#and i feel so dumbbbbbbbbbbbb like

[12thgirl]

man you know how some people are just so easy to talk to...i feel like i am the Opposite of that um how do you just like.....have things to say

#having a conversation with me if we;re not close friends must be so painful... #its not that im not a good listener its that i am just constantly no thoughts head empty. i have nothing good to say and i accidentally al #always end the conversation as soon as i possibly can #I DONT EVEN HAVE ANXIETY THATS NOT MY PROBLEM i just literally hate everything that comes out of my mouth <3 i dont want to make people spe #speak with me<3 #halfway through a sentence i will realize No One Cares and lose all ability for thought #and i feel so dumbbbbbbbbbbbb like #going to work the last two weekends just heightens it like my coworker came and complimented my 'vulcan eyebrows' because i shave t #them off mostly and draw them on and he starts talking about pointed ears and how theres a cosmetic surgery you can get #and im like omg no way yessss i want to get piercings on the tops of my ears to make em look pointy but ok go off buT LIKE??? HE DOESNT #CARE THAT I WANT EAR PIERCINGS???? this sounds so superficial but constantly i just feel so dumb and unworthwhile unless im demonstrating my #🤪superiority when we start talking about something i care about and i talk for two straight minutes and THEN realize no one cares #AND i sound pretentious #my boss asked about my purple hair and how it fades and i realize i just have this problem with???? not being able to be concise like i am s #so eager to offer information without thinking that it takes me forever to get to my point and i sound so dumb in the process!! and then i s #shut down and dont want to say anything like omgjfkhbgfdbhgjbvf i cant WIN why dont you think before you open your mouth!!! #like this is what i mean when i say it must be literally so difficult to have a conversation with me. i swear im fun and interesting im just #BROKEN OR SOMETHING #i talk my way through four topics and dont make a single point and then i stare blankly like im so sorry you have to talk to me rn #EVEN NOW IM INCAPABLE OF BEING CONCISE AND NOT TALKING IN CIRCLES SHUUUUUT UP #my roommate asks me one question and im like UM well this but also this but i think this but you can do this too but well this OH yea that<3 #because i dont stop for a second and process the question before replying i dont form an answer i just speak until i feel like ive given eno #enough information but i SOUND LIKE AN IDIOT IN THE PROCESS all the time literally all the time <3 #anyway whatever i just genuinley envy people who are naturally outgoing and capable of carrying conversations so much..why is my brain actua #actually just Empty. #or all the thoughts are SOO unworthwhile like no one cares about the thing you want to buy WHATEVERRRRR #op #:( sigh