band to Conan bay, well he’d have to play smart if it got too expensive; if he had to use alternative methods, he would—seeing he is a hacker after all. He would invite you the moment after the band agrees because he ‘happens’ to like the band too.
❥ If you have toys Ren/Redacted would dis them while having sex. This dude would absolutely bully an inanimate object. Rens babbles would be more so focused on how great he was making you feel and how much more attention he could pay you then silicone. Redacted however would go off on how horrible that toy was because it wasn’t filling you the way you needed it, Or how your vibrator was trash compared to his hands. They’d both point out that silicone can cum in you…like, why keep it around when you have them?
❥ You want to go for a hike? Ren would be beyond excited to go on a hike with you…All alone…With no body else for miles because he would take you on a detour away from the main trail. A detour he happens to know well since he uses it to dump ‘garbage’ in lake Blue moss. As happy as Ren would be about hiking, he would become fed up with the mosquitos feeding on his Angle—homie was ready to google how to bite mosquitos back. Like damn, go suck on a bear or something. If you invited Redacted on a hike instead of Ren they’d straight up pull the bug spray out and launch a mosquito genocide, a bug that hurts Angle is a bug that shouldn’t exist.
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heavyhitterheaux · 7 months
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Baby Jack and Baby FL First Fight Part 2
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Jack had felt uneasy ever since you had walked out the door and debated on whether he was even going to go to the studio tonight.
Even though his career was extremely important to him, he had always made you a priority so he could understand why you felt the way that you did. He never passed up an opportunity to spend time with you.
He tried calling you a few times before he left to head to the studio, but of course you let it go straight to voicemail which was very unlike you.
Although this was your first official fight, the two of you would have disagreements in the past but it was always resolved then and there with the two of you compromising and nothing else came out of it after.
Jack decided to let it go for now and head to the studio for a few hours in the hopes that it would give you enough time to cool off so that the two of you could talk, but the thing is that Jack didn’t even know if he would be able to focus while he was there simply because he knew his mind was going to be on you the entire time.
He really couldn’t get past the fact that you didn’t tell him that you loved him before you left.
The two of you had a rule, no matter if you are mad at each other (which never happened until now), that you always had to tell the other ‘I love you’, and you weren’t allowed to go to bed without resolving the issue that caused the disagreement in the first place.
Meanwhile you were with Victoria making snickerdoodles in an attempt to get you to feel better, but all she was doing was eyeing you ever since you walked in.
“What? Why do you insist on staring at me like that?” You asked while looking back at her. 
“I just…. You and lover boy fighting? This is one for the books and definitely unheard of.”
All you did was shrug your shoulders as you mixed the cookie dough.
“No Y/N, like the two of you NEVER fight and I guarantee you it’s only a matter of time before Jack is breaking down my door to talk to you.” 
“I doubt it. He got the studio time that he wanted so bad, so I know that’s where he is. We always share our location with each other and I just checked it ten minutes ago.”
“I don’t like this. My favorite couple needs to fix whatever is going on.”
“He blew me off to go to the studio even though I have barely seen him all week.”
“I get why that’s upsetting to you, but Y/N, this man is trying to make a name for himself in the industry and trying to take care of you. Don’t get me wrong, I totally understand where you’re coming from but just think of how many more date nights you’ll be able to have with him in the future? One day he might just tell you to pack a fucking bag and the next thing you know you’re in Paris.”
“Victoriaaaaaa.”
“Babe! Just think about it and call him back! Soon he’s probably going to send the National Guard to come get your ass. I wouldn’t put it past him for a second.” 
“I just… don’t want to talk to him right now.”
“Hmm, I’ll check back in with you in an hour and I guarantee that you’ll be speeding down the road to get to your man.”
Jack had been in the studio for an hour and a half and just as he suspected couldn’t focus on what was going on at the moment and was growing frustrated with himself.
Urban had just so happened to meet him there since he had already been out and knew that something was wrong since he wasn't quite acting like himself. 
“Uh, Jack? You good?"
“I can’t focus right now.” He breathed out while standing up and looking for his keys.
“Wait, where are you going?”
“I’ll be back, I just need to talk to Y/N.”
He knew for a fact that he wouldn't be able to get anything done until he fixed things with you. 
“Wait, where is she?”
“At Victoria’s and I’m about to go and see her. I'll only be 20 minutes at the most."
You and Victoria were letting the cookies cool off when there was a sudden knock on the door.
"How much you wanna bet that it's your man?" She asked as she got up from the couch to open it.
"Tell him I'm not here."
"Should have turned your location off first, dumbass."
When Victoria opened the door, she saw Jack there looking pitiful as ever and simply moved to the side to let him in.
"About time you showed up. She's in the living room." Was all Victoria said before Jack made a beeline to see you.
Once there all you did was cross your arms and let out a huff as he came into your view.
"Do not ever leave our apartment again without telling me that you love me no matter how fucking mad you are." Jack said while coming over to sit next to you.
"Wait, what?"
"You were so mad at me that you didn't even tell me that you loved me and just walked out the door. You know our rule, we never do that."
"I didn't even realize that I didn't say it." You confessed quietly and instantly felt guilty.
"I.. couldn't even focus on anything at the studio because of the way we left things so I'm sorry for not going through with our plans for date night and I never want to make you feel like you aren't important to me because you know you are."
"And I'm sorry too. I know how important your career is to you and it's important to me too. I just really needed you and missed you this week."
“So, can we compromise?” Jack asked hoping that you would say yes.
“I’m listening.”
“You come to the studio with me for two hours and after I take you to get ice cream? You’ll have me for the rest of the night. Then tomorrow until you go out with Dani, we can do whatever you want. How’s that sound, pretty girl?”
Your eyes instantly lit up and Jack couldn’t help but to smile.
You eagerly nodded your head before throwing your arms around him and pulling him into a hug.
“I love you and I’m sorry for not telling you earlier.” You said as you leaned over to kiss him.
“I love you too, you know we’re in this together.”
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Hi, I was just curious how you chose the type of top surgery you got, like your scar shape and such, and if you still remember the pros and cons of each
in terms of the general type of surgery, getting double incision wasn't really a choice – the size of my chest would've disqualified me from most of the other options even if i'd wanted them. as far as i'm aware, the only other techniques that i would've been able to get at my size (t-anchor and fishmouth are the two my surgeon does that come to mind) wouldn't make sense because the main reason someone would pick them over double incision is just to keep nipple sensation, which didn't matter for me. that being said, i think i still might've gone with double incision even if i did qualify for something like peri or keyhole; i don't mind visible scarring and, from what i've seen of other people's results, i like the control that double incision gives the surgeon over the look of the chest overall.
as far as why i decided not to keep my nipples, i laid out my whole thought process in this ask a while back. the tl;dr is this: sensation in my nipples has always been a bad sensory thing for me, i didn't want to deal with the extra healing process of nipple grafts, i can be very picky about things on my body being asymmetrical and knew that nipple grafts aren't guaranteed to heal perfectly symmetrically, going without grafts was cheaper, i liked the idea of having a chest that's visibly different from a cis man's chest, and when i imagined my post-op body i naturally imagined it without nipples. so as you can probably tell, it was a pretty cut-and-dry decision for me, given how many reasons i had to go nipless.
and a few things went into the shape of my scars. the fact that they meet in the middle and go so far into my armpits was just necessary – i had a big chest before, and i specifically had a wide chest that met in the middle and had a lot of tissue in the sides, so my surgeon had to make my incisions wider in order to get all of the tissue out and avoid leaving any extra skin on the ends of the incisions. other than that, i told her during my pre-op that my ideal scars would be mostly straight and not too low on my chest. those preferences are purely aesthetic; i wanted straighter scars because i felt like scars that were too curved would read as boob-shaped in my dysphoria brain, which i didn't want to deal with, and i wanted to keep the scars on the higher side because without the nipples there, i felt like the scars sitting too low would make my chest look weirdly blank.
so those were my reasons – double incision with long connected scars out of necessity, higher and straighter scars because i liked how they looked the best, and no nipples because that just made sense for me on every level. i can't really make a pros and cons list for you because things that were pros for me might be cons for you and vice versa; it's all super personal. but hopefully, hearing about how i thought it through still helps you!
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in case the first one's too weird, perhaps the phrase 'bruised heart', because ive been listening to pink ladies again and have a problem - @pigeonwit
"I guarantee you, you don't want me. You don't."
The words hit Jack like a truck.
When he told himself he was going to finally confess to David today, when he ran through all of the options and avenues for the conversation while on the thirty minute subway ride, he never once considered this option. The option where David thought he wouldn't be good enough, the one where he would say-- that.
Jack's mouth opens and closes for a few moments, the words lodged in his throat, before he chokes out, "What?"
To his credit, David laughs. It's not a happy sound, though- no, it's defeated, and trails off into a sigh at the tail-end of it. As he drops his shoulders, David's gaze flick's to Jack's across the table, before dropping back down to his clasped hands next to his cup of coffee. "You don't want me," David says easily, like it's a fact. Like it doesn't rip Jack in two.
"No, I heard you," Jack says, leaning a little further in, but he makes sure to keep his voice down- he doesn't need the rest of the cafe hearing this. Why he decided to do this in public, he doesn't know anymore, but he felt like he was going to burst out of his skin if he didn't blurt it out. "I just- I don't... get it. What do you mean, I don't want you? I think I know what I want, Dave."
David sighs, shaking his head and giving Jack a desperate, pleading look. "I'm telling you, you don't want-"
"And I'm tellin' you, you don't know what I want or not," Jack cuts in. "And I want you. I want you, and everything you're willin' to give, do you understand?" He stares at David, who is silent, and refuses to meet Jack's eyes.
Jack takes a deep breath and reaches out, gently taking David's hand. David doesn't pull away, but he doesn't grab back. "Look, I... I don't care if you don't want this. That's fine, and we can forget I ever opened my big mouth, okay? But if you- if you're refusin' to give this a shot 'cause you don't think you're good enough... Dave, you can't possibly believe that."
David gulps, his gaze shifting frantically, and he looks like a deer in the headlights. The image makes Jack regret ever saying anything, but when Jack starts to pull his hand away, David stops him with a squeeze. "Do you-" He stops, clearing his throat and staring straight at the wooden table between them. "Do you know how hard it is for... for me to get out of bed every day?"
Jack stays silent. David takes a breath, and closes his eyes.
"It's- It's not that I don't want you, Jackie, 'cause I want you more than you'll ever know," He whispers. "But you... You deserve more than me, okay? You deserve someone who doesn't feel drained every day. Someone who can be... I don't know, happy, without having to try to be. I'm a mess, Jack. You don't want that."
"I don't want that for you," Jack murmurs, squeezing David's hand back. "David, we... we can wait 'til you feel better, or healed, or whatever the fuck it is, but regardless, I don't... I don't need you to change for me to love you, okay? You deserve that, just as you are."
David finally looks up, and gulps hard. "...Love?"
"Yeah. Love," Jack responds.
David's shoulders sink a little, and he nods slowly, his grip on Jack's hand tightening. "I'm broken," David mumbles. "And I-- I know that sounds dramatic, but I've never... I've never been good at this, and you know that. You've been there for all of my breakups."
"Yeah, I have," Jack nods, "and I know that you didn't deserve a damn one of 'em. David, you're a catch, and if people don't get that... That's their problem. Not yours." With a soft sigh, Jack looks down, then shifts in his seat and looks back up at David. "You don't have to make a decision now. We can talk this out when you want, 'kay? The ball's in your court, Dave, but... You ain't broken. I swear."
"Jack..."
"There's a difference between broken and bruised," Jack murmurs. "Okay? You... You might be goin' through a rough patch. You might be hurtin', and that fuckin' sucks, but that don't mean you're beyond repair. You said the same damn thing about me."
David gulps hard, then uses his free hand to rub his eyes. "I... I don't know if I'm ready for-... I'm sorry..."
Jack shakes his head. "You got nothin' to apologize for, okay? If you need to wait, we wait."
"I want to," David explains. "I-... I really, really want to try with you, I just..."
"It's okay," Jack whispers. "I promise."
"Promise," David whispers back.
They finish lunch. They go to the park, then to a bar. They table it for a month and a half before David takes the plunge and kisses Jack. A bruised heart just takes a little time, and Jack Kelly would wait an eternity and a half for David Jacobs.
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When Eyes Meet- Kagami Taiga
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Aomine - Kise - Murasakibara - Kuroko - Akashi - Midorima A/N: I never actually wrote an x-reader one shot with Kagami before, so I decided to do his entry in the mini series next. The soulmate concept belongs to ElfQuest
Ever since the dawn of humanity, we were born with two names. One we use in our everyday life, and the other is the name of our soul. This is a very special name, an intimate one. It was only to be shared with family or friends as close as kin. It was a private piece of you. But as long as people remember having two names, they can also recall a certain phenomenon that would expose ones soulname to another. This phenomenon, was Recognition. It occured without a pattern or rule to it. There were people who had known one another for years until it happened, but it could also be upon meeting the very person. All one knew, was they locked eyes with one another, and they knew. This was what society would come to refer to as, 'the moment you knew you had found your soulmate'. You hadn't Recognized yet, thankfully. Yes, thankfully, because you preferred to finish high school and get your life together before Mr Right would waltz into your life. You were a goal oriented young lady, even if you said so yourself. Studious and hard working as you are, your friend group consisted solely out of bookworms such as yourself. You were waiting for one as we speak. You expected him to pop out of nowhere, after all, he always did. But, today wasn't like usual, as you spotted the fiery red hair trailing towards you. 'Kuroko brought Kagami along again, huh? What did he flunk this time?' The thought brought a small, amused smile to your face, because as dumb as he was Kagami was always nice and pleasant company. It was rare to meet a guy who was so respectful and relaxed around girls at your age, as everyone else except for the rare soul such as your mutual friend Kuroko seemed to be set ablaze with teenage hormones. With Kuroko, it seemed a given considering his personality, but Kagami was such a typical teenage boy in every other area, that his calm around the opposite sex felt much more surprising to you. You greeted them as they appeared in front of you. "Hello, l/n-san." Kuroko greeted. "Hey l/n-san," came Kagami's more casual greeting. "Shall we go to the library?"
You giggled as you corrected Kagami's homework, Kuroko had went off to get you guys something to drink after sitting in the library for nearly two hours. Kagami's cheeks were a flaming red. "Is it honestly that bad?" He grumbled with a disappointed face. You looked up at him. "You have a lot of spelling mistakes, but I honestly think its kinda adorable." He looked at you surprised, his face a little red. "Is that so?" You hummed in response before you shyly looked back into your textbook, you hadn't meant for your compliment to make him blush and you didn't knew why it made you so happy on the inside. But Kagami kept looking at you, and his intent gaze forced you to make eye contact once more. "Something wrong?" "Eh well, I…" Kagami stumbled nervously and it made your heart halt. "After the Winter Cup and exams are over, would you like going on a date before I go back to the US?" "You're asking me out nearly 4 months in advance?" You asked, frowning. "Well, if things work out it could distract me, and these upcoming months are so important. I seriously want to graduate you know? But I really would like to go out with you at least once before I go back to the US!" Kagami babbled a bit and his anxiety yet level headed thinking came to you as the most delightful of surprises. You smiled and just as you thought Kagami was a guy worth taking a chance on as unlike everyone else he clearly had his priorities straight, it happened. "Iyam?" You asked with our mouth hanging open. "Irhn? He asked, more as a confirmation of the soul shattering event. He couldn't believe his luck, this was pretty much a guarantee that you wouldn't lose interest once he left the country, which had been his biggest worry upon the idea of asking you out. Neither of you noticed Kuroko creeping closer. "From the looks of it, she can't say no to your plans of a long distance relationship." You heard Kuroko's voice and saw him drinking his vanilla milkshake with a smirk. You all laughed, and accepted your own milkshake with a moony grin to match Kagami's.
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