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angelsdean · 9 months

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I don't get the part of fandom that highlights Dean's supposed codependancy with Sam: he lets him alone x years when Sam was at Stanford, he brings him back to Jess at the end of the Pilot, he is happy to roadtrip with and without Cas in s5 and comes back only because he worries Sam is going to accept to be Lucifer's vessel, etc, etc, etc.

(And there is also Demon!Dean who is like "Fuch responsabilities" lmao)

yea it's like. very clear textually that dean can and will give sam space to live whatever life he wants. even in 1x11 Scarecrow, sam wants to go to california to find john, dean wants to stay and solve the case, he lets sam go !! sam later calls him and dean updates him on the case the the research he's doing bc he doesn't have his nerd brother (putting himself down, self-deprecating as dean is abt his own intelligence even tho he's SO smart) and sam's like joking "oh is this you hinting you need my help" and dean's like, straight up, listen i'm not hinting anything, tells him how proud he is of sam, but i also doesn't beg him to come back, basically tells him to keep doing his own this and to "take care of yourself and call me when you find dad."

sam's often the one projecting or putting words in dean's mouth like "you can't stand being alone!!" at stuff like, not letting sam die ??? not letting your loved one die is being selfish and means you don't wanna be alone ??? in what world. most people will do whatever they can to save a loved one, esp when you're living in a literal horror fantasy show and not like, a basic family drama. and sam will say stuff like but also will do risky things to save dean. hell his plan to save dean from the mark put charlie directly in danger and lead to her death. so like sam is not one to talk abt being "selfish" to save each other. and simply wanting your brother alive is not a bad thing. nor does it mean you can't stand to have separate lives / be alone. though dean very much does not want to be alone, but. he has friends and family outside of sam. he has love interests and people he could build a life with. looking at the relationships on this show you see dean have so many closer bonds with other characters and then sam is notably lacking in comparison. rowena and eileen are the only two recurring characters (off the top of my head) that feel like sam characters. people that are there mainly due to their personal ties to sam. and yea they have lots of joint friends, like gath, jody, donna, etc but even then sometimes it feels like they're closer to dean. sam feels very lonely (and it breaks my heart really) and so a lot of the things he says abt dean and their co-dependency really feels like some projection of sam's own feelings.

anyways this got long and rambly but yea, dean tells us over and over again that he's good with letting sam do his own thing. that he's good with having space and separate lives. the main thing he wants really is just, sam alive. he wants his family and friends alive !!! because he loves them !!!

#replies #family dynamics

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apocalypseornaw · 6 months

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Nothing I Would Change

(We'll pretend this is Dean for the sake of this)

I was tagged in this post by @kayhi808 on @witchygagirl the challenge was "cursed" so I used a Buffy episode storyline

Warnings um just cursing and mentions of blood I believe

"Alex, where did you hear about this place?" You followed her into the door of a costume shop she'd dragged you, Claire, Kaia and Patience to. The only reason Jody had ok'd the trip was due to your presence. "A nurse I work with" she replied looking over her shoulder at you with a smile.

You weren't sure about the idea of a Halloween party. Garth was hosting it but the idea of multiple hunters taking a night off on possibly one of the busiest nights? Kind of rubbed you the wrong way, plus the chance of something going sideways.

You followed the girls around the store half heartedly paying attention to their choices, giving your opinion when asked. Normally you loved taking the girls out for a day but your head wasn't in it. You and Dean weren't exactly fighting but there was something not quite right.

On some level you felt like maybe it was the idea that you weren't exactly the picture of femininity. Yeah you could clean up decent if a case called for it but you preferred your flannel and jeans. You knew Dean, he wasn't a guy like that. He did not expect the whole damsel in distress, need a man to save me type of girl but the longest relationship he'd ever had was Lisa and for fucks sake the woman wore satin gowns to sleep in while you wore an old band tshirt.

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"You're being quiet. What's up?" Claire asked once they all had purchases and you were yet to even look. You shrugged "stuck in my own head I guess" Kaia smiled "Want help picking a costume?" You nodded "Sure. You girls know my sizes. Have at it" the four of them went in separate directions so you headed for the dressing rooms to wait.

Claire came back with an outfit that vaguely resembled Xena, Kaia had a dress tucked over her arm while Alex had grabbed a nurse outfit and Patience a cop outfit. You took the bundle with a slight smirk "Jesus did all of you get suggestions from Dean?" A laugh ran through them "Just try them on! We don't need to know about what you and Dean do in the dark" Claire teased so you rolled your eyes at her before heading into the dressing room.

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The Xena outfit showed too much, The nurse outfit felt more like a role play outfit and the cop one just felt weird considering your boyfriend had gotten arrested by the feds multiple times in his life. You pulled out the last outfit which was Kaias pick. It was a dress that resembled some of the costumes you'd seen on "Reign" it was gorgeous and when you slipped it on you felt like a princess.

When you opened the door all of the girls started to whistle. "That's the one!" You laughed as they made a big deal out of you "Ok, ok. I'll get it!"

"Sweetheart, we're gonna be late...." Dean trailed off when he walked into the bathroom to see Jody helping you put the final touches on your hair. "Do you like it?" You asked with a nervous smile, smoothing the front of the dress. He nodded slowly, eyes raking across your body "You're absolutely beautiful baby" Jody let out a light laugh "You two are adorable really but Dean's right, you're gonna be late"

Her and Donna had opted to hand out candy to trick or treaters so they were staying home. You shot her a smile then followed Dean out. You weren't one of those couples to do matching costumes and he'd gone with a peaky blinders inspired look and sweet lord the first time you'd seen it you had to pick your jaw up off the floor and Eileen had responded similarly to Sam's getup as well.

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Dean opened the passenger side door for you and when you raised an eyebrow he smirked "Cmon let me be a gentleman" you smiled and placed a quick kiss against his lips "Of course" then climbed in.

Once he was in the driver's seat he reached over for your hand. "You look amazing sweetheart" he spoke quietly and while you looked the attention it wasn't doing anything to subdue your worries. You smiled hoping it looked genuine as you replied "Look at yourself Winchester"

The party was going great. A lot of hunters were in attendance including hunters like Garth and the Banes twins that weren't just normal hunters. Dean watched as you danced with Max and couldn't help but smile, the last few weeks you'd seemed distant and it had worried him. What if you'd decided he wasn't what you wanted, what if you'd found someone better? He couldn't face losing you. He'd never felt about anyone the way he felt about you. He loved you in a way he'd never thought possible and hearing your laughter when Max dramatically dipped you made his heart flip.

"Careful Dean, your face may crack if you smile any harder" he heard someone tease and turned to face Makayla, one of your friends. He laughed lightly "Can't help it. I know I'm a lucky man" she smiled "I'm glad to see her happy. She deserves the best" Dean nodded, never taking his eyes off you "Yeah she does"

The British men of letters hadn't been active in a long time, not since the seige of hunters versus them. No one could have predicted them attacking at a Halloween party of all things.

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The chaos littered around the field the party had been set up in was insane even compared to shit Dean had seen. Monsters crawled in from every corner and fights were everywhere.

Garth and Bess were both teeth and claws tearing through beasts while the Banes were throwing spells left and right. Dean hadn't been worried considering you could handle yourself pretty well but when he noticed a handful of people taking on the characteristics of their costumes the mystery costume shop you and the girls had gone to popped into his head.

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Dean's face was slick with blood, none of it was his. He'd fought his way through a trio of Loup-Garous to get to you. He'd heard your scream and when he found you you'd been pinned against a tree by a vampire about to sink his teeth into your neck.

He'd never moved as fast as he did slicing the vamp's head from his shoulders. Your eyes locked with his half a second before you fainted.

Your head felt like a mixture of the first time you'd drank moonshine, mixed with your first concussion mixed with the migraine you'd had after lucifer had snapped your neck and Cas brought you back.

You opened your eyes slowly and realized you were in one of Garths guest cabins. You tried to sit up but the world shifted causing you to have no choice but to fall back against the pillows with a groan. What the hell had happened?

You looked down to see you were wearing one of Dean's shirts and a pair of his boxers instead of the dress you'd been in. The last thing you remembered was talking to Makayla.

"Dean" you called out, grimacing at how rough your voice sounded. You heard footsteps a second before the door opened to reveal Dean. He was still wearing his peaky blinders look but was coated in blood. That alone made you push through your dizziness to sit up "What happened? Are you ok?"

He quickly made it to the bed easing you back against the headboard in a seated position "British men of letters. We officially wiped out that chapter now thanks to some of Rowenas contacts" you nodded slowly "Why don't I remember?" He touched the shirt you wore "The dress? That store was a front. They placed plants in front of quite a few hunters to get as many of us as possible into cursed costumes" he took a shallow breath before you saw his face fall "I almost lost you"

He sat down next to you and pulled you into his arms. You laid your head against his chest "I'm sorry Dean. I just wanted to be soft and feminine for once" you felt him stiffen under you "Is that why you've been distant? You feel like I don't see you as feminine enough?" You wouldn't meet his eyes but nodded.

He gently grasped your arms to push you back where he could grip your chin to make you look at him "I almost lost you to a cursed costume because you think I give a shit about things like if your makeups done? I love you, I love you in my old shirt, I love you when you're filthy after a hunt, I love you when you're dressed up, I love you when you're in sweats. I don't care what thought has went through that beautiful head of yours but there isn't anything about you that I don't love and there's not a damn thing about you I would change ok?"

You nodded, feeling tears spring to your eyes "Did we lose anyone?" He shook his head "No, thankfully we didn't" he pulled you back against his chest so you let him, laying your head down to listen to his heartbeat. "Matching costumes next year?" You asked quietly and felt his chest vibrate with laughter "As long as we go somewhere like target or spirit halloween, only chain stores from here on out"

#supernatural fanfiction #dean winchester x reader #dean winchester fanfiction #dean winchester x female!reader #spn fanfiction #halloween fic

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ajvocals43 · 1 year

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Heyy, I was wonderings if your requests are open? Would you be interested in writing a Dean x Reader where Sam goes on one of his first dates with Eileen, and he's very nervous; so he asks Dean and Reader to come along with them, maybe add the sentence "It's not a double date. We're just third and fourth wheeling."

Hope you enjoy it.

Love C.

They absolutely are! (even if I only get to respond to them like once a month) I love this idea! Hope this fits that.

Not a Date

Pairing: Dean Winchester x Reader

Word Count: 2577

Warnings: poorly connected writing, slight swearing, depictions of blood and gore (if you squint)

A/n: This is sort of a Franken-fic because the beginning of this I wrote forever ago and now got to finish. I've been writing this whenever I had time over the last week so that's why it might feel disjointed but that's how things go sometimes. Also, I love this idea so much and I'm debating a part two.

“Your arm is bleeding.” Dean commented, as we left the abandoned farm in the middle of nowhere. The sun was just barely coming over the horizon, lighting up the surrounding area and revealing how bad my arm truly looked.

“Oh really? I hadn't noticed that half of my goddamned blood was flowing out of my arm, but thanks for letting me know.” We had just finished with a wendigo hunt and we were both exhausted and dirty. We were both going on 48 hours of no sleep and I didn't know about him but I was about dead on my feet. And on top of that I was bleeding. A lot. Sam was back at the bunker, panicking about his upcoming date with Eileen. The hunt was last minute and small so Dean and I figured we would handle it ourselves as long as I promised Sam we’d be back in time. It was his first real date with her and he was so nervous, it was adorable. I had helped him plan his date down to the last detail. He’d decided on a silent movie marathon at a park in the next town over (even though he’d seen like half of them already). Dean had of course laughed at his brother’s “corniness” but I had to admit that his idea was pretty cute. I had promised Sam that I would be back in time to help him set up his picnic and calm him down before Eileen got there but this hunt had taken more time than we’d expected. And now I was also beaten up and covered in blood. I hadn't gotten captured but I had gotten a pretty nasty gash in my arm from being knocked into some old equipment that I should’ve seen but hadn't.

“Damn, you’re mean when you're tired.” Dean said as we came up to the car. Rather than respond, I moved to punch him. He dogged as he always did but this time he grabbed the arm that I had extended and pulled me into him. My breath caught at the move especially since usually we tended to keep our distance. Granted, that never seemed to stop the weird charge the air had every time we were in a room together. It was some weirdly strong chemistry that we seemed to have, even though we were completely wrong for each other. He annoyed the hell out of me and I'm sure I did the same for him. Sam had tried to tell me once that it was because we were in love with each other but that was completely ridiculous. We were friends, sure, but we fought constantly. That didn't mean that I wasn't attracted to him though. I mean… how could you not be? He was gorgeous. Strong jaw, tan, freckled skin, candy apple green eyes… What was I saying? Never mind. Like I said, we are totally wrong for each other. Plus I had just gotten out of a relationship (which of course didn't work out because of my feelings for the elder Winchester). And because I didn't want to focus on my failed love life, I focused on the pain, trying to figure out where it was coming from.

Dean hooked my good arm around his neck and pulled the other up to inspect the damage that seemed to span the whole arm. But that could also be the flow of blood down my arm. The cut didn't feel that big but it was also hard to tell around the rest of the dirt and grime on me. “I'll need to clean this to get a better look at it but for now, here.” He said and started to pull his flannel off. “You need to keep pressure on it until we can get back and I can stitch you up.” I couldn't help but stare at the muscles flexing in his arms as he tied the shirt around the cut. That was until he pulled it tight so it kept pressure. I sucked in a breath and his gaze met mine as my eyes continued up his chest to his eyes. I felt my face heat as he caught me staring but I refused to admit that he got to me in any way. “How's that?” he asked softly. One of his hands dropped to the small of my back to keep me in place while his other turned mine over to check for more damage.

“Tight,” I said.

“Smartass.” He shot back smiling. It was contagious so of course I followed suit. We were closer than I could remember being in a very long time. I could feel exactly where his hand was on my back holding me to him. Like this weight that was trapping me close to him. But it made me feel safe.

Realizing that that was a little too close to something I refused to name anymore, I started to pull away. The moment I did though, his hold seemed to tighten. It sent a zing of awareness and excitement through me. I hadn't thought that was possible outside of sappy rom-coms and novels, but I felt it now with Dean. He looked like he was going to say something else but after another moment, he let go. I felt the sting of disappointment run through me but shut it down as soon as it came up. He couldn't know how I felt about him, it would ruin everything. He meant too much to me, they both did. They were all I had left. Dean and I’s relationship being ruined would mean me losing everything I knew.

So I pulled away, turning to finish unloading my weapons in the trunk. “You’re still going to need stitches when we get back to the motel.” Dean said, walking around to the driver’s side.

“Ya think?” I asked, sarcastically. His only response was to shake his head and start the car. “Just hurry up so that we can get back to Sam. I promised.”

Dean muttered something about me babying his little brother but started the drive back to the motel.

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We made it back to the bunker by late afternoon. My arm hurt like a son of a bitch and I could barely keep my eyes open but I was alive. As soon as I had walked in the door, Sam started bombarding me with questions, most of which were checking what I’d talked to him about on the phone on the way over. Dean surprised me by saving me, making Sam doubt the picnic he’d pack and letting me slip out to get a shower. I thought about it while I was washing myself off under the hot spray. Usually it was a race for who got the first shower and therefore the most hot water, but he didn't even try to fight me for it. As soon as Sam started asking me questions Dean jumped in and steered me towards the door to the hall. I couldn't figure out why since normally we’re the types to push the other in front to deal with the other person while we escape. Not while hunting of course, we cared for each other deeply, the way only those who were connected for a long time did; however, when we were at home, we tended to bicker and act like children. I was the only one who couldn't get it through their thick head that our flirting and bickering was only on a platonic level. There was nothing more to it and there never would be. There was too much at stake. I just needed to get over the stupid feelings I had for him and we could just go back to being our weird makeshift family.

Once I was clean and my muscles slightly relaxed after a hot shower, I was still exhausted but I felt more ready to take on Sam’s Anxiety. When I walked back into the kitchen Dean seemed about ready to punch his brother in the face.

“Who cares? It’s a silent movie. No one is going to be paying attention anyway. The only people that go to silent movies-”

“How's the food going Sam?” I asked loud enough (hopefully) to cover Dean’s complaining. “It looks like you have quite the spread there.”

“Yeah… I can’t seem to decide.” He looked down at all the food that was spread across the island. “I'm sorry, I don't know what’s wrong with me.”

I went up to him as I told him, “Don't apologize, Sam. It's sweet. It means you like her.”

“I just… I really want this night to go well.”

“I know.” I placed my hand on his arm (mainly because I couldn't reach his shoulder without looking awkward) to try and instill some comfort in him. “And for what it’s worth, she likes you too. Right Dean?” I called back.

��Yeah, sure.” Dean asked, but he sounded distant. I turned to look at him and saw him looking through the food in the pantry. I shook my head in bemusement (though not that I'd tell him that). “Even if you're being a major dork.”

Annnnd there it was. I rolled my eyes before I patted Sam on the arm and went to start putting the cold items back in the fridge before they spoiled.

“Y/n?” Sam called suddenly.

“Yeah?” I asked.

“I hate to ask but… there's so much pressure on this and I'd really feel better… if you came with me?” he asked. I was going to refuse but then he added the stupid puppy dog eyes and added “Dean could come too, you guys are friends, it would be like a double date. Please?”

I really wanted to say no… but instead what came out of my mouth was “Fine.” he signed with relief before I added “Youre lucky youre basically a little brother to me. AND this isn't a double date. We’re just…third and fourth wheeling. Right?” I aimed towards Dean.

“Right.” Dean immediately agreed. “Not a date. Definitely NOT a date.”

I wasn't going to comment on how my heart dropped a little at his vigorous agreement. I mean… I definitely didn't want to date him but couldn't he be at least a little upset?

I really needed a boyfriend. I had to stop focusing on Dean and every reaction I had to him. It wasn't going anywhere no matter how much I (or Sam) wanted it to. And with that, I went to find something to wear to our double date. This would be interesting.

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It wasn't interesting in the slightest. Eileen had come by the bunker and Sam was a perfect gentleman. Dean drove us to the park where even though it was getting dark out, it wasn't too chilly. We set up two different blankets, one for the couple and one for the 3rd and 4th wheels and we waited for the movies to start.

Sometime around the second movie, Dean and I fell asleep. I have no idea how long it went for or how long we were out, all I remember is waking up to Sam shoving me against my personal heater, irritating the (stitched) gash on my arm, and telling me that they were kicking us out. And then had the shit scared out of me when that heater groaned underneath me at the jostling and tightened its arms around me in an attempt to keep me close and stay asleep. In a moment we both seemed to realize where we were and jumped apart. The cold air chilled my skin and the breeze made me shiver even through my jacket. Dean caught on quickly and handed me the blanket he must have put over us at some point before moving to stand up. He held his hand out to help me up after him.

That was new.

I took it hesitantly and he helped pull me to my feet before grabbing the blanket that had been on the ground and following Sam and Eileen who were already halfway to the car by the look of it. Only when we hit the edge of the grass did I finally realize he hadn't let go of my hand. And he didn't let go until he opened the passenger side door for me and let me crawl in before closing it behind me. Where was all of this coming from?

The ride was quiet but my brain was anything but. I couldn't figure out why in the last 12 hours or so why he was suddenly being so… caring. No, that wasn't it. Dean was always caring, it was one of the many reasons I had this big fat crush on him. But today… it was different. From the shower to being my non date helping Sam, to wrapping me in a blanket, even opening the door for me. I was confused to say the least.

When we finally returned to the bunker, Sam and Eileen headed down the hall enraptured in some conversation I hadn’t followed. They were cute. I felt bad but I wished that I had that kind of easy relationship with someone. They just seemed to fit so well together and there wasn't any confusion about where they stood with the other. It all just seemed so simple.

“I can see the gears turning.” Dean called from the other side of the car as we climbed out of our respective sides. “What’s going through that pretty little head of yours?”

I tried very hard to hide the blush that I could feel at being caught, “Nothing.” Nice Y/n. “I'm good, promise-”

“Nope, don't try to hide from me.” He came around and grabbed my arm as I started walking inside, pulling me back to him. “What’s going on?”

I searched his eyes for anything that would clue me in as to what was going on. All I could find in those beautiful green eyes was concern for me, which, paired with our close proximity, wasn't helping me think straight at all.

“Tell me.” he commanded softly.

There was no way I was going to win this. I knew I would tell him, but I didn't expect what came out of my mouth to be, “Why are you like this?”

“I'm sorry…?” he chuckled slightly.

“Not like that.” I closed my eyes in exasperation with myself. “It just…today. Why were you so… sweet? I’m confused, I mean… the shirt and the shower and the blanket and even the freaking car door, I-” nothing because suddenly my lips were occupied with Dean’s. His arms wrapped around me and pulled me even closer as his lips continued to dance against mine. Damn. I’d heard them talk about it but they never even got close to actually describing how good a kisser he was. It was unlike anything I’d ever felt before and I wanted to keep kissing him forever.

He pulled away softly and my lips chased him slightly. My brain was completely mush after that and barely registered his studying my face, quietly commenting “Cute.”

“What…?” I questioned vaguely, still not fully coherent, my eyes stuck to his lips.

Said lips rose into his signature smirk before he said cheekily, “Goodnight, Sweetheart.” And with that, he reached around, smacked my ass, making me jump, and walked down the hall.

What the hell just happened?!

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lazarus-rose · 10 months

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For @dreampencil

It was two days after Jack dropped Cas back on Earth that Dean told him.

Sam had left to spend the weekend with Eileen (later, Cas found out that he had done this at Dean’s request) so it was just the two of them, the man and the angel, left in the bunker. Dean made dinner for them (his homemade burgers, because he knew how much Cas loved them) and insisted they eat in the Deancave while watching a film. Cas had been unable to really take in much of the movie because, a few minutes in, Dean put an arm around his shoulders.

Cas can still remember the way his grace had sung at the contact while his body stiffened. He had turned to look at Dean only to find the man staring resolutely at the TV, his face looking unusually pink. Cas spent the whole movie watching Dean out of the corner of his eye.

Dean didn’t look at Cas until the credits began to roll. He glanced at him, blushing even more when he saw Cas was watching him. He cleared his throat before turning the TV off and turning to face him. He twisted his hands anxiously in his lap before reaching out and taking one of Cas’ hands in his.

Electricity danced under Cas’ skin, both figuratively and literally. He was out of practice with his full power and it was taking most of his remaining concentration to keep it from bursting out of him.

He could feel Dean’s soul, pulsing through his skin, Cas’ grace wrapping around it automatically and rejoicing at the feel of it. He could feel the callouses on Dean’s hands, rough against his palms. Both his physical body and his angelic one longed for Dean.

“Cas, I…” Dean looked away, his tongue flicking out to moisten his lips. He met Cas’ eyes again before continuing, “About what you said-”

“Dean, you don’t have-”

“Just, listen for a sec, okay?” Dean said, his hands tightening around Cas’. “I need to say this.” He took a deep breath. “Me too, Cas,” he said. “I love you too.”

Time seemed to slow. Cas felt like he was stuck between one breath and the next, suspended in this impossible moment.

His grace was the first thing to respond. Cas didn’t even notice the lights in the room growing brighter or the humming sound that accompanied the increased radiance. He only had eyes for Dean, just like back in the dungeon, when he had poured his heart out for the man he had fallen for.

Dean flinched suddenly, and then the room was plunged into darkness. It took Cas a second to realise that his grace had caused the lights to explode. He felt himself blushing in embarrassment as he pulled his grace back inside him, ashamed to have lost control.

He could feel Dean staring at him, could see the gleam of his eyes in the dark. And then the man chuckled.

“That was you, right?”

“Y-you love me?” Cas couldn’t focus on anything else.

Dean grew solemn again. “Yeah, I do.” When Cas didn’t respond, Dean tried to pull his hand back, but Cas latched onto his fingers, unwilling to let him go. Dean laughed again. “Dude, just…” He pulled his hands back gently and then reached out, blind in the darkness, until his searching fingers found Cas’ cheek.

Their first kiss was just as electric as the confession it followed. Cas was sure that, if the lightbulbs in the room weren’t already gone, they would have exploded again.

As time went on and their relationship progressed, Cas’ control of his powers got somewhat better around Dean, but it still wasn’t great. Dean loved seeing Cas unintentionally unleash his powers and sometimes deliberately went out of his way to make Cas lose control.

“Dean,” the angel warned him when he felt Dean’s fingers curling through his hair. The two of them were on their bed and Cas had his head resting in Dean’s lap.

“What?” Dean said innocently.

Cas opened his eyes and looked up at Dean, trying to appear stern. “You know what.”

Dean just smiled down at him before he began running his fingers through Cas’ hair. Cas could feel his grace responding, flowing out of his body and seeking out his beloved, radiating happiness and power. He didn’t protest again, even when he felt the power grow, spreading throughout the room and seeking out other sources of energy.

Cas sighed with both pleasure and resignation as the lights around them exploded. He looked up at Dean.

“Your eyes are glowing again,” the man told him, his hand moving to frame his face.

The grace shining through Cas’ eyes was enough to illuminate Dean’s cheeky grin.

“We’re going to have to replace the lightbulbs again,” Cas reminded him.

“Worth it,” Dean said. He leaned down and brushed their lips together briefly. “You know you’re awesome, right?”

Cas smiled. “So you’ve told me.”

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deancasbigbang · 7 months

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Title: When Dreams Come True

Author: Avonlady

Artist: Dream Pencil

Rating: Explicit

Pairings: Castiel/Dean Winchester; Sam Winchester/Eileen Leahy; Apocalypse World Charlie/Stevie; Donna Hanscum/Jody Mills; Claire Novak/ Kaia Nieves

Length: 66156

Warnings: Canon Typical Violence; Mild Depressive Elements; Minor mention of Drinking as a coping mechanism

Tags: Canon Divergent; Angst and Fluff and Smut; Dean Winchester has a wing kink; Adoption; Plot Twist; Inappropriate Use of Grace; Dean Winchester Wears Panties; Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms; Bottom Dean/Top Castiel; Happy Ending

Posting Date: October 26, 2023

Summary: After Chuck is defeated, Jack forces Dean and Cas to finally admit their feelings to each other and gives Cas his wings back in the process. They end up getting their happily ever after while Sam settles down with Eileen. Ten years they spend together as a couple, hunting when they need to, but mostly living the domesticated life Dean always wanted and Castiel always wanted him to have. Unfortunately, it all comes crashing down one day when Castiel goes on a hunt and doesn’t make it home. Dean will do whatever it takes to get the love of his life back and ends up getting more than he bargained for when he finds him again. This fic is canon compliant through Season 14 and starts off during the Ouroboros episode S14E14, from there it becomes Canon divergent with some of the rest of Season 14 and Season 15 being the same, but slightly different. S15E20 doesn’t exist and there is an alternate storyline 10 years into the future.

Excerpt: The thing with Dean and Castiel now being boyfriends that Dean finds interesting is that nothing has really changed other than the fact that they kiss each other now. He and Castiel had basically been dating since the moment they met, but they were the only two that didn’t know about it. Sam isn’t even surprised when he finally makes it back to the bunker and catches them making out on the couch in the Dean cave while watching a movie. He just tells them to scoot over so he can join them. “What movie are we watching?” he asks. Dean looks over at his brother with the bitchiest bitch face to ever bitch. “What do you mean what movie are we watching? You’re not even going to comment on the fact that Cas and I were just playing tonsil hockey.” He holds his finger to Castiel’s mouth because he knows the angel is going to say something about tonsils having nothing to do with hockey. “Why would I say anything? You two can do what you like. I’m surprised this is the first time I’ve walked in on you two kissing though. I thought you just waited until you were alone in your bedroom or something. Just thought you were against PDA?” “We just started kissing today. Why would we have been kissing before?” “People who are in a relationship usually kiss. You mean you two haven’t kissed before today?” “We weren’t in a relationship before today.” Sam just stares at him for a minute as if he doesn’t understand what is going on and then the lightbulb over Dean’s head finally turns on. “Wait, you thought we were in a relationship?” “Well, yea, weren’t you?” “No.” “Oh, my mistake.” “How long ago did you think we started dating?” “I don’t know. Nobody can really put a date on it, but at least since Cas came back from being possessed by the Leviathans, some think before that.” “What do you mean nobody? Who else thought we were dating already?” Sam stares into space for a minute like he’s trying to calculate something in his head. “Pretty much everyone who knows the two of you.” “Unbelievable.” Dean storms out of the Dean cave and looks back when he notices that Castiel isn’t behind him, so he yells back as he’s walking. “Cas, are you coming?” He hears Castiel apologize to Sam for leaving so rudely. He would have to explain to Castiel that we don’t apologize to annoying little brothers when they are being annoying. Dean continues the walk to his room with Castiel on his heels. He waits for the two of them to get into the room and then he slams the door for good measure. He knows Sam probably didn’t hear it because the bunker is too big, and they are too far away, but it makes him feel better anyway.

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#dcbb 2023 #fic preview #2023 promo #deancas #destiel

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radiostranger · 1 month

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supernatural finale first time watch thoughts:

THE DOG IS BACK YES

sam would be a jogger idk it makes so much sense

“HOT! bread”

dean is so me attempting to clean

honestly i could watch a whole season of this domestic shit just add castiel back in and id be content

no dean. don’t “got something”please don’t “got something”

oh it’s a pie fest. carry on (badum ch)

cas mention :’)

oh no it’s the barn i know what’s coming i hate it dean pls drive away

and you know what?? WHAT IF THAT NINJA STAR HAD SAVED DEANS LIFE SAM HM?? LET HIM HAVE HIS NINJA STAR

this looks like the lazarus rising barn🤧

i see the rusty nail i see it and i hate it

who the fuck is jenny

oh no here it comes

“i always looked up to you” “i’m so proud of you” “i cant do this without you. i don’t want to” and what if i spontaneously combusted rn hm? what then?

i hate this show. no one look at me.

is rufus married to …. aretha… franklin ?? am i dumb or is that what they were insinuating

CAS HELPED ??? CAS. HELPED????? IS HE ALIVE ??? HOW DID HE GET OUT OF THE EMPTY I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS

THE ORIGINAL LICENSE PLATE

the blurry woman™️ is eileen bc i said so. them not showing her at all in the last two episodes was cruel

WHAT TUE FUCK IS THAT WIG

i deserve reimbursement for having to watch that

oh what hi jensen and jared and crew 🤠

andddd cut :(

final thoughts: okay as much as i don’t love that ending and it felt kinda cheap and not great writing wise it’s not assssss awful as i expected from the way people talk about it but also i don’t have the background of watching the show for 15 years. plus i knew most of the spoilers so it’s hard to say what i actually would have thought if i saw it the way intended. main takeaways:

1. wtf did castiel not show up in heaven hm ??

2. i’m pissed they didn’t include at least a tiny mention of eileen :( all that set up for her and sam relationship just for her to die, presumably be brought back to life but not even mentioned??

3. i need fix it fics. immediately.

#supernatural #spn #dean winchester #spn fandom #castiel #sam winchester #spn finale #supernatural finale

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lizaawinchester · 2 months

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promise me, you wont decide for me

Title: you need to promise me

Word count: 1442

Description: After living with the boys for years and having a non official relationship with dean you finally decide to bring it up. His need to protect you has always stopped you from titling what it was you had together but after an easy hunt just you two and Miracle in your hometown the nostalgia reminds you of how much you want to be able to make your love for him public. but first he has to promise never to push you away just because he thinks you're better off without him (Post Chuck; (dean never died in my head)

tw- none

You were tired of leaving his bed after an amazing couple of hours together, sometimes only talking and watching movies, sometimes steamy sex only to sleep in a cold bed alone 2 rooms down. In a tired haze you wondered what he was thinking as you both fell asleep sharing an old creaky bed with the awful tv playing a random movie.

There were never any set rules with your arrangement but you never really talked about it. Just living together with Sam in the bunker meant that you had practically already been a couple. Everyone knew the feelings were mutual but it was never discussed. Small I love you’s were said occasionally and you two would cuddle up in private. Sharing your favorite movies and talking about everything from your wildly different childhoods to your worst memories. Eventually you started hooking up and that lead to where you were now. Alone together in your home state in nostalgic town for you. This area was memorable for you as a kid and when you saw that there was likely a Vamps nest nearby you had to come and get rid of it. After finishing late at night you and Dean decided to just keep the room an extra night to let Sam and Eileen have the bunker to themselves for one more day. You had come here with your family and made your best in this little town before your parents were possessed and killed by angels. Even in the freezing cold of February you remembered the good parts of having a somewhat normal childhood here and getting into hunting later in life, unlike the Winchester brothers.

That night you asked Dean if he was open to the idea of making it official, being back home made you remember the love you had always wished for and practically already had but were too afraid to admit. In his half asleep voice he admitted "I wish you were mine from the second I wake up to the second I fall asleep." before falling asleep with you in his arms. Slowly, knowing that his tired self was not up for much of a conversation you fell asleep too, thinking of how to possibly bring this up again on the long drive home tomorrow.

The next morning.

Taking miracle out to run around before your long drive back to the bunker you decided to get it out of the way hoping he even remembered the conversation from his half-asleep state

Staring at the rocky pathway you practically whispered, “So about what you said last night, did you really mean that”

D “of course." he said surprised you would even ask. "I mean I am ok with this sort of together but not really officially thing, but I mean it when I say I love you and I would rather have you officially be mine than be friends who have and are aware of their feelings”

“If were going to do this you need to promise me something.”

“Ok… “

“I make my own decisions for myself. I know what is best for me and you cant try and decide that”

“ok… I know that you can make your own choices. Where are you going with this”

“I need to know that one day when you are feeling shitty or when I am pissed off by something you’re not going to tell me to leave. If you ever tell me to go because you are bad for me, I will not come back”

“wait so you want me to promise that I will never end it, because I never plan on telling you to leave.”

“No. I am saying that you can never, I mean ever, try to tell me that I am better off without you or I deserve better than you. I deserve what I want and someone who loves me enough to see that. With jack in charge we control our own lives and that includes me too. I know you don’t see yourself the way that I do but I know that there is no one out there better for me.”

“Y/n.. ”

“No let me finish. If I thought you would do anything that would hurt me, I would not be here, living with you and sam. You are the kindest and most loving person I know. You let me sleep in your bed after having a panic attack and you make me feel safe. You are definitely the best sex I have I ever had plus you let me take all of the covers and because you know I get cold at night. You are the best person I could ever find for me and If I thought that you were not what was best for me I would leave on my own.”

“what if I am not what is best for you”

“then we should not be together at all. But that’s just it you are.

You stopped your walk grabbing his arm to turn him to look at you. “I need you to see that I want you and all of you. The good and the bad because if you want to be with me you have to love all of me the good and the bad.”

“I don’t think there is any bad”

“Then youre lying to yourself… or you don’t really know me” He practically glared at you as you said it.

“ Cmon you cant say that. I know you better than anyone, even sam. And I do love you, all of you”

“ok then if you love me you cannot wake up one day and decide that you think I deserve ‘better’ or deserve more. I don’t want to have ‘normal life’, especially not if it means I can’t have you. Living like this sucks sometimes but so does every life and I don’t want to leave the bad parts because it would mean leaving all of the good parts too.”

“ok I think I get what you mean. You’re really mean when you’re hungry but I wouldn’t change it because when I start making burgers you come up and hug me from behind”

A small laugh fell as you smiled up to him. Picking up the tennis ball Miracle dropped at your feet. You turned to throw it before looking back at him and said,

“So I need you to promise me that you will not make that choice FOR ME. You will not try to tell me that you are bad for me or I should leave because you think I would be better off. I would have asked months ago but you always try to protect me from everything and I will not lose you because one day you decide you need to protect me from you.”

You looked at each other for a long second as the wind blew by your face. Your ears stung as the sharp air got under your hair and you shrugged your shoulders for the large coat to cover you.

“if you are ever going to end it, it will be because you want to, not because you are trying to protect me from something”

He looked down to you, and you squinted up blocking the sun coming from behind his head. He wrapped his arms around your waist pulling you in to his warmth, blocking out the wind for a moment of relief to the cold. You looked up and locked eyes as you held your arms to your chest protectively, unsure what he would say next.

“I promise you that I will never try to end this for your benefit. I will let you decide what is best for you. But I cannot promise that I will not protect you because hat I will always do.”

He pulled you in closer moving his arms up your back to pull your head into his chest and kiss the top of your head. Staying comfortably there for a second as you both lightly swayed with his heart beat. Letting go only when Miracle jumped on his knee and released you back to the cold to lean down and throw the ball to the water. Grabbing your hand walking along back to baby.

“I mean if you get tired of me or my hunger mood swings and that’s why you want me gone, I would understand”

“ok so I can break up with you, but only if you really piss me off.” Dean said sarcastically as he turned to meet your eyes already looking to him

“yeah and If you tell me to leave because you have decided its what its ‘best for me’” you said using your one hand for air quotes, “then I will chop off your head with a machete. I’ve beheaded plenty of monsters, you know I can do it”

He smiled, laughing at your dark humor before switching from holding your hand to wrapping an arm around your shoulders “ok I promise I won’t tell you what’s best for you”

#supernatural #dean winchester #dean winchester imagines #dean winchester fluff #dean winchester imagine #dean!girl #dean x reader #spn #spnfandom #supernatural one shot #supernatural imagine #dean winchester one shot #dean x female reader

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dotthings · 4 months

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I've been so tuned out of spn and spn fandom happenings, I didn't even learn until just now that some weeks back Jared said at a CE con that he wishes they'd done more with Eileen.

Now I'm laughing. The unintentional comedy stylings of Jared P*d*l*cki, everyone!

Not even mad, tbh. Just remembering his disregard for the character and the Sam/Eileen relationship. How he made comments speaking for Dean pov in a way that flatly contradicted every statement Dean himself ever made rooting for Sam and Eileen, but canon, what's that? Dean who? Dean's actual self-evident hopes, the fact that Dean was the #1 Saileen shipper, totally irrelevant when brosonlies are in a panic about Sam or Dean having anyone, anyone at all, anyone whatsoever, besides only each other.

Watching them scramble frantically a few weeks back when Jared dropped this wish for more Eileen to deny that more Sam/Eileen relationship stuff is even possible also greatly amuses me. "Jared only meant Eileen not Sam/Eileen!!!" lmfao okay?? Breathe!!! LOL

I really loved Saileen but I'll be glad either way just to get Eileen back, while the brosonly Sam stans will be screeching with rage because "spn is only about Sam and Dean not SIDE CHARACTERS *raeg raeg*" after they performatively virtue signaled about how much they love Eileen so long as she doesn't get her icky gross cooties breathing too close to Sam.

They also kept slamming all the Saileen shippers, going on and on how anyone who shipped Saileen was only doing it as part of some nefarious plot to keep Sam away from Dean and no other reason. Meanwhile, the Sam and Eileen dynamic was absolutely delightful, it's one of the best relationships Sam ever had, Jared and Shoshannah had lovely chemistry, I enjoyed every Sam and and Eileen moment. Wow yes how monstrous of me, I enjoyed seeing Sam with a layered, good-hearted human who worked well with him and cared about him and they related to each other and they were good together!! What in the evil Sam hatred!!! LMFAO

Anyone who was on twitter at the time may also remember how they spewed hatred against the ship, gatekeeping, romance shaming, and spewing no-romo and anti-romo hatred, because Eileen somehow would no longer count as a badass female character if she's having sex with Sam, and then they tried to dress their ship hate up as progressive because of how it would supposedly "demean" Eileen.

All of which went in full contradiction of the statements of Shoshannah Stern, a deaf actor playing a deaf character, who spoke in interviews at length about how important it was not only that Eileen was a kickass hunter but why it was significant having a disabled character in a romance with one of the lead heroes on a notable genre tv series.

Meanwhile, the Sam stan twitter brigade pretending to be progressive: "ew icky gross"

As for Jared, yeah, this is just COMEDY. He wasn't supportive, now suddenly he's talking about how he's sorry there wasn't more Eileen. Okay, dude.

He also said he was sorry there wasn't more Michael Dean and same thing. Where was he when Jensen needed support, when that storyline was cut off, and when the ending screwed Dean over while Jared got what he wanted, and when most of his base which pretty much hates everyone who isn't Sam and Dean, got what they wanted.

Don't get me wrong, I'll be thrilled if we can have Eileen back in the revival. I don't know if this means we will or not. But I'm all for it. Yes please let's!!! I just don't think there's substance behind Jared changing his tune. And he did nothing to discourage the hatred from his own base against her and against the ship, and then eagerly went along with how the final eps of spn pandered to their desire for her character and that relationship to be wiped from the story.

#dot trolls fandom #Eileen Leahy #Saileen

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destieltropecollection · 11 months

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DESTIEL TROPE COLLECTION 2023 | DAY 26 | Fluff

Early Morning Rain | @sunshine-zenith

Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 2,403 Main Tags/Warnings: Newly Human Cas, Established Relationship, minor injuries Summary: A freshly human Castiel, an early morning conversation in the rain following a hunt, and a Dean that loves him so, so much

The Ghost of Christmas Present(s) | @mittensmorgul

Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 3,121 Main Tags/Warnings: Christmas Shopping, fluff, established Dean/Cas, Summary: Dean and Cas need to do some Christmas shopping. Neither of them are very good at it, but they finally figure out what to get each other. Basically, just each other.

Warmth In A Snowstorm | @aaronthe8thdemon

Rating: Mature Word Count: 3,794 Main Tags/Warnings: Nesting, Interspecies Relationship(s), Established Relationship, Tooth-Rotting Fluff, Mild Sexual Content, Comfort No Hurt, Angel Mating (Supernatural), Grace-Soul Bonding (Supernatural) Summary: On the left is the room where they’re making the nest, plus a small little storage area. The nest is the entire reason Cas built this place, so that him and Dean could get angel-married. Legally speaking Dean’s dead and Cas doesn’t exist at all so they can’t get regular-married, but even if they could, he’s pretty sure he’d rather do this anyway. Actually he’s very sure he’d rather put together a nest and do a binding ritual with Cas than say a dumb pre-written script and eat a cake he doesn’t even like because pie is infinitely superior but weddings don’t have pie…

Accidental August | @aishitara

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 6,190 Main Tags/Warnings: Fluff, fluff and smut, established relationship, post-series, post-canon, bottom!Dean, top!Cas, Castiel and Dean Winchester have a profound bond, blow jobs, rimming, face-fucking, topping from the bottom, timestamp, Creatures of Light series. Summary: “Cas,” Dean says, the rich baritone of his voice settling sultry over Castiel’s skin. Calmly, Dean demands: “Look at me,” so Castiel does. In the dawning, Castiel can see Dean’s heart plain on his face, his soul thrumming with pleasure as he meets Castiel’s gaze. The feathery drag of Dean’s fingers over his collarbone becomes more deliberate, tripping along the length of Castiel’s neck and lighting a path along his every nerve. They hover over his throat, and Dean uses his index finger to push Castiel’s chin up, thumb settling with a possessive weight on his mouth. “Damn, you’re gorgeous,” Dean says, his voice barely loud enough for even an angel to hear, private. A moment passes and Dean’s voice becomes marginally louder. “And I love you so goddamned much,” he adds, leaning into Castiel’s space and kissing him. The air catches in Castiel’s lungs and a burst of love and euphoria kaleidoscopes inside him; it is still so new, this knowing that Dean loves him. That Dean wants Castiel as much as Castiel wants him. Castiel is incomprehensibly old, certainly to Dean and sometimes even to himself, but he has never in his life been so completely filled with joy as he is when the weight of Dean's love crashes into him.

The Right Words | @Kelsstiel

Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 7,862 Main Tags/Warnings: Fluff, alternate universe - high school, deaf Castiel Summary: Dean Winchester screwed up. Not in a major way, not really. Running into a boy in the hall is hardly on the top of his "major screw ups" list, but when that boy happens to be deaf and absolutely beautiful in every single way, it suddenly is. And he's going to fix it.

Dean and the Doula | @whichstiel

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 8,432 Main Tags/Warnings: Doula Castiel, Uncle Dean, Alternate universe Summary: Castiel is Eileen's doula, and the yarn unspools from there.

Season's Greetings | @pluckydean

Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 9,166 Main Tags/Warnings: Fluff, Pen Pals, Holidays, AU, Teacher!Dean, Teacher!Castiel Summary: Dean is ready to get back to work after winter break until the school administration reveals their New Year's resolution: bring teachers throughout the district together with an email exchange program. It's the last thing he wants to participate in, but a few emails with Castiel Novak might be enough to change his mind.

Cuddle Deprivation | Destielshipper4Cas (AO3)

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 14,222 Main Tags/Warnings: Creature Castiel, Fluff and Smut, Cuddling & Snuggling, Bottom Castiel, Top Dean, Alpha Dean, Omega Castiel, Pining, Human Dean, Happy Ending Summary: Cuddlibus Cas is in dire need of some alpha cuddles. He keeps running into his new neighbor who just so happens to be an excellent hugger. A mutually beneficial cuddle arrangement might lead to more than either of them bargained for.

Will You Be My Valentine? | @kcprexhatespshups-blog

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 15,147 Main Tags/Warnings: Alternate Universe-Modern Setting, Teacher Dean Winchester, Librarian Castiel, Fluff, idiots in love, Charlie can't deal with these idiots. Summary: Dean is a kindergarten teacher at NorthStar Elementary, Cas is the new librarian and Dean is head over heels. He doesn't make the best first impression and tries to make up for it with coffees and baked goods. Watch Dean fall over himself while convincing himself that Cas doesn't feel the same way. Caught in the middle of these idiots is Charlie. Will they ever realize they both feel the same way?

Daddy Dance Recital | @motherofdragonflies

Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 16,234 Main Tags/Warnings: Modern!AU, Dance Dads, Castiel is Jack Kline's parent, Dad!Dean, Lust as first sight Summary: Single father Dean Winchester saves the day for his daughter Claire after joining her on stage at her ballet recital with baby Emma on his hip. Castiel, another single father in the audience, is instantly gone.

The Few Things | @huggybearsunshine

Rating: Mature Word Count: 18,372 Main Tags/Warnings: Human!Castiel, domesticity in the Men of Letters bunker, Castiel is saved from the empty, Dean is not okay Summary: Castiel has been saved and brought back to the bunker. Only thing is, Cas came back with a renewed sense of self and a need to be more open and honest about the things he wants. Dean isn't sure he's ready for this new, emboldened Castiel.

#destiel trope collection #destiel trope collection 2023 #destiel #fanfic #fluff #day 26

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dothwrites · 8 months

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THE TRAP! THE TRAP! THE TRAP! (he's going to get down on his OLD MAN KNEES and he's going to PRAY; the man with no faith is going to PRAY to his angel and he's going to apologize ON HIS KNEES)

"just stop being so stupid" cas is being a little bitch here and he's valid for doing it

amazing to me like rob benedict is like. four feet tall. and STILL somehow manages to be menacing.

this is exactly what you want to hear your ex-husband talk about when you're in the place where your romance took off: him talking about his ex-boyfriend and meeting up with him again. cas, you're RIGHT to be irritated. "my sense of direction is excellent; that's a different corpse" you can take the husbands out of... whatever. dean and cas are still husbands and they're still capable of bickering, even when they're divorced

i REFUSE to believe that benny is dead. that leviathan was just lying through his teeth. benny is definitely the king of purgatory; he was just hiding from dean and cas because he didn't want to be Purgatory Relationship Counselor Part II. he had enough of that nonsense the first time

this little slice of life in chuck's "future" is so cute--until it becomes less cute. eileen is going to make POPCORN for their movie night! cas is bringing them beers! they have a FAMILY!

this little therapy talk is painful but SO necessary. it's the first time that dean and cas are actually talking about their differences and what they're angry about. cas admitting that he carries his guilt over his past mistakes, and then cas calling dean out over being so angry that he wasn't able to listen to reason "i left but you didn't stop me" MY GOD! it's the thesis of the relationship. cas leaves but dean doesn't ask him to stay! dean doesn't want cas to leave but he's not willing to ask him to stay! both of them want cas to be there, but they're caught in this endless cycle of silence.

in chuck's "future", sam and dean have both lost the person that they love. dean's "ever since" is losing cas in the most horrific way possible--he had to bury him alive, knowing that cas was going to be tormented for the rest of time. and sam's response is anger and fury and dean's response is fatalism and depression. and i do have to wonder if it's because cas isn't GONE gone. he's fallen into depression but part of him still clings onto life so that he can be there for cas.

this PRAYER! dean frantically wandering around purgatory calling for cas! dean praying and saying his goodbye to cas, knowing that he failed him. jensen KILLS this scene! the unshed tears in his eyes, the little wobble in his voice... he gets down on his KNEES! dean finally acknowledging that he gets angry and lashes out when he's hurt and grieving. "OF COURSE i forgive you" like it was never in doubt. this is dean saying goodbye to cas because he thinks that cas is either dead or not going to make it back to the portal and he's CRYING!

and then we have the "future" scene immediately afterward that opens with dean sitting with his eyes closed, MUCH LIKE HE WAS WHEN HE WAS PRAYING. i don't think it's too much of a stretch to think that dean was praying to cas while he's trapped in the box. that dean is praying to him pretty much all the time while he's trapped. these vampire faces are STUPID. sorry but they're DUMB.

dean still waiting for cas and looking around desperately hoping! and then cas is just. chilling. curled up in a tree. AND THE HUG! THE HUG! cas' look of shock when dean hugs him! and dean's "you did it" feels like a balm. DEAN WAS GOING TO TELL CAS THAT HE LOVED HIM RIGHT HERE AND THIS IS THE HILL I WILL DIE UPON! otherwise, why would he still say that he needed to talk to cas? why would he look disappointed when cas tells him that he doesn't need to say it? cas knew that dean was going to tell him that he loved him and he KNEW that confession would set off the empty deal. this is the hill i will die on.

and we see dean and cas just quietly chilling in the kitchen, and we know that they're okay! that they're not absolutely reconciled but that they're at least on their way. they've come to an understanding with each other and they're acting as a unit again.

#doth watches spn

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profoundbondfanfic · 1 year

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Heart Shaped Box

Heart Shaped Box by MittenWraith (@mittensmorgul) Rating: Mature Word Count: 43k

The bunker is full of dusty old artifacts. Only now that Chuck is out of the picture once and for all, and Cas is fully restored from the empty and in his first days of adjusting to humanity in Dean’s debatable care, does Sam really have a chance to start sorting through it all. The ornate little box he finds feels like the perfect gift for Eileen, but he both wants Cas to feel included and needed, and really wants a strong second opinion on anything in the bunker being safe to give anyone as a gift. Cas declares it a perfectly normal box, until Dean reaches out to give it his own inspection, triggering a spell that will pull them through their own history and open a door to allow them the time and space to settle all the open questions between them. Meanwhile back in the bunker, once the explosion of light resolves, Sam is left with a slightly radioactive looking box and the sinking terror that Dean and Cas had been cursed all because of him. A little trip down memory lane, Supernatural style, ensues.

So maybe the Nirvana fan in me was attracted to this fic right off the bat, out of nostalgia alone. I wasn’t disappointed at all with what I found.

Heart Shaped Box is a post-canon fic set after they’ve got Cas back from the Empty and Chuck defeated once and for all. Sam thinks it's the best time to start sorting through things in the Bunker, and he comes across a box he thinks would be a perfect gift for Eileen.

Of course, it turns out to be cursed.

And the curse is only activated after Cas and Dean both touch it, which results in both of them getting sucked up à la season 7 exploding Dick to a place they can’t escape without doing some work first.

So while they do get locked inside a heart-shaped box, it’s only long enough for them to figure their shit out, finally, through a series of old memories that all but force them to talk through their many, many years of trauma and misunderstandings.

I loved this fic for many reasons, but mostly it was the recall of some amazing canon Destiel moments, all given with a side of great meta via Dean and Cas’s reflections about the memories being presented, some the other never knew about in canon, like Cas being forced to kill a thousand Dean’s. The author gives us much-needed reactions to moments that we could only wonder about before.

All of it leads to a satisfying conclusion, including a great reaction from Sam, who was in denial just as deep as Dean and Cas about their relationship. This fic even provides a happy ending for Eileen and Rowena, if their canon endings left you as unhappy as a lot of people.

As far as fix-it fics go, you can add this one to an already long list of amazing stories. Come for the 90’s alt-rock reference, stay for the Destiel, and you won’t be sorry.

#destiel #fic rec #canon verse #mature #30k to 50k #post canon #fix it #bunker #spells #curses #human!castiel #canon typical violence #hurt and comfort #fluff #author: mittenwraith #Heart Shaped Box

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eisforeidolon · 1 year

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So I've said this before, but I see a lot of fanfic as the mental equivalent of comfort food. Obviously not all of it, but especially in the types of stories that are redone again and again?

Its appeal is heavily dependent on giving a self-selecting subset of the broader audience exactly what they want; what they're specifically there looking for. Especially with romance fic, a large proportion of that particular audience is going to be perfectly willing to fill in all kinds of blanks to get one more decent story about their OTP ... even when the writing itself intentionally skips to the good bits or unintentionally falls short in other ways that would obviously compromise the coherence of the story for a more discerning audience.

Even when I'm reading a fic I'm enjoying for a pairing I like? Sometimes I am bemused by how little story time goes into the characterization of the characters or development of the relationship. So many fics will basically give you a premise, introduce the characters to each other ... and then almost immediately declare they're in lurve. There may be some optional shipper on board friends, some will they/won't they angst, but ultimately? It's always yadda yadda, ~*voila*~ ship! But even in most of the objectively more complete shipfics that actually do go to the effort to fill in all the details around hooking the characters up? Ultimately, everyone involved knows that it's about hooking the characters up.

Now, to be clear, there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. Again, it's comfort food for your brain - you go in knowing what to expect, you get it, and it feels cozy and good. But again, it works because that's what you and the author have made a deliberate, signaled choice to be there together for.

The problem is, hellers took those very pointedly fanfic expectations and tried to apply them to canon Supernatural. Which, as I said earlier, is why they - and largely only they - are convinced Beren's wrote an arc for Castiel being in lurve with Dean in season 15. With fanfic expectations, well, it does read exactly like a half-assed boilerplate pairing fic which takes it entirely for granted that of course everything is about the ship.

Dean and Castiel fight. Rowena tells Dean and Castiel to stop fighting. Sam reunites with Eileen as part of Chuck's machinations. Castiel and Dean clear the air in Purgatory.

In a badly written shipfic, it literally doesn't matter there is nothing inherently romantic in any of those events. It's a shipfic, you know from your expectations of shipfic that everyfuckingthing ultimately revolves around the ship hooking up. So you'd read specifically romantic tropes and clichés into every one of those things, like so:

Dean and Castiel fight - obviously they will have to make up and this will make them realize they're in lurve! Rowena tells Dean and Castiel to stop fighting - obviously she means kiss and make up romantically! Sam has a "love interest" provided by Chuck's manipulation - so clearly HEAs for everybody is endgame! Castiel whines at Dean in Purgatory and Dean feels obligated to pity apologize when he's on the verge of leaving the angel behind - Dean was so sad, clearly he could only care if it was twue lurve! So naturally, Castiel talking about love can only be the romantic climax of all this buildup!!!

Except canon isn't shipfic written for an audience exclusively of shippers eagerly attempting to fill in the blanks to make their OTP happen. It's written for a much wider audience who did not come in with those expectations. An audience who is paying attention to the entire, much wider, context of season 15 where Dean clearly has other priorities and Castiel is ... occasionally around. An audience who is not coming in with the assumption every interaction between Dean and Castiel adds up into its own coherent storyline between them because there has to be one for them. An audience who are not going to see romance there without actual signposts of romance, because they aren't coming in with the assumption romantic tropes and clichés MUST apply. For them, you'd have to actually write a romance for them to see a romance - not just put the characters on screen together a couple of times where they aren't 100% antagonistic to each other and call it a day.

#destiew #anti berens #about fanfic #destihellers #long post #spn discussion

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wellofdean · 7 months

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I've read a lot of your posts, but I don't how you can say that Supernatural was not queerbaiting. What do you mean by 'it was structural'? The PTB never let Dean and Cas be in love, they just strung us all along and then slammed the door in our faces? Killed the gay and then never mentioned Cas again? That is queerbaiting, plain and simple.

Hi friend. Well, this is why: there are too many things, especially starting from the arc in season 7 where Cas is working with Crowley, that simply DO NOT MAKE SENSE unless Dean is in love with Cas, and Cas is in love with Dean. I mean... what do you mean they never let them be in love? Were we watching the same show?

Like, Why does Dean look back at Cas with that injured look on his face when Cas is working with Crowley? Why does Dean forgive Cas for breaking Sam's brain almost immediately? Why does Dean take Cas's stupid trenchcoat with him through a series of stolen cars when he thinks Cas is dead after the Leviathans? Why does he look like he is going to die on the spot when he meets Emmauel and his wife? Why was Dean in Purgatory for a year, refusing to leave even though he had a way out until he found 'the angel'? Why is Cas not leaving Purgatory with him so devastatingly painful that he has to rewrite his memories to cope? Why does Dean telling Cas he needs him break Naomi's conditioning in that crypt? Why do they forgive each other irrationally again and again and again? What in the holy name of all that is totally fucking gay was Dean's confession about? Why does the narrative very explicitly parallel Cain's wife with Cas? Why does it parallel Cas and Eileen? Why can't Dean, possessed with the mark of Cain, kill Cas? Why does Cas let Dean beat him up or hold him back, like, EVER? Why did Mary fucking know the minute she met Cas? Why did Castiel, angel of the lord, let Dean dress him up like a fucking cowboy? Why does Sam always have that look on his face when they bicker? Why is losing Cas what breaks Dean down like nothing else? Why is their relationship breaking, being mended and fucking saving the world the most important emotional arc and plot element of the entire final season? Why does Dean always look like he is literally choking on his own heart whenever anything Cas is involved? Wherefore all those insane Jacting Joices?? Like, I could go on and on, but their love for each other is the backbone of SO MUCH of that story, and there is simply too much of Supernatural that doesn't make a lick of sense if Dean is not queer and in love with Cas, and Cas doesn't love Dean beyond all human understanding.

And listen: I don't care what anyone involved in the making Supernatural says about it! The text is the text, and it is profoundly, thoroughgoingly queer. They loved each other. They were each other's primary relationship, and nearly every other character on the show sees it and SAYS it.

Here's what I wish the "QUEERBAITING!!!" crowd would remember: there are a lot of queer experiences in the world to represent, and not all of them are defined by who tongue wrestles and fucks who. Not all of them are sexual at all! Not all of them are happy endings. There are a lot of queer people who don't work out their trauma and hetero conditioning until it's too late somehow, and who have to make peace with just being, or just saying it, and not having, again and again and again. There are a lot of queer people, even now, who can't look their real selves in the eye. There are queer people out there who want a thing they can't have, or think they can't have, and don't say anything at all about it. The fact that they can't say it, or can't have it doesn't make them any less fully fucking queer.

Some of us queers felt seen and represented by this story, Don't erase us just because you didn't get to see two pretty men make out.

That said, the majority of the final two episodes of Supernatural were egregious examples of narrative malpractice, and we all deserved better. Dean and Cas deserved better. I will agree with you there. But, that's not queerbaiting; it's just poor storytelling and denial. The queerness was already BAKED IN, and fully present, and I would argue it was there from the get go, that it went from a character based on a bisexual beat-era dude in a story about profound Daddy issues to the most romantic love story I have ever seen with my eyes on TV.

Seriously, SPN fandom catechism is so tired.

#supernatural #destiel #queerbaiting #it's not queerbaiting when it's just queer

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