#and i love you

[spongynova]

Some WIP because kissing your captain against a wall is one way to deal with the away mission after effects!

#star trek #star trek fanart #my art #sketch #wip #spock #spirk #mr spock #james t kirk #jim kirk #If you are one of the ones waiting for #the mcspirk version #it's near #and I love you #but really I love y'all shippers from spirk to gorn fudgers #Saw some screen cap from in the moof for love here #and I can't resist a good ref <3

[gunpowdertimdrakestoker]

Growing up, I loved being a girl. I loved dresses and skirts and the plastic high-heels and wearing mums makeup and wearing nail polish. I loved being a little princess and being a little girl.

When I was 12, I met my best friend. They then identified as a trans boy. They introduced me to the idea of being queer.

I came out as bi shortly after, thinking I had a crush on them. My parents were incredibly supportive and even supported looking further into my sexuality and my coming out as a lesbian.

But my friend also introduced me to the idea of being trans. I was 12 when I was looking into a mirror and deciding I hated my breasts. I didn’t know what to feel. I was scared of being a boy and everything that came with it. I decided I was nonbinary.

The four years following involved me exploring my sexuality and gender. Bi, pan, lesbian, aromantic. Nonbinary, demigirl, demigender, genderfluid, genderqueer. Never truly accepting that I could be a boy.

It hit me in the middle of a dream. My brother called me his brother and I had this “oh” moment. Oh, I’m a trans man. Not transmasc, not sometimes a boy. A trans man. And as a trans man, the lesbian label no longer made me comfortable. I looked deep into myself and found myself unable to authentically see myself dating a man or a woman. Aroace.

I’m an aroace trans man.

It’s taken four years of confusion, name changes and experimentation to come to this conclusion. For some it can be a couple of months. For some it can be years longer. Some people never figure it out.

No matter how long it takes you to come to terms with your identity, you are valid. It doesn’t matter if you keep changing your name every couple of weeks or months, I know I did, and I still might. It doesn’t matter if you change your label every day. It doesn’t matter if you never label yourself.

You are valid. Your experience is valid. Your identity is valid.

I see you. And I love you.

I’m still not certain on my identity but that is part of growing and changing as a teenager. I’ll get there one day. And you will too. No matter your age or experiences. I believe in you.

#I see you #and I love you #transgender #lesbian #bisexual #aromantic #aroace #asexual #transmasc #nonbinary #transfem #genderqueer #genderfluid #lgbtq #queer #gay #trans #demigirl #demiboy #demigender #pansexual #demiboyflux #boyflux #bird boy.txt

[inkskinned]

in recent years, there's been a push in therapeutic circles to shift the language from "attention-seeking" to "connection-seeking" behavior.

i was an attention-seeker. i was the textbook example of an attention-seeker. i was a troublemaker. i would self-harm. i destroyed my own relationships. i was uncontrolled, dramatic, sensitive. i took everything personally. i had "nothing" to be depressed "about," but made a big show of how sad i was nonetheless. i was really unsafe about myself in a lot of ways.

the strange thing about that is: it meant others could ignore me. the prevailing wisdom behind knowing something is "attention seeking" is to say: well, since you want it that bad, you're not getting any. it meant i was lower-on-the-list of concern. it meant an eye-roll.

the belief was that: since i was obviously doing these things on purpose, it would be bad behavioral training if i was "rewarded" for it. it would "teach me" that i simply had to make enough fuss, and i'd finally get all that missing attention and love. no, it was better to ignore that stuff.

i was suffering. and it felt like - oh, it doesn't matter how loudly i am in pain, nobody gives a shit about if i'm living or dying.

awhile ago, i went through my journals from that time. a lot of them read the same thing. in them, i am convinced i am invisible. that nobody wants to hear me, to see me. that i could die or vanish and nobody would even notice. i didn't even want attention - not really - because it was always dismissive, mocking. nothing i ever did would be good enough to get someone to actually-worry about me.

that's a terrifying thing for me to read as an adult. that is a child who fully has no problem committing. that is a child who has no concept of feeling loved. the most basic human instinct is missing from her life.

i needed help. i didn't know how to ask for it. i was a kid. i was a kid in a bad home, and whenever i thought things couldn't get worse there - they almost always did.

and the ways i showed that - the ways i tried to deal with that - they made others dismiss me. i wasn't suffering prettily. after all, if i was really in trouble, why wouldn't i just march into the first counselor's office and ask someone to help me? i had the opportunities, right? what did i think would happen, exactly? that someone would finally stand up and do something? who even wants that kind of responsibility?

i heard connection-seeking for the first time about three months ago. my therapist mentioned it when we were talking about my history. it rang some kind of horrible bell, deep inside me. i don't know what she said in the rest of her sentence. i just started... crying.

"oh no", i said to her. "i think i just realized: i have no idea how to forgive them for minimizing the ways i was hurting."

how many other kids, though. how many other kids were out there drowning, snatching around for a lifevest, some kind of rope - how many were straight-up ignored.

how many of those kids aren't gonna get old.

#the thing i teach my preschoolers is #if something bad happens to u #and it hurts you #tell someone #and KEEP TELLING SOMEONE #UNTIL SOMEONE BELIEVES YOU #it is NEVER your fault for telling the truth #it is THEIR fault for not hearing you #if you are like me and ''attention seeking'' #please #if u can #GET HELP. GET THE HELP YOU NEED. #at some point we all have to do this on our own #it has to be our own personal work #but you DESERVE someone who will help you to do that work #a therapist a teacher a doctor whomever #YOU DESERVE HELP. #you deserve connection #and i love you #suicide implied #tw self harm

[brewed-pangolin]

A million thank you's to the amazing @temeyes for bringing the enthusiastic menace that is Gym Rat Soap to life.

I can not begin to tell you how much I'm in absolute LOVE with this depiction of him.

I may let loose some very (VERY) NSFW Gym Rat Soap imagines/drabbles that embody Soap MacTavish from the game. But before he graces your screens and steals the spotlight of my inspiration, this is how he appears in my head.

Bouncing around like a madman while I'm trying to maintain some semblance of sanity.

And now he will forever be my snicker (attention) needing gremlin. Powerlifiting his way through the walls of my subconscious until I finally feed him and let him loose onto the unsuspecting Soap Squad.

So much love to you, Tim! 💛

#soap squad™️ #gym rat soap #hes like the opposite of a gremlin #if i dont feed him he eats my brain #temeyes #youre amazing #and i love you #gremlin gym rat soap supremacy #ghost keeps him busy when i cant #johnny soap mactavish #simon ghost riley

[hookliner]

him calling me good boy is so %*#+#$¥

do it again (please) see what happens (me begging)

#so rude I say #as if i wouldn’t beg for him on the daily #my ass is down bad #mlm #queer #gay #mlm t4t #him #lgbtq #t4t mlm #t4t #bisexual #mlm yearning #ftm mlm #if you’ve found this acc btw #my dear #you’re rude #and i love you #(i will continue to post anyway)

[trackinglessons]

clears throat and walks up to mic nervously.. tlou x twilight.. ellie in baseball scene… this is coming soon if u havent gathered….

#idgaf anymore #fuck you guys and ur stupid threats! #just let me be silly and draw my silly things #anyway this was an old ask #YOU KNOW WHO U ARE #AND I LOVE YOU #IF YOU SEE THIS #DM ME CAUSE I WILL TALK TO U ABT IT #random rambles

[nyarlathotep-thecrawlingchaos]

I just want to say that, guys

For the past, uh *counting on fingers* four-ish months that I've been on Tumblr, which I have seen many refer to as "this hellsite"

(which I also have, affectionately)

I'm actually pretty sure this is about as close to any depiction of "heaven" as it gets in our mortal world. Particularly on the internet.

Like.

I've been able to simp here with no restraint.

Able to post fan fiction and headcanons and experiment with digital art and just be silly and have fun and be myself without concern.

I've been able to just enjoy things, without any anxiety.

Without any anxiety.

Being that I've lived pretty much my entire life dealing with crippling anxiety about literally everything, that's kind of a huge thing for me.

I have no anxiety about posting anything here. None. At all. It's weird af, but it's weird in the best way.

I have actual confidence here, which I've really never had before in my life, and it's nice.

So to everyone that's been here with me over the course of the past few months, to everyone that's been kind, everyone that's been understanding and accepting and just overall wonderful:

Thank you.

So, so much.

You're wonderful. You deserve nothing but wonderful things. I hope that your life is and continues to be as wonderful as you are.

#appreciation post #my moots are the best #literally better than yours #idc who you are MINE ARE BETTER #no but #love you all #so so much #you're all wonderful #and i love you

[thepoisonofthepaint]

if you recognize this location you’re mentally ill

#and i love you #preachers daughter #hayden anhedönia #ethel cain #family tree #mine

[marsapolis]

+° . ๑・° ⊹ . + ° . ๑・° ⊹ . + ° . ๑・° ⊹ . + ° . ๑・° +° .

"while the mountains sang their songs for me

and i was carrying their tune

we gorged ourselves on strawberries

telling stories of our youth

then the sun shone its gospel down

we were soaking it all in

the wind comes and cools our skin

that's when the leaves would start listening"

-a song i wrote about chilling with my grandma

+° . ๑・° ⊹ . + ° . ๑・° ⊹ . + ° . ๑・° ⊹ . + ° . ๑・° +° .

i'm back home!! regularly scheduled updates will be back on track tomorrow night :) thank you to everyone for your patience. also hello to all the new followers :D we've got over 70 people in the family now!!! im thinking of posting house inspo so we can pretend we all live together. but seriously though i really appreciate every single one of you, you've all been so amazing :) love you mwah<3

+° . ๑・° ⊹ . + ° . ๑・° ⊹ . + ° . ๑・° ⊹ . + ° . ๑・° +° .

#whimsical #whimsigoth #whimsigothic #whimsigothaesthetic #whimsy #whimsycore #whimsigoth room #judge judy #i love that tag #and i love you #mwah mwah

[yrrtyrrtwhenihrrthrrt]

More Nonsense from My Ambrosius Stan Account Post:

As someone who got on Tumblr a couple years ago not really knowing the culture and rarely posts because I don't think anyone cares about the silly worms in my brain I'd like to give everyone who thought it was funny and left a like or a tag or a reblog a very I Love You and here is some more thoughts about it I had through the day that I thought nobody would care about but am posting now

The account was named @gold_loin_love and gained notoriety for being the only stan account Ambrosius actually followed

During the live stream Ballister answered the questions (that he had his followers submit beforehand) while still in character, despite the fact that he was laughing his ass off and Ambrosius was with him.

Example: "'Do you think Ballister and Ambrosius are going to get divorced?' Absolutely. They're terrible together and honestly not even cute. They probably had some cringy beach wedding with their weird pink child officiating. Ew, next question"

Ambrosius would frequently interject

"Do I think Ambrosius was toxic for cutting off Ballister's arm?"

Ambrosius, stealing the phone: "Yes he needs to be cancelled immediately."

Ballister, taking it back: "Wrong that weird creep deserved it to be honest"

He read a couple questions that were defending him and after giving them his joke answer about how they were wrong, thanked them sincerely

(sad time) The first thing he posted after the events of the movie, during which he obviously wasn't posting although how fucking funny would it have been to be Ambrosius and see Ballister's fake stan account post "lol get his ass I hope he died" over footage of him MAIMING HIM in light of all that was happening was "I'm sorry that I've been gone, the death of the Queen really took a toll on me, she was a real role model and inspiration of mine. I'm especially sorry to Ambrosius. I wish I hadn't run away. I wish I'd been there for you through all this, I know it must have been so hard. I really hope everyone forgives him."

(sad time over, silliness resumed) He'd use the account to make fun of Ambrosius and himself in every capacity imaginable

"Check out what Ambrosius wore to the national conference, I love how it's so shiny you can't tell how busy and incongruent the patterns are 😍 we love a maximalist king!!!"

"Ballister Ballhard surprises nobody wearing armor he got at the emo booth of a Renaissance Fair."

There is so much potential for this and I'd love to see more of Ballister being a silly goofball

#nimona #ballister boldheart #ambrosius goldenloin #goldenheart #idk tumblr culture if i do something wrong pls tell me #im always scared to post if i might commit a faux pas #and to the people who said they'd want to draw this or write or read about it #you have my every permission #and i love you #if someone made something inspired by my cringe brain? #id cry so hard i threw up from love #ive stolen so many people's headcanons for the jumbled fic in my google drive that will never see the light of dat

[mariejordans]

can u recommend some good aus and fics about jordan and marie I'm begging you plsssssss

*gasp* oh my goodness i love this questionnnnn!

okay, i’ll give you my current top five limoreau fics uploaded to ao3, but honestly there’s so many good ones for you to pick from, you really can’t go wrong with anything. also, these aren’t ranked in any particular order just my top five in general!

(warning: a lot of these are smutty bc it’s the most common rating in the marie/jordan tag at the moment, so if smut’s not ur thing, let me know and i can do a top 5 of non-smutty limoreau fics!)

1. you can take my flesh if you want, girl by stormbxrnbitch

rating: E

this author has only two limoreau fics out right now and both are SO GOOD (seriously, i can’t recommend this author enough) but i’m obsessed with this au which is why i put it on the list!

this specific fic is a vampire au in which marie herself is a vampire (a cool take on her canonic bloodbending powers) and jordan’s kinda (super) into it. it’s a three-shot, kinda marie-centric, and just all around super interesting and compelling to read. it’s still a wip and it hasn’t gotten smutty YET, but the author has promised lots of it for the final chapter!

2. Want Want? by Cherrydrama and Levie101

rating: M

i’ve recommended it on here before but seriously, IT’S SO GOOD!

it was written before episode five came out, so it’s a jordan pov, canon divergence fic on what happens after limoreau wakes up in the bed together, and i don’t want to spoil it too much, but i will say one thing: SPARRING/TRAINING AU.

this one isn’t super smutty iirc, it’s rated M, so it’s good if you like spice but not a lot of smut in your fics.

3. The Weight Of You by Georgiathewholedaythrough

rating: M

another canon divergence fic! written before episode five, it’s also a take on what happens after they wake up in bed together, only this time things get…smutty. it’s marie pov, very sweet, very romantic, and funny too.

4. two timing by diaphanouspages

rating: E

this is a slight au (described by the author as “has a weird relationship to the show’s actual canon, but just accept the violent canon divergence and move on”) in which jordan attempts to make marie jealous, which works and then they end up in bed together. starts off angsty and kinda smutty, but also turns sweet towards the end.

also slight praise kink for jordan, so if you’re into that…

5. Reluctant Study Buddies by MercutioTheVelaryon

rating: M

another canon divergence fic taking place after episode 4 ending, but they all go in different directions i swear!

this is a study partners/study buddies au (as stated in the title) in which marie and jordan are assigned to be partners on a project for one of their classes. it gets a bit steamy, but it fades to black so if you aren’t comfortable with explicit smut, this might be for you! also, very funny and the banter between jordan and marie in it is *chef’s kiss*

(also this author has a bunch of other limoreau fics uploaded, which i also really loved, so i recommend you check those out as well!)

THATS IT THATS THE LIST! i genuinely hope it helped even a little bit, and that it gives you the mariejordan fix we’ve all been craving since thursday 😭 also, let me know your thoughts after you’ve read if you want, i’m always down to ramble on about gen v/limoreau nonsense!

#but seriously #to all the limoreau writers out there: KEEP DOING WHAT YOURE DOING #AND YOURE ALL AMAZING #AND I LOVE YOU #gen v #gen v fics #marie moreau #jordan li #mariejordan #limoreau #gen v asks

[borkb]

Irmãos brasileiros, sinto muito pelas coisas q vcs têm q ler de pessoas tão ruins ): Eu amo muito vcs

vcs são uma parte muito importante da latam e merecem mais respeito e ser bem tratados ):

minha conta e um espação seguro pra vcs

Mando muitos abraços para vcs

eu sou mexicano e vcs são meus irmãos latinos 🇲🇽🤝🇧🇷

#qsmp #qsmpblr #qsmp brasil #qsmp brazilians #qsmp brazil #respectinqsmp #qsmp 2024 #pt isnt my first language i apologize if i worded something weird #i had the need to put this here on tumblr too #brasilians you guys have all my support #and i love you

[gilgamushroom]

Mina Murray the knight in shinning armor of Dracula travelling to rescue her beloved after his ordeal trapped in a castle with a monster and to bring him home and get married

#mina YOU'RE the New Woman darling #and i love you #mina murray #love of my life #dracula daily

[veggiecorner]

What I liked about post-calamity Zelink is how they don't immediately grow into loving each other. Sure throw in the fact that Zelda had a thing for Link 100 years ago and Link now has been chasing after her (practically idolizes her memory, so maybe he might remember to love her throughout the journey), but they're both different and traumatized in a land that needs to heal. So they grow individually as people.

I also like to headcanon Zelda pretty much "forced" Link away from her, not out of animosity but rather she wants him to find who he was outside of his duty of a knight (and she doesn't believe he wants to stick by her) and meanwhile this gives her time to come to terms with her survivors guilt. Link is traveling around, remembering things about himself but also enjoying the freedom of adventure/traveling but still feeling like he's missing something.

And then their reunion is all the sweeter because they both realize they're missing each other, but now they're happier with themselves and while theres more healing that needs to be done at least they have each other to support

#aka link fucks off in some forest while zelda goes to therapy #points at that one fanfic author that is writing this exact idea #i see you #i hear you #and i love you #also i'm very pro “separating Link from the idea of his past duty” can you tell #zelink #botw #post botw pre totk

[you-can-be-what-you-want-to-be]

#slay the princess #orv #yoohankim #Can you tell there is something deeply wrong with me #LISTEN #the concept of #I trust you #And I love you #So I am asking you to hurt me #And trusting you to hurt me #I am. Insane. #Like who else would you ask if it was a request? #And who else would be hurt as much by such a request? #It’s so selfish to ask that of someone and yet- #Anyway just got to the 73rd demon king part #And Kim Dokja immediately going to Han sooyoung to get everyone to turn on him #Right after Joonghyuk tried to turn Dokja on him #Like two chapters after Dokja asked to be thrown at a monster- #I am insane #and the thorn route ooooh fuck #I hurt you so here’s the power to hurt me #The adversary #Heaven is being trapped with you forever in a constant cycle of violence #And when you are hurt I am still worried bc I’m not the one who did it #AND #the prisoner #EXPLICITLY SAYING THAT ALLOWING HER TO CUT OFF HER HEAD WAS A SIGN OF TRUST AND LOVE TO RUN AWAY #how cutting her is the main way to free her #I am so normal rn

[maries-gallery]

Hey everyone!

Marie here!

I am so so sorry for going MIA for a few months(?), I just really needed the space and some time to focus on myself, my mental health and life outside of tumblr :,)

I missed the fandom though! And I missed writing for you all!

Can't promise I'll be on here as often or writing as often, because I have a lot going on at the moment but I want to make a steady come back into the ikemen fandom <3

Thank you so much for being here and for sending your thoughts! And for staying on this blog while my sorry ass was away <3

#marie.mailbox #I MISSED YOU ALL #AND I LOVE YOU #I missed thirsting over mah bois