#and i like the cycle

[bananonbinary]

also worth noting that "abusive" doesn't actually mean "irredeemable" either.

there's a lot of people that have done things in the past that were bad, because they weren't taught any better, or they were in an overall toxic situation where EVERYONE was shitty (like a cult), or they were just at an especially low point and hurt others for it.

you don't have to forgive them. you don't have to ever speak to them again. you can be angry with them until you die if you want.

but society cannot function if we don't allow them to move on. to change their behavior and fuck off somewhere else and build meaningful relationships without bothering you again. we need a path for people to change, or nothing ever will.

#like re: the last post #npd SHOULDNT mean 'youre an abusive person' #but also people who have abused people in the past can still become better people in the present #you know? #and as i metioned vaguely in that post. the way we currently treat people with NPD probably CAUSES THEM to lash out at and abuse others #if u abuse someone they lash back out at you and suddenly theres fun mutual abuse happening #so they need a way out of that cycle

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:

There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’

like wow babe. good fucking point

#like you were on the ground biting the carpet and dry sobbing while you wrote that and still. good fucking point #not a shitpost #cptsd #and it's true. there's never a satisfying answer #the truth is i know why i wasn't loved #i analyzed my parent's traumas and abuse to death. i understand why i alienated and was alienated from my siblings #i know why my mom was too overwhelmed to be capable of nurturing #i know why my dad vanished into addiction and avoidance #the details of our cycles of trauma and cptsd and family history i have a phd in all of it #i understood perfectly. i spent years studying and now i knew the answer #and guess what? IT WAS NOT SATISFYING!!! #because they still didn't love me! and i still couldn't change that! #it was still a completely unsatisfying state of affairs! #so like. when the people who are supposed to love you...don't. #when the people who are supposed to take care of you...fail to #you can look for answers and reasons and explanations #but that's not actually going to FIX your situation. #and it's probably not within your ability TO fix the situation. (and definitely not your job) #because you don't need answers--you need a new situation #*inserts Just Walk Out. You Can Leave!!! (Running Skeleton) Meme* #and yes. walking out isn't always possible. #but for you i hope it will be one day soon. and i hope you build the courage to take that leap. #stepping away from the people who failed to love you...it feels like being untethered but also like being lighter than air #new and scary. immensely relieving. the future opens up. empty but empty like a canvas. blindingly bright until your eyes adjust #like climbing out of a pit you called home and for the first time realizing how bright the light of day can truly be #when you aren't just getting glimpses from the bottom of a hole

[dykenav]

watching mstief’s writing the raven cycle webinar and I just want everyone to know that she just explicitly stated that adam was supposed to go full villain in her first draft but changed her mind bc “the worst thing that could happen is they stop being friends”

#I know ppl have said this before but like. hearing it from her. waow #villain adam…. you are so real to me #trc #the raven cycle #maggie stiefvater #adam parrish #trc webinar liveblog

[bumpereatspants]

at some point in life you realize the best way to solve a love triangle is to make them polyamorous and you never look back

#kandreil #yoohankim #karlnapity #aftg #orv #I cant think of more rn but #like theres so many examples #the witcher #the raven cycle #bllk #blue lock #anyways #kevandreil #royjamiekeeley #operation true love #senpai is an otokonoko #senpai wa otokonoko #txt

[proxycrit]

Me thinking about honses.

(Are they gods? Or unfortunate magical experimentations? When did the world blink, and they’ve grown— but not old, nor wise?

At least they’re sisters, and they have each other.

At least.

At least.)

Anyways here’s my doodles for a possible luna and celestia! They’re ancient alicorns, ascended during a great war that would later shape equestria as a primarily pony continent. (The modern alicorns are made with love. The ancient alicorns are made with desperation. Nightmare Moon and Daybreaker are not accidents.)

#mlp #mlp redesign #critdraws #hey remember when I said I’m not a mlp artist #IM STILL NOT. #BUT LIKE #FUNNY HORSE SISTERS CAUGHT UP IN THE CYCLE OF VIOLENCE AND NEEDING MORTAL INTERVENTION TO BREAK FREE…. #celestia mlp #luna mlp #nightmare moon #mlp luna #mlp celestia #alicorn #alicorn redesign #mlp world building #luna #celestia #myart #mlp gen 4 #character sheet #art #MY SHORT CELESTIA PROPOGANDA COMES FORTH #Rest your Weary Hooves in our New Found Home

[lucksea]

just had to resurrect my cat for a second time the friskies temptations were too strong

#null havoc damage #cult of the lamb #he didnt even get put in 3 more rituals. i fought him once and was like ok that takes a while ill just cycle the others #WHY ARE *YOU* MAD AT ME. AGAIN. I HAVE NOT DONE THINGS TO YOU THIS TIME #my comrade in death. you are the one who walked to the bar. not even my fault

[archivebottles]

Happy birthday to the most special girl in the universe!! Wanted to try something ambitious and ended up with the biggest comic I've done to date

#signalis #ariane yeong #elster #overestimating elsters ability to paint so ignore how it looks probably way better than she could have done ok? #myart #i have nothing cool to say here i am so tired. i baked a cake from scratch lol and that took so much out of me... #im old.. #im like cycling(hah) thru three diff elster designs bear with me here #elster seems like the type of person to be really good at gifts..kinda feel like u gotta be when ur on the same ship for um like. 15 years

[biruesque]

Miss Utena, don't you know how much I've always despised you?

Inspo

#revolutionary girl utena #rgu #shoujo kakumei utena #sku #tenjou utena #utena tenjou #utena #himemiya anthy #anthy himemiya #anthy #utenthy #utenanthy #utena x anthy #biruesque art #these two scenes are my favorite from the anime #yes i like pain can u tell #listen i think anthy did believe that her dying would have reset the cycle or something #a way for her to save utena from her fate #it happening right after cantarella has done so much damage to my brain

[craycraybluejay]

I also heavily resent the ever-present implication in mainstream media that at all touches on trauma that we cannot have any sympathy for Bad Victims. That it's evil to write a sympathetic Bad Victim. Hell, that it's bad to portray one at all at times. Writing a victim of trauma who's an addict or self-destructive is already an edge case-- writing trauma survivors who end up actually hurting someone else, being chronically "treatment"-resistant or having inconvenient ptsd, perpetuate the cycle, or are just kind of a total dick is considered an evil move. Instead of like. An actually complex and interesting artistic choice.

Idk. It pisses me off a lot how often Bad Victims[TM] are brushed under the rug and if you dare to speak of them/make art of them, let alone SYMPATHIZE with them you're an irredeemable monster. And that's just fictional characters. Don't even get me started on the way people treat actual people who have ptsd in a way that's at all inconvenient and problematic in their opinion.

#bad victims #trauma #purity culture #cultural christianity #cycle of abuse #the invisible victims #trauma survivor #ptsd #purity wank #freedom of expression #dark topics #media criticism #trauma in media #please can i get one traumatized blorbo that isnt purity poisoned #like you're not writing a moral guidebook for small children. you're allowed to write anything at all forever

[conceiteddemon]

Been playing Tears of the Kingdom

#the legend of zelda #tears of the kingdom #zelda breath of the wild #imagine being locked into an eternal cycle with your soulmates who are basically Jesus and the Devil #and the only other person who understands being displaced in time is that lady who did it to herself so she could launch you into the sky #and build iPads and blow stuff up #I know link & Zelda and ganondorf aren’t like Immortal immortal they reincarnate #but like apparently Zelda was fighting off calamity Ganon for 100 years while Link took a nap and didn’t age a day so #I choose to believe these bitches are immortal

[drrba]

ALMOST TIME

#legend of zelda #link #loz #botw #breath of the wild #i played botw like a month ago and IM SO HYPED FOR TOTK!!!! #if someone already made this reference im sorry #botw dlc was pretty cool and i am a big fan of the divine beast motorcycle #master cycle zero #art

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

HAPPY APRIL 1st, i wrote a fic about the suez canal fiasco bc it's still the funniest thing that's ever happened. synopsis is "grumpy gods from different mythologies argue over whose job it is to unstick the goddamn boat"

#you cannot. you cannot imagine. your imagination cannot ENCAPSULATE #the immense BREADTH of my disappointment when the Ever Given got unstuck on March 29th #just DAYS SHORT OF APRIL FOOL'S DAY #can you imagine. can you flipping. ENVISION. what that human experience would have been like? #to wake up April 1st and see the entire news cycle saying the boat has been unstuck and having to fact check the hell out of it??? #and spending ALL DAY WONDERING????? #because you THINK you know. you're almost CERTAIN you know......but WHAT IF????????? #that's the timeline i belonged in i was ROBBED

[cowboygenes]

The Life Cycle of A Star

#my art #digital art #procreate #bg3 #gale dekarios #astarion #astarion ancunin #gale of waterdeep #bloodweave #galestarion #comic #I am hoping and praying that this makes sense to everyone else #I’m basically just relating Gale to the life cycle of a star #like from baby gale to now gale #and Astarion is just happy he ain’t dead and exploded #okay bye now #PLEASE DONT SCHOOL ME ON STARS BTW I DID LIKE #30 MIN OF RESEARCH OKAY #MOST OF THIS IS FROM MY MIDDLE SCHOOL BRAIN SPEAKING TO ME #but tell me fun star facts and I’ll go :) !

[meagancandraw]

You ever think about how neither of them got to say goodbye?

#TSAMS #Sun and Moon Show #The Sun and Moon Show #TSAMS Lunar #SAMS Lunar #Sun #SAMS Sun #FNAF Sun #FNAF #Five Nights At Freddy's #MeaganCanDraw #I love New Moon a lot don't get me wrong but Old Moon's and Sun's relationship wasn't black and white (as much as NM wants to insist it was #YES Old Moon treated Sun horribly YES he wasn't the best person but #their relationship was also complicated and messy and they both genuinely loved each other despite everything #So much of what they did was for each other and that adds even more to the tragedy of their relationship and Moon's death #Sun and Old Moon's final conversation was them fighting #Moon's final in-person words to him were “I love you and I'm sorry” #to which Sun didn't say anything bc he was mad at him (which I don't blame him for given everything that happened in that episode) #Do you think Sun has realized this? How often does he go back to that moment #How often has he imagined himself saying or doing something different? Something that would've resulted in them leaving that bunker togethe #Meanwhile Lunar lost the person who gave him a new life and a family that actually cares about him #And he was in Moon's head for months and saw first hand how much his regrets and trauma affected him #Both of which would eventually destroy him due to the cycle of self-loathing he was trapped in #How much does HE think about that? #Anyway sorry for not posting for nearly (checks watch) two years?? #It'll likely happen again #1k

[brookheimer]

shiv was not being altruistic nor intellectually self-interested when she voted against kendall. that was pure raw visceral desperation to maintain some semblance of dignity that she felt kendall being ceo would shred her of. sometimes people do not act in other people’s best interests or their own best interests. sometimes people do the wrong thing for the wrong reasons just because it feels like the right, the only, thing to do. shiv could not let kendall be ceo. she just couldn’t. not because she wanted to sacrifice herself to “stop the cycle,” not because she made a calculation and decided tom was her best interest — because the thought of kendall being ceo and acting like That the rest of their lives when shiv earned that job, she fucking earned it, that was too much to fucking bear. watching him sit in dad’s chair, conduct that vote, grin with entitlement and cockiness and certainty — seeing that elicited a visceral painful all-consuming sensation not dissimilar to overwhelming nausea that, summed up in two words, would simply be: fuck. no. she couldn’t live with that. she just couldn’t. it’s not kind. it’s not smart. it’s just human. painfully, destructively human. because sometimes, that’s all there is to it. not just for shiv, but for everyone. god knows roman and kendall have had those same feelings, made those same self-destructing yet necessary-feeling decisions throughout the show. why does it have to be different for shiv? why can’t she be painfully destructively human, prone to impulsive ill-conceived viscerally felt actions, like everyone else? why are we incapable of allotting her the same nuance and humanity (the good and the bad), the same trauma-informed self-destructive life-ruining hamartias, as we do her brothers? why can’t we fit a whole woman in our heads?

#very surprised to see so many ‘shiv stopped the cycle on purpose blah blah blah’ takes like that didn’t even cross my mind as a motivation #of hers #it wasn’t calculated — i mean kendall winning would be to her benefit in terms of power and respect. that would be best for her #it wasn’t just jealousy or anything either; it wasn’t a coherent thought or plan #it was just I Can’t Fucking Do This #i can’t sit there while he smiles like that when he sits in dad’s chair and hisses that’s fucking right under his breath when someone votes #his way. not when that job was fucking MINE. it was MINE. i can’t- i can’t fucking do it #it’s about preservation of emotional dignity #it’s about self-respect #it’s ironic though because there are few things more undignified and less respected than being a quiet betrayed trophy wife to a weak ceo #husband who earned his position even less than kendall #but she’s not thinking clearly. she’s not Thinking. she just acted because there was this visceral need to act #succession #succession spoilers #shiv roy #100 #500 #casey shut the fuck up about shiv roy #1000

[withdenim]

Terrified by how this is gonna play out. Dragon/oni imagery in ninjago has famously always ended well for the characters involved.

#update to my sora design also #when are we gonna find out what arins horns are for I’m losing my mind #weird thing to put on a character design in a show like ninjago without a reason #ESPECIALLY because they’re Lloyd’s kids if you know what I mean #it’s a cycle it’s always a cycle #oni and dragon have FSM. FSM is forced to choose between them #FSM has wu and Garmadon. wu and Garmadon are oni and dragon #oni and dragon (wu and Garmadon) make Lloyd (next in line. sole heir.) choose between them #Lloyd gets two students/kids (Arin and sora) they have oni and dragon imagery #what’s going on here. what is this. it has to mean something #ninjago #dragons rising #my art #ninjago dragons rising #lego ninjago #Arin ninjago #sora ninjago #Arin dragons rising #sora dragons rising