#and i dont want to get up in the morning

[raepliica]

photosynthesizing🔆

#trigun #trimax #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #vashwood #raepliica_art #they get to have some mornings where they dont need to get up in a rush #snoozing in the sun at dawn when its not too hot yet #warming up after spending the cold night cuddled up together to conserve body heat #and they lay in comfortable silence as they start drifting off to sleep again lulled by each others slow breathing #...orz #its been cold these days so i wanted to draw smth warm

[ruporas]

lonely

[ID: A limited palette of green and pink, Vashwood comic. The first page serves as a prologue. The first panel shows Vash speaking to someone off screen while Wolfwood is lingering behind him. A black arrow is drawn pointing at him. In the second panel, Vash is buying donuts in the distance while Wolfwood is once again in view, lingering. and the black arrow is drawn pointing at him. In the third panel, Vash is leaving a cubicle and turning towards his right with a slightly peeved expression. He sees Wolfwood, leaning against the cubicle, waiting for him, and with the black arrow drawn, pointing at him, implicating the consistent hovering of Wolfwood’s presence during Vash’s everyday. At the bottom of the page, they’re drawn out of panel with Vash turning to Wolfwood and saying with an irritated expression, “You’re really following me everywhere, huh?” Wolfwood responds, “What, you got a problem?” Vash responds without hesitation, “Yeah, kinda...”

The second page starts with a new day. In the first panel, Vash is seen alone, weighing apples in his hands at a mart, with crowds passing behind him. In the second panel, he turns to his right and starts to say, “Hey, Wolfwood...” In the third panel, he’s startled from seeing a stranger, whom he’d accidentally called out to when he was expecting to see Wolfwood. He says, “Oh, you’re not him. Sorry!” In the fourth panel, the stranger walks off and Vash muses, “Right, he said he had something to do today...”

The third page begins with a close up of Vash's miffed expression, the continuation of Vash's thoughts, "Now that he's not here, this is just like how I used to be, but... It feels lonely somehow. Oh well, I'll see him again tonight, like always." In the second panel, it shows Vash walking through the marketplace crowd, alone. In the third panel, the door panel is a close up of the door opening with a peek of Vash's head. He says, "Wolfwood!" In the fourth panel, Vash is holding a bag of food with a bright smile and says, "Are you hungry? I got you something to eat today!"

The fourth page begins with a shot of the room, two beds being highlighted, one of them being made properly with the blanket draped over the bed and the other with the blanket folded and pillow sitting on top of it. There's no sign of Wolfwood. The second panel shows Vash with a disappointed look as he thinks, "He's still not here?" The third panel shows Vash putting the bag of food on the table. Stapled to the paper bag is the receipt with a written note "For Wolfwood." Vash's thoughts continue "He does like to stay out so, I guess there's no reason to worry..." The fourth panel shows Vash sitting his bed somberly with his thoughts continued, "It's not any of my business anyway..."

The fifth page starts with a close up his blank expression as he looks downwards, thinking, "Even if he left completely... That'd be understandable and better for him. I'll just travel alone again... like before... Huh?" The next panel shows Vash's composure break, tears welling up in his eyes suddenly, as he didn't expect to cry. He starts to sob, putting his hands to his face to quiet himself and wipe at his tears, as he says, "Ugh... Dammit... I miss h..." The last panel shows Vash leaning over into his hands, still crying, and in the back, the door swings wide open with a bam as Wolfwood walks through with the punisher swung behind him. He shouts, "SPIKEY! You in here?!"

The sixth page starts with Wolfwood confused, looking at Vash and Vash looks back, just as confused, with tears in his eyes and snot out of his nose. Wolfwood starts saying, "Ah? You..." No longer in panels, at the bottom of the page, Wolfwood takes the Punisher off of himself and starts to walk towards Vash, continuing with slight concern, "What's wrong with you? Did something happen?" Vash, hurriedly begins to wipe at his tears, denying immediately, "No! No, I'm fine! Nothing happened!"

The seventh page, Vash points towards the table, with a hand still wiping at his tears and he smiles as he says, "I uh got you food. On the table." Wolfwood looks towards to the table and responds, "Oh. I was getting hungry, thanks." He turns his head back to Vash immediately after with an uncertain expression, knowing the other wasn't responding to his concern, and says, "But, I know you're an idiot with this stuff, so I'm reminding you again. Don't brush it off if it's an issue, alright?"

The eight page, Vash's tears have dried and he looks to Wolfwood with a soft smile and responds, "Yeah. It's okay though..." A panel at the center shows a side view of Vash approaching Wolfwood. At the bottom of the page, with no panel, is a close up shot of Vash's hand, holding onto the edge of Wolfwood's jacket sleeve, as he says, "Because you're here now. Wolfwood."

The final page is a back shot of both of them standing next to each other, Wolfwood's head tilted slightly to the left, not fully believing Vash as he says, "That doesn't answer anything, Spikey." Vash responds, "There's no need to talk about it! You should enjoy your food. Let's have a drink too?" Wolfwood responds, "Tsk, tsk. Fine, yeah. I could use one." END ID]

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #but onto this comic... i think and talk a LOT about vash's loneliness bc trigun is just. kind of central on that for a good while! esp in #the original manga he was alone for a good portion of it and he tends to keep others away like how he ran away from meryl and milly when #they tried to tag along. and he was kind of bothered when he realized ww was following him around Too. at the core even though he loves #humans and he loves deeply the people he does know -- he isnt really much of a people person and i think thats been the case since he was #young considering his initial doubts towards humans... with the exception of kids bc kids dont give him moral conflicts. so suddenly #here comes wolfwood!!! his guide. someone TRULY affixed to him until he has to get to knives. someone who isnt budging and someone whos #really good at following him around and even seems like he goes like 5 steps ahead to make sure vash doesnt run on him #in one way its - i don't want you to follow me bc i don't want to burden you and i don't want you to kill the people i want to save. #in another way its - i like this companionship. i like waking up to you and i like ending the way with you. i like talking to someone who #knows my world. i like being in your space and sometimes i enjoy talking about our day #theyre just living together. like. roadtrip buddies or theyre also under the same roof because they're going everywhere together. #trimax they mainly spend their mornings together and if they had personal business attend the other person would usually know and itd only #be during the midday. anyway bc of this kind of companionship i figure that vash eventually grew accustom to it and he really. cant go back #to the kind of loneliness from before. it's harder to imagine and it'd be harder to withstand. esp after 2 years with lina and her grandma. #ruporas art

[heartorbit]

creatures

#project sekai #pjsk #prsk #emu otori #nene kusanagi #tsukasa tenma #queuing this for like 6 in the morning dont let me fool you into thinking i woke up this early #im sorry posting at like 7pm feels so wrong. people are up at 7pm. dont like that #'why didnt you draw rui' Well why is rui so hard to draw. Anybody ever think of that. #I still havent finished that wxs nene gaming art i used as an example in my comms sheetbc i dont wanna have to render rui #Yes wxs are all my favorites. Yes that includes rui. Yes im tiering 3k in his event rn. No i wont figure out his hair #get that glowstick of a woman out of my face. He needs to het an alt hairstyle i cna draw. #sorry what was i tagging again. um. Whatever aHiiiii #WAIT #emukasa #YAAAAY #im a polyshower but theyre the only ones i drew together so enjoy yuri #i found a cute blog theme that also hides tags under a hover so i can say as much as i want and nobody can be annoyed #If you choose to look at my dastardly tags after i hid them away thats on you

[acekindaneat]

From the work "If At First You Don't Succeed, Find A Loophole" by MalkyTop (@sleepdepravity) on ao3!!!!

(even with my busy schedule .. i had to draw today's update, it drove me insane)

#I WANTED TO CLEAN THIS UP BUT I RLLY WANTED TO GET IT POSTED TODAY #AND ALSO I DONT RLLY HAVE ALOT OF TIME RN BC SCHOOL IS BEATING MY ASS #SO RAW SCANNED SKETCHES WITH MINOR ADJUSTMENTS IT IS #ANYWAY I FUCKING LOVE THIS FIC SO MUCH #IT HAS OCCUPIED MY HEAD EACH TIME IT UPDATES #IT UPDATES IN THE MORNING FOR ME SO I READ IT LIKE A MORNINF NEWSPAPER #Y'ALL NEED TO READ IT FR #ok im done shouting thanks #heres the regular tags #serirei #reigen arataka #serizawa katsuya #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #mp100 fanart #comics #illustration #sketch #also malky if ur reading this hi i love you im the one with the jake the dog pfp #mi art stuff

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

they should invent a waking up that isn't excruciating

#its such an Ordeal every time and for what!!!! #listen im naturally inclined towards the nighttime #existing in the morning is like... its like.... #its so terrible that there aren't words for it!! #the fact that i personally have to get out of my cozy comfy bed before the sun is even up #should be illegal! i already dont sleep well and now you want to Wrench me out of my Peaceful Slumber???? #and not only that but i have to Do Things???? #terrible! horrible! Cease At Once! #absolutely unprompted #oh side note stream this evening at 4pm PST #i will try to make my vibes less Rancid before then! #today is going to get on my nerves i just know it <3 it already is <3

[husband]

I took her to the Vet for a check up/fecal test and yeah she did have worms :) and then when I got home my neighbor called and said her owners where posting on nextdoor looking for her, so thankfully she wasn't one of the byb dumped dogs but i still think it's weird to have left a malamute puppy outside in the Texas heat with fleas and worms while you're at work all day.. we found her early in the morning and they weren't home and posting about her missing till nearly 12am.

anyway we gave her back to her owners after the vet... hope not to see her running around in the streets again because this is the 2nd or 3rd time shes been seen running around the neighborhood. unreal.

#prattle #maybe people will think im a dick for this but i didnt really want to give her back lol #was talking to them about the worms and they said they planned to get around to it.. #i just dont know why you would get a probably around $1000-$1500 malamute and just leave it outside #if you work early morning to late evening why would you get a dog #the other dog the adult husky that was running with the puppy also had a ruined coat and was bone skinny #im probably being a dick but if not for my neighbor setting me up i wouldnt have responded to their post #i work with dogs a lot and have a special interest in animal care so its really irritating to have to hand a puppy back to that situation #i just hope they meant what they said and are going to do better for her #though i guess i just like to complain

[meatlessmcmuffin]

basically if a mutual posts abt something enough ill probably succumb to it eventually

#homestuck #gamzee makara #equius zahhak #gamquius #high horse #meat art #do NOT mention any ugly anatomy its 2 in the morning #i ws gonna shadethis whole thing but. well basically i dont want to (<- has 2 get up for class at 8) #dis one's 4 u jack

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

I truly wish I had any artistic talent just so I could lowkey redo all dramione fanart with Astoria because oh my god the ratio of dramione to drastoria fan content is so heartwrenchingly depressing

#if youre a dramione fan plz dont come for me #i just want this poor woman to be acknolwdged as a human being #AND THEY PRACTICALLY ALL INCLUDE SCORPIUS IN THEM SO 🤷🏻‍♂️SHOULD BE ASTORIA ANYWAYZ🤷🏻‍♂️🤷🏻‍♂️ #astoria greengrass for president plz #stop making her some weird surrogate i beg of you #i miss her can she come back to life actually #actually guys uhh im god so i get to change canon and also ressurect people so i say shes alive hashtag facts #im yet again in a drastoria mood and feel like an orphaned victorian child begging for food and being stepped on instead #because there is NO CONTENT BECAUSE SHE IS SO UNDERRATED IN HER OWN MARRIAGE 😭😭 #i hope all the dramione fans who are suck ups to draco know he would be appaled at how yall treat his WHOLE WIFE #LIKE THAT IS HIS WIFE PLEASE #anyway astoria supremacy bye #i also obviosuly dont condone art theft but some of yall dramione fans are getting far too big for your boots #if youre a drastoria fan dont go anywhere near dramione twitter they are all fucking insane #astoria greengrass #drastoria #im too scared to tag draco malfoy the dramione fans are more likely to find me 🧍🏻‍♂️ #if this is incoherent i blame the fact its half 3 in the morning rn and im finshing a uni assignment so im practically delerious

[fizzytoo]

morning routine

while rua was holding captain, i got the option to "ask to hold the baby" well...

there's the baby

#ts4 #ts4 gameplay #sims 4 gameplay #postcard legacy challenge #postcard: gen3 #shirtless post for my boobie lovers out there #captain’s doing yoga this morning too <3 #i rlly thought rua was gonna hand adrien captain all cute.. girl why did you think that #i wonder if it's growing together conflicting with the control pets mod #DAMN #i need to fill the photo frames in the house 🧍🏽‍♂️ #they need to hurry up and have real babies. #when will that happen? idk tbh i wanted them to have a science baby sometime this week or next week irl #but is that too soon.. ACKKKKK!!! #this is a legacy challenge and i need to get a move on #... #BUT I DONT WANT TO WAAH #sim: adrien herrera #sim: rua kamealoha

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[rxttenfish]

had an idea for a pose between the two of them so i had to sketch it down, might polish it up later

#all the care guide says is 'biomass' #art #miravi.txt #digital art #monster prom #yeah sure look at my wips boy #i like early morning scenes with them because miranda is Such a cat #she wants to be involved every step of the process #she wants to butt her head up against aaravi's back and whine to come back to bed to cuddle #and to get roped into helping make breakfast anyways #miri's standing up on a little footstool i just havent drawn it bc i dont wanna fuck with objects yet

[mrpsychokiller]

in the last two days or so i was able to actually properly take my meds at night, sleep, and wake up fully rested in the morning, had actual filling meals, and i just did those simple exercises in the video i reblogged and they werent super hard or time consuming like daily exercises usually are for me. so now.. im feeling actually pretty optimistic? maybe i can make my life a little healthier. thatd be pretty nice

#🧃 #i took a shower this morning and im going to get my nails done in a couple hours #i also hope to finish this commission ive been procrastinating on today and then i can take some more #i also saw a while ago a guy talking about how he set himself to read 10 book pages a day and ended up actually reading a bunch of books #which sounds doable enough and i could finally read all this stuff ive been putting off #idk. my life sucks so bad and ive been feeling so terrible but i guess that doesnt mean i cant try to make it a little better #and i can have goals to seek and achieve even if currently my goals are ''remember to shower'' and ''sleep better'' #i hope i can keep this idea going i dont want to give up and fuck it all up again

[synthaphone]

snails are so cute. its not fair…. thinking about how people have to be SO careful about feeding their pet snails cucumber, because it has very little nutritional value for them but a lot of types of snails LOVE it to the point of refusing to eat anything else BUT cucumber.

but its so cute that they have preferences and can be picky…. they love their snail junk food sooooo much

#i need a text post tag #snails #good morning im thinking about snails instead of getting up to refill my water bottle #im too dehydrated to go back to sleep without water but i dont want to get out of bed. the dilemma

[relaxxattack]

how come twitter hates knifetrick? i havent read it nor have i ever been involved in any mcyt or adjacent stuff btw

oh man. ok let me explain the story. it was around exactly a year ago the main bit of this shit happened actually

in 2020 minecraft roleplaying (mcrp) becomes super mainstream with the rise of dream smp. in these series, stories are scripted and then acted out live with some improv stuff

in the fandoms there is a LOT of drama over whether it's okay to ship the roleplay characters. there's lots of stances on this. in the beginning, most people say it's not okay to ever ship rp characters, because the youtubers usually just use their own persona as a base for an oc, so it's basically the same thing as shipping the youtubers together. shipping irl people is weird and gross, so nobody wants to do that.

in 2021 a couple of ships start getting confirmed as canon in the rp. characters date or get together or canonically have romantic scenes. this makes the fandom hurt itself in its confusion, because it doesnt understand if it's allowed to ship those characters together.

two guys have their characters literally get married and have a child. the fandom LOVED these characters, they were well written and cute and had a great dynamic. the fandom wanted to ship them and support their marriage so bad. BUT. they were played by real people. those real people (tubbo and ranboolive) were also minors at the time, who nobody wants to risk being weird about obviously.

the mainstream fandom decides that to solve this problem, they will pretend that the marriage is platonic, and ostracize and witch hunt anyone who claims it's not. they draw tons and tons of ship fanart of the two characters, all helpfully tagged as "platonic", sometimes tagging every single use of the word "husband" as platonic.

EVENTUALLY, people start realizing, hey wait, this is roleplay. it's fictional. the streamers are not actually traumatized war veterans who invented nukes, have amnesia, raised a child, are half hybrid alien etc etc etc.

in fact... it's actually really weird to try and make their roleplay relationship the same as their real life one. in the roleplay, they are married and have a kid and act lovey-dovey... why would you claim that's their real relationship? why would you conflate the two? can't we just understand that it's fictional?

most of the tumblr fandom, eventually, realizes that fictional characters and real human actors are not actually the same person. (it helps that the actors themselves state the same thing.)

the twitter fandom however... does not eventually realize this. they stay in their "platonic husband" hell, simultaneously being really weird about shipping and outwardly hating all shippers.

fastforward a bit, there's another mc roleplay series. it's a spinoff series of that first one we were talking about, and it's an athology series-- a whole bunch of oneshots with new characters each time. keep in mind, these characters are NOT EVEN RELATED TO THE STREAMER'S PERSONAS... they make up new ones each time!!

anyway they do one of the oneshots in a cool futuristic city and i was like "man it would be cool to write about this." one of the characters (ran) acts very weird and suspicious for the 5 lines he has total, which leads to a lot of silly theories about what he might be up to in this future city. i think, "man it would be fun to write about him." a different character (jackie) remarks on that character as well; jackie is also one of the only characters to live to the end of the oneshot.

ages after this oneshot was actually aired i thought to myself, what the hell, i'll write a story about ran and jackie. they have literally no existing personality and the futuristic city is not even remotely expanded on- i get to do all that myself!

so i write a comedy mystery action romance novel about an alien assassin (ran) assigned to kill the general of the city's army (jackie) while they try to find some kidnapped kids. keep in mind, i had basically nothing to work with for these characters-- they were side characters for a single episode from a spin-off series, they had around ten lines total. i got to make up basically everything about who they were and where they came from and what they would do myself. the story is also chock full of OCs, and all of the mechanics for the city itself were original and invented by me-- it was a huge labor of love and invention and original work.

the romance wasn't intended to be a whole thing, but honestly it felt very natural (and all the story's fans definitely wanted it), so it eventually happened.

surprising no one, the same twitter fans who believe that fictional characters are somehow LITERALLY the same as their actors started trying to tell me i was shipping real life people. (what? gross?). they told me i was being a bad fan by going against the wishes of irl people who didn't want to be shipped. they accused me of so much, of just trying to "hide" that i really shipped irl people, tons of things. but my story was not about irl people. the characters literally have different fucking names, appearances, personalities, dynamics... EVERYTHING.

twitter users eventually started a "cancellation" of me. i don't even use twitter. but anyway they dug up a bunch of weird innocuous comments or fanarts i had done before, and then pointed to knifetrick, and said i was secretly a gross person, that i was a guy who shipped gaming youtubers, etc. there was a thread about it, idk.

eventually the harassment in my inbox caused me to take a break from tumblr for several weeks. i actually wasn't sure if i would come back. HUNDREDS of people were talking about how terrible i was; people on twitter literally have me and my works in their goddamn dnis. it was such a surreal experience and it caused me so much anxiety.

eventually, several of my friends convinced me to finish the story, because really there was nothing all that wrong with it in the first place. i came back to tumblr.

i added the banner that is currently in my pinned to discourage gross shippers, or people who think *i* am a gross shipper, from coming near me anymore.

as far as i'm concerned, ran and jackie are my OCs. they were from a oneshot-- a oneshot that has not been MENTIONED by its creators for years now-- who i gave an entire story to. i don't want to associate with that fandom anymore, so i don't want the characters i worked so hard on associated either.

they still talk about me on twitter sometimes, kind of as an urban legend of drama. "holy shit you guys remember the knifetrick stuff? that was so gross, how did we let any of that happen. people kept defending it too 🤢". it doesn't bother me as much anymore, because i'm surrounded by people with the critical thinking skills to tell the difference between tom hanks and woody, but it's still sometimes surreal and hurtful.

don't take this as just me complaining though- making knifetrick was incredibly fun, and i still adore all the fans and memes and fanart to this day. you all were incredible and pretty much make those awful episodes worth it <3

in case you're wondering, the steamiest thing those characters did, that people were so upset about?

they shared a chaste peck of the lips for .2 seconds before one of them tried to kill the other.

#knifetrick #THE WHOLE THING SUMMED UP! ONCE AND FOR ALL! #sorry for going on for so goddamn long anon but you needed more context than just the story itself ToT #(slight ventish(?) ahead) #those were seriously the most anxiety inducing weeks of my whole life though. every morning when i woke up i wanted to puke. #i cant imagine what its like for big internet creators who get cancelled. i literally dont know how they survive it. #bkt

[toruq]

I feel like every time sso writes Anne’s dialogue they have to make her say some cheesy thing about how shes ready to move on.(first problem u don’t just move on from trauma it always remains part of you).. right after showing her ‘moving on’ (ex training a horsey!) and give her bits to say about her ‘moving on’ (ex photoshoots with derek!) but her long insightful bs always ends in the same shit about how she wants to rid of her bitterness and realize her own inner beauty or something like that and i’m kinda like Ok well you’re doing that already  girl. I wanna see her fuck up and then say these things, like “damn, i totally blew up at linda just then. Mc, i really want to be a better friend” rather than “man, look at all my recent accomplishments. I regret everythign I did in the past and i want to be a better person.” I personally think it more sends this message of a kind of toxic positivity that either ignores completely or hyperbolizes all wrongdoings and creates more self-pity than real optimism. even tho i think it’s sso’s weird form of redundant teaching for little kids to gain self confidence. 

#to me anne has always been a character that loves to self reflect (literally) #and also may not know how to go about it but at least before her time in pandoria it would always be after bad moments and when she is alone #she is a character who may (at least before pandoria) put on an image for other people #but that doesnt mean around close friends she isnt authentic and happy and warm #i think even before her time in pandoria she was able to be doing that #so i dont really get all this bs about wanting to be nicer and better or something #everyone is mean sometimes #like i dont want sso to erase this or cover it up by not giving examples of how tf exactly she was being mean #and sure she probably has a lot of anger for whoever killed concorde but like #i dont see why that should be erased from her character either #if that makes sense #the tags make less sense #i just woke up #i cant write in the morning ffs #sso #ssoblr #star stable online #sso spoilers #sso anne #anne von blyssen

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

and so begins the making of christmas presents

#its the mooooost stree-essful tiiiimeeee of the yeaaarrrrrrrr #ive found good small projects that will suffice #thankfully i only have five people to crochet for! #and my grampas lap blanket is mostly done! #im keeping it shrimple <3 #man crocheting has made christmas so much easier #less expensive less stressful. still stressful but at least i dont have to find something to buy #plus handmade things have the added factor of 'i made this with my own two hands. it took time' #so people are more inclined to like what you made them no matter how simple it is! #an 'i made this for you' automatically holds more weight than 'i bought this for you' #absolutely unprompted #im actually excited to make some of these! new stuff to try! #and ofc ill be proud of what i make which is always fun. the delight of making things for people... and them Receiving it... yes.... #its like making a cake for someone but more permanent #my stepdad's getting a stocking for the dog he wants #for his - and i quote - lovey cuddle buddy #i expect that on christmas morn next year the stocking will be full of dog treats and a kong ball #my mother is getting a bandana in bright colors that suit nothing she wears #since she's keeping her hair long again. also shes insecure about gray hairs so yk fine here's somethin to cover them up with #and my two homies... my breadslices... well! i shant say! #well. one of them knows what theyre getting but hush lets pretend you dont. bc i know youre reading this rn