I have a slight problem, and I’m not sure what to do.
See, me and my boyfriend met online. We were in a game server and have been friends for years, we started dating almost a year now, though we haven’t actually met in person, partially due to the distance as he’s in the states and I’m from the Mediterranean.
We’ve really hit it off though. We have so many things in common and we do voice and video chats. I know he’s of the community mainly due to his fangs, mane like hair, and other qualities. He’s never been shy about being a creature of the night. And he’s just… so amazing and sweet. I love everytime we video talk seeing him gush about the newest game or Blush when I compliment him.
The issue came when he talked about doing wrestling, more a performance, though with his build I’m not that surprised. He even sent me a video of his performance before he headed to bed. When I watched it, I recognised him even with his hair fully down and the over the top heel persona he used. The sweet deep voice making me blush as he talked about taking down his opponent.
But watching the video, I realised he’s a giant, quite literally. Which comes the problem. I have what’s known as Megalophobia. A fear of large objects.
Now, in my country it’s not that much a hinderance, as very few skyscrapers or such, even when cruise ships come by I’m usually away from the harbour so barely see them save when they’re on the horizon. And this fear never really came up before as in the photos and videos we’ve had, he’s usually around things at home that I assume are more scaled up to his size. As such, I never noticed the apparent size difference.
But seeing the video of him in the ring, towering high over most, if not all the audience.
I had to shut my eyes and control my breathing. Even as it’s his own voice that was calming me down.
So, what I’m asking is, is there anything I can do? I mean, I have been trying to deal with this fear before when I’ve had to go abroad and such. But should I tell him about this? And if so, will it affect our relationship?
If you do decide to tell your boyfriend about this phobia, please tread carefully. Phobias are, by their very nature, irrational and don’t necessarily reflect on one's logical beliefs about the world. But you can imagine, I'm sure, how upsetting it might be, to be told that your very body is a source of fear and discomfort.
I know you can't help what you're afraid of. At the same time, giants in particular are often victims of prejudice, persecution and even violence as a direct result of other people being frightened. So it is doubly important to make it clear to your boyfriend that, while you might have an unfortunate psychological response to his size, he is still someone you trust and feel safe with.
Instead, try framing the issue as something he can help with. Talk to him honestly about your phobia, but emphasise how he can help you through it. I think the detail about his voice calming you down while you watched his wrestling video is an excellent example. Reach out to him for support as you start working on the phobia itself.
There are several possible treatments for phobias, including talking therapies, exposure therapy, CBT and hypnosis. It might take a while to find an approach that works best for you and your particular phobia, but stick with it. Your mental well-being is worth it. Your relationship is worth it. You are worth it.
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i hate this popular sentiment that's like "nobody cares about your baby" "nobody cares what you had for dinner" "nobody cares about your spotify wrapped" like ok why are you on social media following people whose lives you don't care about. there's an easy fix for that
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Shoutout to Baldurs Gate 3 for having a magical girl transformation sequence but instead of a teenager in a short skirt it's a lesbian aasimar paladin in full plate about to open 13 cans of fucking whoop ass
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