🐺 Being MSBY's Manager 🐺
Being Atsumu's Crush and Pregnant
Atsumu Miya with/MSBY x Female Pregnant Manager
Warnings: reader is pregnant, swearing, angst to fluff, toxic behavior from YN (drinking to cope, unsafe sex), description of birth (dramatized for funsies)
AN: This was a suggestion from kitty 😺 anon!!! Its based off my MSBY Group Chat, Team Disappointment!
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Ok I'm wasting zero time getting into this one
Because it's about to be LONG
We have 9 whole months to cover people 👏🏻
At this point, just consider it a short story in bullet point format 🤣
Enter Miss YN LN, manager of the division 1 team the MSBY Black Jackels 🙌🏻
I love that for you 🥰
You are so loved and adored by all your boys and they support you so much 🥺
However there's one team member that you have an extra special relationship with
One, Atsumu Miya ❤️
I know, shocking right?
But there's always been something about Atsumu
You two just get along really well
He teases you, you throw a volleyball at him 🥰
We love a strong relationship
It wasn't long before you developed a crush on Atsumu
But you learned quickly that Atsumu didn't feel the same way about you 😕
Or at least you thought 🙃
Sakusa was the first to notice your infatuation with Atsumu
He's amazing about observing and noticed how your eyes lingered on our favorite setter
Sorry Oikawa 😶
But you are too nervous to say anything
You go a while thinking you might have a chance with Atsumu
Until you overhear him talking with Bokuto and Hinata
"YN is a real catch right? Any guy would be lucky to date her!"- Bokuto, our hype king
"Yeah I guess. I mean, don't get me wrong, I like YN but she's just not my type"- Atsumu 🤡
It's a hard pill to swallow 😔
Hearing that is a total bruise to your ego
The tears start to well as you turn around to leave, seeing Sakusa standing right behind you
Great now your all embarrashed 😫
"YN are you ok?"- Sakusa, concerned
You smile "Yeah I'm good. I just- I gotta go clean up"- you quickly making your exit past Sakusa and the rest of the team
"What was that about?"- Meian, looking at Sakusa
Sakusa narrows his eyes and turns to leave
It's not his business to share and he doesn't want to say anything
However, what you don't know is that Atsumu is full of CRAP 💩
This man is in such denial that the girl who has become his best friend is also perfect for him
Fucking clown behavior istg 🙄
Atsumu is having such conflicted feelings for you and he has no idea what to do
He's never had turmoil like this before people 👏🏻
Unfortunately for him, things start heading south
You start to pull away from him at practice and he has no idea why
You still talk with him but its not the same
"Hey YN, you wanna hang out this weekend?"- Atsumu
"I'm sorry Sumu, I can't! Im going out with friends but thanks"- You, running back to practice
Atsumu is confused because you always made time for him
However what Atsumu doesn't know is that his "rejection" of you caused a downward spiral
Every weekend you've been going out, dancing with friends and drinking excessively
When you'd drink, the pain of your one-sided attraction to Atsumu went away
You were the center of many guys affections and ended up going home with several of them
Atsumu began to talk with you less and less, noticing you pulling away
Sakusa and the team watched as you two, once good friends became practical strangers
"Anyone feel weird when Atsumu and YN are on the court together?"- Inunaki
"Yeah, it's like being in the room with two divorced parents"- Thomas adds
Sakusa knows exactly what's happening and he wrestles with telling the truth or letting it go
Ultimately he sides with keeping it quiet
Please he still feels like it's nOnE oF hIs BuSiNeSs
A few weeks pass and tournament season kicks into gear
You've been forced to settle down with your wild nights because of your new rigorous schedule
Not to mention how tired you've been
Your body seems more worn down than usual and you figured you were just getting sick from all the extra practices
One morning you woke up, and your breasts were extremely sore
Like tender to the touch sore
"Geez ouch- I can't even wear my normal bra"- you say to yourself as you slowly dress
You honestly didn't pay any mind to the soreness, figuring you pulled a muscle in your chest for the previous practice
So you pop a few Tylenol and head to the gym
You enter the office as Meian and Barnes are sitting and talking
"Hey YN"- they say as a sudden wave of nausea hits you
Your eyes widen as the smell of coffee hits you and you sprint from the office to the bathroom, throwing up
Barnes and Meian take after you quickly
"Jesus YN are you ok?"- Barnes says knocking on the bathroom door
"Yeah YN, what the hell? You sick? Why are you here!?"- Meian
"YN's sick! "- Bokuto 😱
"Stay away from me YN. It's still flu season"- Sakusa
Please they are all so supportive 🤣
"I'm not sick! I don't know what came over me"- you say as you stand up, flushing the toilet and going to the sink
You wash your hands and begin to process what's been going on
Your exhausted, your breasts ache and you got sick off the smell of coffee?
How strange 🙃
Well it's a good thing there is a well placed tampon/pad machine right by the door to the bathroom to remind you of one teeny tiny thing
Your face pales as you look at the machine, mentally trying to calculate when your last cycle was
You feel sick and hot as you splash water on your face and try to figure out what to do
Good thing you have the most supportive team 😍
"YN ARE YOU FEELING BETTER YET? ATSUMU ISNT HELPING ME WITH MY SPIKING DRILLS AND I NEED YOU!"- Hinata crying through the door
"HINATA LEAVE YN ALONE!"- Meian screaming
Please you need to be alone and think about this
Probably after you buy a test 😅
You figure your best bet is to attend morning practice and run to the store on your lunch break while the guys head home to rest
"I'm coming"- you say, trying to shove all thoughts of being pregnant out of your mind
The morning drags on as lunch finally hits
The guys leave and you run to the nearest pharmacy, quickly running 🏃♀️ back to the bathroom of the gym
You read the instructions, as you mentally thank yourself for consuming extra water during practice
You pee on the stick and wait
Now, having taken multiple pregnancy tests in my life, I can say that 3-5 minite wait is arguably the scariest wait of someone's life 😅
It's a life changing thing YN!
You pace as you await the results, trying not to freak out
"Ok ok YN calm down! You don't even know if you're pregnant or not. This could all just be a giant fever dream. Or maybe your period is just really really late! Yeah that happens all the time"- you trying to talk yourself down from the cliff 😅
The timer on your phone goes off as you slowly approach the test...
You peer over, seeing a giant "Pregnant" on the screen
Your body gives out as you fall to the floor and sit there is shock
Ok but me when I first found out I was pregnant with my son 😆
Luckily or unluckily there seems to be a team member who hasn't yet left for home 🙃
Atsumu is walking by the girls locker room when he hears something fall
He stops, listens and knocks, slowly opening the door to make sure no one is in need to help
By this point, you're full on sobbing
He opens the door, seeing you on the floor, eyes wide and tears streaming down your face
"Yn! Omg are you ok?? What happened?"- Atsumu now running to you, falling besides you as he check you over
"Atsumu-" you say crying
Atsumu looks at your hand, seeing the test there
He picks it up, seeing the "pregnant" that brought you to your knees
"Where did you get this yn? Geez I knew you were an empath but YN this is a bit too far don't you think?"- Atsumu
Like I said 👉🏻 🤡
You 👉🏻👁💧👄💧👁 Atsumu it's mine...
It takes him a few seconds to process
Man goes through the 5 stages of grief
"No no- it- it cant"- Atsumu, in full denial
"Atsumu I'm pregnant"- you say, crying
"How YN??"- Atsumu
You 👉🏻👁💧👄💧👁 seriously...
"I know how YN but like HOW"- Atsumu
"I- I don't know! I thought I was being careful"- you, embarrassed now
"Jesus YN, is this why you've been pulling away from me?"- Atsumu says sitting next to you
Your head snaps to him
He noticed you'd been pulling away?
As much as you want to tell him, you feel like it will only add more to an already complicated situation
So you decide to keep quiet
"Yeah I- I didn't want to bother you"- you
"YN you're not a bother. Please I want to help" Atsumu says
"I don't want your pity Atsumu"- you say as you wipe your tears
"Shut up YN! It's not pity! You're my best friend and I care alot about you!"- Atsumu
You just stare at him, still crying
"Ok let's just think about this YN. Do you know what you want to do??"- Atsumu, jumping into adulting mode
"I think I should call the doctor"- you, wiping your tears
"Ok let's do it now"- Atsumu standing up
"Now- but Atsumu"- you
"No buts YN let's get going"- Atsumu says pulling out his phone and dialing
Please, assertive men 🥵
You just stand there as Atsumu talks to the receptionist
Atsumu tells the receptionist your birthday and name
"Yn they have an opening tomorrow afternoon is that good?"- Atsumu, putting his hand over the speaker
You 👉🏻👁👄👁 yeah-
Honestly shocked by Atsumu assertiveness and protectiveness
"We will take it! See you tomorrow"- Atsumu, hanging up
"Atsumu what are you doing?"- You
"If you think Im letting you do this alone YN, you're wrong"- Atsumu
Your heart swells as Atsumu smiles at you, hugging you tightly
He hasn't let the full situation sink in yet but don't worry, it will happen soon enough 🙃
You manager to get through afternoon practice and the next morning practice before you head to your appointment
Except you don't head there alone
Oh no no
Atsumu is right by your side
"Atsumu you don't have to-" you say, as Atsumu opens the door for you
"YN- enough! I told you I'm here for you"- Atsumu, grabbing your hand and pulling you into the clinic
In the clinic, Atsumu acts like a nervous father 😅
Honestly we love him for that
"Atsumu chill out, I'm the pregnant one"- You
"I know- I know but like I'm worried"- Atsumu pacing as the doctor comes in the checks you over
You get an ultrasound to check for due dates
And now, for moms educational time 🙌🏻
So sometimes, a person will have an ultrasound done to check on the fetus
And this ultrasound might be a probe ultrasound, which is done vaginally
Yes, it can be uncomfortable but it's sometimes easier to see the fetus this way and get a more accurate gestational age
I'm not doctor or nurse, this is just my own personal experience from having been pregnant 3 times
So let's just say that's what you do
Atsumu is still in the room when the doctor goes to perform this ultrasound
His face goes from 😐 to 😳 to 😱 real quick
"Whoa whoa you have to do that!"- Atsumu says interrupting the doctor, standing right by your wide open legs
"Atsumu, please"- You
"Sir I promise, your wife will be fine"- the doctor says, reassuring Atsumu
"Oh he's not-"
"I'm just worried about her that's all"- Atsumu says walking up to you, grabbing your hand and smiling
The fact that he didn't correct the doctor is both reassuring and confusing 🙁
You are already in a super emotional state and this isn't helping
"Well it's looks like you are 8 weeks YN and if you look here, you'll see what your body is working so hard for"- the doctor says, turning the screen to show you the fetus
It hits you all at once as your situation sets in
You're pregnant, actually pregnant
And you have no idea who the father is
You sit and stare at the screen as Atsumu stares with you
Except Atsumu is so amazed and in complete shock
Please he's so excited 🥰
The doctor prints you a picture as you clean up and get an updated folder of appointments and a book to read
You walk out with Atsumu, not speaking as you head towards your car
"YN, hey are you ok?"- Atsumu
"No- no im not ok"- you say quietly as the tears start to form
"Hey come here"- Atsumu says pulling you into his embrace as you sob loudly
"Atsumu, I- I'm scared to do this on my own"- you confess
"Don't you want to let guy know you're pregnant?"- Atsumu
Atsumu can't help but feel a little jealous
He never expressed his feelings to you
Heck his feelings didn't really make sense until just recently
You dodge the question and huddle closer as Atsumu holds you
"Hey yn- shhh you aren't going to be alone!"- Atsumu says rubbing your back
"What about the team? What about my job? Oh my god Atsumu"- you sobbing
Please those hormones can hit HARD
"Hey hey now! I'm here for you YN! I care about you and you're my best friend"- Atsumu
Please it pains him to say "best friend" but he basically friend zoned himself 💅🏼
"You- you really mean that?"- you 🥺
"Of course! And trust me, Meian and the team would rather go without a manager than see you go YN. I promise, we can tell them together"- Atsumu
You smile as you hug him and kiss his cheek
Please he melts from that act alone 😭
The next day, you walk into practice nervous
Atsumu is waiting for you at the door as he grabs your hand and leads you in
Immediately, when you enter the gym, all eyes land on you
"Ok what's wrong?"- Meian, sighing as he crosses his arm over his broad chest 🥵
You 👉🏻👁👄👁 seriously!!!
"It's just weird that you and Atsumu are acting so close when you've all but ignored each other for months"- Sakusa
"Yeah we are just a bit skeptical"- Inunaki
"Just spit it out already"- Barnes
"I'm Pregnant" "YN's Pregant!" - you and Atsumu say at the same time
The guys 👉🏻😐😳😲
"Atsumu you idiot! You knocked YN up!!"- Barnes yelling
"What the hell dude?? We talked about condoms!"- Meian
"I love how YN isn't getting lectured"- Sakusa 🤔
"She should know better too! Jesus christ!"- Inunaki
Please their overreaction isn't helping
You start to tear up and sniffle as your embarrassment sets in
"Hey! Knock it off you guys"- Thomas coming up to you
Atsumu hugs you as you continue to sniffle
Meian puts his fingers on the bridge of his nose and takes a deep breath
"We're sorry YN. This is just shocking"- Meian
"It's ok. But please, it's not Atsumu's fault"- You, protecting Atsumu
Bokuto and Hinata 👉🏻🤨🤨
"YN you do realize how a baby is made right?"- Bokuto
"Oh dear god"- Sakusa, walking away
"Yes Ko, remember I'm the one who taught you"- you 🙄
"She's saying I'm not the father guys"- Atsumu says calmly
Everyone stops and stares at you
Please where do they go from here 😅 this is so awkward
So leave it to us to blaze a trail
"I havent contacted the father yet. I- I'm pretty much on my own"- you explaining it gently
"YN say less, we are not here to judge"- Inunaki, his hand up stopping you 🤚🏻
"Yeah YN, we are only here to support you"- Barnes
"Have you decided what you plan to do YN?"- Meian
Atsumu stands next to you holding your hip and squeezing lightly
"I want to keep it. But I also want to stay your manager..."- You, whispering and trying not to cry again
"YN of course you can stay on!! We could never replace you"- Meian
"Really?"- you, now crying happy tears instead of sad ones
"Omg YN you are crying so much and I'm not sure whether it's happy or sad tears"- Hinata, panicking 😰
"It's happy tears Sho"- you say as you hug him tight
Atsumu is so happy and smiling bright as the team and you embrace
A month goes by things are progressing
"Good morning YN, little YN"- Meian says rubbing your belly as he walks by
First off, he asked and you said it was fine 🙂 always ask a pregnant person if you can touch them please!
Ask anyone if you can touch them... consent 👏🏻
Secondly, your bump has become a bit of a good luck charm for our boys
Inunaki swears it's the reason they are on a winning streak
Last week they beat EJP and this week they managed to win against the Adlers
Hinata and Bokuto come bounding at you as you brace for impact
But their force is stopped by a brick wall in the form of Atsumu 🧱
"What did I tell you two about jumping on YN?? She's growing a little YN!"- Atsumu 😡
Please he's so protective 😫
Sakusa walks up to you and pulls you into a side hug, whispering in your ear
"Hes got it so bad for you YN"- Sakusa, strolling away leaving you confused
Sure Atsumu has been attentive and very caring the last few weeks
He's taken to driving you places, making sure you have something to eat and taking you to appointments
He's stepped in as a friend and your biggest supporter
Too bad it's become more confusing than it was at first
Atsumu acts super protective of you and so loving
But then why did he say you weren't his type?
Maybe he's just being nice? Maybe he's caring for you as a friend would?
That must be it
You shove Omi's comments about Atsumu down as you proceed with your day
The weeks go by and soon your 20 weeks
Yay for half way through with your pregnancy 🙌🏻
You've been through alot these past few weeks and it's been entails and emotionally exhausting
You hadn't told anyone but you contacted as many of the guys you slept with as you could
None of them showed any interest in being a father, nor did they want anything to do with you 😔
It's was a big hit to your ego and your emotions
You spent the weekend crying and dodging all Atsumu's attempts to hang out
Claiming you were too sick
It honestly worried Atsumu who wanted to make sure you were OK
Mans was willing to drive to your place at 11 pm to take you to the urgent care if needed YN 👏🏻
But you just wanted to be alone and process everything
You never felt so alone and it was honestly so scary
Despite all the love and support you received from the team, it wasn't the same
You managed to hide your sadness from the team and soon it was time for your twenty week ultrasound
Atsumu asked to come with you and of course you said yes 🥰
It felt so nice to have someone with you, supporting you even if it was just as a friend
"Ok YN, would you like to know the babies sex?"- the ultrasound tech says
"Yes please"- you say, watching the screen as the tech moves the probe around your stomach
"Looks like a baby girl to me"- she exclaims as you begin to cry, tears flooding your eyes as Atsumu stands up, kissing your forehead, his tears mixing with yours
Please supportive Atsumu 😭😭😭
Guys I can't 🥺
The next day, you walk into the gym only to be bombarded by the team
"It's a girl right?"- Bokuto says as Meian pushes him back
"Knock it off Bokuto, we all know it's a boy"- Meian says smirking
"What? So you can tell what the baby is just by looking at YN?"- Barnes 🤨
"I told you it's captain intuition! I'm in tune with my team"- Meian say proudly
"Well you need to retune Shugu because the baby is a girl!"- you say as Bokuto and Hinata jump up and down, celebrating with you
Inunaki, Thomas and Barnes all laugh at Meian as he glares back
"Ok ok- fine I was wrong! But everything is good right YN?"- Meian
"Yep! She's perfect!"- you say, smiling as Atsumu puts his hand on your belly and kisses your forehead
Sakusa looks at you both questioningly
"Alright let's get changed for practice! YN do you got everything?"- Meian says
"Yes captain"- you say rolling your eyes as you take your jacket off, revealing your MSBY shirt covering your now growing bump
"Don't lift anything YN"- Barnes says
"Thomas and I will do the nets YN"- Inunaki says
"And I'll get the towels"- Bokuto chimes in
"Guys I'm fine!! You can help with the nets and carrying the water but I'm still capable!"- you throwing your hand in the air as you walk away
The guys all move the the locker rooms, a permanent smile stuck on Atsumu's face
"You look happy dude"- Hinata says
"I am! YN and I have become really close again. It's nice!"- Atsumu
"So you only plan to be her friend?"- Sakusa
Please he's held out as long as he could 😅
"What are you talking about?"- Atsumu
Hinata, Bokuto, Meian, Inunaki, Barnes and Thomas are all like 👀👀👀👀
Nosey bitches
They will purposely change slowly just because 🤚🏻
Sakusa sighs, he really doesn't want to say anything but he also knows your in a fragile state and he doesn't want you to get hurt
"Listen Sumu-"
Oh shit he's broken out the nickname 😱
"A few months ago, YN heard what you said about her not being your type-"
Atsumu's face pales, Sakusa continues
"I think it really got to her man. Listen, I knew she liked you but I didn't want to interfere. Maybe I should have but I didn't know she was going out and doing what she was doing"- Sakusa
Atsumu states at Sakusa in shock, sitting down on the bench, all the color now gone from his face
"What was she doing Kiyoomi?"- Meian interjects
Sakusa sighs and continues
"She was going out with her friends, getting drunk and going home with different guys. Listen I don't want to speculate but hasn't anyone wondered why YN has mentioned the baby's dad?"- Sakusa
"I mean I just figured he didn't want to be involved"- Thomas
"Are you saying that YN doesn't know who the father is?"- Barnes says sitting down
Sakusa nods and looks at Atsumu who is sitting quietly
"Holy shit-" Hinata says
"Sakusa, what the hell man? Why are you bringing this up now?"- Meian says
"YN is really fragile right now and I don't want her or you getting hurt. I know you care alot about her but-"
"I want to be with her Kiyoomi"- Atsumu interjects
The room quiets as Atsumu looks up to see his teammates gaping at him
"Dude are you-" Thomas says
"Atsumu, nobody expects you to take that on. I mean, not even YN would"- Barnes
Atsumu knows its alot but he can't help but recount his feelings the last few months
He remembers how sad he was when you pulled away and began ignoring him
How upset he was when you continued to shrug him off week after week
How the knot in his stomach grew when you told him you were pregnant
The jealousy he felt knowing he wasn't the baby's biological father
It killed him to see how upset you were the day he found you in the bathroom
Then to see you so happy again your ultrasound
It made him want to be apart of everything
"I think you need to talk to YN first Atsumu"- Thomas
"Yeah I mean, she's the one who will need to ultimately decide"- Inunaki
Atsumu sighed as he went about getting changed and then heading to practice
He knew he needed to talk to you and he had just the plan to do it
A few weeks went by as you and your belly continued to grow
Being almost 27 weeks was exhausting and taking an emotional toll on you
Your body was always sore, your feet hurt and all you wanted to do was sleep
You took it as easy as you could at practice
Atsumu made sure to constantly have a chair available for you as he pushed you into it more than necessary during the day
"Sumu really I'm fine"- you, being set carefully in the chair
"YN, sit!"- Atsumu says, grabbing another chair and putting your feet on it
"Sumu-"
"Here YN, Samu made you some Onigiri"- Atsumu said handing you the package as you grab it from him
You start eating as your eyes fill with tears as you chew
"YN Jesus, there's no need to cry!"- Atsumu
"It's just so good Sumu"- You 😭😭😭
Ok then 😐
That weekend, Atsumu asked over for dinner
Your agreed, enjoying your time with him
During dinner, Atsumu decided to approach the subject he's been avoiding for weeks
"YN, listen I want to talk to you"- Atsumu
"Sure Sumu, what's up?"- you a tad bit nervous
"YN, I want to be involved in the baby and your lives"- Atsumu
"Sumu you already are"- you confused 😕
"No- I mean, I want to be more than just a friend YN"- Atsumu
Your eyes widen as you sit back, your hand going to your belly
"Sumu I-"
"Listen YN, Sakusa told me what you heard and I just want to let you know, I was confused"
"Wait what? Sakusa told you"- you now standing up, mortified
"YN listen, it's ok! There's nothing wrong! I know you dont know who the babies father is and thats ok!"- Atsumu
You're absolutely mortified and feeling sick
If Atsumu knows, does the whole team know?
You feel so cheap and it's breaking you 🥺
"No everything's wrong Atsumu! God I can't believe Sakusa told you! Told you about everything! God I'm so embarrassed!"- you now stumbling around the chair, rushing towards the door
"YN please wait!"- Atsumu chasing you
"Sumu no! I don't need your pity! I got myself into this and I can do this myself. I know I'm 'not your type' or whatever but I'm not just some charity case"- You, crying
"YN Please stop!"- Atsumu, trying to get you to stay
"Leave me alone Sumu! God I can't believe I was so stupid!"- you, completely emotional and irrational
You take off out the door as Atsumu stands there, not sure if he should go after you or not
He calls Sakusa who answers right away
"Hey man-" "YN left! She fucking left! God I fucked up so bad! And now she's out on the streets alone. God what if she gets hurt or something happens to her!! Oh my god! What do I do??"
"Fuck- ok I'm going to call her, you go down and look for her. Follow her if you have to and make sure she gets home safe. I'll call Meian and see if he can go check on her"- Sakusa, our planning king
"Ok"- Atsumu says hanging up as he runs down the stairs to try and find you
Only your gone 😔
Your phone rings and rings as you sit on the train
You look to see you have missed calls from the entire team including Atsumu
You put your phone back in your pocket as you head to your apartment
Once inside you strip your clothes off, shower and put comfy sweats on
At this point, your just going through the motions, your brain on auto pilot
A pounding on your door jolts you from your trance
"YN OPEN UP NOW"- Meian shouts
You walk to the door, opening it to see Meian, Thomas and Inunaki all standing there
"Jesus woman! Could you answer your phone maybe?"- Thomas says
"I'm fine. There's nothing to worry about" you say in a monotone voice
"Well that's not what Atsumu said YN. He said you ran out of his apartment when he tried talking to you"- Meian
"Listen I don't need Atsumu or anyone's sympathy ok? I know I'm a fucking slut! I know I fucked up! I don't need anyones pity!" You now shouting as the tears fall down your cheeks
Seriously the theme of these headcannons is alot of crying 🥲
"YN"- Inunaki says as you look at him, his eyes sad
"I just want to be alone ok? Please let me be alone"- You, begging and tears falling
"Text us later ok?"- Meian says, taking the hint and turning to leave
You nod as you close and lock your door
Your tears falling steady as you turn to head to bed
The next few weeks go by in a daze
There is a odd unsettling in the air at the gym as you go about your job, steering as clear of Atsumu as you can
He watches you as you try and put the towels up
"Let me help" "I'm fine but thank you"- you say as you put the towels up and walk away
He's miserable, you're miserable, everyone's miserable
And you know what we love to do here 👀
Make everyone more miserable before we make them better 🙌🏻
So let's bring on some more pain, shall we 🙃
At 30 weeks, you wake up feeling exhausted
You haven't been able to sleep much and your body is constantly tired and sore
You make it to the gym just as you feel a sharp pain stab your back
You bend over, grabbing a chair as you curse
"Fuck" you squeak out as the pain dissipates
You wonder what's going on as the guys flood the gym and you straighten up
Atsumu looks at you as you smile lightly, turning to walk away
You come out from the office, a stack of papers in your hand as another pain shoots from your back
"Oh fuck"- you scream, as the papers go flying and your legs buckle
The teams heads snap your way as they rush to support you
"YN what's wrong?"- Atsumu
"My back- fuck it hurts Sumu"- you say, crying as the pain continues
"Shit, get her a chair Bokuto"- Meian says as Bokuto runs to grab you a seat
"Here YN"- Bokuto says as Sumu and Sakusa help you sit
The pain continues as you moan and cry through it
"We should take you to the hospital YN"- Thomas says as you nod
You're scared and it's about to get scarier
You stand up, and Barnes gasps
"Fuck YN your bleeding"- Barnes says as your face pales, looking at the seat seeing your blood soaking through
"Ambulance now!"- Meian shouts as Sakusa calls and Atsumu supports you
You start crying frantically as Atsumu holds you
"Sumu, the baby!! It's so early!"- you cry as Atsumu hugs you
"YN shhh- it's ok! Hey it's going to be ok! I'm not leaving you!"- Atsumu says reassuring you
"Atsumu, I'm so sorry- please" "shhh none of that! You have nothing to be sorry for baby!"- Atsumu says holding you close
The ambulance arrives as you are loaded in, Atsumu riding with you to the hospital
When you arrive, the doctors whisk you away to the maternity unit
Atsumu tries to follow up is stopped
"I'm sorry sir but only family from here on out"- the nurses says
"Fuck-" "He's the babies dad! Please let him come"- you shout as Atsumu looks at you, his eyes wide and tears filling the ducts
"Ok come with me sir"- the nurse says, bringing you both to a room
Hours go by as you sit and wait
The doctors were able to locate the babies heartbeat within seconds, reassuring you and Atsumu she was still ok
Atsumu sat next to you, holding your hand as he watched you
"YN, I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry for everything. Please I never wanted this to happen"- Atsumu says
"Don't apologize Sumu. I should have listened to you. But I didn't. I'm sorry for this whole mess"- you, saddened
"YN, I love you and our baby so much! Please don't apologize for anything. I want to be here with you the entire way. That is, if you'll have me?"- Atsumu
Please now I'm crying 😭
"Atsumu, you mean it?"- You 🥺
"YN, if I didn't think it was inappropriate, I'd propose right now"- he says, smiling at you
"Please don't yet, I've had enough excitement for one day"- you say, laughing at Atsumu smiles
The doctor walks in
"Well good news YN is that your waters haven't broken and baby seems ok. It looks like you had a small subchorionic hematoma. It wasn't noted earlier on your ultrasounds, probably because it was so small. However it could have grown and then burst, causing the bleeding. It looks like everything is fine but just to be safe, I want you on bedrest for the next few weeks. That means laying down 23 hours a day, only getting up to use the bathroom"- the doctor says
Your eyes widen and you nod your head, you look to Sumu
"Sumu, my job. I cant-" the tears are falling again
Seriously so many tears 😢
"Hey- hey, it's fine YN! I'm here to help you. Let me help ok?"- Atsumu says as you nod, placing trust in him
The doors to your room fly open as 7 giant men enter
Please they probably scared everyone on the floor 😅
"Hey hey hey YN! How are you feeling?"- Bokuto
"Much better thank you guys!"- you say smiling as you place your hand on your belly
"Is that the baby's heartbeat?"- Sakusa asks
"Yep that's our baby girl"- Atsumu adds
"And she's staying in for a while??"- Meian 😑
"Yes, unfortunately I'll have to go on bed rest so I won't be able to manage for a while. I hope that's ok?"- you, really hoping it's ok
"YN please you think we could ever replace you?? Plus Atsumu would never allow it"- Barnes
Atsumu nods as you laugh a little
Suddenly your belly moves as the baby shifts
"What in the hell was that??"- Hinata 😳
"Oh she's just moving and kicking. She really hates these straps. Do you want to feel?"- You being freaking cute
Hinata nods as he approaches and feels the baby as she kicks
"Omg thats SO COOL YN!"- Hinata
"Hey me next!"- Bokuto
Like I've said before, literal children Yn
The guys leave soon and you spend your night trying to sleep
Astumu stayed by your side the entire time
The next morning, you were discharged and Atsumu drove you home
Only it wasn't to your home 🤨
"Umm Atsumu... this is your place"- you say, questioning
"Yep! You're staying with me so I can take care of you"- Atsumu says getting out of the car and walking over to your door
You 👉🏻👁👄👁 uhh ok...
Atsumu opens your door, lifting you into his arm as he carries you to his apartment
He sets you down gently on the bed and kisses your forehead
"You know, I can walk right?"- You
"You're growing my baby YN and the doctor said 'only get up when you need to use the bathroom' so no you can't just walk"- Atsumu
You roll your eyes as you hear the doorbell ring
Atsumu leaves and returns with Osamu who has brought food
"Hello my future sister in law"- Osamu, just stating the obvious
"Hey Samu! It's so nice to see you!"- You hugging your future brother in law 🥺
"I brought you food and enough to help feed you for the week. Because I don't trust Atsumu to make sure your feeding my niece enough"- Osamu
Atsumu 👉🏻😐 🧍♂️ I'm right here-
"Oh I know you are, that's why I said it"- Osamu 🙃
The weeks go by as you slowly approach your due date
At your 37 week appointment you are cleared to go back to work as long as you take it easy
The next day you waddle your way into the gym
"Whoa YN, you smuggling a couple volleyballs under that shirt"- Inunaki 🤣
You 👉🏻 😐 and I'm leaving
"Jesus christ we just got her back! Don't make her leave!"- Thomas
"YN!"- Our two bubbly boys say running at you
Sakusa steps in their way to stop them from mauling you
"Do you two have any other speed besides full steam?"- Sakusa
Meanwhile, Atsumu is dragging in two chairs, one for you to sit and another to put your feet up
He's also brought a bag full of water, refreshments and snacks for you
"Jesus Atsumu, did you bring the bag for the hospital too?"- Barnes jokes
"Yeah it's in the car! Do you think I'll need it??"- Atsumu ready to run to the car
"Atsumu love, chill out! I'm fine"- You
"YN the doctor said the baby can come anytime now, I'm just preparing ok!"- Atsumu
"Sumu I'm not even dilated yet! I doubt it's going to happen that fast"- You
Famous last words YN 🙃🙃🙃
Ok now before I get to the labor part, I just want to say that every labor is different
Like VERY different and I'm exaggerating this for funsies
Because who doesn't like chaos???
So let's get to it!
39 weeks 🙌🏻 congrats YN you made it to "full term"
And honestly, you are SO done
You can't sleep, your back hurts, your constantly going to the bathroom, your feet hurt and your body is just done
Not to mention, your patience with pretty much everyone
Most days, you sit in your chair in the corner of practice brooding 🤣
Hinata and Bokuto are scared to approach you
Heck all the guys are 😅
But today is the day YN and oh boy is it going to be painful
You wake up that morning feeling off
Atsumu is out on his run while you go about showering and getting ready for practice
At your last appointment your cervix was barely dilated and the doctor said it could be another 2 weeks before they see anything happen
But today just felt strange
The baby is lower and there is alot of pressure in your pelvis
Your back hurts and you are struggling to walk
You lean over the counter trying to relieve some pressure as Atsumu walks in
Immediately our man is on alert
"Whats wrong? Yn are you ok?"- he says running up to you
"Yeah Sumu I'm ok. Just alot of pressure and my back hurts"- you say as Atsumu applies pressure to your back to help
He kisses your neck as he rocks you
"Maybe you should stay home today?"- Atsumu
"Nah I'm ok. Maybe walking will get this little one going"- you say
"Ok baby. I'm going to change and we can head to practice"- Atsumu says, kissing you as he goes to change
As he's changing, you feel a pressure build in your back, stay and then leave
I'm no expect YN but I think that was probably a contraction
Spoiler alert: it was 😏
You sit there after the pain leaves and wonder what exactly is happening
It's one of those "I think I might be in labor but I'm not sure and I don't want to get too excited" moments
You brush off the contractions and move to get ready to leave
At the gym, you are sitting in the office when another contraction hits
It's your 3rd one in a half an hour and you start to think you are actually in labor
But you don't tell Atsumu yet 👀
Because you know exactly what will happen
Alot of panic, very little disco 🤣
You vow to tell him of your contractions start coming closer together
Which happens alot sooner than you plan
"Hey YN! Can you bring the copy of the new roster out?"- Meian yells as you grab the paper
You make it to the gym floor just as a huge contraction hits
You grab onto the door frame and feel a slight pop as your leggings begin to dampen
"Shit!"- you cry as Meian and Barnes heads snap to you
Barnes notices your leggings dampen and looks from your legs to your eyes and back down
"Oh holy SHIT!"- he yells as Thomas, Inunaki and Sakusa come running out
"What??"- Thomas says
"Yn did your..."- Meian
"Yep, my waters broke"- you, still gripping onto the door frame
There's a good 1 minute of silence before sheer panic sets in
Meian and Inunaki run to you and help you to make sure your supported
Meanwhile, Atsumu, Hinata and Bokuto come in from the back after filling water bottles
Atsumu sees you being supported, looks down, sees your pants, looks back up and sees your face
That's all she wrote people
Those water bottles are done for because Atsumu is SPRINTING to you just as another contraction hits
"Shit YN!! Are you ok? Tell me what's happening?"- Atsumu
You breath through the pain as Atsumu and the guys watch on
"I think I've been having contractions all morning but just now I'm pretting sure my water broke or I peed myself"- you
"Eww YN really"- Sakusa
You glare at Sakusa who is now your enemy
"We have to get to the hospital"- Atsumu
"Sumu remember the doctors said it could be hours or even days! We have time-" you growl as a contraction hits
"You think you have time YN? Because those contractions are awfully close together"- Barnes
"How do you know about that?"- you, gritting through the pain
"Atsumu sent us all an emergency birth plan with details that we all had to read"- Barnes say shrugging
You 👉🏻👁💧👄💧👁
"Now is not the time to deal with this! We have to get YN to the hospital NOW!"- Atsumu in adulting mode
Meian and Inunaki support you as Atsumu runs around
Please he's so excited, nervous and scared he can't function
"Tsum tsum calm down!"- Bokuto
Everyone looks at him like 😲 because Bokuto being the voice of reason 🤨
That's strange, that's weird
Suddenly a huge pressure hits you as your knees buckle and you begin to fall
"YN holy shit-" Hinata says running to you
"It hurts so bad"- you, screaming
For real tho, I screamed so loud they said they were lucky the birthing floor was empty 😅
And imagine the echo of a gym at that 🤯
"What hurts YN?"- Sakusa
You're head snaps to him like bro... seriously
"MY VAGINA SAKUSA!"- you, screaming
"I know that you idiot I mean what are you feeling?"- Sakusa
"Hey don't call the mother of my child an idiot ya idiot!"- Atsumu, ready to fight
"WILL YOU TWO SHUT UP"- You, gritting your teeth
Any chance you had at a serene birth experience is long gone YN 😅
"Ugh I feel like I have to push"- you shout as everyone freezes
Meian and Inunaki are still supporting you
Thomas and Barnes 👉🏻 👁👄👁 here???
Bokuto and Hinata just stand there 🧍♂️ 🧍♂️
"Wait- now? You said we had time YN!"- Atsumu, panicking
"Clearly I was wrong Sumu"- you say gritting your teeth as another contraction comes
"I'm calling an ambulance now"- Sakusa says running
You feel pressure as you move your hand to lower your pants
Please everyone is about to lose their minds
"YN I don't think the gyms insurance covers this"- Meian
"Seriously are these floors even stain proof?"- Barnes
"I mean their water proof right?"- Thomas
You glare at them as they all stop talking
"You're right YN not the time"- Meian says, holding you as you move your pants down
"The ambulance is like 5 minutes away"- Sakusa says running back in
"We need towels"- Atsumu says, realizing this is not waiting
Hinata and Bokuto run 🏃♂️ as fast as they can and grab towels
"Ok YN, you need to breath. Remember in and out, good job baby!"- Atsumu says praising you
Please he's a rock in a tough situation
He just goes into autopilot
"Sumu, it hurts so bad" you say gritting your teeth
Atsumu checks under your shirt to see
"Oh my god ok this is really happening. Yn the babies head is right there"- he says his eyes as wide as saucers
"WHAT??"- you scream as another contraction hits
"Ok ok YN when the contraction hits, bare down on and put your weight on Meian and Inunaki"- Atsumu
"God YN, I'm so sorry some man did this to you!! I'm scheduling a vasectomy tomorrow"- Inunaki states
You scream as you feel the pressure hit a new high
"The ambulance is a minute away YN just hold on"- Sakusa screams from the doors as he waits
"Sumu I cant- I can't! I was promised drugs! You promised me drugs!"- You scream
Fun fact 👉🏻 actual quote from me
"YN, hey, I believe in you and I love you"- Sumu says as he looks up at you smiling
You nod, bearing down as you feel the pressure build and then slip from your body
"Holy shit"- Barnes shouts as the gym floods with first responders and Atsumu holds your new baby girl
"You did it YN! You did it baby! I fucking love you so much! Omg she's so perfect!"- Atsumu says crying as he holds your now screaming daughter, the ambulance crew handing him towels and checking her vitals
"Hello YN! I'm Mai, let's get you to a gurney ok??"- Mai says as you nod and Meian and Inunaki help you on the gurney, you daughter still attached by her umbilical cord
"Dad would you like to cut the cord? Then we can help YN get the placenta out"- Mai says handing Atsumu the scissors as he holds your baby close.
"Wait I'm not done yet?"- you say panicking
"It will be quick YN. After birth contractions will help"- Mai says as she helps you deliver the placenta
Atsumu hands you the baby as you look at her and start to cry
"Sumu she's perfect"- you say looking at him
"Just like you YN"- atsumu says, kissing you as you head the to hospital
✨️ Bonus ✨️
1 month later...
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GWAINCELOT ESSAY THREE???
[commentary voice] ah yes and this gwaincelot essay.... which turned into a fic was inspired by @nextstopparis and @little-ligi
GWAINE TEACHING LANCELOT HOW TO READ. and thats how they actually CONFESS.
imagine gwaine seeing lancelot trip up reading leon’s plan for the day, seeing him trying to understand it. and gwaines, hes a little in love. Hes. Hes a little hit with feelings for this Noble (tm) knight. So OF COURSE he CANT EMOTION and he tries to show his affection for lancelot without yknow being in ‘loVE’
he comes over with his swishy hair and bantery tone like “oooOhHh LANCELOT! Lancey! Hey! Hello! Can’t read leon’s goddamn awful handwriting huh?”
And Lancelots embarrassed and flushes red and gwaine thinks hes Fucked Up (and he really doesn’t want to fuck this up, this is the first time he’s actually felt emotions this deep for someone) and tries to fix it panickedly, like the Anxiety Clown He Is.
He keeps on saying sorry and apologising, and Lancelot, the EVER CALM KNIGHT GUY, goes “it’s fine, it’s okay. It’s nothing to do with you...” and then he hesitates. He HESITATES. “....it’s just that...” and then he BITES HIS LIP and gwaine thinks he might just faint there and then, “...i cant read.”
and now it hits him, gwaine, gwaine, who thought literacy was something trash and something he didn’t really need, realises how important it is. and so, yknow because hes kind of wrapped in those Emotions (tm), he pulls lancelot’s sleeve after practice, when they’re alone in the changing room. (and if lancelot wasn’t so tired and miserable, he would have easily seen gwaine BLUSH)
And he, shyly asks if lancelot wouldnt mind being tutored by him.
Now Lancelot is OVERJOYED, and he’s borderline CRYING because lancelot, poor old village boy lancelot who’d been kicked out of the knights of camelot, and had to become a MERCENARY and fight for masters who didn’t care for him, has NEVER HAD someone literally CARE about him so much. (Apart from Merlin. He loves merlin <3)
so now imagine lancelot waking up an hour early the next morning, and showing up into gwaine’s room. He knows gwaine literally doesnt sleep with a lock, so he just barges in, and starts shaking gwaine.
Now GWAINE sleeps like a Log (had so much shit going on irl, time to sleep it away) and when he opens his bleary eyes, seeing lancelot in one of his stupid v neck shirts over him, hes like “....h...helo??”
and lancelot’s all like. “We- werent YOU gonna give me reading lessons.” And gwaine nods, yawning (and in that moment lancelot thinks gwaine looks unimaginably cute, so cute that he wants to literally ruffle gwaine’s hair and run his hands through how silky and brown it is.)
THEN gwaine pulls on the dont care-ish mask, and makes his arms into a pillow under his head, as he leans against the wall behind his bed, in some kind of somewhat???flirty??? manner??? [i dont...i dont know what hes trying to do. On the other hand! Not does Lancelot :) ]
Lancelot, does not realise this is gwaine’s poor attempt at flirting - since he’s seen gwaine ACTUALLY flirting and this is like. Nothing. And its also poorly executed. Which is NOTHING like gwaine.
So he pulls gwaine’s arm, and half hauls him out of bed.
As gwaine’s head crashes into lancelot’s stomach, he can smell lancelot’s clothes. They smell of flowers, and cotton and everything so natural and gwaine, who literally smells of wine, and wood and Tavern. (And aftershave, or the 500AD equivalent)
[see here, see im trying to bring themes of dionysis okay. OkayyyyyyyyY. yours truly likes looking at greek mythology. And both these two complete dionysis]
Gwaine, in his sleepy stupor, nestles his head on Lancelot’s hip, who gives a sigh and stands there. One hand clutching gwaine’s, leaving the other free.....
....to rake through his soft, flowy brown hair. And twirl his fingers through its waves, and Gwaine cuddles in further.
And since Lancelot left the door open, Leon (the other bitch who wakes up at 4am to do idk nothing) sees them two...like that, illuminated by the SUNLIGHT behind them, and smiles a little.
And then he trips over the stairs, the moment is lost.
Gwaine and Lancelot pull away at the same time, and gwaine’s face turns back to “ha ha im a Jerk (tm)” and if he wasnt too busy trying to hide how flustered he was, he’d see Lancelot looking at him the way he used to look at GWEN.
They both blink and look at each other, understandingly, neither of them to speak of this again.
And then Gwaine drags himself out of bed, and Lancelot raises his eyebrows as he watches him (totally not checking him out) haul out a book from his cupboard.
Gwaine’s too sleepy for this, he keeps yawning and rubbing his eyes (looking like a cat, Lancelot notes) and Lancelot takes a deep breath, his eyes understanding.
“We don’t have to do this if you don’t want to.”
“Lancelot, I love..” he bites his tongue, cursing his half asleep mind “..doing this, and love hanging out with you...I just cant stay up this early.”
Reading lessons, from now on, are at 1:30am-whenever Gwaine and Lancelot stop rambling about Odysseus and Circe and Telemachus
[i dont know any other ancient books apart from like. Ancient greek/Roman ones. So i guess. Its not historically accurate,,,,BUUIT this is a fanfic for a pair who had like no scenes together SO i think i can take some ✨creative liberties✨]
Lancelot has heard of the journey of Aneas from travelling bards, singing songs in his native old english. Gwaine’s eyes are quick at latin, and he learnt the flaws of Romulus and Remus in his pure latin. Gwaine’s a good teacher, and lancelot is a quick study, and it’s not long before they’re arguing over which Goddess caused the most harm in the Illiad.
Gwaine’s never met someone who he could reveal that he loved reading to, he loved doing.
Lancelot’s never met someone who he could tell he couldn’t read, and ask if they could teach him, love learning.
They make it work.
The other knights notice, of course they notice. Percival notices how Lancelot stumbles into the Gwaine’s room at night, bright eyed. Elyan notices Lancelot and Gwaine’s voices from Gwaine’s room opposite him; sometimes slow, Gwaine speaking slowly and Lancelot following; sometimes heated and passionate.
(They’re arguing. They’re arguing about how to pronounce Minerva)
Merlin finds the two, in the early hours of the morning - when the birds are figuring what song they sing today - on Gwaine’s bed.
Gwaine leaned against the bedframe, his trousered legs splayed over the sheets. Loosely braided, long brown hair fell over his closed eyelids, his mouth in a small smile.
And Merlin follows his arm draped over Lancelot, snuggled beside him, his head on his broad shoulder, every breath of wind pushing against curly black hair, making it almost /bounce/. His eyes are covered by the other man’s hair, and he looks...content. More content than Merlin has ever seen him.
He slips out as quietly as he came in, and smirks, hes gotta tell arthur they finally got their shit together oh GOD
Its no surprise to anyone but them, when Arthur pulls Lancelot out of training, and into his chambers.
“I’m glad you’ve found someone Lancelot.” He starts, his face geniune, his voice giving away hints of relief. (He thought he was never going to see his knight smile again after all the ordeals that had happened to him)
“Oh...” Lancelot’s heart sinks, “...how did you find out, Sire?”
Arthur blinks, taking in the change of mood in Lancelot, maybe it wasn’t anything important, maybe they were trying to keep it casual, hell they didnt want the king knowing.
“I- uh, I just noticed...” Goddamnit Merlin, and Goddamn his need to tell him everything he saw. (Merlin had advised him not to do this, as they sat on his bed after a long night. This was really his fault.)
Lancelot pales, and he places his hands down on the table beside him, palms slapping stone as he did so.
“Well, I guess I should tell you the whole truth then,” his voice is quiet, and Arthur steps closer, “Sire I am not of Noble birth, and was born in a village - as you know.”
Arthur nods, his arms crossed, but his Kingly Bravado fell away at the sight of his knight, and one of his closest friends, being this vulnerable.
“Yes I know, but what does this ha-“
“And we children in the village we-“ he falters, “-we were never taught to read.”
“Yes, no I understand, I-“ he pauses, Lancelot’s words hitting him a bit too late, this was about literacy?
This, this whole conversation was about literacy?
Not being gay?
Merlin was going to have a field day
“Sire?”
“I understand Lancelot, and is this why you feel a little out of place with the other knights?” He carries it on, with a smile, he has a few questions to ask merlin.
“Yes, and that’s why I asked Gwaine to tutor me from time to time, although, the sessions carry through late into the night, which may have been affecting my performance at practice. I’ll have you know that this is a temporary th-“
“It’s fine Lancelot,” Arthur places a hand on his shoulder, “You are still exceptional at practice,”
“Thank you Sire,” Lancelot twinkles.
✨
“Theyre, theyre not together?” Merlin cant stop laughing, tears streaming down his face, “theyre not TOGETHER?? oh my God arthur what did you DO”
They sit together on Arthur’s bed, drinking wine from stemless cups together, with Arthur recounting the events of the day; red faced.
“I mean, it was your idea Merlin.”
“I just saw them, and I assumed...I didnt...I didnt think youd ASK them.”
“What do you think I’d do then?? Let them be on their merry way.”
“Yes!”
✨
“Do you like me?” Gwaine asks, unexpectedly, one night, the moon vibrant against the loud sea.
“You’re...tolerable...” Lancelot says, a smile tugging at his lips, as the silver moonlight falls against his hair, a halo around him.
✨
The knights give them the look every morning, as the two of them stumbled out of the same room, more frequently than ever.
Sometimes Lancelot would throw on Gwaine’s shirt, when he’d crumpled his own beyond repair. Sometimes Gwaine would put some of Lancelot’s hair oil on, when his hair was frizzy.
They gave each other knowing looks when Gwaine and Lancelot started whispering and giggling like a bunch of schoolgirls.
✨
And then Stupid gwaine had to go get fucking stabbed, and their delicate dance was like trying to waltz through a minefield.
Lancelot clutches onto Gwaine’s arm as Merlin feels his forehead with shaking hands.
“He’s burning up.”
“Infection...?” Lancelot sounds broken, and nods, fumbling with his pack to find some bandages.
It was just a simple quest; a save the day, get the girl, do various harmless shenanigans type of quest.
He’d half expected Gwaine to get the girl, and he cant help but give out a half choked laugh. Gwaine had no idea what hit him when she turned out to be the evil one all along.
He tries to forget that Gwaine showed no interest in her, he tries to forget that Gwaine’s been less frequent at the Tavern, he tries to forget that he hasn’t seen Gwaine with anyone since months now.
Gwaine, his beautiful Gwaine was lying on his lap, hot red blood rushing from his side, staining his polished chainmail with dark, sticky blood.
He’s been out for nearly an hour now, and Lancelot remembers carrying him, through the entire forest, forgetting his sword and his helmet and just grabbing Gwaine and getting the shit out of there.
Gwaine’s lack of self preservation was really rubbing off on Lancelot nowadays.
Merlin watches as Lancelot holds back tears, his own eyes stinging. Gwaine can’t die like this, he can’t die like this....
“hælan beorn adl”
Merlin’s eyes flashed gold, and Lancelot could feel warmth coming back into the fingers he was grabbing.
He was coming back.
And then the weight of everything hits him.
He was in Fucking Love.
✨
“Hey.” Gwaine’s voice is rough from disuse, but Lancelot nearly sobs when he hears the voice.
“Don’t fucking do that to me again, amor meus.” He puts his head down on Gwaine’s chest; finding the hammering of his heart calming.
He shimmies onto Merlin’s bed, which Gwaine had been lying in for the past few days.
“Did you mean, ami meus?” Gwaine sounds tired, too tired to be awake.
“Huh? Did i say something else?” Lancelot decides to play dumb, a sparkle in his eyes,
“I thought I heard amor meus,” Gwaine pushes his nose into Lancelot’s hair, taking in the wonderful smell of coconut.
“Well then, at least your hearing’s okay, amor meus.”
Gwaine gulped, and was sure Lancelot could hear his loud swallow.
“Lancelot, I hope this isnt a big joke with me teachin you latin and all,” Gwaine’s voice is a little wobbly from the slee deprivation and the magic and the pain numbers, “because I’ll have you know that I really love you, and I cant go on like this any longer,”
“Its okay Gwaine, I learnt latin from the man I love, of course it’s not a joke.”
“The man you love? Who’s tha-“
Realisation hits him like a brick.
Oh.
Oh.
“Me?” His voice cracks, and Lancelot looks up, a smirk on his face.
“Of course dumbass.”
“Like I’m meant to know that,” Gwaine tries to keep his dont care-ish aura, but they both know he’s too exhausted to keep that up.
“mmm?”
Gwaine kisses him on the nose, and he wraps himself around him.
And thats how Merlin finds them later that day, eyes blinking as he stood there.
✨
“I’m glad you’ve found someone, Lancelot.” Arthur coughs.
“Is that what that whole talk was about???”
“Answer the question.” His words sound harsh, but he’s barely hiding a smile.
“I’m glad too, I’m Glad I found Gwaine too.” Lancelot blushes, turning to gwaine.
“Why are you asking anyway, Princess?”
“Oh just, making sure this time.”
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