#and i shouldnt be proud of that but frankly its probably one of the main reasons i can function so. unhealthy coping mechanisms ftw

[the-game-spirit]

i haven't had an anxiety attack this long and awful in... awhile

i mean. im not surprised. this ones been building up for a long time. but i just.

ugh

idk

#i feel like i havent slept in two days #i cannot stop shaking and my shoulders are so tense it hurts #i am so exhausted #i literally cannot bring myself to get out of bed #honestly i can barely look at tumblr rn idk i just #cannot fucking deal #rn i just. gotta get this out sorry #then im gonna go back to alternately reading fluffy fics and trying very very hard not to exist #god #i feel wrung out #i dont wanna move but i think im gonna have to so i can help out mom and frankly im like one step away from Actually Crying which is... #pretty extreme. for me. #its almost certainly not healthy but im usually able to just... bottle this shit. im so fucking good at hiding when im about to break down #and i shouldnt be proud of that but frankly its probably one of the main reasons i can function so. unhealthy coping mechanisms ftw? #but now im so fucking tired and strung out and UGH #i feel like i just need to fucking sleep a full 8 hours and ill be better but i just. cant. #i keep waking up. let me REST #ugghhhhh #anyway bye #ignore me #im just venting #maybe itll help