#and i dont even have the best excuse

[pensbridgertons]

PERIOD DRAMA APPRECIATION WEEK 2023

day 1: favorite adaptation + day 2: favorite tv show

jamie and claire + book to screen (in/sp)

#perioddramaweek2023 #outlanderedit #periodedit #perioddramaedit #weloveperioddrama #periodedits #userperioddrama #onlyperioddramas #usersteen #useremsi #usereponine #userjamiec #** #jamie x claire #outlander #otp: there’s the two of us now #this has been sitting in my drafts for a literal YEAR sjkhjgh #so im using this as an excuse to finally post it since it fits the day 1 prompt #anyways making this took literal years off my life but its fine <3 #also dont even know if im gonna have time to do any other days for this week :/ but i will try my best

[dreadark]

lonetrail event mechanic

#arknights #finally an excuse to reference the best line in fire emblem #also big fan of saria getting new outfits every event #i imagine they dont even ask #norizc just emails them a new one and then they have to update all the event art #post

[wanyinchen-narts]

SUNFLOWER (CANON DIVERGENCE AU)

the absolute *chef's kiss*, depth, angst, and clownery of the kakagai dynamic this fic has is beyond insane and amazing and I am not ashamed to say that I have binged it at least 7 times

Now, my lovelies, please read "Sunflower" by cloudynebula and lapifors once more and bask in its utter perfection. But make sure you're in the right headspace for it because it's really heavy and dark tho! Please take care of yourself first <3

*more incoherent babbling in the tags lmaooo*

#kakagai #maito gai #hatake kakashi #might guy #naruto #sha's nart art #fanart of a fanfic #the sunflower fic deserves a tag as far as i'm concerned #go. read. sunflower!!!! #i swear it is the best Gai character study fic!!! #you have no idea on how rare Gai character study fics that actually don't underestimate him are #or something along those lines #its so rare to find gai-centered fics that have his voice down to a tee #and not overdoing the dramatic capitalization to a fucking ridiculous amount; and not having the words YOUTH!!! and SPRINGTIME!!! be used #--in every other sentence LIKE THANK YOU! Its one of my pet peeves i think i just dont like the implication that Gai is an dumb idiot #we need more gai-centered fics!!! he's fucking hilarious as a narrator #like THANK YOU!!!! I imagine Gai to be sweet emotional genuine overwhelming overdramatic over-the-top stubborn and wise #not a fool who only has YOUTH!! and PASSION!! in his dictionary LIKE EXCUSE YOU! Gai's very flowery and poetic; he knows many words :D #and the actual depth of Gai in this fic makes me cry and wail happy tears #and the depicted relationship between Gai and Kakashi is so perfect it makes me cry and wail happy tears even more!!! #like its so perfect and genuine and real and true *more wailing* #LIKE THANK YOU FOR HAVING GAI ACTUALLY OPPOSE AND DISAPPROVE KAKASHI'S ACTIONS IN ANBU #gai walks beside kakashi NOT BEHIND #he aint Kakashi's simp or Kakashi's enabler #he's Kakashi's best friend and eternal rival goddammit!!! #and thats all lmao #whoopsies i went on a tangent

[mango-fizz]

having a normal one folks

#mangomoments #splatoon #splatoon shiver #i dont even have an excuse for this one #i was listening to ohedo julia night what a great song #one of mitchie's best im not even gonna lie

[strawberryscorp]

albus comes home after having a bad day and collapses into scorpius's arms

scorpius could be doing anything but he'd pause and play with albus's hair while letting him rant about his day

#“scowbus... its so hard having a financially stable family and two alive parents :(” #i know honey i know #this is me manifesting i had a no good very bad day #im gonna rant about it in the tags so feel free to ignore me! love u #first of all. we had rehearsal for our dinner theatre. DOGSHIT #ME AND ONE OTHER GUY WERE THE ONLY BITCHES WHO KNEW OUR MUSIC #AND NONE OF THE WAITRESSES BESIDES ME DID THEIR THING #SO I LOOKED STUPID #and #i learned a whole dance for a pep rally and we had to cancel it because people stopped showing up to meetings #AND AND #theres this guy i really dont like. lets call him jake #i was backstage during the rehearsal of ANOTHER show #and this fucker grabs me but the hips and moves me out of the way. girl try excuse me #hes always so mean to me and for what. im friends with your fans. we have the same interests. WHY MUST YOU HATE ME #anyways. best part is theres even more but i dont feel like getting into it so. im just having a fun and grand old time #sorry for being annoying on main it will happen again #scorbus #albus sever potter #albus potter #scorpius malfoy #hp next gen #harry potter and the cursed child #all these marauders fans at school keep trying to hate on cursed child and i have to give them a ted talk about everything #im a nerd bookworm im studious 🤓☝️ #IM DONE

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

sigh

#i think the universe is playing a prank on me here #that at age 14 i went #'rip to rose but i would never fall in love with the doctor could never be me' #and then to be faced with 13 and the realisation that rip to rose but im not different #and then and THEN #they put this fucker back in there so now im #here #like #ive done my best for my lesbianisms #ive put work into my lesbian tendencies alright #not a lesbian but i believe in their beliefs deeply #so like excuse me mr tennant but you cant just get back in here and have me googling #your fucking eye colour #just bc im that far gone for the thIRTEENTH doctor #thirteen. alright. hear me? mr tennant. thirteen. #its brown btw #which is great for the sentence i was about to write but thats really my only win here #deep deep sigh #i dont even like him! #likewith all due respect it wasnt mr wet sad puppy eyes who had me looking up the kinsey scale at 2 in the morning after the giggle alright #im hijacking his whole noble-temple-doctor happy ending just to write more thasmin and yET #yet i find myself #here. googling david tennants eye colour #we find ways to keep struggling on dont we #hes not that special!!!!!

[sotogalmo]

8:40

I should make a post about Palestine. I've been having thoughts, and.. I really want to share. Because its just not fair. It's not fair at all.

Adults

Teens

Children

Toddlers

Babies

Infants

They are all dying. They are all being killed, murdered, raped, and everything that is evil.

And it's not fair.

It's not fair that I, get to live a life. While they don't. It's not fair that I get to live, and they are tossed aside like trash(they are not).

It's not fair that I get help, while they have to suffer and get nothing.

It's not fair at all.

I thought history was taught to us, as a way of like "now! Let's not make the same mistake again!"

But here we are.

It's the same as the Holocaust.

It's Genocide.

And it's not right. You all should know that

Yesterday, I was just thinking of the small things I had in life. Seeing a mother and her healthy children, thinking of my healthy friends, thinking of my healthy family, thinking of how I'm still learning and learning, thinking of how I can act like a kid, thinking of.. everything that I have.

Fresh food, warm beds, healthy family, healthy friends, new clothes, and everything so small.

I have it all.

Palestine Children don't.

They have to grow against their will. They have to put on a face against their will. They have to hide their hunger from their parents, they have deal with all of the pain and suffering.

I don't.

And that's just not fair.

I don't like it.

I don't like how I used to want Joe as a president. He's not one. He's not even human. “Gaza infants may not be innocent”, oh fuck off. They are innocent. They are INFANTS. Fucking BABIES.

I might not be good with babies, and I might not like them. But they are innocent. They have been, will be, and are innocent.

The fact that we are funding a genocide, with our own tax money..

I hate it.

But then my head goes to places (like, lets commit tax evasion! Let's do suicide! If they don't see how it's affecting people, their people, us, then we might as well just die!)

And I just know that we can't do those(well maybe, if some of you aren't afraid of going to jail/etc, if they do find out).

And so the best we can all do is just Boycott.

We can just protest. We can donate. We can boycott.

Do everything in your power to save & free Gaza, save & free Palestine.🇵🇸

#palestine #free palestine #gaza #free gaza #ive been thinking too much #but i had to say this #ive been reblogging without saying my own thoughts #sorry for the suicide one. its been on my mind for so long #palestine 🇵🇸 #i stand with palestine #the kids didnt even have time to live. and i do. what the fuck does that mean? #why do i get to live while they are forced to die? forced to be killed murdered raped executed and everything? #why am i here? palestines & gazas should be more alive then any of us. they deserve to live. they have the fucking right to live #i might feel numb & i might be getting used to this. but that doesn't fucking excuse what is happening #it doesn't mean that i cant feel. it doesn't mean that i dont want to help #i want to help. and the only way i can to help is to spread the word & boycott the best i can #please. do everything in your power to save & free Palestine. do everything in your power to save & free Gasa #*Gaza #they deserve to live

[b4kuch1n]

1/ true to luner new year tradition I've caught a cold after finally getting home and being able to unclench my cheeks. minor one probably so its just gonna be very annoying for a while 2/also true to luner new year tradition I've jumped into something new with No preamble so. hopefully I get this one done fast and we have a 12pg scribbly comic on hand 3/ I'm on bluesky now. do not ask abt what Ive been posting on there u will see

#bakuspeech #one small thing I can tell u rn is. the comic is a fancomic. if ur on my bsky u will probably know of what #listen. every few years I'll return to my roots like this. idk why Im trying to excuse myself or something I can do what I want forever #probably first sign of me not feeling Perfect yesterday was me drawing on my current tablet with. the previous one's stylus #and complaining Out Loud that the pressure was. not fully fucked? but Really weird. a whole stylus of a different color in my hand #sketch comms will still be fulfilled inbetween and after drawing this! but ngl I wanna be on my full faculty for that. it requires a lot of #quick thinking and problem solving that I dont think I can manage with a cold #well. more like if I'm not on my best mind I get frozen up and do Very boring things bc it feels safer #and with sketch comms I feel like that betrays the sentiment of it #we were doing good work. we gotta do right by each others #anyways! anyways. I'll treat myself to this comic for a bit. not even gonna draw much bgs for it lol I wanna test a technique #learned it from my friend truc... always wanted to figure it out since I saw it #stay tuned!! have a good day!!! enjoy hot drink!!!!

[evilmagician430]

who up sinning their fest

#one of my worst recent hyperfixations i'll admit #and i dont even have an excuse like ohhh i used to read this back in the late 2000s before all the terf shit #no i got into it in late 2023 this school year cause i stumbled across the tvtropes page #and i was like 'sinfest'? isnt that the name of that terf Twitter comic? but the cover image showed a sick ass artstyle so i read it #and im just obsessed with it now its such a strange spectacle. its like a political cartoon and a newspaper comic at the same time #my fav era has gotta be late 2000s maybe early 2010s sinfest... hell maybe even mid 2010s sinfest if i ignore the sisterhood #now every strip is just about jewish people or calling trans women groomers #and almost every once-likable character is now canonically a terf and/or racist and/or antivaxxer etc #or theyre just not in the comic at all anymore like my dear criminy and fuschia #i hope we never get another appearance from them godbless #cause last time we saw criminy he was helping squig and slick break a terf out of she/her penitentiary. with fuschia's permission #theyre definitely the best part of 2010s sinfest. a bygone era #the best part of 2000s sinfest is the sharp artstyle and lil e just being evil #and the best part of 2020s sinfest seems to be. um. laughing at how ridiculous it is? its kind of hard to enjoy though. #i intend to stay updated on it because i like being able to say i've read all of sinfest start to finish #but man i gotta get an adblocker soon cause i read it on the official website cause idk how else to read it online and the ads are constant #really funny when ur reading a strip criticizing the prevalence of ads in our day to day life #not as funny when you remember tatsuya is probably making money off of them. so yeah im gonna install ublock #but the problem is i usually read it on my school computer to pass time. and that technically isnt my computer so i cant download ublock #anyways. i could ramble on about how much i love and hate and am obsessed w sinfest all day but heres some fanart of the characters. #id like to make my own headcanon version of sinfest aka sinfest if it was good #but headcanons arent enough... i need to kill tatsuya ishida #sinfest #squigley sinfest #monique sinfest #lil e sinfest #the devil sinfest #tangerine sinfest #images that are horrid to see and look at #mspaint

[the-kipsabian]

you know its time to go to bed when the sad thoughts start rolling in

#im just living with the realization that fanfiction will always be an under appreciated art form. writing in general tbh #like visual arts will always be looked as superior cause they are bite-sized and take no time to consume and whatnot #im not saying one is more valuable than the other they are both important but from consumption pov #and then all that with where i am right now with creative stuff and its just like... #im making some of my best work ive ever done and im so happy to be writing. i feel great about it and it makes me so happy #but then again. there used to be art. that ppl actually maybe looked at and liked more. even if it is/was subpar and like. yeah #i dont know. i just feel like written works should be more appreciated. like i totally understand that they take a lot more to consume #but at the same time i feel like thats an excuse but what do i know i have too much time in my hands and i still miss stuff #anyways. yeah it just. personally makes me sad. making the stuff i love so much right now but cause its in written form its just #i mean i miss drawing. i think. i dont know. but i also love writing so SO much more #anyways this makes no sense im just sad now im gonna go to bed good night. dont know whats gonna come out of me tomorrow #night is an absolute mess on main

[resizura]

something pissed me off today i was on that godforsaken app and someone was discussing how there are complex characters in re and people dont understand them and they used chris, wesker, ada, and luis. they claimed to like chris and wesker (as evidenced by the multiple comments dissecting chris’s ‘character’ in the series. they claimed to not like ada or luis but “understood their characters” yet didnt explain further why they didnt like them.

what gets me is that i see this same thing on tiktok where its basically people hating on ada but disguising it as wanting better writing for her.

like im sorry but re characters are not well written. theyre written by multiple different people throughout multiple different games, movies, and comics, and no one can agree on anything. most of the characters are essentially blank slates with no discernible personality traits. which is why it pisses me off so much.

whenever it comes to ada she doesnt get the same treatment as other (male) characters. i saw one person who disliked ada but they loved chris, wesker, luis, and leon. and liking luis but hating ada is always gonna baffle my mind because theyre so similar to each other. no, ada never gets an explanation as to why shes disliked other than “she needs better writing.” hey guess what. everyone in the series needs better writing.

i have my own 300 paragraph essays about ada because just like the other characters, there is barely anything to her in canon. most of my interpretation of her is literally in my head because capcom gives us jack shit. but her bad writing is used against her for people to dislike her character, but despite being slightly expanded on in re4make and separate ways its still not enough for people to latch onto. people latch onto the damn cameraman from re7 for crying put loud.

and i know this too because theres tons of people who like ada just like me and have the same interpretations, or different ones, but ones that still expand her character. hell, this can apply to any female character too, sheva, claire, ashley, mia, manuela, jill (although she’s not as much of a victim to this as other characters). like sorry but why is “poorly written” only a characteristic i see for the female characters.

idk i just think fine like whoever you want, write your essays, but dont complain about a badly written character when you yourself like a badly written character. we’re all in the same boat here

#resizura rants #messy post im so livid LMAO #idk if this made sense #im not being hypocrytical im just tired of seeing #‘oh i dont like ada shes so boring and not well written’ #‘anyways heres a 247274 page essay on why clancy from re7 is the best re character’ #ughhhhhhhhhh #and like to not give a reason why they didnt like ada? at least op didnt like luis too #and like what does ‘complex character’ even mean anymore? #because no one in re is complex i will die on this hill #i want the series to have better writing but it doesnt! its okay to recognize that!! #and again ‘poorly written’ is a shit excuse for a series with poorly written characters #im gonna nap or smth idfk

[alchemiclee]

sometimes you just need to draw blade getting stabbed because it's what he would want 🙂

#art wip #lee arts #hsr #i wanted to draw him and that's just ehat happened #i want to draw him not being stabbed too eventually lol but i never have time and brain power to do most of my art ideas #this is mostly an excuse to draw his hair and back because i wanted to draw those for some reason #no i still dont know how anatomy and perspective work even after years of stiduing and practicing those....im trying my best!!!!! #studying* #will i actually finish this? there's a good chance i will not..... #it'll probably be added to my pile of unfinished stuff. theres a lot there lmao

[orcelito]

Having lost my cat, my uncle, my great grandmother, my grandma's best friend (& one of the people who helped raise me), AND my dad all within the span of 9 months,

I have little sympathy for people who use deaths as an excuse to be an asshole. I get it, it sucks. Get the fuck over it. Your grief is not an excuse to treat others like shit. What the fuck.

#speculation nation #this isnt anything personal. im just reacting to a post that kind of pissed me off. #to be fair i was never close with my great grandmother so im not particularly broken up about that one #but it's still yet another death in the family within such a short period of time. #my cat is on this list bc he was the first one and it majorly fucked me up. so yeah it deserves to be here. #the others. well. my grandma's best friend makes me sad but at least she was getting up in years #my uncle and dad though. especially my dad. yea those have fucked me up the most. #im never gonna be the same after experiencing all of this in such short succession. #it sucks in a major way. and things are still continuously tumultuous. #but you dont see me lording it over people and using it as an excuse to be an asshole. #maybe i make people uncomfortable with how casually i mention it. but like whatever. it's simply my truth. #that's still just like. me just talking about what ive been up to. that kind of thing. #idk acting like someone needs to be treated with the most tender of touches after experiencing a major death #to the point where you cant even tell them when theyre being a manipulative little asshole? #i dont fucking think so! #yeah okay all grief hits different but ive pulled myself up by the bootstraps and kept my head on straight #even after i experienced death after death after death after death after Fucking Death #whats your excuse? youre Sad? we all fucking are. thats just life. #it's horrible and awful and it sucks that we have to live with this but you CANT let that affect how you treat other people!!!!! #and here i am making my own post venting about it instead of replying to the aita post that sparked this #bc the person the post was about just made me so angry to hear about. #but i am... a reasonable adult who separates themselves from situations before reacting in anger... #and so im making a tumblr post to get the emotions out instead of getting emotional at random strangers lol #anyways i actually had a pretty good day today. but in the way of grief. the smallest things can trigger moods sometimes. #but i am letting the emotions flow... here they are... i have expressed them... and i shall now release them... amen... #negative/ #i guess lol. i sure did rant enough for it.

[lordiavolo]

to be like frank here, redemption is an ever going cycle. when youve been the problem, the toxic ex, the abuser, you have to know you will have to apologize for that for the rest of your life. you will always have to live with the guilt and conscience of knowing how you hurt that person, or mutliple people. and you have to constantly CHOOSE to not repeat that behavior, and its not easy.

when you meet a new friend the topic of who you used to be will come up eventually, and if you have changed youll be honest with who you were. you cant run from it. you cant try to round the corners and make it seem like the other persons fault, or like it wasnt as bad as it was. its really really scary. because everytime you open up about it, its not just the wound of guilt but its also the fear that theyre going to look inside and not like what theyll see.

but you have to keep moving on and you have to keep being honest. and you have to remember that everyone is applicaple for redemption, you just have to work for it and admitting you were wrong with no buts is the first step.

#anyways cna u tell im kinda going thru it LOL #ive always been a toxic person thats why ive sort of secluded myself from society i avoid human contact w non household members as much as #possible bcuz i feel honestly like im a ticking time bomb that just hurts everything i touch #i dont think its fair to have to have someone deal w my shit when its such an emotional turmoil so even though i want friends im making my #peace w the fact that i like honestl dont really deserve rhem? ik this seems MOPEY but its like this is my geniune non like baiting thoughts #i was an abuser in high school and in an abusive relationship where for the first half i was the perpetrator. i hit my ex and u know i dont #even have anything to add to it other than it was fucked up. i was selfish in bed and sex addicted and sometimes did anything for my fix. #i will and cannot lie about my past as being a shitty person. its scary to say and post but i have to be honest thats who i was that IS a #part of my history as much as i wish i could i cannot erase. #i dont rly even know what to add here honestly. just watching mias vid got me thinking u know #there is more to this story ofc the same ex i was abusive to was also abusive to me it was just split into segments. like i was the problem #for the first year and a half then it switched to them but its not rly rhe best place 2 share that story when im talking about my mistakes #im not trying to detract here i just want 2 get this shit off my chest again. ive talked about it before but not since remaking a few times #anyways i dont have any excuses well i mean i can pull a bunch out but im not going to cuz at the end of the day i shouldve known better #than to be a bitch when i knew i was being a bitch u know? #being the bad guy is a constant struggle where u will have to really really fucking fight yourself tooth and nail to change and i want to be #that person. i want to be someone who can be 100% honest about how shit i was to myself and others (which i do already do to my friends) #hopefully this makes sense idk anyways if ur struggling with being abusive or toxic im here for u. u can get through this and you can be a #good person it is within ur hands i promise u #ok love u goodnight #personal

[perenlop]

another wc take is that the girlbossification of mapleshade is boring as hell

#why was she suddenly involved in like. everything. #as a crookedstar's promise truther she was honestly at her best in that book imo bc she was one fucked up woman #who took it upon herself to torture the bloodline of a man who hurt her even years after hes gone and no one knows his name #and the descendants have done absolutely nothing to deserve her vitriol. like she was hurting but what made her a villain #was how she took it out on a literal child who was already being treated like shit by his mom #this is also why i dont like takes that are like ''oh shes a good person actually she was just angry and mad and everyone wronged her #and shes actually a nice ghost that helps people'' bc that was never who she was and she was still fucked up for the murder #im not saying shes a bad character for doing that like shes an antagonist and i appreciate her #but i feel like ppl latched onto her being the one female villain and went ''oh my god shes a girlboss shes so awesome and not bad actually' #do u think mapleshade had girlpower when she made a disabled child watch his family die bc of a bloodline he cant control #to an extent its kinda like how ppl treat thistle? who's obviously much much worse than her but like its the same #''oh its bad writing for them to be punished and treated as antagonists bc they had like one nice thing at one point- #and that one nice moment outweighs every single evil thing they did even if it was literal child murder. its ok if ur sad #'' #idk i think its obnoxious like its in the books and the fanon at this point and its just made me bored of her character #sometimes less is more and when u start trying to excuse her actions or forcing her into everyone else's story #the character has a lot less impact #like i still remember her ranting at the end of crookedstars promise when she was raging at crookedstar that he shouldnt have been born #i dont think i remember anything from like. tigerclaws fury or whatever. #echoed voice

[dockaspbrak]

I am so sad;

#he was my best friend man..... #feeling like richie 2019 but instead of my gay boyfriend it was my son (cat with whom i had a strong attachment and we both had autism) #i mean in my agoraphobic years he was all i had #just me and him and he was terrified of anyone but me #man. like the;;; not to be too sad but the ending life attempts he detered me from....a powerful boy #i loved him sooooooo much #i gotta like.... jddjjfjf #regan dont read this #ok good dont go on #ok ok #i feel like i overcompensated with being accomodating so much the last 6 months i dont feel like myself at all #thats insane right? #but idk i know living with someone is famously very hard #but see even now #im tired of like. constantly making excuses for every thought i have!!! talking myself thru shit like #applying it to people around me and accomodating that even in my HEAD #i gotta deal with these damn bad habits. i gave myself #and FUCK i miss my boy!!!! #u guys dont even know...he was so soft and sweet #a kittens face even at age 15 with some kind of advanced as hell cancer that the vet didnt even understand #he was my baby i miss him so much #its like he makes me miss other things more too. like where i grew up #and how trees used to look in the wind #and feeling more comfortable in my body and with my own opinions #im so pathetic now. i used to be so fucking strongwilled and annoying #wtf man??? why does death touch everything #i hope i see him again some day #it hurts so much #but like im glad it does still i guess bc its like part of him isnstill here bc it hurta #haha;