#and i just did my shot the other day

[jade-of-mourning]

sorry sometimes i think about mako and my heart hurts so much. this kid raised himself and his brother on the streets in homelessness and utter poverty from eight through fifteen, promptly after seeing the violent death of his mother and father. he turned to the triple threats because they couldn't survive as a pair of wretched kids without any adult support, and the environment forced him to turn into the exact character that killed his parents in a terrible twist of irony. and after sheer-fucking-luck hits and they aren't homeless anymore, their livelihood wavers on the outcome of what's a literally game to everyone but them; and after things are finally starting to look up and their team is going places and things just might be okay, his gradually stabilizing world unceremoniously expands and everything goes to shit.

and the city that chewed him up and spat him back out, ruined him as a child and took away his ability to stay afloat in a true sense of normalcy as an adult — when it's on the verge of destruction and falling to pieces before his eyes, he gives himself to save it with the full expectation to die. he went from the kid who didn't and couldn't care about anything outside of himself and his brother, to finding redemption for his younger self in his police work despite its injustice against him, to willingly sacrificing himself to a world that had never loved him.

he's a desperate people pleaser, socially and emotionally stunted for the adult he had to be as a kid, unable to navigate interpersonal relationships easily yet still trying his damned hardest. he's intensely and entirely devoted to the things that matter to him and for so long it was only him, bolin, and ensuring their survival — yet by the end, that devotion has expanded to protecting the rest of the world. he starts out entirely self-reliant and ends in trusting the people he cares about to know their own needs, to be able to take care of themselves, to be okay without him despite having spent so much of his life defined by his role in others' well-being.

just. what the fuck i'm such a big fan of this fictional guy and i'm unashamed about it at this point. also let him cry please (if you won't i'll do it i'll let him cry)

#lychee's brain trash #mako lok #mako tlok #sorry for the shitpost i don't do a lot of those i realize #how tf did this guy not had a massive break down in canon at any point #nd like;; he never shows resentment for the unfairness of it all #he doesn't ever use his past to excuse any of his choices/actions that are influenced by it #which is pretty intrinsically linked to his relationship fumbles #he just quietly holds himself accountable and probably mildly despises himself haha #as much as i don't care for the love triangle it really does make complete sense in accordance to his backstory #anyway this is just a roundabout way of me expressing my salt at people writing him off as a malicious asshole lol #i literally cannot articulate the intense complex things his conjured up existence makes me feel #this does not even scratch the surface there is SO MUCH #i need to actually write the fifty fics that exist to my brain otherwise all these thoughts will never see the sun #trust that one day the avatar!mako au will emerge from my drafts;;; #and. you know. that one shot i've had in wip for the past 2.5 years #and the four other oneshots that will probably never be converted into actual words

[yilinglaozu]

sunshot campaign ep. 22 // bloodbath of nightless city ep. 33

#mxtxnet #mdzsnet #theuntameddaily #theuntamededit #asiandramanet #dailyasiandramas #asiancentral #wei wuxian #the untamed #chineseartistsinc #cdrama #xiao zhan #cql #cqledit #mdzs #edit #i really love these parallel shots cause it really drives home how much the cultivation world turned on him in the meantime #ignore the colouring like i did this was just a byproduct of my set from the other day but i like the lil jump so

[00fairylights00]

Hypersomnolence

Haha funny story, I was diagnosed with a sleep disorder in November after struggling with it unknowingly for give or take 18 months. Turns out I’m not crazy and falling asleep against your will multiple times a day is actually not a good or normal thing.

So permit me to write the puppet like a sap as I need this right now lol. Yes these are in fact all things I experienced but I am medicated for them now hooray!

One task, that was all you’d managed to get through today. You felt sick and heavy, opting to sit on the cold ground before your body made you, it was a battle to stay awake as sleep attacked you again.

It was only early afternoon and you’d struggled through your one task of sweeping, you were certain everyone at the hotel thought you to be lazy, even if they’d all told you otherwise.

You’d been sick like this for a long time, long before the petrification disease or the puppet frenzy, both events having a negative effect on the way you’d usually manage your symptoms. 

And while you appreciated the sanctity you’d been spared at Hotel Krat, the nagging feeling of needing to repay Lady Antonia for her kindness was not helping your case.

You sat with your head in your hands, slipping in and out of consciousness, losing the battle again. Usually, Polendina would find you, send you to your room to rest and that would be it for the day, once you were in bed you found it hard to do much of anything else. Which you supposed was good for your body but it made your emotional well-being an absolute wreck.

Lady Antonia had asked you time and time again to be kinder to yourself, to feel accomplished of the things you could do and that you were welcome here no matter how sick you were, and she would know a thing or two about being sick.

But, you had a bad habit of being nasty to yourself, and with your sleep-related illness only seeming to get worse you couldn’t remember the last time you’d spoken kindly to yourself.

You felt like shit.

A hand at your shoulder, delicate and tender shook you but it didn’t do much to rouse you. Your vision swam uncomfortably through the gaps in your fingers, your head being too heavy to lift up. Hands grasped your wrists, pulling gently to reveal your face that was then taken into those same hands, one soft and warm, the other firm and cold.

With the weight of your head now being supported by P’s hands you could somewhat force yourself to look at him. His expression was unreadable, as always, but his presence was a balm to your spiralling thoughts.

The friendship of Geppetto’s Puppet had been good for you, P didn’t care how tired you were he was just happy to see you, he didn’t expect anything but your presence and that was something you could give freely, tired or not.

He tilted his head in question to what you assumed to be your position on the floor, slumped over rather uncomfortably.

“It just came on, I had to sit down,” you mumbled, he seemed to frown, getting down on one knee and shifting you against him to pick you up.

With you cradled to his chest, he ascended the stairs. You burrowed down against his chest, relishing in how nice it was to be looked after. 

It was almost like the trip up to your room didn’t happen, one moment you were snug to P’s chest, the next you were under your sheets and propped up against the headboard. P took it upon himself to remove his shoes and coat and sit on the opposite side of the bed to keep you company.

“Sleepy?” P asked innocently, you nodded trying desperately to suppress another yawn. 

“I-“ he started, a thoughtful look crossing his face, “-want to help. How do I help?”

He gently took your hand in his own, his thumb rubbing over your knuckles. The astounding amount of care he treated you with was sure to tear you apart in the best ways, making your exhausted mind spin.

“Just stay here with me for a bit,” You laid your head on his shoulder, “I think that’ll help.”

“Okay.”

He mimicked you, resting his head on top of yours, pulling the sheets further up your lap. Doing what he could to keep you comfortable, a concept he was still trying to grasp.

“Thank you P,” you mumbled, snuggling closer, “love you.”

He pressed a gentle kiss to your head, nose buried in your hair, “I love you too.”

#I wrote this for me and it was going to stay in my drafts but the other shots I've been working on aren't done yet and I am itching to post #yes this is how most of my days went unmedicated it was hell on earth #started playing lies of p just before I got the diagnosis and started on treatment actually #the boy makes me very very happy #this could probably be read platonically but I did not write it with that intention #hence the lil kiss at the end #but close friends kiss each other on the forehead sometimes #will be crossposted elsewhere later #cause i need to go to bed right this second #lies of p x reader #p x reader #pinocchio x reader #lies of p #god i have missed writing my silly little fanfics #self indulgent to the nth degree #dec 2023 #🦋 let your conscience be your guide

[piningprecussionist]

Oh! Fucking. Duh. Obvious Roxie post I can make today: here's an emote I made for the sp:te server! (With variants of different degrees of completion...)

I was gonna go back and shade the comic colors Roxie but. Just ended up going w the colors picked off the screenshot. This screenshot, specifically!

#mind the quality i ripped it from Somewhere but i dont remember where #i still havent gone and continued my Unhinged Screenshot Taking yet. but oh buddy when I do.... #spto #sp comic #spvtw #fanart #art #roxie richter #emotes #discord emotes #blue sparks one there was just testing where i wanted to put some before i decided Overkill was The Way #like w the other ones. please do reblog this if you decide to use them in a server somewhere! i would like to know if they end up other + #+places #ooc #spto fanart #scott pilgrim fanart #spvtw fanart #spto roxie #scott pilgrim roxie #spvtw roxie #roxanne richter #roxy richter #actually. best day for it really. if anyone has any roxie screenshots or panels they want emotes from I'd generally consider them to begin + #+with but For Sure today. (generally if anyone wants a given shot/panel as an emote im happy to at least Try. i just need specifics) #(so far kim ones are my only Successful emote attempts Without panel/shot basis. i do need to try a ramona that was requested again...) #uhhh just to be safe i guess #potential eyestrain #i did try a version w the sparks more like they are in the show but it Didn't Look Good #feel free to try your own hand at it if you want #this post is scheduled btw :3c im still trying to work on another roxie piece... panel redraw....

[crusheswhimsandfancies]

#oh nothing #just an extremely sexy snake hipped man eating cereal #i’m fine #I know he’s fucking sexy #but I was not expecting this shot #the belt #the legs for days #the haaaaaair #i want to run my fingers through his hair #ughhhhhh #god help me #what we did on our holiday #notching up my viewing of DT with his own accent #and it is feeding and watering me and my crops are bountiful #sexy scottish serpent #other than the doctor my fave it when he gets to use his own accent #dt being scottish #it just does things to me #I just love a regional accent #his voice is so delightful #I’m a sucker for an accent with a hard ‘r’ #also #he kinda reminds me of jarvis #here in particular #the tallness #and the tightness of his clothes #but look how sluttily he’s standing #he can’t help himself #natural flirt #david tennant

[robo-dino-puppy]

horizontober 2023 | 31: future

#horizontober2023 #horizon forbidden west #hfw #aloy #beta #GAIA #sobeck sisters #the sobecks are the future of horizon's world and there's no getting around that #i'm excited to see beta in the next game and how she grows #and i'm very happy that aloy has family now - not just beta‚ but everyone else as well #i couldn't photomode my initial reaction to this prompt (i mean i probably could have but it would have been just a bunch of cutscene shots #and that didn't feel very creative to me) #so this is what i came up with #actually the second shot i already had and wanted to use and it's just a cutscene shot *anyway* lol #but i did my real work on the first one #i hate dealing with the base lighting #it can be great in some places and awful in others - like where beta stands D: #oops this is day 31 not 30 lmao

[seamsseap]

i have to say, playing as a medic, some of the funniest interactions ive had are with soldiers and spies

#the other day i caught a glimpse of an enemy spy and was immediately gearing up to clock them with a crossbow shot #and they just. uncloaked. said thank you. and did their gay little walk away. didnt even go for me even though i was alone. #i think i accidentally healed them a bit? #for some reason that interaction knocked me on my ass for a solid 5 seconds.

[letmetellyouaboutmyfeels]

Having now watched Bridgerton after resisting for years, all I can say is, if Anthony was my sibling and pulled that season two mess after all the trouble he caused me in my love life in season one...

*hands Daphne a knife and gets the hell out of her way*

#personal #I love when my men are messy and pathetic disasters #so it's not that I dislike Anthony at all #he's a sopping wet alley cat you find in the dumpster and I love it #but literally dude the fact that Daphne did not grab the nearest sharp object and stab you... #when he's like man I wish your husband was here to keep you in line BRO #you would have had to HOLD ME BACK #YOU DRAGGED MY HUSBAND'S ASS INTO A DUEL AND THEN NEARLY SHOT ME!!!! #IT'S YOUR FAULT I HAD TO FAKE DATE THE GUY IN THE FIRST PLACE!!! #I'M ABOUT TO FIRE SOME WARNING SHOTS AT *YOUR* HEAD #my siblings know better than to pull that nonsense they know they wouldn't live to see the sunrise #I'm sorry it's been DAYS I just cannot get over this #Lady Bridgerton's like yeah so sad Daphne had to leave because her kid had a cough DON'T LIE VIOLET #SHE LEFT BECAUSE THE OTHER OPTION WAS MURDER!!! #we all know how they got their second kid in Queen Charlotte #Daphne was like either I get a bunch of orgasms or I kill my brother #'aww you guys are pregnant again!' 'yeah it was sex marathon or fratricide' 'what?' 'don't worry about it' #Anthony if you think Simon 'I Fell In Love With Daphne Because of Her Scheming' Bassett #would do anything other than get the hell out of her way #you are SORELY mistaken #anyway don't ask me my overall opinions about the show or we'll be here all day but that one bit is just. haunting me. as a sibling.

[akkivee]

nobody asked but these are probably my favourite live looks hayama-san gave us lol

#vee queued to fill the void #FOLLOWED VERY VERY V E R Y CLOSELY BY HIS 7TH LIVE DAY ONE LOOK (MAX CUTE AND I WISH HIS SUKAJAN SHIRT WAS ON SALE TO THIS DAY) #AND HIS 8TH LIVE DAY 2 LOOK (BIASED BUT ALSO HE LOOKS GOOD IN GOLD AND HE WAS IN A SKIRT THAT HAD THIS RLY CUTE BELT BUCKLE ON HIS HIP) #are they in order?????? idk lol but maybe #my hayama brainrot has been on 💯 lately as we get closer to the next hangout stream and his return to it lol #it’s!!!!!!!!!!!!! been too long since i’ve seen his face in content i haven’t been looping for ages lmao #(what????? i got three new videos with him in it in the past two weeks and a very entertaining radio ft sakakihara-san???? idkwym lol 😌😌😌) #abema removed their bonus 6th live content effectively making it lost media i think and i’ve really depressed about it #it was so charming to listen to hayama-san’s voice just perpetually stuck on his kuukou baritone #since that was the first time he’d performed as kuukou for as long as he did and as intensely too (bat’s first kaigen 🥹🥹🥹) #like even takeuchi-san’s voice was going out towards the end of their interviews that’s how hard they went on that live #and sakakihara-san’s post live excitement for kaigen the way he happy clapped getting to talk about kaigen ABEMA I RLY DO HATE THIS #so i’m trying to make myself feel better by tag rambling about them lol #anyway that haircut for the 6th live was so inspired i miss his long hair era everyday and 💜💜💜 to the first time he wowed the entire world #(if you feel there’s some type of energy going into the 5th live shot i posted instead a more uniform shot with the others eh heh⭐️)

[coquelicoq]

rip to hiiragi in the moon-splitting festival arc though. first she paints a protection charm on natsume's arm, standard stuff, but even though right before this he was in a huge hurry to get back to everyone else to make sure they're safe, he's like okay now let's do you. and takes the brush and paints the same charm on her arm. uhhhh. okay. this is fine. okay. then minutes later he throws himself in front of her to protect her from a ton of falling logs with his fragile human body. like not only is he actively making it harder for her to do her job, which is to protect him, by doing stupid heroic shit that puts him in danger, but he's doing said heroic shit to protect HER? like he thinks she's a PERSON??? the fuck is she supposed to do with this shit!

#i wrote some run-on tags the other day about how my favorite storytelling device in natsuyuu is the sensei reaction shots #and one of the things i ran out of room to say is that my SECOND favorite storytelling device in natsuyuu #is the hiiragi reaction shots #because a) it makes total sense that we would want to see her reaction to natsume treating her like a person but b) #SHE ALWAYS LOOKS THE SAME. SHE'S WEARING A MASK THAT COVERS HER ENTIRE FACE. #which means that we just have to infer her reaction. which is such a funny function for a reaction shot to serve! #'hey btw this character is having feelings. not telling you which ones.' #and FURTHERMORE c) not only does her facial expression never differ but said facial expression is one of a vacant-eyed smile #which in turn means that the reaction her mask makes it look like she's having is basically 'um. what. ha ha. the fuck?' #which! i think often is what her reaction actually is! so it circles back around to being accurate! hello!!! #absolutely genius character design. i am obsessed. #natsume's book of friends #natsume yuujinchou #hiiragi #my posts #f #i'm rewatching all the natori episodes because i love him but it's just reminding me how much i love hiiragi and sensei also 😩 #i have other stuff i should be doing today BUT i did successfully get a fill for another themed xword so i'm giving myself a lil break #UGH natsume comes to at the end of the episode with natori's jacket draped over him and sensei lying on natsume's stomach #on top of the jacket... #these characters will be the death of me is2g

[non0zec-art]

it's febuairy (so, this is a part of my experimentation with doing digital again! this one is with hyperpop type coloring! i used this video for reference on how to go about it.)

#art #artists on tumblr #hfjone #airy hfjone #eyestrain #going to aim for doing 10-14 days if i can with this kind of concept? gonna give myself a bit of a challenge :) #just a bunch of different ways of drawing to see what works for me #and my commenting on the drawing process: #this one was fun to do! #i actually did this one before the last one. which explains the style of the last post a bit! #i was going to just wing it with the coloring but decided that it would be worth a shot to see how others do this type of coloring #and the video creator's tip on checking the greyscale value of the colors helped a lot!

[lopsidedtreetrunks]

I edited France’s character in my Ghostalia au!

To kind of call back to aph episode 10 - I was thinking that Amelia kinda looks like some historical depictions of Jeanne d’Arc and how perfect it was that I already had Francis in Thomas’s role! That said, I have Notes:

Francis was a scribe in life. He worked for the French Crown and was assigned to document Jeanne d’Arc’s life and battles. He grew close to her and was present at her trial and execution. He died some years later, in the early 1500′s, while visiting England with his then current assignment. He was killed by his assignment’s sword after discovering he was an English sympathiser and was disavowing Jeanne’s name and efforts for the French kingdom. Francis died defending someone he loved and now Amelia has arrived at the Kirkland estate and she just looks so similar.

I’m not sure if Francis would have had romantic feelings for Jeanne but being dead for more than 500 years then suddenly seeing someone who is practically identical to someone you were so close with in life will make feelings confusing...

#i think i accidentally made an even more tragic character than thomas himself oops #ghostalia au #bbc ghosts #aph france #hws france #nyo america #aph america #hws america #also in case it wasnt glaringly obvious the bottom images are taken from screengrabs of ghosts ep 1 #I did find it kinda funny how it just so happened that it was pat and robin in that shot since i have spain and prussia in their roles #so we have a cameo of the btt 😆 #anyways i actually put some effort into this one so i hope people will like it 😭 #ALSO and this will be in a later post idk when maybe tomorrow maybe the day after i dont wanna promise anything #but i swapped germany and england around #so now germany is in caps role and we'll have nyo england as fanny #I think it makes waaaaaay more sense idk why i had it the other way around in the first place #my art #artists on tumblr #just realising now that I forgot to add a fucking chair to that doodle to the left of the screengrab drawings 😭😭😭 #let's just pretend hes on a stool lmao

[altruistic-meme]

i want to get started on the Full Hands List but i am waiting on my apartment people for scheduled maintenance and i don't really want to start until they leave but i also have no idea what time they'll make it to my apartment so we're just playing the waiting game now

#at my old apartment i was one of the first to get the maintenance bc my apartment number was just higher on the list #so it was usually around 10-11am #but im much further down now and idk how long it'll take #this isn't my FIRST TIME having the preventative maintenance in this apartment but the last times i just went to bed and got woken up #when they knocked #bc i was still on nights and i had no idea how long it'd be and didnt want to stay awake #and i did NOT check the time when they finally arrived #i just let them in and waited until they left so i could go back to sleep lmao #so #we'll see ig #I'm also splitting this into 3 days instead of don't all 3 seasons at once ill do a season a day #largely bc of time in general and how it's like. 12 hours of show. #and im be starting late today bc of *gestures at post* #but also it's going to be LONGER cus i have to pause every time hands shown up so i can note the timestamp #which ofc makes the whole process much. MUCH longer as seen with s3's preliminary run lmao #ough #I'm talking so much jdfjjsjd #also just my attebtion span is NOT great and i need to actually be WATCHING THE SCREEN THE WHOLE ENTIRE TIME #and can't be checking my phone or anything #cus ill miss shots!!!! #i missed at least 2 on my og s1+s2 list and im sure i missed others #i also have to decide how to count the montages #cus there'll be like 2 shots of hands immediately one after the other in the montages #sigh #......... I'll probably count them separately. just for accurate numbers. #which ofc means that ALL of my bonus aren't QUITE right rn cuts ik i lumped montages together #lmao #oh this will be so much fun #shh ac #young royals

[mainfaggot]

I was so anxious today even tho i was on top of my self care slash mental well being basics check-list... I suspect it was the caffeine on top of already worsening anxious Symptoms

#it was def that combo bc i did everything else right #i was weirdly calm for the first 15 mins of my commute this morning and then it was all downhill from there fr #i got so self conscious and anxious after that and then in class i stuttered twice and seemed so unsure of myself even though i was #otherwise communicating quite coherently and fluidly #and then after class at the coffee shop where i attended my online lecture i was so on edge #i think the matcha latte just added onto the shot of espresso for the worse #which is strange because thats really not a lot of caffeine? i literally had two shots of espresso the other day and got really hyper but i #didnt want to die about it or cry about it #so yeah ^_^ its probs bc the past two days have been rough so it snowballed #also i had a weird moment on my commute home #i was so nostalgic bc it was all warm and rainy and the sky was a warm grey #but then i was so melancholy i wanted to cry #and i swear in that moment i felt like something earth shattering was happening to me because i was so refreshed by the memories of a past #self but it all felt so strangely tragic. i didn't just feel happy. i felt happy and then distraught #and i probably looked like a fool because i cant control my facial expressions as well as i used to be able to #i feel like im being dramatic again but 乁⁠(⁠ ⁠•⁠_⁠•⁠ ⁠)⁠ㄏ i have the mind of a poet or whatever the hell they say #i dont think they say that #z.post

[the-trans-dragon]

I need a doctor who has the patience, experience, humor, and directness to listen to whatever new treatment ideas I've concocted, and then either say "Alex, that's a stupid fucking idea, let me explain why," or "The risks are acceptable in my professional opinion. Let's go over pros and cons and then you can think about it and decide what to do."

I just think it would be fun. For me. And I wish I could find a doctor who would also find that fun. I already came up with one fun Treatment for an Illness and have been successfully using it to treat The Illness for almost a YEAR, and all the side effects are awesome so like...I am certainly full of hubris at this point.

#i dont wanna say what i take or what im treating bc its like...well...zero doctors recommended it lol. and two doctors said “that might work #but uhhhhh i dont think im the right doctor for that.“ wait. three doctors said that. but i asked the third doctor ”pwease. youre the third #doctor to tell me to go to a different doctor. i need help.“ (i was fucking desperate. i was missing so many days of work that i basically #lost an entire paycheck's worth of money in two months and like. i had also SPENT that much on the doctors who inevitably ran out of their #own ideas and then recommended i go elsewwhwre to try my idea WHICH IS FAIR but also all 3 doctors did agree it was worth a shot so like.... #i kinda needed ONE of them to actually. try it. it just took 6 months for the first one to run out of ideas and then another two or three #months to get in to see my genderal physician and then see a doctor he recommended who then recommended i go elsewhere and thats the doctor #who i was like “youre the third doctor to say that...i dont know who else to try.” goodness im glad she helped. my medicine is like $15 a #month (it was $10 when i had insurance) and i am in love with every single “side effect” and!!!! yea it has given me a large sum of hubris. #anyways.) i wanna do that again but with my other Significantly Disabling Illness. like why not lol. im already on 3 medicines that are #recommended to *not* take together (none of which are the medicine i chose to take aldjskds) so like.............seems like we #are at a “just try shit out and see what happens” stage. doctors should send me resumes and ill pick the one that looks most fun and then #we will do fun science together on my nerves system :) itll be fine lol. am i serious or kidding? i have no idea. #sorenhoots

[dandyshucks]

i think a big plus of having Guz be so tall and just in general bigger than me is that I could sit in front of him with my back to his chest and have his arms wrapped around me and he could just hide me away from the world for a little while. he is my own personal brick wall fsdjkl a weighted blanket perhaps too,,

#so much softer than a brick wall ofc dsfkl but . just saying ''wall'' doesnt conjure up the mental image as well as ''brick wall'' #my nervous system is absolutely shot fdsjkl i opened my other main account to check in with a couple ppl and got so nauseous and dizzy ;-; #idk what is wrong w meeee (well no i do sort of know but fjsdkl i dont know how to fix That so im pretending thats not the issue) #i was doing so well for a couple weeks too wtf 😭😭 #thank god i have a counseling appt on monday dsjkl i think i very much need it #so many difficult things happened today now that i think about it fjksl i did Nawt have a rest day fdsjkl #i think ... tonight i will shut everything out and just draw or write or smth #just completely wrap myself up in creating stuff for a couple hours at least #i would like One hug from my man and perhaps ten minutes of deep pressure FDSJKL or just. feeling safe for a bit. agh. i've said too much #OVERWHELMED. THATS WHAT IM FEELING. AUGH. finally placed the feeling im having HFDSJKL #theres so many strings in my life and i have dropped quite a few over the holidays and i dont think i can pick them back up #like. idk how i ever held all of them wtf jfsdkl how was i doing that !!! theres so many goddamn strings to hold !! #vent // #dandy.cmd