#and i feel bad for feeling bad about those two nonimportant things when theres something thats VERY important that i SHOULD be worried about

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#i feel bad #im feeling all kinds of bad rn :) #i feel bad bc i cant get anything done for school so i have worse grades than ive ever had before #which is bad and horrible and scary bc i was The Good Kid Who Always Does Good In School #and ik its not that bad bc other people struggle way worse etc etc etc #but idk ive never had a grade dip below a high c ever #which feels like such an entitled thing to say ahjajs #but im just constantly freaking out about it bc ive got a d and a low c #which like! again isnt bad! so i feel bad for feeling bad! but idkk #and also i feel bad bc im not feeling bad about the election #bc rn my brain is just going brrr on worry about school #and this is even dumber: im worried that im too hyperfocused on one game to be excited about a big update on another game #which is?? so fucking dumb oh my god #but like #im so scared something big will come out and i wont be able to feel anything about it bc im too focused on smth else #and i feel bad for feeling bad about those two nonimportant things when theres something thats VERY important that i SHOULD be worried about #which pile all that on top of the fact that today has been a natural day #so today was a double i feel bad day #and ive got a thing right next to me thats burning a hole in my mind. im not gonna say it bc it could be potentially triggering for others #(dw its not dangerous!! its not like. drugs?? or..pills..? idk) #tldr i feel bad for reasons i think are dumb and not about more important things #vent #tw vent #personal #delete later