#and i still cant

[shirkers2018dirsanditan]

broooooooooo im so tired of being a loserrrrrrrrr. if i had less integrity i would be milking the gifted kid shit or whatever but i’m immune to that because i am aware i was never special or exceptional. well and for other reasons

#and most people are not exceptional or whatever obviously #i guess #but my problem is that i am…again…..a major fucking loser #i could never visualize a future for myself when i was a kid not really #and i still cant #even less so now tbh

[mikadokyun]

Tbh i’m happy that Tumblr doesn’t have too many ant*s. I feel pretty peaceful posting here. There is a reason why my Twitter is locked....the twitter fandoms are just bad. They’re just bad.

#i really couldnt deal with the bs they do on Twitter tbh #And i still cant #especially with the small fandom as this is #the way how the most vocal people act is just yeah

[qrowpilled]

hate when you find a character whose so infuriatingly Your Type that its embarrassing like yeahg no one is gonna be surprised when i announce this is my new Guy Of The Month

#shush jesse #this post abt astarion #hes just so painfully on brand for me #i know so little about him though is the thing but i still feel insane #but i cant play the game and i dont want to watch anyone play it and i dont want spoilers #so like.....secondhand blorbo right now

[ifartconfetti]

Hello neurodivergent people. I was wondering if I'm just weird or it is common to not being able to learn certain motoric skills at the same time as my peers and learned them MUCH later

#poll #a friend of mine only learned to ride her bike in her 20s #i didnt manage to snap my fingers until i was like 18 #i still cant reliably whistle or swim #i was a latebloomer with almost everything that involves having to copy someones physical movement #pretty sure i was the last one to learn to tie my shoes in kindergarten #oops i forgot the option for 'nope' sorry lmao

[mamawasatesttube]

BTW... PSA.... even if we arent mutuals if youre in my notes regularly theres a Very high chance i am still fond of you. yes im vaguing someones tags on the compliment the person u rbed this from post. but like. positive vaguing? THE POINT IS im weird abt following ppl but IM STILL SENDING U FOND VIBES...

#i have to acclimate myself into following people. first i have to spend a few days to weeks checking someones blog manually #and i cant follow too many new people in the same burst or else theres TOO MUCH new unfamiliarity on my dash #and i become a small and easily frightened beast alarmed by change #also im just....................... incredibly picky kjhsdkjjkdsj sometimes ppl i generally am :)! towards do occasionally rb #from someone who i want to throw bricks at. and then i cant follow them but im still :)! when i see them in notifs #and sometimes its just that im going AAAA!!! AAAA!!! and cant put more new things on my dash #or in some cases its someone im fond of seeing/chatting w whenever we have talked BUT they simply are also into stuff im not rly into #and i dont want it on my dash despite liking them as a person. etc. you know how it is #ALL OF WHICH TO SAY................... :)! #rimi talks

[lixzwithapen]

I might be manic rn.

Can't sleep

Full of restless energy

Easily swept into a vibe

Can't stop thinking

I'm either manic or slipping into more psychotic again.

#havent slept all night #and i still cant #and im not even tired

[mackerel08]

its that time of year again

(comm me)

#413 #homestuck #john egbert #dave strider #karkat vantas #jade harley #rose lalonde #terezi pyrope #kanaya maryam #gamzee makara #calliope #dirk strider #jake english #theyre in the background but still #my art #i cant believe its been 4 years since i joined the fandom😭

[watchingwisteria]

listen there really was just something about how in the book, snow’s 3-page descent from hesitant lover boy to deluded psychopath happens entirely in his mind. lucy gray gives him no indication whatsoever that she suspects him, that she’s going to leave or betray him. he’s just sitting quietly in the cabin waiting for her to return when that seed of calculated suspicion, which he has needed to survive the capitol, takes a hold of him and chokes the life out of any goodness left inside him. it really drives home your terror as a reader that “oh my god did he kill her? did she escape? what happened to her? why would he even think that?” in a way that when the movie had to adjust for visualization it lost some of that holy shit this guy has lost it emphasis.

#seeing some discourse and im not saying lucy grey didnt know #im saying she never dropped the kind of hints that she knew like she did in the movie #or if she did snow isnt worried about them until he very suddenly is consumed by them #snow is not concerned about whether or not she believed him. of course she did! hes snow! #but then shes gone…. for a while…… #and its the sudden immediate drastic unravelling that comes across so clearly in the book #that i knew wouldn’t translate to screen yet still cant help but miss #the hunger games #coriolanus snow #tbosas #lucy gray baird #not a crime or anything just a note that i cannot stop thinking about #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #this is all from memory of reading it quite a while ago. so maybe 3 pages is an exaggeration #but i remember it happening VERY quickly and without much external cause #like we as the reader have no indication as to whether shes nearby or not. #snow has no idea either. he just SUSPECTS. and his suspicion breeds the hatred that has been bubbling inside him all this time #he hates how she undoes him. he hates that he WOULD run away with her if shed let him keep his secrets #and he HATES more than anything that she makes him WANT to tell his secrets #he wants to be vulnerable and reveal the ugly nasty parts about himself and still be loved #but he does not let himself and it is everyone’s downfall #he chooses cruelty bc it is easy and familiar and makes him feel more powerful than the vulnerable give and take that real love requires

[molabuddy]

what's your favourite colour of the sky?

#i still cant make polls :( #buddy's cool words

[curioscurio]

I'm rewatching Steven Universe and I will never forgive Fandom for what it did to her

#also watching it at age 19-20 as it was released and experiencing the resulting clusterfuck online fandom response was a wild trip #im finally rewatching it again at 25 and really really feel lucky to have seen it at the age i did #i have completely different perspective on it now that i have 3 young nephews and a neice where before i was in college #the music is still as incredible as it was back then #and the animation #i cant beleive people got honestly and truly upset and violently aggressive about characters being off model sometimes #early stevens voice though kills me after awhile...... the yelling .... but his characters growth and development also being reflected in #his voice changing as he grows up #they also go crazy hard on some scenes #who am i kidding the show was a masterpiece and ahead of its time

[mrghostrat]

it's a day for kisses

thank you so much to all who came to watch this stream!! we kissed for 6 hours together 😭💛 (if you missed it, you can watch the recording here!)

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#good omens #good omens art #gomens #aziracrow #aziraphale #crowley #aziraphale x crowley #crowley x aziraphale #rat draws #live rat reaction #still cant believe how many people came to this ;;;;;; #so many new follows and subs and we chatted the WHOLE time #i had a blasy tytytyy

[crimeronan]

like this post to receive a boop :)

#i'm bored and still taking it easy bc COVID so i cant take a walk the way i want to. #boop #eta i will not be getting to most people who like it now sorry :( #i did do about 1700 though.

[energysoda]

"You're glorifying a fictional murderer!" NO I'M NOT!!!!!!I'm sexualizing him.

#mine #shitpost #blorbo from my shows #blorbo #meow #william afton #dave miller #springtrap #jesse pinkman #dsaf dave #dsaf jack #f/o #villain #villainous men #i cant help it im gay #beetlejuice #megamind #hes never killed anyone but he still counts #breaking bad #saul goodman #he also hasnt killed anyone i dont think but hes guilty by association #idk just something about villainous men really gets to me #fnaf #purple guy #patrick bateman #american psycho #slashers #tumblr sexyman #mettaton #aaravos

[isjasz]

☀️⭐🌙👁️👑

This is the way you are supposed to play this game.

#dddaily4sherin #day 172!! #grian #smajor1995 #pearlescentmoon #itlwart #goodtimeswithscar #trafficblr #traffic smp #secret life #secret life smp #secret life spoilers #life series #my art #cw blood #i had so many thoughts about this but itll be too complicated to explain it #so ill let u guys analyze it and take it how u want💥💥💥💥 #(maybe ill change my mind and ramble about it later maybeeeeee idk BHASDAHW) #explodes. cant believe we can draw scar with all the winners now it still feels like a fucking hallucination

[just-your-average-tangerine]

The line between binary and nonbinary trans people is nowhere near as clean as some of yall think it is

#transgender #trans #nonbinary #like i guess i would be considered a 'binary' trans man #i wouldnt consider myself that for two reasons #first because the idea that gender is binary is bullshit to begin with so why would i identify within it #and second because i am a man only in that i am a gay man #i dont identify outside of manhood im terms of gender #but my gender is so linked to my sexuality that it cant be neatly tracked onto a binary view of 'man' #but because i am a man other consider me 'binary' regardless of how i feel about it #and yet will still refuse to use he/him pronouns in favor of exclusively using they/them #but thats a different discussion #op

[tubbytarchia]

so ranchers huh

#sorry Im allergic to long posts but hehe uhh I wanted to post it all at once... #rancher duo #team ranchers #trafficshipping #tangotek #jimmy solidarity #double life #double life fanart #trafficblr #they are so soft and I have way too many ideas for art of them by virtue but Im gonna stop myself there #sorry if my human anatomy is awkward anywhere eugh #not terribly confident about my human art but we go all in baby #fuck it we ball as the kids say #in the way I imagine them Tango keeps his flames at bay when around people but does still walk around with his hair casually on fire #he just cant help it when Jimmy's an affectionate dog more than an avian though you know #tubby art