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flametrashiraarchive · 8 months

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Iguro fucking Obanai and this chubby reader he has the hots for like-

First time they meet, he's like-

Hell yes. Let's give this beautiful boy the soft cuddles he deserves. (My brain ran away with this, it has plot and everything. I've never written anything for Iguro before so it was really fun.)

Iguro Obanai x Chubby Reader

GN!Reader, NSFW below the cut.

Iguro is actually pretty closed off when you first meet him, (especially if you're a woman.) He's slow to trust people and keeps his distance.

He doesn't even really form an opinion on your looks. He could describe you in perfect detail if asked, but they don't affect him one way or the other. You're just there... to be wary of.

That is, until you're sent on a mission together. A long one.

It's a cold morning and you're a long way from civilization. The weak winter sun is barely up and you have time to rest. Iguro isn't tired so he offers to keep watch while you sleep in the little tent you've been taking turns in throughout your journey.

And while you sleep he's just sitting in a tree, thinking about how you're actually good company and he's feeling a lot more comfortable around you these days. You talk to him like he's normal, and that means the world to him.

Maybe he's even becoming... fond of you?

With a startled gasp he realizes Kaburamaru isn't around his neck.

Poor Iguro searches everywhere. His heart is thumping in his chest, because this is an unfamiliar place and it's cold and if he can't find the snake--- god he can't even think about it.

He's in such a panic he doesn't even think it through fully when he sticks his head inside the tent and...

his eyes widen.

You're fast asleep on your back, warm and peaceful in the shelter of the tent. You've taken off your uniform and you're just wearing underwear (and the snake, which is draped across your chest and belly, drawn in by your body heat.)

Your eyes spring open, perhaps sensing there's someone watching you or maybe realizing what's on top of you.

Iguro's eyes widen... for multiple reasons.

You're going to freak out. You're going to think he's a pervert and call him filth. You're going to panic when you realize Kaburamaru is slithering over you. You might even try to hurt him.

oh shit oh shit oh shit

But you don't do any of that. You just look down and greet the snake with a soft laugh and allow Iguro to gently remove his companion.

You're... kind... and understanding... and so so... comforting.

Iguro's breath catches in his throat and that's where it stays every time he looks at you afterward.

And the image of your soft, plush, barely-clad body... that stayed in his brain.

It's really all he could think about.

But it took A LOT for him to confess his feelings.

About a year after the tent incident (a year of pining and wishing, buying you little gifts which he assured you were nothing, coming to terms with the fact that getting close doesn't necessarily equal getting hurt) he finally asks you out.

"I know I'm unworthy of you... I know someone like me doesn't--"

You cut his sentence off with a soft kiss to his bandaged cheek. "Oh, Iguro. Of course I'm yours."

His little heart is practically vibrating.

There were a lot of emotional hurdles for him to overcome: telling you about his past, his upbringing, showing you his face without the bandages, letting you kiss his uncovered lips, learning that he was worthy of kissing you back, trusting you enough to be intimate with you.

But once he takes that leap?

Hoo boy

First off, he's an absolute pillow princess.

Iguro LOVES that you're bigger than him. He likes how soft and full your thighs are compared to his, he loves to grip them while you're on top of him, his slender fingers pressing into their plush softness.

(Side note: His legs tremble when you're riding him and he's getting close... he can't keep them still.)

HOWEVER, when he's on the precipice of climax he WILL thrust up into you, bracing his feet on the bed and gripping your hips.

His hands slither (see what I did there) all across your body, worshiping your every curve and fold with insatiable adoration.

The man is absolutely besotted with you.

Little spoon. Cuddle him please.

Apparently he was inspired by that time Kaburamaru fell asleep on you, because that's exactly how Iguro lies on you every time he comes home tired. Just sprawled across you, his head on your chest or belly as you stroke your hand up and down his spine. Sometimes he'll take his bandages off when he's super comfy and you get to see his soft, sleepy smile and the tiny hint of pink on his usually pale cheeks.

He is a huge fan of your arms too. He loves to be held by you, wrapped up all warm and secure.

If you have stretchmarks or really any scars you're self conscious about them he'll kiss every single one of them every single day and try to make you realize how worthy you are of all this love

because that's exactly what you do for him.

#obanai iguro #kny iguro #iguro x reader #iguro x you #obanai x reader #kny obanai #iguro obanai headcanons #iguro x chubby reader #obanai x chubby reader

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jojotier · 6 months

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i'll be real with you nothing has radicalized me quite like the experience of seeing les mis live. and not bc of the themes of the show or anything, because like, les mis is an excellent show don't get me wrong, but just metanarratively.

because walking to my cheap ass seat in the theatre i was jostled by assholes in full tuxedos, heard derisive sniffs from ladies with pearls around their necks, overheard a dozen conversations about what new overpriced restaurant just opened up in the city. I'm only lucky that the cheap seats were filled with people like me- younger, not necessarily white and not necessarily ultra-wealthy- who could ease the atmosphere.

the show itself was beautiful. i dont think i'll ever forget that particular Valjean's rendition of 'bring me home'- it was the highest, most perfectly angelic version i've ever known. the rebels at the barricades touched my heart because there I could see in them myself and those i knew- artists and dreamers, who still wanted to do better, to make sure everyone up top did better.

the end always rubs me a bit the wrong way. Marius just gets to go back to living in relative wealth and prosperity while all his lower-class friends are dead and gone; perhaps he'll do good beyond the end of the show, but we'll never see it. in terms of the show itself, it rubs me the wrong way, but i don't hold it against the show either- it's likely a result of the source material and the time in which the show was written.

but even so, despite that, as i stood with the rest of the crowd for a standing ovation, it was impossible to ignore how that effected the audience. because as i filed my way out of the theatre, those same rich patrons from the best seats with their furs around their necks and drink laden in their voices, were wiping teary eyes and gushing about how wonderfully brave those rebels were, how tragic their deaths, how it was simply the most marvelous show.

all the while, keeping a mistrustful eye on the poor tranny in somewhat ill-fitting clothes, dressed sunday best but no better. wondering in whispers whether they just let anybody in. because certainly, they loved every character on stage. they felt enjorlas' death as though their own damned child's. but the moment Marius can go back his life of refinement, so can they- they can dust off their gloves and gossip about the newest Manolo Blannik collection. they were more than happy to leave the barricade behind.

i don't have that luxury. the barricade lives within the walls of this house, lucky as i am to live in one. it only takes one fire. one hail of shrapnel. it takes one storm to blow everything i am trying to one day have away. if only i were some abstract concept, maybe they could spare an ounce of pity; if they had no choice but to watch me from beyond the veil. but i dared to occupy the same space as they, and it was an injustice that easily outweighed their cursory sympathy.

never before had it been cemented just how much of a different world the truly rich live in. it took me months of saving for a lone ticket and nothing else; for them, it would have merely been a drop in the bucket to have the best seats, the best wine, the best clothes, all to make a spectacle of watching poor people die.

and isn't that the greatest irony? les miserables is a story about poor men trying to either cheat the system which is rigged against them or abolish it for something for everyone, and yet, it attracts the wealthiest as flies to honey. never once do they question themselves. never once do they question the system. if they had that introspection, they still wouldn't do a damn thing about it.

after all- what's more entertaining to the rich than watching the unworthy masses struggle to matter in a system oiled only by their blood?

#les miserables #theatre #sorry for this post out of nowhere but i just cant stop thinking about the irony #of les mis being the play du jour for the wealthiest while at the same time having such an active fanbase of normal people #like i understand why this was the musical mentioned so often in american psycho #like #i didnt even have this experience when i saw hadestown and that also attracted a fair few wealthy folks from what i remember #there's just something about les mis that drove the wealthy in the crowd to some kind of height of pretentiousness

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ominous-auburn-orbs · 3 months

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Here's a writing idea for you, but you don't have to do it

Kinger of Hearts hosts a big ass party celebrating his birthday, gets drunk from the wine and tried to get ✨frisky✨ with Mad Caine(whether he succeeds or not it's up to you)

HEY WHAT'S UP GUYS I'M BACK

Y'know I kinda feel like my works have been getting less and less family friendly over time-

ANYWAY this is set after Queenie's takeover attempt, so Caine and Kinger are together. (I can't be bothered to explain any unknown lore so. Just go with it for my sake)

Oh and wonderland au by @obamerzslop

It had been nearly a month since Queenie's defeat. Everyone was still admittedly shaken, although also more at ease, knowing that they were now truly safe. It was Kinger of Hearts' birthday, meaning there was a large celebration held. Most of the people there were acquaintances and colleagues more than anything, considering the party wasn't even the king's idea, but rather something viewed as a necessity. The only person there that he actually liked was Mad Caine, due to his connection as the jester, along with his advisor, Rabbit Ragatha. Kinger had insisted none of his other friends go, as they wouldn't enjoy it. It didn't feel like it was actually for him, anyway. Pomni, however, had suggested they should still do something separate to celebrate later, which the king was very much looking forward to.

Caine stood near the wall, somewhat unsure around all of the people he failed to recognise. The odd dodo or flower person he'd seen once or twice before at other royal events, but nothing more than that. He had already done his performance at this point, which had been relatively well received, if only because everyone there knew how much Kinger of Hearts valued the jester. They were all far too uptight to truly enjoy Mad Caine's routines, as amusing as they were. He was believed to have a lower class role, making him unworthy of being as close to the king as he was. There was power in the role of jester. Power that they could never achieve.

While better acquainted with the guests, Ragatha was just as uncomfortable. Seeing Caine in the distance, she approached, a genuine smile on her face, which was a rare sight at such events.

"Mad Caine!" She called out as she went to stand beside him. "Your performance was rather good. How are you doing?"

His features relaxed. "Thank you, my friend! I'm not doing too bad myself! How about you?"

Rabbit Ragatha let out a loud sigh. "These events are so very tedious. I know it's already been a month since... everything, but I still feel like I'm in desperate need of a nap." She chuckled quietly. "I wish Kinger of Hearts would realise that he doesn't need to put up this facade anymore, if he ever even needed to in the first place. I think it's still instinct for him to put up this mask for his own safety."

Caine crossed his arms and looked down, concerned. He couldn't bear the thought of Kinger thinking he needs to pretend to be someone he's not. He loved the real Kinger with all his heart, and he wanted to see him happy as well. Assessing his worried posture, Ragatha's eyes softened.

"Maybe you could convince him not to lie so much anymore. While I am his advisor, with something like this, he's a bit more likely to listen to his boyfriend." She gave Caine a friendly nudge as he blushed lightly.

"Haha! Maybe..." He thought about it further. Even if Kinger didn't listen, it was worth a try. He could find a way to convince him regardless. "I'll see what I can do, Raggy!"

Ragatha looked embarrassed by the nickname, as while it was sweet, it wasn't something she necessarily wanted to be called in such a professional environment. Caine looked away and saw Kinger talking with someone he hadn't seen before, and it didn't look like a conversation the royal was particularly enjoying. After quickly informing Ragatha that he would be 'back in a jiffy', he set off towards Kinger, determined to save him from the annoying situation. It was his birthday, after all!

When he reached the king, Mad Caine lightly touched his hand. His liking for physical touch was well known, so it wasn't nearly enough physical affection to raise questions, although it was still the king he was touching.

"Happy birthday, Your Majesty! Are you enjoying yourself?" With a clear look of disdain, the other person left. Kinger of Hearts relaxed significantly and his voice lowered in volume.

"Far more now that you're here." Seeing Ragatha, he glanced around before fully grasping Caine's hand and walking over. "You know, I believe that's the seventh time today you've said 'happy birthday' to me."

"And I'll say it again, my love!" Kinger's eyes widened, worrying greatly about anyone else hearing. For his sake, Caine became quieter, but that didn't mean he liked it. "My dear, Queenie is dead. You don't need to fear her overthrowing you again. You can be yourself now. And if anyone goes against you, then I say that gives you plenty of reason to execute them!"

Kinger smiled, although there was still doubt in his eyes. "You're probably right, but it still feels... wrong. I've been like this for so long, I don't know how to rule as anyone else." Some heads turned to watch the pair with curious looks, but Mad Caine gently rubbed his thumb across Kinger's hand to keep him from seeing.

"I understand, but that doesn't mean I'll start agreeing with you on that any time soon." The two finally reached Ragatha as Kinger gave a chuckle that shook his shoulders. His advisor was somewhat absorbed in her own thoughts, surprised by how relaxed she was. By how relaxed they all were compared to past times like this. As horrible as the whole situation with Queenie had been, it had finally gotten rid of the ever-looming threat that she had once been.

"Your Highness," Ragatha greeted him with a noticeable hint of sarcasm, "is everything to your liking?"

Kinger sighed heavily. "All I'll say is that I'm going to need plenty of wine to get through this." Ragatha nodded and bowed, a glimmer in her eyes like she was about to tell a joke at any moment.

"I'll fetch you a glass."

Hours later, Kinger of Hearts had stayed true to his word, having downed several glasses at that point. Most of the more distinguished guests had filed out, with mainly guards and captains left, as well as other drunkards that they had to remove. Despite how most people and tables had been cleared away, the room felt far less empty with mainly just the trio standing in it. Kinger swayed a little on his feet, with Ragatha and Caine attempting to keep him upright. The two shared knowing glances, silently deciding that it would be best to completely finish the festivities. Before Mad Caine could suggest this to Kinger, however, the king spoke to him with a highly flirtatious tone.

"Heyyy, gorgeous~ you- you come 'round here often?" Ragatha put a hand to her mouth to try and muffle her snickers, while Caine gave Kinger a soft smile.

"Kinger, it's me, Mad Caine!" For the king's sake, he gave a quick glance to the guards, but they were busy removing a passed out accountant from the premises. "Your boyfriend?"

Kinger's eyes widened exponentially. "Woah... that's good. Vvvvery good." He cupped Caine's teeth with his hand. "Y-you're reeeeally pretty..."

The chess piece was mesmorised and Caine could feel his face heat up. Ragatha composed herself enough to put a gentle hand on Kinger's back.

"Your Majesty, you're drunk. You should go to bed." She looked to Mad Caine. "I can help you escort him there."

Caine, however, could clearly see the exhaustion on Ragatha's face, and refused to let her work any longer. "No, my dear! You need to rest for once. I have everything perfectly under control!" With that, Kinger rested his head on the top of Caine's teeth, abruptly shutting them.

Ragatha tried and failed to contain her laughter at Caine's muffled speaking while he tried to open his mouth again. She helped lift Kinger off of the hatter, smiling down at him. "Let me at least help get his Majesty out of here. Then I'll take a break."

Mad Caine agreed to these terms, and the two led Kinger of Hearts out and towards his room. They got halfway down the hall before Caine remembered that Ragatha had promised to rest, so he sent her to her chambers nearby. When the rabbit refused, insisting on helping further, Kinger of Hearts slurred out a threat to execute Ragatha if she didn't rest. She finally agreed, bidding Kinger good night and Caine good luck.

The hatter continued to walk with Kinger, holding one of his hands and with his other hand on the king's back. Kinger turned to face Caine, staring at him for a moment before speaking. "I love yoouuu."

Caine couldn't help but blush as a smile appeared on his face. "I love you too, my dear."

Kinger put a hand on Caine's waist and pulled him closer. "H-hey Caine, are you a flower? Be- because I wanna pollinate you~"

Mad Caine looked at the king in confusion for a moment before he remembered the biology of plant life. His teeth and gums became covered in a bright red as he began to stammer, his grip on Kinger's hand tightening.

"O-oh! Uh, I- l-let's just get you to your room!" He quickened his walking pace. The king's room was near the end of the hall, but he thankfully didn't have much further to go. Then the king would be able to sleep until he sobered up. While Kinger absent-mindedly matched his pace, he didn't stop flirting.

"Y-you're sooo cute... Hey, do- are you made of bees? Because yyyou're as honey as sweet..."

Mad Caine burst out laughing, although he did appreciate that Kinger tried. "Why, thank you, my dear." The hatter walked the king into his bedroom and sat him down on the bed. Before he could bid Kinger of Hearts goodnight, however, the king grabbed him and held him close, pulling Caine onto the bed with him.

Kinger kissed him repeatedly, and after a few moments, Caine returned the hug. He could tell that Kinger of Hearts was fighting sleep, so he decided to lay there with him, patiently waiting for Kinger to succumb to his exhaustion. Mad Caine adored these moments he had with Kinger, even if he would've preferred for the king to be sober, as it was something he had silently wished for for a long time. Eventually, he felt the kisses slow down and stop as Kinger finally fell asleep.

Caine let out a quiet sigh of both relief and content. He made a mental note to bring up their relationship and making it public once Kinger woke up, then drifted off himself, already excited to wake up next to Kinger in the morning.

#hey sorry I like died for a week my bad #I just needed a break #caine x kinger #royalteeth #kingleader #kinger x caine #tadc au

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midnightstargazer · 4 months

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why I, as a Regulus stan, don't ship Jegulus

With the disclaimer upfront that I'm not saying nobody should. I know I have mutuals who do. Y'all are cool. We can ship and let ship. But I don't ship them, and here's why.

I don't care for how Regulus is usually characterized in the context of Jegulus. I prefer him redeemable, but morally gray; someone who was influenced by family and peer pressure but ultimately made his own bad choices and later changed his mind, not someone who was forced into every bad thing he ever did. I'm sure there are Jegulus fics out there where he is more morally gray. But from what I've seen, he's often a bit too sanitized for my taste.

I don't care for how James is usually characterized, either. Sunshine boy who wants to believe the best of everyone? I don't see it. In canon he's very loyal and caring towards his friends, but there's no evidence he would have a nuanced point of view towards someone like Regulus, particularly during their late teenage years when Regulus is actively espousing blood supremacist ideology and working for the Death Eaters.

(Which doesn't mean I think Regulus is unworthy of love. I just don't think it's likely James, specifically, would have liked him very much during the time period when they would have known each other in canon)

Because of this, I can only imagine Jegulus in a context very far removed from canon: either a Muggle AU, a no Voldemort AU, an AU where Regulus runs away with Sirius, etc. None of those are very interesting to me. It could also work if Regulus survives and ends up in the Order, which is a favorite trope of mine, but I'd just as soon see that with a different ship or no ship for Regulus and keep Jily together.

I ship Jily. Which isn't necessarily an obstacle, because I'm willing to multi-ship basically anybody except Tedromeda. I can totally get on board with the idea that one or both of them had another relationship before they got together, or that in a canon divergence story where one of them survives, they might eventually move on with someone else. But because I do ship Jily, I'm not really looking for someone else to ship with James.

Who Regulus ends up with romantically, if anybody, is the least interesting thing about him imo. I'll read fics where he's paired up romantically, and I've written a few of them - although I also have a long ongoing series where he's aro-ace. Having a romance arc for Regulus at all is 100% optional as far as I'm concerned.

The "best friend's brother" thing - I think it mischaracterizes Sirius's relationships with both of them to assume he would be overprotective of Regulus and suspicious of James if they were to get together. I love fics where the Black brothers reconcile, but still, I doubt they'd ever have such a stereotypically normal sibling relationship. And that's not even getting started on how it undermines Sirius's friendship with James.

Its sheer overwhelming popularity annoys me. No offense intended to anyone who likes it. Your personal preference is valid. It's the expectation for everyone to share that preference that I don't love. A lot of the time in the Marauders fandom the pairing is simply taken for granted as the default. So that does make me dig my heels in a bit.

#anti Jegulus #Regulus Black #James Potter

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hilacopter · 5 months

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I've been trying to put into words this frustration of mine for a while, and I think I've finally got it figured out:

So! Israel is built on genocide! And that's certainly not a good thing. You can try to argue about whether or not Jewish people are indigenous to the land (though I won't get into that whole argument here), but there's no denying the fact this country was built on blood. Lives were lost and people were banished. Therefore, us Israelis are deemed colonizers for living here. Is it false? No, not necessarily. Is colonialism okay or justifiable? Of course not! However, the way people have used this as an excuse to dehumanise us Israelis is absolutely disgusting.

Western leftists have this mindset that we should either be sent "back to where we came from" (and by that they mean countries we have never been to in our lives and just so happen to have ancestral ties to), or that we should be eradicated. Because it's easy to see these groups of people you don't know as simply blank NPCs, or a hivemind. I've had an online friend of mine tell me that there's this level of dissociation when you aren't the one going through it, and that a lot of times it takes having someone you know suffer that fate to go "oh shit, REAL PEOPLE are going through that", and I think the problem stems from the fact so many of the people who insist on being involved in this conflict don't actually have Israeli (or Palestinian, for that matter) friends to tell them what it's like to be living through this nightmare. We're faceless and nameless, which leads to dehumanisation and demonization.

It is a universal fact that no human is the same, everyone's life is valuable and unique. Everyone has something to bring to the table, and something like the country you were born in is inconsequential to how good or bad of a person you are. Unless, of course, you're an Israeli. That means you're nothing more than a filthy colonizer. That means you're a part of an evil hivemind being led by an evil government (yes, Israel's government is horrible WHICH IS WHY WE'VE BEEN PROTESTING AGAINST IT FOR MONTHS NOW). That means you've done wrong merely by existing.

I'm certainly going to offend some people with this comparison, but in my opinion telling an Israeli to simply deport is not much unlike telling a queer person to go to conversion therapy. It's obviously not the same thing, but just like you aren't able to get rid of someone's gender or sexuality, you aren't able to get rid of someone's heritage. Simply sending us away won't magically make everything better, believe it or not (I won't get into it in this post, but know that there will be no Palestinian utopia under Hamas rule, as Hamas actively harms the people of Palestine too). We won't just forget about Israel and keep living like nothing happened. We have lives here. We have friends and family we'd be separated from. Most of us won't simply be able to adjust to a new country we don't even know the language of. And if you think the solution is to kill us all... I don't even know what to say to you at this point. Is being attached to the place you were born in truly such a horrible crime? You can argue we deserve it for being colonizers, but it's not like we chose to be born here. Which leads to my next point:

The global left is used to everything wrong being a mindset. Homophobes, racists, sexists; all of those are not something people are born as, rather something they've been lead to believe. Something that can be fixed by teaching them better and having them unlearn their ways. So when faced with the fact that being an Israeli isn't something which can be reversed, leftists don't know how to process it. They cope by seeing us as something inherently evil and violent. Something inherently unworthy of living. Something that automatically deserves whatever bad things happen to it. Something less than human. Something that must be erased, one way or another. It doesn't matter that we're people with feelings and minds, we're all just filthy colonizers! Get rid of us pesky Israelis and everything will be better! Just burn it all down!

It's human nature to want to get rid of something you don't like. Whether it's a bug in your kitchen, a shitty friend, a mindset you don't like, whatever. It's when "something I don't like" translates to millions of people that you start to get under my skin. It's when you celebrate a brutal massacre and root for a terrorist organisation that I deem you a disgusting human being.

Like it or not, new life has been created here. And no matter how many chant "death to colonizers", you won't be getting rid of it. You won't be getting rid of us.

Because we, as human beings, don't deserve to be gotten rid of.

#this is not me undermining the suffering of palestinians or justifying israel's actions against them #if that's what you got from this post then fuck off. you have the reading comprehension of a child.#I'm just sick of people treating us like pests to be exterminated #israel #i/p #i/p conflict #ישראבלר #ישראלבלר #ironswordsposting

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divinecomedyproductions · 5 months

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I guess my real beef with Watts, at least the fandoms praise of him and maybe I'm wrong here, is that while Watts is very intelligent and good at analysis and pointing out flaws, its all ultimately to elevate himself above others save Salem. He's humble enough to know he's just a means to an end for her.

But in regards to everyone else?

He can judge who is worthy and who is not, who is deserving and who is not, and what it is or is not enough because he's so intelligent and measures those qualifications on “real information.”

Which I'm kinda playing on in my reimagined AU.

And even if they do improve, he still tries to make it he's still a leg up on everyone else save Salem.

It's not what he says is necessarily wrong, it’s that he thinks way too highly of his own judgment in making those calls every time when it comes to others save once again, Salem. And often its just for the feeling of being "right and smart"

He'll let someone improve, but not enough where the point his judgement might be wrong. He'd probably undermine and sabotage Cinder if it doesn't jeopardize the mission in order keep her "unworthy"

Because one thing he can't stand is being wrong about something, which the real reason for his anger towards James.

"How dare this person think his judgement is better than my own, because I am so much smarter than him!"

Which isn't to say thats bad storytelling, far from it. It's what makes a good villain.

But my problem is in regards to the fandom who praise him, it's not so much what he said to Cinder, then so much they see themselves in him.

Arrogant, snobbish, and think way too highly of themselves of their own judgement, and don't really care about the meaning what happens in the story, but rather being right, superior, and getting their way or if they do, parade around to put down everyone else.

All because like Arthur, they know so much.

#rwde #arthur watts #toxic fanbase #toxic fandom

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sexyandhedonistic · 1 year

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"a word of warning must be given to those who have not yet realized the oneness of life, and who do not know the fundamental truth that consciousness is God, the one and only reality. This warning was given to man in the famous Golden Rule – “Do unto others that which you would have them do unto you.” You may desire something for yourself or you may desire for another. If your desire concerns another make sure that the thing desired is acceptable to that other. The reason for this warning is that your consciousness is God, the giver of all gifts. Therefore, that which you feel and believe to be true of another is a gift you have given him. The gift that is not accepted returns to the giver. Be very sure then that you would love to possess the gift yourself for if you fix a belief within yourself as true of another and he does not accept this state as true of himself, this unaccepted gift will embody itself within your world. Always hear and accept as true of others that which you would desire for yourself. In so doing you are building heaven on earth. “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you” is based upon this law."

Hey hera! I wanted to ask about the law and the morality pertinent to it. It's just been bugging me for some time. I see that a lot of people talk here only of methods and doubts and fears,all of which are valid. But there's no talk of morality,an issue which plagues me greatly. Especially the lines that I have emboldened, I want to know what you think of it and what does it really mean the non-acceptance of a state and it coming back to the giver. I want your commentary on the issue of desires and morality overall,if it pleases you of course. Sometimes I think I'm worthy of nothing I wish to manifest.

I could be wrong but from my recollection Neville's work at one point highly preached the golden rule in order to discourage people from doing harm unto others, but he eventually became transparent about it not necessarily being a "rule" though you should still bear it in mind. Again, I could be wrong so please take this with a grain of salt.

Furthermore he also talks a lot across his work about the importance of love and how without it, a person who comes to accept their limitless power would be capable of using said power to bring destruction upon the world. That's why it's important that all of our motives are governed by love, whether it's love for yourself or for another because in the end it will all come back to you being the center of creation.

About the comment of it going back to the giver it sounds like a warning under said golden rule, but I think it makes sense if you understand it through everyone is you pushed out. Since the world is simply your consciousness objectified (yourself pushed out), anything you do unto another you do to yourself.

My baseline for morality in manifestation is that if your desire arises out of love and it hurts no one, don't hesitate and go for it. Fulfill yourself.

Lastly, I'll leave you with this Neville quote pertaining to your feeling of unworthiness (you're worthy of the whole entire world, by the way):

There is nothing wrong with our desire to transcend our present state. It is natural for us to seek a more beautiful personal life; it is right that we wish for greater understanding, greater health, greater security.

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a-had-matter · 6 months

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People are shit, dumb as fuck, idiots, incompetent, stupid, unworthy, and generally useless in general. Now, notice I am not saying every individual. Notice I am not saying everyone. But as a fucking whole there is something wrong with the way our brains work, and no we don't need help, we need to go fucking extinct.

Literally, what good have we done for this world, or in this world? Have you seen what we've done to our kind based of something someone supposedly said, and what someone's preferences are, and what they fucking look like? To the things we don't know?

We say we want to know, but we fucking don't, cause when the truth comes to face us, we're scared cause we know it's gonna eat us alive. It will tear us limb from limb, rip out our heart and then choke us. It will choke us. And we know that, but I guess "we live and we learn."

I hate our race, I hate what we've done, I hate what we're doing, I hate humanity. And notice how I've said "we" because, yeah, I am a human too, but so are you. You're just as guilty as I am for silently laughing at that kid when they got hurt. You're just as guilty for mocking someone. No matter how old, cause you're never young enough or old enough or different enough to not do something unacceptable. In general.

Yes, there are nice parts, good parts even, of life. The trees in a forest. The moon and stars hidden by the clouds. The sun hidden by a cloud. Animal life. Plant life. That one place that seems almost otherworldly, it's so untouched by mankind. "Mankind." Ooh, don't even get me started on that one.

And yes, there are even good parts of human life. (I know right?! Can you believe it???) When a baby smiles at you, or Christmas time in a certain place at a certain time. When you feel welcomed. When you realize you have home. When it's cold, and then you walk into a warm store. Or the opposite, when it's cold in a store and you walk outside on a sunny day.

There are more, since there is more most of the time, and if you can name some, let me know. But also how ever many good things you list, list the same amount of bad things. Like if you say childhood friendships, also think childhood abuse. When you think acceptation, think rejection of someone that you thought loved you. When you think good hair day, think of one where you are treated like dirt so often, you decide you'd want to be 6 foot under.

Another thing to think about is how you'd feel about dying. I am not necessarily opposed to the idea, but opposed to the pain. As long as I don't have to do much, and it doesn't hurt, I'm fine about whatever comes next. (I do not mean you specifically the entire time. in some of my examples, I use it in the other sense. Like, a writers sense but not 2nd person. (example "they were so cold to her, you could feel it." or whatever. In 3rd person.))

I'd like to hear people's perspective on this topic. It is something I kinda think about on a regular basis.

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trekwiz · 10 months

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@janusfranc15

The answers to these questions are really complicated. I don't see a real way to provide an honest and nuanced answer without a wall of text.

My realization of Christianity's "unpleasantness" has a lot of different origins, at different parts of my life.

The first realization is one you've probably had yourself: the Christian god claims that being gay is immoral ("sin" isn't more nuanced than that), and when I started to understand that I am gay, I knew I had not made a choice or engaged in behavior subject to moral judgment.

The underlying claim made as much sense as if the Christian god decided that brown hair was a sin. "Fun" fact: being left-handed was considered a sin, too, and involved physical punishment for it. Christians just like hating people for frivolous reasons.

There are no positive conclusions to make from those facts: if the Christian god existed, then it knew it was making false statements--if it were truly omniscient, then it was also making false statements that it knew would lead to significant suffering and death. This necessarily means that if the Christian god exists, it's an evil being unworthy of worship, and completely devoid of moral value.

The other alternative is that it didn't know it got this wrong. This necessarily suggests that this creature is not a god, or that the beliefs were determined by people who had no knowledge of a god.

Personally, I think it makes more sense that there isn't a god, than it being a malevolent god that wants to sow chaos but won't actually reveal itself, or an advanced creature that just happened to be a fraud.

It was hard to avoid that Christians themselves embraced the lie suggesting that being gay is a sin. I grew up in the 90s. There was no such thing as marriage equality. Sex was still illegal. And my first sex ed class came with this disclaimer, "you can anonymously ask any questions you want by writing it on these note cards and leaving it at my desk. But don't ask any questions about being gay because we won't be covering that."

Even before the internet, it wasn't a secret that this kind of behavior was Christian in nature. Christians controlled the community standards to a ridiculous extent.

I had an experience in college that made me deeply uncomfortable at the time, but in hindsight, provided a lot of insight.

I had come out as a freshman; I'd also become active in the Multicultural Student Affairs organization, including Allies.

The college put together a community panel to explain why equal rights are important; because of my participation in related organizations, I was asked to speak. The panel was well received and we got a lot of thoughtful questions: importantly, there was zero tolerance for bigotry, and they made the event safe.

The campus Christian organization (the progressive, "I prefer to be called a believer in Jesus than a Christian" kind) was offended that this was a specifically pro-equality panel and demanded to hear a counterpoint; they wanted someone to say we didn't deserve rights.

The college said no, that's stupid. (Ok, not literally, but you get the point.) So they decided to hold their own event with their own speaker to talk about, "theo-logic".

It was a Catholic priest who talked about how gay sex is sin because you can't do it while facing each other. ...no, I'm not joking; he had hand gestures to describe frot and how it isn't possible. He also talked about how we didn't deserve rights, and should be considered lesser.

I was proud of my campus community, though: though the audience was a fraction of the size of the real panel, the room was packed with allies who wanted to shut it down. For every Christian in the room, there had to be at least 6 good people.

We argued. We heckled. We called out the stupid arguments. The Christians were pissed that they were embarrassed at their own event.

I was the only one who acknowledged being gay. The part that stuck with me: when it ended, this creepy priest came up to me and said, "I've always wanted to do this." And hugged me.

Aside from being something that happened to me, it's also the perfect analogy for the Christianity I know: it says you're inferior in one breath while pretending to be friendly in the other, so you'll be seen as the aggressor when you question how they treat you. It's a tactic to trivialize the harm they do.

Aside from the fact that there are no secular arguments against being LGBT--and really, how could there be, any more than there could be secular arguments against having brown eyes?--all pro-fascist protests involved slogans like, "god hates ____". There has never been ambiguity that the movement against human rights is a Christian movement.

For a while, I allowed myself to be argued into believing it's just a few bad Christians, and not the religion. I honestly regret that, because it's just propaganda.

It was Christians--the "good ones"--who chipped away at the propaganda for me over the years.

Every, "I wish Christians would stop doing this to us" was met with, "stop saying these things about my religion. It's only fake Christians who are hateful. Jesus never condoned hate. Real Christians aren't like that."

And then the same person making this argument would always end up sharing support for homophobic laws. Or nonsense articles about trans people destroying sports. I have yet to find someone complaining about fake Christians who didn't participate in the hate they were disavowing.

I've had other progressive Christian friends who let the mask slip in other ways. One earnestly said that she didn't think my sin of being gay was any worse than her sin of having an abortion, which she strongly believed should be illegal. 🙃

Another was supposedly an ex-Satanist who believed, "I don't like being called a Christian because they have done some very evil things in the world. I'm a believer in Jesus, but even that's hard to say sometimes because I know a lot of blood has been spilled in his name by Christians."

He started the conversation because I had complained about new laws related to Christofascism. He spent the rest of the conversation using my anxiety as a means of conversion.

"Yeah, Christians are horrible. But Jesus was great, don't you think? I think you'd have really liked him. He'd be disappointed in how Christians act in the world. You should look into his message." He even tried to "relate" to me by saying how hard it was for him to come out as a Christian. 🙃

These are just a couple anecdotes that really stuck with me. But they're representative of what I've seen from Christians in general. It's the used car salesman vibe; they're compelled to sell you their bullshit, and they're not going to let you call out its flaws.

If you get the chance, look through the notes on the post that spurred these questions. I intentionally mirrored common, popular Christian arguments about gay people; they all have real, current laws they refer to. The responses from Christians show more concern with PR for the religion than the underlying behaviors that were called out. I expected it, but it might be eye opening for you.

It was also startling to me that we made recent strides in equality, and lost so much of it overnight. It looked like public perception was turning around and society was getting its heads out of its collective asses about LGBT people.

Then Trump became president and just. Enticed the fascist infestation back into the open. With distinctly Christian messaging. The cake lawsuit wasn't secular. The fraudulent wedding website design lawsuit wasn't secular. The Proud Boys engaging in armed intimidation at LGBT events is terrorism, and it's not secular.

This was Christianity deciding that nearing equality couldn't be tolerated and they had to claw it back. They'll never be haply in a world where we're equal; they'll lay low for a little while and then revoke our rights. Again. At some point we have to call out that cycle and refuse to let them repeat it.

Whenever you hear the words "family friendly", you need to know it's a Christian catchphrase. It was created by Christian groups who wanted to ensure we wouldn't be seen on TV. It's directly related to the bad faith arguments about "grooming."

It's an attempt to make Christian arguments look secular, as a way of getting their religion into the law. It's basically a "get out of a first amendment violation for free card." They've demonstrated recently that they have no intention of being good people; that we will always have to be subjected to these awful false and damaging beliefs.

This return of fascist thought also brought me to a new realization: fascism is built in to the very core of Christianity.

It's not controversial to say that a fascist government includes an authoritarian leader that cannot be questioned, special privileges for the most loyal including privileges against being punished for committing crimes, lesser rights for marginalized people, extreme nationalism, and genocide for outsiders. Those are key defining characteristics of fascism.

This is how Christianity--all of it--is structured. You cannot question the existence of Jesus/god or his "benevolence": that is the single worst crime in the religion. You must do what he says otherwise you're punished for eternity; he's a "loving" authoritarian leader who would only do that to those who "deserve the punishment". You know, evil people like lefties and LGBT people. 🙄

It's most obvious in Catholicism, but church leaders can break the law in the most horrific ways (child sexual abuse being a very common one among all Christian clergy), but their standing in the church never falls. As long as they are loyal, they just get shifted around. This is an obscene special privilege.

But if you're just a member of the congregation? You will be vilified for breaking even minor laws. There are different sets of rules for the masses and the loyal leaders.

While Christianity is tied to nationalism in the US, it does also have its own internal equivalent. Those people who think it's horrible that I flipped the script and asked Christianity to confront its own words? It's the same kind of unquestioning allegiance, that trivializes and refuses to fix serious institutional flaws, which defines nationalism.

And Christianity has never met a genocide it didn't want to take part in. Even if you're too close to it to acknowledge that this is what Christians are doing to LGBT people, there is an unbroken history of it around the world. If you've read about the bodies found at Canadian Christian schools, you know it's not just the distant past.

But even today, the "soft" form of missionary work is intended to commit genocide. The whole goal of doing things like providing water to impoverished countries is to show how great Christians are, so the locals will decide their own way of life is inferior and abandon it. It's intended to destroy cultures; even if it's not always waged as war and torture, the goal hasn't changed. They've just made genocide look polite.

I don't believe it's possible for a religion to have a world view that's deeply tied to fascism, and be capable of having denominations that aren't evil in some way. Seeing that kind of fascist structure as normal will inevitably poison how you see other people and the world around you.

Which ties in to your next question. If you discount the damage a fascist religion does to the way a person thinks, I'm still certain there aren't any decent denominations.

There are a few reasons. The biggest one is that most Christians will say they're part of a progressive denomination. But it should be apparent that it's impossible: if most Christians are good people in denominations that aren't hateful, how do that minority of bad Christians keep getting anti-LGBT laws on the books?

Evangelicals are the loudest and most visible, but they alone don't have that kind of voting power. Just like it's obvious that it's not just Catholics who are behind abortion bans. They're a visible enemy, but they are not the totally of the threat. The underlying belief is widespread enough among Christians that it doesn't immediately guarantee their loss at the ballot box. They vote together when it comes to voting against our lives.

There are plenty of "I support you, I don't think being gay sends you to hell" Christians who still vote for Christian candidates who do believe that way. It's not a deal breaker for these people, because it's still tacitly a part of their religious beliefs even when they pretend it's not.

It's also compounded by the PR provided by the "nice ones." Think back to my comment about how closely the culture mirrors nationalism: If a Christian attacks a gay couple with a knife and you point out that Christianity was a motivating factor, you will absolutely hear from the "nice ones".

They will tell you that not all Christians are like that; that it's a "loving" religion, and it's horrible to paint them all with the same brush. That you're just as bad as the attacker for acknowledging that it was a Christian-motivated crime.

But it's necessary to acknowledge that the attacker was motivated by his religion. How do you stop attacks like that without considering why they happen? Could it have been prevented by church leaders if they spoke differently? Did other members of his church accidentally encourage him by agreeing with his mindset? Would the attack have been prevented if he didn't get specific, false and hateful messaging from his religion?

He learned that his perspective was correct from somewhere. It didn't happen in a vacuum, and the religion's contribution is an important fact. But people in the "good denominations" never allow any analysis of the cause, because they don't want it to result in a scenario where they have to change their harmful behaviors. They care more about the perception of their religion than the actual pain and suffering of its targets.

Until they stop serving as PR for the abstract "bad ones", no, there really can't be a good denomination. They all share responsibility for their contribution to ongoing homophobia and transphobia in our society--regardless of whether they're actively encouraging it, or "only" shielding the reputations of those who do.

And even if you find one that's not encouraging LGBT-phobia, and refuses to do PR for those who do, I come back to that experience in college. How do you know this group isn't just being nice to your face, but dehumanizing you and acting against your human and civil rights behind the closed curtain of the voting booth?

The fascist structure and the religion's refusal to admit that being gay or trans isn't a sin points to that latter scenario being more likely.

I hope that answers your questions, but I can clarify anything if it doesn't.

#christianity is inherently fascist

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Thank you for saying that it really means a lot, I actually used to write fan-fiction a couple years back and I’ve recently tried to start again but I’m very critical of what I write and how I write it so I’m incapable of producing a single chapter.

Keep it mysterious, I’ll be eagerly awaiting whatever you gift us ✨

Now that you mention it, yes I completely understand what you mean about R not being able to be extremely cold to Tara. R seems like the type of person who’d be hurt and disappointed, someone who wouldn’t necessarily be cold to Tara but would definitely hide from her. For R I’d imagine it’d be an internal battle of what she wants versus what she deserves, we already get a feel for that in the first chapter but it was easier for her to choose what she wants- which is to provide whatever comfort and happiness Tara wants because she loves her so much over what she deserves- someone who cares about her in a consistent manner and not only when it’s convenient (boo Tara😡). After Tara’s outburst I think R would have to force herself in every way possible to really process that she can’t put Tara’s needs above her own anymore, as much as she loves Tara doing that would reinforce the notion that everything Tara said is true. We know she always runs back but now that’s she’s been ridiculed for it she can’t.

The way she’s always there for Tara makes me wonder about her background. Maybe this is TMI, but I personally have experienced many relationships like this in the past. My father abandoned my sister and I at a very young age, so part of the reason I would always be there for them and never left first even when I should’ve but wouldn’t- was because I never wanted them to feel as unloved and unworthy as I did when my father left me. By the time I was a teenager I’d already forgiven him for all the abuse my family endured because of him, in my heart nobody could ever hurt me the way he hurt me- so I’d forgive them even though the people around me would expressively tell me not to, you know? But im older now and I stand my ground, i can leave when if its what’s best for me and not get too caught up in what’s best for them.

I’m from California by the way! It’s 10:30PM right now, you’re from Brazil though? That’s so cool! Did you grow up there? My parents were born in Mexico but they moved to USA in the late 1980’s, I wanna move to Mexico and live there for a couple years because my mother loves and talks about her hometown so much, the idea of seeing where she grew up in person and picturing her as a little girl warms my heart.

- ☘️ (I’m gonna use this as my anon tag from now on)

I feel like everyone is gonna be critical when it comes to their own stuff, like, I'm not kidding when I said i thought second best wasn't that good, specially because I used to be an essay tutor/monitor at school and my writing had to be more than perfect. Just remember that usually you're gonna be more critical of your work than other people and it doesn't mean that what you write is actually bad.

I'm so sorry that happened to you and I'm glad that you can stand your ground now!💪 I know this will sound oddly ironic but all the background information I have on R is about... Tara. In my head, R is divided by past (beginning of friendship, woodsboro), present (the current mess) and future (what's gonna happen) so, in a way, maybe her life is all about Tara😔

I don't think R's family are gonna make an appearance so I'll leave it up for you guys to hc whatever you want as R's reason for being so attached to Tara.

California seems so nice! And yeah, i grew up here and i wouldn't have it any other way🤭 Maybe this happens to everyone in their own home country but i just love my culture and history so much, I can't imagine living anywhere else.

Mexico sounds super cool! I've been wanting to go there, specially in 2026 because of the world cup (really wanted to see it live) but i dont think it's gonna happen😔 Either way it's a beautiful country i wanna visit someday and i definitely have to start improving my spanish.

#✦: 𝑎𝑛𝑜𝑛 𝑎𝑠𝑘𝑠

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I think I may have had an epiphany, but feel free to correct me if I'm wrong. I'm so sorry this is long lol but I hope I can help other's that might read this and sort out the confusion.

I think with the models example ask, anon was saying that there have been models that have come out publicly and talked about how they are insecure about their looks and have body image issues and they actually don't find themselves to pretty. So anon was asking why their identity about themselves wasn't reflecting in other's confirming their belief that they're unattractive and instead the model's are still viewed by society at large as perfect despite those models not believing they are about themselves. So the models are like, i'm ugly! and yet what's manifesting in the material world seems to contradict that belief because in the material world their job is literally them being payed to be beautiful and society praises them and idolizes them for their beauty. All despite them believing themselves to be unattractive. So anon was like, how is it possible to experience contradicting circumstances to their belief about themselves.

3d is and can only ever be a reflection of 4d. So 4d = 'I am ugly' seems in complete contradiction with 3d = I am a supermodel, in a career of beauty and society wants to either look like me or be with me because I am SOOOO beautiful. I think that's where anon's confusion was coming from.

So like, this actually might be an epiphany for me now cause does this mean eiypo is specifically what you believe other's believe about you and not what you believe about yourself? Like, even if you hate yourself you can also believe that your Mom, friends and girlfriend loves you regardless about how you feel about yourself, so the 3d will reflect them loving you? And so is what you think of yourself then where actual fulfillment comes from? Because yes you can have something in the material world that you think you want but even if you have it, it can't actually fulfill you unless what you believe about yourself specifically aligns with fulfillment? So your concept of other people can be that everyone else is always really sweet to you/loves you and do nice things for you so that's what manifests into the 3d but even so, you can't really enjoy/feel fulfilled by those nice things and that treatment from other's because your concept of yourself is that you're bad, undeserving and unworthy and it's your concept of yourself where true fulfillment comes from? Therefore: eiypo is your concept of other's but your concept of other's does not necessarily match your concept of self and if it doesn't then even if your concept of others is good, they still can fulfill you because real fulfillment can only ever come from your concept of self? Is this it?

{So for confused anon. The models concept of self is that they're unattractive, yes, but their concept of other's is that other's think they are attractive so therefore that's what's manifesting/reflecting in the 3d. Other's viewing them as attractive/modeling being their profession = manifestation of their concept of other's AND them feeling unattractive/finding flaws in themselves/unable to actually feel satisfied with other's validation = manifestation of concept of their self. So both concepts ARE manifesting in the 3d. However, what everyone truly desires beyond the materialistic masks, is the feeling of fulfillment. The models don't feel fulfilled with the 3d validation no matter how "goals" it may seem because 3d validation alone cannot fulfill you. Only your concept of self can fulfill you. Regardless of whether what's happening in the 3d is by human standards "good" or "bad" is actually irrelevant because at the end of the day unless your self concept is one of fulfillment you'll never really be sustainably satisfied. You can have "great" things but does that really matter if you still feel like shit?}

yes exactly! thats why a lot of us (me) have had really great things in the 3D but were not able to fully believe or identify with it because of our own beliefs.

thank you for sharing :)

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For the OC x Canon ask game!

13 and 6 for Evelyn and Reiner because you know I need to know, I love them. Feel free to answer with your other ships as well though!

OMG THANK YOUUUU that means a lot to know ;U; 💖💖💖

So I'm adding them and also Demand & Mia for a bonus (⁠ﾉ⁠◕⁠ヮ⁠◕⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠*⁠.⁠✧

Dangerous men and then woman they love (who's also dangerous is soooo theheheheuheu)

6.What small quirks do they love about each other?:

Reinelyn:🛡️🍎:

Reiner: OH oh he couldn't name anything more endearing even if he spent hours than her intense sense of concern. Like I said before she's a very insightful bigger picture person but that does slip to overthinking in a sense , thing is in cases like that it's a bit blown out of proportions he can't help holding a chuckle and adding "I don't think it works like that/doubt that of all things is gonna have the earth explode" but he knows it's out of good nature so soon enough he's offering a calmer and simpler take on the situation.

In a more specific example let's assume reiny says something with self depracating undertones/implications "I guess that must sound pathetic/nasty/foolish/etc." that gets her to jump right off and deny it with a "no not really! It's not in my eyes at Least...!' The outburst, along with her eyes opening wide like she's surprised maybe she did something that he came to the conclusion that's what she'd think , just gets him him to soften his expression and sigh, with a hint of smile sneaking to his face.

On a physical note , Evy tilts her head often when curious or puzzled about something and once again, this is so goddamn adorable.

Evelyn: Albeit she initially reads it as uninviting and assumes it's better not, she can't help herself gesturing slowly from behind or the side whenever she spots reiny sulking with his arms crossed, staring at something or nothing. When she's there already glancing up, wouldn't budge until he turns his head in her direction or she comes up with a good conversation starter that doesn't feel out of place to make that one faster. Should they be alone that'd even get her to lean her head on his arm-shoulder.like,,,,

Little eye spots:

*looks to right, left, behind, in distance, up, down, sees no one shady*

Instinct in a matter of fewest of seconds:

Demia: 💎💐

Demande: Ah a sweet little example from her core personality trait- one of the times they were seeing each other before the identity reveal they were in a café date. Typically she chose them a window seat, then her eye wandered out down to the sideway there, and spotted a single purple flower growing out of a crack in there. It made her eyes sparkle and stick to the glass to observe it. Something about it was excitement and care about what most people would gloss over, a love for small details and hidden beauty of things. Down to loving the deemed unworthy and unloveable and seeing what's great about it. Also a nice symblism to retaining the best and beautiful parts despite harsh lonely and unfitting upbringing 🤧

Mia: good question ,,, just a sec. So I like to think that for her he's a rather open book, not necessarily in a bad way though; more in a diamond in the rough sense where a person has a good potential but lacks the polishing. Making it easy enough for her to know how to express her way with affection than she'd normally fear (and even better considering he's very encouraging of the methods and gestures. So she decides to use them for him first of all). If that makes sense akfhaujfwjekfb. I think that when it comes down to it, it's since it brings balance and genuinity to this more charming princely side that that speaks poetically and enjoys the finer things. Making him more or less surprisingly approachable and 'human' to look up to and less like an idealized entity to worship. Albeit just about anyone else would be rather intimidated. 🤧

13. How do they express their feelings (Words, visual art, a song, etc.)?

Reinelyn:

Reiner: I'm a Reiner is physical touch love language™ truther sooooo :") Considering the circumstances, throughout most of the story both are being as subtle as possible on expressing it. But it hurts. Still, it gave their interactions a unique tone to them. Normally when Reiner expressed any sort of affection and care with someone, be it on the island or marley(a lot more for the former though) it's rather outgoing and especially through physical touch like bear hugs and headpats. But the alert in her case makes gives it surpsing delicacy, lightly on her hair or shoulder, like something holds him back, which indeed is not to have attention drawn to it- which does raise eyebrows but for their luck not much because it's more about how different the physical expression is here. Also comes the factor that maybe the more delicate and therefore "weaker" it is, the less likely both her and him are to form true attachment considering Y'know it's believed to not meant to last because in a matter of few years,,,

But considering that something about evelyn's character is about the impact of delicacy and vulnerability Unfortunately it does the opposite. and it hurts, they could only do so little it gets them to crave more. Impossible as it is🤧

Ultimately though, by the end with every restriction becoming undone slowly I love to think he finally allows himself to show unlimited tenderness towards her, but with the 5-7 years it took from the moment he met her on the ship back to marley. there's still that touch of melancholy to it, making it recognizable and unique to them and them only. Like before departing when he's heading back to paradis for the third time at the end, their tightest hug yet lasts a few minutes until he has anyone from the alliance notify him they should get moving. And even then steal a few seconds to look until she's out of his eyesight until return. (No he didn't tell her he's marrying her as soon as he comes back WHAT art thou talking about🤧🤭🫠)

Evelyn: What I mentioned in the previous question is a small part of her habit she adapted to come by whenever the time feels right. Like a surprise visit of some sort as soon as she spots him nearby. The core purpose of it is to have a presence that maybe can offer any sort of help, or read if he shows better or worse signs after a certain situation she overhead about during his time back in marley and do something accordingly, or at least give herself time to think what would do. She's a bit drawn back from direct confronting about what brought her (especially when it comes to Rei's life being in a risky position) knowing maybe she doesn't really understand that. But ultimately evy does come to the conclusion she never would if she doesn't at least try 🤧 she's indeed the conversation starter of the two. I also love the idea it's sometimes get her to take a quick sprint in his direction as if being magnetized, assuming she's in a good mood and talking to him would make it even better; but would slow herself down to not draw attention.

For her luck in the epilogue I'm letting her straight up JUMP into that hug ;w;

Demia:

Demande: He's much an open book and is rather bold on his true view on others- fond, lustful or resentful. And that's especially notable considering his own s/o's reserved Wallflower personality who keeps her own views shut in; he can't help but wish to change it, from what he's seen within her big heart. It's no wonder he manages to motivate her. The poetic choice of words he naturally makes really sells it. From gentle compliments and remarks- how beautiful she appears in anything, hairstyle, dresses, jewelry "rather lovely, wouldn't you agree?" "It looks good on you"; to admire the endearing and passionate yet selfless and thoughtful part of her personality- strong and raw emotions on things, potential, etc etc.

Openly admitting outloud he'd trust her with his life. He's someone who loves receiving these in return too- that's why did he trusted wiseman's fake graces and promises of all his heart desires after all alfjakfjkamf.

Mia: So generally speaking she's a very devoted person with strong emotions within her if it's anything or anyone important to her Although a bit troubled with choosing words to tell, as she feels it can't convey it properly enough.so Brought to the acts From pouring his wine, soothing his pains and clearing his mind, to flapting an bloody to bitter end in a burning area slashing through anything in her way.After being recruited to the BMC one of the abilities she was given was an ability to crystallize thin air (also how she created her weapon). She loves giving it a floral shape and gift it to him whenever they're nearby being tender and intimate. But she also eventually learns to take pride in how she feels for good and bad and find the best ways to word it finally struggling with outbursts of emotions, but she gets better with time, and now they're gentle and endearing admirations of everything he means to her Even. to a point of daring to bring herself confronting enemies violently and furiously.

Man this was fun to write down! Love them too (⁠ㆁ⁠ω⁠ㆁ⁠)

Questions for self ship/OC x canon couples

#asks #missnobodydoodles #aot oc #sailor moon oc #evelyncore #miacore #demiacore #reinelyncore #mai writes #meta #mai thoughts #oc x canon #ship asks

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mumms-the-word · 3 days

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THINGS THAT I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW ABOUT MY FELLOW WRITERS

I can’t remember who tagged me with this or if I stole it 😭

Tagging: @elspethdekarios @sorceresssundries @fantasyfictionfables @lewdisescariot and anyone else??

No pressure friends as always and sorry for double tagging, this has sat in drafts for like days

Last book I read: For fun? I honestly can't remember. For my dissertation, Phantasmion by Sara Coleridge (and I haven't recovered, it was an acid trip of a fantasy novel)

Greatest literary inspirations: Bram Stoker (fave classic writer), Marissa Meyer (influenced my love of YA fairy tales), Ursula K. Le Guin (her style is SO GOOD)

Things in my current fandom I want to read but I don't want to write: I skim/read a lot of smut for someone who will never write it. I don't even read it that much, but occasionally something catches my eye (I appreciate you smutty, smutty people). What I'd want to read but not write is slice-of-life style shenanigans between characters, the kind that comic artists like @a2zillustration do really well. Send me recs if you know other BG3 comic artists!

Things in my current fandoms I want to write but I think nobody would be interested in them but me: my current masquerade fic I love writing stuff that is incredibly specific to my Tavs because I find it fascinating to explore different character perspectives and voices? But I know the fandom tends to enjoy generalized Tavs or "you" POVs more than specific OC characters, which is fair given the nature of the game, so I don't share as much of my Tav-specific stuff these days

You can recognise my writing by: the lack of smut...and probably an overuse of adverbs. and the fact that every chapter/oneshot is ridiculously long. I'm new to fanfic, okay, I wrote full books as a hobby before this lol

My most controversial take (current fandom): oh boy I have...many, probably...I've already gotten blocked for one hot take (I think it was a misunderstanding??) but it wasn't even my most controversial take. I think my most controversial take is that there is no One Correct Way to interpret a character, and anyone who tells you that "you're reading the game files wrong" or "that isn't what is canon" is ignoring the fact that a) that's not how interpretation works, and b) the branching nature of the game is going to necessarily mean that different people encounter different things in different orders and may not even get the dialogue that you hold so dear to your interpretation of the character, and that is okay. We shouldn't ask everyone to become an expert in every facet of their favorite character's identity because not everybody has the time or energy for that. We should just hope that people are having fun. Like I know this is a complex topic and I don't want to ramble about it here lol but that's the gist

Top three favourite tropes: in no particular order, 1) arranged/convenient marriage that leads to genuine love between characters, 2) super big tall buff scary guy (tortured past optional) is actually a total sweetheart who is a little afraid of his own strength (bonus points if he falls in love with a smol person he must protect and feels slightly unworthy of), and 3) FOUND FAMILY I love it every time

What’s your current writing mood (10 – super motivated and churning out words like crazy, 0 – in a complete rut): fic writing I'm like....idk a 6? dissertation writing, which I am actually supposed to be writing, is a solid 1.

Share a random frustration: my students keep insisting on using AI to write their assignments and it is BEYOND frustrating how much time it takes up for me to read their assignment, mark where they've used AI, and then forward it to the next tier in our "Guess what you done fucked up" system for this class

#tag game #bg3

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warsofasoiaf · 9 months

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With the Doctrine of Exceptionalism, it seems like everyone is trying to guess at an incomplete story, and no one is paying attention to what Jaehaerys ACTUALLY DID. He basically imposed a change of the religious teachings of a religion, he gaslit the people, and lied to mess with their values, all for his own convenience, so he could marry the girl he wanted. He made them give up their right to self defense, because they fought a tyrant who killed his brothers & raped his sister.

Jaehaerys 2 - So many readers profess to love the commoners (while jerking off over exercise of royal power), but is there a more proletarian institution in Westeros than the Poor Fellows? Whom "Good" King Jaehaerys sent into exile because he was leery of them and wanted to do at least one of the things they fought his uncle over! And yes, the king's sex life IS a public matter, since the public will have to deal with any genetically defective successors or rebellious bastards when he's gone. I'm not stanning for the Faith, and my own suspicion is that the High Septon used the PF etc just as criminally as Jaehaerys, as his motivations were not so much about the sins of the royals as getting his family on the Iron Throne. All his ire at the Targaryens just so happens to be over things that push Cerise further into the background (eg Aenys having grandkids, Maegor possibly having kids by another woman). But his unworthy motives don't make the Targaryens right.

Eh, I don't think supporting proletarian institution necessarily makes someone pro-commoner. In plenty of cases in our own history, proletarian institutions tended to be among the largest and most brutal oppressors of the common people.

Similarly, from a political perspective, the Swords and Stars does run into the problem of having a large, well-equipped private army not under the control of the king, which runs into difficulty in maintaining a monopoly of violence. While the nobles have their own retainers, they are at least somewhat controlled via the King's Peace and the judicial system. So Jaehaerys needs to, from his perspective, defang the Faith Militant to restore the Iron Throne's control on force. By placing the Iron Throne as the Defender of the Faith, he is essentially having the role of the Faith Militant outsourced to royal power. Similarly, dismantling the ecclesiastical court secured noble buy-in and removed a means by which the Faith enriched and empowered itself at the expense of the existing royal judicial structure. That's medieval statecraft and would have been considered the standard practice for the day.

I think "lied to mess with their values" is a bit of an exaggeration, because that is saying that he specifically told them things that he knew weren't true for kicks. Similarly, he didn't exile the Poor Fellows or the Warrior's Sons, they disbanded in exchange for amnesty - that's a completely different thing.

Given the Septon Exceptionalists, Jaehaerys appeared to attempt to promulgate the Doctrine via theological argument and state-sponsored preaching, not force. So I don't think he imposed the Doctrine via force as you're suggesting.

So while I get where you're coming from, I think from the lens of medieval statecraft, what he did was very in-line with that mentality.

Thanks for the contribution, Anon.

SomethingLikeALawyer, Hand of the King

#jaehaerys i targaryen

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traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors · 1 year

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abuse , victim blaming

just need to vent, thank you

i hate hate HATE it when people being kind towards abuse survivors are called babying them. i hate hate HATE it when people tell survivors to fight back and say it's our own fault if we're stuck because we're unwilling to work towards our own freedom. i HATE it when they are praised and even proud of themselves for making us face the harsh truth. YOU DONT!!! i find it very very VERYYY victim blamey to even inisuate we are somehow in the wrong for what? not trying even harder to escape? i always feel insulted each time someone tell me to try to escape and "get out of my comfort zone". like, why did you assume i never tried to fight back or escape? why did you think i even have any comfort zone at all? i hate it even more when it comes to fellow abuse survivor who escaped on their own. like, okay??? just because you could finally escape doesnt mean everyone else can do it too??? do i understand that sometimes, there are no outsiders who can magically save us? of course i do! i've known since early age that nobody will side with me! do i desperately wish to be able to escape myself since nobody from outside would be able to or willing to help me! OF COURSE!!!! I'VE TRIED FOR YEARS!!! SO WHY THE ASSUMPTION THAT BECAUSE I'M STILL STUCK THEN CLEARLY I HAVEN'T TRIED HARD ENOUGH????!!!!

gods. i understand if people who never experience abuse say that. but fellow abuse survivors??? hello???? do you seriously think escaping abusive situation is just a matter of mindset change wtf. i know staying in an abusive situation is bad!!!! i know it's highly unlikely any outside party will help me!!! i also know that escaping will bring negative consequences because i have tried and experienced it myself!!! even if i do escape i dont even know where to go!!!! i will die either way!!! like holy shit just because my exterior personality is calm and friendly doesnt mean im just tolerating bullshit while denying reality wtf

Hi anon,

I hear you. Unfortunately there are a lot of people out there with backwards ideas about abuse survivors, and the rhetoric that they perpetuate is so hurtful and damaging to our recovery. It's frustrating to deal with people who are simply ignorant to how abuse actually works. By perpetuating victim-blaming in these ways, they are protecting abusers.

I think it's important to be reminded that you didn't deserve what happened, regardless of whether or not you fought back. You still deserve kindness and it's not your fault if you didn't fight back. The only person whose fault it is, is the person who caused the abuse in the first place (the abuser). Just because it may have taken you longer to leave, or because perhaps you're not out of it yet, doesn't make you weak or unworthy of love, kindness, and safety. You have been and are doing your best.

I also just want you to consider that these people, while they will unfortunately exist, they don't deserve your time, energy, and emotion. You are worth so much more than to give them space they don't deserve in your mind and heart. You know your truth, you know what really happened and how abuse really works, and they cannot take that away from you with their ignorance. It can be exhausting to challenge these kinds of people and the rhetoric they spout, especially because it hits you right in the trauma. So for your own mental health and self care, while it is important to acknowledge the effect these comments have on you, it's also important to, not let it go necessarily, but know that you're worth more than spending your energy and emotion arguing with ridiculous statements.

I hope I could help. Please let us know if you need anything.

-Bun

#mod bun #trauma talks #tw abuse #tw emotional abuse

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