#and i have synesthesia with sound and color

[lemonofthevalley]

now that I think about it I probably do have taste synesthesia but literally only when I look at images of resin dice ????? okay

#i have color-sound synesthesia and the only thing thats triggered it so far is the talking heads LOL

[maxellminidisc]

Still find it so funny that my mom never questioned why growing up I'd be like "Hey mommy this song looks so pretty" or "Hey mom this song feels weird/gross I'm changing it" she was just like this bitch is wired different, who am I to question it? LMAO

#sometimes it did and does suck having synesthesia because it absolutely becomes so much more #overwhelming in anxiety inducing situations like crowds and busy places #which wouldve been nice to at least have the knowledge that seeing colors and shapes and feeling tactile things from sound #wasnt an every person thing skdnkfnckckckks #like i think it wouldve put a name to something so the experience wasnt so idk brash???

[prommytheus]

thena redesign.. her canon design is everything and nothing at once

#athena cykes #athena cykes redesign #redesign #my art #dual destinies #shes so fun and i love her but also her canon design both has everything going on and also is nothing #i tried to incorporate polly and nick a bit more. also COOL EYEBROWS #i like her headphones in her kid design so im letting her keep them #she doesnt have them when working tho of course bc she needs her full hearing to use her abilities #also sound-color synesthesia athena truthers unite

[arachnidiots-a]

updated liam's ted lasso verse and now thinking about the colors of the crowd and how synesthesia impacts their playing

#something i love about writing new verses for liam is constantly figuring out how their synesthesia plays into it #their musician verse is a hot colorful mess which can be so overwhelming and its why liam takes big breaks between shows and such #in tl thinking about how they track the ball with it thanks to the sound of kicking but also how they might get distracted #liam training themselves to have such insane levels of focus in the game #have your muse ask liam about their experiences and let them paint the world for your muse in words and then right afterwards be like: #liam vc: idk what it means... kinda random anyways youre like a lime green color #RAMBLING NONSENSE / ooc

[buckttommy]

speaking of halsey, ya'aburnee has to be one of the songs of all time

#i have synesthesia idk if you guys know that #but every time i hear it #it's a very specific color that i can't place #and it sounds #like. #obviously it sounds like music #but the sound my brain associates with it is so. grainy. or like. mmm. idk how to describe it #like listening to a record play #it's nice

[s0ngsandstars]

So according to the alter in our system with the best sound-smell synesthesia, "Fantastic Days" by Hiyori Tomoe is the best smelling song (that she's heard so far), and it smells like watermelon soda and sour candy.

And so far the worst smelling one is "Crazy Roulette" by Crazy:B, and it smells like a very chemically sort of smoke.

#S Posts #Synesthesia #Enstars #Ensemble Stars #Food mention #I don't have that one anywhere near the extent of the color association one #but for her the sound-smell one is very prominent. #I just think it's neat. #At some point maybe we can make various unit posts for the songs about this like with the colors #because it's absolutely fascinating imo

[leejeann]

A while back I figured out how to change the note color map in Reaper (the software I use to make instrumentals) so that in the middle editor the notes match my synesthesia colors for them. At first it didn't really make a difference but as I've used it I've noticed it actually does help me remember what a chord or note actually is just at a glance

Like, for context, the midi editor is horizontal of course. So there is a set of piano keys on the left and then you just click into the lines to add notes on whatever note it's supposed to be, if that makes any sense. With the default colors I could remember "Oh okay this is the chord with blue on the bottom and yellow above it" or something but I couldn't tell what the notes actually were without hovering over it and seeing which key lit up, because things written or displayed in horizonal lines are so hard for my eyes to follow the line between information

But now I can be like "Okay that's the chord with orange and dark red and blue, oh it's just an Ab major chord then cool" and then when I go to a different instrument track to add the chord or notes I just know the note names I need to use

#hopefully any of that made sense lol #its hard to explain without looking at it #and im at work so i can just screenshot it or something #anyway if you jave synesthesia and use a midi editor you should try that out lol #to clarify specific note sounds dont have colors for me so im using the colors of the letters/note names #so like E is orange in my head and so Eb is like a slightly duller orange etc #lee speaks #synesthesia

[bambeliowon]

does anyone else get a little upset when you show someone art and they ask if you made it? my art is extension of myself, i’m present in every mark i make and every concept i create. its a shard of my soul and you dare gaze upon another’s and see no difference?

am i, someone who you supposedly hold dear, completely unrecognizable to when you aren’t staring upon my vessel? how replaceable am i in your mind that you can not see me in the colors of a canvas, the way the strokes curve and layer, never ending imagery meant to make you think of a dream? your love for me is contained and concrete and you do not see the multitudes in my abstract being and that realization makes me a little upset.

#it doesnt help that i have synesthesia and see my friends in weird abstract amalgamations of color and sounds and pictures #i see the people i love in different pieces of the world #and i can find pieces of me sprinkled in as well #so when i show my mom are someone art i think is cool or something and she asks if i made it im like #no?? that not a creation that would spawn from my mind?? you’ve seen my art you know the stuff i make??? #shitpost #but like a heartfelt one

[banditosong]

Hey everyone send me your favorite number and I'll ramble about it I'm bored

#i think i have some form of synesthesia #cause numbers have colors and feelings #some even have musical sounds #i kinda want to make moodboards based off of numbers cause there are some really great ones #random rambles

[xiao-come-home]

Boothill relationship headcanons;

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✰ Characters: Boothill x reader.

✰ Words: ~1k.

✰ SFW+N//SFW ; SFW mentions no pronouns or gender of the reader. N//SFW section was written with fem!reader in mind.

Warnings: THIS HAS A NSFW PART. MINORS AND AGELESS BLOGS skip this section if possible. some of these hc are based on this post, since i wanted to write a little more about it.

A/N: BRAINROT gRR he truly gives me doctor by Miley Cyrus vibes. idk how to explain it but take it

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Boothill:

SFW

he's such a gentleman! opens doors for you, pulls out a chair, kisses your hand when he sees you first for the day, it doesn't get boring for him at all. if you ignore some of his unhinged behaviors, then he's a perfect man.

like i mentioned in my previous post, he's VERY possessive of you. he does like to go to unknown clubs or bars with you to try out their best drinks in his spare time, though he doesn't have you attached to his hip (even.. if he wouldn't probably mind at all), he does keep a sharp eye on you. if a weird guy approaches you and you're clearly uncomfortable, he tries to intimidate the guy away and clearly let him see that you're his (aka placing his arm around your waist and pushing you into him), if being polite doesn't work, well, they have a rough night. not in a good way.

this man SCREAMS BACK HUGS!! since his body is like 90% metal and machines, he loves to embrace you from behind and wrap his arms around your tummy, while his chin rests on your shoulder. he misses the softness of his own skin, so having you gives him a lot of comfort; the warmth you're radiating makes him reluctant to ever pull away. boothill often finds himself touching his cheeks with his robotic arms, when they get warm enough - the feeling almost long forgotten in his mind.

speaking of back hugs: he's also very big on neck kisses, mostly giving than receiving, depending on how he feels, they're either very innocent and loving - very soft, paired with butterfly kisses, or biting you and then kissing it better, when things get steamy.

boothil finds it funny when his hair tickles you when he hugs you from behind. if he's feeling particularly like a little shit that day, he can annoy you the entire day like that, only to respond with "hmm? what do you mean? I'm not doing anything, baby!" ...don't tell him his smirk gives it away, but honestly, at this point, he probably doesn't try to hide it that well.

he DOES slap your ass when you go past him. EVERY time. it doesn't get boring for him, he likes the sound it makes AND how soft it is, bonus if it jiggles, then he's even more proud. he might offer "an apologetic massage," which you rarely agree to (but he'll try until u say yes).

if someone ever tinkers with his Synesthesia beacon, he cannot swear for his life. you might catch him trying to cook, spilling something, and then hearing loud "YOU LITTLE DAISY FLOWER! CUTIE PIE! CURSED FROG!" it's kinda impressive how colorful they can get...

speaking of his voice, he's probably able to manipulate it so it sounds the best according to your taste. although his flesh heart has been gone for so long, he still feels that familiar, warm feeling and squeeze of his own, mechanical one, when your answer is always the same - to modulate it so it sounds the closest to what it used to be, or that the current one is just as pleasant to hear.

he likes to kiss you. no matter where, or when. if he wants to, he'll get one, pressing you against him, cupping your face with one hand, and kissing your puckered lips. once you give in, he kisses you properly, caressing your cheek ever so slightly to ease any discomfort left, only to hold you tightly on your hips and whimper on purpose just to tease you more (i believe in boothill is a little shit theory).

if we assume his face is the only human part of him left (besides his eyes). In that case, he just truly loves the softness of your lips on his. he kisses you as much as he can, and will get all fussy and whiny if he doesn't get his good morning kiss, we-see-each-other-for-the-first-time-today kiss (note: this is not the same as good morning kiss), goodnight kiss and so on. yes, he could get it by himself, but he wants it from you first. he's just very stubborn.

watch out! he likes to draw blood on your lower lip when his intrusive thoughts win. he licks the blood off later, and gives it a loving kiss.

his hair is genuine, so he loves whenever you play with it, brush it, or take care of it in general. it's probably one of the very few human features of his, so if your boothill lets you carefully pamper it, let alone without flooding his cords, he's not only very impressed, but also very willing to indulge in more sessions.

finds it absolutely adorable when you wear his hat when he isn't looking. or, well, when you think he isn't looking.

N/SFW. minors and ageless blogs shoo!

the council has decided that he has a vibrator in place of his real junk. but if you're into experimenting and want him to feel a bit more, hm, natural - he's more than happy to change his parts. shape, size and pace - everything for his lady.

you can probably guess, but that's an absolute ass man. he sees you in tighter pants that hug you just so nicely and might go feral.

eats pussy like a starved man. he has no shame and licks, sucks, and fucks you with his tongue and THE SOUNDS could put the devil himself to shame. boothill always wants everyone to know that you're his, how you scream and moan for him, so in return - he never lets a drop of your juices go to waste, slurping and moaning into your slit.

he's literally so flexible, that he'll fuck you in every position you want him to. if it means he'll get deeper, he's on board. and probably on top of you too.

likes to grope you through your clothes. sounds very tame, but it really gets him going, and might sometimes cause trouble in public.. unless you WANT that trouble.

adding to the headcanon above - he truly just gets turned on by your skin, especially imperfections. stretch marks? he'll kiss them all, scars? he has them all memorized. when he touches you through your clothes, he already remembers what is where, it's like he's edging himself knowing that soon enough he'll undress you completely and see it clearly; he quite literally worships what truly makes you... you.

he. is. so. SO over when you pull on his hair. when you make out, when he fucks you - doesn't matter. DO IT and he'll go absolutely crazy, hissing in pleasure and grinding into you.

#honkai star rail #honkai star rail x reader #hsr x reader #boothill #boothill hsr #boothill x reader #.headcanon #oops #gif by @/freyito!!

[honeyvenommusic]

listening back to a voice memo I made today at work and realizing I’ve made 3 with full melodies in the last two weeks and we’re looking at:

- something that sounds like Saint Motel (’Voyeur’ era) and makes me wanna jump around - something that sounds like... Anberlin?? and another alt rock band I can’t think of rn? - something that sounds like a cute/dreamy 50′s pop song but kinda evil

#and I want them all done rnrn #me realizing my synesthesia extends to my own work possibly somehow even more strongly that others bc these have full blown color palettes #that I cannot even hear the first notes of each in my own head without seeing colors/visuals #they're so distinct it's kinda bothering me (because I can do nothing with this shit (affectionate) rn and I want to #also does Saint Motel still sound like that I've only heard a few things off their 2nd and nothing else since I don't think(?) #anyway times like these I truly feel how limited I am by the little set up I have that song in particular requires a lot & I wanna do #right by it #so will it ever see the light of day whoooo knowwws lmaooo (I laugh but I weep inside)

[silly-centipede]

My favorite number is seven because it sounds like yellow and tastes like a lime but 64 is also good because it sounds like baby blue and tastes like cherry

#synesthesia #synesthete #I hear colors #I taste sounds #i’m a mess #does this make any sense? probably not #very specific #i love autism #I draw things btw #dear God I have to tag shit #ygyvygyggggvhv

[othersidedisc]

btw if i say your voice is like a deep color (specifically royal blue, royal purple, or maroon) that's the highest compliment i can give

#i don't have synesthesia i just assign colors to sounds. #anyway deep colors usually are assigned bc of. idk they. i can't explain it just know it's a compliment!

[prettyboypistol]

TF2 Mercs x M!Reader || How the Mercs Jerk Off +18

minors dni and get blocked

ambiguous genitals for Pyro

Scout

The stereotypical setup of "makes a night of it" sometimes only to end up frantically fucking his fist 10 minutes later as he gasps out your name breathlessly.

Most of the time though his man is a horny mess. Sneaks off to jack off frequently (like 2/month).

Has jerked off in the showers before but prefers his bedroom to relieve himself.

HUUUGE on fantasies. Always talking to himself and imagining you in various ways. His favorite is imagining you blowing him.

Usually lasts a short amount of time, but can recover extremely quickly.

Pyro

Oh. My. God. This is the HORNIEST mf alive when they're lucid. Yeah, they're a little awkward about how close they get to you, but everyone shrugs it off as them being socially unaware.

You smell so amazing to them, the smell of you looks so pretty to them in their head because of their synesthesia. Has embarrassingly gotten off to the colors and feeling of your voice and smell.

Your voice is a calming purple to them with a gentle rumbling against the bottom of their mind, the sound feels a sort of comfortable chilling ironically.

They refuse to do anything outside of their safe space- hell, considering that nobody even knows if Pyro needs to jerk off-

It HAS to be: right vibes, 3 am, locked door, calming smell candles, windows shut, etc etc

Soldier

Has a love/hate relationship with jerking off, he sees it as manly and masculine to release urges, but also weak to indulge himself in base desires.

A manly man thinking of another manly man like yourself? Well technically that's twice the amount of men. At first he assumed he was jealous of your physique, but then he drempt of you on top of him right about to push your-BEEPBEEPBEEPBEEEEEEP 0600 SOLDIER TIME TO WORK

Awkward boners are his specialty, excusing himself to "go oversee the maggots" when you flex a particularily nice deadlift.

Less private than Pyro but still prefers a more private setting like in the woods, a bathroom stall, or just a spot he deemed far away enough from everyone else.

Most embarrassed about wet dreams where he can actually get off in his dreams, deeming that day "surprise laundry inspection/washing day"

Demo

He's pretty lax about jerking off to be honest, has probably drunkenly teased you about you should be careful about how often you keep your shirt off.

"Ey laddie, careful showin' those pecs around! Cannae imagine you'd like a man eyein' those tits of yours!" Of course it was a joke, you two were close like that. of course he was just teasing you.

Oh god he wanted to fuck your pecs. Unabashedly staring at your chest he imagined how nice his dick would look in-between your pecs, maybe scrunched against a tight wifebeater too oh fuck-

Reletively respectful of everyone's decentcy and only relieves himself either in his room or in the empty showers at 4 in the morning. He's probably only been caught once but never agains after that.

Cums a lot, that's why he prefers the shower wanks to quickly wash away the evidence.

Engie

This man is so fucking ashamed of touching himself to thoughts of you- much like he would be about thinking of anyone. He's got such a huge shame surrounding the whole thing but the evil voice in his head only made him strangely harder.

He imagined you wakling in on him as he whispered out your name and you shaming him as you slide up behind him as your hand wraps around his jerking him off all while telling him just how much of a pervert he is.

This man has the biggest undiscovered humiliation kink god it's so fucking pathetic (i deeply desire him)

Has jerked off in his workshop multiple times with the door deadbolted shut and a drill running to hide what he's doing.

Honestly prefers the feel of vaseline/nonsexy lube on his dick and it's a lot less suspicious to have that around.

Heavy

Doesn't often feel the need due to how high alert he is.

When Heavy is at ease he's more bearlike and chill rather than a hotblooded, horny-brained mess. When he does actually touch himself, he is extremely quiet in his bedroom and quick about the whole ordeal.

Has a nasty "habit" of thinking of you. He assumes it's because you're actually nice to him and he's not been around a woman in god knows how long. You're not womanly-like in the slightest but Heavy likes to think about his hands on your hips as he makes you whine.

Feels a stinging sense of guilt afterwards but generally shrugs the feeling off. It's not really such a bad thing if he keeps it to himself and keeps everything professional, right?

Sniper

I wrote a fic about how I generally feel Sniper jerks it here but I'll rephrase it here as a TLDR

This man is really fucking weird about jerking off to you. He HAS stolen something of yours to smell and fantasize with and if given the chance he WILL steal again.

HUGE scent kink and voyeur/creeping kink kind of like Engie in a way where he wants you to call him out on his bullshit.

Probably the most unprofessional about it. He has fondled himself as he watched you through his scope during battle and he will do it again.

Pretty quick ordeal overall to keep himself sane. He jacks off often and quickly to keep a baseline sense of sanity (pre-nut insanity is a thing and his diagnosis is terminal RIP)

Medic

Honestly I headcanon Medic not feeling a need to masturbate. His lust for you oozes out in his operations in some sort of gorey satisfaction in operations on the team. (think like, the taboo passion of physically rearranging someone's guts gets him off in a weird way.)

This isn't to say he gets sexually aroused by his experiments, it's just that the excitement of the thrills get cross-wired in his brain. When you drop your shirt on the floor to prep for an operation his dick twitches in his pants but that's literally it.

Flirts with you on the operating table <3

The only time he's actually masturbated is for experiements. (One was if he could create life without an egg and the second was to see how much cum could a healthy man extract out of him.)

Spy

This man is so hoity-toity about getting off it's almost a pain to write. It's an actual whole night for him. It starts with a nice bath with oils more expensive than your paycheck, then a professional massage, then a calming cigarette mixed with some top-grade cannabis in either a blunt or in a nice dessert. THEN FINALLY he lays himself down onto his pretty little bed and fucks himself.

And even then Spy has a routine to jerking off to really indulge himself. He starts slow and gentle with teasing touches that go lower and lower until he's strained against the fluffy bathrobe he is cuddled in.

Imagines you riding him a lot, but if he's in the mood to bottom, he slowly fucks himself with a pretty nice vibrator as he imagines you fucking him as your dick brushed against his prostate in the most delicious of ways.

This man is convinced that every other merc assumed that he gets too many bitches to need to masturbate and he fully intends to keep that assumption alive and well.

#tf2 #team fortress 2 #fanfiction #tf2 x reader #tf2 scout #tf2 soldier #tf2 demoman #tf2 engineer #tf2 heavy #tf2 pyro #tf2 sniper #tf2 medic #tf2 spy #sniper x reader #medic x reader #spy x reader #demoman x reader #engineer x reader #heavy x reader #scout x reader #soldier x reader #pyro x reader #tf2 x male reader #tf2 mercs x male reader #tf2 mercs #tf2 smut #prettyboy pistol

[turbulentscrawl]

Identity(V) Headcanons: Frederick Kreiburg

Frederick's headcanons got a little more...medical than some of the others I've done so far. I'm no expert in this stuff, but I do my best to be comprehensible and respectful where certain disorders have to be mentioned. As always, hope you guys like it!

-Ashes of Memory states that Frederick was diagnosed with ‘psychasthenia’ at some point in his childhood, but this isn’t used as a diagnosis in modern medicine. Instead, it’s a term used to describe a collection of symptoms commonly associated with disorders like OCD. It includes anxiety, obsession, compulsions, depersonalization, nervous ticks, and can even affect one’s memory.

-Personally, I also think he has synesthesia. Frederick mentions colors in relation to music a lot (especially gold), and while this could just be something relating to his other condition, I prefer to take it as literal. It’s part of the reason he was enamored after hearing his father play, why he obsessed with music. Frederick grew up in an onslaught of overwhelming chaos, colors bursting and fading wildly across his senses incomprehensible in his day to day, enhancing his anxiety…but when the recital started there was only the song. One symphony of sound and color, appearing before him in a long, unbroken stream. It was peaceful. And he became obsessed with that peace.

-This also explains his “un-Kreiburg-like skills.” His music is not like what the rest of his family composes because he’s writing it to suit both sound and color. He can perfectly identify pitch and can play most songs entirely “by ear” after hearing them only once or twice, but he’s obsessed with the stream of colors keeping a certain rhythm to them, which doesn’t always lend itself to “traditional” Kreiburg music.

-Frederick’s personality is very affected by the above struggles/disorders. He’s a very kind person at his core, as well as very earnest, but he is plagued by fear, anxiety, and extreme self-criticism. He becomes overwhelmed easily. He is entirely aware of all his struggles, his failures, and wrestles every day with the knowledge that he’s a disappointment to his family. Sometimes his situation brings him to tears, sometimes to destructive wrath.

-Frederick has come to accept his need for appearances, that people mostly like him because of his looks and his familial relations. But on his worst days he can’t even rely on that much because his communication begins to break down. His speech becomes disjointed and frantic, he’s tense and twitchy, a look of horror sinks deep into his face. To protect what remains of his reputation, he hides away during these times.

-When he is with people, he behaves as a gentleman should, albeit a reclusive one. He’s terrified of being judged further, but craves understanding and praise, so he maintains personal distance while remaining remarkably enthusiastic about musical discussion. He’s never told anyone but his family about his diagnosis or his synesthesia. They are both sources of shame for him.

-When at his most anxious, he has a tendency to pull at his hair. Whole clumps of his long hair have been lost to the worst of his fits. He’s not particularly sensitive about any resulting bald spots on his scalp, but he does try to cover them with his normal ponytail style because he knows they would affect people’s attraction to him.

-He despises the sound of dogs barking. Which is a shame, because he does like dogs. Their barking is just burry, red fireworks right in the middle of his vision. It always startles him and makes it impossible to do or focus on anything.

-His love language is Gift Giving, and the “gifts” he gives are, predictably, usually songs. It’s his primary skill, of course, so as far as Frederick is concerned, he has nothing else worth offering besides music made in the name of his loved one. He’d be devastated if these musical gifts weren’t appreciated; Frederick can’t take much more rejection. His favorites Love Languages to receive are Word of Affirmation and Acts of Service. He’s secretly a bit desperate for praise, and any actions you take to support his work or help improve his reputation as a musician are better than gold.

-He likes to match his clothes to the primary colors he sees in the songs he’s performing. During his recitals, he changes coats often.

-He’s a picky eater with a powerful sweet tooth. If he could have it his way, he’d subsist mostly on desserts.

#idv x reader #identity v x reader #frederick kreiburg x reader #idv composer #turbulentscrawl

[feralwetcat]

Im bored so get spam posted on

I have a lot of synesthesia, so I'm gonna share my experience with certain colors and stuff with fable smp (images will be used for colors)

In my little mind, Wolf is a less saturated yellow, not too bright but still bright enough

But with recent lore its changed to something like this?

Stayin on the wild related train! Heres Jamie!

Jamie is a brown-green, a kinda cozy color, and definitely has a coffee like feel

Momboo is very pinkish? But usually i Invision some glitching over it with the current state, but thats just lore related, usually its a general pink with some green undertones

Easton is a light orange-y? A bright but calm color, and also quite simple, though sometimes i envision some greens with it

And finally for this post:

Oceana, shes blue, not a too complicated color, just a dimmed blue that represents her struggle i guess

This is my personal experience, and if you have any asks about other characters, please do share! I enjoy sharing how i see it myself, i also have ideas of how they sound, for example how Icarus sounds like rounded spikes to me, so please ask if your curious ^^

#fable smp #fablesmp #fable smp wolf #fable smp jamie #fable smp momboo #fable smp easton #fable smp ocie #synesthesia #fable smp icarus #vaugely