#and i have to do it SOBER. and for WHAT

[erynalasse]

I wonder when the Noldor looked around at their dwindling numbers and realized that they were dying faster than they could ever keep up with.

#tolkien #silmarillion #I actually have a lot of feelings about this #because the noldor that come over from Valinor are pretty much all you get for the first age’s long war #birth rates are also in the basement if they exist at all #elves don’t have children during war #even if the siege of Angband is peaceful enough to relax that custom #I still don’t think you would have many children #elves have known war before - we know they did before the great journey #but it’s also got to be sobering to realize that your casualty rates are literally unsustainable #(like so #the house of finwë probably isn’t a representative sample of casualty rates #but damn the big picture still can’t be good #we have one grandchild of finwë who survives to the second age out of fifteen and that’s a very very bad rate) #what does that DO to a people group #to go from immortal and undying #to accepting that your whole clan is getting whittled down chunk by chunk #when did they start realizing that even if they beat Morgoth #they wouldn’t recognize the survivors

[introspectivememories]

god i know i said i was tired of making eveerything sad but just imagine timber those first few months of reconnecting and they're both drunk on tim's boat, laying on the deck staring up at the stars and bear turns over to look at tim, his eyes are sad and wet, and he reaches out to touch tim's face as if to make sure tim is really there and not an illusion and tim whispers, "bear?" and bernard smiles a little brokenly and goes, "so how long do i have you for this time?"

#tim fully sober now: what do you mean? i'm right here bear #bear still drunk: i got you for almost a whole year last time. how long before you leave this time? #bear: 2 years? 6 months? #tim sadly: you can have me forever bear #bear laughing: i don't even get you that long in my dreams #bear smiles reaching out to poke tim's face: don't worry tim! anytime you want to come back‚ i'll be right here. #god tim who's constantly leaving and bear who knows but cant help letting him comeback into his life again and again #you cannot tell me that bear went to that first date in urban legends expecting tim to stay #he went to that date expecting to get his heart broken again but he loves this boy so he goes anyway #tim who always leaves and bear who waits patiently everytime #sorry im like sobbing in the library #bear is so 'right where you left me' coded #bear who loves tim so much he'll let tim break his heart again and again #head in hands head in hands #dc #tim drake #bernard dowd #timbern #timber

[inkskinned]

i hate how commodity and capitalism has ruined so much storytelling . i hate how sequels and prequels and whatever else all ring like merch sales; i hate that i as an author have to include any social media following i have as a marketable trait; i hate that everything feels like a xerox of a copy of a dream of a memory.

i hate that my nostalgia has been turned into profit. i hate that companies fear consumer backlash so no real commentary may be made; i hate that companies care more about quantity over quality. i hate that so many artists and creators are being overworked to the point of complete collapse rather than being allowed to tell the story their way. i hate that every point of representation has to be fought for. i hate it i want us all to go back to living in a cave .

when you sit with friends over a bonfire and the night is getting long and people start telling this slow, almost hypnotic story - in this quiet voice, like they don't expect you to listen while they say the most fucked up shit you've ever heard - that is storytelling. who cares if the punchline is car hand hook door. storytelling has always been about community, about us all sitting in the dark, choosing to fill the silence while the last embers are dying. we forgot that storytelling is spellwork. hallucinating together, our breaths held, waiting for the ending we already knew was coming.

#this is specifically due to my rage and undying hatred of megacorporation #disney. #and specifically bc i think there COULD have been a really good series of new #dinosaur island t rex movies #if they had just fucking gone the distance #stopped with the fucking bad CGI #and made the whole thing about late-stage capitalism #do you wanna know what would ACTUALLY sell and work on the big screen more than a trex screaming in front of a volcano #(u absolute jerkweeds)? #so they've rebuilt the island and the park. but the narrative is 100% #that nobody wants to fucking work there and it feels AT BEST cult-like and insular. nobody is paid well for this #at EVERY possible place they are cutting corners. the dinosaurs might have higher walls #but the handlers are paid 5.34 an hour due to island laws. the corporation has RFID tags in their costumes which they are forced to wear #the employees are not allowed to drink water in 120 degree heat bc it would be upsetting to guests #u know real things i experienced working for disney #(but it was 8.90) #anyway it turns out the park CEO knew the risks and just didnt care bc bottom line BAYBEE. #it would be so much more sobering and fucking GOOD if it was like. scientists being like ''i am an environmental scientist'' #''after the epa was slashed this is literally the only job i could find. i literally HAD to take it or i couldn't feed my family.'' #''i hate what i do. i am disgusted by it. i literally CANNOT STOP because the company also charges us 400 dollars a week to live here'' #the dinosaurs escape EARLY in my movie. like minute 45. and then... 1 week later #the park reopens. #half the staff are missing. they're just fucking gone. it doesn't matter tho the company tells everyone to work 2x as hard #that those people weren't loyal enough or they are tragic heroes bc they died doing what they love #and the movie isn't like ''wow dinosaurs scary!!!'' it's... #that in a global fucking pandemic disney kept sacrificing employees. #but it'll be disguised bc the pandemic will be dinosaurs. #this my beloved is what we call an ALLEGORY but unfortunately certain companies have never heard of them #allegories require critical thinking and that doesn't test well with audiences

[softboiledwonderland]

So, has anyone survived reading about Nobby in Night Watch with their heart intact or? Asking for a friend

#he's thinking of becoming a soldier IF he grows up #and his dad was once sober for two days together and made him toy soldiers #and he's the same cheeky grimy little rascal of indeterminate species!!! that we love!!! #only he's a CHILD and he's crying and vimes gave him a spoon to have as his very own #nobby nobbs #I can't believe what this book is doing to me #night watch #terry pratchett #discworld

[o-wild-west-wind]

tumblr algorithm stop feeding me takes that this show is just a silly goofy comedy that shouldn’t include death or that Izzy is the token disabled elder queer on the show where an actual disabled elder queer is literally the romantic lead or that Lucius and Pete being called “mateys” is diluting their gayness because it’s not “husbands” or that it’s sexist that Zheng lost her fleet and later prioritized her love for a man or that Ed is Izzy’s abuser because we conveniently forgot all of season 1 or that trauma is never followed through with because sometimes actions are used instead of words or that Ed learned nothing because the inn was apparently a whim as if he hasn’t been obsessing over retirement from day 1 I swear did we even watch the same show?? I literally feel like I’m in backwards land?

I have a really novel concept for y’all complaining about character’s arcs not being fully resolved or healed and that’s called there is supposed to be another season of this show

I also have another really novel concept as to why every single character did not have a one on one trauma apology session and so much time was spent on Ed and Stede and that is because this is literally the Ed and Stede show and also sometimes parallels are meant to be inferred and extrapolated because that is what efficient storytelling does instead of spoonfeeding you

And my most novel concept of all as to why some beloved characters had less screen time is because Max is a massive jerk and cut the budget

Y’all this wasn’t personal and maybe this show was never about Izzy maybe the show called our flag means death is actually about death maybe sad does not equal homophobic letdown maybe the brown gay character introduced as the love interest from day 1 gets to outlive the angry white guy that had a redemption arc after actively bullying and trying to break up every gay couple for a season I don’t know what to tell you just can you please let non-white people have this arc for once without assuming it’s an attack on you I’m BEGGING y’all

#I’m sorry for overusing y’all I grew up country lmao #anyway. critical thinking when #I didn’t want to make more posts about this I’m just tired and seeing people denounce the show as homophobic #for killing the subtextually gay internalized homophobia character #in favor of the canonically gay brown protagonist #makes me feel more and more uncomfortable the more I see it #WHY do you defend him over the actual gay people esp. poc gay people like make it make sense #be sad he died I have a million posts about that but this strawmanning is getting concerning #bc what does this mean of your ability to recognize real homophobia #it’s not about you!!! and if you think his death means something about you PLEASE unpack that #I had a lovely night with friends and am not sober lol so if I seem salty that’s why I’m sorry for being a broken record #this is not anti-Izzy this is anti-baffling takes on Izzy #I’m sorry we’ll be back to our regularly scheduled kiss gif programming soon I don’t like these posts either #I just can’t resist a good hill #ofmd #ofmd season 2 #ofmd spoilers #ofmd s2 spoilers #fandom crit #our flag means death

[justarandomhelluvablog]

having thoughts about how Husk actually has very little left to redeem bc he started his journey of self-change before even coming to work at the hotel, but at the same time redemption isn't even his goal- he ain't even aiming for heaven, he just wanted to be a better person and maybe now with friends and especially Angel, who he supports so much and wants to see succeed, maybe now he has a reason to be a better person

#hazbin hotel #husk #warning I am about to ramble in these tags O7 I have a ridiculous amount of thoughts about this cat bird man #thinking about that word of god from vivzie that Husk is actively fighting his gambling addiction in hell #which besides the pilot we've only seen his gambling mentioned in the past #and idk if it's just because they had to focus on other things but we don't see him drinking as heavily as he did in the pilot #and first few episodes. like he actually wants to be sober #we know he used to be an overlord and we assume that comes with all the terrible overlord qualities #(aka there's no such thing as a good slave owner) #but the Husk we know now has been on both sides of this chain #he knows and respects boundaries. consent is super important to him. this feels like a moral you can't really have to be an overlord #he also sees everyone as more than just what they can do for him specifically. he gets NOTHING out of being Angel's friend #he gets NOTHING out of defending Angel and Cherri during the fight with the Exorcists #he knows when to open up and who to open up to and trust. and he extends a hand to someone in need. someone he ain't even close to- #and if it hasn't changed he is trying to beat his own vices despite not even being a guest of the hotel. he's staff. he doesn't HAVE to #participate in their activities or try to change. he was dragged into this #but dammit he does it anyway #(also if he is still trying to beat his gambling addiction I wonder if the pilot was a relapse. hm) #anyway ig what im trying to say is husk isn't a guest at the hotel but plays the role of a guide for the guests bc he's already #got a very strong and *GOOD* set of morals considering they're in hell #like his level of morals we've only seen /explicitly/ shown in hellborn. and yeah consent and boundaries is rock bottom even for Earth #but they're in hell so somehow the bar manages to be even fucking lower than that so I consider it a win #ALSO THE FACT THAT HE STOOD BETWEEN ANGEL & CHERRI AND THE EXORCISTS??? this mf is willing to DIE for these people #I am 100% sure that if Husk's soul didn't belong to Alastor he would already be redeemed #we don't know what he did in life and we don't know how bad he was as an overlord but we know who husk is /now/ #and that person is a pretty damn good guy #he might have some work to do sure but he's already at least started his redemption before the show even began and #we're just seeing the tail end of it #god damn I really rambled in these tags i am so sorry #I just have so many thoughts about him

[holocene-sims]

List 5 facts about a favorite sim of yours, and send this to simblrs whose sims you adore ✨️

thank you so much for sending this to me!! ✨️💜 i really appreciate it!! and i'm so sorry for letting this sit in my inbox a long time 😭

i may talk about him a lot, but it's never enough, so here are five new facts about the king of my blog aka grant 👑

when grant wants to feel something, he'll watch videos of the curiosity rover on mars singing happy birthday to itself 🎂 it's so incredibly sad but cute to him, so it immediately turns on the waterworks lolol 🥲

objectively, grant is NOT a car guy; he's 110% an airplane guy. however, he owns a car that makes him look like a car guy and gets him approached ALL THE TIME by people who want to talk cars. it's a 1960 ford galaxie and it looks like this, except i think it would be a nice shade of light, almost minty green or maybe blue (no, i haven't decided, and probably won't because there's no cc version of this car for the sims 4, so we'll never see it lol) 💚💙

why is that his car? 🚗 well, it was his grandparents' car, which he bought off them when they wanted to replace it; they have never had a garage or a carport in their entire life, so the car was exposed to the elements for fifty years, and it was, thus, fucked up. they were also tired of fixing it. however, it's a sentimental car because aoife and joseph met working on the same production line at a ford auto factory, and this car was the first one they bought as a couple in their marriage (even though aoife ironically does not know how to drive lmao). they wanted it gone but also didn't, you know, so grant bought it because he also didn't want to see it gone; he'd spent his whole life sandwiching into that backseat with 8 billion of his cousins. oh, aaandddd he bought it even though the necessary repairs were extensive, which he did all by himself with help from his grandparents and uncle (aka people who know shit about cars)

a shorter fun fact: he smokes luckies 🫢

grant has been on TV before! it was very brief, for like five seconds, but he was interviewed by his hometown news station after his high school hockey team won the state championship game one year and he was granted the MVP title. he was very nervous, and his friends ended up nicknaming him "mr. team effort" because his entire interview was him just saying things like, "oh, um, well, it was a team effort, and we worked really hard...together...as a team..."

#asks #hlcn: grant #hlcn: oc info #hlcn: story extras #fun fact grant's house doesn't have a garage either LMAO #so that car is still going through it with the weather #but grant has like 100000000000x more disposable cash than his grandparents so it's fine #and btw realistically grant would figure out cars on his own given that he is a pilot and a former aerospace engineer #but also the systems are different so of course he would ask people who know what they're doing #ANYWAY this concludes the mostly nerdy fun facts show #but some more comments: #it is ironic that grant is so sober now but still smokes all the time #i think it's been referenced in the story but he's quit a billion times and then still goes back to it #it's unfortunately ingrained in him because his entire family smokes except for...like...three people #his attitude is “even if i didn't smoke i'm probably still fucked by all the secondhand smoke and the family history of cancer *shrugs*” #which is a bad attitude to have and vaguely contradictory to his attitudes on drugs and alcohol but what are humans but contradictory #anna stop yapping challenge failed

[crowsdove]

Aight so if my f/o dies, no he didn't even though he did. Because he didn't though <3 he's safe with me forever

#he don't have my PERMISSION!! to die #hoping my ass remembers this when I'm sober or w/e #self shipping #he is safe and happy with me forever no matter WHAT his creator says idc. FOREVER #also i am a proshipper so if this bothers you block me right now because i do not believe in harassing people over literal works of fiction #me and him are happy raising our little family together in peace #proship selfship #antis dni #edit: i'm glad this post i made while drunk and in my feelings resonates with a lot of you and your own f/os lmao #{ship: life eternal ❤️🐀💀🦇} #tagged for the f/o i wrote it about ✌️ #{crowsdove original posts}

[jennhoney]

Everything is relatively fine. Murble came home from the hospital last night. She didn’t break her neck (a real possibility considering how I found her) there were not signs of a concussion and she got stitched up. But I keep having little private bursts of crying. I’m so fucking pissed that this is the good lucky scenario. I’m still feeling a crushing panic because it became so obvious that I have almost no one to help me when things like this happen. I have to create new emergency action plans. I have to make new connections with humans I can trust and rely on. because sweetbabyJesus for a second I considered calling abeariknow. Negotiating with an inebriated Murble with a severe head injury is not something I would wish on anyone. Although I feel like nearly anyone could handle Murble better than me. She kept apologizing to me and I kept telling her that stuff happens and that she’ll feel better tomorrow but, and this is a failed cornerstone of our entire relationship so I don’t really have any hope of it ever changing, I tried to get through to her as the observer of the line of bad choices. I reminded her of the series of events. She clearly was having trouble walking so I got her situated in her chair and I told her, “text me or call out to me if you need something. (I needed to go to the bathroom and take my meds and honestly I needed a break from her.) and you promised me you would. But instead of doing that; as soon as I got upstairs you decided it was a good idea to walk across the house to go to the bathroom. I heard two terrible thuds. That probably means you hit your head twice! You just kept going!”

“It won’t happen again.”

“I have no reason or evidence to believe that. That is not a promise you can keep.”

“I can try, Jennifer!”

“I am done with this conversation.”

#I just don’t know what to do #I have no faith or evidence even that she will make good decisions in her or mine or Fafner’s best interests and that is sober or drunk #jennhoney personal log #my survival is fucking PRECARIOUS #I will try to do what is best for me and Fafner but I have so little power and almost no options

[charliespringverse]

... it's just hit me that lister describes the bathroom kiss as assault and even when jimmy reassures him that he doesn't see it that way and doesn't have a problem with it, lister refuses to accept that it was anything other than objectively assault

while two days earlier jimmy insisted that a 32-yr-old having sex with lister at age 16 was wrong, despite lister not seeing it that way and not having a problem with it

does that mean that lister took that conversation on board but only as far as "the person on the receiving end of an advance can't accurately assess whether or not it was wrong" and is now equating himself to the woman that took advantage of him . because i will weep

#i am conflicted about the bathroom kiss to an extent #because on the one hand . do not kiss someone without asking dude wtf #but also . the difference in jimmy's response to it compared to the magnet situation which is? relatively similar #w magnet he was 'this is fine'ing his whole way through it and forcing himself to be ok with it and would've likely kept going if— #— lister hadn't interrupted it #whereas in the bathroom he is in an objectively worse mental state & more consistently dissociative despite being sober . yet he actively— #— considers it and almost goes along with it before deciding for Both his and lister's sakes not to #and i think his clarity & consideration there as well as the fact he felt Safe to pull away is meaningful to an extent #because it's one of the only situations this week where he's actually felt & acted on a sense of control over what happens to him #+ lister's immediate reaction being to back off and recognise his being at fault and never once holding it against jimmy #like again . should not have happened do not kiss ppl without asking #but i do find myself viewing it in a very different light to the v comparable magnet situation #anygay i am rambling in tags again when i should be asleep but still #i worry that lister is now viewing himself in the same light as jimmy views the ppl that took advantage of lister #but i Also worry that he is viewing himself as Worse than those ppl bc he can't/won't accept that he was taken advantage of #i do also now kind of want to write a Lister In Therapy oneshot partly just for the catharsis of imagining that boy getting some gd therapy #iwbftreread

[autoneurotic]

not a drill i have a lil over an eighth of shrooms i am TRIPPING today

#hallucinogens my love my love my love #going to paint and have An Experience with Music #i never do shit on shrooms. like i dance around my house and listen to music for hours #which is what i do ‘sober’ so like. lol #if i lived somewhere less busy i’d take a walk #maybe i will anyway. i think it’s meant to be hot but what can u do #i’ll wear my big flowy linen skirt and my big flowy cotton shirt and it will feel like my whole body is breathing

[byanyan]

in case you were wondering (you weren't, but i'm telling you anyway), byan does get drunk and give themself really dumb little stick and poke tattoos sometimes. yes, they do have some they regret doing, but it's never stopped them from doing it again.

#for example there's an upside down 'fuck' with a smiley face next to it on the inside of one of their ankles #which they never would have done sober #something similar sure but they wouldn't have put it upside down :/ #altho i think that one's actually kind of grown on them... #like they can look at it and know the exact place they were in at the time and it's like. yeah you know what? fuck (: #...i'm derailing myself i've actually had a little too much to drink ironically ajkfhksdgs #but ye. the dangers of a self destructive feral teen who knows how to tattoo themself and loves to do it while their inhibitions are lowere #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me. #alcohol cw

[bitegore]

idk about the rest of you but i genuinely don't make decisions high that I wouldn't make sober

#half because i think about things when i do them by either a) no thought instant impulse straight to action OR b) very close overthinking #and drugs dont usually do anything besides make me do more of one or the other #i dont really Do 'back off bc nervous' *except* when under the influence tbh bc i overthink tapping the brakes #so like i'm more likely to be like 'may be i shouldn't get an impulse tattoo from this random person' while high than sober #this is a me problem #other half is just because i will commit to such dumb shit anyway and have enough wrong with me that my sober instincts and desires are #p much totally in line with my influenced ones as far as i've seen #im never sobering up like 'what was i thinking' i always know what i was thinking ans usually im like 'yeah good call' about it #being DRUNK is the only one I don't really feel that way about and is because it's bad for my mental health but like ive never really done #something while drunk i wouldn't do while sober either i just usually feel a little off kilter about it #red rambles

[rainbowcolored7]

Showing my oldish queer status here but this thought has been circulating my brain for quite some time now and I have had several drinks this evening and need to share for those who might understand or have been questioning, cause I know it's brought up a lot in fandom as a frustrating/annoying/confusing element to Kinn's character.

Kinn's style and personal decoration.

In the last couple months I did a full rewatch of Queer as Folk, and because I'm neck deep in KP at all times, I couldnt help but lightbulb relate Kinn to Brian. Especially in terms of personal style and home decor.

Brian is a gay rich bitch (both affectionate and derogatory). He likes his expensive name brand things. He's completely materialistic and not ashamed of it. He's a sex god, he's arrogant, he has a huge heart and he loves deeply despite his outward appearance of being cold and aloof.

Enter Kinn, who also embodies all of these things, and as such we can perhaps assume he is also of the same gay bitch materialistic Brian vein. He grew up in the mafia yes, but an incredibly powerful mafia, ie silver spoon et al. Brian had to work for his spoon, but he buried that behind his bravado and self-centeredness so he could appear much stronger than he really was. Sound familiar a little?

Idk where I'm really going with this except to say... Kinn Theerapanyakul 🤝🏻 Brian Kinney. These bitches would hate each other only because they're so similar, including the daddy issues. Just a couple of name brand sluts who like their boys feisty and capable of seeing through their indifferent masks.

#kinnporsche #kinnporsche the series #kinnporsche meta #but not really #kinn and brian are the same men in similar fonts #queer as folk #brian kinney #kinn theerapanyakul #if i was perhaps a bit more sober #i would have much more to say #the comparison between these two men #idk but watching brian be brian #and then watching kinn #insert it's the same picture meme #if youve never seen qaf do yourself a favor #it will absolutely help you understand kinn #i said what i said

[starshapedspider]

thinking about the mentions/scenes of memory rick in season 7 and deeply hoping we see him again

#memory rick #he is such an interesting character #he is the embodiment of everything birdperson thinks and knows about him #of course hed say “you do maybe i dont” to rick when he said “because *you* love him #birdperson doesnt reciprocate that at all #and also had no clue rick loved him in THAT way #van's shitbox #rick and morty #not so sober van's shitbox #im so in pain over memory rick and birdrick. you have no idea. #i nedd fhem #also i need to know what happrned when he helped jerry and rick c137 #what did jerry think .