#and i mean who am i if i am not oversharing my thoughts here u know

[vampykween]

HI MICCC :3 hope you are well!! i’ve been brainrotting about ur singledad!simon and here’s a list of scenarios nd thoughts that’s been plaguing my mind

what if poppy got into a fight at school? the fight was short because you pulled them apart almost instantly - but she still got her hair pulled and a scratch on her cheek, and poppy knows from simon that fighting isn’t the best option, but when simon answers your call and hears poppy’s crying in the background, how would he react!!

the way kids like to overshare and have no filter, i can see poppy casually telling you stuff like “yeah my daddy has no friends” or “daddy doesn’t talk much”.. and then when simon comes to pick her up, maybe you two have a small convo and you accidentally slip up and mention what poppy’s told you about him.. then he looks and poppy and you like 🤨what else did you hear..

Oklfldldg how does simon do father daughter nights! is he the type to play competitively in games with her or does he always let her win? does he like taking her out to eat or does he prefer cooking at home :3

AAAA okay last one i promise:3 how do the other kids react to poppy’s behemoth of a dad? are they scared? do they think he’s a mafia boss of some sort? or do they find him incredibly awesome and think he’s a giant from those action movies

(ofc u don’t have to do all of them if u don’t want to OR if u don’t want to spoil anything for the series, just some thoughts! take ur time<3)

hi bby! i am very well right now actually and this made things even better, i could kiss your brain truly mwah <3

i will be saving these ideas because this gave me much needed inspiration and motivation for this series. also sorry if i didnt go as in depth with these, but the longer they sat in my drafts i realized i was never going to remember to finish oops! also i hope you dont mind i will be stealing the oversharing poppy idea if fits perfectly with what i have going for part 3 hehe

✴︎ I feel like simon would be fuming, at whom he’s not even sure. I imagine that some kid said something rude and snarky to her and she couldn’t take it anymore and popped on them, and you’re shocked because poppy is normally such a sweet little girl. Simon would definitely hug poppy close because seeing his baby hurt cuts like a knife, takes her out for ice cream and then chides her because omg! has she lost her mind fighting at school, but also he’s a tiny bit proud she’s a fighter like him. 

✴︎No because Poppy would most definitely do this, in her head she’s just rattling off mundane things about her father, but you’re sporting a frown because there’s a tiny part of you that hates the idea of Simon being alone with just poppy. Not that it’s any of your business though (you would definitely have to remind yourself of that).

Simon is groaning at his daughter’s perceptive nature and how willing she is to share every thought she has. When you waved him over to where you were during school pick up, Simon was praying something bad hadn't happened.  “Mr. Riley, err Simon, sorry.” you correct yourself quickly at the raised eyebrow look he gives you. “Is everything okay… like at home?” you’re mentally face palming at the way you blurted out the very intrusive question. You sense his shock by the question by the almost imperceptible widening of his eyes. “Why-” he looks down at Poppy who’s swinging her tiny hand in his, not paying any attention to the conversation you two are having, “What did she say to you?” You wring your hands nervously, the older man’s deadpan stare makes  you feel like you’re in trouble for some reason. “Poppy mentioned to me that you don't have any friends or talk much to anybody. I don't mean to pry, really I swear. Kids will tell you anything, i'm sure you know. After what happened with the family tree thing and-” You're cut off by Simon’s large hand settling on your shoulder, clearly an attempt to calm you down and halt your rambling, but it has the opposite effect and all you can think about is how enormous his hands are and the weight of it grasping you.  “No need to apologize, Poppy talks my ear off about you. I’d be surprised if she didn’t talk to you about things. And you don't need to worry about me, luv. Im fine being alone, i've got my little petal and that’s enough f’me.” There’s an aura of wistfulness in his words, that makes you want to push him for a more truthful answer, but you chide yourself at your thoughts. You barely know this man. Whatever longing you think is in his voice may as well be a projection of your own sadness; a failed long term relationship will do that to a person. 

✴︎Definitely loves to play games but does not let Poppy win because he wants her to learn how to lose and be okay with it. (You would applaud this btw, this is every teachers’ dream. Trust me on that). Their father-daughter nights also will be movie nights with as many sweets as poppy desires because Simon won't bend to anything but her little puppy dog eyes. I feel like even though he’s not the best cook ever Simon would go out of his way to cook Poppy’s favorites for her. Especially like on a saturday morning and wakes her up with breakfast in bed because why not spoil his little girl if he can. 

✴︎I think it's a mix of both really. I imagine Poppy goes to some nice fancy school because why not lol. And some of Poppy's classmates have snooty rich parents who turn their noses up at Simon so their kids are kinda wary of him too. I think Poppy would hype up her dad so much at recess time. Telling stories of how he used to be a ‘super cool soldier’ and all the other kids would be staring in awe like omg your dad is so cool, my dad just does people’s taxes lol.

#mic answers #second chances au #oc: poppy #i lied please bless me with the motivation to actually finish the parts for this series... #i have too many half started drafts ughhhhh

[astralwaifu]

Hi! Hi! Hi!!!

Remember me? It's the one who encouraged to do the genshin character compatibility trend i have been dying to do! Unfortunately, i couldn't find the person who i saw started this trend so here i am in your ask box doing this. So i guess you know how this thing works- like you send three characters to see your compatibility with, and then you send a little bit of info about yourself such as personality and hobbies. I love that trend so much and as much as i wanna stay sane, i wanna know if my favorites will actually match or vibe with me ehehehehe-

So anyways! Let's start!!!

Characters : Pantalone, Venti, and Diluc!!! My favorites!!!

Apperance (ft. Picrew) :

About me : So technically, i am currently a drained out student (and help me school starts soon), but i am studious and hardworking! My problem is, i cannot seem to focus on one topic at a time and i ended up forgetting things. I don't socialize much, yet i would always greet people with a smile. But i never had anyone else to share what i have on my mind (usually books and my own ideas) and i tend to overshare and sometimes change the topic that it gets all too confusing. I only have two hobbies, reading and listening to music. And i pretty much wanna stay indoors all the time and then be alone in a pretty, fairy-tale like place in nature sometimes. I am very much clingy, and somewhat get attached way too easily. And yes i do require headpats and cuddles because i never got any affection. And i get easily irritated and when i am pissed i get too far, sometimes. Yet i just want cuddles and affection because i am lonely, lol. Oh and i love stuffed animals and books and sweet-scented perfume as an addition. Also i have a fear of spiders, i pray at least someone can get rid of them for me. That is all ✨️✨️✨️

Author’s note: Heyya! Sorry it took a couple days, I got my nails done and can’t type as fast as before! We changed Pantalone with Welt from HSR, because for some unknown reason I can’t write him. Anywaaay, I hope you’ll enjoy this! Sending all my hugs to u. <3

Venti

I have a strong feeling that his outer persona is your inner one, so you sort of complete eachother in a way none of you really expected.

Although it would take a while to get used to his extrovert self, since you seem to be pretty much introvert, the moment you decide you are comfortable enough you’ll see a big change. Meaning - EXPECT UNENDING AFFECTION AND CUDDLES!!!

I swear Venti wouldn’t be able to keep his hands off of you - always needs to give you reassurance and to have you close to him. Would totally do the thing where he squeezes your hand three times to silently tell you he loves you.

Would show you the most beautiful views in Mondstadt, he knows every place worth seeing and knows which one will leave you absolutely breathless.

Whether you like it or not, he will sing to you all the time. You like a certain song? Expect to hear to it singed by Venti for the next two weeks, until you physically can’t listen to it anymore.

A small issue would be that he constantly need to be around people, to interact and be present, which you’ll find a little tiring. Loves to annoy you too so he could get a reaction out of you. Don’t worry tho, he will never cross your boundaries!

Overall, on a scale from one to ten, I’d give your compatibility an 8.5 .

Diluc

The moment I finished reading about you I immediately thought that Diluc is the one.

It’s just that the two of you are fairly similar, both in the way you are around others (although you are quite a pleasant presence, Diluc is just more grumpy) and in the way you share the same wish in your heart - to be loved by someone, held amd cherished despite your flaws.

And I can say that the two of you do a pretty good job at that. Main love language between you is physical touch, since both of you are touch starved. When you are around others PDA is kept to the minimum, but when the two of you are alone HE WILL BE ON YOU ALWAYS! Holding your hand absolutely everywhere you go in the Dawn Winery and around its domain, random back hugs and normal hugs, headpats whenever he sees you around the house.

Also kisses on the crown of your head and forehead (they are Diluc’s favourite form of intimacy), which make you feel so special and seen.

He will always find time for you despite his busy schedule. His favourite activity together is reading in silence next to eachother, shoulders touching, but each doinh his own thing. He is the type of person that would put your legs over his during this to help you sitt mor comfortable. You will absolutely fall asleep in his lap like that.

Carries you to bed when that happens - no one can change my mind !!!

The two of you strike me as that couple that doesn’t really fight and not because you ignore your problems. You really don’t have reasons to fight.

Did I mention you will never have to worry about bugs again? :)

He is THE MAN - 10/10 compatibility.

Welt

Loves to take care of you in any possible way he can. Mans just trying to make you feel as safe and as comfortable as he can. He loves you too much to have you feeling bad about yourself or lonely.

Indulges in all your little habits such as going rants whenever you find something you love. He’s listening to every word carefully, absorbing information. You will maybe think he doesn’t care, but in the next couple days you will find a lot of things related to your new book or idea in your room on the Astral Express.

He’s more mature and a big stand-offish, so expect cuddles only when you request them or really really need them. Doesn’t really initiate this kind of things. You will however have your hand held and head pat by him at all times.

Saved you more than once from Himeko’s bad tasting coffee.

His main love language would be quality time, you will find yourself sitting next to him anytime, anywhere, each doing his own thing.

Whenever the Astral Express stops on a new planet for a trailblazing expedition, he will take you on cute dates and a walk in the nature.

He gives me a 7 vibe. Maybe 7.5-8.

And little note to u : all of them would find you absolutely beautiful because, honestly, who wouldn’t?

#genshin impact x reader #genshin impact #honkai star rail x reader #honkai star rail #venti #venti x reader #diluc ragnvindr #diluc x reader #welt yang #welt x reader

[eviltext]

ok here’s the thing.

some of u probably know by now that i like to over-explain and overshare a lot and take things literally sometimes and not discern when someone is fucking with me. this is due to many different (assumed) medical, cultural, circumstantial, situational etc reasons that i’mnot gonna go into at the moment. not the time for that. anyway it’s a part of my personality and stifling it feels awful and not genuine to who i am. it feels like im putting on a front and self-censoring or whateer. most of my friends, close and not, know about this trait of mine, they accept it or ignore it or work around it etc we live in a society. sometimes i get carried away and need to be reminded to stay on topic or if im being oblivious to some inside joke or what fucjing ever you get it. not a problem. (amazingly) i am on good terms with a lot of people, i consider some of them my friends. and most of these people either accept, work around or ignore this motherfucking charafter trait. okay. sure. we live in a sort of isolated community we need to make way for others’ quirks and stuff. all of said friends and acquaintances have their respective weird traits and quirks that i also personally accept, ignore or work around. give and take. right. SO. what im getting at here. there’s this person. their trait is being really rude and jokingly mean and very frank and outspoken about their thoughts. cool! we love honesty. not a problem right? well. my problem is i try to ignore their scathing remarks but like cmon if you get told to go fuck yourself enough times you must feel a little bit bad at least. and like. it wouldve been ok if we were just you know normal friends who have normal banter. whatevre. what’s a little go fuck yourself between friends. but no. to rub salt into the wound, this motherfucker had a really bad crush on me and we even tried to date for a couple of weeks, during which i poured my soul out to them to a certain degree. as you do. they know why i talk too much. they know why i overexplain. in turn i know why they swear at people so much and why they speak so brashly as a form of familiarity. we had our moments or whatever. we parted as friends and on good terms. we are in one friend group and regularly hang out together. is it too much to ask to idk not call me annoying in front of like five different people. like come on. i know. please don’t rub it in. so the thing is i will never get used to this and they will never change. i am well aware it’s too muchbto ask to alter their personality to fit mine. just like it’s too much to ask the opposite. im not going to confront them. im not going to bring this up to our mutual friends. there’s really no way out of this but to vent to you guys and cope and hunker down and take it. i know. but it just feels bad. they’re being mean. i really needed this off my chest lol if you read all this you’re really nosy (joking. i love you)

#p #rant/vent whatevererer #friendships are difficult.

[phil-lesterfan]

4, 22, and 61 for the ask game

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you?

“a pleasure to have in class.” also creative :) i was quiet and bookish and usually writing stories or making comics when we had free time. i used to make my own books and my teachers would read them and put them in our class library ^_^ (copy+pasted from prev ask sorry haha)

22. role model?

amazingphil / phil lester !! i’ve looked up to him ever since i was a kid, like <10 years old. i just think he’s so cool and creative. back when youtube was at its peak, i feel like he and jenna marbles were kind of the brains behind all the “challenges” and “tags” that existed. i also like how he keeps to himself and values his privacy — i have a bad habit of oversharing, but i hold that same value. especially bc in the past i have had a very strong online presence, so it’s good to know what to keep personal and to yourself and what you just… put out there.

and then there’s the fact that he’s driven and gets what he wants; dan jokingly calls him a “sell out”, but it’s like to me if phil wants to do something, it will get done one way or another. and how he went to got his masters for video editing, and also when you can tell he enjoys things. plus, he sticks strongly to his, like… image, which can seem shallow, i know, but when he wanted to keep things more pg, he was so careful about it, and he’s so considerate of his viewers (i’ve made a post abt this in the past, how he reassured the audience he and dan are friends, when i know, if i were a creator, i wouldn’t have even thought abt that fear ppl have).

i know i’m getting parasocial, and phil could be an absolute menace off camera (i’m choosing to ignore what others have said abt him — that he’s really just a decent person 😭), but what he does choose to show, i really respect and admire. also, him coming out and having pride just really makes me happy, especially as a lesbian who has struggled with her sexuality. he makes me feel like things can get better, and seeing gay people older than me be happy and successful is really fulfilling.

61. favourite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?

GOD. asking this of a past english and creative writing student is just. cruel.

“dogfish” by mary oliver has inspired my own poetry.

“I wanted / the past to go away, I wanted / to leave it, like another country; […] You don’t want to hear the story / of my life, and anyway / I don’t want to tell it, I want to listen / to the enormous waterfalls of the sun.”

and a certain scene in rosencrantz and guildenstern are dead helped me work through shit about 5 years ago

“… [T]hat isn’t what makes it death. It’s just a man failing to reappear, that’s all — now you see him, now you don’t, that’s the only thing that’s real: here one minute and gone the next and never coming back….”

lastly, and i’m really limiting myself here as i could go on about quotes all day, a quote from the best manga of all time, the cat proposed (化け猫かたって候) by hayane dento

“… Someone, somewhere in this city, is getting ready to take a plunge. Somewhere, a child is crying. Someone has come to a stop, so weighed down that they can’t go any further. I’m holding Kihachi’s hand. He is telling stories again today, stories that may or may not save someone else. And I … am thinking about writing my own story. I’ll start by writing the first letter / of the first word.”

i did not mean for these answers to get so long but one question let me talk about phil (favourite person) while the other let me talk about quotes (i’m in love with writing and language). like. oops but also not really. AUGH. thank u for the ask ^_^ <3

#ask #aq-uatic

[integratelier]

My Take on This Year’s Ramadhan

With Ramadhan will be over in less than a week, I’m suddenly in comptemplative mood and actually found some things about myself that, upon reflecting for some time, are actually problems not only to myself but also to others, and being the thick-skulled self-centered guy that I am, it took me THIS LONG (we’re talking about the span of several years here, not just the last month) to realize.

So, the problem thing is: I tend to overshare things. Like, I’m the type that want to share funny, interesting things I found online, and it has not been much of a problem before because none of my friends called me for it, so I thought they were fine with it. Turned out they weren’t 😂 (go figure 🫠)

There’s this incident where one of my friends actually called it quits in front of a lot of our other friends. They think the state of our chat group was too rowdy with the abundance of short messages, and it’s disturbing their work when the notifs kept going on and on and on. My first instinct was to disagree (like, when ur at work why don’t u turn off ur notif), but then again I tend to see other perspectives when I have spent time thinking on it… and I kinda see that I was the one who posted the most there, and therefore I was kinda the person who started the whole rowdiness “comment and discussion” on the matter (there weren’t a lot of debate, thank God, but there were commenting each other and sometimes the conversation could go on quite long, especially when it’s the topic we all interested in).

So I tried not posting anything there anymore unless there was very important news (there haven’t been up till today, so I haven’t been posting anything over there the last few days), and voila… the chat group actually became very calm 😂 This does mean that I was the progenitor of the notification problem 🫠

The other thing I just found out recently is that… there’s this friend to whom I mostly shared fictions (novels, webtoons, anime, even reaction videos, etc). Our tastes are SOOOO different it’s like heaven and earth, so I never shared with the intention of recommending those stories to them. So like, there wasn’t any real purpose in telling them what I was reading other than just sharing.

Sometimes, I found myself feeling uncomfortable after some “comment and discussion”. The thing is, I have been really liking stupid romance stories in which there are a lot of chiches and romantic tropes and a disastrous amount of comedy and sugary fluff. In my opinion, the story is interesting because of the stupidity in it. I mean, not every stories have to be some serious world-saving adventure where the main character has to traverse the earth and beyond to steal or destroy some potentially apocalyptic relic… although I do enjoy such stories too.

I received this kind of comment time and again, “Are you so smart that you find entertainment in stupid things?” I’m like… is this a jab or what? (sarcasm be like: flying over my head) BUT! Wait a sec, we banter all the time, and I’m sure there was no malice in what they said. It’s just some harmless comment… or, intended to be. But the emotionally inept me needs THIS LONG to realize that I actually don’t like that comment 😂 It’s because in my head, that comment sounds like, “You feel so smart that you look down on us imbecilic peasants who make the stupid story you laugh at.” Their intention notwithstanding.

I mean… I don’t know how they feel about my laughing at romcom stories, maybe they aren’t bothered by it at all… and it was all really just harmless-intentioned comment and their way of joking, but that’s how I feel hearing those words and I think my feelings are valid 🤨

My solution is: spare myself some unpleasantness by avoiding sharing every interesting thing I find. Keep it to a minimum. Think, and rethink, before forwarding random contents to my friends.

It’s kinda hard when posting things have been a reflex 😂 But, I’m big on Ramadhan is the best moment to start a new habit, so I wanna try that. I hope that after Ramadhan is over, I have built myself a more careful persona who doesn’t shitpost. I mean… there IS a hadith saying that a person who relays everything they hear is a liar 🫠

Fingers crossed hoping I come out of Ramadhan a better person 😊

[sommer-girl]

Tuesday, November 8 — 160 Characters or Less: Write a story using either Tweets or entirely in texts between characters. (This is a one-shot prompt, not something you do with others.)

An (abridged) log of Discord messages between annafiction and klara_reads

TW: Mentions of family issues, rough parent relationships, homophobia

(just a side note that there are messages omitted, this is just for the ~vibe)

15 March 2020

**Incoming Friend Request: klara_reads**

klara_reads: Ok people are pretty strict about spoilers in the main chat so I figured I’d message you on the side lol klara_reads: But you are SO right that ending was bullshit klara_reads: It wasn’t even satisfying like I know I’m biased as a Lizabelle shipper but it isn’t even aBOUT that!!!

annafiction: omg no i agree annafiction: 100% annafiction: idec about who liza ends up with i just think that killing the objectively BEST character for NO REASON is so bad annafiction: ugh it was such a good book and then it couldn’t stick the landing i don’t wanna say it ruined the whole thing but like...

klara_reads: LITERALLY klara_reads: At least someone else is on the same page lol

23rd March 2020

annafiction: omg i LOVED ur fic!!!! annafiction: like no pressure but i’m so excited for the next chapter :)

klara_reads: Aww thank you Anna!!! klara_reads: Someday I am converting everyone to the Lizabelle side hehe

annafiction: no but lowkey the way you wrote liza annafiction: so good like i never even thought about her that way before annafiction: ugh i FELT it

klara_reads: Oh my gosh thank you klara_reads: I feel like we as a fandom don’t talk about Liza’s childhood enough like how LONELY that must have been klara_reads: Also uhhh maybe projecting a little bit of my own shit here hahaha klara_reads: #JustGrowingUpInTheMiddleOfNowhereThings

annafiction: sAME THO annafiction: i mean actually i live in a pretty big city but my dad is rlly strict so its like  annafiction: i might as well be living in the hinterlands like liza lol

klara_reads: Oof klara_reads: Yeah I know what you mean klara_reads: Just you wait once you get to college it’s so much better I promise klara_reads: Like ok I still live in the middle of nowhere but at least everyone doesn’t know about all my family’s shit here lol klara_reads: Sorry not to overshare

annafiction: no ur good i get it annafiction [deleted] : hahaha you wanna talk about family shit annafiction: i am soooo excited to go to uni like AHH im so jealous of u

klara_reads: It’s the best haha

26th March 2020

annafiction: sorry i fell asleep annafiction: CURSE YOU TIME ZONES!!!!!

klara_reads: Lol you’re good I figured!!!! klara_reads: Spent the rest of the night working on a new chapter >:)

annafiction: AHHHHH

klara_reads: Hahaha  klara_reads: For real though I really appreciate that you’ve been hyping up my stuff in the main it’s really nice

annafiction: of course!!! i rlly love it i’m so serious

klara_reads: It just really motivates me to keep writing like I know I should be just doing it for myself but it’s nice

annafiction: i don’t think there’s anything wrong with that tbh. like i don’t write fic or anything but when ppl comment on my reviews and stuff it makes me want to keep doing them

klara_reads: Lol that sweet sweet AO3 kudos dopamine rush

annafiction: 😂😂

2 April 2020

annafiction: hey i know this is a big ask so like no worries if not annafiction: but i figure since ur a really good writer!!!! and since we’ve been talking a lot ab uni and stuff!!!  annafiction: would you maybe have a minute to like a a quick look at my personal statement for this school?

klara_reads: OMG of course!!!! klara_reads: I am so excited for you omg I would be happy to

annafiction: ur the best 😭

9 April 2020

klara_reads: Ok... not to be this person klara_reads: But WHAT is alyssa talking about 

annafiction: girl i wish i knew 😂

klara_reads: Sorry I just klara_reads: WHAT klara_reads: There is NO way she got an arc for a book that pubs in 2022 klara_reads: I am positive that arcs dont even EXIST rn klara_reads: Is the book even WRITTEN

annafiction: i really dont like to call ppl liars but... annafiction: i mean come on... that kindle pic looked fishy...

klara_reads: Me rn

annafiction: HAHAHA IM CRYING

25 April 2020

annafiction: KLARA

klara_reads: ANNA

annafiction: GUESS WHAT

klara_reads: WHAT

annafiction: I GOT IN!!!!

klara_reads: AAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!! klara_reads: ANNNNNNAAAAAAA!!!!!! klara_reads: I KNEW YOU WOULD!!!!

annafiction: i couldn’t have done it without you!!!!!

klara_reads: Of course you could have :P klara_reads: But congratulations I’m happy for you :DD

annafiction: thank you!!!!! <333333

klara_reads: How are you gonna celebrate?

annafiction: oh we’re not gonna do anything huge annafiction: idk i haven’t mentioned it to my parents yet

klara_reads: You should tell them!!!!

annafiction: yeah i will!!!! annafiction [deleted]: its complicated annafiction: idk i think its bittersweet for them haha annafiction: you know the vibe

klara_reads: Yeah I get that klara_reads: But they will be happy for you. Everyone has to learn to let go at some point. klara_reads: My parents were weird about me going to school out here at first but they got over it.

annafiction: yeah i’m sure mine will too

29 April 2020

annafiction: oh my god annafiction: sdjkfhaksljdfhaslf annafiction: ok im really sorry im just freaking out my dad is saying i can’t go to pride u

klara_reads: What? What happened?

annafiction: isn’t it like 3 am for you

klara_reads: You know me I don’t sleep lol klara_reads: But back up what do you mean?

annafiction: ugh its a really long story idk im sorry i just didnt know who else to talk to

klara_reads: Don’t apologize!! Do you want to talk about it?

annafiction: idk i just annafiction: i feel CRAZY annafiction: i feel like he’s making me out to be this horrible person just bc  annafiction: ugh ok this is a whole other thing annafiction: i dont rlly talk ab it in main bc idk its hard but my mum has some health issues and he’s saying i shouldnt go anywhere right now

klara_reads: Oh my god I’m so sorry klara_reads: Is she okay? If you don’t mind me asking?

annafiction: yeah no sorry u can ask, it’s a long story but basically she got cursed when i was little and it’s just been different things since then annafiction: and its nothing in particular happening right now its the same things as always and i DO feel bad but i mean i’m not just gonna live at home forever annafiction: and i’m gonna visit!!!!  annafiction: and now he’s saying i should just do school online annafiction: fhalksjfhaskl i dont know what to do

klara_reads: Okay #1 I am really sorry that is shitty klara_reads: You are not a bad person for wanting to go to uni even if there’s stuff going on at home.  klara_reads: But it’s gonna be okay. There will be a way. 

annafiction: what if i just never leave this freaking house annafiction: im gonna spend my whole stupid life here and im never gonna get to do anything annafiction: i hate this so much its so unfair

klara_reads: I know it looks that way right now, but trust me, it will work out klara_reads: We’ll find a way klara_reads: I’ll help you

annafiction: u dont have to do that 

klara_reads: No I want to klara_reads: It’s not the same situation but I feel like I was kind of in a similar situation when I was in high school klara_reads: I didn’t have to do it on my own and neither should you

annafiction: thanks klara annafiction: ur the best <3

22 June 2020

klara_reads: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! annafiction: THANK YOU!!!!!

25 June 2020

klara_reads: Heeeeey you can totally say no klara_reads: But do you want to beta read something....

annafiction: hmmm let me think about it annafiction: uhhh DUH!!!!!!!

30 June 2020

annafiction: we still on for movie night???

klara_reads: Yes!!! Give me five mins to get set up

annafiction: 🎉

7 July 2020

klara_reads: so............ i did the thing

annafiction: THE thing?!?!?!?!

klara_reads: 🌈 Eeeeeek

annafiction: HOW DID IT GO

klara_reads: Better than I thought tbh klara_reads: My mom started crying though because I can’t get married in a Catholic church or something and I’m like girl I haven’t been Catholic for a hot minute

annafiction: lol annafiction: I’M SO PROUD OF YOU!!!! annafiction: u don’t need to get married in a church anyway u need to get married on a cliff like lizabelle ;)

klara_reads: U get me!!!!!

24 July 2020

klara_reads: Wow I did not expect that to be controversial klara_reads: You ok???

annafiction: hahaha yeah i’m fine annafiction: i just hope ppl aren’t mad at me

klara_reads: Ur allowed to have an opinion lol

annafiction: yeah i KNOW im just like eeek annafiction: i guess i can see how geoldie could be problematic but!!! idk i just think they’re cute!!!! and i rlly just love that song so i wanted to share the amv annafiction: did not expect it to explode like that annafiction: its fine lol i’m just prob gonna tap out for the night

klara_reads: Ok I just wanted to check klara_reads: Lmk if you wanna watch a movie or something

15 August 2020

annafiction: ok i submitted another app for pride u annafiction: told my dad annafiction: with that thing i told u i was gonna say annafiction: he said he’s gonna think about it...

klara_reads: !!!!!!! klara_reads: keep me posted!!!!!!!!!!! klara_reads: you got this girl <3

11 January 2021

annafiction: sorry its been a minute busy with school stuff but HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! MISS YOU GIRLY

klara_reads: Awww thanks Anna!! I hope you’re having the time of your life. Looks like it from your Insta

annafiction: ugh i love it here annafiction: we gotta call and catch up

klara_reads: Yes!!!! klara_reads: So much to tell you too klara_reads: Ummmmm :)

annafiction: WHAT

klara_reads: I mayyyy have a girlfriend :)

annafiction: KLARA!!!!!!!!!!!! annafiction: ok u MUST fill me in  annafiction: are u free this weekend to talk?

klara_reads: Yes!!!!

annafiction: can’t wait :)))

#swynwrimo #swynwrimo2022 #a love letter to online friends <3

[capseycartwright]

theres a ticking clock hanging over my head, now.

four weeks left of classes.

eight weeks of thesis writing.

twelve weeks until i move home.

seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, all inevitably counting down to the day i put myself on a train and leave, no plans to return - not in a year, not in two, maybe never.

theres a ticking clock that reminds me my time here isn’t infinite, that its coming to an end, and its coming to an end faster than i’m ready for, june feeling as though its only around the corner now, not an abstract concept that i never felt i really needed to think about.

i think about it now.

i think about how i might never live in the same place as the people who’ve become so much more than friends to me, who’ve become family over the past seven months. i think about how i won’t be able to go for coffee with my best friends, or to the market, or dancing on a friday night.

i think about how that maybe one day, our lives may go in such separate directions that all that will remain is a years worth of happy memories. happy memories that are etched into every cobblestone, every street corner, every inch of this city that’s become something i never expected it to be - home.

twelve weeks.

it doesn’t feel like long enough to do all the things i want to do, to see all the places i want to see, to have all the adventures we’ve spent a cold, wet winter planning.

i’ve lost six minutes of the time i have left here writing this.

tick, tock.

its deafening now, the realisation none of this will last forever, that it was never supposed to be forever, it wasn’t built to be the rest of my life - all it ever was, all it ever will be, is a pitstop, a year of unapologetic adventure and learning, a year spent in a new place, with new people, with a new me.

a year thats close to over, now.

four weeks left of classes.

eight weeks of thesis writing.

twelve weeks until i move away from a place i’ve come to know as home

#my writing tag #ok i wrote this like three weeks ago and its dramatic af but i; #i'm proud of it tbh #and i mean who am i if i am not oversharing my thoughts here u know #anyways i wanted to save it in a place i wont lose it #the year abroad #in which i ramble #personal / #anyways ignore me

[ssamie]

epilogue. “your girlfriend’s kinda hot”

kozume kenma x fem dazai!reader

(bsd x hq)

tw: mentions of suicide and suggestive themes + dirty jokes

masterlist.          suicide freak!

"hey uh, welcome to my stream i guess" he said as he spared the camera a quick glance "im not really playing tonight because an incident has recently occurred in this household" kenma said with a tired sigh 

nobody else knew it, but the said 'incident' was y/n accidentally setting half of their living room on fire 

the reason? apparently, she wanted to try burning herself to death in the furnace. obviously, it didn't work. and all that's left from that is more shit for kenma to clean up and a trip to yosano-san. 

kenma is stressed. and y/n is still alive. both of them are facing problems. 

"can you please wear a maid outfit- no."

kenma shook his head as he continued playing, glancing at the chat once in a while to read the veiwers' questions and comments

╭─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╮

user: how about cat ears?! 

user: ^^ cATBOY CATBOY CATBOY 

user: u suck at this game wtf

kuroo.tetsu: hey kenma ;) 

╰─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╯

"first of all, i do not suck at minecraft thank you very much" kenma scoffed 

"second of all, go away kuroo. im still mad at you" 

╭─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╮

user: LMFAOOO kuroo what did u do?? 💀💀

user: he probably broke kenma's pc 

user: PLSS he's the one kenma’s throwing shade at on twitter 

kuroo.tetsu: STOP THE SLANDER 😔✋🏼

user: rooster head lookin ass 

user: ^^ NOT THE HAIR 

kuroo.testsu: 😃😃

╰─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╯

kenma sighed as he continued building a cute little cottage. he was currently vibing, just building y/n a cute cottage for her to probably burn later on. 

and he decided it would be nice to go on stream since his oh-so-lovely girlfriend was still out for work. 

ah yes, kenma has somehow kept y/n alive all those years. 

barely. 

hence why his phone was being bombarded with messages from her, all of which being blurry selfies. 

the photos had her sporting a huge grin while atsushi panicked in the background. 

╭─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╮

user: ayo, ur phone's blowing up 

user: do you have a girlfriend? 

user: KODZUKEN LET ME SUCK UR TOES 😋😋🤩

user: ^ ayo chill 😃

╰─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╯

kenma simply ignored them and continued on with his task. all was going well until a loud slam was heard. his cat-like eyes widened as he heard a familiar voice singing from downstairs, it was undoubtedly y/n. 

kenma chuckled nervously and muted his mic. 

but of course, cute dumb catboy didn't actually mute his mic. haha <3

he ignored all the questions in the chat, all of them being  speculations that he has a girlfriend. which he does, but they simply did not need to know that <3

"kenma~" she yelled out "i have a surprise for you!!" she said, followed by menacing giggles. 

kenma glanced at the camera before hopping off his gaming chair and peeking his head out of the door. 

"y/n, im streaming!! stay down there!" he yelled out in panic 

"aw, you're playing hard to get aren't ya?" she chuckled 

kenma deadpanned as he saw her limping up the stairs, with her bandages torn and unravelled, same with her clothes. he didn't really think much of it since this is usually how she comes home. 

its most likely just due to work and/or another suicide attempt.

"so, kenma.. you'll never know what just happened to me today" she started off with a goofy grin 

"im streaming, atleast let me turn it off first-" 

she paid no mind to him as she peeled off her ruined coat and pointed to her poorly bandaged stomach

"i got stabbed!" 

"you got what?!"

kenma furrowed his brows as he immediately rushed over to his side, cradling her face and waist as he inspected her injuries

"are you okay, kitten?" he asked worriedly 

"yep, apparently it wasnt deep enough to be fatal" she sighed dejectedly 

"please don't be sad about that." kenma groaned "can you undress?" 

"ara ara~ whats this?" she cooed "you're getting real bold, kenma" she smirked at him 

she unbuttoned her shirt and started pulling down on her skirt "but since you asked so nicely-" 

kenma simply sighed and shook his head. "i was gonna prepare you a bath but now im considering leaving you here to die" 

"but the second option would've been better though" she smiled at him 

"oh my fucking god." 

kozume kenma. (22)

╰─▸ university student, stock trader, pro-gamer, youtuber, ceo of bouncing ball lpt. 

╰─▸ y/n's struggling boyfriend. definitely needs a pay after all he's been through.

╰─▸ currently panicking because his girlfriend got stabbed.

l/n y/n. (22)

╰─▸ operative/member of the armed detective agency. 

╰─▸ kenma's girlfriend. kinda dumb, very hot to compensate for it. still hasn't died yet. 

╰─▸ currently bleeding and wounded. also hoping for severe blood loss.

"kenma, did you know" she mused in a teasing tone "lack of sleep and too much stress could possibly lead to poor memory and lack of awareness" 

kenma looked up at her with a look of confusion. he was currently kneeled down before her while she was sat on the bed as he cleaned her wound up with a damp towel. 

"why are you telling me this?" he asked 

"i just thought it probably applied to you" she snickered 

"why? i didnt forget anything-" 

he cut himself off with a huge intake of air. he slowly turned his head to look at the screen which still had his stream going on. to make it worse, the camera was on and they were both clearly in the camera's field of view. 

to make things worse worse, his mic was on the whole time and the live chat was in shambles. 

"i hate it here" he sighed 

kenma laid his head on her lap as he continued on patching her up, honestly not caring that this whole scene was being recorded for thousands or millions of people to see. 

"well, atleast the internet could finally see my beauty before i die" she laughed 

she ran her fingers through kenma's hair as he grumbled under his breath. kenma was a pretty private person. he made sure not to overshare, given his current 'influencer' status. and he was planning on keeping his relationship a secret, though it seems he can't do that anymore. 

"might as well say hi" she shrugged 

so of course, she then decided to walk up to the camera looking utterly dishevelled and roughed up. 

for context, the newly wrapped bandages around her stomach was being stained already by a crimson red hue and it was only getting worse the more she moved, undoubtedly messing up her wound. 

"hi, im kenma's girlfriend and if i see you flirting with him i will make you regret it" she grinned 

"y/n!" kenma groaned from the bed "you're close to dying right now, turn the stream off" 

ignoring him, she proceeded to read the veiwers' comments, laughing at some of them while she joked around. 

╭─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╮

user: heLLO?!?! 

user: GE HAS A GIRLFRIEND NOOO

user: bruh, did i just hear that right? were you fuckin stabbed? 

user: ur kinda hot tho

╰─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╯

kenma furrowed his brows as he reluctantly walked up behind her, reading the comments with varying reactions 

╭─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╮

user: well damn, hot bloody girl comes in and suddenly im lesbian

user: kenma looks so done

kuroo.tetsu: hi y/n ;) 

user: HER NAME IS Y/N

╰─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╯

"jesus christ shut up, kuroo" kenma grumbled out with a sigh 

"yup! yup! im y/n, and no, i am not a criminal. i swear." she shook her head 

"i got an injury from my job, that's all." she cleared up 

╭─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╮

user: tangina nyo sana ol

user: MSKAKAKKA

user: THIS IS LOWKEY ICONIC

user: time to scratch another gamer boy off my possible bf list 😔

user: girl wtf happened to u

user: that's wack bro 🚶‍♀️

╰─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╯

"great question, random person from the internet!" she beamed "see, what happened was.." 

"i went on a certain mission and got severely injured. though, when i called for help nobody responded" she said 

kenma furrowed his brows at her words. "why didn't anybody respond?" he asked. she sighed and fiddled with her torn bandages, pouting her lips as she does so. 

"well, when i told them that i was finally on death's door, all they said to me was 'congratulations!' and all that.." she said "what's your take on that, hm?" she asked kenma 

"im not surprised" he said 

she grinned at his words and leaned in for a kiss. "you're so mean to me, kenma~" she whined 

she licked her lips as she held his blushing face in her hands, she nuzzled their noses as she leaned in closer to him. 

╭─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╮

kuroo.tetsu: oh shit 😳

user: we all know where this is heading ;) 

user: sana ol talaga punyemas 

user: AYO CHILL 

user: why we goin so fuckin fasstttt 😳

╰─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╯

kenma hastily turned the camera off as soon as y/n's lips touched his. 

"kitten, were still- hmph-" 

he was only silenced as she slipped her tongue in his mouth, smirking lightly as she ran her fingers through his hair 

"thanks babe." she said as she pulled away, giving him a soft peck on his cheek and a nod "anyways.." she hummed as she turned the camera on once again 

she looked through the chat while kenma slaps his face to get rid of his blush. 

╭─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╮

user: ur fuckin freaky 

kuroo.tetsu: oya oya 😼😼

user: MS MAAM I JUST MET U AND I LOVE U ALREADY WJABSJSJJS

user: not me blushing chiiilllleeeeee 🏃‍♀️

user: KENMA IS FLUSTERED

kuroo.tetsu: kenma, i didnt expect this from u 😼

user: im so fucking JEALOUS GRR😡

user: girl r u bleeding rn 😃

╰─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╯

upon reading a certain comment, she subconsciously grazed her fingers against her bandaged wound. her eyes slightly widening as she felt a concerning amount of wetness seeping through

she glanced at kenma who was still calming himself down and inspected her wound 

"oh my.." she muttered, though she couldn't help but let a smile slip through 

so like any normal person would do, she simply ignored her bleeding wound and the fact that she was getting a bit lightheaded. haha <3

"anyways, let's answer some questions!" she beamed 

╭─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╮

user: what's ur full name

user: what's ur job miss girl 

user: are you possibly looking for a gf, because i am more 

than willing to take the spot 🚶‍♀️

user: how did you meet?? 

╰─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╯

"alright, those are all very nice questions" she chuckled. kenma, who's now calmed down, sat down beside her to look at the chat. 

"first, im l/n y/n" she mused "nice to meet ya" 

"second im a detective! mhm, im cooler than your fathers" 

"third, it depends, belladonna" she cooed as she sent the camera flirty smirk "are you perhaps willing to join me in a double suicide?" 

"oh god.." kenma grumbled. he pouted at her and shook his head in disapproval. "don't flirt with random girls" he whined 

"why not?" 

"uh- because i am your beloved boyfriend, is that not good enough of a reason??" 

"... anyways, we met at a cafe way back in high school" she said with a smile "also, i asked him to join me on a double suicide" she said 

she was smiling and nodding as if it was the most normal thing in the world, all while kenma nods along 

╭─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╮

user: wtf are u okay 🗿

kuroo.tetsu: teenage romance 🤩

user: cute ❤️

user: im concerned ❤️

user: ur a detective?? cool

user: LMAOO I'LL GO ON A DOUBLE SEWER SLIDE 

WITH U MOMMY 😩😩😋

user: ^^ SAME 😩

user: CHOKE ME WITH THOSE BANDAGES MOMMAE 😩

user: u r still bleeding 🚶‍♀️        

╰─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╯

kenma was simply glaring at the chat as more compliments and flirtatious comments came flowing in, all of which were directed to his girlfriend. 

"this is why i didn't wanna let people know about you.." kenma grumbled 

"aww, why not?" she asked with a playful pout 

"people are flirting with you." he sighed "also, stop asking for my girlfriend's onlyfans! she doesn't even have one!" he snarled

╭─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╮

user: LMAOO CATBOY IS ANGRY 😩

user: y/n-senpai spit on me 😡😡

user: drop the onlyfans 

user: chupapi munyanyo 😩

╰─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╯

"anyways, i'd hate to ruin the mood" she chimed in with a sluggish giggle "but im so wet kenma" she whined out 

a menacing smirk was etched on her lips as kenma spluttered in response, a bright red hue covering his face almost instantly as he faced her with widened eyes 

"y-y/n! why would you say that?!" he whisper shouted 

"cuz i am" she whined out as she grabbed his hand and trailed it down her abdomen 

she faced the camera and gave them a shit-eating grin as kenma mumbled out incoherent words 

"y/n we should-" he cut himself off as he felt the concerning amount of blood drip down his whole arm 

kenma's face paled as he looked up to see her smiling like a kid in a candy store, completely unbothered. 

"y/n, you idiot! why didn't you tell me!" kenma exclaimed 

"um- my girlfriend is bleeding. excessively. so uh- bye i guess" it was all he said before hastily ending his stream and turning off his computer. 

"y/n, let's get you to a hospital" he said as he reached down to carry her away. though she simply slapped his hands off and closed her eyes. 

"nope. this is my time, kenma. don't ruin it for me" she said 

"you're fucking dying!!" 

"well, would you like to join me?" 

"no"

"damn." she muttered in response 

"so...wanna fuck?" she asked sheepishly 

"for the love of god-" 

this was so messy :/

#haikyuu #haikyuu!! #haikyū!! #haikyu x reader #haikyuu x y/n #haikyuu x you #hq x you #kenma x you #kozume kenma #kozume x reader #hq kozume #kozume fluff #kozume x you #kozume x y/n #kenma x y/n #kenma x oc #kenma x fem!reader #kenma kozume #kuroo x y/n #kuroo testuro #nekoma #bungo stray dogs dazai #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs x reader #chuuya x y/n #chuuya x reader #osamu dazai #dazai x reader #tw: sucidal ideation #tw: sui mention

[laurelier]

MEG YOUR POST IS SO BEAUTIFUL??????!!?????????

just the whole perspective of ariel as someone who looks at eric and sees a romantic partner, but first and foremost herself, the truest reality of who she is? fuck me man. the movie does too well with hiding the trans theme behind the big fat love story but shit it's so clear. and ursula as a character inspired by a drag queen, who you so accurately describe as a mentor, a say-it-to-your-face gay aunt who prepares ariel for the real world. shit meg

i also wanted to say this part was beautiful and i find a lot of recognition in it and i have goosebumps again now

*overshare sirens*—this feeling of Ariel’s here, this oh shit, that should be me…….. to be just entirely too frank with you all, I like to imagine it’s not dissimilar to the way I personally feel when I look at Harry wearing clothes I wish I could wear in a way I wish I could wear them. The way he appears in his own self being the way I’d live in mine, if I could choose. Which sometimes I feel is me projecting at uncomfortable heights but—it’s just. It’s so powerful to see someone who, for you, for so many reasons, embodies a possibility you didn’t know existed before, a choice you didn’t know you could make.

Ok first of all—thank you???????????? so???? much????? I'm forcing myself to take the compliment first we're taking the compliment yes we're not deflecting. We're saying thank you. Mostly just thank you for reading? And responding?? For your tags?? For sending this ask????? For EVERYTHING???

More thoughts more thoughts for u, as usual I'm coming down from the high of reading tag reacts and leo's is related to this. All this shit is making me wanna write ANOTHER POST someone stop me about the way I think these two dumbass mfs that we spend so much time talking about fuck with the pronouns in their love songs to leave room for that very idea you laid out there, that loving someone deeply and profoundly and genuinely and openly is a road to the self. I'm not going to start making Home connections here. I won't do it. I won't do it to myself. No I will not I cannot I will not no thank u.

But yeah, like, that's there with E and A—Ariel sees someone she loves romantically, and also, in my mind equally or maybe even more, who represents a truer vision of herself. And I don’t at all say that to suggest that you ~find yourself in~ or ~are completed by~ anyone you fall in love with—rather the opposite, that we love those who remind us of ourselves, or who reflect us in a way that strengthens and confirms us. Shockingly enough I get real mushy about this: just like. How much more real it has made me feel, over the course of my lil life, when I've known that other people have truly seen me. Or when something about them has made me see myself. I don't mean, like, me asking anyone else to validate me or convince me of my worth—I mean identification, recognition. You are me. I am you.

And maaaaaannnnnnn the quote you pulled. That's from so deep in my little heart. Right now so few people in my life know that I feel that way—or, like, have heard me say that so honestly, you know? It's sitting right in the middle of my little chest that you see that and feel it and know it also. He's just. So important to me. His tender vulnerable soulful way of existing.

Thank you beautiful ellamerm thank you thank you thank you.

In reference to this

#ella theory #mermaidrry #asks

[shuuos]

I think you should ramble about those ocs. As a treat

anon you are so right and i will ramble about All Of Them right now

SO we’re starting off with the miraculous ocs and we’ve got Selkie, a seal-themed hero whose weapon is an ocarina that she can use for pied piper shit OR as a bludgeon bc i think it’s a funny mental image. they don’t have a civilian name and neither does their partner (yet) but their kwami’s name is Splaash! her partner is Swan Queen, who has a fancy ribbon baton that she uses to sap magic from other miraculous users and strengthen either herself or her partner, and his kwami is Cynng :D i don’t have any art of them rn but they definitely have some kind of performing arts theme (maybe opera singer for Selkie, DEFINITELY ballet dancer for Swan Queen)

uhhhh i’m thinking they live in milan bc again, performing arts, and they def know each other’s identity bc fuck it, i think it’d be very funny if they were besties and went to each other as soon as they got a Miraculous like “omg guess what happened”

the funny thing abt my kid icarus oc is that she’s actually been around forever but i kept updating her and then never talking abt it ANYWAYS! her name is Faolan and she’s the daughter of the goddess of justice (Dike) and a sorceress (Lupe), except Hecate, goddess of magic and wilderness bc yknow how kid icarus is with making up shit and then throwing in actual mythology in there, foresaw that Faolan was meant to be her successor and jumped to the conclusion that it meant she was going to kill her and take her place (it did not mean that) so Hecate tried to have Faolan killed, halfway succeeded, tried again, and then Faolan got her ass in self-defense and ended up taking her place anyways lol

she’s super not prepared for her new job, and is a lot more proactive than other gods when it comes to issues in other realms bc the concept of sending other people to do things for her is very weird to her and i love her for it. anyways here is a picrew i made of her (original picrew here)

and my marvel oc!!!! mx. Elliot Flores who is Definitely Not A Self-Insert I Prommy!!! (that’s only a half-lie. i thought it would be cool to make a character that i would play in the alternate universe where i am an actor and also a director)

the basic premise of their theoretical show is that a. dragons are real, b. there is a giant dragon in space that has the ability to manipulate…. space (which is why she is in space), and c. she has reached the end of her lifespan and is now looking for a replacement to keep her powers safe and possibly take up her role as the guardian of you guessed it: space, and once she dies her soul is send careening towards earth in the form of a shooting star/the last dragon firetear rip-off

so there are two people out there who are wanting to reach this shooting star first and their names are Stephen middle name Strange, sorcerer supreme, and Circe new character, aspiring girlboss supreme. Circe is the Bad Guy with Malicious Intent <- this is important for later

HOWEVER!! the dragon takes a look at both of them and is like “the vibes are completely off. i like that random kid walking by after an 11pm trip to the gas station better.” they end up becoming her replacement and have to deal with Circe trying to kill them + a whole bunch of other shit, yknow how it is. they chill at the Sanctum Sanctorum sometimes and Dr. Strange tries to teach them how to use their powers, uhhh they’ve got a mentor-mentee relationship except Dr. Strange thinks he’s a father figure and Elliot does not think that at all.

they get the nickname/superhero name Starcatcher bc. they got their powers by catching a “star”, and uh they want to be a cool, mysterious hero but they cannot stand to be by themself and they overshare with everyone they meet. i love them (original picrew here)

anyways tyvm for the opportunity to talk abt the characters i hardly ever talk abt i love them and i love u heart emoji

#ask #starcatcher #elliot flores #the only one i’m gonna tag bc they’re the only one with an official tag and i am lazy #anonymous

[keanan1501]

Notable swaps: Dream & Tubbo, Fundy & Ranboo, DreamXD & Micheal

TRIGGER WARNINGS: mentioned child death, attempted child murder, intrusive thoughts

Short synopsis: Tubbo escapes prison and heads to Logsteadshire to deal with Dream once and for all, instead he finds something intresting in Logsteadshire... or should i say someone? Tubbo swings his sword in a lazy arch, a pleased grin on his face as the sword's enchantments hum under his hand "This is perfect" he breathes, turning to face his three companions with a bright smile "You three did wonderfully! Sam, consider your debt repayed" The creeper hybrid huffs, eyeing Tubbo as if the younger male was nothing but dirt beneath his shoes "Whatever, just don't expect me to come running when that cranky hog starts chasing" Tubbo giggles, grabbing Sam's arm and pulling him down, allowing Tubbo to pet Sam like one would pet a dog, the ram hybrid is blissfully ignorant of the creeper hissing in protest "Awe, Sam~ It almost sounds like you care for me~" he coos, and his bright smile transforms into something more sinister "Let Techno come, i escaped his 'unescapeable' prison after all. There's nothing that stupid pig can do that i can't counter"

Sam nods, a short and tight one, before he turns around and takes a few steps away from the group "Also, Tubbo. Keep away from Fundy, or else" Tubbo blinks, tilting his head slightly as Sam walks off, he'd known Fundy had moved in with Sam and Ponk shortly after L'manburg exploded, but for someone like Sam, who had rumors surrounding him about his heartlessness, warming up to the cheeky fox hybrid? That was something he didn't expect, he could feel excitement bubbling inside of him, Fundy was his little spy, and Sam and Ponk were both very powerful people, if his motto wasn't "the higher the risk the better the reward" he would have felt fear, unfortunately for Sam and Ponk, he only sees this as a challenge.

"Tubbo, everything alright?" right, he isn't alone. "I'm fine, just scheming" Tubbo shrugs Purpled's concern off, and smiles at Tommy, who is looking at him like he hung the moon and stars just for the blond, maybe he had, the white streak in Tommy's hair certainly proved he had. A small chuckle escapes his lips as he thought back to his now dead ally, Quackity, the duck hybrid had given him the revive book, allowing him to bring his two favorite toys back to life after their deaths, both now sporting a white streak amongst their usual brown and blond hair, proudly showing off the fact that they belong to him, that they're his toys, and noone else could ever hope to claim them.

Sure, Wilbur would have protested with every inch of his being if he could hear Tubbo now, but Tommy had accepted it, embraced it even, all he has to do is give Wilbur a nudge in the right direction, and his favorite toy will fall back into place, just like he'd done during exile. And Tubbo knows exactly how to give said first nudge, who better to target than Wilbur's best friend, his emotional support, his other half, his Dream?

Tubbo digs inside of his pocket, taking out a slightly dented but otherwise beautiful and functioning compass, the words "your Wilbur" carved into it with so much care, Tubbo could insult Phantommy in a lot of different ways, but he can't help but compliment the late ghost's designing skills and steady hands. Phantommy had given the compass to Dream, giving a similar one to Wilbur, except Wilbur's was labled with "your Dream" during exile, Tubbo wanted to tear Phantommy a new one right then and there, but he knew better. Phantommy wasn't Tommy, of course the silly ghost would think Wilbur belonged to Dream, he simply made a mistake, Wilbur belonged to Tubbo, not to Dream! So when Dream, Schlatt and Ranboo were attacked by a horde of creepers Tubbo swooped in and stole the compass, giving it to its rightful owner.

"I'm going to give a short visit to everyone's least favorite president" Tubbo announces, clicking the compass shut and stuffing it back into his pocket "Tommy, i trust you can distract Wilbur and Fundy long enough for me to have a pleasant chat with Dream?" the blond nods quickly, and Tubbo affectionately rolls his eyes, Tommy knows his place as Tubbo's toy, but even Tubbo is sometimes suprised by how much Tommy wants to please his "hero". The poor boy hadn't learned a thing in Pogtopia, had he? As soon as someone more powerful comes along Tubbo would drop Tommy like a stone, but until then Tubbo could enjoy soaking in the pure wonder and awe Tommy has for him.

The blond scurries off, and Tubbo turns to Purpled, smirks and winks, which causes the purple-hoodied male to grumble in either disgust or adoration, Tubbo liked to believe it is the latter "Don't forget i left Ranboo at the alter for you!" Tubbo shouts teasingly as he runs off, laughing as he could hear Purpled make fake gagging noises, definitely disgust.

The trek from the prison to Dream's new village... what was it called again? Logsteadshire or something? wasn't long, and Tubbo cringed as the buildings came into view. Sure, the odd mish-mash of dirt, stone, wood and diamond were passable as houses, but Dream never did have the best eye for design. Tubbo was glad Dream let Schlatt, Ranboo, Fundy, Ponk and Techno do most of the rebuilding for L'manburg, Blood God knows what Tubbo would have done if that stupid country was filled with Dream's odd shacks.

He wasn't here to bash on Dream, he was here to get his armor and weapons back, most notablely his sword "Wasp's Stinger" otherwise known as one of, if not the, most powerful weapon in his land. The dry sand crunches under his feet as he walks confidently across the sand, he could see Eret's kid, Junior, peeking out of one of the holes in the second biggest dirt shack, which must mean that Dream lives in the biggest shack.

Tubbo throws the door open with reckless abandon, walking in to the space like one would walk into their own house, he knows Dream isn't home yet, a good predator waits for their prey after all. He plops down on the couch, his ram ears perking up as the couch lets out a creaking noise, he can't help but wonder if the couch is older than him.

Then he freezes as hurried footsteps thunder down the stairs. Had he been wrong? Is Dream home? Is someone else here to housesit?

"Daddy! Daddy! Look!" Tubbo relaxes as a young ocelot hybrid comes around the corner, the kid couldn't be older then three, which means there is no threat. The kid is beaming, eyes screwed shut and a large droopy smile on their face as the kid proudly holds up a drawing containing four stick figures.

"I'm not your dad, kid" Tubbo chuckles "Sorry to disappoint you" the kid gasps and their round big cat ears pin back, their green eyes wide with both curiosity and fear. Tubbo blinks, and suddenly the ocelot hybrid is gone, and in their place is a ziglin, looking at him like Tubbo was the savior of the world, back then it had felt nice to have someone depend on him, now? It fills his chest with a burning emotion he can't quite place, a mix between grief, anger, confusion and betrayal. Michael can't look at him anymore, so why is he still looking at Micheal?

"Come sit kid, i won't hurt you" Tubbo pats the seat next to him, kids tended to overshare, he was going to use the kid to get some info on Dream, that was all, he wasn't being nice because the kid reminds him of Micheal, he's just being tactical. The kid slowly shuffles over, clutching the drawing like a lifeline, once the kid decides they're close enough he stops, and Tubbo leans forewards to inspect the drawing.

For a three year old he had to give the kid props, the lines looked good and he could make out who was who. Dream and Fundy are standing close together, the kid inbetween them, Wilbur is off to the side, but just like the three in the foreground the kid had drawn him with the biggest smile.

"Who did you draw?" Tubbo asks, looking at the kid with a genuinely curious expression, the kid glows at the question, and points to each stick figure in turn "That's my papa Dre! That's my daddy Funwy! And un'le Wilby! And me!" Tubbo nods, a small smile on his face, so what if the kid reminds him of Michael, noone would get hurt if he entertains the kid for a bit, right?

"Owl?" the kid asks, poking Tubbo in the leg and Tubbo chuckles "I'm not a owl, i'm a ram" he helpfully informs the kid, who pouts in response "Owl?" the kid asks again "You want to go see Wilbur?" Tubbo asks back, knowing Wilbur's wings were often compared to those of a owl, but the kid shakes their head, grabs a book, and flips through the pages. The kid holds up the book and presses it against Tubbo's face "Owl?" Tubbo backs away a bit so he can read the words on the page, it's a classic toddlers book, going over different animal sounds, and a lightbulb turns on in Tubbo's head "Are you asking me who i am?"

The kid nods, gleeful that Tubbo finally understands "I'm Tubbo, can you try saying my name?" Tubbo crouches next to the kid, gently grabbing the kid's hand and writes each letter of his name on the kid's palm, as the kid reads them out loud "T-u-b-b-o" a second of silence "T'bbi!" the kid cries victoriously, and Tubbo just puts his arms up in celebration with the kid, not having the heart to correct them.

"T'bbi, out?" the kid asks, looking at him with the biggest puppy eyes Tubbo's ever seen, how does this kid know his one weakness? Tubbo signs but smiles, opening the door, the kid rushes out and throws themself into the sand, letting out a screech of excitement "Daddy and papa do not let me out!" the kid babbles, making sand hills with such vigor that Tubbo can't help but admire the kid.

Would Micheal be like that if he'd hadn't...? His hand twitches. It was Dream's fault. The handle of his sword felt cold against his hand. He could get revenge. He takes a step forewards, his sword hanging limply by his side, when did he take it out of the scabbard? He could make Dream feel the same pain, the same dark spiral that he went through. His eyes flicker across the kid's body, quickly finding every weak point that would ensure a quick and painless death. He wasn't heartless, he wouldn't let the kid suffer. He puts his hand on the kid's cheek, the kid leans in to the touch, leaving their neck vulnerable. He wasn't a monster like Dream, he wouldn't leave the kid to bleed out, scared and alone.

He snaps from his thoughts as he feels  something rumble beneath his hand, his ears face towards the kid, flicking whenever he could pick up on the faint sound of purring. Tubbo quickly sheaths his sword, noone deserves to go through the loss of a child, not even his greatest enemy. He lets out a sigh and pats the kid on the head, the kid purring even louder.

His ears flick backwards, and he realizes someone is approaching, probably either Fundy or Dream, and as much as he wanted to stick around and taunt the two, the ocelot kid was too young to get wrapped up in their silly game of chess. "Hey kid? I have to go" the kid whines as Tubbo pulls his hand back, short stubby arms reach out to his hand, trying to grab hold of it, but Tubbo is faster, he jumps up and silently runs to the other side of house that the approaching person is coming from. He could hear the kid yell "Daddy!" loudly, the kid's feet kick up sand as they run towards Fundy, the fox hybrid's orange hair standing out against the pale sand "XD?!" Fundy asks, worry coating his tone like Tubbo coats things he likes with honey "How did you get outside?! Is Dream here?!"

"T'bbi!" the kid answers simply, and Tubbo could almost see the fear rolling off of Fundy in waves "Y-you aren't try-ing to say Tubbo, are you?" the kid doesn't answer verbally, but from Fundy's sharp intake of breath he could tell the kid confirmed Fundy's words.

"Tubbo?! I know you're here! I'm calling Techno!" Fundy barks, and Tubbo peeks around the corner to see Fundy typing something on his communicator. With a ease that clearly shows he's done this many times before Tubbo pulls out a bow & arrow and shoots, the arrow goes straight through Fundy's communicator, breaking it, leaving Fundy with no way to call for help, and judging by Fundy's startled yip, the fox knows it. Tubbo steps out in the open, and the kid reaches towards him with a delighted cry "T'bbi!" Fundy grabs the kid's arm and pulls them close, baring his teeth at Tubbo. The ram hybrid just smiles and walks towards them, hand already on his most dangerous weapon of all, eyes unmoving from Fundy's stone-still form. Tubbo whips out his most dangerous weapon and fires, Fundy letting out a screech as he's assaulted by twin streams of thick honey. Tubbo knew repurposing those water guns into honey guns was  a genius idea, he can't believe Sam doubted him.

"What?! Why?!" Fundy groans, trying to brush the sticky liquid out of his coat, but only succeeding in smearing it out more "Because, you and me, we're friends Fundy, best friends even!" Tubbo replies, walking past Fundy like he didn't just doom the poor fox to being a bee attraction for the next week "We're not friends!" Fundy snaps back, and Tubbo turns to face him, blue-green eyes almost seeming to glow in the light of dusk

"If we weren't friends, why would you help me so much? Blowing up the community house, spying on important events, guarding Wilbur's music disc, setting off the TNT trapping Wilbur in prison. All of those things are things that you did, things i asked you to do"

#dream smp au #dream smp #dsmp au #tubbo #fundy #dreamxd #swap au

[dl4draws]

hi there!

lil' preface so i don't come off as a weirdo: i'm somewhat new to tumblr shenanigans™ so idk if it's just normal that awesome writers and artists share a bit of their progress for creating something, but you're the only blog i've witnessed doing it so you're getting this ask.

i absolutely love it here. getting to listen to (or read about?) someone's projects in the works feels like such an awesome thing! you're sharing this passion of yours with us and letting us experience this joy with you?? you're letting us see little doodles and headcanons and even a playlisy?? OMG

again, idk if that's normal on here but to me (someone who does everything on their own because who would care about my silly little craft?) this is absolute pure generosity and kindness on your part and i will never not praise that. i can't really put into words what i'm trying to say here because as much as i love the english language, it's not my first language and i just don't know how to express this properly. i guess what i want to say is thank you? thank you for all the happiness you share, thank you for letting us come on this journey with you and thank you for talking about your passion. that's a scary thing to do but whenever i see someone doing that i will 100% always sit there and listen to them talk about something they care about a lot (even if i don't understand a single thing about the topic) and try to interact and let them know that someone always cares about their thoughts and projects, even if it's just a stranger on the internet, because i know what it's like to run against a wall of indifference and i don't want anyone to feel like that.

keep talking about things that bring you joy and keep sharing them, someone's always going to support you and cheer you on and get excited with you!

this got a lot longer than i wanted it to be but my point is you're amazing and keep doing what you do, no matter how much you want to share of it or how long it takes! there's always going to be support and someone who appreciates you and your work.

idk if this should be anon or not because i don't want to seem so incredibly weird and out of place with my long stupid ask here-- this feels so uncalled for

take this virtual hug

hi hi hi good morning, I am throwing my reputation away and say I’m about to cry

Okay so I’m answering this bit by bit! I don’t think it’s that rare to see a content creator share stuff about their writing/art! At least with the people I’ve surrounded myself, there’s always sneaky posts here, reblogs with tags and stuff about their characters! It’s always so much fun to see those, see people share little details about their work is always fascinating to me! Personally I adore sharing the process because I am having Too Much fun and being extremely chaotic and I think it’s cool to share me having only half a braincell with you all lol

I’m so glad you like it here in my little corner of tumblr!!! I’m not an oversharer in any aspect of my life usually but with aus i go full beast mode and start talking and good luck shutting me up lmao as of right now I don’t really have time for full drawings (which is exactly why the hanahaki au isn’t already finished). Getting to doodle for this au has helped me with wanting to draw but not being exactly able to, and with getting stuff off my mind! I’m not very forgetful but with ideas I usually think about them, have a Good Laugh tm, proceed to think about it for half an hour and then forget about it, unless I scream about it to someone (or just make a post and announce it to you all).

One thing u might not know about me is that I make playlists for everything. If u go through my spotify playlist you’ll see many playlist, but I have so many secret ones bakshssk making a playlist for an au or for a fic (sometimes I make playlists for fics I read!)

I absolutely adore hearing about everyone’s ideas, like you said, listening to someone talk about something they’re passionate about is always so fascinating!! And it makes me so happy to see that someone trusts me enough to open their mind and share their ideas with me, even if (again like you said) I understand nothing of the topic! Honestly I am extremely thankful for you, and everyone who has ever interacted with me or my silly ideas. It hypes me up so much to see you all liking and sending me stuff about it (every time I get a random ask about something I said, or a headcanon or anything 25 years are added to my life ngl). I never thought people would enjoy my aus, be it the hanahaki one or the street racing one (or the beauty and the beast one!!!) You guys really are amazing!! And I totally get what you mean with running with a wall of indifference, I’ve been there and it’s not fun, but I’ve learned who to share with and who not to share with, and that’s okay (for me). I’m not a very good talker but I’ve been told I’m good listener, so if anyone ever has any problems, anything they’d like to talk about please never hesitate on sending me an ask or a message!! (zukka wingfic anon I’m still thinking about you)

Nooooo, please I didn’t find this weird at all!!!! I actually feel so flattered I haven’t been able to stop smiling :D it makes me so happy to see you enjoy my silly content, and that makes me want to create more of it!!!

I hope you have a wonderful day/night, and know that I’ll be thinking about this all month hakahaksb

#thank you so much for taking the time to send this #it truly makes me so very happy to see people enjoy what I do #call it doodles call it little silly hc #i haven’t been this happy in a while and it’s starting to show in my everyday life #making content for u all is making me so incredibly happy #thank you so so so much #really #batcavewitch #🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

[sanstropfremir]

second part of that long ask from ur swf anon :)

after the main dancer was chosen for each class, they would complete the choreo and decide formations for their performances. one of the benefits of the main dancer was that they were always center. they also had the benefit of wearing more embellished clothing to stand out (most noticeable in x class, where rian the main dancer was wearing orange while everyone else was wearing green). here is the full list (mnet truly has the WORST camera angles, so i only included the full cam ver of the performances):

1. assistant class: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aF2evLz98h4&ab_channel=MnetTV

2. leader class: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=srjJzRVVmxc&ab_channel=CHANNIECHANNEL

the judges shared that even though no:ze was the main dancer/in the center/had the most shiny outfit, they didn't really see her. all the other dancers, in their opinion, stood out and overpowered her.

3. sub class: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mY_3E7W8v30&ab_channel=CHANNIECHANNEL

4. x class (i'm not sure what this class was called): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fC-_8fbn_s4&ab_channel=Whatthejess

judges shared that lip j was the stand out of this class. she's the girl on the far left at 0:36. (it was originally her choreo but rian was chosen as the main dancer so that's why she is credited.)

*i only included comments that were stand outs.

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i'm not sure how much creative input the main dancers were given regarding stage design... they didn't show it in the episode so i'm assuming that mnet just told them to show up and perform (because like, the rainbow thing they shot at the end of the leader's performance seemed so random? it didn't match what they were doing). after each performance, the main dancers from each class were asked to pick someone who they thought was the worst dancer. in doing so, the person chosen would lose points for their crew.

judges also chose an mvp crew they thought were the best. prowdmon (monika + lip j + others [sorry i don't know their names. the show really only focuses on these two]) was selected and this gave them the advantage of choosing which crews went against each other in ep4. so, it wasn't a random lottery draw! in the episode, they only showed the part where prowdmon chose to go against wayb (context: no:ze, the main dancer from the leader class, chose monika as the worst dancer. and this made her mad so she was like we're going against wayb - no:ze's crew). i'm not sure why they didn't show how the other crews were paired up. because ya, coca n butter + hook is definitely an interesting match.

also like, wayb was eliminated from the show after ep4's mission.

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and it seems like from here on out, there will be a mission each episode to determine who will be eliminated. i'm honestly not too sure. for their next mission, they're doing a mega crew mission and mnet doesn't really explain it; but it seems like each crew is doing a performance on a larger scale (with more members added to their crew). also, like mnet is ass and doesn't upload all the performances onto their channel..... they only upload the ones that were the most popular/had the biggest public reaction which is why i had a hard time finding the clips for the classes mission. hopefully they do from here on out.

another v long post. thank u again for reading and sharing ur thoughts! always love hearing them. (also, pls let me know if i'm oversharing. u mentioned not caring for the competitive nature and drama so i'm not sure if i was adding too much. there really isn't drama imo. mnet tries to do their best to edit and make it seem that way but when u watch the show, the girls truly root for each other and are friends.)

mnet truly has the worst camera angles i hate them so much. also why are they still streaming on a goddamn potato. the quality is SO bad i can barely see anything!! there's a lot of me complaining in this one i'm sorry in advance.

1. assistant class

i have to assume that whoever they chose as the main dancer is the one that stays in centre because i cannot tell from the clothing at all. i don't think she was a standout performer here, but also the camera and the fire effects are WAY too wild to actually get a good grasp on who even was the standout. i also have to assume that the dancers have no say in the design because design is not a big part of street dance and this kind of chaos screams m 'too-much-money-dont-know-how-to-use-it' net. they built this massive set, barely used it, and didn't leave enough room for the proper formation spacing!! ugh. i hope the judges actually got to see a locked off version of this without all that fire in front of the camera because if i were them i would be squinting down the end of my glasses like a grandma at the screen. that's what i was doing anyways but still.

2. leader class

i have to agree, i don't think noze stood out as the main dancer here. and geniunely i cannot tell that they embellished her costume more. like damn, that stylist took a masterclass in subtlety, because i was easily paying more attention to whoever was wearing those massive thigh high cutout garter stockings and woven bodysuit combo. i am assuming that the point of these challenges was probably to be noticed the most so that they can score points and pick who they went up against for the elimination round? i'm not entirely clear but my point remains; ngl i don't really like this method of creating performance because it means that no one is there to create a performance, yanno? troupe/group choreo like this thrives on teamwork to actually make it a good performance. i know it's a pretty classic method of weeding out people for auditions and stuff like that but personally i find it a wholly uncompelling viewing experience, especially when it's a fully produced stage like this. i know everyone very likely gets along behind the scenes but the incohesion of intent is very obvious. also what's up with the assistant class getting a massive set and the leaders getting a bunch of cars and some smoke pyrotechnics? i mean, i am glad they filmed it during the day, but i am confused by the disparity.

3. sub class

i wish i could describe how poorly mnet shot this. it's not a fucking mama stage, it's a dance stage!! we need to see the choreo properly!!!! and together!!! obviously i don't care about stitching together different takes for the final edit but just...not having a continuity at all in the choreo is a bit jarring. again, i am also not sure how one is supposed to evaluate how well these dancers did, because i can barely see what people are doing. or who the main dancers are. i know i'm railing a lot on mnet here but i can't give an accurate reading of the dancers because legitimately it is so hard to tell what's going on. if they want to bill this as a legitimate dance show, why are they shooting it like a kpop performance? the camerawork for kpop serves a specific function: to add to the visual spectacle and to highlight the idols' faces. you don't need either of those things for shoot choreography, so why do we keep getting closeups of dancers' faces? not that these dance videos aren't spectacle-y or fun, because they very much are, but they really suck at their one primary function, which is displaying the choreo.

4. x class

this is definitely the one where the camera work is the closest to what it should be, but then they go and fuck it up by adding rain! just the groundwater would have been fine, but noooo they had to add the extra rain so there would be extra water drops on the lens!! this is my favourite choreo of all four of these, i think there's the most cohesion and (excluding the rain) it's got a good mix of spectacle with the water and the blacklight and the right camera angles to show the choreo mostly well. i still don't understand why they cut in those sections that don't fit with the rest of the flow though. why. you could have one-taked this and it would have looked dope as fuck. i agree that lip j stands out the most, obviously it's her choreo so it's the best suited to her character and abilities.

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if it wasn't a random lottery draw they should at least have the courtesy of showing people why who picked who!! that's the most interesting part! and i'm not that surprised about wayb being eliminated, prowdmon really stomped them into the ground with that revenge energy. i'm interested in this larger scale performances concept, because i'm not really sure what that looks like in this particular context. if they do end up on youtube i will review them! and you're not oversharing at all, the context is fine! i don't mind reading it as information, i just don't like actually watching it with my own eyes. i can't watch that kind of thing in reality tv because it makes me want to sit everyone down like a kindergarden teacher and go "ok, now why are we all yelling?". too many years of tense rehearsal conflict negotiation and i just want to whack everyone upside the head. it's not very cathartic for me lmao. i have no doubt that everyone is friends because dance scenes are small and i'm sure they've all worked together lots, but even just the editing sets off my fight or fight reflexes.

#street woman fighter #swf #swf reviews #yes i did mean fight or fight i have no flight reflex #i only know violence or advanced conflict management #go into theatre they said. costume design is fun they said #little did 18yro me know i was going to be yelling at actors for eating in costume and trying to convince directors out of stupid ideas #for 90% of my working hours #anyways swf anon i'm sorry this is mostly complaining and not really talking about the dancing #i will try to do more of that for the next episode #for a show supposedly about street dance there's not very much street dance? even the battles are kinda wonky #they dont follow the rules very well and theyre skewed waaaaayyyyyy more towards musicality/showmanship than technique #which is the opposite of how battles usually are graded. i know that it's likely because they don't have actual battle judges #(no disrespect to boa. but i don't think being a battle judge has been a career calling for her) #but its still a bit hmmm for me. i know the idols and the connection to the idol industry is probably what's bring in the views but #it is a very different industry than the street dance one #text #answers

[sundropglass]

🎤🔞

thank u for the ask, Fable <3 how are u today?

🎤 - Do you feel comfortable talking about your DID?

Depends; I feel like this space I've made here is full of trauma survivors as it is, so I'm comfortable sharing things here and supporting others. Having someone understand goes a long way.

Outside of DID spaces its not something I really want to be comfortable with talking about. I know I have parts who are prone to oversharing when they feel they've found support, or hit a certain trigger. Unfortunately I've told people things I wish I never have. I'd rather be uncomfortable then have my memory problems used against me.

Except with my fiance, I'm fine with him knowing everything he wants to ofc. Even then tho, I don't make note of every switch, unless its specific to the conversation. A couple of friends are fine to know too, and the ones I trust have never gotten weird about it or anything. Its an awkward subject to bring up anyway, so I dont think they bother asking

🔞 - What was it like growing up with DID?

Thinking about this feels weird and meta. Huh.

I was never aware of what parts were and how they went along with my chunks of memory loss. I remember constantly being confused about where I was before adapting to thinking whereverI was must be for a reason.

I never had imaginary friends I conciously made. There was only the mean, tall fairy I knowI never liked (sorry Mr. H). But I always hid under the hydrangrea bush or one of the tall pine trees to talk to him.

Later in life I was sorta aware that Dosy was a thing. In dreams she was the secret, better version of me. I thought she was just like autistic masking my mom taught me about, so before I ever left the basement, I’d make some special hand movement to ‘put on the mask’. I never questioned why my memory beyond the stairway just wasnt there, but it was this weird sorta aware, misunderstood purposeful switch.

Each ‘main’ part after Dosy was kind of the same, theyd change out every new ‘chapter of my life’ so I just never questioned it. I(Bunny) never knew life outside my room for a long time. I never noticed until I had a phone, and could start talking to people from my room. My fiance was the first to ever get to know me.

Cerberus was the only one who talked to me in my head and didnt sound intrusive like mr. H. I had a cringey time of my teenagehood where I was lonely and trying really hard to be a good christian girl. So when he started talking to me, Iiiiii thought I had a direct line of communication to Jesus in my head. I thought that what praying was like, because I had no other way to describe it. Hes not an introject, but he always took form of what comforted me the most at the time. Usually hes a big, protective wolf. Sometimes he still takes the form of one of my fiance’s OCs.

I never toldanyone about it becauseI never knew it was there. I thought my imagination was pretty good and had an assortment of ways to describe what was going on.

Everyone around me knew a ‘different me’. It was when my dad first moved in that he tried to explain what was obvious to him(his ex wife has DID and hes worked with many specialists with her). I insisted I was just an empath/autistic/masking/a little ditzy, ect. Until my trauma symptoms started showing up in my relationship with my fiance, and we started looking for answers together

So 4ish years later, here i am :v

#did ask game #bunny tag

[absurdthirst]

I thought, and am still confused about, whether I'm asexual, or generally what kind of sexual I am. Re-reading what I've wrote I feel like my sexuality is very fluid and changes through the years. TW, but I was sexually abused in childhood (had lots of therapy and I work on my ptsd and issues almost daily) and so my sexual life has been quite complicated. A few mental illnesses got in the way of me being comfortable enough to engage in sexual stuff when everyone else began doing so, but eventually I met someone and began having those experiences. There were times when I had sex because my partner wanted it (and I didn't because flashbacks and ptsd). Thankfully, that doesn't happen anymore and I've learned to talk about it, to say no, to talk about my decreased sexual interest. I'm like a dormant volcano! My depression lowered my libido. But, I recently began exercising regularly (and on meds for depression) and that has boosted my desires, but I'm still uncomfortable engaging in sexual activity with others. So, recently I have been masturbating a lot, on my own. I much prefer dealing with it on my own because 1) I know how to do it right, 2) I'm in control, on my own, and safe. But, I went through a very long time not finding people attractive, or finding them attractive but not wanting to have sex with them. Which felt like asexuality. But, when I do feel desires, I am pansexual. (Had a whole thing in my teen life of feeling ashamed for liking women bc my brother is gay.)

Reading fics has certainly helped me broaden my desires and discover new things about what I enjoy (thank u!).

I'm currently in a relationship and I love my partner. He is wonderful, supportive, understanding, really the best. He's the greatest person I've ever known and will ever know. And whilst he is handsome, funny, intelligent, and after 6 years still learning new things about him, I don't want to have sex with him. (We exclusively don't want to reproduce either.) He has accepted the fact that we don't have sex regularly at all. I do like it a lot more when we do, and it's usually very random and we are giddy idiots afterwards, but idk I think I'm just rambling here, communication is really important.

Explaining to someone you like and trust/are interested in that you aren't a very sexual being, and don't have strong sexual desires is the best advice I can give. It all depends on if you are aromantic etc. Aces deffo should have their own dating app/site bc it would make things so much easier to connect to others who understand.

For me, my sexuality is complex and confusing, and I think my trauma and mental illnesses will affect it for the rest of my life.

Remember that you are normal. I am normal. 💜

Sorry for oversharing. You make it v easy to share 😬

Who wants to develope a dating app for Aces with me?

I’m happy to have people over share. It means I’m being supportive the right way! 😉

#real talk