#and i loat where i was going wuth this oops

[kawaiianimeredhead]

It feels so fucked up to go from anxiety and sprialing and idk what even else abd then it just shut off either from a sudden distraction or just time passing or whatever

Like i know I'm still not ok and clearly have something wrong going on and the issue is unresolved. But none if the emotions are there and I'm tired of it and dont even want to think or deal with it. And almost cant even access it anymore for the moment

And then of course there an embarassed or idk feeling added of "why did I just be like that" made even worse by having a witness or sorts from texts sent or whatever

And it just all combines into one really kinda fucked up feeling

#feels like im idk if broken is the right word #because like im not mentally healthy and dont even know if theres more at play than anxiety and depression #and even though i know other people feel the same or have the same kind of reactions to things #its so hard to actually know or communicate how it is on my end #and idk where im going with this point #i just feel ridiculous and still have a problem i dont know how to solve #dont mind me #tag rambles #i really dont even know how to bring up things with ny therapist because theres not like a lot of figuring oht goibg on if that makes aense #like things have been very now focused for most of the time and its not even a lot of figuri #f ojt things on my end so i still feel lost ln a lot of things #like i dont think its going bad and i dont thing its like 'wrong' because itll all be and has been different because everyone is different #and i loat where i was going wuth this oops #i just feel gross